You are Not Alone: Message From Your Soul & Star Family W/Jelelle Awen

During the hardest hours,

The deepest densities,

The most difficult moments….

THIS is when we will MOST be there for you.

Awakening you to your bigness,

and your capacity for love.

Answering the doubting questions

from parts of you that have

such strong fear and resistance.

When you feel like you have failed,

made mistakes, allowed and even done harm,

cannot ever be forgiven…

we will remind you that

you are succeeding in your mission,

are learning valuable lessons,

AND are already forgiven.

During the hardest struggles,

the darkest nights,

the most painful moments,

we will help you remember that

you have so bravely chosen

to seed the light into

the deepest of shadow lifetime after lifetime.

When you feel most alone,

in the void of social space

between 3D and 5D,

losing relationships,

setting boundaries, bringing your truth…..

we are here to BE with you

and support you unconditionally.

Reach out to us as your soul family,

as your safe haven,

as your tribe

and we will respond immediately.

Return to us and

you will find home here

with us and with the Divine

Always….

We Love You,

Your Divine Soul & Star Family w/Jelelle Awen

More information about 1:1 sessions, group call events, online community portal, books/writings at soulfullheart.org.

The Gift Of Choosing YOU On Christmas Day

by Kasha Rokshana

Last Christmas, I spent the day ‘alone’. It was my first Christmas Day ever in which I was not a part of a family or community. I was separated from my SoulFullHeart soul family, in a very necessary Dark Night phase of going inward, learning to hold myself and my parts/Metasoul aspects in a whole NEW and much deeper way. I also had many NEW awakening experiences around just how beloved I was to the Divine and how much my soul loves and trusts the Divine in return… even when being invited to go through something so challenging on all levels.

It wasn’t that I didn’t have invitations to be with anyone else that day… I had colleagues invite me to things from the different jobs I had. Yet, even in the love flow I had with them, I knew I needed the day to myself. I knew I needed to be in my own company, to ache and bake and claim what I really wanted to experience in soul community within and outside of me. I knew this would be challenging for my parts, especially the young ones, yet it was something I had to show up for as a sacred mama to them. 

I knew I needed to keep feeling who and how I wanted to BE in order to draw it to me. And, I knew that this desire to change and heal on a deeper level than ever before had to be genuine in order for it to happen and in order for me to draw the soul and heart connections I knew I needed and wanted. It wasn’t long after that, that I reunited with my SoulFullHeart family and the reconciliation began. 

Now, this year, so many dreams of mine have come true… I’m living in Avalon, a heart and soul home that I’ve longed to come to for many years; I’m with my community of beloveds and we’re deepening our relationship together in countless ways, and I’m living into my soul purpose embodiment of Divine Mother in my own unique frequency in a more solid and expanded way. Also, our little community has been expanding with more soul family draw while here in England and that is HUGE to feel and let in!

This has ALL been quite a lot to show up for continually in 2020. It’s been a lot to be with the goodness of it all too while the world continues to move through its own Dark Night experience. It’s been a year of many invitations into profound inner shifts and processes while so much in the outer world burns… 

If you are a soul who isn’t currently connected to soul family, who has chosen like I did last year to be alone and be in your own sacred ‘cave’ time of inner initiations and being held by life through them, know that there’s a light at the end of the inner tunnel…. and that this light can only be lit by you with the support of your Divine Self and your own authentic connection to the Divine Mother/Father. Going inward while continually opening your heart outward is a challenge yet it’s one worth being with every step of the way. 

You are loved and held in your sacred loneliness and also in the fears that arise in parts of you toward really being with that or even opening their hearts to others on the outside again. 

Christ/Magdalene Consciousness is here, has always been here, and is waiting to birth through you in perfectly imperfect ways…

Merry Christ-Consciousness-mas ❤ 

Love,

Kasha 

***

Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

We Are Scattered, Yet Reuniting… And Never Really Separate

by Kasha Rokshana

We are seeds that were scattered and sown.

We are leaves blown off the branches of the sacred Soul Family tree.

We feel cast-off at times and parts of us claw at the ground beneath them, trying to return to what they’ve forgotten but know they long for deep inside.

Reunion.

It was a deep and brave soul choice to come here, to experience being scattered, to let go as we let in, to let it be when we don’t come together as deep and resonant soul family just yet, yet to be in the alchemical ache of that experience.

I do get the sense that with all of the truths of the ‘ugly’ coming up now, there’s a beauty inside the beast. There’s a reunion in the humility and vulnerability that is waiting in the wings.

For now, we are still a bit scattered, tattered, torn… weather-worn from experiences and changing inner seasons. Yet, coming back together we are, first inside, then outside.

This is the power and depth of inner work, why it’s important. It’s a reunion inside so we can experience it on the outside and be ready to let it in.

Healing of separation is not only coming, but already here.

We have only to keep saying ‘yes’ to the journey, to keep moving into it rather than letting the fears lead that would rather we move out of it…

I’m in this for the long haul.

For a sacred humanity within and outside of me that I cannot give up on, won’t give up on, and know in my heart it’s finding its way.

Reunion is inevitable! Yet the timing, the path, the process of landing this reality onto Gaia’s plane, is both up to us and not. And no matter how ‘long’ it takes, the journey is so worth it.

***

Kasha Rokshana is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Gift Of Humility And Gratitude

Yesterday was the first time I had been in a SoulFullHeart group space for a few months. While in one way it felt like yesterday, it was also a huge gap for parts of me that have been in deep feeling space and processing over that time. This is such evidence of how we live on many different dimensions at once and time is just does not have a standard trajectory, nor is real in many ways.

My movement with my masculine and reptilian self two days prior really felt to pave the way for this reunion. I could feel some nervousness and doubts from parts of me that I would be at that frequency to be able to vibe into the coherence. This of course is one big projection of my own lack of worth that I have been working on since I parted in January.

However, through the process that I had, I felt a clearing inside of me that ‘moulted’ away the layer that was holding this reaction and energy. I could feel myself more in the space as Gabriel, the being that really never left yet has come back with a new relationship to himself and the world around him. That difference, I noticed last night, was that of authentic humility and gratitude.

These two emotional grounds are the result of the self-love and deep, wounded ego healing that I went through while I was away. I could feel a reverence of the space, the beloveds in front of me, but more importantly the reverence and care for myself that had been cultivated during this time. I felt my parts being held by me and leaning into the goodness that was alive in the space. There was no self-judgement or comparison going on that seemed to run underground in the past.

I felt who I was and where I was in the ‘order’ of things and felt so very present to the goodness of that. Not trying to be anything I wasn’t. This is all that has ever been asked of me, yet I hadn’t asked of it from myself. This time I have and it felt palpably different. I have to owe all of that shift to parts work and my own dedication to it. Even if things were to shift at some point and I find myself on my own again, I have a me that can’t leave me. I would go through grief, for sure, but I would not perish or suffer.

It is with this humility and gratitude that I can ride the waves of what the universe bestows upon me whether it be as a collaborator, a support system, a facilitator, or all three! I know this is where I belong in whatever fashion. This is my family, my community, and my way of life. And for that it was all worth it.

*****

Gabriel Heartman is a Facilitant and Collaborator with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Honouring Your Own Unique And Very Personal Journey Of Ascension

By Kalayna Solais

Feeling behind. Feeling as if we are risking being ‘left behind’ if we aren’t able to tune into what everyone else that shares awareness of Ascension is tuning into and feeling personally. Fearing that we aren’t going to be enough to ‘ascend’ or to be ‘chosen’ TO ascend, perhaps.

These are feelings that I think so many of us can resonate with on some level. These fears feel existential and like they live in our Metasoul aspects in other timelines who HAVE been ‘left behind’ by others and on a deeper level still, there’s more to feel about ‘abandonment’ by the Divine too… maybe also in this life parts of you have trauma from the ‘competition’ conditioning, from growing up in a culture where you are always striving to be THE best, not YOUR best or even just where you are at and having that be ok. There are so many layers to this and for me, I’m still discovering many of them personally and how deep they go.

I’m a part of a highly catalytic process and soul family community that we always say is on a ‘moving conveyor’. The more work you do within you, the more your outer world changes and the more shifts you feel invited to take of your own volition too. The more parts of you that you feel in their traumas and begin to have a relationship with, the more you realize the changes you need to make in your life in ALL areas of your life.

This means that at any time, one of us could decide unilaterally that there is something we need to address, move on from or move toward, and that could be a big thing or a small thing. There are always next and next and next steps too as the inner awakening and openings deepen. There are new discoveries and new strata of consciousness that begin to open up and out. New relationships are drawn. New alchemy on all levels. All of these are sacred journey markers that are very individual and a result of the individual journey. It look and feel like pure ‘magic’ and it really is, but it’s also worked very hard for.

When you have conditioning in your soul’s timelines and the heart of your parts from this lifetime that there is something always to envy in others for the sake of feeling badly or ‘not good enough’ inside of yourself, this isn’t that easy to digest all the time. Jealousy can be kicked up. A feeling that you must be lacking something or have something ‘wrong with you’ if you aren’t experiencing what they are experiencing. This is one of the major reasons why I needed the break I did…. so that this comparison dance and suffering loop could be deeply felt into by me, so that I could arise for myself with more respect and self-love. This could only happen if I got big enough for my most intense and self-punishing parts/aspects to lean into me. This was the crux of my process at times in relationship to the lives of others around me too… feeling parts of me envying their skills (that they’ve worked hard for), their fitness level, their relationships, etc. This has gone on and on for me for as long as I can remember… and only now is this starting to shift into new ground.

Why is it SO hard to just BE with our own journey? Why do we look to others for templating but then resent them for it at times?

These questions feel complicated and like the answers lie within every individual. I think it’s so hard to remember that we are ultimately here to experience Ascension in a PERSONAL way, though we are returning to oneness too. I’m discovering, especially as I feel a relationship beginning with a Reptilian aspect of me, just how deep this ‘programming’ of avoiding the individuation process of our healing and Ascension actually goes and why it can feel a bit scary.

I had a yoga teacher once, many years ago now, who offered something during class that made us all laugh but it was actually quite poignant. She was showing us the many stages of one particular posture. When she got to the most advanced one, she said,

“See? There’s NOTHING there! There’s no need to rush yourself into this ‘advanced’ place when you have so much to discover along the way”.

That really impacted me at that time and it remains with me today because I think I was supposed to take that in deeply for my own ongoing experience of spirituality and of life itself… it really IS about the journey and not the destination. Ascension is a journey. ‘5D’ is not really a destination so much as an invitation into a new frequency in which to anchor our consciousness as much and as often as we can. Every individual’s soul expression and attainments are their own, often worked for over multiple lifetime experiences and deep inner work too. There’s nothing left to ‘envy’ if we can see it this way… but there could be a lot to be inspired by!

Plus, our own journeys, when we have the space within to honour them, are proof positive of our own inner work and also the growth and healing phases that we personally need that are a reflection of our bigness in order to be with them. Maybe there is no ‘ultimate destination’ but in fact, it all keeps deepening and expanding from here. This is such a humble way to look at and hold ourselves and this whole Ascension process on a collective level too.

I wanted to share this bit about my own journey and discoveries as an expression of my own uniqueness that I’m learning to embrace more and more. I hope that it helps you feel more love and respect for your own too… for the journey you’re on as YOU.

Much love! ❤

Kalayna


Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Coming ‘Home’: My Journey Away From And Back Again To Soul Family

by Kalayna Solais

I feel like I’ve arrived back ‘home’…

And in many ways, I have!

I have been on a journey inward for the last three months. I collapsed my relationship to my beloveds here in SoulFullHeart, my ‘title’ as a Facilitator/teacher of this way of life and process, and even my ‘role’ as a wife on a deeper level. I have been returning to myself. Returning ‘home’ to me so that I could feel what I truly wanted in my soul and what I was working, healing, and birthing on that level and beyond.

For me, this separation phase was never about completely severing everything that has made me ‘me’… this SoulFullHeart process has been the one thing that has ever worked for me, reaching deep into the heart and soul of my wounds and my gifts too. In fact, it was this process that held the steps into separation and the bigger context of it and held all of us through everything that came out of it and is still unfolding too.

Letting go of these souls that I have so much ‘history’ with on a heart and soul level has been one of the hardest things for me to do. What was so interesting to me though, were the many moments of dawning realizations, not just of what had to collapse between us and why in both this life and other lifetimes, but also of these newly arising senses of how to serve myself in my own unfolding process and how this was the only way to find connection with my beloveds again if that was to arise someday. This allowed me to feel so much surrender to every moment of sadness, anger, despair, joy, and connection both inner and outer and allowed me to allow in the Divine, Star Family, parts of me, and aspects of my Metasoul in other lifetimes too.

I found ways to feel my heart again, even though it was breaking. I found openings within me on the other side of many tears and sometimes rather feverish journaling and deep meditation experiences that allowed me to feel deeply loved and held by an energy both bigger than me and as big as me too. I could feel my beloveds actually living inside of me, where they would always live, no matter what happened next.

And, I trusted. Oh, how I trusted… I trusted every time I felt like trying to be social was a stretch for my parts that day and stayed home instead. I trusted every journal entry, every time I felt like I wasn’t getting anywhere, every time I was reminded to be gentle with myself because parts of me were getting too caught up in accomplishing or ‘getting over this’ already and couldn’t be gentle with themselves or each other. I trusted every feeling of being in a heavy downward shame spiral, knowing that if I could just hold it and be with it, I would find the other side of it. And sure enough, there were my guides in the form of beloved Metasoul and Divine connections, calling out to me, reminding me to lift UP and hold it all with my bigness and heart capacity, not go down with it. I realized over and over again how humbling this is to do and how no one can teach you how to do this, it has to come from your own experience.

I’m still digesting the goodness that I’ve earned now…that is really about earning the expanded capacity to transact goodness and love with others, not the goodness itself so much. I had goodness even in the separation. I just have it again in these precious relationships with those that know me better than anyone ever has and who I am getting to know and fall in LOVE with all over again.

My heart is full, happy and humbled to be ‘back’… to be in sessions again as a Facilitant and perhaps eventually a Facilitator when it’s another phase of that for me. I highly recommend meeting with Raphael or Jelelle for a session, at least one, to get a taste for yourself of what I’m sharing here. This process has a deep impact that can’t be forgotten, even if you only dive into it for a while. More information here about sessions: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Much love to you, from the heart of my journey to the heart of yours!

~ Kalayna

***

Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Celebrating Thanks-Giving In Resonant Energies

By Jelelle Awen
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A thanks-giving to remember, to savor, and to still be letting in today. We gathered together to celebrate Canadian Thanksgiving yesterday….really just another reason to connect with each other when we’ve all been pretty full with serving, jobs, life, etc recently. Raianna’s boyfriend Nic joined us, adding to the love vibe, and helping us ‘see’ the blessings of our community and the closeness we share the five of us that we are able to experience with more and more souls lately.
 
We enjoyed a fully vegan, gluten free, sugar free meal made with lots of love….allowing for easier digestion and nourishment! Rather than the often usual birth family angst that happens on major holidays, there was no drama, conflict, or unspoken dynamics. This is community connection FREE of resentment or bitterness that comes from things going unspoken. This is community based on resonance rather than unowned dissonance. Amazing how much more goodness you can let in when the energies are resonant, loving, and supportive!
 
As we’ve cultivated this inside ourselves, with parts of ourselves and each other over the years…so we can experience this on a moment by moment basis MOST moments. During our circle sharings about what we were grateful and appreciative for….this was the most common thing shared by each of us. Grateful for ourselves, for our parts (both young and old, feminine and masculine, just emerging and very well known)….grateful for each other and the Divine. Grateful for those souls who are joining us in session space and came to our recent gatherings. Grateful for love!
 
Love,
Jelelle Awen
As a ‘gift’ to you, we are now offering a free 30-45 minute intro call over zoom with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Raphael Awen, Gabriel Heartman, or Kalayna Solais. Experience the love for yourself and see where it takes you! More info at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.
 
And if you’d like to join us around this table, our next four day SoulFullHeart Gathering is happening around the Winter Solstice here in Victoria, Canada from December 18-21. More info here: https://www.facebook.com/events/1654802484653131/
or here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/gatherings

New Lemuria Codes Remind Us Of Our Tribal Timelines

By Jelelle Awen

Connecting with the New Lemuria codes coming in offers a feeling sense of Golden Earth/New Earth/5D Gaia. New Lemuria reminds us of the best of what it is to be living in a tribe, in commUNITY, and sharing resources together. Our souls most likely have more timelines of this experience than the isolated, lonely, overly self sufficient realities that we live in during 3D life. So much stress, anxiety, depression, and loneliness are pushed up for parts of us in living the 3D separatist lifestyle.

In connecting with your galactic consciousness through Star Family and especially your Lemurian aspects that are available for you in the Now, you start to download/remember your tribal identity. You begin to ache for that feeling of soul resonance, beyond words/need to communicate verbally…that just being in synchness that Lemuria vibrates in. You receive initiation and validation from the tribe you start drawing in others that supports your bigness to express and grow.

We can start to tap into that feeling sense again by connecting with our inner family, creating an inner community through unification of both parts of us from this life and from other lifetimes too. As these fragments and fractals either integrate or unify, we become more WHOLE again and able to BE in more Oneness resonance with others.

Our inner tribe needs us primarily and firstly as those who try to live in conscious community without the deeper sense of self may struggle with it. Feelings of envy, competition, being rejected/abandoned, etc. can all be triggered living in community as experiences from your ‘original’ tribe, your birth family, come up to be felt. Healing the traumas from that 3D experience of polarized family allows for the letting in of soul tribe family at 4D and higher consciousness vibrations.

It has been the highest choice for me the last several years to live in community….not just with my beloved Raphael, yet also with Gabriel, Kalayna, and my daughter Raianna. We are united by the desire to live out and offer SoulFullHeart as a healing process and way of life. We are united by soul family bonds that strengthen the 3D ascension experiment we signed up for together. This allows us to navigate grounds of money sharing/earning, practical decision and response, and much more with much less personal stress and anxiety. I feel that I would not be able to offer the teachings and spaceholding that I do and can in SoulFullHeart without their support on so many levels.

If you’d like to experience a taste of our SoulFullHeart community, you can join us for a group session on Saturday, February 2nd at 11:00am PST. We’ll be digesting the completion and experience of my 33 Day video series Deepen with those who are taking it in. You can join us for a $11 USD minimum donation, which you can offer here: paypal.me/soulfullhearthealing

We are also going to be hosting an all day process group here in Victoria, BC (a place with strong New Lemurian energies) on March 9th. More details here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

You can connect with New Lemuria codes in a video and guided meditation I filmed on 1/11 during a strong portal opening: https://youtu.be/ClhBXTl112M

Photo is of an amazing New Lemurian sunset here last night taken by a local Lea Cusi that seems to speak to the emergence of new, higher timelines!

Jelelle Awen

1:1 sessions available to experience New Lemuria frequencies as you connect to aspects of your inner and Metasoul family:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

The Grail Pursuit Of Soul Tribe

by Raphael Awen

The desire to find and be a part of Soul Tribe feels like it is increasing exponentially for many of us in the times we are moving through. 

It’s a feeling for me that has always been there in my life. At times, it has expressed in really applying myself to the tribe at hand, be it my birth family, my current circle of friends, my church family, a spiritual group, etc. What I found for myself personally was that the deeper I pressed into the family at hand, the sooner I found myself uncomfortably at the exit door to the relationship. While the exit door was usually an exit of my own choosing, as I was always welcome to drop what I was advocating for and needing, stop rocking the boat, and instead settle in for the life-long haul, I seemingly couldn’t stop myself from moving on.

Something has always felt at stake. Something has always felt that I needed to choose, to pursue, to desire, and to need. Something has always also felt that I wanted to be needed, to be chosen, to be desired, and to be needed. What has changed is the frequency bandwidth that I am broadcasting at in all of that wanting and needing. This then, in turn, led to natural moving on points, that I was being invited to step into.

Some people work hard to quell these feelings, and though there have been times that a part of me could envy living that way too, I keep coming back to a ‘search for the holy grail’ kind of living, and to do that with Soul Tribe.

My Soul Tribe is about the wanting, the needing, the desiring, the rocking the boat when the boat is needing to be rocked or even capsized. It is about the entering and the leaving. It is about completing one context of life so to be able and energized to enter the next context of life. It is about the endless curiosity expansion into the unknown. 

My Soul Tribe is about feeling all the losses along the way, to mourn them, to grieve them, to allow the next phase of Soul Tribe to arise and overflow into my life as I currently know it. 

My Soul Tribe is about feeling my truth resonate inside the tribe, where even a natural and healthy ‘conformity for love’ can breathe that isn’t a codependent grasping for love. I get to conform when I want to and need to. I also get to be uniquely different when I want to and need to. I get to do it all and be it all inside of community. I get to need and want love. I get to be loved. I get to feel all the parts of me who are in different stages of their own relationship to love and community. 

What is your Soul Tribe about? Are you in a ‘lone-wolf’ between phase that is preparing the courage to pursue again? Are their past tribe wounds that are wanting to be felt by you? Are there parts of you who refuse to ever risk again, while at the same time, other parts of you aching for real resonant heart and soul frequency community? 

SoulFullHeart is one such tribe. I belong to it and co-lead it. Session space is offered as the clear doorway into it. If it calls to you, I’d so love to host your inquiry further, all the way to the deeper and richer unknown that your soul can’t resist pursuing. 

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Re-Learning Love As Sacred Humans: A Poem

by Kalayna Colibri

As we love each other more… we let go without fear or tugging.

As we love each other more… we empower instead of enable.

As we love each other more… our words to one another are not empty.

As we love each other more… the eyes of love are the ones we wear and we see each other for who we are.

As we love each other more… we recognize the difference between caretaking and caregiving.

As we love OURSELVES more… we, ad infinitum, love each other more…

… and in this love, we find
even more of ourselves
than we ever thought we would ever see,
feel, and heal
before we realized
that loving more
means
we will never know love in the less.

***

Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.