Gratitude As A Doorway To Reverence And Abundance

Today is Thanksgiving in Canada. It feels different than in the States. MUCH less collective energy to wade through. It has given me the chance this morning to really tap into Gratitude, Reverence, and Abundance. There are so many things that I felt I could right about this morning but this one felt timely. The full moon energy is wanting to open up something for all of us around these tones. 

Gratitude can be a hard one for us to fully embrace. Parts of us can feel how much there isn’t to be grateful for. To give thanks to the universe might be akin to thanking one’s abuser. Without feeling this very real part of us, the authentic gratitude we do have may be a bit shallow in its depths, if that makes any sense. 

When we can tap into that part, the tender reasons can come to the surface even after all the thrashing. It may appear to be an entitled teenage energy or a despairing Gatekeeper tired of holding all they do across dimensions. What is there to be thankful in that?! Being seen and felt in their pain is what opens the heart to that genuine gratefulness. 

It is feeling all these edges where we get to see how authentic our gratitude is. It is not about gauging the level of our appreciation, but just feeling what is real inside of us. When that has space, Gratitude becomes like a clear, gorgeous sunrise after a very long and stormy night. You see the trees, hear birds, and see the light in a much different way. 

This is what then becomes the benchmark for our authentic gratitude. After my last deep process about a month ago, I see the world through these heart eyes. I feel what I wasn’t truly grateful for. What I had taken for granted inside of me. But now the sun is shining again and I see more than I have in any time before. But I needed to go to this place first.  

I am grateful for the Love I am surrounded by, the soul family I am apart of, and the inner world inside of me that continues to grow and be cultivated. I am grateful to be a healer, a way-shower,  a light/shadow worker, a teacher, an ambassador, and a human being. From this place I am lead to Reverence and ultimately to Abundance (more on those in next posts).  

Thank you to all that have followed my heart and words these past 3 years. Many blessings and real love to each of you. 

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

 

The Process Of Uncovering Gratitude

by Kalayna Solais

Feels strange and yet somehow ‘right’ to have ‘Canadian Thanksgiving’ tomorrow, even though in my life I feel like on a multi-dimensional level, gratitude is continuing to deepen and expand out from me and parts of me at every turn.

This year, I feel like it’s a time to really, soberly, look at, see, FEEL my life as it is and not force my parts into an ‘attitude of gratitude’ but to really feel them in where they might still be tripping over the whole concept of being grateful and why.

I know that inside of me and in my process over the years there’s been a lot of layers of entitlement to feel and heal. I’ve felt though, with each part that’s had this disposition, that underneath the entitlement is a sense of a lack of worthiness. A sense that they won’t get what they want unless they fight for it and ultimately too, a belief that they won’t actually EVER get what they want and that others will instead.

I’m still feeling into what’s truly underneath that meme that’s been ringing and pinging inside for so long and on a soul level too, yet it’s being uncovered with effort and desire to heal it. And, it feels like this ‘Thanksgiving’ celebration day tomorrow helps to bring in some sort of intention around it… around truly and viscerally healing the entitlement that still lingers and moving it into even deeper gratitude than I already feel.

Really feeling our gratitude is actually quite the process. Any bypassing that’s had to be done in order to ‘get there’ actually just buries the parts that feel like they aren’t getting what they want or even what they need, especially from you to you, you to them, parts of you to other parts of you in their relationship with each other.

There’s a lot to feel about this in the collective too of course, and it’s evidenced by our overuse of natural resources, lack of feeling and compassion towards one another and being competitive instead. Even in our domination of animals. Any sort of ‘Thanksgiving’ holiday is really just another reminder to have a look at all of this and how it’s been configured inside of each of us. What IS your personal relationship to gratitude and how does it live in you?

I feel this question as a meditation for myself… and one that I ongoingly want to feel deeply into as I DO have so much to be grateful for, always. And so much that I have earned through personal process, through ‘crawling through glass’, and also, through following with courage what my own soul and heart have wanted more than anything else. In other words… I think the deepest source of gratitude for anything in our lives HAS to be rooted in feeling grateful, ultimately, for our own journeys and where they have had to go, where they are now, and where they seem to be leading.

Much love to you… and if you’re celebrating this weekend… Happy Thanksgiving! 

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

 

Vulnerability In Relationship

By Raianna Shai

I wrote this poem after having just the right day to open up my heart. Whenever this happens every space inside of me that feels like a void fills up with gratitude and appreciation of my environment and the people around me. I was reminded of why I tend to feel guarded around others and how good it feels to be intimate in relationship.

I am very good at being alone. I have always been independent and able to entertain myself quite easily. I thought recently that I would be happier and more opened out living on my own. But the fact that living with others is harder and scarier means it’s probably what I’m meant to be working.

I was feeling how it’s so easy to feel misunderstood or judged by others when you have that living inside of yourself. Whenever my insecurity was high, I found that it was harder to let others in and be vulnerable. I also remembered how much I love physical touch and how important it is to increase the intimacy in relationships. A lingering hug here, a friendly cuddle there. I always saved this for when I was in a romantic relationship because that’s where it felt safe and accepted.

But telling someone what they mean to you and showing physical affection are two things that are bound to be scary. It means you are seeing the other and therefore “risk” being seen yourself. This can bring up a lot of fear if a sense of lack or unworthiness lives inside of you.

I have a big desire to go to the next place in all of my relationships in order to work this push pull inside of me when it comes to intimacy. This poem illustrates the feeling I had of that!

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In the moments that my heart splits open
Gratitude fills every atom of my soul
My body sways with tenderness and care
I want to wrap my arms around every lonely heart
Connecting to oneness and collective love

My fingers trace the edges of my frame
It runs along every crack
Every bump
Every inconsistency
It fills my emptiness with loving energy
It brings out the softness underneath the surface

Soft vulnerability is hard to show
The sweet caress of your own beauty
Uniquely separate from those around you
Yet intertwined in insecurity and fear

I feel overwhelmed by the thought of my loved ones
The way they move through life
The way they see and care for me
When I can’t see myself

You are so brave, dear one
To be a bright green growth
In a grey sidewalk crack
Constantly fearing the underside of passing steps
The shadow side of humanity

I see you, I feel you
I want you, I need you
I feel scared to tell you
That I admire you
And hope you admire me too

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Feeling Gratitude For My Highest Timeline Manifestation

By Jelelle Awen

For the first time in five years, I have a dedicated space/room for doing recordings, video series (more about my 33 Day one starting on January 1st coming soon) and SoulFullHeart sessions…..both remotely AND in person! I just feel so grateful for this higher timeline manifestation and opportunity to serve love. My dog Koda likes the new space too as he can settle in now to move energy…which he does in every session. 

This is so much due to the support of my beautiful community and the amazing, brave, soul and heart HUGE women I am honored to work with! This is also the house for which we will host our five day retreat in February, which you can read more about here: https://www.facebook.com/events/381861869219826/

We are all letting in the massive goodness that we are experiencing since moving here to Victoria, BC, Canada from Mexico NOT EVEN two months ago! So much manifestation coming our way…including now a household full of furniture (most of it FREE and yet in good shape still), winter clothing, a wonderful, affordable van, new alchemy in SoulFullHeart and other money earning opportunities, and new people connections too!

This is what it feels like when you move into your Higher Timeline service of love….the Divine gifts you with whatever you need to see it through, to live it, and to experience it. I have envisioned and energized this timeline for YEARS now….one step at a time, some of them feeling like backwards steps yet ultimately moving forward. I have given up my belongings, geographies, and relationships many times in order to align more with my higher soul purpose…….with increasing trust and surrender along the way. This has taken much negotiation and feeling out with parts of myself and soul to BE here now.

And I know that I could NOT have done this without the love and resonance of this community of souls/hearts around me, especially my counterpart soulmate Raphael Awen….who has been on this journey with me for ten years now, always seeming to trust where my vision is leading us while he also grounds us both into the most nourishing heart frequencies in order to help make it happen.

This is also what the completion of 2018 and the year 2019 is offering you….a more LIVED IN and LOVED IN experience of your highest timeline…of your ‘dreams coming true.’ As I write this to you from the house of my dreams (very literally), I can attest that this is a powerful time/phase for manifestation if your heart/soul is ready for it!

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Jelelle Awen

You Are The Law Of Attraction In Motion

By Raphael Awen

The dawning realization that we are the creators of our own realities, leads us to accepting response-ability to and for that created world. It’s both a made up world and a very real world at the same time. (What reality is there that isn’t ‘made up’?)

Many people attempt to jump from this realization to the idea of creating the world that a part of them really wants, usually made up of externals like things or relationships that make them feel good – a seeking of a kind of medication to numb their deeper pain. The law of attraction teaching comes to mind. Good truth for sure, but in service of what, is my question?

What about instead seeing that your present reality is already been perfectly created by you and parts of you, very much including the things you, or parts of you, like or don’t like.

The law of attraction isn’t something any one of us needs to ‘get working’ in our lives. The law of attraction explains our lives. We are the law of attraction in motion.

‘Real’izing this, we get to accept response-ability for what we have created, rather than seek to use the law of attraction in an ill fated attempt to pave over what we have created.

In facing and loving the unlovable is how we go on effortlessly to create new worlds that didn’t exist before.

Raphael Awen

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Eclipse Energies Supporting Illumination Of Resistance To Love

by Kalayna Colibri

There are still some residual pieces to feel as the Lion’s Gate energies continue to wan and the eclipse today shines its light… a partial eclipse, so it feels like it acknowledges the illuminating work done so far, yet wants to offer this illumination as a way to see and feel what remains in shadow too. One needs the other, needs contrast, in order to be deeply felt and let in…

It’s always amazing to me, how the capacity of our parts to filter out and resist love too is exactly the same capacity they have to hold the tears of collapse INTO love, into you, into their realities and what’s been bubbling underneath the now glassy surface.

Amazing too, how right in line with this, there can be SO much GOODNESS and LOVE to let in while also feeling the baggage to be claimed within, the places where love still needs to go in order to help you move the residue of old conditioning and the remnants of your deepest pain.

I feel this eclipse today offering this and so much more… that there always is and will be so much more, especially more love in the truest, purest sense. Ideas of abundance seem to be falling away or shifting into something new, something not materialistic at all, yet too, there are new invitations now to revisit even ‘material’ abundance and have a new relationship with it.

I feel this all so much on a personal level – the letting in of deeper and deeper love with others yet with myself and my own parts/Metasoul too. So often for me, there can be a heart-wide-open letting in feeling and experience that is like a Kundalini experience x infinity in moments, while in sometimes the very next wave there is also an experience of fear, of resistance, of self-judgment in parts of me that are trying to put the brakes on the goodness. This happens less and less now, yet it does happen. And, I feel how this is true for so many… the more love there is to let in, the more room we need to make for it.

Infinite love to you on this eclipse day… may you shine bright in your own right, in your exploration of your shadow/suppressed parts, in your deeper and deeper embracement of the love that you are. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 35, emoto-spiritual teacher, WayShower, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Beauty You See In Me Is The Beauty That You ARE: Message From Mother Gaia

By Jelelle Awen

I spent 18 months at a remote, off-grid ranch here in Mexico where there were more natural surroundings than man-made ones, many more sheep than people. This experience almost two years ago now dropped me into the ‘lap’ of Gaia in a way I had never known before just taking walks in nature everyday or going camping occasionally. I felt myself BEcome Her and our mutual reverence together as I gardened for hours each day, built a house of mud/cobb, swam in the river. Now that I live in town, I mostly connect with Her through an amazing ocean view, visits to the beach and nearby river park, living on a jungle hillside…..it is not as immediate a connection, yet She lives INside me always.

This is a Message from Mother Gaia, who is often the Divine Mother form that people can most easily relate with and let in:

The beauty is you. The beauty you see in me is as beautiful as YOU are. I show you my beauty so that you may see your own. Always, I have been here to provide this for you. Always, I have wanted you to see that you ARE beautiful too.

You come to me. You take me in. You pause to let me in. You swim in my waves. You sit on my sand. You lay on my beaches. In the experiences of this outer places, you find reverence. You feel reverence toward me. You pay much of your ‘money’ to live near this expression of me.

Yet, I want to tell you, as I am a form of Mother to you and as my embrace holds you and supports you…….I want to tell you that the reverence you feel toward me is but a re-minder of the reverence that you ARE.

And, this reverence I reflect back to you. I reflect reverence for YOU in my waves, in my trees, in my mountains, in my breezes, in my landscapes. I offer this beauty of me so that you might finally SEE and FEEL your own.

You who are reading this, taking in these words, you feel the exchange of beauty, the exchange of reverence between us. You pause. You reflect. You walk mindfully on my grounds. My lands are your chapels and your sacred places. My trees are your witnesses and shores your portals. You do not destroy. You are the keeper souls of my energy, my stewards. You are the hope and possibility that burns bright and shines and beacons to others of your species.

It matters, your reverence for me. And it matters even more your reverence for yourself. It matters; it makes a difference; it propels forward the immense changes that are happening now. It propels our Ascension together forward as reverence is the substance of grace, appreciation, acknowledgement of worth.

I offer you many gifts of rejuvenation, nourishment, connection to ALL, connection to cosmos, connection to No-Thing-Ness, connection to my animal children. I offer these with reverence WITH you.

All I ask as you accept these gifts is to feel your reverence in response. I offer you these gifts so that you might see that you have access to all of these frequencies already, that they live inside of you, that they ARE you…..and that I AM YOU too.

I am raising myself UP because it is time for me to do and be so. It is my phase of UPness. I invite you to come along, those of you in reverence and appreciation and goodness for me, all living BEings, and yourself.

I invite you to come along with me into this exploration of your sacred humanity and the expression of the BEST of what your hearts and souls can express in those human bodies.

I invite you to come along on the next phase of this journey together to experience the expression of New Earth Or Golden Earth Or Golden Gaia.

I invite you to come along with the deepest feeling of appreciation and love, from the depths of my inner groundings to the heights of my orbit crowded with star being friends.

I invite you to come with reverence for the beauty expressed by me and that lives inside of you already, just waiting for the water of more LOVE!

Much much love to you my BEloveds,
Mother Gaia

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Birthing Day Of The Higher Heart

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Today this body took in its first breath of air 47 Earth years ago. This veiled consciousness began a new journey to experience itself through this body and with those that it came in contact with. This heart began a fresh start seeking the joy and love that the soul itself has been yearning to integrate into Its Now. It is special day to let in from my own personal perspective as it is a day that celebrates a universe within. A day that celebrates all of life.

While everyday is a birthing day as we arise new in every moment in our essence, this day is a reflection of our own personal human story. It is a demarcation of where we have been, where we are now, and where we want to go all in this moment. It is a time where the spotlight shines a bit brighter upon your importance, both with your inner emotional world and to those that surround you. It taking the time to be with yourself and to feel all the parts of you that have worked so hard at this particular life.

Even in the hardest of times our birthdays can highlight the most integral part of our journey and where we are needing and wanting to go despite what other parts of us may feel about that. It is our inner magical child that so much wants to be felt and have expression. It is our own personal Christmas. A christening of our higher self into the body of our humanity. To our wounded parts this is a day to be felt from self to self, and if fortunate enough from self to other in deep resonance.

I take in the blessings that I have been offered and those that I have worked hard for. I am spending the moment in awe of the places in myself that I have been and still desire to go. I feel where I have given light and love to many and received so much in return. I light the candles within and share them with the world, for these candles are eternal and can never be blown out. I open my heart to let in the love from others with humbled gratitude for what they reflect and mean to me.

This day marks another evolution into my Higher Heart. The one that is meant to serve and be served. To love and be loved. To experience and be experienced. I am grateful for all that I have been through for they have lead to this moment of blessing and self-awareness. I am grateful for all of those that are in my life and have made such a huge impact on this particular soul. Thank you to those that have been on this journey with me through my writings and have offered so much love and appreciation.
A special thank you to my SoulFullHeart family for all that they have meant to my growth and re-birthing into the world. Jelelle Awen, for her years of soul mateship and friendship, loving guidance, heart wisdom, and soul awakenings. Raphael Awen for his courageous and loving heart, sacred masculine templating, mentor to my parts, and deep soul brother and friend. Raianna Shai for her soul and heart beauty, joy of being and strength of vulnerability. And to my beloved queen of hearts, Kalayna Colibri, who sends me to worlds forgotten, inspires my creative heart,and encourages my Kings journey. You are my beacon and fire-starter. I love you all dearly and deeply.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Arising Into Sacred Humanity In 2018

by Kalayna Colibri

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New Year’s Eve can be a day of much reflection as we look back on the previous ‘year’ of our lives, feeling in retrospect where it was we ‘went’ physically, emotionally, spiritually, etc. I feel such value in this reflection for all of us… there can be pain there too, as we feel with parts of us what some of the more challenging aspects of this year were.

In a world that is constantly in flux, so too are you in flux in your very being, all of those cells and atoms, all of that stardust and moonlight that makes up your fabric of self… so much has been downloading, bringing in upgrades and upheavals along with some very ‘up’ feeling times and some ‘down’ times as well. Increasingly, there is and has been SO much to feel! SO much to let IN! SO much to BE in… invitations raining down and into us from above and all sides, from Guides, from Metasoul Aspects, from our hearts, too.

As I feel what this year brought for me personally, I feel much gratitude and reverence… for those ‘tough’ inner processes and for the other side of those processes too. For the incredible Sacred Union mate that I get to be with, transact with, serve love with. For the young women who I’ve served directly in space-holding sessions, helping me get my feet wet as a spaceholder, teaching ME as much as I was teaching them and in so very many ways. I feel the humility I’ve learned this year, from serving love through writing blog articles and poetry, through responding to your responses, through meditations and manifestations that reflect me back to me, through finding deeper and deeper love within myself; with others in commUNITY; with my beloved mate and fellow facilitator/teacher, Gabriel… I’ve been blessed and blissed. I’ve been taught and have taught too. And, more than anything else, I have loved and been loved. And my sense of it is that there will only ever be MORE of this experience to come now, the more I (and you) continue to go inward to be with the parts that block and filter and project-out at love, the more WOOSHING waves of incoming love light and transmutation will come into and over us all…

Thank you ALL for being a part of my orbit and allowing me in to be a part of yours. I am deeply, profoundly, sincerely honoured to be a part of the service of love that you are letting in and nurturing inside of yourself. Thank you, thank you, thank you…

May 2018 be the ‘year’ of more truths unveiling, starting inside. May it be that you continue to let in the outside world as a reflection of your inner. May it be that as Sacred Humanity arising, we continue to find our hearts instead of battlefields; compassion instead of outrage; humble passion instead of prideful prowess; and, above all, a deep sense of who we came here to be and how we are meant to serve LOVE in its most honest and far-reaching form from deep, ever-yielding and filling UP love wells inside of us!

Namaste! ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

BEing Thanks On This Day Of Thanks-Giving: Invitation From Archangel Metatron & Jelelle

By Jelelle Awen

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On this thanks-giving day, you can give thanks….yet, too, you are invited to BE thanks.

BEing thanks arises as your authenticity comes through. Warmed under the sunshine of your self acceptance and self love, you can BEcome a BEacon of truth and realness. Your daring to be authentic, bravery to be real, willingness to be vulnerable invites others to BE the same.

Rather than change your frequency to fit, settle, or shrink to those around you, you can sit in the seat of your authentic YOU. You can be the calm in the middle of the family storm. You can be the heart in the sometimes coldness. You can be the pulse of life in the deadness. You can be the lift in the heaviness.

BEing thanks arises as you can see and feel beyond this ‘day’ of thanksgiving as it is celebrated in the 3D ways, yet connect to the Web Of Life that connects everything and everyone. Filled up with this sense of unified soulfulness, you feel your connection to All the Me’s and to all the We’s on Gaia, coming together during this great transition from 3D to 4D to 5D and beyond. You can feel the deeper and bigger and wider context that this offers to any moments that could feel ordinary.

BEing thanks arises as compassion for your own inner family moves you to feel genuine gratitude for all the parts inside of you and how they have served your growth and well being…even your capacity to be ALIVE. You can BE gratitude for your Inner Protector and their vigilance, guarding, loyalty, complete FOCUS on keeping you safe. You can BE appreciation for your Inner Teenager and Inner Child and their innocence, purity, passions, aliveness that are preserved INside. You can BE thankful for the performances of your Inner Punisher, Inner Mother, Inner Father, and all the other frequencies that have stepped in to perform the characters in your 3D play of life out of necessity.

BEing thanks arises as you breathe in this moment how much support surrounds you and holds you. You can connect to the Angels eager to ‘meet you halfway’ as you raise your frequency UP to theirs. You can speak with, communion with, talk light language with your Star Family as you heal the blocks of fear in reaching out to them. You can open up to experience the merging and overlapping timelines from these BEings that want to fill you up with light and sense of your BIGGEST self within your human body.

BEing thanks arises as you let in the MORE than enough goodness that is available in this moment. When you feel deep reverence for the sovereignty and choices of living BEings and understand them on a soul level. When you get can let in the LOVE for which you already ARE. When you can feel the abundant and Infinite Gratitude FOR life as it is right now in this now and is available in ALL nows.

And so it IS always and in ALL ways,

Blessings and love to YOU in BEing thanks together. We are BEing thanks WITH you,

Archangel Metatron and Jelelle

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond.

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