ReUNITEing With Your Inner World In 2018

by Kalayna Colibri

Sense of Wonder

When you were a child, you had a very alive inner world that no one could take away from you. It was your solace, your sanctuary. It likely became the seat too of much fantasy as you grew older and began to crave deep social and romantic connections. Your inner world has always been there for you and you were once in the pilot seat, with incredible self-permission that only deteriorated as the 3D world that acknowledges only a certain brand of logic and a specific way to sense ‘what is real’, began to trickle into you and your parts, more and more, slowly convincing you that it was the only way through life. This was a necessary phase to enter… and perhaps in some ways though, your creativity and imagination never fully ‘left’… indeed, even if it feels to parts of you like it did leave, it didn’t. Your inner world has always been there, preserved somehow and waiting for you to awaken to it once more. Waiting for you to step back into the inner Narnia portal and be where you will always belong and be deeply loved.

It was a self-loving choice to have ‘fantasy worlds’ when you were a child or teenager or even an adult. Perhaps this is why so many of us have leaned into virtual reality in one way or another, as a boost and a way to re-enter this fantasy land again and be away from 3D. I know I certainly did and when I was a teenager, I played video and computer games as often as I could. I had many friends who did too. My rich imagination still thrived… nothing could stop it, somehow. Perhaps many of you feel the same. And yet too, I can feel how for so many it has been necessary to push the pause button on an alternative reality in order to fully enter the territory of growth needed by immersing completely in 3D.

Our 3D tethers, ties, and anchors are still attached to parts of us in different ways, some which are obvious and some which have become very subtle, especially if you are surrounded by others who are living in the same frequency, making it appear normal and OK. It feels like there is a unifying HUM of vibration that joins all at a certain level of consciousness, until you up the ante on yours, reaching and feeling a higher pitch, a higher HUM that takes you into a different space altogether, displacing you from the ‘pack’ you’ve been used to. This experience can bring parts of you into a lofty space that can also be self-righteous and sometimes needs to be in order to push away from the collective. It can bring depression, anxiety, illness, fears, or even numbness, and sometimes all at once as parts of you ping, cling, and thrash against the changes happening within you that they simply cannot stop or control. Ultimately your soul is in charge of all choosing, even if the choice is for a part of you, like your Inner Teenager or Inner Protector, for example, to be ‘in charge’ for a while. Yet you cannot truly escape the pull of this alternative and very enriching reality that lives and thrives inside of you. Your soul and heart are calling you back inward and of course the Ascension energies support and enliven these pulls, whether obvious or subtle, whether expressed through your dreams or your waking life or both.

2018 sure feels like it will be a ‘year’ of alternative realities popping like popcorn, rapidly in some cases and slowly in others, allowing us to acclimate yet also inviting us to make changes Now. We may be surprised by our impulsivity, our intuitive awakenings and dawnings and guidance. There can be no ‘wrong’ choices made, though parts of you will likely judge some of them for a while. If it’s all intended to be an invitation back to YOU, then that’s where it will all ultimately lead, no matter the path, the trajectory, the momentum.

You have an inner crystal cave of goodness and love that awaits your entry once again. The richness of your inner world and parts too, awaits your steps towards reUNION within. ❤

If you feel like you would like some direct support from my beloveds and I who have been on this very journey for quite some time now, feel free to check out what we offer and feel into having a free 30 min intro session with one of us, to feel where this process we call SoulFullHeart can and will take you on your deep healing journey back to YOU:

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at

Let In Your Wonder, Find Your Creativity

by Kalayna Colibri



Wonder… that feeling place from an essence within us that we can’t uncover until parts of us feel that our life is worth ‘wondering’ about. It IS a place where creativity flows from, the creation of new life chapters, artistic works, and growth phases for ourselves. It is the ISpiration we’ve been waiting for, even while parts of us have told themselves they can’t have it and that it’s impossible to feel this way about life. This is the flow that draws us to another, draws us to nature, draws us back inward to ourselves with deep love and curiosity.

Wonder doesn’t ‘know’ much. It doesn’t even pretend to. It feels and asks questions and sometimes is only in the moment with complete, speechless awe. It is both a full canvass of experience and an empty canvass too. It is a way to project what we want to see and also to see what we could never have expected.

Maybe today is a day to rediscover your wonder, your creativity, your zest for creating and establishing something NEW in your life that is more in line with what you most deeply want, even if it seems there are infinite steps to get there – what if the true journey of getting ‘there’ really lies in fully being ‘here’ first?

I wrote the following words recently, to help express my own creative flow I was feeling and where it seemed to be coming from. It does feel like we all have access to a flow this strong more and more, as we come more into ourselves, our hearts and our souls as Ascension keeps calling us all forth to be IN this flow more. It’s a desirable and empowered place and my heart wants everyone to start feeling it for themselves too!


This stream of creation breaks into a run with timings unforeseen and a flow un-ebbed.

There is no prediction for the next piece. It only mounts itself upon the canvass of true love, waiting for the painter to employ its spark of something-ness…

It’s not a time for restless non-creation, but restful creative action and inaction both. A time for baking and making ideas into one creative form or another, though these forms are not pre-formed, only discovered as we go, flow, move onward.

It is an itch that pauses for a moment of brief regard and then beckons you in and onward for more experience of it, sometimes when it hasn’t even been noted as something worked hard for.

A force unforced, it weaves itself in with us and our lives, asking us for more response, more discovery, more wonder, so we can keep creating from this flow a new us, new relationships, a new way to be in and with life that parts of us have never imagined before…

And then…

Only more love and passion can come and live within us and only more wonder and creativity can come with and from the same. ❤



Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at


Leaving Credibility Behind


By Raphael Awen

Come with me for a moment, leave the world of the so called ‘credible’ behind to feel the world of the ‘IN-credible’…

Imagine for a moment that planet earth is likened to a single grain of sand, and then imagine that, for each and every of the other grains of sand on planet earth, that there exists another earth-like planet in the cosmos…watery, inhabited and abounding in life. One for every grain of sand!

Start with a pinch of sand…that’s countable, right?… bit of a challenge, but doable. Then try a tablespoon. Jump to a wheelbarrow of sand, and then to a sandbox full. One earth like planet for every single grain…. No wild way any of that’s possible, let alone one for every grain of sand in the earth!

But who’s to say?

Our minds are quick to point out that we don’t have any ‘credible’ science to back up such a notion (which actually isn’t accurate as new science is in fact emerging to strongly support this), but I invite you to FEEL this idea first with your heart and let your mind follow. Does it FEEL possible? Does it FEEL desirable? What about the opposite; that we on planet earth are the only ones ‘here’ in the cosmos…does that FEEL desirable or even possible to you?

Credibility is so far from all that it’s sized up to be. Something that’s ‘credible’ simply means that it is a ‘truth’ that has been given its stamp of approval by someone or some group, outside of yourself, who took it upon themselves to grant such accreditation, as a correct truth or a right truth for you to believe in. ‘Credibility’ is the world of mutual agreement where you are offered a false sense of belonging in exchange for suppressing your own truth. That if you believe what you are told is true, you won’t be frowned upon by the group or by these self declared gods of ‘Thee Truth’.

The truly IN-credible is the world where what you believe and see and feel as YOUR TRUTH is authorized from withIN you, from your own heart. Where you are the author. Where you are the creator….where the seeing that leads to believing is the seeing that YOU see through your third eye of true sight. The world of the INcredible is the world where you assume full power and full responsibility for what you believe and why.

You are free to believe whatever you want to. You are free to believe whatever you feel to. You no longer have any need for being ‘right’. You get to be wrong in fact, and change your mind and heart as often as you wish or need to. You get to invite others who are ready to explore their own truth to feel you as you explore yours. You get to live from your curiosity, rather than what you think you know as any kind of final truth. You get to let the world of not-knowing lead you to a truer and deeper ever unfolding kind of knowing, where even that ‘truth’ is again surrendered into deeper still realms of knowing what you never actually knew.

The only thing stopping you from taking this power of yours AS YOURS is the degree of your own unmet need to belong to something outside of yourself. What will ‘they’ think and what will ‘they’ say about me if I don’t agree or sign on with their deal? Are you ready instead to entertain the feeling of belonging entirely to yourself? Only as you belong to yourself are you able to truly share yourself with others. You cannot share what you do not own. Conforming in order to belong can’t actually provide any lasting sense of belonging, as you have not actually entered yourself into the circle, but instead only a caricature of you that pretends to believe and see the world in a certain conformist way. As they say in football, ‘you have no skin in the game’.

If the picture of our single planet earth that we were taught to believe is everything, as far as inhabited planets are concerned, is actually only the tiniest piece of a much greater thing, then we are brought to an awe; a surrender; and a curiosity of truly staggering proportions as we stand before that greater thing.

Then we also see that that ‘greater thing’ is also what WE ARE, as we share in the essence of that awe-filled reality regardless of the size comparison of our ‘known’ world to the unknown cosmos. Essence and ‘The All’ permeates all and vice versa.

We are brought to reverence.

We are brought to child-like wonder.

We are brought to LOVE.

Raphel Awen

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