by Kasha Rokshana
Deep beneath the Matrix-fuelled busyness, expenses, and stresses of the ‘holiday season’, lay the pure energies of this time of year; un-hijacked and sprouting up from underneath what feels like frozen ground at times. These energies can be difficult to access, as this ground is the rather hardened layer of social/familial obligations that no longer arise for you in joy, but arise instead in tension and frustration.
It’s a confusing time of year in that way, isn’t it? So many inner buttons are being pressed, some of which you can track and others which you can’t because they have so long simply been ‘tolerated’ or buried. The parts of you that want to scream, others that want to cry, and still others who want to be numb, are all being pushed on and perhaps this year, with the intensity of our different realities and consciousnesses surfacing in ways that can’t be ignored or put aside any longer, it’s all feeling much, much worse.
Yet, there’s also the purity of the inner child’s joy that feels the Christ/Magdalene frequencies of this time and wants to jump into that love pool more than anything. There’s the deep love of the Divine that lives in your soul, and the desire to align ever-deeper with that love, to truly live from it, that also can become inspired to surface this time of year, when the ‘permission’ to be more joyful can come through and reach you, however it can.
My own inner child (who has a Christmas Elf side!) has had a mixed experience of Christmas and the holidays, even in her enthusiasm for them. This time of year has been more challenging for her and many other energies within me too as things keep ramping up in the outer world and it’s all just so sad and hard to feel. It’s also been challenging as this year my personal income has been tighter and thus I can’t shower my beloveds with many bought gifts. This has been surprisingly hard as gift-giving has been a deep love language for parts of me, yet it’s been of course a huge out-breath to remember that with my beloveds and my mate, Gabriel, physical gifts have only ever been one small way to show our love for each other and generosity towards each other too.
So while the physical gifts have had to be let go of in some ways this year (though not totally), I actually feel the deeper gift of our shared resonance and love flow which have been so much more nourishing and fulfilling than any ‘bought gift’ could possibly be… also, I feel how much I’m letting in that the man I’ve had many rounds of relationship with and who I’m in love with yet again though now in an even deeper way, is at my side. If I could give this gift to everyone in the world… that would be more satisfying than buying anything at all.
Of all the many messages we can receive this Solstice and holiday season, perhaps the most consistent one is the invitation to ‘come as you are’ as you reach inside of you and move your heart and soul back into the room of your own innate Divine connection, for its never about adornments, baubles or tokens, but always about love flow and choosing love over anything else. This is what I think of when I hear the song ‘Little Drummer Boy’’, for he had no ‘gifts’ to bring, but he brought his song, played on his precious drum, and somehow that brought him closer in frequency to the Divine child before (and within) him. He expressed his love, honoured his resonance, and showed up in the only way he knew how. How precious this invitation is for us all!
Sending you lots of love this Solstice and holiday season. May Divine love surround and move through you, even in ways that surprise you!
Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.