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Introducing The Metasoul: Connecting, Healing, And Integrating Other Lifetimes

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I’m feeling, experiencing, and becoming open more and more to the sense that guides (angels, spirit guides, ascended masters, etc.) are versions or fragments of what I call Metasouls (similar to the concept of Oversouls) which exist in a higher dimensional reality (11th or 12th) and project onto different ‘eras’ of time and dimensions many versions coming from their original source essence and energy. I feel as if when we are experiencing guides, we are experiencing in some ways an aspect of ourselves, a fragment of the same Metasoul. Or we are experiencing a fragment from an Universal Consciousness Metasoul (which would be fragments such as Yeshua, Kuan Yin, Buddha, Magdalene, Arch Angels, etc.). These Universal Consciousness Fragments or Aspects seem to be available for anyone to connect with.

If fear, resistance, or just inability to access guides comes up it feels to me like it just isn’t the right time for integration of that particular frequency. There is other ‘work’ to do first, usually within the emotional body (often connected to unworthiness) or with an ‘other lifetime’ aspect that may be feeling the fear or resistance due to unhealed issues of persecution when inhabiting soul gifts, abuse of others related to soul gift expression or being a recipient of abuse, etc.

Getting to know, connect with, heal, and integrate the aspects that are usually known as ‘past lives’ allows for navigation of your Metasoul’s legacy and themes.These legacy and themes are often connected to archetypal frequencies and the collective unconscious.

I experience my other lives as existing in the NOW until their ‘time is up’ and their energy can ascend and integrate back into the Metasoul that we originated from. This way of relating to other lifetimes is dynamic, visceral and emotional yet also brings huge gifts of higher vibrational frequency access as some of the ‘fragments’ are in higher dimensions (such as Avalon, Atlantic, Lemuria, other planets, parallel dimensions, etc.) Because time is an illusion, ‘past lives’ are not really past and the energy they generate and take up (esp. related to emotional and soul traumas) can be huge and I think goes largely untouched in many people. There can be a lot of energy caught up in these other lifetimes that influences and impacts our current lifetime. This especially seems to be the case when the other lifetime(s) is one in which being famous or still currently well known is involved.

Raphael Awen and I have been connecting to the Akashic records recently yet before then discovered it to be quite simple to access these other lifetimes (and we feel it is simple for others too when the time is right in their process), meet our Metasoul brothers and sisters (as we are calling them) and form a relationship through creative visualization during meditation, verbal dialogue exchange, and journaling. A simple creative visualization process can open up this gateway as well, especially if your upper three chakras are open, healthy, and activated. It is within this mutual relationship between you and your other lifetimes that healing occurs on BOTH sides.

 

This is one of the concepts we may explore in our group call on Saturday, January 14th if you would like to join us live or we will be sharing the recording of the call as well. https://www.facebook.com/events/1275492559191062/.

If you are interested in exploring this Metasoul ground inside of yourself with the guidance and support of a facilitator, please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com to read more about the process and sessions.

Jelelle Awen is an ascending teacher into 5D consciousness, Divine guide-scribe-author, group facilitator, and co-creator/teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, online group calls and circles, community, videos, and more.

 

2017 Offers A Time Of Transition And Momentum Both Globally And Personally 

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Note: This article is also featured on In5d.com

Connecting to the energy frequencies of 2017 as a vibration brings up a sense of unknown, changes, transition….a sense of continual global, planetary, and personal awakenings and ascensions. ‘A time of transition’ sums it up most succinctly even as it leaves open Infinite Possibilities, both challenging and deeply, deeply nourishing. This is a time of accelerated tipping over where the personal awakenings you have experienced are challenged and everyone is invited to go to ‘their next level’, whatever that means for them.

The invitation for the ‘projected future’ of 2017 is for continued awakening, stretching new limbs of soul consciousness as your angelic wings unfurl. It is to claim what you have made bigger than you, outside of you, as now coming from Within you. It is to continue shedding layers of expected forms to arise in the essence of Infinite Love that you are.

There could be a sense of bittersweet experience about 2017. It could be bitter to aspects of us that have been conditioned to 3D life and the thought and behavior patterns that it has brought us. It will be a time of mourning and letting go of lower vibrational frequencies that no longer serve us. It may feel bitter to complete relationships that were previously meaningful and no longer can seem to transact even as love remains. Sweetness comes from the continual awakenings to the experience of less separation from within and with others. Sweetness comes from more experience of pure love frequencies as we transition into more embodiment of our light bodies and 5D consciousness.

On a global and galactic level, as planetary energies increase and the consciousness known as Gaia continues to vibrate at higher frequencies, it feels possible that many weather patterns and weather events may unfold. Many souls will be brought into a place of personal decision about whether they are going to ascend to higher dimensions with Gaia or not. Those that chose not to may decide to leave their physical bodies, as is already happening in increasing numbers with many, especially celebrities and entertainers. Some souls may choose to serve the ascension in other dimensions, from other planets, in their next reincarnation. Some souls may shift to other dimensions that are more polarized to 3D reality. All of these are personal choices made by each soul.

Many people feel that 2017 will bring a global disclosure of that which has been suppressed and put in the shadow, primarily in the exposure of the Illuminati, Capal, Archons, New World Order, etc. It is an unveiling that which will serve us all immensely as that which is of a lower vibrational, negative frequency can no longer resonate with Gaia’s ascension and ours. It will also be a very difficult and shocking time for many souls as they are more abruptly woken up to the realities of what has been going on around them. Lifting of the veils will continue with holes in the matrix widening and deepening and many being completely freed from it all together as they let go of mainstream, 3D consciousness. Those souls polarized to fear will find it increasingly uncomfortable to be here and will choose to follow their soul’s path around awakening, leaving the body, or atonement.

Overall, the sense for 2017 is a year of momentum, building as more and more souls choose to go within and transform greatly what they experience as reality. The invitation for you is one of priority to be made on raising your vibrational frequency, making the space to go deep within your inner reality, and to claim and offer your love in service gifts to the world. In every moment the invitation is there to feel the truth of your essence as Infinite Love and more deeply embody this as your daily, lived in, moment by moment reality.

 Jelelle Awen is an ascending teacher into 5D consciousness, Divine guide-scribe-author, group facilitator, and co-creator/teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, online group calls and circles, community, videos, and more.

 

Going Within To Manifest Goodness 2017 New Year Message Video

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Spiritual teacher, co-creator and teacher of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, and writer Jelelle Awen offers a message for the new year, 2017, to go within with self love in order to discover what your heart and soul most what to experience more and less of for the future. She invites you to go within and feel all aspects of yourself in order to come a place of inner peace and clarity that then overflows in love to others. For more videos and information about sessions, community, group circles and more, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Do The Foods You Eat Bring You Good Life Force Energy Or Do They Take It Away During 5D Ascension?

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The physical body is our vessel for experiencing life here. It now seems to be possible to take our physical body ‘with us’ as we ascend into higher consciousness dimensions that were previously only accessible through our astral or etheric bodies. We don’t actually go to a different physical location when our consciousness rises and ‘dimensions’ are not physical places, but rather states of awareness and how we filter and experience reality. The fifth dimension, or what we also call Golden Earth, is one of less sense of separation, peace, and opening out of our ‘clair’ gifts of clairvoyance, clairaudience, etc., and embodiment of our light body or crystalline body.

As our bodies shift from carbon-based to crystalline-based, our appetites and cravings will probably change. Foods that we could previously eat are no longer as digestible or desired. As we become more intuitive, we become more sensitive to sounds, light sources, temperature, and this heightened sensitivity includes food. Because we are wanting to stay in our bodies while we raise our vibrational frequency, what we put into our bodies in terms of food and water becomes increasingly important. The vibrational frequency of our food impacts us as every food has an energy.
 
There are many great resources around this topic and I am not an expert in it at all. What I share here is based on my own experience and that of others that I have served as clients over the years in their awakening and healing processes along with their desires (and my own) to be in vibrant and healthy bodies. I also hold that the biggest sense of what you need to eat comes from your own intuition and your body’s guidance. Writing a letter to your body asking it what is best for it can be very illuminating. And, you can also write a letter and exchange a dialogue with any illness, disease, or injury that has manifested in your body and it can often be quite interesting and offer you a helpful sense of the emotional and spiritual root causes of what is happening.
 
The foods that raise your vibrational frequency the most are also the ones considered the most healthy in terms of nutritional value. Raw fruits and vegetables, especially organic ones, have a strong aura and radiate good energy. The image included in this article shows the vital life force energy emitting from the aura of raw fruits and vegetables (organic versus conventional) captured by Kirlian photography. This is especially true for foods that been labeled as ‘super foods’ because of their nutritional value but also because of their high energy level. Herbs also have a very high life force and are often extremely medicinal and beneficial to your health. Taking herbal supplements every day can help you feel a baseline of health that will off-set some of the other denser foods you might be eating. All this life force energy goes into you and compliments the other things you are doing to raise your vibrational frequency such as meditation, yoga or natural exercise, cleaning/protecting/activating your chakras, listening to solfeggio tones in music, choosing to respond with love, making space for yourself and your feelings, etc.
 
This is a good way to think about which foods to eat or not: Do they compliment and bring you good life force energy or do they take it away? Processed foods, refined sugar, and vegetable oils strip away energy and can actually block the cells from letting in the new energy you are bringing in from the Universe with your Ethereal Guides and from within. To integrate your higher self into your physical body (which is ultimately the ‘goal’ of ascension), you need to be vibrating at a higher frequency. Your higher self waits in your etheric field in the meantime, at higher frequency dimensions, until you are ‘ready’. Processed foods and refined sugar can actually densify your vibration and can delay the process of higher self embodiment.
 
Wheat products can be densifying as well, especially the GMO-based and hybrid stuff that passes for wheat and white flour these days. The ‘wheat belly’ phenomenon is well known and documented as the body slowly stores the extra carbohydrates as fat, especially in the stomach area. Sometimes extra body weight is the bodies response to increased vibrational frequency as it works to ground and center you. Your natural body weight can be more revealed through a ‘love body’ that vibrates at a higher frequency with less weighing it down as your tones of self love and self worth increase.
 
I have been vegetarian and/or vegan for several years and it works well for my body and my awakening process. I felt a huge surge of energy when I stopped eating meat and that has continued to this day. I feel lighter and more in tune with all the sentient life on the planet. I originally stopped eating meat because of the way that animals are treated in the concentration camp settings of mass produced meat. I tried buying only organic meat for awhile and yet, eventually, lost a taste even for that. The more Divine Feminine energy I brought into my field, the less I could digest anything that had been ‘killed.’
 
Beyond the health benefits, not eating anything that has been killed and limiting the amount of cooked food that you eat allows for more alive energy to move through your body and energy field. There are many wonderful resources that offer the benefits (emotionally, physically, spiritually) of following a predominately plant-based, raw diet as more and more souls are waking up to this choice. Again, as you become more sensitive, it may even become difficult to eat in restaurants as you will be indigesting the energy of whoever served you and cooked your food. Whatever moods the cooks were in, whatever energy they were feeling and putting off, goes into the food they serve you. After awhile, you can feel this quite acutely. I do a quick energy cleansing of restaurant food before I eat it by visualizing a white energy swirl moving through it when I eat out, which is pretty rare these days.
 
All that I offer here about nutrition related to 5D ascension is for you to take in and feel for yourself. Bringing awareness of how foods impact your energy level and if they serve your awakening and ascension process or not is ultimately an opportunity for self love and self care. Wherever the journey takes you, hold it with love for yourself and for the parts of you that just might need some denser foods at times. It is not about extremes here or being hyper vigilant. Holding the process with love and balance allows for the love flow that you ARE to expand and grow, which can be just that much more supported by the foods that you eat.
 
Jelelle Awen is an ascending teacher into 5D consciousness, Divine guide-scribe, and co-creator/teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.

Creativity Cannot Be Controlled, Only Responded To: Blog Writings From The Week

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Many words coming over the last several days on a flow of inspiration from both Raphael Awen and I. Creativity cannot be controlled, only responded to. Creativity has flowed as we have both been dedicated to going within, opening up to guidance from within and from with-out, and blessed space is available for this right now. I feel such gratitude to those of you who read this blog and follow me on facebook who have taken in these words into your hearts and souls and shown your support with little hearts and thumbs up, comments, and sharings. While I feel that I would probably create it all without any response, it feels so meaningful for me to land in and serve those of you who resonate. I feel so much love and gratitude for your response….thank you! I love you!

I have a sense of everything being accelerated and energies sometimes greatly amplified, including creativity and inspirational muse frequencies. We are continuing into a time of intense transition in 2017, which I’ll be writing about soon. The only way to navigate it with a sense of center is from within because outside circumstances could feel quite outrageous, unstable, and unmanageable.

I feel renewed commitment and inspiration for sharing and offering my gifts without attachment yet with full focus and sense of support. I am amazed to see that in the last week or so I wrote nine blog articles, did a 30 minute intro video with Raphael, started our book, offered two group events both virtual and in person, and soon we will be launching our monthly museletter. And somehow in there celebrated christmas! None of this felt like ‘work’ or ‘effort’ yet is an enlivening and nourishing way to express and give back what I have been gifted through my inner journeys and blessed life. It all is received and given from LOVE by LOVE.

Listed below are blog articles from the last week and these are all posted on my facebook page as well.

Heart And Soul Recovery After Breakups:
https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/your-heart-and-soul-will-r…/

Golden Earth Now (Raphael Awen):
https://soulfullheartblog.com/2016/12/28/golden-earth-now/

Intense Energies During This Time Of Transition From 3D to 5D
https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/intense-energies-during-th…/

‘Tis The Season For Desires:
https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/26/tis-the-season-for-desi…/

Love Wisdoms From Yeshua As Christ Consciousness:
https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/love-wisdoms-from-yeshua-a…/

Feeling The True Message Of Love Within The Christ-Mas Story (Raphael Awen)
https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/feeling-the-true-message-o…/

Navigating Relationships During Awakening (transition From 3D to 5D):
https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/navigating-relationships-w…/

Go Within And Remember The Love That You Are:
https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/go-within-and-feel-the-lov…/

Embracing Changes In Your Life As Love Expressing Itself (Raphael Awen):https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/embracing-changes-in-your-…/

Heart And Soul Recovery After Relationship Completions

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Your heart will recover. It cannot really break, only gets bent, only gets cleansed, only gets reminded. The reminders can be painful, sometimes the most very effective ones are the most painful. The reminder is of your worth, your goodness, your true essence. The reminder is that you are so much more than you have settled for…if you have settled.

If you have settled and are on a consciousness path, you can trust that whatever happens is a mirror and is for your own growth. It is a way for you to see that which you have settled for and invite you into so much MORE.

The so much more is found within you. The so much more becomes available as you let go of what is less. The so much more becomes available as you discover and love aspects of you that broadcast pain, unworthiness, doubt, and fear. The so much more becomes available as you collect fragments of your soul that are spread over eras and dimensions living out realties from many different levels of consciousness.

Your soul will recover too. It cannot really be defeated, only gets woken up, only gets recharged, only gets realigned. The realignment can be difficult, sometimes the deepest realignment brings the most awakening. If you are in a place of shrinking your soul in some way in your relationships, in your career, in your geography, in your physical health, in your emotional healing, in your spiritual growth….the realignment comes as a gift from your higher self, the Divine within and with-out.

You will wake up and it feel that it just isn’t enough anymore, maybe you do already. You move from suffering into love. You move from being motivated by suffering to being motivated by love. Your desire for more love and less shrinking moves you into new inner terrains, inner unknown places, inner vistas and avenues.

You realize that everything you experience in your outer world is a reflection of your inner world. Your soul remembers this is true even as you heart always knew. Setting boundaries, letting go, moving on…you seem to say more ‘no’ than ‘yes’ in this phase as you move out of 3D consciousness and into 4D and 5D.

You start vibrating higher, faster, brighter. Your radiance is beaconing out to others as you discover the radiance from within that is released as you get to know and love the previously unlovable inside of you. Your sense of self love and goodness is becoming unconditional. You feel this form within and so your relationships reflect and transact this more and more.

In this growing sense of center and of self, you somehow feel more sense of connection with everyone and less separation. Your individuation has brought you the gift of Oneness. You maturation has given you the sense of union. As you feel inside, so you feel about the outside. Your inner union has delivered you to union with others.

You will more than recover; you are recovered already. You are whole already, even when part of you feels broken. You are whole as you ARE even as you discover more and more because the possibilities are as infinite as you ARE.

Jelelle Awen is an ascending teacher into 5D consciousness, Divine guide-scribe, and co-creator/teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.

Group Virtual Call With Raphael And Jelelle Awen

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Join us live or listen via recorded replay later for a group virtual call to:

* Raise Your Vibrational Frequency
* Connect, Activate, and Open Your Heart Chakra
* Expand Your Thinking about Reality
* Experience LoveLight Energies
* Connect With Your Higher Self
* The Possibilities Are Limitless!

Spiritual teachers and soul mates Raphael and Jelelle Awen will be hosting a group call on January 14th at 12:00pm CST using Zoom virtual messenger service. The call will last about two hours but if interest and desire are to go longer then they will. They will guide all participants in a meditation to raise your vibrational frequency, bring in pure light, activate and open your chakras, and ground with Gaia’s frequency. Then they will open up to receive questions from any one who wants to ask either personal or more contextual questions or discuss topics such as: ascension, consciousness awakening, fifth dimensional consciousness or golden earth, star being connections, emotional healing, parts work, energy healing, chakras, sacred union, sacred sexuality, physical body health and diet, money and passion purpose work, soul fragments or Metasoul, etc. Questions can be personal or general, although we are recording the call for future listening of others. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com andsoulfullheartblog.com for more sense of the areas we teach about.

A monetary donation is greatly appreciated (through paypal on our website at soulfullheartwayoflife.com) yet is not required.

If you would like to attend, please message us via facebook or email us at soulfullhearts@gmail.com or call us at 622-150-3004 so we can send you the log in information and send you instructions for setting up Zoom on your computer. It is very easy and only takes minutes!!

Note: The call will be recorded and available for listening in the future if you can’t make the call live.

About Raphael and Jelelle Awen: Raphael and Jelelle have been in sacred union commitment since July, 2008, experiencing the challenges and growth that come from such a crucible. They have been teaching and facilitating individuals, couples, and groups (both alone and together) since 2010, although both have been on awakening and healing journeys for 15+ years. Both are Divine scribes and share their writings regularly on facebook, their blog at soulfullheartblog.com and through books that are available for free on soulfullheartwayoflife.com. Together, they have facilitated many groups, did a weekly blog talk show, and videos offering their teachings (also available on the website.)

Intense Energies During This Time Of Transition From 3D to 5D

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It is a time of intense energies. Waves of light washing over Gaia from the sun, from star being friends, from portals and star gates both within and with-out. These waves of light are calibrators to raise our frequency, to boost the vibration of Gaia as She continues to move from the denser vibrations of 3D consciousness into fourth and eventually fifth. Many lightworkers, gridworkers, psychics, healers, teachers are feeling this as an intense time of energy surges and calibrations and I join them in feeling this as a particularly intense time of energy shifts. For those of you who are sensitive and awake to energy, you can probably feel it quite intensely and acutely.

Experiencing body symptoms is common as our bodies vibrate faster and faster, turning from carbon-based to crystalline. DNA strands are activating and repairing without us having to ‘do’ anything for this to happen. The light that is available is doing it for us although if you ask for it and want it, this accelerates the process. DNA getting switched on feels like a tingly at times in the scalp and at times is downright painful with surges of pain around the crown chakra and down the neck and spine. A throbbing forehead or third eye is common too, which I have experienced several times now.

Sleeping well and hard feels so important as the mind and the 3D self shut down to let the 4D transitional self and the 5D higher self step in. Wanting and needing a lot of sleep is a good thing as everything recharges. Not being able to sleep or interrupted sleep patterns is also common. The awakening 4D self has dark and light, the contrasts and polarities and dualities are being pushed up to be felt. It mostly exists in the astral or etheric realm although for those of you who have been consciously bringing it forward through connecting with aspects of yourselves, you ARE it most of the time. And the higher self is becoming embodied as well, more and more higher frequencies of light living in the body, walking around as the higher self and integrating guides from the ‘outside’ to the inside.

Holding space for yourself includes checking in with aspects of yourself and how they are feeling and digesting these changes.

Starting a journaling dialogue with your 3D, 4D and higher self can be very illuminating. You can start by writing a letter to each of them (based on your experience of each) and then listen for a response back, writing down whatever you hear. You can then engage in a question and answer type dialogue written down or outloud. Stay in your heart as you engage with these aspects of yourself, maintaining a curious and loving energy toward them. Let the feelings of these aspects (especially the 3D and 4D selves) come back to be felt and held by you. You will be amazed how much this can help with the transition.

Shadow is coming to light. Shadow is oozing out at times, bursting out in emotional upheavals. It is a time of unveiling which it feels like will continue hugely in 2017. It is a time of decision making and changing life circumstances, feeling deeper desires and soul claims bubbling up to be integrated. There is a sense of there being ‘no time to lose’ and more sense that time is an illusion and very urgent at the same ‘time’. Our bodies are changing, our hearts are opening up, our souls are embodying and ALL of it is held within Infinite Love.

These transitional times are held with so much support and love from our star being friends and ancestors. They are watching and feeling and helping in any way that they can. The lower vibrational ‘negative’ star beings are finding it harder to be here and it feels like eventually they just won’t be able to hang out around Gaia as the frequencies change too much. It reminds me of when Dorothy poured water on the wicked witch in Wizard of Oz…the witch just dissolved into nothing, screaming her head off. It feels like this is how it will be for these lower vibration star beings, running away from the light and love to lurk in the shadows again somewhere else. It feels as if many of them are gone already with their human puppets soon to be exposed to the masses.

Many animal species are ascending already, seeming to ‘go extinct’ in our 3D reality but actually being preserved by our star being friends like in arks in Golden Earth-5D Gaia, waiting for Gaia’s consciousness and human consciousness to ascend to a place of communion and cooperation again. This is the aspect that makes my heart most happy and my inner child smile.

As I’m writing this, I’m feeling my energy continuing to shift to one of holding excitement and a big sense of Infinite Possibilities for the future. In my transition from 3D to 4D, I went fully into the collapse of 3D life scenario, including living off grid, and felt very deeply the collapse of industrial life as it has been and what that would mean for me personally and for the world. Now, I am feeling it is still a possibility, yet I don’t feel the hopelessness or despair that part of me once did. Old will need to make way for the new…in both galactic and personal ways.

Yet, all these changes and transitions are held by and orchestrated by and made BY LOVE FOR LOVE WITH LOVE. You are being invited to feel increasing trust in this through the visceral experience of these changes in the deepest cells of your ever changing body, in the opening of your healing heart and ache for intimacy and authenticity, and in the expansion of your soul and the embodiment of your higher self through integration of soul fragments existing in many dimensions and eras.

Much love to you from my ever changing BEing to your ever evolving, awakening, and ascending BEing… Jelelle Awen is an ascending teacher into 5D consciousness, Divine guide-scribe, and co-creator/teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.

 

‘Tis The Season For Desires

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The ache for closeness. The ache for family. The ache to be known and connected to. The ache to be seen and visible. The ache to be cherished. The ache to be acknowledged. The ache for a sense of purpose. The ache for romance. The ache for love. The ache for realness. The ache for joy. The ache for celebration. The ache for being in the moment. The ache for rest. The ache for aliveness.

The ache for intimacy. With ourselves. With others. With the Divine.

This time of year, the holiday season, the season of celebration and gathering; this time of year seems to push up these aches in us in a way that is more poignantly and urgently felt than the rest of the year. We feel pressed to connect, to consider each other, to gift each other with appreciations, to spend time together, and to take space and rest away from our professions and busy daily grinds. We feel called to seek and search for a connective sense of God, a higher source, the Divine. We feel called to honor in contemplation and in joyous song whatever our sense is of God.

The tension of this season of ache comes when these desires, which have been mostly suppressed the rest of the year (which is the reason they are experienced as aches), are unable to be met and fulfilled due to parts of us that remain closed down, fearful, and stuck in the intimacy ground of our relationships with ourselves, others, and the Divine. These parts of us which have become built-up clogged places block our desires from fully dancing, moving, and flowing. Plus, the pressure of conforming to expectations, confronting the back pressure built up from the clogged relationships, and experiencing the compartments that we have created between each other and inside ourselves gets in the way of love’s flow and, ultimately, can leave us quite frustrated.

Ask most people and, in their vulnerable and open moments, they will admit that they are left disappointed and frustrated by the holiday season. They may attribute it to the stress of finding gifts for people, to worry over spending too much money, to dramas of their extended family, and to the busy pace of the holidays. And, yes, these are contributing factors.

Yet, also, there is the unspoken angst that the deep ache that they had to connect, to be in joy, to feel intimacy with their family and themselves and the Divine….there is the deep pain and frustration that this ache did not get met. That even with all the effort, shopping, and visiting, they were unable to get these deep needs answered in an effortless dance of love, joy, connection, and realness. This is particularly hard on parts of us, who are tasked with suppressing our desires most of the time and so are deeply disappointed when their rest in vigilance is not rewarded with us receiving what we most passionately want.

SoulFullHeart offers that ache is desire that has been suppressed and wants to come up and be felt and given room. The holidays bring up a poignant call as they are accepted by the mass consciousness, yet, these aches are always there and are part of the hurting part in us and soul aspects of us that feel “fallen out” of grace and love with the Divine, and therefore essentially feels unworthy to feel and have desires. This part of us can feel estranged, lonely, and separate from others/itself/God even as it aches for closeness and intimacy.

Perhaps during the busyness of this holiday season, you might take a moment to feel your own ache for connection and desire.

To feel this part in you that is aching to feel held and loved again, enfolded in the arms of the Divine. And, in whatever way you choose to connect and celebrate your relationship with the Divine, that you would ask the Divine Mother especially to gift you with a sense of your own qualification with Her, for an acceptance of your desires (even if they can’t all be met right now), to feel a trust in Her grace of timing, synchronicity, and alchemy, and ask Her help to surrender the outcomes of your desires to Her. In this growing vulnerability with Her and more room to feel your own desires, you’ll discover the true gift of the holidays and the authentic joy of this, and all, seasons!

*Note: Originally written December, 2012

Jelelle Awen is an ascending teacher into 5D consciousness, Divine guide-scribe, and co-creator/teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.

Navigating Relationships During Awakening (Transition From 3D to 5D Consciousness)

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Raphael and Jelelle Awen

You are awakening and asking questions about yourself, your soul purpose, what you really want in and from relationships. You are looking around with an opening heart and curious soul, wondering if the people currently in your life can come along. You start testing the grounds of these relationships to see if they sustain or if they run out of room to move. You may find that others, even beloveds, are not awakening in the same way that you are. You begin to realize that their journey is different from yours.

This is led by your fourth dimensional (4D) awakening self and can be a very painful and challenging process for your 3D self as what was previously nourishing is no longer experienced in the same way. Your needs are changing as you are changing and awakening. You go through a push-pull with others, perhaps even tugging on them to come with you. Perhaps they tug on you to remain the same. Yet, at some point, you probably realize that you cannot change them, only invite them to come along. And if they don’t, you reach a place where you have to let go and trust the deeper love that exists at the core of all relationships. In the core is Oneness and none of us can truly be separate from each other, even if we choose not to be in relationship transaction together.

As your consciousness shifts to higher vibrational frequencies of love, the type of relationships that you are drawn to and that you draw changes. Your 3D self sought comfort, while your awakening self (4D) seeks challenge and growth in relationships. Your 5D self or higher self as it becomes more embodied within you seeks for union while remaining an individual soul spark of consciousness.

Romantic relationships shift greatly too. Perhaps your heart is still hurting from past wounds and hurt experiences within relationships where your 3D self was most in ‘charge’. Your relationships were more about healing karmic binds from other lifetimes (that are still happening) then about transaction of love frequencies in the moment. You are still feeling the energetic binds and cords that run between you and your former partner(s). Feeling leads to healing, mourning what was and what couldn’t be and what isn’t enough, letting go of the possibilities in order to let in what your awakening self really wants and needs.

As you transition into fourth dimensional consciousness and awakening, it begins to become a priority to heal yourself, to love yourself, to mate with yourself first and foremost. You woo yourself, date yourself, give yourself what your previous partners couldn’t. You connect with the aspects of you that need parental love, your inner child, your inner teenager. You find and draw resources outside of yourself to help with this healing of self. You find and draw a soul family community to help with this healing and loving of self, such as what we offer in SoulFullHeart. You discover union within, the masculine and feminine inside, and heal the drifts and splits that exist there.

On this self loving journey, you may then draw a new mateship. This mateship is based on heart, soul, and body connection. This mateship feels both familiar and also is stunning in the new avenues and vistas that it opens up in you. You are creating inner safety first and foremost, so it feels safer to be vulnerable in this new bond. You are able to express your sexuality more fully as you are opening up sexuality inside of yourself and feeling more and more your own desirability.

The biggest shift is how you feel your soul engaging in the bond. There is a higher ceiling and higher context for the relationship, less content and conflict. It is important to you to be a sovereign individual and it is important to be in union, both. You can more hold this seeming paradox inside of yourself and within the relationship. Your partner is also committed to their own self healing, to their own awakening process, to ascension. Together, you unite and yet, also, you are individuals that need and claim your space for yourselves and your own processes.

As you move into 5D consciousness, your relationships deepen and you feel at a fundamental level how everyone is YOU and YOU are them. Previous triggers and reactions, competitive feelings or comparisons are dropped. You are in the moment in your relationships and you are current with whatever reactions or feelings may still come up from parts of you. You feel moved by the beauty that is every sacred human, wherever their ‘level’ of consciousness is. You are discerning about who you want to be in relationship with and probably have fewer intimates than many acquaintances. You are discerning about the energies that you take in and are involved with, inviting others to be in your higher vibrational frequency with you rather than lower yours to make them comfortable. And your heart and soul are a beacon drawing others to you as you step into your soul bigness and your gift expression and the reason that you came here this life. As you embody your higher self (5D) more and more, you step into serving love as your highest purpose and are not attached to how it manifests and with whom, even as you love deeply and fully in every moment.

This may feel ideal, what I am offering here, yet this has been my experience with Raphael, and within SoulFullHeart community. It is also the experience of a growing number of others too. This really feels like what we our capacity is to inhabit as sacred humans within relationship as an expression of the Infinite Love that we ARE. We are moving from separation into union. We are moving from feeling apart to feeling joined. We are moving from relationships formed by wounds to relationships formed by health, a deeper resonance, and soul connection.

This could be your journey or perhaps it already is, and a sacred one it IS with every experience along the way a blessed one offering much teaching and much learning. Offering much, much LOVE to hold and guide it ALL.

Jelelle Awen is an ascending teacher into 5D consciousness, Divine guide-scribe, and co-creator/teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.