Tag: healing polarities within

Black Moon Lilith Amplifying Polarities, Inviting Soul Healing

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by Kasha Rokshana

🌑Black Moon Lilith Energy Update: Lilith is a powerful energy of Dark Mother and one that is up right now, stirring pots and amplifying what needs to be felt and exposed, both within you and in the collective. Dark Mother in general is a huge part of our Ascension, yet feeling a specific face of Her is often a supportive way to feel ourselves and feel Mother’s heart holding us all.

Before I even realized that we’re currently in a powerful Lilith Dark Moon phase, I had been connecting to my own polarities inside of me that still live in my Metasoul in other lifetimes, especially in priestess timelines and also in my Gatekeeper (a soul aspect that it seems we all have, who is the keeper of our veils and Akashic Records access, you could say). A recent Metasoul aspect that I met asked me to call her ‘Lilith’ and at the time I didn’t know why. Now it feels like she was drawing my attention to these current energies and how they played out in her lifetime as well.

I’ve felt how in recent sharings I’ve gone a bit more into edgy energies that aren’t really me as ‘Kasha’ and now that I’m starting to take them back inward and feel what these reactions have been about, I can feel not only my own personal Lilith influence in my soul, but also a precious and tender aspect of me that is my Inner Orphan. This is still a deepening and unfolding process for me that I don’t have total clarity on at the moment, but it’s a big one with pain coming up to be felt that I thought maybe had been resolved, which is also an aspect of what’s moving with the Lilith influence right now.

Lilith is significant for women because she represents sovereignty and autonomy. She encourages us to say ‘no’ to patriarchal energies and influences, yet when she’s taken in solely in this way, it can become hijacked by pain in our Metasouls that then comes out with anti-masculine energies or even anti-feminine energies too. That may seem a bit backward, yet there is often quite a bit of sisterhood karma-drama between women who feel like kindred souls and this can definitely become amplified with reactivity and even a longing for a depth of female connection we once knew in our Metasouls until it was hijacked by Cabal energies and other dark influences.

As I took in information others have shared about the Lilith Dark Moon, I realized that the Cabal chose this time specifically to bring up the recent Roe v Wade issue that’s come up, which has absolutely brought out more polarity during what has already been an amped-up month in some ways energetically. Taking a step back from my own reactions to so many things lately, I can feel how my soul is still learning to trust in these revelations and movements, to see what’s being exposed with as little judgement as possible, and to move beyond needing to be polarized and reactive in order to start not only seeing the bigger picture, but letting it in and living in it. 

The pain of the feminine womb has been real and we all feel it. We all feel our sisters both inside ourselves and outside too, rumbling and shaking with desire for their empowerment, for the feminine to arise and be revered as truly sacred. This is tricky ground to walk at times, as the feminine arising means she needs to also find out what she is not or no longer wishes to be. This is a sacred and personal process for all women and also for the feminine in men and for those men who have chosen to be in deep mateships with women. There is no ‘one size fits all’ way to feel and live into this process, but rather we are invited to feel and experience our uniqueness, address the messes we make inside and out, feel our impact on those around us with an open(ing) heart, and lean back into the dynamically flowing love of Divine Mother who holds our whole process of re-discovery with deep love and compassion.

I feel even in the necessary ferocity from a face of Mother like Lilith, so much love and care. I also feel how She has been projected onto and even used as a reason to be in a near-constant battling energy rather than moving into more Love Ambassadorship. I feel grateful for what she has helped stir and amplify within me so that I can see it and become intimate with it, what she has stirred between my beloved Gabriel and I for us to look at and feel together, and what she invites us into for our own empowerment. 

I feel how much power there is available to all of us at this time, as we become clearer about who we truly are as the layers continue to burn and fall away. I actually feel how there’s more power available when we embody our feminine as women without concern or attachment to the outward expression of it. Lilith just IS feminine empowerment and love, and even though the lore around her has her showing up as an angry and fighter-like energy, I can feel how much more depth of feeling and wisdom there is to tap into that can take us beyond being polarized and instead into immense love, and forgiveness, for ALL.

Love,

Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Sacred Timing Of Your Personal Shadow/Light Explorations

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by Kasha Rokshana

We can choose to lump our experiences in with what’s moving cosmically or the energies coming in through special occasions like Samhain for example, yet the real experiences you’re having are moving within you and are deeply personal to you. What you’re feeling has a timing all its own.

I felt yesterday some beautiful frequencies moving into and through me that were activating and also planted seeds in me that I’ll keep watering as I go. No doubt that Samhain energies helped move these activations through, but without the soul readiness and challenges of inner work, I wouldn’t have been ready to receive them. And, even still, I’m digesting them today and going ‘Wow, I have a lot more to feel through as I go forward’ even while I feel a celebration too!

I feel this in me and in my beloveds too. We all have our unique versions of this experience and process and it’s in our intimacy and resonance together that we support each other to be grounded and real yet also grow our wings (uncomfortable in moments, that process is) and fly.I felt us all getting a sense yesterday that we’re being supported by the Divine to move into and through some more shadow pieces and integrate that as we go. Doing this in relationship with each other is a gift and also alchemically moves more of this ongoing process through our fields. There are gifts in the exploration of your inner darkness and revealing what’s been hidden. It’s important not only for our own sakes but for the world we wish to serve love into and with.

We are also anchoring our inner light and bigness through and alongside this process and in some ways, it’s a bit of a twist to realize that what your light REALLY is, is actually what has been hidden in ‘shadow’. Woah. That’s a lot to let in and integrate right there.

In other words, what I want to offer, is that Samhain or not, we are ALL in a deep exploration of our shadows and light too in whatever ways and at whatever levels we are ready for that. Layers and layers are becoming ripe for this journey. None are exempt. It extends well beyond being a ‘civic duty’ to choose this process. It’s an invitation from our Sacred Humanity to make room for it to truly birth into this world and something we get to consciously choose to do, in the full breadth and depth of our empowerment from deep within.

Sharing a few photos of us all from yesterday where you can feel the soul activations and deepenings happening in our own unique ways! ❤️

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I’ll share more about my ongoing process with this on our Mighty Networks site, where all of my beloveds will be sharing ongoingly as well through more writings, videos, etc. It’s our offering of a high-vibe ‘shelter in the storm’ and our personal ‘ministry’ calling to support your healing and ascension process. More here: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co

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Kasha Rokshana is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Energy Update: Healing Polarities Within Illuminated By The Eclipse and 1:11 Passage Energies

Published on by Jelelle Awen3 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

Energy Update: What a swirl of energies for us in the beginning weeks of 2020! New timeline possibilities of bliss, joy, dreams coming into clarity and coming true. And, at the same time, grieving, sadness, and mourning processes as we ‘let go’ of whatever needs to be in order to respond to the new.
We are invited to expand our emotional body capacities to ride the waves and to hold mixed feeling realities at once within us. Sad and excited. Bittersweet. Hopeful and fearful. Trusting and mistrusting. These can be necessary mixed feeling states, yet they can also be signs of polarities within from one part of you to another. One part feels scared while another part feels hopeful. One part feels attached to a relationship and trauma bonded while another part of you is increasingly clear that the relationship needs to shift.
The polarities within are a result of 3D conditioning that offers a ‘black and white’, ‘this against that’ way of relating to life. The polarities within can be felt by you as you connect with the parts of you on each of their ‘sides’ and let their emotional realities land in your heart to be felt. You can find then a ‘middle way’ as an ambassador to these parts of you, bringing them into a balanced place and more even-keel blend. The polarities within can also be a result of our original separation from and out of the Divine. Reconciliation within from this lifetime helps to heal this soul wound.
These polarities within (also often between our inner masculine and inner feminine) were amplified by the full moon lunar eclipse codes blending with the 1:11 portal energies that peaked on Saturday. The feminine Full Moon Eclipse energies and more sacred masculine 1:11 portal passage brought up some weepiness, mood swings, crying purges, tension then trust waves as emotional body clearings and upgrades occurred. The 1:11 codes offered higher timeline clarities and possibilities and the courage to make life choices toward them, while the lunar eclipse energies offered emotional digestion of these choices.
On the other side of this passage, there is a sense of calming down and more rest, more groundedness from within, and an emotional reset. There is a sense of space within to digest in a more full-hearted way the changes and choice points that may have been illuminated to you during this passage.
Divine Mother energies of Kuan Yin offer stillness and gentleness through snow and winter codes and compassion to receive from within and to extend to others. At the same time, there is a heightened activity of fires, volcanoes and earthquakes as Dark Mother and Mother Gaia continue to bring in catalytic frequencies of clearing and rumbling alchemy.
There is also complex stream of SOULar winds forecasted to come into our atmospheres today from two to three holes in the sun’s surface. No geomagnetic storms are expected to come in, but there will be a surge of auroras when the solar wind arrives, according to spaceweather.com. SOULar winds can heighten and amplify any body symptoms you may be experiencing, including light headedness, disrupted sleep patterns, indigestion, colds and flu symptoms, etc.
All these energies offer us the opportunity to find our ‘home’ within and discover increasing trust in the flow of life held with Divine surrender. We can ride the waves of polarized emotions and bring love to all the parts of us that are feeling them. We can connect to the bigger soul context around the reason we are experiencing life AS we are. We can trust the growth that it brings to us as we move into our sacred humanity.

Here is a playlist for all four of my videos that I’ve released in my Deepen 2020 series, with the first one featured below. These videos are created in response to the current energies we are navigating and offer a bridge to connect to your emotional body, your soul, and the Divine support that is always available:

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about  1:1 individual sessions with her for women and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group calls, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

 

Whew!! Coming Through The Powerful March SOULar Activations Passage

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By Jelelle Awen

What an INtense couple of weeks it has been during this March Equinox 2018 passage! The sacred masculine activations through SOULar winds, geomagnetic storms, and waves have been near constant for close to two weeks. They ebbed and flowed and ‘hit’ you depending on how consciously you were meant to feel and track them. You may have become more aware during this time of how cosmic energy is not really ‘out there’, yet how much it can impact your inner cosmos. These energies are meant to catalyze and support our ongoing arising into sacred humanity. We became more attuned to how we ARE energy and everything we experience on the emotional and spiritual and physical levels is a reflection of energetic shifts and changes from both ‘outside’ and INside.

Also, linear time dissolved from our mental tracking that much more. There was often just the moment of Now with more multidimensional awareness of timelines overlapping and merging and collapsing around us. There was so often an inability to track with the mind at all and eventual surrendering to the Higher Self and our higher dimensional aspects/guides that seemed to kNOW what was going on. A trust that the whole process was being held, guided, and supported from our Higher Selves was more palpable as parts of us HAD to lean in more and let go of controlling.

These activations seemed to bring in, MARCH in…. Bliss Mess experiences with ups and downs. The SOULar wind currents could take you from intense joy to acute pain to sweet surrender……all within the same day! They could offer tastes of New Gaia 5D states of self love and compassionate love for ALL sentient BEings with deeper awarenesses that we are ALL meant to come along during the Ascension process. Kundalini awakenings and dripline surges of Divine Feminine and Masculine frequencies created NEW pathways of consciousness for the inner and out experience of TRUE sacred union within the body. Clarities and callings and calls to action connected to your highest timeline manifestation here downloaded through messages, images, visions, dreams, and synchronicities. You may have experienced a deeper embodiment of your Service of Love Self/5D Self and the next choice points that lead to MORE of this BEing state.

There were the physical body reactions of muscle pains and tensions, dizziness and even vertigo, ears ringing and singing, head and neck aches, nausea and appetite shifts, sleeping pattern changes (SO sleepy and foggy sometimes) and WIDE awake too at new times. Activation of our light bodies went to a NEW place, an accelerated invitation to the densest aspect of our physical expression to keep crystallizing through detoxification and clearings on a cellular level. Previous illnesses/injuries/diseases, denser choices in food and deathstyle habits came up and out to clear the way for MORE light to come in. Your Higher Heart activation is connecting you to the cries of the world and a place where killing frequencies can no longer be digested, supported, or ignored.

Where your body stores emotional congestion and karmic wounding vibrated through to express as voices from parts of you that still hold self punishment, self consciousness, self doubt, shame, over protectiveness, and guilt. These parts of you are coming UP now to be seen, heard, and felt by you, to be offered loving self space holding. These parts of you want to transmute their energy from judgement to discernment, from self consciousness and self doubt to self acceptance, from shame to innocence, from protectiveness to guidance, from guilt to forgiveness. These fragments and pieces of your 3D Self (your Protector, your Punisher, your Inner Teenager and Child, your Inner Mother/Father) are ready to come back into wholeness with you again and find a soft place to land in your heart and soul. More about parts here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

The EQUInox energies illuminated polarization from inside of your masculine and feminine aspects. This may have showed up in clashes and sudden relationship issues with others. The standoffs and conflicts with others escalating so that you can complete, resolve, and respond with NEW frequencies of love. The Higher Heart activations make abuses unable to be accepted, both as they occur inside and with others. Even what you define as ‘abuse’ is shifting to a higher criteria for yourself and with others. Repressed sexuality based on this life abuse trauma and Metasoul/other timelines is getting your attention and healing so that you can BLOOM into your gender sexuality with maturity, with self love, and within your embodied humanity.

The necessity of connecting with and becoming conscious of your chakras in a NEW way downloaded during this passage too. Ascension Chakra Vortexes became more clear to me during this Equinox passage as the next place of expansion in our relationship with our chakra bodies to help with INtegration of these cosmic energy activations. We are being activated to have a consciousness of our chakras in a deeper way, in a less linear way, and in a more intimate way. This happens through activation of our 5D violetprint through connection with our Personal Sun Chakra Vortex, our Higher Heart Chakra Vortex, and our Gaia Chakra Vortex. This is the guided meditation that I did to offer this: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2018/03/20/activate-your-personal-sun-higher-heart-and-gaia-ascension-chakras-guided-meditation-video/

Our service of love offerings through SoulFullHeart were ignited during this time….as yours might have been too. I am now offering 1:1 bridging sessions with me over zoom for $55 USD for up to 90 minutes for men and women with more information here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session. We felt guided to offer more activations of Unity Consciousness through sharing our community Merkabah during a group session for members of our PREP and DEEP programs, a livestream where we responded to your questions, and a Unity Meditation call (our biggest group call yet.) We are now feeling to offer a free Unity Meditation call every ten days or so, corresponding to cosmic energy events and happenings. Our next ones are on April 4th and 14th with more information here: soulfulllheartwayoflife.com/events or https://www.facebook.com/pg/soulfullheartwayoflife/events/?ref=page_internal

The social body has been activated to move from over dependence models such as guru-devotee or overly independent such as in being a lone wolf to interdependence within conscious community. This means the continual revealing and healing of the shadow expressions of our previous cult-ural group experiences. I am re-releasing tomorrow a memoir about my Dark Night and Awakening experiences within a high-demand spiritual group and my courtship/falling in love with Raphael that led to us leaving that group. It is called Under The Bloated Banyan and we’ll be giving that book away as a FREE PDF tomorrow March 28th (which is also our ninth wedding anniversary!) with details about that coming soon. You can also purchase that book and all my books as PDFs, ebooks, and print editions here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books

ALL of these processes activated during the last two weeks offers a VERY palpable acceleration of Ascension that continues with this new year of 2018. These are ongoing processes, of course, with the invitation for all of us to deepen, expand, and embody continuing on into the next days, weeks, months, and years. YOU are the event you’ve been waiting for and these are the happenings both INside and outside that create our NEW world based on LOVE in this NOW.

To read all of my energy updates go here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/category/by-jelelle-awen/energy-updates-with-jelelle-awen/

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Jelelle offers a 90 minute one on one bridging session with her over zoom for $55 USD min. donation…more information here. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.