The Eclipse Of The Fifth Dimension

Whenever there is a celestial event like the one today in the Northern Hemisphere, I like to feel its deeper meaning and wider significance for me personally as well as collectively. 

I went into meditation today to ‘see’ the setup of the Moon, the Sun, and the Earth. I just witnessed the eclipse as if I was there in its totality. What I felt and saw from a more 5D place, was how the Moon itself is an agent of the 3D/4D Matrix. It has its own function to keep this grid in place. I have read in the past about its particular mathematics and it is quite precise and extraordinarily designed in relation to the Earth and the Sun. (I will see if I can find that info and post it here later.) 

Beyond that ‘data’, I sensed this reality in my soul. As these events occur, something is getting maintained, activated, or reorganized. Some kind of scrambling or attunement depending on the consciousness. I feel as Mother Gaia continues Her own ascension journey, this Matrix maintenance is having to work harder. It has to be more efficient with its energy and apply to those that are more easily susceptible. 

So this is where I feel the bifurcation is happening. Those that have been working to unplug and heal from the Matrix High-Control Program, are finding themselves at odds with those that haven’t or are not ready or willing. This is a global phenomenon in my opinion. In relation to the eclipse there are those that are aligned with the Sun (5D), those that see the eclipse (the transition of awakening), and those that are seduced by the Moon (False Mother High-Control Matrix). 

The fifth dimension exists Here and Now. We can get tastes of its milk and honey that gives us the ‘fuel’ to continue our own personal journeys as well as ambassadorship to the Matrix itself to help release those grid structures and assist in bringing in more Love and Light to the Whole. This does bring with it more shadow to see and pain to heal in each of us individually as well as collectively. This causes a lot of cognitive and emotive dissonance. It is the storm before the calm. 

For those on the ambassador path, rooting into more 5D consciousness is a vital part of the process. It is not about losing ourselves there, transcending, or by-passing. It is about embodying, recoding, and beaconing this energy more fully to have a greater impact on the whole. It is sometimes making some difficult choices to surround yourself with more like-minded, like-hearted, and like-souled others to maintain and deepen that Love frequency. 

We are all a part of this Matrix. We find ourselves here for a reason. The more we can let in 5D consciousness the more we begin to understand our roles as ambassadors and not warriors against. We transform the Matrix from the inside out, not reform it from the outside in. This is my deepest calling and purpose this life. It is what I am here to serve in myself and in others that feel that resonance.

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If you are interested in receiving some 5D transmission energy, Raphael and Jelelle are hosting a group call over Zoom this Sunday, June 13 @ 5pm London time. You can donate and receive the link for the live call or for the recording if you can’t make it. More info at soulfullheart.org/groupcalltransmissions.

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

Honouring The Physical Body During Awakenings

by Kasha Rokshana

Tension is a sacred part of our awakening experiences as we shift out of trusting a narrative of who and what we’ve been told and taught to trust (government, medical systems, etc) and move into trusting our intuitions, our Divinity, and the urgency and realness we feel around what’s shaking out in the Matrix. Tension sometimes has to move through our bodies in this process as a sacred aspect of our learning how to tune into ourselves again, freed up from the static of Matrix voices and energies.

I’ve been in pain for a few days now in my trapezius, an enormous muscle of the back, especially in my right shoulder. It’s feels like a deep-seated tension trying to move that has lived in my body for a very long time… the depths of emotional processing and responding to myself and my parts has now led me to this deeper layer of feeling core tension that wants to ultimately shift into trust… Trust of the Divine within and outside of me and trust in the Divine energies unfolding that can only be tapped into if you reach your consciousness well beyond the mainstream/Matrix.

This last year or so of the C-VID narrative has planted even more tension inside us all, especially for alternative thinking, feeling, and intuition. Even if you do decide to go with what the mainstream tells you is THE truth, that is ‘not to be argued with or against’, there’s still tension around who to trust as the bifurcation of once-trusted relationships continues. This was always a part of the Ascension process and it’s only been amplified since this C-VID timeline began in 2020.

Our bodies signal to us so much that we need to listen to. They tell us when something is not right, when we are suffering, when we have been implanted and impacted by the emoto-psycho-drama around us. So much of our intuition comes through the instrument of our bodies as one expression of it. Yet, our bodies have been suppressed, criticized, bullied, and we have not been taught how to properly honour and respect them. This continues with the injected poisons which are an assault on our immune systems as we’ve known them. If the body is in a bind, so will we be, until we love them UP enough to bring them with us into much higher consciousness.

I feel my own body in its upgrades as I share this… the ongoing journey of its own Ascension process and the integration of Light Body. It wants to be realigned with and lived in differently. It wants to be thanked. It wants to have its balance of deep relaxation and physical activity. It wants to be made love to and to make love as a house of my soul and home for my heart. It craves the textures of sand, water, grass, and the feeling of sunshine landing on its many chakral petals. It craves the love of Gaia from which it was created and my own love too as I feel its consciousness and needs, just as I’ve felt soul aspects and parts of me in need and in pain…

This is the invitation for us all; To feel a new relationship with the body, with what moves through it every time we take in anything energetically or physically. The tension of the reality of moving out of the Matrix is real and our bodies invite us to be self-loving, highly discerning, and to begin to tune into it in new ways. It truly is our instrument, our vehicle, our temple, and needs to be tuned into to be tuned UP, making the whole journey of living within it and the density and tension we have to help it move through, worth it.

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Amassador’s Journey And The Lover’s Quest

Lately I have been going over some prior work we all did around 3D, 4D, and 5D consciousness and how they relate to different areas of life. I felt like I was seeing it with new eyes and a renewed interest and passion to bring it back into my own personal awareness as well as use it as a map for those that I work with. 

As with all maps, they don’t represent the territory but they do offer a context for understanding and a check for resonance. My mental body and more masculine parts love maps, yet it is my heart and my feminine that love the story and the experience that the journey provides. With a new global backdrop in place since this was created, I find it valuable to address as a way through these volatile times. 

Our 3D consciousness is more rooted in the machine of the Matrix itself. It has its values and its levers and pulleys to make it ‘work’ in a certain way. It has its own boundaries and rules that it lives by. It is dependent on the basic senses and on reason and logic. It is not sentimental yet has function. It is what we were born into as the overall collective agreement. 

However, we were not just born into a heartless machine. There has always been a 4D consciousness that pervades the fabric of 3D. It has shown up in religion, spirituality, political movements, art, music, and philosophy. It seeks to question and even undermine the 3D machine. It has its prophets and its warriors, as well as its light and its dark. 

To me 4D has been a bit of a quagmire and a catalyst for change. I have felt it has a bridge between worlds. A purgatory in a way. In this sea of quest and questioning, there can be the experience of profound awakening as well as suffering when caught in its swirl. It is where I feel the bulk of the world finds itself, struggling to find a sense of peace and clarity. 

This is the territory where you hear about the ‘bifurcation’. It is where one feels themselves, along with others, in a dimension that is different from those they have been around for years. There is a lot of pain and reaction here. The pandemic and its Matrix response has illuminated a lot in the relationships between people, friends, and family. 

This is where the ‘warriors’ and the ‘logicians’ find their niche. Spirituality is divided into camps as well. It can feel as if there is a ‘Balkanization’ happening in this dimension. Tribes searching for like-minds, like-hearts, and like-souls. It is where confusion comes to look for clarity and gets stuck in its web. 

I have spent much time in this dimension and have learned many lessons and found many gifts. The same holds for 3D as well. There is nothing inherently ‘bad’ about them. It is how parts of us have related to them that has created the suffering. They are experiential learning grounds that we can choose to learn from and apply into something new. 

This next frontier of 5D is one that I am looking to embody and inhabit in a more consistent way. This may be judged as bypassing, and that is okay. I have been dedicated to going into my shadow and my emotional body for some time. I know what I have been through and what I have yet to learn. It is not about ignoring the ills and pains of the world, but rather embodying the Light and the Love that exists in the Universe and beaconing and serving it to those that are drawn to it. Not just to make a dollar but to make a difference. 

It is about being an ambassador to the very Matrix we are all trying to be free of. By being in battle with it we continue to be entangled in it. I fully believe it wants out of this dance just as much as we do. It seeks to be seen and felt just as we do. It has had a role and a reason. From a more 5D place we may see that more clearly with more compassion and understanding. This to me is what shifts our waking reality. Our choice to stay anchored in Love and to give fear its rightful place as a guide and not a dictator. 

This is the Ambassador’s Journey. The Lover’s Quest. The need to embody grace and courage is on high for each of us. It is a process and an initiation. I am being invited to become that more and more each day. I believe the world needs more of us. The map is easy. The territory is the hard part but doable with support. I will continue to write more about this to serve and to call to those that it aligns with. 

May your heart and soul guide you to the shores of what is most real and desired to help illuminate the Golden Earth within.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

Divine Alignment Through All Necessary Darkness

by Kasha Rokshana

“Thy harmful will be done”…

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‘Thy will be done’ doesn’t feel like enough these days as a declaration of surrender to the Divine within and without. There’s a lot of harm going on in this world. There always has been, yet it’s all become amplified and the veils have been dropping at increasing rates around what’s been hidden. 

The Divine is aware of the great harm and pain unfolding. It holds us with a desire for our well-being, yet won’t caretake us in the process. We’ve asked, consciously and unconsciously, for an upgrade to our planet and our consciousness and we’re in the throes of getting just that. In order to move into more light, we have to see what hasn’t had light shed on it. We have to care, deeply, about the state of things… ALL things. From everything that’s happening in all areas of our personal lives, to the torture and killing of animals and other humans, and to the insidious nature of our governments, medical systems, and other ‘powers that be’. The Divine has a hand in it all, from the painful expressions of it, to the dismantling of it, to the co-creation of what we really do want going forward.

In order to collaborate with the Divine within and without, to express our deepest form of surrender to what’s unfolding and NEEDS to unfold, we have to admit to ourselves that Divine will needs to cause harm in some form. It needs to destroy to helps us rebuild. This is not without our mourning and grief for what was and for the loss of lives and ways of life also being honoured and made space for, however. We aren’t expected to transcend all of our pain and just let the Divine do its thing. No… we’re invited to aid in the destruction and recreation of a world that needs dismantling…

To move beyond polarity and division, we need to see it. And in order to see it, it all needs to be allowed to reach its peak. We get to hold on to the side we feel most resonant with, yet we also get to learn how to open our hearts to ALL sides… because the battling and arguing is meant to get boring and tiring. 

To move beyond being controlled by a Matrix that, innocently enough, we have ALL contributed to in its creation and perpetuation by refusing to see what’s real, especially within. The great ‘cults’ of culture, in birth family, friend groups, spirituality, and even whole cities and countries, need to be seen. Not all are ‘bad’, yet all need us to feel our sovereignty, ultimately, and choose consciously what we want and who we want to be around, now more than ever.

To move into the Ascension that we all want to move into, to co-create New Earth… to feel, in our humble worthiness, our equality with all great teachers who have come before us like Yeshua, St Germain, Anna, Mary Magdalene, Buddha, Kuan Yin, etc… we are invited to feel ALL of our personal rumbles around this process and the arrogance that has taken the place of the humility in reaching this mountain top of Divine Alignment and embodiment.

We all have big choices to make and need to be sober about them. We will need to cause hurt and harm at times as we take care of ourselves and find what most resonates. We will need to align with the sometimes harmful will of the Divine as we break down and break open, always in growth, and always on our way through this sometimes rather gruesome Ascension process. 

With much love,

Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

New Earth Needs Us To Choose It

I drew a boundary with my birth family and past friends about 9 years ago. I had chosen to ‘cross over’ in 2012 when that bridge opened up. There was nothing as divisive as Covid back then other than the politics of the day, which was still fairly polarizing.

Yet, I needed to fully step into this dimension I currently find myself with those that were doing, or had done, the same. My soul needed me to let go of the matrix I was born into and be reborn into something new. I couldn’t take the old with me unless they felt to ascend as well.

It was an expedited process, but one that needed to happen in order to fully be the Being, leader, and man I was called to be. No more smallness. No more suffering. No more lack of real Love. Sometimes growth and ascension come at a cost to parts of us so embedded in a deep-seeded need for what was thought of as ‘caring’.

The thing is is that I DID care. I cared about those that were closest to me at the time. I wanted something MORE for them. But I quickly realized that it was not their soul calling. It was not their path. I couldn’t make them come with me. I couldn’t ‘convince’ them or tug on them. This kind of journey can only be made by a soul choice.

Fast forward 9 years and we find ourselves in much more polarized and fearful times. Families and friends are at a crossroads together. Many are set in stone, many are arguing and battling, others are deeply confused and uncertain. This global situation is offering each of us a portal into our souls. Our deepest need and highest vision.

This may mean parting ways with those that you were once close to. Ones you feel you shouldn’t leave behind. There is a lot of Metasoul timeline bleed-through that is happening now and that has a big influence on our going-on places. There is also our unplugging from a matrix that we have become so intimately bought into that it is hard to unplug from. It is pervasive and intoxicating in its fear and its ability to seduce, distract, and numb.

These are not easy times for many. There are those of us that are being called to unplug, replug, and envision something new from the inside out. We are being called to join together in this vision, this healing, and this parting of the old. We are the seeds of New Earth, not the reformers of the past.

Difficult choices will be asked of us. We are being initiated each day into the New. Into our New Earth emissary and ambassador of Love to the matrix that we all co-created. What we choose today has an impact on tomorrow. The question is what does that ‘tomorrow’ look and feel like to you?

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

Unplugging And Healing The Black Widow Program And Aspect Within

A week from Sunday, Raphael Awen and I will be hosting a men’s group call about the subject of Sovereignty and Surrender, joined by our brother in heart, James Elphick. We will be diving into a topic that feels to have a lot of vibration for us men (as well as the masculine in women).

I have been in process of feeling a deeper layer of my mother wounding that is connected to a shadow feminine matrix programming called Black Widow. This is the name I received from this part/aspect of me I have been connecting with around this energy. She first showed up as a black widow spider to illuminate the nature of this woundedness and the programming itself. Then she morphed into a dominatrix with whip, heels, and all.

After some time of connecting with her and feeling who she really is underneath that all, I could feel something lighten and begin to get more clarity about this energy that may live in a lot of us men. This energy that uses guilt, shame, judgment, sexuality, comfort, and fear to keep us locked in a lower frequency, a state of suffering, a lulled state of disempowerment, or inner and outer judgment/punishment.

It is an inner battle of wanting to free ourselves from this web she weaves that I feel we as men are really trying to feel sovereign from. When we are engaged with other women in intimacy, this can really flare up. It triggers this need to be independent yet also the need to be connected in one form or another. There is a part of us that is in a push and a pull toward this energy and it is hard to feel fully empowered and vulnerable at the same time.

When she has this wounded Inner Mother energy, our Inner Teenager can feel the need to push back and seek independence. If she comes as Punishing energy, we may feel defensiveness and another need to push back. When it comes in as Fear, we may go to fight or flight. When she comes with sexuality we lose ourselves in our need for validation.

This Black Widow program/wounding has lost her connection to Innocence and to her own worth. She guards as well as feeds off this energy. Possessing it for herself out of need, not really out of some negative agenda, though it certainly feels that way at first. When I connect more with her with Love, the more she goes into her pain and her fear. Here is where healing and true sovereignty begin.

I can start to feel when this energy frequency of doubt, judgement, anxiety, or fear come in and I go to her. I feel her afraid to lose touch with me. I recognized those feelings were a tactic to keep my younger parts close to her. I am now going to her and bring her with me into the New. Into the Light from the dark crevice I first met her in.

In her more healed essence, she is our creativity and our sensuality. She is a face of our sacred feminine and our intuition. She is our truth and our discernment. She is our surrendered sovereignty into Divine Trust. She is our entrance into the exit of the Matrix itself. She knows the way. She knows how it works and operates. With that we can start to unplug (a sovereign choice) and surrender into the the New Earth world that is awaiting our creative power to encode New Earth inside and then on the outside.

If you are feeling a resonance or a curiosity about this programming/wounded inner mother energy and how it has influenced your feeling of your personal empowerment, sovereignty, and maybe a fear of surrendering into vulnerability, please join Raphael, James, and myself on this upcoming men’s group call. Visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/mensgroupcalls for more information. We would love to have you and feel what is moving for you in this area.

I also offer a free 45-minute consult/information call for both men and women that are wanting to feel more about how the SoulFullHeart process and space-holding may support this deeper dive into your wounding and unplugging. Visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions for more info as well.

I will be writing more about this topic in relation to romance, intimacy, and community in the following week so please stay tuned. Sending much love to all during these very intense, yet activating times.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

Divine Love & Context For These Times w/ The Stanton Drew Standing Stones

by Kasha Rokshana

Really getting how much the Divine honours us all for our souls’ willingness to BE here… especially today for some reason that my mind cannot grab at but my heart can feel. Perhaps it’s the incoming energies and/or perhaps it’s my own process and how it’s unfolding in connection with the process of others in this collective that is currently very overwhelmed.

When I reunited with the standing stones at Stanton Drew the other day, I felt so many things… reunion with the galactic and Inner Earth which the stones felt like an ancient liaison for; a renewed sense of purpose for myself and my community here on this planet at this time; and waves of support to keep going, even though times here on Gaia are intensifying and challenging in necessary ways for the sake of our Ascension.

There’s a lot we are all still unplugging from at this time. Many false gods and false divine parent energies that we’ve been plugged into through our wombs and haras and to which parts of us have willingly given up their discernment and intuition about what’s actually true beyond any offered (and especially mainstream) narrative. This unplugging and awakening was never promised to be clean or easy. The messiness is just as needed as the love that holds space for it. There’s now way for parts of us to self-medicate and avoid feeling the reality that’s unfolding for too long and this can feel like a mixed blessing, as feeling what’s real brings necessary heartbreak yet also brings the truth of Divine love forward to be felt and let in as the heart readies itself to receive it.

I feel as if the struggle to land in the context – the great WHY which the Divine holds – of what we’re all feeling and facing has to do with relying far too much on the information given to us and not enough on our own inner worlds and what feels true there, no matter how much that truth shifts and is meant to shift, actually. I feel something new in me personally too, where I’m sacredly learning how to lean into what’s being offered but also feel it for myself and at my own rate and pace, aligning more with what my own soul needs in the NOW and feeling the parts of me that may feel a bit bombarded or overwhelmed not just by information but by the energy with which it’s being offered.

Through your own heart and soul lies a context, a sacred reason for being here that only you can really know, though with the right resonance and beloved souls in your life, you can see it through their mirrors as well. I feel so blessed to have this and be this for my own beloveds as we navigate life together in this intimate community… ❤️

The Divine feels us all in the overwhelm as we ascend and the fears that come up of what this truth or that truth could mean in the long run. I feel the Divine voice of the standing stones at Stanton Drew and the standing stones anywhere else in the world, offering that we are invited to stand tall and firm within ourselves while being open to the changing tides and times we’re in, being and serving love from our centers with open hearts. We’re invited to feel and see our value, our reason for being here, and to trust that we are equipped to weather any storm we’re faced with as we awaken and unplug from the false and back into the Divine.

The support is always around and within us… we have only to keep seeking it out and letting it in. 

Love,

Kasha

Raphael and Jelelle will be offering a group meditation call on Sunday the 18th over Zoom by donation. It will be focused on digesting the ongoing C-VID narrative(s) and offering some ways to feel the context of what the planet is moving through and how you can dive deeper into your own process around it. More info here: soulfullheart.org/events

Also, my beloveds and I are available for 1:1 space holding sessions and Gabriel and I offer free 45min intro calls as well: soulfullheart.org/sessions —- these sessions are very much about your sovereign voice and energy in this world, though we have a paradigm from which we come as well. If it resonates for you, I do recommend feeling deeper into sessions, as the support could be exactly what your soul has been needing and your parts have been longing for. ♥️🕊

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Trusting The Ascension Process As Humanity Shifts Out Of 3D And Into Lower 4D/Dark Night

By Jelelle Awen

“Be in the world, not of the world, yet care FOR the world,” ~ Yeshua

So many times I have been offered this as a guiding light through this current c narrative and false medicine storm that humanity is experiencing. Being in the world is honoring that we have chosen on a soul level to BE here on this Earth Plane during this transition from 3D Matrix reality moving into 4D transitional/dark night phase and into 5D New Earth. Not being of the world is acknowledging that we are no longer in the mainstream consciousness flow or in resonance with it. We are no longer of it, even as we were ALL raised in it, by it, and of it. And many awakening souls still have many friends/family who are still of it Caring for the world though….ALL of it and ALL souls in it, is the piece that feels like it offers the next level of compassion and love ambassadorship.

As you tune into the Divine Mother and your Christ essence, your heart breaks open to feel the cries of the world, the cries of the womb/hara, the cries of the children. As you feel these cries, you DO care, even for those who judge you as crazy or push you away. You care even if you move out of saving or rescuing anyone and surrender, again, to the Divine holding of it ALL.

This is a collective dark night phase for humanity. This is the crawl and walk through the valley of the shadow of death. Dark nights are ALWAYS messy. They last as long as they need to and you can’t ‘control’ them. They are absolutely necessary for TRUE awakening to occur. Something false must die in order for the new to be born.

It does feel to me that 3D/third dimensional reality as we have previously known it is gone and we have actually ascended beyond it now as has Gaia. The comfort and security of 3D for parts of us, the eat/work/die familiar pattern of it has now shifted into something completely unknown to us before that is also unpredictable and volatile. It feels like we are now moving into a collective lower 4D reality as the ‘mainstream’ one….where soul awakenings can occur along with dark nights. Life as we previously knew it as ‘normal’ no longer exists, which is actually a good thing and IS Ascension…even if it feels rather like a dystopia to us; even if it isn’t how we wanted it or would prefer it to look or feel; or that it feels like it isn’t our choice or is happening ‘to’ us rather than with us.

While this is uncomfortable, it also feels like progress. To continue along in the ‘too comfortable’ 3D Matrix was to continue being suppressed, asleep, numbed, and drugged by it. This is messy now, yet it has woken up SO many souls by disrupting and interrupting their daily routines…and even lockdowns allowing for an unplugging from the daily living/doing/staying busy mill.

Even those previously awakening souls have had to question now how deeply embodied their spirituality actually IS as they lean more into it in real ways to navigate the unknown; how much they have healed in their emotional body as intense reactions come up; how much they have compartmentalized their spiritual essence away from the rest of their life as their social life becomes more difficult to navigate.

For those of us long on the awakening journey aligned with Divine Mother, we see and trust the value of these lower 4D dimensions. Yes, they contain some “hell realms” and dark energies/beings/timelines…yet the darkness needs our love, acceptance, and ambassadorship more than the 3D numb Matrix reality did. To move into 5D, we were ALWAYS going to need to go through 4D and reconcile what has lived there previously in shadow, in our subconscious, in other lifetimes. Any offerings/teachings/teachers that suggest we could have somehow avoided this are still plugged into a False God/False Light program that diverts us from actually transmuting and transforming (as it is meant to divert and distort.)

Now is the time where we have the support from Ascension energies, from the Divine, from benevolent guardian galactic beings, from guides/Metasoul aspects to TRULY transmute into our sacred human frequencies, to reactivate our DNA, to upgrade our galactic genes, to move into ‘supernatural’ gifts, to FREE up the immense powerful energies of our wombs/haras. We get to experience remembrance of bliss states and authentic joy as well come alive in us….holding the space as we courageously go into the mess over and over again for as many times as it ‘takes’ to heal.

This is what the journey to becoming free looks like….where nothing can be bypassed or wished away, yet needs to be gone through in order to reach the other side. It is this WHOLE journey that we have signed up to experience here as the growth possible from it is so appealing to many of us. It feels like there was a long sign-up line to be part of this phase of humanity’s Ascension on Earth. The best ‘show’ in the Galaxies in that way.

No longer resisting and being afraid of what lurks in the shadows allows us to embrace and understand the deep choice we made for our own growth and for humanity’s more fully.

Much Love from Avalon to you during this Dark Night to Light experience…..Avalon is anchoring in the frequencies of Divine Support to move through all the necessary phases here,

Jelelle Awen

I share much more about the Ascension process, the False God/Light, the 3D and 4D Matrix in my book Free To Be 5D…available in ebook/PDF/print/audio versions with links at soulfullheart.org/books.

Join Kasha and I tomorrow March 7th at 5:00pm GMT/UK time/12:00pm EST for a women’s group call over zoom to feel specifically into the womb hijacking by the Matrix and offer a transmission/meditation for healing and activation beyond it. More information at https://www.soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

Womb Healing & Activation Women’s Meditation Group Call March 7th | Jelelle Awen & Kasha Rokshana

Our wombs, which includes both our second and third chakras, is a powerful space of creativity, alchemy, stillness, and bridge to our Sacred Feminine capacities as Creatrix of life. Our wombs become filled with pain/trauma layers from this life and other lifetimes, other people’s energies, and even the collective…in this way they are ‘pain wombs’ rather than ‘love wombs’. In addition, our wombs have been hijacked by the 3D/4D Matrix since the fall of Atlantis and the rise of the wounded masculine dominance, so our access to the purity essence of our womb is often very covered over and not fully activated.

This hijacking includes how we experience our monthly menstrual cycles as ‘natural’ when they are actually a suppressive program that effectively and significantly reduces our energy levels and for many of us causes quite a lot of pain and discomfort. We can hold our period cycles with a sense of honoring to our bodies and certainly not with shame or judgement about them, yet to revere them and our menstrual blood can connect to and even draw in the lower 4D Matrix frequencies. This is often bleed through from other timelines/lifetimes where pro-feminine/anti-masculine ritual and ceremony was practiced without awareness of the darker influences that were going on at other dimensional levels.

As we activate the powerful sovereignty contained in our wombs through a personal connection with her (including a ‘naming’ of her), we can then start to clear, heal and remember our infinite capacities of choice as sacred feminine humans. Our capacity to create WHOLE universes includes choices at the personal level toward our procreation, our aging process, our hormonal levels, and ALL biological functions of our bodies. We reclaim ultimate conscious choice over our bodies on all levels, which effectively unplugs us from any Matrix programs.

Kasha and I will be sharing more about this in our next women’s meditation group call on Sunday, March 7th, 2021 at 5:00pm/17:00pm GMT (London, UK timezone/12:00pm EST/9:00am PST). We will talk about this womb hijacking and how that impacts what we experience within our wombs during menstrual cycles, false mother frequencies, other people’s energies, aborted/still gestating/blocked creative projects and expressions, and suppression of our truth. Through a personal relationship with our wombs and supported by the Divine Mother we can heal these layers to move into activation of this powerful force within us and connect to the Cosmic Womb. We will share our personal journeys with this process and our wombs during the call.

During this call, we will also guide you in a meditative space into a safe healing dimension to allow deep connection to your womb and activation. Mother Mary and Mary Magdalene will join us as a template of Mother and Lover/Priestess energies for our wombs to template from and be supported by. We will also repeat affirmations as mantras together and share light language together.

We did a womb healing and activation call on Sunday with women who are deeply in the SoulFullHeart process and it was very powerful for all of us. Even just 15 minutes connecting into the womb space together in this personal, relational and feeling-based way that bypasses the matrix and old school spirituality programs was very effective!

You can receive these Divine Feminine frequencies live with us (highly recommended) or take in the recording afterwards. If you attend the live group, you’ll have the opportunity to share with us about what you experienced during the meditation and receive feedback/next steps of integration from us.This women’s group is open to the public and to all women over 18. You can attend the group and/or receive the recording for an energy exchange of whatever donation you feel to give.

You can purchase the Zoom link to join us live for the group and receive the recording through your email at soulfullheart.org/shop

Or you can purchase it here through paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawenand we will send you the zoom link via email. Please make a note that you are purchasing the March 7th women’s group and check that your email is current.

More information here https://www.facebook.com/events/1300057440381102 and here: https://www.soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

I share about the False God/Matrix here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/what-is-the-false-god…/

Love from Avalon….the heart of sacred feminine healing on Gaia at this time,

Jelelle Awen

What Is The False God?

“Big clearings going on of all that has been hijacked by the Matrix/False God…our wombs/haras, bodies, minds, hearts are Sacred, Whole & FREE.” This was my status update the other day which got a lively response of resonance when I shared it.


I got this question from someone after posting it, “Can you explain more about what you mean by the False God?” I felt that I would respond to them here as a post rather than just in a private message as it is a good teaching to share.


The False God is a frequency generated by the Matrix at the AI/4D level that has created a distraction, diversion, and distortion of pure Divine love and light energies. With the separation out of the Divine that was chosen BY the Divine, fear was created that has been able to be used by different forces over time to their own advantages. This fear-based reality has been created (with our choice on the higher self level) to keep humanity and Gaia corralled and feeling trapped and enslaved in lower frequencies and denser consciousness realities. Some ‘darker’ Star Beings, with some human conscious collaboration, has operated and broadcast the 4D Matrix since the Fall of Atlantis. Negative Star Beings (also called Archons by the Gnostics) have been highly influencing and programming these human collaborators known as the Elite, the Cabal, the Illuminati, etc. These forces are the ones behind the Global Reset, the darker liberal agenda, Big Pharma/Hollywood/Business, etc. and are orchestrating what we are experiencing now of violation of our liberties and rights through restrictions, lockdowns, quarantines,  inoculations, etc.


The False God programs run on submission, punisher/shame dynamics, unworthiness, and giving over our sovereignty to a power outside of ourselves. Mainstream religions operate from these polarized False God programs, while containing some true light and love energies as well. The False God face and energy is often of a punitive, competitive, and patriarchal “Him” god, shorn of the balancing Divine Mother frequencies.The False God can also feel very dark, satanic, and even ‘evil’ although it is often not that overt or obvious. The Divine Mother can be hijacked by the False God as well with ‘old school’ feminine spirituality that promotes an anti-masculine/pro-feminine agenda through Will of the Goddess worship, dark rituals, moon cycle and moon blood worship (which is a hijack of the Womb Creatix powers by the Matrix-more coming soon about that).


The False God also shows up in some “New Age” offerings in which a false light bubble fed on a steady diet of positive affirmations, shallow spirituality, false gurus/abusive leaders, etc. that doesn’t allow for a deeper drop into the true transmutational ground of Divine Self embodiment and empowerment which includes the integration, love and acceptance of our shadows and ALL parts of us. The False God also operates at the 4D karmic levels from many lifetimes of experiencing it, creating suffering loops of incarnational cycles that play out the same soul themes/patterns over and over again.


The Ascension energies that are flowing into Gaia are watering seeds planted by higher dimensional Star Beings and the Magdalenes soul family lineage is now allowing for the revelation of the False God in all of its forms. This is bringing in a clearing of the fear and pain that has manifested through the worship of it. Through that healing and clearing, the true Divine can emerge from the heart, soul, DNA, wombs/haras of each of us at Its Divine children.


Many souls are now experiencing a wake up from this False God reality and into the new grounds of experiencing the true Divine, the true Christ, the true Divine Mother…..always originating from within us. From this place, we can now experience that we ARE free, we ARE whole, and we ARE sacred. We can then move back into union from within, with each other and with the Divine AS our Beloved.


There is much more about the Matrix and the False God in my book Free To Be 5D with links to purchase ebook, PDF, print and audio book versions at soulfulllheart.org/books.

art by Anna Baibakova

Love from Avalon!

Jelelle Awen


Kasha and I will be teaching more about healing the matrix womb hijacking and activating our love womb in an upcoming women’s group call over zoom on Sunday, March 7th. You can join us by donation with more information at https://www.facebook.com/events/1300057440381102 and soulfullheart.org.