Humanity’s Return To Innocence

by Kalayna Solais

Believe it or not… and I’ll bet parts of you feel skeptical (and reasonably so) right now. Yet, I’ve been offered that a huge aspect of the process we’re in right now on Gaia is a great ‘Return to Innocence’. It’s not a simple process by any means. Yet laid out for us, it is. And invited into it deeper, we are.

This ‘innocence’ means seeing and feeling the world through the eyes of wonder and trust, even though there may be tears sometimes when you feel what is burning away in your own life and in the lives of others. Actually, this innocence means there is a renewed sense of your own heart’s purity, which despite the trauma you’ve experienced, remains deep within you. This is what you return to when you’ve healed through so many of the defences parts of you have needed throughout your life. This is the place you interact with others from more than ever before when the younger parts of you who are now much wiser because of life experience but not bitter (anymore) are able to feel this innocence within themselves.

Even all of the purging going on with Cabal, illuminating collective darkness and shadow so that we can dig deeper and move away from this timeline of suppression of love and truth (which can’t ultimately BE suppressed really), is leading us back to our innocence. These darker energies that have influenced and held the larger spaces of politics and fame and even spirituality, are loosening their grip and returning to their own reconciliation within. To meet and match these energies and defend against them as well, parts (especially your Inner Protector) and Metasoul aspects in other timelines have had to adapt and defend, become fiercer than they truly are or want to be, and forget about their realest vulnerabilities and the core of their heart’s desires. This is leading us through a BIG detox of what has NOT been us, individually and collectively, and is challenging us to feel our hearts again.

It may seem sometimes during this purging process that things are getting worse… but when it comes to toxicity, quite often things get worse before they get better. Storms happen before rainbows. And even rainbows happen sometimes while the sky is still clearing of rain and clouds. So it is that our innocence, our Divine Child light, can still find ways to shine through, even though there is still so much churning in the world.

It’s a deep, many-layered process. As I feel my own empowerment in my own process to feel all of this emerging in my own being, I feel how much work it’s taken to get to a space of feeling more of my innocence again. More of the desire to genuinely and heartfully connect, to bring vulnerability even when it feels iffy to do so, is able to emerge now. I can feel this as a new form of leadership that gets to arise now from within me and invite others to find the same within. It’s worth all of the shadow processing to get here and I trust too that this feeling of my own ‘Return To Innocence’ will help hold the space for any more shadow explorations that follow.

And so it can and will be for you… if you keep choosing the curiosity, the inner work, and the desire to hold space for yourself and others as we continue this transition to the most ALIVE-feeling life that we could ever have imagined.

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Star Family Reunion Message & Invitation

by Kalayna Solais

I’ve been remembering more, putting more together, about my Star Seed essence and how it’s come to express in this lifetime, or be buried too in phases just as sacred as the remembering.

I wanted to write and share more about that, and I likely will in a future writing, but for now, this message wanted to come through. It’s from my Star Family, your Star Family… OUR Star Family, to your ever-awakening and integrating Star Seed essence (and mine!). ❤

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Beloved Star Seed YOU,

Are you starting to see, beginning to understand, why you’ve been invited to inhabit this planet at this time? Are you putting together the pieces of what has been at the heart of humanity’s suffering, feeling the pain of the world move through your sacred heart space with more and more compassion every day? Are you feeling your place in that suffering, as an unconscious contributor to it and the pain YOU hold as well?

This density you’ve lived in, been a part of co-creating and perpetuating, has felt sometimes to parts of you like a game of ‘seek and find’ to locate your next portal of awakening. It has felt sometimes as if we, your Star Family, are far away, waiting for your worthiness to catch up to you in order to BE with us again. Yet, instead of seeking and never really finding, or not finding what can truly last and integrate inside of your being and your life, we want to invite you into the energy of ‘arise and remember’. Not a game, but an opportunity. An invitation that remains for the rest of your days on this planet, this arising and ascending Gaia. 

We are only ever as ‘far away’ as your next quest inward. You’ve often related to us as being ‘outside’ of you, yet this is also 3rd-dimensional conditioning that tells you we are ‘other than’ you. Yet, inside of you, inside of the beacon and portal of your Star Seed essence, there is where we live, for in our dimension(s), we are able to reside inside of you.

We ARE you and you ARE us. Your neighbour, your friend, the person in the next room or next home, the homeless man or woman you pass on the street, the addicts who are also trying to find their way back to the dimension they came from, they are all you too as you are them. Yet, the separation energy, the duality of your 3D life, tells you that you must remain in a consciousness that tells you that they are NOT you. That we are not you. But Star Seed… we ARE. 

You’ve been given choices, to continue to venture inward and find us through finding your essence, through healing deeply, through choosing to look into life’s mirrors even and especially when that feels hardest to do. You’ve been given reminders of your power, manifesting so often in shadow, in things that parts of you would rather not see until they are ready to see them.

These choices to heal instead of cope are what open the doors back up to US again. To feeling, truly feeling, the depths of your precious Sacred Human potential, the compassion you must learn to have for yourself just as we have for you. Choosing you, choosing inward, choosing stillness and quiet, choosing action when needed, choosing love, bring you back to the truth of your Star Seed essence and story in this lifetime and others. You can begin to put together the pieces that build your pathway back to us from within you. 

We LOVE you… and every step of your journey, no matter how it looks or feels or manifests. We understand the messy process you’ve undertaken, to ascend not only as one being, but as all beings at once. We offer our support, our love, our compassion, as a human parent would to their child learning, nay, remembering, to walk… again.

In some ways, this message is simple. Yet for some of you, it will feel complex. You are complicated beings with much pain to feel through, yet feeling through it you are, healing through it you are, with an array of many more choices to make as to what unfolds next, with how much consideration of you, yourselves, and how much healing of your inner worlds you feel to commit to in each sacred moment.

With so much love, beloved Star Seed…

Remember who you are.

Remember why you came here.

And remember, as often as you can, that we have never left you. We will always be here for you and with you. And someday, when you’re ready, you’ll feel us expressing AS you. Your ‘homecoming’ is imminent and is really a coming home to yourself… and with each step you take, we offer fathomless love and invite you to call on us, to remember us through the depths and challenges of coming to remember yourself.

Love,

Your Star Family

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Consciously Becoming A ‘Love Ambassador’

by Kalayna Solais

To become your ‘Love Ambassador self’ is more than just an intention, though that is a beautiful seed to start off with. It’s a real invitation to embody compassion and empathy. It’s deeper than diplomacy. It’s deeper than simply claiming that you love everything and everyone. It’s a true and deep staircase into the depths of shadow and the heights of Divine love.

To become an ‘ambassador’ is to see and feel your next steps become clearer for this embodiment picture… to be willing to see, feel, experience, and come to know your own shadow so that you can support others in their own explorations. To this same depth, the steps of being able to go higher, to see the bigger, meta-picture of what’s REALLY going on and the Divine glue that’s holding it all together, are just as alive and deeply necessary.

You become through all of this a link, a connection, a bridge between aspects of your own soul, parts of you, parts and aspects of others around you and especially those who come to you for space holding, feeling your experiences and your embodied capacity for compassion.

This is a Divinely appointed leadership that cannot be trained or certified, only lived into and loved with all your heart and soul as you awaken to the desire to become this, as you feel how much you want to move every aspect and part of you beyond polarity and heal any need inside to still experience that as your primary reality. You’re a work in progress, always, and there’s always more to explore, but it’s your integrity in doing this that makes you a Love Ambassador… not perfection.

As we continue to walk out these challenging times on all dimensions and depths of consciousness, the call to become this ‘Love Ambassador self’ is undeniable and also becoming more and more necessary to answer! I myself find the daily challenge of feeling reactions and learning what I need personally in order to find this deeper embodiment to be an enlivening but also sobering process. I feel clarity come in about next steps and what there is to feel through as well as pictures, images, energetic impressions of who I most want to become from the inside, out. I imagine this is similar for everyone on this planet whose soul is choosing to awaken at this time!

We’re in the middle of becoming a planet full of Love Ambassadors, each with our own signature coming straight from our Divinely beautiful and healing souls… even through the messiness of the ongoing process.

Much love,
Kalayna ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Starseed Activation & Golden Earth Support Through The Portal Of Discomfort and Grief

By Deva Yasmin

As we all journey through these death/rebirth cycles it can feel like we are being squeezed through the birth canal. It feels like we are going through multiple death/rebirth cycles in many lives and dimensions. This is the invitation of possibilities to feel right now, as in times of being squeezed it can feel dark, scary and that we are at the complete mercy of the Unknown. It is an invitation again to surrender to rather than continue to fight the Unknown.

Surrender is not a doing; it is a way of BEing. A BEing IN, guided by ALL of the feelings that are arising in response to our current situations, as experiences, life choices, and traumas from this lifetime and others are being pushed up for healing. BEing in and feeling every moment of discomfort as our Soul feels through the lessons that we are learning now, calling on all the wisdom of our Soul and Soul origins that are supporting us in the higher dimensions. This wisdom has been waiting for this time to activate.

Parts of us can feel like they are going crazy, in a kind of in-between worlds feeling, that can make it hard to relate to a world where they have found so much comfort until now. They can also feel rumbles in relationships, as what we need and desire is becoming clearer. It can feel excruciating as those leading the new way touch the longings in our heart, the knowings that parts may still be struggling to access, integrate or move into, as they are still needing to BE in and feel the fear of leaving the comfort behind, still unsure of how the arising new feels, or what it holds for them.

I have been feeling with part of me named Yasmin so much discomfort, acknowledging the depth of unhappiness she has experienced. Feeling sadness as she has felt so alone, a Soul theme of mine, of not remembering or being connected to why she is here or why she chose these uncomfortable lessons to grow through. I feel how this unhappiness has been projected into all areas of my life especially work and relationships, which has created much tension, chaos, and pain for her and to others at times too. In my recent session with Jelelle Awen, giving Yasmin space to feel her unhappiness began to open out her connection to her 5D/Golden Earth reality. This access is allowing me to have more air around what she feels and to explore the whys.

Tears came as we felt the frequency of Golden Earth, as she felt where she has longed to be her whole life and has actually always been here inside, a place she forgot in a world that projects what is real-ity only to be this 3D one. We felt our Star Family reaching out, my Pleiades Aspect, Enu offering so much Love. This is what I am choosing to call her as her vibration and language is hard to translate into ours. I feel her Language of Light being remembered too, although in the moment we speak telepathically.

I felt how in Golden Earth, we are connected to everything, telepathically we can communicate with the animals, the planets, the Earth and the water. The water feels SO important in the moment, to allow Her to hold us in this gestation period as She held us in our Mother’s womb. It feels like many of us right now maybe feeling the need to eat lighter, desiring to drink more water, this feels connected to us being able to let in Golden Earth and Star Being frequencies to support us through this transition.

I feel how stomach problems and issues with digestion right now can be linked to our struggle to feel and digest our past experiences which stop us from letting Love in. That this is possibly a good time to check in with how we relate to food and begin to feel into what nourishment our bodies are calling for. Food has always been a way for Yasmin to soothe, comfort and cover what she feels. As she moves more into Golden Earth, I feel me being able to offer comfort and nourishment in New ways.

When parts of us have been deeply unhappy, even depressed, in this life…when they have always struggled to find belonging or purpose, I feel how connected this is to our disconnection from our higher timeline realities. As Yasmin lets this in, I feel the fog of unhappiness being lifted, as the MORE she has always felt existed becomes more REAL. Real because she feels it, as she feels it there no longer is a need for the validation of whether it is real or even a need to know what is real. All that matters to her is she remembers NOW, an inner sanctuary where all the pain and struggle can be soothed and transmuted back home to LOVE. A place to surrender to ALL of the LOVE in this Universe that is waiting to come into us, so we can return to our natural flow state in Life.

Enu is offering to me that for those of us who resonate with being a Starseed, there is much support available to you NOW, a portal is open to remember your origins, with the recent conjunction of the Pleiades star system and Venus helping us feel this too.

Enu offers: ‘In these times it can feel hard for Starseeds to understand what their part in all of this is. With such a deep care and reverence for ALL life on Earth, we feel how frustrated you can feel, when you are not out there taking action to protect this Life on Earth. For those of the highly sensitive Starseeds beginning to Awaken to our frequency, this is a time of nourishing and opening to more of your Soul, Starseed self. Filling yourself with your highest frequency of Love so you can inspire others through your radiance, beauty and inner peace, in these times of outer chaos.

You need this time of rest, of BEing alone, Being quiet and in nature too, especially taking in any Sun Codes that are available to you. Meet with the water in your inner realms, drop deep into the ocean. You can BE there, breathe there even, it is so quiet. Many of our allies are there too, the Dolphins and Whales offering a bridge to you to attune to our frequencies on Pleiades and in Golden Earth.

There is nothing you need to do, only listen and feel the cues of your physical and emotional body as they offer you much guidance in this time through the pain and discomfort. This can feel overwhelming, but you have much support and Love all around you, if you so wish to enter and receive. This will take time, as you learn to trust your inner realms and the parts, and aspects of you who have known and never forgotten these higher timelines and wisdom.

You are being informed by You, empowered and taught through your own inner realities. There are BEings who can support you on the outside but ultimately this is YOUR journey and YOUR choice to go into the parts and places of yourself that know what you need and where you need to go. We are here always whatever your choices are and whatever you are ready for in this moment, We love you, tender Souls.’

As Yasmin rests and explores Golden Earth, I feel ME, arising, growing into my leadership, the one who can listen and trusts my inner world and parts, to inform and guide my outer experience. I feel the collective being offered this choice too, as we transition from 3D to 5D Golden Earth. This will take time, healing and feeling for us ALL but as we let in MORE of our Soul and Star Family support, we feel more and more that we are always being supported and these transitions are being informed by and moved by intelligence that some may parts not be ready to feel yet, though some may be SO ready to let it all in.

We can never know anything as truth it feels like, in this ever-evolving, expanding and contracting universe. We can only FEEL what is REAL within ourselves and offer that to those who may resonate. Those who can feel the frequency of LOVE that is being offered through words even if the words make no sense or trigger reactions for parts, that this Love is here to offer support in a time of great fear and pain, personally and collectively.

In this 3D reality, everything can feel so dense and separate. In Golden Earth, we are One, we are Light and we are never alone.

Here is a guided meditation by Jelelle Awen to support you to feel and connect with Star Being Family, https://youtu.be/ubrPcH09X6s

Much Love,

Deva x

Deva Yasmin is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Awakening To Purpose With Lilith

By Deva Yasmin

Lilith is coming very close to me right now, I feel her presence wanting to be known in these times. She is the form of Divine Mother who serves us to find stability in the shadows of the unknown, to feel safety in the darkness between worlds, anchoring us in the moment between death and rebirth, the place of all Life. 

Lilith is the activating force of the feminine, helping us create, when we do not know what for, or why, or even if we have anything to share that will be of service to others. She helps us trust the feminine and surrender to the outcome of our service. She knows we all hold in our hearts different parts of the Awakening puzzle that will reach where they need to go IN.

She also serves, as a soothing balm to our masculine. In times when his abilities to pursue, to take action and to know the way forth are less called for, Lilith helps him rest. Reminding him to conserve his energy for the moments when his driving force to move ahead is really needed. 

These complimentary forces are being offered healing NOW, especially through relationships, as we may be feeling rumbles in our time of separation from each other or being together more than usual. I feel this as an opportunity to feel how these forces have been in opposition or suppression of each other, how they have longed for but can be scared of each other at the same time. An opportunity to heal what is needed on the inside, to move more into collaboration between the Feminine and Masculine.

In relationships with others, especially intimate ones, I feel this to be the inner work needed to support the outer union and its empowered collaboration. It feels like the work to feel what is real between us, if there is still ground to transact together so we can move forward united, honoring, respecting and prepared to listen to one another, and if not, it may perhaps be time to move on, to honor the inner union more. This is something myself and James have been navigating since being together more at home. This time is gifting us so much healing, as we have felt what has gone unnoticed or pushed aside in the general busyness of day to day life and the ways parts of us have not been working together.

Lilith’s honesty is supporting me to navigate what is needing to change in my life, I feel her offering to hold my hand as parts of me still have fear of hurting others or being judged by others when being true to myself. This has held me back for a long time and she has come now to support me to move into true alignment with my Soul’s purpose. She is here to guide and activate in us ALL, the knowing that when we are called towards service of Divine Love, at times we will be asked to make hard choices that may impact others. Some will not understand but that does NOT mean you are doing anything wrong or a bad person.

As children it feels like our choices, if not in alignment with the beliefs of our care givers, can be seen as ‘wrong’ when we know what we want but that creates tension in our care givers or hinders their own schedules, and we can be called ‘bad’ or ‘naughty’. This was not the truth. We knew as children we did not come here to fit in, we came here with a purpose.  But we had to take part in the suppression because that was part of our assignment on Earth, to be conditioned and forget so we could learn, awakening through the pains of being human. This has been our school so we could grow into the embodiment of Love and compassion, allowing Life to serve through us when the time came and NOW is that time.

Lilith wants to help us release the limitations of the conditioning that has been placed on us, revealing to us what has been keeping us stuck in the shadows. She comes to ALL of those who are ready NOW to move into service, even if that is deeply serving ourselves in a NEW way. Both serving ourselves and serving others is serving the Whole, but serving others without truly serving ourselves first, is a part of our conditioning. The belief that self-care or considering the needs of yourself is selfish, is not true. If we had learned to deeply care for ourselves, I wonder how the world would have looked? 

Service led by Love, this is the possibility that is becoming available to us more and more. As the invitation in New Earth is to serve Love to Love from Love, rather than fear serving more fear. 

Thank you for being here and for all that you are, which is already a huge service to Love. This Life would not be possible without you in it, your unique individuality is a gift and there is no one who can play the part you do. 

Much Love,

Deva and Lilith.

Deva Yasmin is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc

 

 

Energy Update: Ripe Time For Awakenings, Deeper Connection With The Divine And Within

by Kalayna Solais

Yesterday, I paused to feel the panic moving through the collective, how it could easily echo something that needs me inside of me, yet doesn’t seem to at this time…. At least not in the same way as it seems to be for others.

It rippled and ripped around where I stood. It told me, asked me, to keep being as still as I can, to keep holding space for it, to keep being a beacon of love and surrender during a dark time.

Having been through dark times in this life and many others, I know I can do this. I can be the lighthouse on the dark and stormy waters, whether the ships can see me or not.

My soul knows the solace, the solitude, the loneliness too, of being a ‘healer’ in the midst of chaos. My soul also knows the beauty of the beaconing, the beckoning towards brighter shores of possibility and deeper connection within and with the Divine during such times as these when the death knoll (literal and figurative) sounds and there is an added poignancy and consciousness/awareness in our daily interactions and activities that we couldn’t get to otherwise.

My heart knows that this is all leading us to deeper connections to each other and ourselves as well as our beloved Gaia, as what is rebooting completes its reset cycle, bringing the collective into many different strands and strata of awakening.

All lenses are valid, all viewpoints need acknowledging. None are ‘wrong’ and none are absolutely ’right’, for this world is not now nor could ever be black and white.

I think the deepest gift we can offer ourselves if we choose to isolate, to pull back and out from ‘work’ or from ‘social’ as a precaution is to go inward and feel. The world is on a sort of ‘pause until further notice’ which is extremely rare. This is an opportunity to see what’s been brewing and moving on the inside of each of us. Where is the stagnancy and stubbornness toward love and surrender? Where is there a poignant fear of death or loss or both? These are existential questions, I know. Not everyone will be able to ask themselves or parts of themselves these just yet, but the invitation is there as always. And, as always, the Divine is here holding us all in whatever explorations we’re having inside and out and in whatever it is we are discovering about ourselves and our worlds, both inner and outer.

We are being invited to see our capacity to create the life we actually DO want and how this all comes from inside of each of us… from these places of panic and worry that are rooted far deeper than simply just being what ‘is’ and therefore accepted as only what ‘is’. There is SO much that needs our LOVE in these places. There are so many parts feeling their beloved 3D world being shaken up and so many Metasoul aspects in other lifetimes feeling a recapitulation of what they’re going through as well. Indeed, there are MANY layers all happening at once, so the need to pull it all back inward and make space for feeling it all is very, very real.

In all of this… there is nothing to ‘vanquish’ but there is a lot to be with and love UP.

It’s from this inward place that it can all change for the better, starting with the chaotic INNER world, the one that tends to get brushed aside or buried far too often.

Much love to you all and everything inside of you that may be in deep reaction at this time….

Kalayna ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Welcoming The Peaks And Valleys Of Awakening

by Raphael Awen

You can have what you want. That’s not actually the question.

The bigger question is about being ready to have what you want.

A part of you may readily say ‘oh, believe me, I’m ready! I’m so ready, I’m getting both depressed and impatient waiting to have what I really want.’

But this is only taking into consideration one part of you. Other parts of you can be just off your radar and actively resisting you (or what we call ‘you’) as they are not interested at all in these big changes ‘you’ feel you are so ready for. This resistive part of you is not something you can control, but it is something that you are responsible for, and something that you need to become responsive to.

Then, there is also another aspect of you, that is probably also just off your radar and that is your higher self. Your higher self may have chosen a preferred path of difficulty and going without something that another part of you deeply desires in order to learn and grow through a difficulty. It wouldn’t actually be a growth crucible without this tension between what ‘you’ want and don’t want. Your higher self is also something you cannot control, but it is something you are responsible for and that you also need to become more responsive to.

You are not a victim. Your life as you know it now is shaped by you, and the life you will come to know in the future is also shaped by you.

Your life as it is right now, warts and all, is perfect in the midst of imperfection. You are perfect while growing and learning. All the angst, pain and confusion is sacred. You had so much heaven that you needed to dial up hell in order to grow. Your soul loved the heaven it knew, but it also wanted more, and it knew the path to more was though the tension of less.

Consciously letting go of reaching for peak experiences and instead welcoming your awaiting valley experiences is what your soul may be asking of you. You may have very much needed your awakening experiences that happened through the peak experiences to let you know what is possible and what awaits you. But now, your soul wants you to let go of what a part of you may be be in danger of becoming quite addicted to, in order now to more consciously connect to what you actually came here for.

Whether conscious or not, you can’t escape growth. Growth is built into the DNA of the universe that you are a part of. While you can’t escape growth, you can accept your awakening to what is, and even the need to mourn the loss of your deep night’s rest in the 3D fusion of unconsciousness.

Now, as you are awakening, you are offered a conscious choice that your path up, is a path down. The downward path is a matter of feeling all there is to feel that you were not able to feel while asleep in 3D consciousness.

This will involve feeling crappy on a regular basis for a good amount of time. If this isn’t an option for ‘you’, then you are not yet ready for this deeper more conscious path of healing, but you can be assured, all of us will be invited and re-invited to return here just as soon and we are ready to. It is what we came here for. We came here to ascend with all of us, without any ‘lesser’ parts of us left behind being punished for any insubordination, or for just not getting the program.

Time now to look at what we’ve called ‘spiritual practices’ to feel where they are actually about transcending in the name of ascending, where they are about not feeling, rather than true healing.

We all come eventually to having what we most deeply want, with the fullest and deepest bliss that we can’t quite imagine. We are living our way to being able to imagine it as we feel and heal the parts of us still in deep pain that were covered over with our positive spirituality agendas.

Time now for a negative spirituality agenda that sees it all as sacred.

Raphael Awen

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

The Process Of Healing ‘Sisterhood’ Inside and Out

by Kalayna Solais

Letting in REAL sisterhood… the kind where you aren’t calling each other ‘sister’ because of blood or because somehow spirituality has told you that you ‘should’ in order to honour oneness and acknowledge, even just on the surface, our equality.

Real sisterhood is about calling each other ‘sister’ from the depths of our healing hearts as women. It becomes a declaration of love coming from the sisterhood inside, healing between parts within us who have been against each other for different reasons, and making space for this same frequency and depth of healing to happen between souls we are connected to on the outside.

This is new. This isn’t a process for which the depths of it have really been acknowledged. It’s challenging to look at how deep and often unconscious the competitiveness, comparison, and fear of each other lives and breathes within each of us as women. Simply starting to call each other ‘sister’ only reaches so deep. It so easily becomes a label without a heartbeat and without genuine care about each other.

To care about each other as sisters in soul and heart requires an awful lot of letting ourselves in, of feeling how and why it’s been hard to have deep intimacy with other women both in this life and in other lifetimes too and the karmic binds alive in them. It’s easy enough to let parts of us claim that this is a result of our conditioning and the messages in the media alone… yet, when we bring this inward, we can feel how yes, the outside influences have been there for a very long time, yet where the looping of this conditioning can finally close and heal is on the inside and this is where those lifetimes of persecution and pain can finally heal too.

Since the latest women’s call last weekend and for a few weeks beforehand, I’ve been letting in resonant relationships with other young women around my age who are doing the same SoulFullHeart process work that I’ve been doing for years now. We are taking the space to connect together, sometimes for several hours at a time over video call since we don’t live in the same country at the moment and can’t connect in person. We update each other on our personal processes and feel them together while we also clear anything that needs to be felt and cleared between us, feeling our hearts in the space and the desire to become closer. We feel our soul resonance and soul sisterhood on a deep level wanting to become more of a felt reality between us. This is not something I’ve experienced very often, especially with women my age, and that’s been so painful that parts of me in the past have shut down the desire for it altogether.

This is all an expansion of what I’ve experienced moving in me for years now with Raianna and Jelelle as part of this process too… but to be experiencing this with young women in my actual ‘peer’ group is a whole other thing, not surprisingly!

There are moments of caution that arise in these connections. On my side, I feel where this comes from is how often parts of me have felt ignored or unwanted by other women. The social pain of this continues to be flushed out, as even this morning I felt with a part of me that I’m calling my ‘Inner Sister’, how foreign it feels to really be ‘seen’ in my gifts by women my age and to SEE them in theirs too without feeling jealousy or defensiveness first. There are concerns for this part of me that we are/she is the ‘problem’, always, in every connection that goes sideways or when painful reflections are sometimes offered about how we’ve impacted others when connecting with them. Feeling shame takes over for feeling compassion for where the other person is coming from. This is all so much about intimacy though, and having a deep and real connection with other women needs to just feel strange and foreign and unknown until it becomes the new normal to be in these sort of ‘catalytic’ (not ‘catty’) relationships that get to expand the healing and growth on both sides. And, ultimately, the feelings of shame and being ‘the problem’ live inside of me between parts of me and this is the only place where these reactions and projections can fully heal.

We truly cannot place expectations on other women around us to become ‘sisters’ in a deep way without acknowledging the work that needs to be done within and between each other. This process though is so worth every moment of tension and expansion, because it IS what seeds the ‘reLOVEution’ we’ve been wanting to experience in how we relate to and treat one another, especially as feminine energies who are all here to be in our bigger soul purpose work and Divine Feminine LOVE ambassadorship!

Much love,

Kalayna

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Going Within To Love More Of Me, To Let In More Love With You

By Deva Yasmin

Being in a sacred union pushes up all that is hidden, that wants to stay safe and protected from Love.

Even though I have desired so badly to experience Love, now that it is here I get the opportunity to see all the defenses and ways I have unconsciously been pushing it away at the same time.

I longed to meet the one who would stay and Be with all of me, not yet realizing the one IS me. And HAS to be me first, to truly let Love in with another.

I see now how past relationships that couldn’t stay and be with all of me were a reflection of my own inability to accept, love and be present to myself.

Since meeting James, I have constantly been gifted the opportunity to see, feel and start to heal all the places that still push love away. As my heart desires to expand to let in all the goodness there is between us, those painful places of rage, anger, grief have been coming up to be vulnerably felt, to soften as they receive compassion allowing them to return to their original love source. Clearing space in my heart to let love flow through again.

I feel how his ability to stay grounded and true to himself as these emotions surface, now reflects my own ability to do the same for myself.

I see now that to have a fulfilling relationship, to open to all the love, goodness and passion we so desire, it is an INside job.

That the goodness can lie dormant under the frozen parts of our hearts and souls, until thawed out by the light of our conscious, loving, curious attention.

It feels like the ability to stay here, for ALL experiences especially the uncomfortable ones is the ground where trust is built. To be able to express ALL parts of myself and feel I am safe and deserve love for ALL of who I am, is giving me the space to heal from the story that I need to be ‘good’ in order to be loved.

Through this process I feel the liberation of our authentic joy, our innocence, our ability to love without conditions because when we feel we are loved in our shadow then we can finally feel safe to express the full spectrum of our light.

When pain arises in a relationship, it feels so engrained in us to overfocus on what needs to change within the relationship. It feels new to make going withIN to feel the frozen, hidden parts of ourselves priority, which organically shifts the ground of our togetherness.

This is what myself and James are constantly realizing since beginning individual sessions with Jelelle and Raphael. That to face the pain within ourselves first, truly transforms our relationship. To go INwards, focusing instead on our own inner relationships with parts of us, gives us a new understanding, empathy and way of BEing, with each other.

That is totally delicious and worth all the ‘effort’ it feels it takes, to align to this new way of REALating….

Much Love,

Deva Yasmin

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Deva Yasmin is a SoulFullHeart facilitant.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

SoulFullHeart Museletter: Meeting Your Inner Orphan

It’s the latest release of our Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the last two weeks. Go read it here!

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Meeting your ‘Inner Orphan’ part of you is a sacred process that has been coming up for many souls lately. In this issue’s featured article, SoulFullHeart Teacher/Facilitator, Raphael Awen, shares open-heartedly about his own experience with this process and how it opened out for him:

“I simply tuned in Yeshua as a beloved guide, and dialed in a Golden Earth setting, and there in the magical outdoors, was Yeshua crouched down about 8 or 10 feet away, holding upright a (soon to be) eager toddler, who he then let go, as this beautiful baby focused his gaze on me and began to take his first steps crossing the space between us. Midway across, the name Bartholomew came as plain as day. I received him into my arms, and he readily received me. I intuitively knew that this Bartholomew would change my life, that holding him would require all the rigors of true parenthood and presence of being that this Orphan would need to transmute the pain in his heart, allowing both him and I to shift our destiny and to embody what we intended when we set out on our journey of ‘leaving’ the Divine.”

There are quite a few NEW energy updates from these last two weeks from Jelelle Awen, including an audio blog sharing one of them, some personal process sharings from Kalayna Solais, and a deeper invitation into your own inner process of feeling from Raphael Awen.

Jelelle Awen continues her video series “Deepen 2020”. This series will be offered on an arising basis, rather than every day for a set period of time, and will be responsive to current events/cosmic energies/personal & collective process, etc. Every Deepen 2020 video will offer a teaching and a guided meditation. You can watch these on her Facebook page or our YouTube channel.

You can watch all podcast episodes on the SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube Channel or listen to the audio on the SoulFullHeart Soundcloud channel or iTunes channel.

Jelelle will be hosting the next virtual women’s group call over Zoom on Sunday, February 23rd, at 10am PST. The focus of this group will be on feeling and processing the sacred sisterhood wound. Women may feel a deep longing and familiarity in their soul around the goodness of connecting in bonds with soul and even birth sisters. Even with this longing, there is also the experience of these connections often resulting in competition/envy, not being seen/felt/appreciating and just overall sense of relational challenge to show up for them.

For more information on this and other upcoming events, visit: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

Raphael, a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for men and women, is now offering FREE 30-45 minute intro calls over Zoom to see how the SFH process and ongoing 1:1 sessions may support you on your healing and Ascension journey. Jelelle Awen is now working with women new to the SoulFullHeart process in 1:1 bridging sessions. More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

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Check out the latest Museletter here