By Jelelle Awen
Energy Update: The completion of a year AND a decade and an important seven year cycle that started in 2012 offers a significant marker for us all. So many of us awakened at initial and then deeper levels during these last ten years. This decade has offered us the waking up to 3D reality, to really coming to understand it and feel it on the outside in what we have known as reality and from within as embodied in the parts of our 3D Self.
We have become intimate with the survival frequencies of 3D that are about conforming, fitting in, doing work to live, obligation and duty in relationships, keeping up appearances and maintaining self image through material gains, medicating and bypassing emotions, staying guarded and defended, etc. And, hugely, underneath it all, we have discovered the previously unfelt fear that flows like a river beneath the 3D Matrix that all of us have been born and bred into.
The energies now, in this final month of the decade, have a ‘grand finale’ feeling to them expression of those 3D frequencies. Wherever these 3D energies live inside of you and in whatever ways they show up in relationships, you may be feeling that acutely right now. You are being shown by your Higher Self where fear still lives in your life, where the attachments are that are based in fear, where fear is more dominant than love.
This showing you can be intense as relationships complete, geographies shift, jobs end, timelines collapse…sometimes suddenly in a feverish moment of crisis and sometimes gradually and quietly over time. There is a peaking sense to this exposure. Peak fear, some have called it. The experience of this can seem unbearable at times and overwhelming. It can bring up hopelessness and despair that nothing is actually changing. It can bring up anxiety and even panic attacks as the distrust (fear of love) is invited to move into trust and surrender.
Sadness and mourning, even depression, hold funeral services to honor and let go of what has been experienced and invested in 3D consciousness during this decade. The versions of you that have existed in these 3D timelines are getting ready to let go, ready to die, ready to ascend, ready to integrate into the growing authentic expression of your essence. There is space to be made for the grieving so that nothing is bypassed that would allow for the simmering of more distrust and more protective layers over your heart.
The walls really do want to dissolve with love as we move into 2020. The revelation of these walls is the phase you may be in now. You can become aware of and connected to your Inner Protector, a masculine energy that has constructed these walls, that guards your heart and keeps younger parts of you and your feminine essence ‘safe’. The Protectors/Gatekeepers (protectors on the soul level) are invited to shift from guard to guide, to drop the weapons of defense to become ambassadors of love. First is the revealing and the seeing and the showing of them that is happening now. Then is the loving of these protections and understanding that they have HAD to be here and have been absolutely necessary to survive.
Here is a guided meditation to connect with your Inner Protector: https://youtu.be/2FzBzK5vgck
2020 is inviting us to move beyond survival and into thrival, as a collective and individually. The grand finale of surviving on fear fumes is the energies moving through now.
Join Raphael Awen and I for our monthly group transmission call on Saturday, December 14 at 10:00am PDT where we will offer teachings and a guided meditation to digest the decade and prep for 2020. More info here: https://www.facebook.com/events/465469127414714/ or soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events
Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions with her for women and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.