The Over-holding Of Others In Our Wombs

by Kasha Rokshana

Connection with our wombs on a daily basis is so important to our health and well-being on all levels as women, especially right now.

My womb, ‘Vesica’, showed me this morning how much she has been holding… and I know she is not the only womb holding much more than she needs to.

In her, I found and felt the cries of the world; the cries of those I love that are going through a challenging time; images of what’s moving in my soul and heart lately; desires that are peaking and perking up; needs that are going unmet at times; feelings of my depth and capacity to hold and offer love to myself and others.

My heart-shaped rose quartz crystal ended up laying on her without me consciously choosing to place it there.
“I need clearing”, Vesica said to me, “I’m holding too much. I’m not designed to hold as much as I have been. You’ll feel clearer if I’m cleared and you’ll feel calmer too. I’m not designed to hold any human being beyond gestation and so I cannot hold all of the people/souls that are in me right now”.

This struck me as a deep reminder of how much we need to be aware of what we’re holding and to move energy out of our wombs… from the collective of which we are a part yet not responsible for; from the beloveds in our lives whose soul-destinies we cannot ‘know’ or control for them; from any fears that parts of us hold about our well-being and our path in our life (or death); from the Matrices (3D and 4D) that still have a foothold on our wombs and what moves into and through them and decide how they’ll be ‘used’ too.


To connect with your womb deeply can take time and much clearing. There are parts of you that are protective of her, and rightfully so, depending on what you’ve been through in this lifetime and others too. To truly connect to the stillness and beauty that IS your womb space takes a dedication and deep desire for her to be free and to arise in her essence within you.

On Sunday April 4th at 5pm BST, Jelelle Awen and I will be offering our second womb-consciousness-based women’s group mediation call, this time focused on freeing the womb from the Matrix. There’s a darkness to this shadow exploration and a depth to it too, yet it’s truly amazing what our wombs can and DO transmute when given the proper care, attention, and love. More info here: soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

Much love from my womb to yours!

Kasha ♥️

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Sacred Sexuality Exploration Of Soul, Body, AND Heart

by Kasha Rokshana

Sex has never been quite ‘simple’ for me as a highly creative soul with many Priestess/Oracle lifetimes, where sexuality was used in certain ways, often taking the ‘human woman’ out of the equation. I was a ‘late bloomer’ in this lifetime and that felt like a sacred self-protection provided by my Inner Protector and also my Gatekeeper, the aspect of my soul that guards/watches over the portals to other lifetimes alive in me, in order to keep me from gravitating towards to my sexuality’s power from too early of an age. I’m grateful to them for that, as then I didn’t need to walk out the trauma that many other courageous feminine souls have walked out.

A phase of promiscuity in my early twenties was enough to ‘run out’ something around physical body-based sexuality. It was a confusing time, where I was exploring spirituality and finding myself while also exploring my sexual expression. Parts of me ached to be seen and to feel beautiful, all the while I had other lifetimes bleeding through where sexuality was related to in a certain way, often as a portal for others to walk through to access the Divine Feminine. 

It got to a point where I was able to dissociate from my body during intercourse, even when I didn’t consciously mean to. I was detached from my sexuality/sensuality in this way, feeling almost afraid of the power in it, and becoming more and more dissatisfied in my experience of it as it expressed in this way without a bigger awareness of what was happening.

I’ve realized since then, that what I truly needed and what my woman’s heart truly wanted, I didn’t yet possess the maturity to ask for from myself and from others. What my parts/Priestess aspects truly wanted was love and beholding. They wanted to heal, not just be a ‘portal’ they knew so well how to become. This precious gift of offering healing to others needs and wants to be expressed in other ways other than physical sexuality. It now gets to express through my creativity, through my space-holding in sessions, through my ever-healing and opening heart that is but one expression of the Divine Mother in this world, and, in my collaborations and sexual explorations with my beloved.

I have experienced profound healing through sexuality with my beloved and also solo while I waited for him. I’ve now had experiences where in sexual expression of any kind, I can feel my heart open and even burst into tears as pain comes up to be held and felt. I’ve been blessed with a partnership in which we can BOTH do this and feel all that we need to feel, together and apart. I feel our deep healing love exploration together taking us to new heights and new relationships to our physical, emotional, and spiritual bodies as we go. 

Since coming back together, Aurius and I have let our sexual explorations take us wherever they need to… to the depth of some pain and to the height of feeling higher-dimensional soul aspects come through, bursting through with light language bellowing in moments and reminding us as well of ‘old-world’ rituals we are now transmuting together. 

It’s been an opportunity for heart and soul awakening on both sides. It’s been a journey for me personally to keep letting this all in with him and to feel how the Divine is forever in the mix with us… our sexuality becomes then a sacred exploration of our inner worlds and the sacred US-ness world we share in our coupleship. We’ve felt the tears in our US-ness from our separation phases and our souls’ separation from each other when we incarnated too. It’s been very emotional and it’s been very awe-inspiring and an overflow into service for both of us too. 

Amazing how when we wait for what’s right… and when we are willing to enter the vulnerability of our sexual expression, whether in literal sexuality or in creativity, alchemy, service, etc, we get to truly SEE and experience ourselves in a wholeness that connects so deeply to the Divine within and the Divine in others. It’s beautiful, worth every step and tear of the journey, and I LOVE where it takes me/us! ❤ 

Sunday’s group meditation call with Raphael and Jelelle Awen will focus on Sacred Sexuality. It’s by donation to attend live and/or receive the recording. They’ll offer some teaching and a powerful guided meditation to connect you to your own sacred sexuality exploration, however that looks/feels/is unfolding for YOU right now. More info here: soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions

Photo is of Aurius and I visiting the Yoni Stone at Ebbor Gorge ❤

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Serving Love With Women In 1:1 Sessions

by Kasha Rokshana

There are so many reasons why I love holding space for other women…

One is that I get to share my cultivated heart and soul gifts that I came into this life to share with those who are resonant and in need of the discovery and boost of their own. Another is that I get to share the gifts of my beloved soul family community and the intimacy that lives here with them and within me, supporting others to come closer to themselves and to us if/as that unfolds. And yet another is that I have the honour, privilege, and deep blessing of being able to witness and feel big souls like Saule Ilona Bukauskas (her testimonial is below) open up to their own bigness more and more through feeling and healing trauma in the heart and soul.

I get to learn from every soul I serve love with and I grow alongside them. It’s sometimes wild and untethered, yet it’s always gentle in many ways. Sessions with any one of us in SoulFullHeart are catalytic and heart-opening, even when we have to wade through a dark swamp together on our way back to love’s shores.

Sometimes I have to pinch myself that I’ve been called to serve love in this way! This testimonial from Saule touches my heart because I’ve come to know her parts along with her and her Metasoul aspects too. I’ve come to know some of her places of trauma from this life and others and watched her flourish on the other side of these dark places. I’ve watched her light shine through to hold space for her parts with a determination that I deeply recognize!

“I am so grateful for Kasha Rokshana and the entire SoulFullHeart Community for being incredible facilitators and space holders… Kasha helped me so much connect to my parts and work with them in a deeper way than I ever imagined, helping me heal traumas and old wounds in a meditative and quantum space. This process is transformative, embodied, and loving towards every aspect of you.” – Saule B, USA

If you have any questions about 1:1 sessions with me or would like to inquire about a free 45min consultation call in which we can talk about how this process/way of life may serve you, please feel free to DM me anytime or email me at kasharokshana@gmail.com

If you want to learn more about the process, we have many descriptions and writings on our website: soulfullheart.og
And you can find more about sessions here: soulfullheart.org/sessions

MUCH love to you, every part of you, and every Metasoul aspect too! ❤

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Womb Is A Portal To The Experience Of Womanhood In All Lifetimes

by Kasha Rokshana

As women, all of our lifetimes of experience of being able to BE a woman or not, in every sense of the word, lives in our wombs. There’s a powerful portal within each of our wombs that connects us to these lifetimes where we may have experienced immense power, yet at a cost. This portal can also open us up to lifetimes of remembering what it was like to be a mother, mate, sister, and daughter, who was treasured and loved… or used and abused, victimized, and maybe even held captive for being female.

Such is the mix for the feminine in her depths of healing. So deep is the legacy we each carry within us of our need to heal and offer healing to others too from the depths of our femininity that has been hijacked sometimes and honoured/revered other times.

I often connect with this beautiful egg stone (in the featured photo), which my beloveds and I call the ‘Mother Stone’ at Glastonbury Abbey, ever since landing here in Avalon when we arrived 6 months ago, and I’ve been on a profound inner journey of awakening and healing (supported also by Her) that I couldn’t have done without the energies here. I feel in so many ways like a totally different woman and even a whole new sort of Priestess now than I could have felt like or truly claimed before. And, I feel how all of this journeying has come from my womb and returns back to my womb for integration.

Our wombs hold and house our truest soul and heart bigness. To clear her and activate her, means to meet with what has left her rather congested and full of frequencies she is no longer meant to hold. So vast and deep is the feminine pain heard and felt around the world for centuries, that these cries live in her too. To truly hear, feel, and transmute this pain on behalf of women everywhere is to dive into it from within, from the chalice of our own soul’s experience and need for this healing.

Join Jelelle Awen and I on Sunday March 7th at 5pm GMT for a sacred time of teaching and meditation and deep womb connection. Jelelle led a call like this recently for those of us who are deep in the SoulFullHeart process and community and we all felt this tender connection to and feeling of each other that I know is still going in… we both fully welcome you, dear soul sister, to this next sacred circle which you can donate any amount to be a part of.

You can donate to Jelelle’s PayPal here: paypal.me/jelelleawen or visit our shop: soulfullheart.org/shop

More info on the event can be found here: http://www.soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls ❤️🌹

Love!
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Serving The Feminine, Connecting With The Inner Mother

by Kasha Rokshana

In absolute awe I am, of the depth and sacred intensity in the women I serve in sessions and the women I connect with daily in community as well. Our intensity always matches that of the passion borne inside the womb, that rumbles worlds as much as She creates them.

It’s always vulnerable to lead and be led, to hold and be held, as a feminine embodiment in this and any lifetime. The strength of our inner masculines serves to protect us and our feminine essences, as well as the parts who have felt victimized by this body, by this core of who we are as a heart and soul. Sometimes the inner ‘masculine’ is also a strong and powerful matriarch/wounded Queen/Priestess energy inside that finds it challenging to be vulnerable out of necessary self-protection. Even THIS intensity needs honouring, love, and holding; a recognition of her powerful presence while also helping her learn to feel again, as challenging as that has been for her until now.

I’ve noticed in recent sessions how this matriarch energy expresses in different ways inside of different women. Sometimes we call this the Inner Mother. In one recent session with a young woman in her mid-twenties, we felt how her Inner Mother holds frequencies of being tired and overwhelmed and also victimized by life, much like her birth mother has energized. Another young woman in her early twenties has been feeling how her Inner Mother is also an Inner Punisher who also has frequencies of a Sorceress at times.

I feel, as I serve this dynamic range in women, how much love there is available to continue holding it with an open heart and open hands too, to allow whatever needs to come up in the space to do so. These energies need and deserve to felt and heard, not diagnosed or labeled, even as mirrors are held up for them to start to see their impact on themselves and other parts, as well as relationships on the outside. This is the work of transforming the False Mother into the Sacred Feminine inside, while inviting in the Divine Mother, in whatever form and face is necessary, as the template for this process.

The deep dive inside isn’t actually possible without love and also without support of the Divine Mother, who is the ultimate model for us to feel the inner False Mother and help her heal into more of the healthy, heart-open, capable, and profoundly gifted Queen. It’s Her love that holds the space, really, for which I am but a humble vessel, supporting you to become your own. There’s really no end to this process of deepening this embodiment, no ultimate pinnacle of it, and every ounce of discovery and healing is so worth the journey of diving deep into what (and who) hasn’t felt worthy of receiving, let alone becoming, this energy of sacred feminine love within.

If you’re curious to learn more about sessions with me (I also offer free 45min intro calls if you’d like to talk with me about where we could go in sessions together), visit soulfullheart.org/sessions.

Also, Jelelle and I are hosting a women’s call, by donation on Zoom, on March 7th @ 5pm GMT to teach and lead a guided meditation around womb healing and activation. More info here: http://www.soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

Much love from sacred Avalon! ❤️🌹
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

My Heartbeat Aligns With Avalon

by Kasha Rokshana

My heart pulses in time with the heartbeat of Avalon.

The steady, activating flow of masculine.

The steady, responding flow of feminine.

Within Her arms I feel a new wholeness,

Coming together as she shows me the pieces

Still strewn about by separation trauma-drama.

I feel the whispers of Her sacred Wells

The clarion call of Her Tor

The magic of Her trees and hills and lookouts

All serving the purpose of service itself,

Planting seeds in ready hearts.

I feel the cleansing offerings She bestows upon us,

Of English roses and wild things,

Her birds, her squirrels, her surprising visitors.

All reminders of a magic preserved here, always…

All reminders of the magic of opening your heart

All reminders of the alchemy of inner discoveries

All reminders of the process that it must be to truly, deeply heal.

She awaits with tender gaze

And self-worth.

She awaits your echo to Her heart-call

The one that pings and rings in places yet unseen inside, perhaps.

She awaits the time, the space, 

When Her INvitation is heard

To return to your heart.

The one that aligns with your Divinity AND humanity,

As you open

As you surrender

As you ask for Her support.

My heart pulses in time with the heartbeat of Avalon.

And through Her, with Her, held by Her,

Is an ever-flowing love that moves into the All

Through any hearts that beat the same… 

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Divine Mother Connection Women’s Group Call w/ Jelelle Awen & Kasha Rokshana

The magical energies of Avalon (Glastonbury, UK in the physical) stir the heart’s openings and soul longings of women for the Divine Mother, hugely supported and activated by the Divine Feminine frequencies long cultivated here in these lands.

SoulFullHeart Teachers/ Facilitators/Divine Feminine bridges Jelelle Awen and Kasha Rokshana co-host this group call for women over Zoom to provide a transmission of codes from their physical location in the heart of Glastonbury/Avalon to assist you in your ongoing process of sacred feminine embodiment through connection with the Divine Mother. The focus of this group on Sunday, October 25, 2020 at 5:00pm/17:00pm GMT (London, UK timezone/1:00pm EST/10:00am PST) will be creating a bridge of connection to the Divine Mother forms and frequencies that most resonate for your soul.

We will talk about the challenge and opportunity it can be to feel Divine Mother in a supportive and intimate way that allows you to relate with Her, integrate Her with your Divine Self and your everyday life, and heal the karma trauma that may be within religious/Goddess worshipping lifetimes, in addition to healing birth mother wounding/templating. Creating a bridge from the heart of your Divine Self to the parts/soul aspects who have connection to Divine Mother allows for more activation AND more healing too.

During this call, we will guide you in a meditative space into a healing sisterhood circle with all the souls on the call and with energies of the sisterhood of Avalon and different forms of the Divine Mother. You will also connect with the part of you/soul aspect that comes through to receive these loving energies. We will also tap into and transmit from the powerful Mary ley line/energy flow that runs through the house where we are staying, the Tor, the Abbey & Mother Stone, and other sacred sites here in Glastonbury.

You can receive these Divine Feminine frequencies live with us (highly recommended) or take in the recording afterwards. If you attend the live group, you’ll have the opportunity to share with us about what you experienced during the meditation and receive feedback/next steps of integration from us.
This women’s group is open to the public and to all women over 18. You can attend the group and/or receive the recording for an energy exchange of whatever donation you feel to give. You can purchase the Zoom link to join us live for the group and receive the recording through your email at soulfullheart.org/shop

Or you can purchase it here through paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawen and we will send you the zoom link via email. Please make a note that you are purchasing the October 25th women’s group and check that your email is current.

Group will last a max of two hours depending on those that want to share their experiences and ask questions. This is a series that has several calls from the past, although you do not need to listen to all of them to receive benefits from this one. You can purchase the recording of the other women’s groups call and group call transmissions/group call series with Raphael and Jelelle here: https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop

Here is a timezone converter (call is at 5:00pm GMT London, England time): https://www.timeanddate.com/worldclock/converter.html

Contact us here on FB or at soulfullhearts@gmail.com for more information. More information at soulfullheart.org.

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Testimonials from previous women’s calls –
“Deepest gratitude for the gifts shared in our Women’s Call today! This call is now part of a growing experience of togetherness and sisterhood – TO BE TAKEN IN MANY TIMES, ANYTIME. If you did not have a chance to participate, I would strongly recommend that you take in the recording – As all that we experience, the energy of this one is alive! Incredibly rich to all my parts! Much gratitude for the beautiful shift that it allowed for me today! Namaste!” Isabela Gasparini, group participant
“I feel so much gratitude and Love. These calls are so healing and revealing so much as is this whole process. So glad I am here. I wanted to express deep appreciation for the shares too”. Deya, Group participant
“Such a wonderful call and I feel so grateful to have finally been able to attend one of these women’s calls! The meditation and teaching was so moving and epic, each face of mother feeling so important for each aspect of me and my life. The sharings were beautiful and vulnerable as well, so real in what was true for each person’s process. Can’t wait for the next one!” Raianna Shai, Group participant

Remembering The Soft Feminine

by Kasha Rokshana

As soon as my feet are bare, my dancer comes out.

And they were bare on this day, in this place, because of stepping into a healing pool of precious waters. The sensations of which returned to me even more soul memories to integrate into my heart. And so the dancer energy coming forward reminded me of a gentle femininity that lives deep inside, that invites instead of tugs. That dances for herself in self-love first of all and can pull others in to join her when it’s time, when they’re ready, when she feels ready to embrace that sort of partnership, mateship, friendship that requires vulnerability in exchange with another.

Avalon’s legacies are sometimes used to bypass… to exit instead of enter. These feminine energies are misread, misused, taken over.

When you choose to enter Her sacred womb, Her healing waters, the embrace of Her sacred trees, you find yourself feeling more than ever before as your own femininity arises into deeper healing possibilities. This can feel scary and unknown in moments. Yet held in Her embrace you are, always…

Incredible journey. 🦋

This sense of the deep feminine is one that all are invited to feel into inside of themselves… all that it powerfully pushes up to feel and be with is important. When the need for ferocity alone is complete, you’ll feel the balm arise from within. To me, this is what makes the shadows worth visiting and getting to know, even when the edges are sharp and the cost seems great.

Much love to you and your own (re)discovery of your inner feminine, whether man or woman… ❤️

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Serving women in 1:1 sessions is a deep passion of mine. This process of healing the feminine within and experiencing her full range of expression is so profound and endless! For more info on what my beloveds and I offer in session space, visit soulfullheart.org/sessions 🕊

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Kasha Rokshana is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about FREE consultation calls, space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

 

‘Sacred Sisterhood’ Is Emerging More As Part Of ‘New/5D Earth’ Transition

by Kalayna Solais

I wrote down some feelings of Sacred Sisterhood a few months ago when a new wave of ‘sacred sisters’ was just emerging onto my shores, in my heart and soul field, and in the flesh no less! This was not just about my growing INNER sisterhood, though that is always deepening and being felt more and more… this was about feeling the resonance of other women around my age and beyond that too, feeling us coming together more in realness, uniqueness, yet also a desire to heal and be healed and not leave any part of us or Metasoul aspect behind in the process.

I’m feeling something today about women learning to actually see each other and love each other deeply and how this seems to be happening within my beloved SoulFullHeart community and possibly elsewhere too. There is something to be said for the ‘restriction’ of not being able to go outward and do many outward things right now and feeling, then, the new portals to going inward – going YINward – that I feel is helping us all go to our next levels of feeling why we’ve had a hard time holding deeper friendships and being with other women as women. We’ve been invited to continue the journey of looking within and seeing each other as sacred mirrors of the continued inner work. We’ve been invited to feel the triggers yet actually find some stillness around them too, feeling the parts and Metasoul aspects in other timelines where they could be coming from, which then leads to a more open heart towards each other.

I hear women claiming ‘realness’ when they’re being harsh and even abusive, fusing to their Inner Punishers or other energies in their soul timelines and lashing out as a way to off-gas what actually isn’t about the other person at all. I hear women claim ‘Well, I am just direct and blunt’ when I can’t feel how this directness has heart or care in it for the other person. When I hear words like these, I can feel their Inner Matriarch who is in pain about never being met with actual realness, vulnerability, and care themselves and quite often they’ve also taken in these abusive frequencies, even from the maternal line in their birth families. Underneath this is often a pain of being the biggest soul in the room, who hasn’t ever felt truly initiated into their soul gifts or deeply seen for them either. It’s also an energy that covers over the more vulnerable energies and parts inside that just want to love and want the battles to be over so they can play and connect more with others, like with the Inner Child or even the Teenager once she has finally had some air.

In my deepening relationships with women in my life who have been very consciously working and feeling all this and more within themselves, what becomes new is the way in which it can all be shared… all the nuances of feelings and reactions. These parts don’t have to be any less ‘real’ or even more vulnerable and open than they’re ready for yet, yet they do get to be held now and seen in a new way, acknowledging that these energies they hold that often feel competitive and push away at the deeper love and intimacy that’s possible are NOT their whole story or all that they have within them.

I’ve been so pleasantly surprised (and not!) to feel how much deeper my relationships with these other women can go once we have done the work to be able to hold realness, feel reactions, share them, and also acknowledge the impact of this in every moment. The result of these exchanges is more love, not less, that gets to be shared; more seeing of each other and each other’s uniqueness and gifts; more compassion than was transactable between us before, for now we know more about each other’s backgrounds, stories, and ongoing processes.

This, to me, is a sacred template emerging for Sacred Sisterhood. It’s always in exploration. There are no rules and sometimes messes are made. Abuse is a thing of the past, though sometimes exchanges are intense if necessary. There’s a personal sense of accountability for your own energies and process and there’s a desire to be transparent and deepen the intimacy ground.

This all feels to me like the new ground going forward that’s possible in ALL relationships of all kinds if the time and space are taken to go inward, to lean into work such as this, to dig into those deeper wounds and find gold, and to begin, ultimately, to seed the ground of what New Earth/Golden Earth/5D Earth relationships get to look and feel like! There can only be BLISS as this moves and deepens our healing and the yield of 5D Earth/Sacred Human consciousness within you and in your relationships makes it all worth it. The practice ground for this is always within, yet when these sacred friendships emerge on your radar, this is a chance to really apply all you’ve realized and seek out all you’ve most wanted to experience but were afraid to ask for with another.

Much love!

Kalayna ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

 

 

The Process Of Healing ‘Sisterhood’ Inside and Out

by Kalayna Solais

Letting in REAL sisterhood… the kind where you aren’t calling each other ‘sister’ because of blood or because somehow spirituality has told you that you ‘should’ in order to honour oneness and acknowledge, even just on the surface, our equality.

Real sisterhood is about calling each other ‘sister’ from the depths of our healing hearts as women. It becomes a declaration of love coming from the sisterhood inside, healing between parts within us who have been against each other for different reasons, and making space for this same frequency and depth of healing to happen between souls we are connected to on the outside.

This is new. This isn’t a process for which the depths of it have really been acknowledged. It’s challenging to look at how deep and often unconscious the competitiveness, comparison, and fear of each other lives and breathes within each of us as women. Simply starting to call each other ‘sister’ only reaches so deep. It so easily becomes a label without a heartbeat and without genuine care about each other.

To care about each other as sisters in soul and heart requires an awful lot of letting ourselves in, of feeling how and why it’s been hard to have deep intimacy with other women both in this life and in other lifetimes too and the karmic binds alive in them. It’s easy enough to let parts of us claim that this is a result of our conditioning and the messages in the media alone… yet, when we bring this inward, we can feel how yes, the outside influences have been there for a very long time, yet where the looping of this conditioning can finally close and heal is on the inside and this is where those lifetimes of persecution and pain can finally heal too.

Since the latest women’s call last weekend and for a few weeks beforehand, I’ve been letting in resonant relationships with other young women around my age who are doing the same SoulFullHeart process work that I’ve been doing for years now. We are taking the space to connect together, sometimes for several hours at a time over video call since we don’t live in the same country at the moment and can’t connect in person. We update each other on our personal processes and feel them together while we also clear anything that needs to be felt and cleared between us, feeling our hearts in the space and the desire to become closer. We feel our soul resonance and soul sisterhood on a deep level wanting to become more of a felt reality between us. This is not something I’ve experienced very often, especially with women my age, and that’s been so painful that parts of me in the past have shut down the desire for it altogether.

This is all an expansion of what I’ve experienced moving in me for years now with Raianna and Jelelle as part of this process too… but to be experiencing this with young women in my actual ‘peer’ group is a whole other thing, not surprisingly!

There are moments of caution that arise in these connections. On my side, I feel where this comes from is how often parts of me have felt ignored or unwanted by other women. The social pain of this continues to be flushed out, as even this morning I felt with a part of me that I’m calling my ‘Inner Sister’, how foreign it feels to really be ‘seen’ in my gifts by women my age and to SEE them in theirs too without feeling jealousy or defensiveness first. There are concerns for this part of me that we are/she is the ‘problem’, always, in every connection that goes sideways or when painful reflections are sometimes offered about how we’ve impacted others when connecting with them. Feeling shame takes over for feeling compassion for where the other person is coming from. This is all so much about intimacy though, and having a deep and real connection with other women needs to just feel strange and foreign and unknown until it becomes the new normal to be in these sort of ‘catalytic’ (not ‘catty’) relationships that get to expand the healing and growth on both sides. And, ultimately, the feelings of shame and being ‘the problem’ live inside of me between parts of me and this is the only place where these reactions and projections can fully heal.

We truly cannot place expectations on other women around us to become ‘sisters’ in a deep way without acknowledging the work that needs to be done within and between each other. This process though is so worth every moment of tension and expansion, because it IS what seeds the ‘reLOVEution’ we’ve been wanting to experience in how we relate to and treat one another, especially as feminine energies who are all here to be in our bigger soul purpose work and Divine Feminine LOVE ambassadorship!

Much love,

Kalayna

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.