By Raphael Awen – Page 35 – Divine Self Embodiment Blog (Formerly SoulFullHeart)

Re-creation

Published on December 1, 2017 by Raphael Awen1 Comment

Feeling the feeling that your life as you currently know it is a perfect mirror of the larger totality of your being, in both its local (conscious) and nonlocal (subconscious) aspects is the portal to accelerated growth and inhabitation of the largesse of your being.

The word mirror in its root meaning speaks of the ability to see what can’t be seen, or to see what is in the shadow.

The lives we are currently living with all the feelings, experiences, disappointments, fulfillments, aches, disease and health are all perfect projections projected out onto this mirror called your life. Often times, others around us can see more of what’s in our mirror, as we all tend to possess less courage to look at our own mirror.

Seeing this is not so much a philosophical realization, as much as it is a courageous willingness to be ready to admit full responsibility for our lives.

Reality is as real as real can be, AND it is 100%, totally and completely simply made up. Both are true. AND, the creator is this magical god-being called you, and me. We are to each other synchronistic characters in each other’s play, upon the mirrored stages of each other’s lives.

Anything I say or declare to be ‘true’ can never be anything more than my truth, as the mere act of looking at my declared truth changes it and queues it up for further revision. Everything I say can never be more than ‘near as I can tell’. If I arm twist anyone into seeing it as more than that, I am out to control you, out of my own insecurities, yes, but deeper than that, I am out to deny my own reality-creation reality and I’m needing your cosignature of that as a reinforcement. In other words, I’m hiding. And I’m creating culture as a hiding place, because that is something else we cannot not-do as the creators that we are.

Hanging on rigidly to declarations of absolute truth is also a reality creating projection option that we all have. I personally went through a long phase this life as a Christian where I ‘knew that I knew’ that the Bible was ‘the inerrant, infallible, God-breathed word of God’. The reality felt very blissfully watertight, until the glitches in this matrix of my own creation (and collective archetypal co-creation) began to become apparent to me, inviting me to investigate my paradigm, and then later to see this paradigm being generated from my own reality creating generator.

This then awakens us to the fact that we are unable to turn our reality creating mechanism to any ‘off’ position. But what we can do is take responsibility for what we are creating and seek to alter the reality of what we are creating. How we do that is up for creation and continual re-creation (divine play).

In SoulFullHeart, our truth is that parts of ourselves hold the deeper textures of this reality generating mechanism and only through relationally getting to know and feel them is any substantive and quantum change able to occur in our lives. Short of getting to know our sub-personalities, we are left with a part of us holding our consciousness hostage and embarking on yet another self help trip.

Your Higher Self can very much interrupt this pattern through your awakening choice and intention to get to know and feel these aspects of yourself. We find it truly is magical.

We get to make up our own reality, and admit that we are, and recreate it as often as we need to, evolving from one truth to another, to another.

That’s crazy hot stuff man, and I don’t think anything you are smoking compares!

Raphael Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.Com/sfhprocess

Hey: Our next Group Call with Jelelle Awen and I on the 9th would be a great calibration point to our energy if you are feeling to feel us out deeper. We would love to have you as we are actively wanting to expand our community of SoulFullHearts. More here:https://www.facebook.com/events/813881412132524??ti=ia

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about Weekly Sessions, Live Streams, Videos, and Community.

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SoulFullHeart’s Monthly Money UPdate for November 2017

Published on November 30, 2017November 30, 2017 by Raphael AwenLeave a comment

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By Raphael Awen

The 5 of us lived comfortably this month on $740 USD per person!

This is a product of an ongoing deep reboot with our relationship to money and career.

I know how crazy $700 a person sounds for a comfortable enough living arrangement to Western ears, as we used to live in Canada on much more.

We are very much looking to increase our income to enter some new timelines, and even return soon to Canada, and that will take some new money flow for sure, but I can’t tell you how great it has been to pull the plug on an old relationship to money. Some years ago, Jelelle and I (2 of us as opposed to 5) used to live on 10 times that amount while longing to put our deeper sense of calling first in our lives.

We very much can feel this new money timeline arising, and we wanted to document it and share it as we go, on a monthly basis with these Patreon posts as a way of transparentizing our own ongoing shifts in our relationship to money out to those we serve to help foster people’s own similar shifts.

Here’s a look at our money flow for this month: November, 2017.

(all figures in US Dollars)

$3,701 – Total Revenue for November (which was just over the recent 7 month average of 3,543).

Revenue breakdown as follows:

$2,271 – Gabriel and Kalayna’s English Teaching through VIPkid.

$202 – This month there was a bit of money from some online work gigs through UPwork that Kalayna and Raianna did with a little help from Gabriel and I.

$1,032 – Sessions Donations are back on the way up as a new wave of people are responding. We ask for a minimum donation of 55 USD per weekly session.

$140 – Group Call Donations for our one Group Call this month. Minimum donation is 11 usd to participate.

$42 – General Donations through Patreon and Paypal. We received one new monthly supporter this month for $25 usd.

$14 – Book Sales of Jelelle’s Books

On the Expenses side of things, we have:

$685 – Total Rent for 3 living spaces

$30 – 2 Zoom accounts for Sessions and Group Calls

$91 – Bank Service Fees and Payment transfer fees

$8 – Netflix

$75 – Internet – Total for 5 modems (where else can you get internet for $15.00?)

$97 – Monthly payments on 2 new laptops

$10 – Website Hosting

$996 – Total fixed expenses!

The rest ($541 per person) goes to food, clothes, a tiny bit on fuel, a bit at Starbucks and our wish list for home and recreation, etc..

We would be so delighted to receive your monthly support on Patreon at: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart

or you can make a one time donation (as often as you’d like) through our Paypal here: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart

Thank you for feeling this with us and thank you for your support!

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Undigested Trauma As A Portal To The Emotional Body

Published on November 29, 2017 by Raphael Awen3 Comments

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By Raphael Awen

It wasn’t the traumas that occurred to us that affect us long term as much as it was our inability to digest those traumas.

Traumas are digested by a heart-open other being there to feel what we are feeling, while we are feeling it.

When that didn’t happen for us in our earliest experiences as our caregivers were busy nursing their own undigested traumas, and often were the source of new traumas happening to us, a part of us formed to shut down feeling.

This shutting down of feeling was the only viable option given the landscape. Even this is a loving act by a loving being inside of us. These Inner Protector parts of us took their posts early in our lives, often in our infancy as the frequencies were too dissonant and something ‘needed to be done’ if we were to survive, and fulfill our mission this life.

The most interesting thing though is that for these traumas and their energy, there is no such thing as time. Our emotions don’t live by a calendar or a clock. They are only in the now, and this so explains why we as a human race are so averse to hanging around in the Now, always projecting ourselves into the past, the not-so-present present and the future.

We are afraid of the Now. It’s not that being in the Now is such an attained spiritual practice, but rather that this part of us, tasked with not feeling and compartmentalizing our feelings away, has effectively cordoned our conscious selves off from the Now.

We are left with trauma, and a part of ourselves formed to deal with the trauma the best way it knew how, and this necessitated that this part be largely at the helm of your personality.

Only with an arising you that is willing, wanting and committed to feeling these undigested traumas, will the Inner Protector part of you begin to let down its guard and enter a new relationship to its own being.

This is the true magical ground of transmutation into love that many of us know and feel is overdue and wanting to arise Now, but find so elusive for us personally after much focus of time and resources to spiritual practices. It was our Inner Protectors largely that were leading our spiritual regimens seeking a bit of relief while keeping their reality intact in our lives.

So let me ask you this: Would you be willing to begin to feel an arising you, in your sense of self, as distinct from what you always simply called ‘you’, as an authentic self called to get to know and feel this Inner Protector?

This is the golden portal into your magical essence. Your Inner Protector has effectively preserved an alternative reality cryogenically, now awaiting your awakening to what is, to begin a thawing process entering into this previously forbidden world of feelings.

That world of feeling is where you came from. It is your most upstream essence as a consciousness. Entering this domain required your essence as feeling to be ‘dealt with’ until such time as a deeper feeling awareness could arise with intention to return to full feeling.

Now, you become this heart-open other who shows up in the Now to feel what couldn’t be felt when these traumas entered your life. You showing up for you. You finding the holy grail of your own consciousness, and giving yourself to it as your deepest calling…

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Your Funnest Fun

Published on November 28, 2017 by Raphael Awen1 Comment

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By Raphael Awen

Your life is as grand of a stage as any.

The brand of fun you seek to have on that stage is as individual as you can get.

The fact that you seek fun, like every last one of us, IS the stage called life, that you share as a very common denominator, not only with all fellow humans, but with every cell in the universe that contains life and energy.

We’re just a bunch of fun hogs and it’s the best thing about us, and it maybe also true to say that it’s the worst thing about us, in that this search for fun, and pleasure is everything about us.

If that doesn’t sound sophisticated enough for you, then that just tells me something about the brand of fun you currently seek, particularly that you denying being a fun seeker IS what is currently your fun.

Your and my attempts at self denial is our self indulgence. You can’t escape being a self with self interests!

You may be working hard to hide what to a part of you is an embarrassment that you are out fun seeking just like the rest of us ‘lowlifes’.

This seems to be a really big deal, when we switch brands of the fun we seek, to what we feel is a ‘higher’ echelon, we tend to look down on those who haven’t ‘evolved’ like we have. When what’s more accurate is that a part of us is pissed that others are still getting fun out of something that ran out for us. What’s also more accurate is that a part of us is afraid we won’t find the same level of fun and community in the new deal we are subscribing into, like the one that once held us so securely.

Life keeps inviting us into new levels of fun, and there is nothing more scary, and more alive at the same time.

And if you are actually having fun, it’s quite contagious, given how wired up we all are to seek fun. No need to go door to door to sell it, unless that is what your fun is about, being perceived as a missionary of a higher order. That can obviously be quite fun for a time for some or they simply wouldn’t be doing it. I had that kind of fun for quite a while, and still sometimes try for a replay of that at times in different ways.

Our rigidity about being unwilling to come out and play in new dimensions really speaks to how fun starved we actually are. Our sometimes life long commitment to one belief system is about the fun of believing that though we aren’t actually having any fun now, it will payoff in the future in more fun than we can speak of.

In other words, we believe that sacrificing fun now will payoff in future fun? What?! What if that’s nothing more than making an excuse for one’s inability to digest fun now? What if that’s nothing more than an attempt at making fun out of a familiar hell that you are in because a part of you is afraid if you will actually be able to enjoy this future unfamiliar heaven you claim to be dreaming of?

Show me one spirituality that isn’t offering a form of fun. Show me one belief system, one paradigm of anything, from a street gang to a monastery, to Wall Street, to the Vatican, to you and me, to my own brand of fun… SoulFullHeart.

It’s pretty inescapable! This is the real matrix we find ourselves in, having chosen to participate in life energy. The matrix is being generated by us and we are just in process of coming to terms with the vastness of that. We are hardwired to find fun, and we are being invited to become childlike in this that when something loses its fun, we simply drop it and move on. If that takes a whole lifetime or more to move on, then the matrix you are creating and needing to come to terms with, the very life in your veins, will give you all the time in the universe to come to the realizations of what you are about, the who and what that you are!

That’s some pretty amazing shit to be going down. I’m just saying that I want more than anything to be enjoying the ride. Why suffer over the suffering of being called to fun?

The ‘problem’ here in this dimension is that there is more fun than you and I can handle so we generate suffering loops to moderate the pace and provide training wheels and handrails.

We’re doing it cosmically, collectively and personally, but make no mistake, WE are doing it…this governing of the amount and quality of the fun we can let in.

And if WE are doing it, then WE can undo it…by getting to know and feel the parts of ourselves caught in their matrix, to move from being in stuckness to being able to let in.

That’s my funnest fun at the moment, feeling that, learning about that, monitoring how much fun I’m actually having or not at times, which isn’t that much fun, but then finding myself also completely abandoned in fun at times as well.

And part of my fun is talking about my fun, like I’m doing now, which can be tricky, because if I’m actually having fun, there is no need to sell it as it won’t need any sales department…but talking about it can also be pure fun to let this reach for more flow through, so I get to reach for my next layer of fun, which includes others joining in.

If this calls to you, as fun, then I so welcome you to check out who and what we are in SoulFullHeart, and to join in, but only if it’s fun…

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Work As Play

Published on November 26, 2017 by Raphael Awen2 Comments

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By Raphael Awen

‘Sorry, but we’re all out of jobs now. There’s lots of play to choose from, but the jobs are all gone…’

If you are still seeking ‘work’ that can be exchanged for money, that isn’t coming from your deepest heart in the world, you are busy trying to fill a bathtub with a big ol’ drain and no stopper.

This used to work to some semblance of functionality, but the wheels are falling off this cart now. Where did we ever get the idea that doing something you didn’t love, that wasn’t coming from your heart, that you had to be in a big pretentious lie to endure, but that you could exchange money for, would actually contain any real value long term?

Money is only what we make it to be. It isn’t ‘real’, according to any laws of nature, other than it is what we energize it to be. When you make money doing something you don’t love, you are devaluing the value of the money you earn, and anything you buy with that money, is in turn filled with that energy, snowballing into deeper and deeper dissatisfaction.

We’ve collectively gone on to monetize everything and anything we could get our hands on, but that is changing fast. What I see happening now is a big demonetization scheme that the universe is supporting big time. The way personally into this energy is to feel more and more about who you are and what you are at a deeper level and begin to make choices deeper and deeper in alignment with this more authentic you. It won’t change overnight because it’s not meant to. You actually need to feel every step along the way, even if it feels like 1 step forward and 2 back at times.

Consider how the digital world collapsed the monetization of the music and publication industries. Huge mammoths that most took as a given would be with us till the end of time, are now considered dinosaurs. What we are on the verge now of having similarly dawn on our consciousness is the uselessness and the anxiety of the entire idea of ‘private’ ‘property’. Something very different, from different core assumptions of what the universe IS, as well as new technologies, will be at both the roots as well as the tallest branches of this new expression. You can feel this reality here now coming from higher dimensions filtering down into the more familiar 3D.

Want to start a revolution, with some web skills? Start a website called free.com or something similar that resembles Craig’s List, but conditions everything on being free. Maybe it’s already out there. Sounds crazy to our current conditioning, I know, but watch how many people need and want to clear their souls of the monetization trap they find themselves in?

It feels like we are about to do away with money completely as we know it. This opens out a whole lot of questions of what exchange will look and feel like and how things like motive and security will play out, but these are the very things that are changing under our feet.

If you are still sailing on the ship built squarely in old paradigm values, and you are wondering about how secure your future is, that’s because your future isn’t very secure in the old paradigm, and the holes in your ship are getting larger. Your anxiety, along with your waning energy for it is proof of the crumbling foundation. Time now to ask new QUESTions as you self lovingly, one step at a time embrace a new quest.

I can tell you what your future will look and feel like whether you chose this path or not, as we eventually will ALL get this…. Your future will be about having the fullest of security and enjoyment and pleasure from doing what you love, that comes from your heart. We are heading into a world where in the not too distant future, it will be openly frowned upon and be very self evident when anyone is pretending a role play in a ‘job’ for money alone. It will be seen as harm to self and others, not from a moral place, but from a place of being counter to love, counter to joy, and counter to freedom. How could anything outside of love possibly create and hold any true value?

Talk about a climate where most business models go south! ‘Business owners’ are going to have to come up with carrots a whole lot grander than money, and fast, if they wish to survive and transition.

What’s your deeper play, that your heart is on board with?

If you don’t know, what steps could you take to find out?

What adjustments could you make, or get ready to make, to your current trajectory and circumstances that would support this unfolding?

What stresses on your physical body and relationships do you need bring into your honest awareness as part of the funding of this shift of consciousness?

These are some of the beginning questions that we are being invited into. The universe has an unlimited infinite journey ahead for all of us, and life as we currently know it, that seems unchanging at times, is only one tiny chapter in a much grander story. This present chapter of lack and control, and ‘take it or leave it’ bosses, was just needed to set up the next chapter!

If you personally are done with that chapter, then you get to go on ahead as an early adopter to assist these pieces into the larger collective.

It’s the funnest fun! And it’s all play.

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Love The Gap

Published on November 25, 2017 by Raphael Awen5 Comments

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By Raphael Awen

The gap between where you are and where you desire to be is only something that you can really experience here in the 3rd dimension.

This gap is where you find your propulsion system to take you to the more you came here to discover. Activating this propulsion system is about being willing to feel what up till now, you have been disinclined to feel. The so called ‘negative emotions’ like anxiety and depression are the lids on the jars that contain the feelings of deeper traumas, that a part of you canned and preserved away for a time like this when a new you could show up that was both willing and able to feel.

The desires you feel for other and better circumstances and relationships to be in your life are very connected to these traumas as well as to your essence. Feeling them all, with the very real parts of you who hold these feelings, will sort them out and lead you where they were meant to even if your linear mind can’t always track completely what is going on.

Of course you have these backed up feelings, held by parts of you, that are now calling for your love and attention. How could you not given the density of this dimension and the culture of suppressed feeling that you came into as a total feeling being?

Your emotional body and all that it contains is your path into this gap, this gap that contains all your personal meaning, this gap between where you feel yourself to be right now and where you long to be…

Love this gap, because it’s the gap you chose; the gap you as a soul created; and it’s this gap that is your map to finding your way home to yourself.

There’s no gift more powerful than this gift you give to yourself.

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Spiritual Leftovers

Published on November 24, 2017 by Raphael Awen3 Comments

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By Raphael Awen

There’s a ton of good ideas and good advice out there to be had, and if you have a few good resources, you’ve probably got more than you know what to do with.

If you’ve been around for a while in spiritual circles, you may well be tired from reading all the good stuff a long time ago.

So how does that energy of good advice and insight into deeper awareness translate into the movement you desire in your life, instead of a kind of a no-response, or worse, a jaded cynicism?

Been there, done that.

How is what I’m offering you right now, not just more stuff to try and store in your overstuffed spiritual closet, that really could use a sorting and a flush, rather than more stuff?

While we could all toss around yet more valid insights to this question, we come back to the same dilemma of more than we have the appetite for; more than we actually can use.

You don’t actually need any more insights.

You are drowning in insights. God forbid that I would try and fit one more insight into your bloated belly. You need something more like a crash detox diet of getting off the sugary highs of more insights.

You have inside of you a guidance system that is so full of its own wisdom and insight, that you don’t actually need any more from any outside of you source.

I get the picture that too many of us are like a guy who set out to build his own house, and we’ve got the foundation poured, and some walls in process, and then we are taking delivery on bathroom fixtures, and hardwood flooring because they were too good to pass up, but there’s no place for them…not yet. We’ve got more work to do before those things don’t simply go to waste, given where we are at in the process.

Deep inside, there is a clear next step, ringing loud and clear for you. Follow that and It will take you everywhere, right on time. Ignore that, while gathering yet more insights, and it will take you nowhere.

Your Higher Self acts through you.

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Integration Authorization

Published on November 22, 2017November 22, 2017 by Raphael Awen2 Comments

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By Raphael Awen

Why do men tend to shy away from spirituality and emotionality in comparison to women?

Pardon the generalization as it’s of course not true in all cases, but it is true enough for it to be a recognizable pattern.

I’m feeling a desire to rile men, to stir their deeper heart passion for what they really want. I feel a reaching out for a deeper inhabitation of my own sacred masculinity. I feel a deeper wanting of men to come out and really play! I too, have a desire inside of me somewhere to conform, I just want to conform to a new standard of being as the old ones are dying fast.

What is it about the needs in a man vs a woman that naturally dispose them towards these differences?

Are men afraid of inadequacy in the arena of heart and soul?

Are men afraid to feel? And if so, why?

Can a man sustain a hardon and a hearton at the same time?

Are men afraid that there won’t be enough of a ground for a worthy fight, for a contention, for a passionate claiming and pursuit of what they want in the arena of heart and soul?

Is spirituality and emotionality too wimpy feeling for them? Why and how so?

Why is vulnerability (the ability to be hurt) mistaken for weakness in men?

Jelelle Awen and I were talking yesterday about the daily flow of new names of men in the news lately being charged with sexual harassment, and how it is almost unheard of to hear about women being aggressors in this way? Add to that the rarity of a woman rapist? Add to that men’s draw to porn over women’s? (I wrote a piece about that here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/why-men-are-drawn-to-porns…/ ) It’s evident the archetypal ground underneath us is rumbling big time. The mighty are falling and we are feeling it.

We are in the middle of a huge collective birth canal that is tied to our personal birth canals. Thank god for the decks being cleared of the pretense, making room for something so much more real, but where is it all leading?

I don’t know the surface answers to these questions, as I so prefer the quest of the questions, but I do smell fear of some kind. Why else would men energize their fearlessness in other (ie. money and career, and in my opinion, lesser) arenas, while avoiding the spiritual and the emotional?

Isn’t this simply a pretense of power; a compensation to keep a deeper fear off their radar?

How could the more male passion to achieve, or to provide, be an integrous blend of deep heart and soul that doesn’t need a safe compartmentalization in order to express powerfully?

Parts of us have understandably adapted by grabbing at the collective ideas of womanhood and manhood as a map to know where the landmines are, to avoid rejection and gain love, often in the form of just some sniff of love of a cultural pat on the back.

Where this whole dialogue becomes more than a dialogue, and finds a deep traction of movement is when you as a man get to know and love the part of you stumbling around in this other hand-me-down man’s arena, that isn’t really yours. A part of you is nearing exhaustion, or may even be totally checked out, just putting in time, afraid of the more overt forms of suicide.

Will you recognize this? Will you cast off other men’s comparison games that aren’t you at all? Will you fight for who and what you really are?

‘You’ may well feel like you don’t know who you are; as a man, or as a human. But this is clearly the feelings of a part of you, not YOU, that has become disillusioned.

Can you begin to make this critical differentiation inside of yourself? I ask you this because I feel it to be the ongoingly mission critical point of my entire journey here. I needed to adapt parts of myself, to fuse them to a ‘lower’ reality, in order to gain what I came here to gain. Now though, it is time to reconcile all these parts of myself into the new emerging ‘higher’ timeline or reconciliation. We were dis-membered in order to be re-membered, and we chose it. We know this on a soul level, as a soul being and we know this on a personal level, as a human being. Both need space and time to be felt. Hence, here we are, still in the domain of space and time.

YOU as a Higher Self will need to enter this place of differentiation, and then negotiation and ambassadorship between these parts of you, then choice, intention and declaration if there is to be any growth or change. Were you actually looking for something easier? I don’t think so, or you wouldn’t have been going about it the harder way that you have up till now?

None of this can effectively be bullied into place by a punishing part of you, or it’s just another compensation approach to covering over a deeper fear. YOU can instead get to know the checked out part of you, get to know the bully inside that wants to order and mandate it all, get to know the part of you who simply doesn’t give a fuck; and then from there, lead a true declaration of heart that stems from this arising you-to-you Ambassadorship.

Choice, desire and intention are huge here, but these cannot be faked into place from a few pages from a book plucked from the self-help section. Not anymore. We’re collectively coming to the end of something and awaiting the arising of the beginning of something that will take its place. That something is already in you and available to you now. You just won’t find it on the street corner yet.

There has never been a time like this time for you as a man to go for what you really want. There are ripe and key choice points staring you down right now that are directly tied to your choosing of this more. You have the guidance. You have the courage. But it goes nowhere until you make the choice.

Courage and guidance are gifts to you from the universe. Choice is the gift you exchange with the universe in return as the sovereign that you are. The universe can not and will not make these changes for you. Expecting the universe to make changes that only you can make is only a way to obscure your response-ability, and leaves you in a child’s relationship to authority. You are the author now.

What action is the universe calling you to? That’s your full manhood right there calling to you for embrace. I promise you that this ride truly has everything you are looking for, so much so, that choosing this ride will be the most adventurous choice you’ve ever made.

SoulFullHeart is one process that unfolds this journey for men. I am one who serves that process. If you are one who wants to trade in this currency and in this arena, I’d love to serve you.

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Ambidextrous Ambassadorship

Published on November 21, 2017November 21, 2017 by Raphael Awen3 Comments

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By Raphael Awen

The veil has been necessary for your inhabitation in a phase of a limited 3D consciousness.

That veil is rapidly thinning, and you are even much more multidimensionally aware and functioning than your conscious mind has caught up with.

The tension you feel between what your conscious mind knows and has ‘proof’ for, and what your subconscious mind knows to be true is a tension that wants to be felt and loved by you. The conscious and the subconscious are not actually in opposition to each other, but it can be perceived that way, from the 3D mind, due to a phase of necessary compartmentalization that was needed in order to fully ground in this third dimension.

You as an essence were actually vibrating at way too high a frequency to be able to exist at this lower density, so you needed to forget. Now, however, you are needing to remember, as you move from a phase of descension into a phase of ascension. Both are equally sacred and to be loved and honored.

Your conscious mind and personality is largely an adapted part of you form fitted to this reality at hand. It was created by your Higher Self (Your larger you) as a vehicle to inhabit this phase of your journey in this specific climate and terrain. This 3D part of you and the related parts of you need to be felt and related with. The reactions that ‘you’ feel about this time of ascension are almost all coming from these 3D form fitted parts of you.

It would help greatly in your process of awakening, reintegrating consciousness to say instead of ‘I feel…’, to say ‘a part of me feels…’. When you do this, you are speaking from a higher dimensional frequency of your being, moving towards your Higher Self. You are also differentiating between the part of you who feels this tension of Ascension, giving it recognition and love.

There are other ‘things’ you can do to facilitate your awakening process, and I will share them with you now.

(I tune in Metatron’s voice here as I’ve been asking for more on this)

The universe functions on intention and permission. And these 2 both are a frequency waveform that are articulated by the tongue. As a tiny rudder guides a great ship, so the tongue guides your life. Your voice needs to declare to the universe and to these parts of you what your wishes and desires are.

You are essentially seeking to integrate, or we could say ‘de-compartmentalize’ a tension and polarity inside of your being. This is achieved by becoming an Ambassador to both realities, to both parties, to let each party get to know and feel the reality of the other party inside of you. Your 5D self wants to really get to know and feel your 3D self, and vice versa. They no longer want to live separate existences in separate compartments. As this Ambassadorship unfolds, your life structures and relationships will naturally and quite effortlessly shift to reflect these internal changes in your reality.

As you get to ‘know and love’, embodying this ambassadorship more and more to the fuller regions of your being, you will know when it is time to speak new declarations and treaties that are founded on this knowledge and love.

Speaking words aloud like;

‘I am a multidimensional being’

‘I am infinite love’

‘I am the bright, bright, bright, light of God’…

are all waveform frequency portals to this deepening reality. You can feel this as you speak these words. In the beginning was the word (logos). This is the beginning of your unfolding logos. The logos is your new multidimensional reality of the non-compartmentalized variety. The tension is only meant to be a part of the birth canal from one to another rather than a static state. Your 3D mind and your 5D mind want to be fluid and functional. Learning to walk in 3D was considered quite something, and it was! Learning to walk in 5D is cooler still, but what really tops them all is being able to fluidly walk between them both. Let’s call it ‘ambidextrous’ – the ability to walk between the worlds.

We all have some more work to do to even know what that looks and feels like. It’s like sex. Regardless of how many books and movies depict it, one’s own experience of sex is so infinite in its possibilities, that what one is experiencing can be so very different than what even a partner is experiencing. So don’t expect a government bureau to declare you ‘multidimensional’, and issue you a license or threaten to take it away if you don’t observe the rules. There are no rules, largely, other than the rules of Karma, which boil down simply to Love.

All is returning to love.

This is your return to full multidimensionality, where each step and phase is sacred.

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Published on November 20, 2017 by Raphael Awen2 Comments

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By Raphael Awen

It’s only the conscious self, the you who you think you are that feels lacking, or not unique, or boring…

When in a new emerging awareness of another reality, this picture looks and feels very different and totally new.

That you are able to have a flat lined existence, perceiving yourself as limited, or boring or not unique is actually a crazy piece of magic all in itself, that speaks to this freedom from the literal mind lockdown I’d like to invite you to feel into with me.

It seems growingly apparent now that a locked down or limited piece of consciousness was needed to accompany your 3D journey to make it real in the 3D dimension (think computer operating system)

This makes sense when you feel how what you actually are is a being without limits, unique beyond measure, so full of engagement and excitement, that you were/are able to dial up a limited experience.

In other words, your limited experience is proof of your unlimited abilities.

The parts of you who feel they way they do from inside of your present conscious perception of your life generate powerful energetic emissions that create your very made up reality. These parts of you can only shift their reality as they are related with by you, as an arising authentic self. Nothing comes to us except by way of relationship. This is true for all of our wounding and all of our healing. It all occurs in relationship.

A new you-to-you relationship awaits you as you enter a willingness to feel all there is to feel, the feelings coming from each and every self-loving and magical part of you.

Talk about entering the unknown and uncharted…, it wouldn’t be a journey if your conscious self knew the outcome, or the prize, or the prices, would it?

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