Practical Ascension, Practical Magic: Bridging Spirituality With Grounded Practicality

by Kalayna Colibri

Many of my mornings every week are dedicated to working online, specifically as an English teacher for Chinese children. These are early mornings… something my parts and my body have had to get used to and in some ways, the “getting used to it” process is still going on and in!

This is temporary… the heart and soul purpose I’m on this planet for isn’t teaching English to foreign children. It’s a bridge into the magical world OF living into soul purpose, though. It’s a way to keep grounded in terms of income while continuing the work within that draws more of the income desired from offering healing work to others and serving love with them. And, it IS service of love in some form, and this my parts and my Metasoul Aspects too are coming to terms with more and more.

Parts of you may have resistance to the practical, especially while navigating the magical. Reconciling and living into the two sometimes very divergent-feeling worlds is something necessary until it isn’t, yet there is definitely a step-by-step process to manifesting or drawing what we want to feel and become spiritually and as healers too, and this process involves a need, as a human being on this planet at this time, to have some sense of groundedness in practical day-to-day life.

Being “practical” in the way I’m offering means something very, very different to me and parts of me than it used to. To be “practical” in the past meant to become “like them” – like the “adults” around me holding very 3D jobs and careers spanning many years while raising a family, buying a home, staying put in one geography for possibly decades… as a soul born into this world with far less orientation towards 3D life, I had many parts that rebelled, fervently pushing away from this picture, wanting something very different, much more spiritual-feeling. So naturally, parts of me (typically my Inner Teenager yet also my Inner Protector/Gatekeeper) pushed away a grounded sense of financial income, ways to make sure I had some stability in my life, because I was “waiting” for the “perfect” job that would align with my soul purpose… not realizing that every job actually gives us this chance to build up to that and in some ways, simply not wanting to ground or BE here on Gaia. I had different ideas of spirituality and what it meant to be living into your truest soul purpose work back then. I still don’t have a desire for any of the things I listed above, yet I can say that how I picture, feel and live into “practical life” has shifted in a huge way because of my process and working with my parts. I now see “practicality” as something grounded, that puts your hands in the dirt to plant seeds, proverbially or literally. For some souls, this may mean the bliss mess experience of raising children, holding a 10+ year career trajectory, remaining in a long-term marriage “no matter what”, fully inhabiting these choices and then maybe popping out the other side into some deep awakenings that take them in different directions. For myself and so many others, this often means something very different.

The rebel in me lives on and necessarily so, yet not in such a way that tries to push against lucrative opportunities that also give me flexibility in terms of moving around the globe, having full days off other than early mornings, AND, I can take time off whenever I want to technically, yet the practical calls me in the moment to work often (though not so often I burn out!) for the sake of saving enough money to help the community I’m a part of find its way to a new geography where we can really plant our service-of-love seeds in new soul-soil. Creating the space for service of love in other forms, like writing, creating, holding space for others, etc, is something that arises as it needs and wants to and I am still very much in response to that, while bridging it all back to the practical, as I am in this writing in this moment. Being called to serve love does not have to mean self-sacrifice, though of course some of us have needed to walk that one out and we get to the other side of it when it’s time and we choose that. It actually so feels like what it means at the heart of it is being in response from your ever-purifying heart… to your own needs, the needs of those you love and share nourishing bonds with, and the needs of those who you are meant to serve.

It IS possible to live humbly while necessary, to hold a modest income while finding your feet, your heart, your wings in the areas of spiritual healing that you most desire to be part of. It IS possible to hold life in such a way that you are in response to your own practical needs and desires while also in response to serving others. And, it truly feels like a deep invitation from the Divine, from the Ascension LOVE energies themselves, to continue to find ways and means that allow you to continue your inward journey, finding and feeling the parts and Metasoul Aspects that are in resistance and reaction and perhaps wanting this New Earth existence that could be free of some of the old 3D sense of practicality to just be here already… yet there is a process involved and it is ultimately about finding your inner strength, power, worth and confidence through healing the parts that don’t feel this way. And this then can be served outward, from a place of grounded self-healing and discovery and growing self-love and appreciation.


Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at

Wants, Desires And Needs: Essential Aspects Of Our Ascension

by Kalayna Colibri


My ever-healing heart and the energy of Mary Magdalene, want to share this invitation with you today…

You are so beloved…why are you afraid to desire?

You are created for adventures… why have parts of you, soul aspects of you, decided that it’s safer, cleaner, not to claim your needs and wants?

Do you, arising sacred human heart, feel how this is what keeps you from entering the processes you most need and want to, in your soul? Those sacred upheavals of emotion and soul bursts that show you what you need to feel and heal next? These feelings of ‘I will never get what I want’ are actually a shout crowding a gentler whisper that says, ‘I’m afraid I actually might get what I want…’.

Want. Desire. Need. These are loaded words, oft kept in a box, labeled ‘danger!’ and rightly so… this Pandora’s Box is a life changer, the love you eventually can’t ignore though parts of you may try so hard to do so. There is nothing wrong with the delay of feeling what you most want, for you are wired to want MORE anyways. You are in gratitude for what you have, yes, yet this gratitude needs more space for breathing too, for expanding into a bigger heart container that also holds desires for more depth of relationship, a more suitable geography, an impeccable soul and heart romance, soul friendships within conscious community, challenges to just keep going, moving, healing, diving in… Gratitude cannot really be used to suppress your desires, but can instead be used to enrich and enliven them.

Your most sacred terrain of change is in your healing heart. No true and lasting changes can be made on the outside without the inside leading the way. New wants, needs and desires rise up from process, as an aspect of feeling parts and soul fragments of you, as something to keep you heading along your path. They are meant to shift and change as you are, yet this shifting and changing need not be a dulling of your sharpness of wanting, your ability to create and co-create. If anything, it sharpens you further, clarifying with greater depth and breadth what it is you most deeply want NOW and NOW. If you are feeling yourself, if you are in a healing process, you need not worry about your desires being over-indulgent or false or harmful. As your heart heals, so do your motivations in every area of life, until life has no ‘areas’ or ‘segments’ or especially ‘compartments’ but is one life lived in and according to LOVE… where does LOVE want me to flow today? What does it want to illuminate for me in this phase, in this very moment?

The deeper fears of desiring and wanting, live under the resistance to feel them… they are the vulnerability of feeling that nothing in life is guaranteed and yet if your heart truly wants it, the path aligns to make it happen WITH you, not for or to you. The desire is the beacon, the light at the end of the sometimes long, long tunnel. It is the picture, the double-vision you can hold fast to while walking among hot coals of sometimes shadowy process grounds. It is the warm voice beckoning you to keep moving onward by turning inward, seeing for the first time that this voice is yours.

We are full-up of expectations from others that have somehow become our own. We are passed down legacies of withdrawal from life and ultimately from LOVE. We are given only the tools necessary to keep being safe and sound and secure, not loving ourselves through vows of cherishment and self-awe. This means deflecting that which doesn’t match a much duller picture, sacrificing dreams for ‘knowns’. Gratitude comes in the moments we realize that we are exactly where we need to be while on the path of the adventure to what we most deeply want. Gratitude is covered by inherited brambles when we wait alongside the path and don’t choose to step out onto it. Synchronicities send over invitations to keep walking, moving, remembering, letting more love in, yet we will only accept the invite if we are ready to recognize that this messenger is who we’ve been waiting for.

What is it that your heart most desires and needs for you and from you in this moment, on this day? Feel this, bring it inward to your heart with curiosity and love, as a parent to a growing child or a gardener to a blooming rose. Let yourself be taken, fascinated by your wants and needs. Allow in some moments of feeling all there is to feel and see what new places, on this very next step of your burgeoning, ever-ascending life, open up for you next. ❤



Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visit for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at

Throwing Caution To The Wind: Uncovering What You Really Want

By Wayne Vriend

You may want a better job, or a more reliable car, or a car that says you are really cool, or the latest smart phone, or some new clothes, or a new friend, or your spouse or mate to change in some way. But if you were to take a look at whatever it is that you want and to ask yourself if there is a deeper need underneath the surface want or need, what do you think you might discover?

As you ask this question, try not to judge the the surface want or need as either vainly superficial or justifiably necessary. This way of judging your needs, both approving or disapproving of them, is all part of hiding from the desires and needs that are at the root of them.

Maybe the deeper want or desire is something like hunger for approval from others, or being noticed. Maybe it is a sense of self importance that you are craving. Maybe it goes deeper still to a need to feel Divine approval or love. These are all real human needs. I like being noticed and feeling that my life is important, and being approved by others I respect feels really good too.

What you and I really want is our lifeline in a sea of drowning humanity. Your deeper desires are keys to who you are at a deep level.

I’d rather feel genuinely important than rely on a physical object like a smartphone or a car, or an emotional object like my role or status in society, that does such a poor job of affording me any consistent feelings of self love.

Genuine human need is what underlies vanity and even hideous barbarism. All of us would behave the same way if our needs were being unmet in the same way, and if our present life and past life experiences were similiar.

So, what is that YOU really want?

It’s hard to know isn’t it? If you knew what you really wanted, you wouldn’t stumble along pursuing lesser wants whose fulfillments seem so short lived, and oftentimes cause deep hurt? Would you?

Most people do what they have been enculturated to do with this “problem” of desire. That is to kill it, or control it, or to manage it, so it doesn’t cause problems and pain.

We’ve made desire itself to be the bad guy. But the truth is that the very essence of being human and being alive is to have wants, is to desire, and being the most alive is to have the strongest wants and desires. What condition is your ‘wanter’ in? Dead people are people who no longer need or want anything.  Dead people don’t look longingly in storefront windows and they can’t be sold sex, or ice cream, or a career.

I sincerely believe that the root problems of our aches and pains in life, physically, emotionally and spiritually can be traced back to having a wanter that has been neglected and is in poor shape. Just as it requires a healthy metabolism to shed the weight your body no longer needs, so it requires strong healthy desire to let go of the things that you need to, and are ready to, in order to make room for the new things you really need and desire.

Maybe the definitive expression of vulnerability itself, is to feel the need for something that you don’t yet have access to, or control.

You have to in fact work to get it. You have to do the work of drawing it to yourself. This isn’t actually as hard as it sounds though. Doing work that is fun is what you did as a child without realizing it. You called it ‘play’ in fact. You gave all that you had in terms of time and effort and resources to get what you wanted, and you did it for the fun of it. Your parents may have questioned the appropriateness of your passion, or feared you ending up in a pile of disappointment, but not you. You went all out. You couldn’t live with yourself if you didn’t. Any hurts you encountered along the way, you were sure to recover from. You threw caution to the wind.

So what happened since then? You were told a host of things, in language and tone that was foreign to you, such as: ‘that isn’t really a responsible way to live; money doesn’t grow on trees; you need to care not just for yourself; work should come before play; responsibility is being grown up.’ You were told a whole bunch of things designed by nearly dead people with nearly dead wanters who needed to dim the light of your wanter; who in fact needed to sacrifice your alive reality on the altar of their dark deadness. They needed you to tone down in order to not feel the pain of their chosen deadness. They needed you to live as a medication to their deadness. Hence the gospel of putting others needs before your own.

What happened is that you just had the permission to be childlike in this way robbed from your adult reality. I’d like to see it given back to you. I’d like to be around more people like you who ache to return back to this authentic way of being human. Humanity is depending on people like you to take back what you had, what is in fact native to you, but that you lost.

This is the harder work, but it too can be done with all the seriousness of a child at play, with Divine help and guidance, and with deep and lasting rewards that no man can ever take from you.

If my words resonate with you, and you know that getting help with this kind of a life change is part of what you really want, I’d be honored to help you. I’d get to have a lot of fun helping you and uncovering the parts of you that hold your deepest desires. But only if that is what you really want! The deepest cost isn’t the time, or the money, or the effort. The deepest cost is enduring the process as well as finding the willingness to let go of what you in fact don’t really want, but are only presently attached to.

I know of no greater bravery, and I see its’ potential in you!

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