You Are A BEacon Of LOVE: Sharing Your Self-Love Overflow In Service Of Love

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by Kalayna Colibri

It can be challenging for parts of you to remember that they need to share love with others in a mutually nourishing bond of openness and vulnerability and sometimes even contention, as much as they need love with YOU as the authentic you, ever-arising into more and more presence within yourself.

We are here to relate to ourselves deeply, to cultivate self-love. We are also here to share the overflow of that love with others – NOT to remain in stuckness or under-nourishing agreements with others, however… While there is likely some layer of love being exchanged there, there is so much more that could potentially open out… this is the ground that can make relationships of any kind scary to be in, yet also is the ground of mutual growth and ultimately a deepening of LOVE within and on the outside TOO.

To not share what you are cultivating inside in self-care, love, worth, advocacy, is to not share your light, the beacon you’re meant to be for the world, with the world. Parts of you may be relating to this with understandable fear and reactions from past social drama-trauma. Yet, to remain in a place of not sharing is to cap your own soul bigness, your capacity to love others as much as yourself, and your potential to truly live into your healing gifts and your deepest soul calling to be in the service of LOVE.

The choice remains in each moment, to breathe with and feel parts of you and their reasons for not allowing your arising and ascending you to emerge from the cocoon. There is a constant invitation into more love, more healing, more self-held grace and space, and more overflow into the destiny you’re meant to lead and live too, with each decision made to BEacon outward what you have so grown and nourished inward! 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

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Feeling Self Love Inside To Experience It In Relationships

By Jelelle Awen

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This push and pull, this ‘tug of war’. You can wear out your hands and hearts engaging this way with each other. This energy puts you on one side and them on the other. This energy creates division lines and walled up fortresses. It creates stances and lock downs. It can only be ‘against’ rather than ‘with’.

Moving into a ‘with’ in relationships of all kinds brings you into love together rather than polarizing each other with fear.

This can only happen on the outside, with other people…..as it is happening on the INside within you. Where there is a tug of war from one part of you to another…your Inner Punisher and your Inner Teenager (for example) or your Inner Protector and your Inner Mother/Father…..so, it will manifest on the outside.

How can you be different in a relationship with someone else than you have been in relationship with parts of yourself? Where would this new and spacious and healthy way of relating with others come from if it is struggling to happen inside of you? Why would others draw a healthier way of relating if the putting down, self punishing, guarding, suppressing energies are occurring from one part of you to another?

INside is where the empowerment is. INside is where the ambassadorship of offering love to ALL parts of you has the most traction and can go in the deepest. INside is where the gifts of your empathy, your healing, your compassion can be received the most fully.

AS that ambassadorship happens deeply, offering love to ALL parts of yourself, so then, it overflows outwards and DRAWS those who can resonate with these frequencies as well. Their self love resonance overflows to mingle and mix with yours. This then is healthy relating. This becomes less co-dependence based on parts grabbing and pushing on each other and is more interdependence….two healthy ‘I’s’ dancing to the music of their healing hearts and souls.

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Practical Ascension Vlog Series: Social Area Personal Process Sharings

by Kalayna Colibri and Gabriel Heartman

In this second video on the social area of life, SoulFullHeart Teachers, Facilitators and Sacred Union mates, Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Colibri, offer their unique perspective that is based on their own personal processes in this area. They share about the ways in which parts work through SoulFullHeart helped them access and feel their pain and enter into territory of deep healing and awakening. They share about the process of setting boundaries with others and how challenging this can be, especially with birth family.

This can be a tricky ground to navigate and walk out, especially while there are many binds to still be illuminated in the relationship between yourself and others. Having the language and feeling sense of ‘parts of you’ is essential for helping you feel and move through the polarities inside of you in relationship to these different relationships and the many dynamics alive inside of them. Being able to let go of the social connections that do not match or move with you as you continue your Ascension journey is essential for being able to then draw and be in a relationship with soul family and conscious community.
As you continue your Ascension journey of healing and awakening, the social area of life can be one of the biggest, most powerful anchors into 3D reality as parts of you cling to these different relationships that aren’t growing and awakening with you. The journey through this desert land is worth it for the gifts of healing and blooming self love that come out of it, along with the possibility of drawing soul family connections… which it is necessary to make room for inside of you and inside of your life.

If you have any questions or comments, you can leave them in the comment thread on Youtube or find us on Facebook (just look for Kalayna Colibri and/or Gabriel Heartman and/or SoulFullHeart Way Of Life!). You can also email soulfullhearts@gmail.com.

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Donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange in the offering of this series for free through paypal: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations or the SoulFullHeart Patreon Page: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.

Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  

Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

 

The SOULstice Reflects Our Next Phases Of Growth Toward Our Sacred Humanity

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The end of one cycle and the beginning of another. Physically in Earth’s orbit and energetically in our collective Gaian heart. We are all connected to Her and the frequencies that She is letting in and moving through. I feel Her with us all during this time. Not just another revolution around the Sun, but a journey UP and IN.

In the Northern Hemisphere, this is time of extended darkness and colder weather that, in our ‘past’, saw us literally holding up inside the hearth of the home, staying warm. Spiritually, a time for reflection and evaluation, even seen in the numbers 12:21. In the Southern Hemisphere, this is an end and a beginning too, in different light frequencies that are more active and yang. Taking action to embody what has been ‘received’ in your highest heart. Whether in reflection, or action, much is being illuminated and transformed.

In SoulFullHeart we take an assessment, or snapshot, of our current life through the lens of 7 key areas: Emotional, Spiritual, Mental, Social, Physical, Financial, and Environmental. As I have been going through these with someone I am currently working with, it has become so evident that these areas shed such an enormous light on our Whole Self rather that just focusing on one in particular.

If there is a place where you feel misaligned in your deepest calling and passion, then it can cause a drag, or anchor, in your fullest expression and BEing during your ascension process. This is a very reflective tool and highlights where you are being invited to go if you want to truly take all of you into the New.

This is where having that mirror can be a blessing and a curse both to parts of you. These energies are making more obvious the places you may need to go into so that you can unfurl our wings. One of the hardest, is the Social area where there can be such entwined relationships with others based on all sorts of conditionings and unconscious agreements. Or you may even find yourself more isolated due to self-protection or even self-love.

In either case, the holidays can really highlight the emotional body in this area. Are you in our fullest expression and truth when around others, or do you ‘shrink to fit’ in order to be a part of the social frequency? Or maybe there is a deep loneliness due to a lack of authentic connection. The emotional reality of this may be hard for a part of you to digest and be with so it can go undercover, but it doesn’t live far from consciousness.

The same holds true for all areas of your life. Feeling the ways in which you are still anchored and misaligned can be hard for parts of you to admit to and take action toward. This is a becomes a compassionate and self-loving process with these parts of you, most specifically your Protector, that has done life as us for so long, and is feeling the long nights of winter (or days of summer) coming to an energetic end. It is running out of gas as the veil between it and your emotional body is thinning.

This is a great time to take some self-reflective moments, in a sacred space, to take a snapshot of your emotional and spiritual bodies and see where your next phase of growth (and thus challenge for parts) lies ahead. Here is the assessment we use in SoulFullHeart to look at all areas and set a course to enter into a process with your Protector to see where the healing needs Love the most to move you UP and INto the next portal of your evolution of your sacred crystalline humanity.

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If you go through the assessment and feel a desire to know more about how SoulFullHeart may be able to serve you, we offer a free 30 minute intro session to feel that with you. A lot of  support is being offered during these times and all of us in SoulFullHeart send you much love and blessings.

There is also a Live Stream event happening here on Facebook and YouTube this Saturday at 11:11am CST with Raphael and Jelelle Awen. A great way to enter the Christmas Corridor!

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Healing Relationship Cycles And Stories

by Kalayna Colibri

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Our relationships can feel like an endless circle, and run in infinite circles too… cycles of pain, of this and that being faced, brought up, fought over, over and over again, while inside of you, you feel as if you ARE the relationship and have a hard time sensing where it ends and you begin.

The same stories are told in countless ways. Stories about the friendship, the romance, the family holiday when you were 5. Some of these stories are told outright, while some are told unconsciously through the ways you’re used to being and interacting with each other. So much of this is accepted by part of you, as being just ‘the way it is’ and perhaps the way it has always been. The relationships you see around you don’t challenge this mind and heart-set of yours either, as they are stuck in the same or very similar loops and cycles. There are certain questions that are never asked about the health of it all and the degree to which it’s self-loving or not, to remain in these stories. Sometimes the Pleasantville experience of it all isn’t so pleasant, yet you remain and aren’t encouraged to ask why… and often the answer to the ‘why’ is that there are fears and more unanswered questions about how life would look without these relationships in place, or at least in the same place they’ve always been up ’til now.

To remain fully involved in all relationships around you without a chance to go inward and discover YOU leads to a world of intense defenses and protection instead of healthy boundaries. It asks parts of you to blend-in, merge, become the relationships instead of feeling what they feel. It asks you to put a stopper in your own growth and the growth of others too. There is so much more to be discovered within you, if you can find a way to take the space you need… and to listen to that voice within, that wants to help clarify for you what you need and want most and what you are most worthy of experiencing in relationship with yourself and others.

To go into YOU… this is risky for these relationships. It does ask them to change as you change, and often it seems that others aren’t willing to come with you. They have a choice to go inside too, to join you on your path or find their own. There is nothing wrong here, there is only what is real… which is perhaps the hardest thing to trust. What is real is what heals and is also what grounds you into the new soil your roots of heart and soul are aching to grow in – the garden bed of a budding ‘self’ that wants to flourish in its self-ness and explore relationships with others from a new place of worth and love that flows deeply on the inside of a YOU that you are now coming to know and become.

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Tomorrow at 11:11 CST, there will be a live stream taking place on Facebook, with Raphael and Jelelle Awen. They will be talking about SoulFullHeart, the 3D self, and anything else they feel to share. Please stop by and feel free to ask questions, comment, or just give them some love! https://www.facebook.com/events/1273156469462294
 
In SoulFullHeart, we offer an ongoing process where you feel parts of you as well as your 3D/4D/5D selves.It is an in-depth healing process that forever deepens and expands. If you are curious to know more and/or may wish to sign-up for a free 30-min intro session, please visit: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

This Creative, Love-Flowing Time Of Day!

by Kalayna Colibri

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Early morning is my favourite ‘time’ of day… this time of creative flow even though I’m still sleepy and full of ‘work’ with my online job. My life is incredible, it really is. There were so many years when I couldn’t imagine that I would be living this way, yet I so wanted to. I couldn’t possibly have envisioned exactly how this would go or what this life lived in service of love would look and feel like. There was always a fantasy of living amongst others who shared my level of consciousness and challenged me to keep expanding it. Retreats and spiritual conferences were great but not enough – I needed and wanted to make spirituality my life.

This time of day (early morning) is also when my beloveds in my community of SoulFullHeart and I start dialoguing over Google Hangouts. We live in the same building, more or less, yet this is our way of staying in touch and also being in our own sacred spaces. The love exchange is there underneath all correspondence, even if reactions are being shared and processed or guidance is being held and given as to where we need to go next inside of ourselves and inside of our relationships to one another. It’s something I could try and describe to you, yet it’s just a unique experience that extends well beyond ideas of ‘unconditional’ love. We love each other deeply but are so willing to let go, let be, let arise, without unfair expectations, at least after this much time and process and this many phases together. We are a close-knit group but we have done a lot of personal work to have this level of intimacy. My place in this community has had its ups and downs and times of turning sideways too. Every single minute of tension and exhilaration has been so worth it though, to be able to transact love in this way, and to FEEL so much love for myself AND for them! There is nothing I can compare this to. It is the closest thing to ‘Golden Earth’ I have ever experienced in THIS life, where love is the container, the contender, the artist and the canvas too.

I’m being moved to share this experience in this moment, because of love overflow I feel from nourishing time with Jelelle yesterday, feeling the love and care from Raphael as he helps me clean, paint and fix-up my new suite I’m moving into soon (same building, just a bit bigger for my dog and I), and the ongoing love I feel between Gabriel and I, my best soul friend who I have been through so much with. I am brimming over with gratitude and love for them and for ME too… so much so that tears are coming. I have been intensely immersed in a new chapter for myself, training and doing practicums for a new online job that will pay better and have better hours than my current one. And it’s all happening in the name and flow of love and serving love too, as this means more money to share with my community and more space in my day to serve facilitants and also through my creativity, wherever it wants to take me.

It has taken a lot of process to really see, feel and let in what I have in SoulFullHeart – the work itself, my parts, the people, and most of all the LOVE. Gratitude and appreciation of been a long time coming, and this genuine, heartfelt flow of it that I can now feel is one that truly brings tears and the warmest feeling in my heart that I have ever experienced. It is a true feeling of being held by the Divine, by my own heart and self-love and also by the love I am IN with OTHERS. There is nothing that compares to commUNITY. At least nothing I’ve experienced or can speak from!

There is nothing I want more than to share this with more people. To have more of you jump in with us, though of course this is challenging… the hardest part is the awakenings within, the stirrings of arising process, realizations that you have much to heal as a human AND a soul and that it ALL changes you and your life in big ways, though the changes may feel subtle at first in some cases. Yet, it is so worth it and that worth and reward can only be experienced personally. ❤

We are holding another group call over Zoom (online) tomorrow at 11:11 am CST (Mexico City) if you’d like to join us. You’ll be able to immerse with us for 2 full hours and even be given the space to share if you wish. Silence is okay too. It’s a lot to take in. We are a lot to take in. This ‘new’ frequency of LOVE is a lot to take in! Here is the link to the event if you are interested in learning  more: //www.facebook.com/events/271320303342295

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

How You Allow Others To Treat You Is A Reflection Of You

By Jelelle Awen

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How you allow others to treat you is always a reflection of YOU….others represent aspects of yourself that are in shadow or in light, need love from you, need connection with you. Others can’t do anything to you that you don’t ALLOW to be done. Often it is subconscious (and soul buried) woundings rooted in unworthiness that draw these behaviors, actions, and reflections from others.

When you are loving yourself, ALL aspects, and healing your own worthiness, you no longer NEED these reflections from outside of yourself. You no longer draw them. Your vibrational frequency of self love and worth is too high to draw them to you anymore.

You are not a victim; you are all powerful and all that you experience in your environment or outside of you you have created from inside and agreed to be there.

To feel this and let in this reconnects you with your inner power, inner worth, and inner soul bigness. There is so much love available from within and when you tap into this source, it then overflows to your outside experience with others who reflect the love that you ARE back to you……

Jelelle Awen is an 5D ascension teacher, writer and co-creator/teacher/group facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, online group calls and circles, community, videos, and more.

Heart And Soul Recovery After Relationship Completions

By Jelelle Awen

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Your heart will recover. It cannot really break, only gets bent, only gets cleansed, only gets reminded. The reminders can be painful, sometimes the most very effective ones are the most painful. The reminder is of your worth, your goodness, your true essence. The reminder is that you are so much more than you have settled for…if you have settled.

If you have settled and are on a consciousness path, you can trust that whatever happens is a mirror and is for your own growth. It is a way for you to see that which you have settled for and invite you into so much MORE.

The so much more is found within you. The so much more becomes available as you let go of what is less. The so much more becomes available as you discover and love aspects of you that broadcast pain, unworthiness, doubt, and fear. The so much more becomes available as you collect fragments of your soul that are spread over eras and dimensions living out realties from many different levels of consciousness.

Your soul will recover too. It cannot really be defeated, only gets woken up, only gets recharged, only gets realigned. The realignment can be difficult, sometimes the deepest realignment brings the most awakening. If you are in a place of shrinking your soul in some way in your relationships, in your career, in your geography, in your physical health, in your emotional healing, in your spiritual growth….the realignment comes as a gift from your higher self, the Divine within and with-out.

You will wake up and it feel that it just isn’t enough anymore, maybe you do already. You move from suffering into love. You move from being motivated by suffering to being motivated by love. Your desire for more love and less shrinking moves you into new inner terrains, inner unknown places, inner vistas and avenues.

You realize that everything you experience in your outer world is a reflection of your inner world. Your soul remembers this is true even as you heart always knew. Setting boundaries, letting go, moving on…you seem to say more ‘no’ than ‘yes’ in this phase as you move out of 3D consciousness and into 4D and 5D.

You start vibrating higher, faster, brighter. Your radiance is beaconing out to others as you discover the radiance from within that is released as you get to know and love the previously unlovable inside of you. Your sense of self love and goodness is becoming unconditional. You feel this form within and so your relationships reflect and transact this more and more.

In this growing sense of center and of self, you somehow feel more sense of connection with everyone and less separation. Your individuation has brought you the gift of Oneness. You maturation has given you the sense of union. As you feel inside, so you feel about the outside. Your inner union has delivered you to union with others.

You will more than recover; you are recovered already. You are whole already, even when part of you feels broken. You are whole as you ARE even as you discover more and more because the possibilities are as infinite as you ARE.

Jelelle Awen is an ascending teacher into 5D consciousness, Divine guide-scribe, and co-creator/teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.

I cannot make you grow with me, only invite you to come along

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by Jelelle Awen

I cannot make you grow with me, only invite you to come along………’Shrinking to fit’ in relationships with others is one of the biggest ways that we cap our soul bigness and keep our hearts more closed related to transacting intimate love with ourselves, others, and the Divine. These shrinking dynamic happens when parts of us conform to others expectations, ideas, and roles about who we are rather than being who we really are. In the SoulFullHeart process, we see parts of us as subpersonalities that form when traumas and hurts happen that are not digested in the moment and so become clogged and blocked energy patterns and behaviors.

Instead of shrinking to fit to maintain the ‘old’ and comfortable ground of transaction, we begin to stretch and challenge that ground as we awaken and heal into more expression of our authentic self.

Real and authentic connection between people cannot be lost, it only deepens and is revealed with healthy shifts and changes in each person. If it doesn’t deepen yet instead completes, then the connection was based in more grounds of compensation, codependence, and emotional binds than it was in resonance, interdependence and healthy bonds.

This can be a very painful process of completion with much opportunity to feel the deeper aspects of ourselves that were being mirrored and projected in the relationship onto the other person or people. Held with love and an open heart, the process can be very transformational with a possibility of new openings in the future in the relationship.

Jelelle Awen is co-creator, facilitator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information.