By Jelelle Awen
There is a lot to digest from the energies coming out of the intense energy portal that we just experienced from 5/5 to the recent Lion’s Gate portal. These energies were offering next level codes and tastes/experiences of our 5D and higher selves and higher timeline. They also provided illumination and revelation of anchors to 3D and plugs into the Lower 4D karmic matrix.
Anchors to 3D are being tugged on and invited to dislodge now in an ever accelerating way. This can be very painful and challenging, especially when they express in long-term relationships from this life with roots of karmic soul binds in other lifetimes/timelines too. It can be overly simplifying and invalidating to just offer to ‘let go’ of the relationships and ‘move on’. The parts of you that are deeply attached and bonded to the relationship feel this as judgement, as harsh, as not sensitive to their commitment, not feeling the fear that lies underneath the attachment.
The entanglements in long-term relationships of all kinds can feel SO deep. Like layers and layers of stickiness that may feel difficult to even identify one strata from another. There can be a multitude of binds AND bonds formed from so many moments spent together in an agreement of shrinking, conforming, grasping, and….very often….abusing. The abuse can range from subtle to overt, yet any time love is withheld, there is some frequency of violence transacting instead….there is fear transacting instead of love.
This legacy of entanglement was passed down to you from 3D conditioning. You inherited this from your parents and their relationship with each other and other people too. Whether based in disconnect or outright conflict or brother-sister flatness or passive aggressive somewhere in between, your parent’s relationship most likely didn’t form from an authentic, consistent, and rich ground of self love and love for each other.
Their relationship (as the vast majority) most likely formed from undigested wounds and traumas, from safety and comforts, from Metasoul karmic playouts, and from the dysfunctional legacy about relationships that they received from THEIR parents too. This is a legacy of scared unions rather than sacred ones.
Parts of you so completely take in this templating of polarizing energy in relationship. Parts of you receive it and take in it in order to survive here. They take it in to provide protection for your vulnerable and innocent Inner Child. Your masculine learns how to be so from your father’s modeling….your feminine from your mother. Some of this templating is consciously rejected, some of it is consciously emulated. And, so much of their templating impacts you and then forms into cohesive personalities that may be unconscious to you even to this day, yet are often hugely interfacing in your current relationships.
Making conscious HOW relationship was modeled for you and how it then LIVES in parts of you can be very illuminating. Very liberating. Rather than the focus outward on your partners or on blaming your parents or on other people……you can pull your focus and your love inward. You can feel and learn about your Inner Teenager/Child, etc. and how they feel, how they hurt, how they express in magical tones. You can meet your Inner Mother/Feminine and feel how she operates and reacts to life situations.
You can connect with your Inner Father/Protector/Punisher, etc. and discover how he expresses in your life. You can come to understand how they relate with each other too and transform the scared unions inside you into sacred ones. You can embrace these energies inside of you with total love in your heart and MUCH compassion.
As you BEcome this loving energy toward the inner relationships within you, you can THEN draw less polarized relationships with those outside of you. You can remember then that the clashes and thrashes….the codependencies and attachments…..the struggles and conflicts…….originate always from within…..from one part of you to another.
The hooks to go ‘back in’ to toxic or mostly abusive or fear-based relationships is about what remains unhealed INSIDE of you that resonants still at these frequencies. The draw to stay in relationships that you are shrinking to fit in and are mostly 3D-based (with little to no soul resonance) is often about a conforming that is going on between one part of you and another (usually the Inner Punisher and the Inner Teenager.) It can also be about Metasoul aspects from other lifetimes/timelines who are caught up in traumas and dramas with very strong and influential energies.
The questions about relationships of all kinds can be the most troubling and confusing for people, leading to much suffering. It is probably the number one thing that people ask help and support for in sessions. This is mostly because parts of them get caught up in it being OUTSIDE of them and then feel disempowered and out of control (exactly what the Inner Child/Teenager feels in the parental relationship.) Also, this is so being pushed up by these recent Ascension energies and the awakening process, which invites you to move from fear-based relationships into love-based ones.
To bring the focus and attention to your inner relationships brings clarity, calm, purpose, AND empowerment. It brings in self love and healthy self management that then leads to advocacy and clear boundary setting with others as well. This is where your power IS as you experience increasingly self loving and nourishing relationships from within!
Here is a guided meditation to connect to the relationship between your Inner Masculine and Inner Feminine, an interesting place to explore! https://youtu.be/nPVo1iZTYng
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Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions with her and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.