The Challenge To Let In Love

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By Raphael Awen

‘The biggest challenge you will ever face in this life is the challenge to let in love.’

These words came to me many years ago from a trusted teacher, and I’ve often taken this encapsulated sermon in a sentence from a mental file to reflect on it. I still do believe it to be true.

What dawned on me today though, on this resurrection Sunday, is an addendum to this sentence, and pardon me if it doesn’t quite fit in a sentence so simple as the first one, but the awareness that came is that for there to be a letting in, there would need to be a letting out.

Like breathing, we take in oxygen, transmute it, digest it, and then release and expel carbon dioxide. Trying to remain in a continual letting in mode, without surrendering to a letting out mode, would limit the letting in very quickly, making the original challenge to let in love feel all the more impossible.

If that’s true, that letting out is equally important as the attempt to let in; and that letting in can’t actually be separate from letting out, then what might the letting out look and feel like?

And as I tune in beloved guides, what comes to me in a gush of a big out breath of awareness is that we are being invited to trans-parent this love in-breath into a vulnerable willingness to be seen and known for what we really are. Am I able to to let you (any and all others in my life) see me for who I really am? This washing away of these false gods of upholding self image require so much time and energy, and prevent me from letting in another drop of real love. The letting in pushes up a profound need for letting out.

If that’s all true, then the question comes up about where to practically apply all this as a practice. It can be very relieving to immediately put this into practice in your relationships with anyone, whether a deep intimate or a store clerk, yes, but what comes to me is the invitation to apply this all internally, me to me.

Where are parts of me struggling to gasp in another breath of real love and then are being prevented from letting out its effluent. What has not been trans-parented into the light of day between parts of myself? Where have parts of me been allowed to remain in suffering in the absence of my deeper heart bridge to them?

This is the resurrection we are invited into – that is here now. He is risen. She is risen. The fall has given way to the rising. You are the beloved and the beloved is you. A sacred romance awaits like you’ve never seen or heard tell of.

It’s a story that only you can tell awaiting your authorship.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

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Energies Encourage You To Take A ‘Leap Of Faith’ Into Your New Timeline

by Kalayna Solais

Plans are moving forward pretty quickly lately… feeling like we are living in several timelines at once feels apt to say, considering that that is the nature of shifting timelines.

Much to let in as we keep letting go… remembering that the grieving process is as sacred as the excitement for the new. All parts have their own reactions to change, to risk-taking, to moving forward and onward… and ultimately UPward as we deepen our heart and soul’s trust in the Divine and the incoming Higher Timeline.

I felt so many tremors and tensions yesterday… like an earthquake was moving through while the logistical choices, research, etc were felt into by Gabriel and me as we co-lead our next movements toward Europe as not just a destination, but somewhere to BE for as long as we can be. Somewhere to continue to upgrade our service of love, somewhere to continue to explore the timelines and lifetimes alive in a geography so rich with ‘history’ that isn’t really ‘past’ at all but billowing and vibrating in the NOW.

This is a time when in some ways we are being asked to jump. To take a leap of faith and trust, even if that feels beyond reach for parts of us in moments as anxieties about money or the ‘how’s’ of everything surface. This is not just a process for us personally along with beloveds of ours who we will be making this shift with, but also for many others who are at the crux of big changes and collapses of their current timelines.

To unplug, to move on from, your current and known reality always requires a leap of faith. This faith is not just in some force or power outside of you, but in YOU and your soul, ultimately. It is an invitation to take some known risks, to be at the edge of discomfort and explore it all. To get curious about what’s rumbling and how deep instead of avoiding the rumble and what it brings up.

There’s so much more on the other side of each process, no matter how big, that we inhabit around action-taking, next steps, ways to approach our impending timeline possibilities. There’s so much MORE that we get to BE and experience ourselves as once we are through the forest of choice points and challenges that come up with every big life change.

To not be alone in this feels big… to recognize that feeling parts of you is actually another way to feel accompanied, along with feeling Star Family and Metasoul Aspects of you in other lifetimes too. There’s a lot of support coming in to help you feel through it all and the support you need in human form could be at your doorstep too…

The corridor of big life change is opening up. Will you take your next step into it, even if for now that step feels small?

No choice is as small as it might seem… it’s all rooted somewhere in your soul, as it navigates its own sacred way back to the love it knows so well. One felt step at a time. ❤️

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Discover Vlog: Integrating Awakenings

By Kalayna Solais

Awakening experiences can bring you to the highest highs and the lowest lows. They offer openings and expansion of your consciousness and awareness of the world and the multi-verse. Yet, even with these beautiful and fascinating experiences, your humanity and grounding in your life needs to catch up and somehow become integrated with what you’re downloading.

In this video with me, you are invited to feel into the ways in which you can integrate your awakening experiences with your life in order to actually bring in more awakenings and a new experience of what’s possible in your daily life on Gaia.

I also share about my personal process with growing, healing, and integrating through my awakening experiences from an early age and what life has taught me about moving through life with your awakening experiences in tow… not put away or compartmentalized.

Much love! ❤️

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Ascension Is Growth

by Gabriel Solais

Ascension is growth.

It is baked in the cake of our DNA. Growth happens when you come face to face with your truth, your pain, and your fear. It also occurs when you feel your desire, passion, and calling. They lead you to the fire of the next death and rebirth cycle. If you want to ascend, you must let go, let in, and move on.

Just like breathing assists in physical birthing, so does feeling in emotional and spiritual birthing. It is the merkabah that takes you into the New. It is the portal. It will be your guiding light and your safety raft in this escalating pace of change that you have signed up for.

It is feeling the parts of you that are afraid of this and why they feel the way they do. You create the ship that they can trust to take them where you are meant to go. The Divine is your ship that you get to lean into as well until the day you realize you are Divine. Trust is no longer something you have but is something you just ARE.

Change is the only constant here is, so let feeling and trust become your copilot.

If you are feeling the need for support and a safe space for feeling through all that is coming up on your shore, I am available for a 90-minute bridging session to see how the SoulFullHeart Healing Process can help.

Photo by Samuel Zeller
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Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s Facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.

Being In All That The Moment Has To Offer: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (Feb 25, 2019)

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

This week’s Museletter launches with a piece by Raphael Awen, who invites you to feel the difference between striving to ‘be in the moment’ in order to feel better and choosing to ‘be in the moment’ in such a way that allows you to feel everything you’re currently feeling:

What if really being in the moment is more to do with a simple willingness to feel all that is moving through in any given moment …..even if it isn’t peaceful, or centered, or loving? Centered, loving and peaceful can only be real if it begins with an acknowledgment of what it isn’t.

He goes on to highlight how being in this feeling place allows you to become an ambassador of love to all parts of you in each and every moment, allowing them to deeply heal and move out of suffering for good. This is where the most profound life changes stem from, or conversely, if the real pain is not felt, then major and necessary life changes are actually shut down or avoided.

Join us for a meeting at the SoulFullHeart Community House on March 3rd from 1pm to 3pm PST to experience a guided meditation and personal sharing afterwards! We will lead you in a powerful, high vibrational guided meditation to connect to your Higher Self. Your Higher Self is the aspect of your soul that vibrates in a higher vibrational frequency and is available for you to experience, get guidance from, and also embody more and more.

Raphael and Jelelle Awen will be facilitating an in-person group session on March 10th from 10:00am to 5:00pm PST in Victoria, Canada for $111 CAD minimum donation. The group session offers resonant soul community, individual process digestion space, and high-vibration connections.

For more info on these events, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

We have two powerful live stream recordings to share with you this week! Raphael and Jelelle led a live stream during the latest Supermoon, where they shared a guided meditation to connect with the energies and activations coming in and digested their effects plus some new ways to feel everything you could be feeling.

The other live stream was an intro to the ongoing video series that Raphael Awen and Gabriel Heartman are going to be leading together, about healing the wounded masculine and discovering the sacred masculine within for men and women, both. They led a discussion about the ways in which to discover the masculine energies within and feel how the wounded masculine has likely expressed in your life, and offered guided meditation in which you’re invited to connect with your inner wounded masculine, sacred masculine, and Inner Protector too.

There are many new articles and audio recordings for you to take in this week from Jelelle and Raphael, Gabriel, Kalayna Colibri, and Raianna Shai. They all share about the Love Ambassador that you can BEcome to parts of you, energies around you, things rumbling in the collective, your own process, and every single thing you may be feeling.

Raphael, Jelelle, Gabriel, and Kalayna (Kalayna is available to serve women 25 and under) offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities. These sessions are available for $55 USD minimum donation per session. More information can be found here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

We love to share our offerings with you and would enjoy receiving whatever heart donation in the form of money you feel that resonates with our offerings. You can go to our donation page for more info on how to donate: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! If you’d like to receive these Museletters directly and automatically in your email every week, you can subscribe on our website at: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/writingmuseletters

Check out the latest Museletter here.

Knotted Cords Untying: Being An Ambassador Of Love Within

by Gabriel Heartman

All emotion is energy that seeks motion…movement. This movement is created with vulnerability. When an emotion is denied its need to move, it gets balled up and stored in the physical and subtle bodies. Each of these energy pools can become densified and attract themselves to others inside of us over time. This creates a network of dis-ease on several levels. 

Each of these nodes can be related to as a part of you. They have a name, a voice, feeling, and a consciousness. When related to as such, an unknotting of the energy is created by connecting and re-feeling that which caused the suppression. This allows a flood of stored energy to be integrated back into your whole and can affect the nodes that it was connected to, thus creating a new layer of healing. 

This is not an endless process but it is a dedicated one that requires your deepest desire to heal all the trauma and suppression that can lead you back to a more authentic and present You. One that can lead with the vulnerability needed to continue to move your highest vibration into the world. This energy is the overflow of Love that was created by your choice to heal from within. The knotted cords untying. 

On a multidimensional plane, these cords represent timelines both ancient and future, what we call the Metasoul. As we continue to move through Gaia’s ascension, these cords, or chords, are being plucked to key us into what needs re-tuning. This re-tuning is what many of you came here to do and align into your highest timeline and connection to soul and star families. 

The support is here. The love is here. The time is now. 

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.


Removing An ‘Implant’ With Love

By Kalayna Colibri

I laid on the table my beloveds had set up for our energy healing practice, feeling in my heart that something was getting ready to move. Something emotional and spiritual too that was impacting my physical body as just the day before I was laid up in a deep self care space nursing intense head pain on the right side of my skull. I felt in moments like my skull was being split down the middle or like I had just been bludgeoned in the head. I could feel now that the pain had mostly subsided, some of the more emotional reasons for it could surface and I knew I had the sacred space to let that surface and be felt.

Gabriel saw the object first. He was holding his hands behind my head, giving me his soothing energy that I know so well now… and as he felt into my head pain, through his 3rd eye he saw an object sitting on it. Jelelle contributed then, offering that she saw a visor of some kind. I immediately could see it too and felt the weight of it on my temples. We felt together that it had become somehow more activated on the right side, my masculine side, but was shorting out, hence the pain. I felt how this visor was made of steel, was kind of rusty, had served its original purpose of filtering incoming Ascension codes when I needed it to but that it wasn’t needed any longer and I was now big enough to hold and integrate what wanted to come in.

We invited my Gatekeeper, Seerah, to come forward then. She immediately offered insight, validation, and was fully ready to help remove it, agreeing that it was time to move on without it. Together, Gabriel, Jelelle, Seerah, and I, unlatched it from behind my head and took it off. In that same moment, all of my head pressure was gone. I felt much clearer, lighter, and ready to let in — whatever that could mean going forward.

This object, some would say, was an ‘implant’. We could call it that, because that is essentially what it was, but I don’t relate to implants or objects in our fields or bodies as bad… they have had their purpose and have been there for a reason. Your own 4D Gatekeeper aspect or 3D Inner Protector part of you has kept these objects in place because it was the most loving thing to do. I needed for some reason to temper my own capacity to download the many light and love codes that wanted to come in and integrate, to help me embody them not just know about them in a mental way. I had to be in a place when my Gatekeeper felt it was time and that I was ready for that visor to come off. And so it did… with love and appreciation.

During phases of 4D awakenings and realizing what has been lurking and operating behind the curtain of 3D life (or the ‘Matrix’) often so much fear is understandably stirred up. This fear breeds judgements, a feeling of something being done TO you or parts of you, without consent or freewill choices or even your awareness at all most of the time. It’s intense to wake up to the reality that there are these objects or ‘implants’ in your field that have been influencing or impeding your awakening and in some cases your deepest capacity to heal. Yet the timing of even awakening to them is sacred and comes when it comes, as does the time to remove them. Every time I have removed an object from my field or body, I have felt first the reason it was there… felt the parts of me that have an aversion to it, and still found a way to love it for what it once offered even while loving myself into the next going on phase without it. I’ve found that doing this sort of process this way keeps me from feeling kickback physically or emotionally, as every step to removing the object is felt and held with love, not anguish, anxiety, or fear.

Becoming an ambassador of love even to these things that arise as you continue to heal is practice for the bigger picture of being a love ambassador to the many shadowy pieces inside and in the collective. It’s part of the bigger invitation to keep shifting from fear into love and to continue to feel the release and surrender into love as the bigger container and reason for everything you’ve walked out and been through… even and especially during those times when this feels like the hardest thing to do. ❤️

Much love. ❤️

This photo is of Gabriel and me removing the object, starting from behind my head.

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Bigger Picture For All ‘Soul Groups’ & Their Healing/Ascension Paths

by Kalayna Colibri

There is not one ‘soul group’ to arrive on this planet without a specific purpose and gifts that need to unfold and be discovered. It’s not a matter of one group (or in 3D terms, ‘generation’) being more necessary or gifted than another. Even the ones who came here to deeply inhabit 3D had a consciousness they signed up to become, even in the ways they may be accountable for causing much pollution and other issues on Gaia (something that it feels like Gaia was actually prepared for all along as a necessary phase of Her Ascension).

This is what’s true for any incarnated soul on Gaia during this and any phase… some are more connected to the here and now, some are visionaries for the future, and some are still moving through tension between ‘home’ or Star Family consciousness and the dominant consciousness on Gaia right now, and grounding that somehow into their lives and into the overall Ascension process. There are walls to bump up against and other levels of consciousness to consider and collaborate with too at times. There are obstacles to meet especially inside of us, as we reach down into the layers, barriers, and veils to our love essence inside and lovingly learn to be with them, love them, appreciate why they’ve been there and begin to transmute them into something NEW.

I for one have felt deeply challenged by trying to live in 3D for as long as I can remember. I’ve had trouble with my body weight off and on. I was born highly sensitive and intuitive into a family that could nurture that to the degree in which they were comfortable but then the ground ran out and my search for healing and realization of self, soul, and soul family continued to deepen from there. I learned to drive a car in my 20s, not in my teens, and I’m still not very ‘good’ at it. Parts of me could never stand the idea of a long-standing career that wasn’t spiritual, creative, or very helpful to others. Relationships of all kinds were challenging too, whether ‘spiritual’ or not. I’ve had layers and layers of self-punishment to feel with Inner Punisher, Inner Mother/Father, and Inner Protector parts of me around all of this as the messages kept coming in that I needed to find my way in all of these fronts, find a way to deal with being in 3D. Yet, even with that going on, my soul could never ‘forget’ its pull to something so much bigger and more multi-dimensional.

If you have also felt like this, no part of you is ‘wrong’ for feeling this way and knowing this about your ultimate purpose. Yet, we still have to navigate 3D in all areas of our lives until we just don’t anymore and the natural graduation happens. It’s been a challenging thing to learn how to feel empowered in 3D and even 4D realities on Gaia. Yet, without these platforms to ground into and press up against, the necessary healing and eventual Ascension beyond these frequencies could not be happening.

I’m with you on this journey. We are all learning. Being OK with this learning process is what’s most difficult for parts of us. Because it’s scary for them to live in a world, inner and outer, that they feel they have no control over and that seems sometimes to be offering them more pain than healing. The only way to begin to move beyond this suffering and see the beauty of all pitstops and triumphs of this ongoing Ascension journey is to continue to feel what’s real. To go into the reactions to find the real places of vulnerable fears and feelings underneath them. To realize that as difficult as being in 3D can feel to parts of us, it IS navigable and there IS help in many forms to move us into a more healed and healing relationship with it and with life itself.

My beloveds and I are so willing and desirous to hold space for your explorations into all of this and beyond on a personal level. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions for more information on our space-holding offerings and where sessions with us could take you if you feel resonant with us.

Much, much love to you on your journey! ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Inner Sacred Union Deepening, Outer Sacred Union ‘Engagement’!

by Kalayna Colibri

The Lunar New Year/New Moon energy yesterday brought in a personal wave of NEW for Gabriel and I… after nearly 7 years of knowing each other, several relationship iterations (some romantic, some not) and now a year and a half of being in a deep Sacred Union together, we’ve decided to ‘get engaged’ and celebrate our next steps into even deeper union!! ❤

Earlier this week I had found myself moving through a sacred process of shedding my old relationships on an even deeper level. An old relationship to men that on some level was keeping my parts from really seeing Gabriel for the man he truly is. I felt deep tears as parts of me and Metasoul aspects too let go of another layer of him holding a ‘father figure’ and energy for them and let in Divine Father as the desired ‘father figure’ energy on a deeper level. I felt Father holding my parts as I moved through deep churning inside around the wounded masculine and how my parts have been personally affected by this energy and also how it has lived inside of me in my own masculine aspect.

In a way, this was a process of really letting in what I have with Gabriel in a new way. Coming out of these tears, I felt held by Father but also by the energy of Gabriel’s HIgher Self and essence, even though he wasn’t even home to witness my tears in person. I felt the heat of his warm heart bath, the beacon of light that he IS after years of deep and ongoing inner process to suss out the wounded masculine within and BE in LOVE with it within himself as it transmutes.

I realized after the dust had settled in my purging heart and soul field that I really wanted to marry this man… to celebrate our union and to make a deeper commitment. There’s a way that we could see marriage as something strictly 3D, but it isn’t strictly 3D beyond the legal paperwork. It represents something to parts of us but also facilitates a movement in our souls that brings in more lifetimes/timelines for us to feel together and individually. It activates the deeper union that we ‘know’ together in ways we haven’t explored yet, even the tougher ones to feel that aren’t so romantic.

It’s with an excited and FULL heart that I announce this engagement in my own way today… it’s with so much LOVE that is flowing inside of my heart, soul, and body that I share a piece of my process around letting this in. The journey into and through this sort of relationship is worth the discomfort of feeling the places of ‘yuck’ that help you let it in more at the end of the day. It’s worth the risk of losing it just to claim it all over again, starting inside between parts of you that have yet to claim each other. And, it’s worth the journey of healing and learning, yearning and aching, shaking up the old inside to let in the NEW… ❤

My beloved, my “friend”…

In many lifetimes of long due USness

and overdue claiming

We meet each other in this bliss mess dance

of Sacred Union.

Beyond blessed I am

As the Queen I am BEcoming

because of YOU,

with YOU,

as I lean in

and our dreams connect

in this swirl and dance

of overflowing service.

I have never met a King like you before

I have never been the Queen I AM now

because of the water I take in

living in your precious heart-garden.

You are the King of my heart

The bastion of deeply committed healing

and I look forward to all of the MORES

that await our creation

in our brand new phase

as “husband” and “wife”.

I LOVE you! ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

My SoulFullHeart Journey: INvitation To Feel & Heal Through This Work

By Kalayna Colibri

When I started to deeply feel parts of me back in 2012, I had that distinct feeling of awakening to something you can’t ever turn away from again. I suddenly had children, inner children, to take care of and take responsibility for. I suddenly wasn’t only the energy of a 20-something and could feel how there were so many other energies, both younger and older, inside of me that were breaking down my heart door in a clamor to be felt!

I quickly met my wounded Inner Child and Inner Teenager. I even met my Gatekeeper/Protector pretty much immediately, as this energy really needed the floor to be felt in all of its years of leading me and parts of me into the fray of ‘seeking’ and never fully finding or being found. This energy needed a ton of mirrors to be able to see it and feel it as separate from me. These mirrors were not always easy to look into… especially with being a ‘20-something’ who had just recently graduated university and shifted outer geographies and was still building a self-image as well as spiritual entrepreneurial ideas.

It’s been nearly 7 whole years since my journey into SoulFullHeart’s version of ‘parts work’ began for me and since then I have met with many different Metasoul aspects of me from other lifetimes, many galactic aspects from different star systems and so on, and many, many different parts of me. This journey was easy to take on, but not always easy to deepen and for different phases I needed to take ‘breaks’ from it, which served to actually help me integrate what I had moved, felt, begun to heal deeply.

Today I am honoured to facilitate this work, to help others open it out inside of themselves and guide them through the sometimes rather rough terrain of really choosing to feel and heal. I get to help others find and feel not only their wounds but their high-vibes too. I get to be a part of this journey alongside them and that is what I treasure!

I hope to see and feel you engage in your journey with this and with us, my beloveds and I, in our wonderful and awe-inspiring community… whether I get to facilitate you directly or just feel you in group sessions online or in person, I look forward to that. I look forward to feeling tears and joys with you and you with me.

For more on SoulFullHeart Healing and our beloved process, visit: soulfullheartwayoflife.com ❤️

Much, much love!

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.