Author: Raphael Awen

Ascension/Divine Union Teacher. Parts/Soul Aspects Facilitator. Soul Scribe.

Routine Is An Illusion

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By Raphael Awen

Routine is an illusion created by aspects of our being. A very real feeling illusion for sure. Real enough to create despair and longing, and herein lies the power of this illusion called routine.

Routine is living our lives on autopilot, feeling little, if anything, going through motions that ensure we are being good enough humans despite our being checked out, checked out of our hearts and deeper desires.

But in a super intelligent universe of which each of us are totally a fractal part, even this disconnect from our hearts is purposeful. We go through despair which re-opens us to the innate courage of our own hearts and souls.

We subconsciously choose paths in life because we think that path will spare us from ever having to choose ever again. We go all in, our passion surrendered not to choice, but instead to fully embracing what we chose; to the idea that we won’t ever again be troubled with such grand choices. Commitment, duty, obligation, ‘married for life’ now take up the space where adventure, discovery and true journey once lived.

This however is also a powerful expression of our power to choose, even if it is expressing currently in an attempt to avoid our choice and power. The more we shut down, the sooner we are faced with potent despair and longing, the stuff which our souls are made of, that lead us on to our next places; our goodbyes and our hellos.

My guess is that your life and desires in a whole bunch of areas of your life are rumbling like you hadn’t quite imagined they would. Part of you feels like everything is falling apart. I offer that you are right where you need to be, right in the midst of rumbling routine, with new choices being backlit for you to see and embrace.

I offer a process of finding your own internal guidance through these places and more in a Bridging Session. More here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session I’d love to help – that is if your choice is leading! More T the link above.

Much love, and I so hope to meet you in the journey of courage and adventure that you are!

Raphael Awen

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

A Letter To Men, And To The Sacred Masculine Within Each Of Us

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I’ve been feeling into a push-pull kind of feeling inside of myself in regards to serving men. Consciously, I’ve been waiting and wanting to serve men, and wondering why they are slow to respond. Subconsciously, I was recently guided to feel if there’s a part of me or my Metasoul who is reticent to serve men, and thus creates an energy field of repelling men away, or possibly, works as some kind of invisibility shield where men are concerned to what I offer.

I am brought back in my memory to an aspect in my Metasoul that was/is in the Atlantis timeline, named Mordecai. I felt him originally as a counterpart soul mate to a part that Jelelle uncovered in her Atlantis timeline. Since that initial brief contact, my awareness and process with him became elusive as it seems this aspect of my soul was hunkered down in a place of penance over his regrets of what he was directly involved in and responsible for during the fall of Atlantis.

I write to transparently share his and my story as a reaching out to men. What holds any one of us back from our true and deep (even infinite) potential? Why would we settle for good enough, or worse, for ongoing suffering? Why would we believe, and then go on to manifest according to that belief, that this is ‘as good as it gets’?

As I feel into Mordecai’s reticence to come forward to be felt, and his shame and penance, I feel a wall of shame for having been compromised by dealing with dark forces/beings like the Draco, who manipulated with shiny benefits in exchange for achieving dominance. Mordecai gave over his sovereignty and autonomy to a group of beings that he was deceived into believing that they would be to the fulfillment of his power, rather than to the diminishment of it. As painful and as wrong as that was, it wasn’t just Mordecai’s own fate that was embroiled in these ‘dealings with the devil’, but the fate of an entire civilization as he was given great and powerful leadership and trust by the people in the Atlantis timeline. It cuts like a knife now to feel so deeply how this could have been different had he not abused that trust and power given to him, had he chose differently. The story of why and how it all came to be is now a murky soup of questions and regrets that any after the game armchair quarterbacking only makes for more questions than real answers. What has remained immovable is the remainder – the non-divisible leftover of regret and torment for having been responsible for so much loss.

As I relate this to my own life story, I see how my draw to Christianity earlier this life has for Mordecai, had much to do with seeking of forgiveness, and also give up my sovereignty to God, to surrender it to the divine as a way to not have to face the possibility of messing it up like that ever again.

I see also, how in my career choice, while I had longings and aspirations to places of influence and leadership inside of my truer passion purpose and gifts of teaching and healing, and leading a cavalry of men, I humbly settled for earning my living as a contractor, maintaining peoples homes, where this part of me could feel assured that we wouldn’t ever again be a part of the harm we were directly involved in Atlantis. I always inevitably came to a wall of feeling bigger and constantly outgrowing the group or paradigm I was working hard to surrender to and serve in some way.

Thirteen years ago, after years of process and wrestling with just what my truth was, I came to what was yet a sudden and surprising realization for many parts of me that I was done with Christianity, that I was not in my truth to pretend that I could integrously remain a part of it. Trouble was though, that my entire social world was totally invested there. All friends, family, wife of 23 years to the week, and late teenage beloved daughters were not feeling anything of what I was inclined to. I knew very well enough what the stakes were. I chose to utter the words quietly aloud to a few around me that I no longer held Jesus as my personal savior and that one admission was enough to dissolve the foundations of my life as I’d known it up until that time, and launch a path into a complete unknown.

Now, I can feel Mordecai’s pain around this too. His need to hunker down in a shoebox container of a safe tradition and attempt to eke out a penance of an existence caused yet another meltdown, another destruction, and more heart wrenching pain to others.

Staying small however is simply running completely out of ground. There is nowhere to turn, but to live into my true bigness. I’ve known this for a long time, and have repeatedly chosen it time and time again, but, as I said, it has been met with mixed results where drawing and inspiring like minded and hearted men is concerned. I feel now where this has had to do with Mordecai’s unresolved and unfelt pain.

I was able to take this reality of limited external influence to deepen into what moves in my soul and brings me to his place today. It has brought me to feeling every barrier to being love and serving love that lives in me. I’m not under any illusion that I don’t have more of these places to feel, that will arise in relationship with others and time.

This resistance to love however is not what disqualifies me, but rather what qualifies me, as I am willing to feel out loud and transparently what arises as it arises. In this way, in each of our individual healing journeys, as it is held and revealed to us and our world, we ‘trans-parent’ a new world into being; one that never existed before, but only in energy and spirit form inside of us. This world of what once existed only in energy and spirit is now materializing from the great Mother/‘Mater’ that we are.

Atlantis was great beyond imagination, but also buried in her foundations were compromises that would compromise her and bring about her eventual demise.

I feel how Mordecai has lived inside of my soul field in my Metasoul as a quiet, and reticent, but always in deep observance and amazement of any great undertaking. Stories like the sinking of the Titanic reverberate with so many themes of hubris and power gone to seed; gone to seed a great death and a great rebirth. Every time, I’ve observed a great construction project, I’ve felt both his marvel and his regret; his all too real feeling awareness of the inadequate and shallow foundations underneath it all; how it takes more than physical engineering and patriarchal power structures and culture to uphold any construct; how we cannot sacrifice the feminine and expect the masculine to get its needs met in any kind of true fulfilling way.

I feel how Mordecai is now willing and wanting to accept my proposal to turn his penance and desire to pay back society towards accepting his largesse of being rather than continuing to live into his self prescribed hell of penance and smallness. Now, he is able to feel his more vulnerable need for movement and change over his readiness to suffer in a kind of painful, but invulnerable private diminished world. He knows the greatness that lived and still lives in him. I ask him to consider now, that the true return of the Atlantean treasure to its rightful owners could better be served by his willingness to again inhabit his largesse of being. I ask him to consider how that his remaining small and in invulnerable penance would only be to the ongoing harm and diminishment of many, who long for new timelines and leadership. I feel his awakening and agreement rumbling inside of me. The portal of these times provides clarity, momentum and the logistics necessary to act, to choose, to rise again; to let-in love, to let-out all the tears that get need to be shed and dearly felt in so doing.

I feel my native hunger that has always lived in me to find the fellow knights of my round table. I feel my Metasoul connection also to the Arthurian legend and timeline, that is only called legend by those who lack another name for it; the name of now. Arthur is now. Mordecai is now. It’s all available and waiting in the Now.

Now, the memory turns into a rememberance, a ‘being re-membered together with’, with those we were dis-membered from; all of it in service of a perfect creation of worlds that haven’t existed before, but await our readiness and power.

I write to men. I call to men. I write to the Sacred Masculine that lives in men and women alike. I declare my desire and readiness along with acknowledging at the same time my reticence to serve men, and this reticent Masculine; in order to serve my highest timeline. Nothing needs to be overcome or suppressed in order to achieve in these new arising domains of being, but instead lovingly embraced as the seed of our ever present infinite being out experiencing a full drama of leaving and then returning to the fullness we always were and are, but couldn’t quite come to know and feel, until we enter this Now.

I invite men into this journey that I have undertaken, that I have chosen and found a path into, if it resonates and calls to you, not as my truth, but as a manifestation of your truth. What is your next step? Could association with me and my beloveds serve your arising being?

I know your choice of your next step and Higher timeline will serve my arising being! I long to serve and to be around the true and Sacred Masculine that is willing to move with the changes and callings that are arising Now.

Raphael Awen
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Please check out the link above to see if a 90 minute process and Bridging Session with myself offered in exchange for a minimum donation of $55 USD is a fit for you, and your next step.

You can also connect with Gabriel, Kalayna, or Jelelle as you are drawn to our offerings.

Maybe, a Session together isn’t what is a fit for you, or what is possible for you financially right now, but you feel a clear draw to our energy. We welcome your association with us through our many online free offerings. We welcome your exchange of energy with us for what you are receiving and for the movements you are experiencing riding on our bus. Make us your home as you are able. We’re busy making space!

 

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

The Only Place Real Growth Can Occur

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The only place any real growth can occur is in the gap between what you have and what you desire to have; the gap between where you and where you desire to be.

If you don’t desire anything more than what you have, in whatever area of your life, you are at present satiated, or fully satisfied.

As proverbs says: ‘a full soul loathes a honeycomb’.

Returning to growth will require the courage to re-own your appetite, especially if a part of you worked so hard to get it suppressed to where you did.

Returning to your quest will call upon your deepest QUESTions, and dusting off the clutter and clamour of the answers that once soothed, but now only block the very oxygen your heart and soul is aching for.

Entire spiritual practices, belief systems, social circles and ways of doing life will most likely need to be renegotiated with and very often completely let go of in the process of returning to desire.

Most often, when we set out to kill desire, we subconsciously set up huge infrastructure in our lives to support that suppression. We co-sign mutual contracts with others who are at this same phase as us that we are now going to have to renege on, and begin in earnest to dismantle.

Desire cannot be killed. It is pure life energy itself, that can morph and change, but never cease to exist. Even the phase of suppressing desire is part of desire’s dance of helping you come to new terms with it.

You may have lost touch with desire, but desire has not lost touch with you.

Try writing it a letter. Begin with something like ‘Dear Desire, Where have you gone in my life? What have parts of me tried to do to you? What is it you are really wanting? How could we find each other again? Love, Me.’ Then wait for a response and write that out. Allow for a penpal back and forth as need be.

Desire itself will rekindle in you in a powerful way if you are ready to trust the process.

 

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Opting For The Heaven You Don’t Know

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Opting for the Heaven you don’t know, over the Hell that you do know, will call upon everything in you.

Deep in our essence, we know love in the profoundest sense, yet we struggle to feel it and know it in an everyday sense. We are love. We are heaven. But we took a forgetful journey to the far away land of love’s lack in order to grow into more of love’s ever expanding infinity.

This is where you find yourself now, feeling far away from love, yet actually BEing this love, while feeling the parts of yourself and others that are not yet reconciled to this love that we all are.

You are love, yet you experience hell.

The craziness of this will constantly incline you to attempt to make many temporary and false heavens out of the hell you are actually in. When you live in the forest, you make your house out of wood.

If you want to get to know more of the real heaven that you don’t yet know in your everyday experience, you are going to have to spend some of that bank account that you are holding onto of the hell you do know.

The hell you know is the currency that will buy you the heaven you don’t know, what you really want, if you are willing to spend it.

This will require admitting that the hell you are in, is in fact a hell; that you are willing to leave it; and that you want help to find your way out. If that isn’t true for you yet, you simply aren’t done with your sacred chosen hell and what the time there is meant to bring you.

This will also require that you are willing to authorize a resource(s) that you recognize as being part of your emerging heaven to assist you, guide you…that they represent your higher self, your heaven, in physical form, a projection and manifestation of this future you.

This will require feeling the painful gap between where you are now and where you long to be, and all that this gap is meant to alchemize in you.

If you are at this place, you have entered the place of true adventure, where the first step is actually as grand as the last step, as they are all steps on the same sacred journey, where none is more meaningful than any other.

If you feel like you are not at this place, see if this feels like you, or instead a part of you, and then see if you are ready to show up for this part of you and the hell they find themselves in.

 
Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

 

We Are All Deeply Enculturated

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Every last one of us has been deeply enculturated.

We’re left with taking responsibility for the cults we find ourselves in.

The first cult we were subjected to, seemingly by our own choice, was the cult of ‘the individuated out from divine source’. This cult left us with a kind of bi-polar disorder of on one hand fearing being returned to source against our will and having our individuality taken from us, and on the other hand, fearing not being able to ever find our way back to oneness source, left in a hell of separation and individuation forever.

Talk about having all the bells and whistles of having been in what feels like a harmful cult! Our hangups, anger, hatred and dysfunctions suddenly make a lot of sense. Could anything be more painful than losing your awareness of your true identity, leaving you and I out begging life for any kind of substitute scraps of survival forms of love that can be had?

Eventually, as we come to take responsibility for this first cult and the many other cults that we’ve wandered into and find ourselves in, we come to discover that while it most deeply feels like we are separate and separated, we never actually were. We come to see that we are in fact as close as we ever can and will be, and all that is awakening is only a realization of what IS, and not any kind of attainment of anything that isn’t already.

We are left with the task of attaining what already is.

We need all the dramas of life and relationship as the story and culture setting to get us to the moral of the story which is LOVE, not as an injunction to dutifully ‘be more loving’, but as a dawning awareness of the essence of what you and I already are and always were, leading to just simply and truly being the love that we are. The only injunction we’re really left with is ‘just be yourself’.

The deeper awareness in all of this that WE CHOSE this as the soul beings we are, calls us to feel all there is to feel in reaction to our present awakening. Only now can we begin to feel these roots of all of our dysfunctions and querks both related to being human, as well as related to being birthed into being a soul. Only now can we begin to feel and take responsibility for our true awesome power.

It’s like we’ve travelled to a far country, with strange language, weird food, and customs. We don’t know how to be here and we don’t know where to find what we desire as familiar love. When we do find something that feels familiar, that feels like family, we often find that the comfort it once gave no longer does. Our deep inborn hunger for love calls us on to seek new forms and experiences of the love that we are. We find ourselves again invited into new forms of cult and culture, given our bents for attachment and our needs for love. Now, we can take conscious responsibility for what we choose and for what we most deeply want; a new culture of love.

We didn’t come here for any kind of instant fix. You were never broken in fact. If anything, you were fixed in love and wanted to unfix yourself being the explorer of the infinite love that you are. You and I came here having it all and we couldn’t help ourselves but to want more. We came here for a process. We came here for relationships. We came here to feel and heal all there is to feel.

 

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Is It Safe To Want More?

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‘Is it safe to want more?’

‘Can I actually have what I most deeply want?’

‘Isn’t gratitude for what I have the opposite of wanting more?’

These questions repeatedly come to anyone who chooses to awaken their emotional body? They came to me again last night as I felt another layer of what I so deeply want.

To learn of deep abounding beauty that you don’t normally experience is to subject yourself to longing and despair that you don’t currently have that in your life. It takes big courage just to awaken that far. To then set out to obtain that deep beauty as your living reality is to call on resources of courage and choice that will surely be tested and tried moving forward.

How much easier and understandable it is for the masses to choose to remain asleep to desire. In moments, you are tempted to choose the path of the masses if you had any inkling that it could actually work for you.

You know you are here for more. You know that’s ‘just what is’ in your relationship to life. You also know any spirituality that offers the killing of your desire in the name of ‘overcoming attachment’ won’t work for you. You want more and you know it.

But life doesn’t actually offer you any kind of unconditional guarantee that you will obtain the desire of your quest for more, in exchange for your willingness to want so deeply. What life does offer you however, is the opportunity to embrace, and be in the aliveness of your desire for more. This is where the meaning is felt and found. I am a living breathing ‘wanter’.

I get to be in want.

I am a lover of love and love is so infinite and so multi-faceted that in surrendering to being in love’s want, I am sure to always be wanting something more than what I currently have, as beautiful, and even super-abundant as my current reality may be, and may go on to become.

We came from infinite source ‘having it all’ and yet we wanted more. So we came here, to be in lack, and want, to feel all there is to feel about this paradox. I am The All out wanting more.

I do get to fully enjoy every fulfilled desire along the way. I get to be in gratitude for both my wants AND what my wants have brought me. Every attachment that I ever clutched onto for as long as I did, be it a healthy or an unhealthy attachment, was really for me simply LOVE, in the way that it was, for the time that it was. It may no longer be love for me as I move on to deeper experiences of love, but that doesn’t mean it wasn’t deep and abounding love in the way and time that it was.

In fact, everything that I ever wanted and will ever want is simply love. Love is the source of all. I’m told that you and I can have all that we are ready and willing to let in, AND, when and as we are ready for it, we can have it TOGETHER too, in community.

How’s that for a deal? How’s that for a new world order? You and I get to be the deepest experiencers of love as we are willing to be in love’s deepest want.

 

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

SoulFullHeart Patreon Money UPdate – May & June, 2018

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My goodness, we have been enjoying a new and rising money tideline and timeline these past two months and I wanted to tell you about it.

In the past few months, we have been able to purchase a whole list of goodies, over and above our regular living expenses. It took me a while to remember them all.

  • 1 new iPad
  • 3 new to us, Macbook Pros
  • A new set of sorely needed 4 tires for Vida – our Van
  • A new battery for Vida
  • Dentist cleanings and checkups for all five of us
  • Passport renewals for Gabriel and Jelelle
  • And, Gabriel and Kalayna have been able to rent a much nicer place!

It has felt like an ongoing and magical journey to have left all known regular money sources behind as well as our geography back in 2014, land on an off grid ranch for 19 months where we depleted our nest egg, and then to begin again!

Gabriel and Kalayna have been teaching english part time for the past two years and recently, Raianna and myself (Raphael) are also teaching english online in the mornings to children in China through an app called Palfish. Here’s a link if you might be interested: https://www.ipalfish.com/klian/web/dist/teacher/mobile/invite/teacher_invite.html?uid=5202379

We really wanted to be transparent about it all as an inspiration to others feeling a similar call to launch out into new ground where money and livelihood is concerned.

May’s numbers (in USD) for the 5 of us and SoulFullHeart looked like this:

$3,341 – English Teaching Revenues

$2,038 – Income for SoulFullHeart Sessions

$     46 – General Donations

$5,442 – Total Revenue for May

And June’s looked like this:

$5,007 – English Teaching Revenues

$1,887 – Income for SoulFullHeart Sessions

$   127 – General Donations

$7,021 – Total Revenue for June

I know these numbers still seem small for 5 people (even though they are steadily growing)  compared to what we used to live on in Vancouver, but what is so meaningful and magical to us is how alive it feels to be living in our passion purpose where livelihood and money is concerned. None of us have any feelings of being in dead end jobs, or old timeline careers that we need to ‘pay the bills’. All of it is sacred service and meaningful as each of us arises into new personal and group alchemy – manifesting on the outside what’s becoming more and more real on the inside.

The English teaching has provided us with an integrity bridge where we don’t feel pressure to serve people in SoulFullHeart session space who aren’t a fit for the work, but whom we need to make ends meet. In other words, we don’t have to ‘monetize’ SoulFullHeart.

This ground feels like it is ripening for so many people. Intuitively, we can get that the most secure financial plan would be to tie our financial needs to offering our deepest gifts in the world, but how do we embrace and walk out the steps to live that way? We can also get that offering something less than our deepest gifts in the world – ie. staying at a job that pays the bills, but suppresses our gifts, is not wise choice in the long run, but again, where and how does one begin to live their way into that?

Our approach to this that we live in every day and that we serve others to live their way into, is to get to know the parts of themselves in a deep and personal and nourishing and life changing way. It’s all in the relationship our parts of ourselves have to money that forms our patterns around money and livelihood. As we do this, previously unimaginable new possibilities open up as the stuck places shift and securities realign into new realities.

The word ‘career’ is a hint at this. The word means ‘to call’. Heeding the call is sacred journey. Entering one thing and leaving another is the journey that never ends. Money is probably the most grounded area to relive our way into new ways of life. If it can work in the money area, it can probably work in a whole lot of other areas, right. Someone once said that ‘money doesn’t lie’, and after all – it’s only energy, and all energy is sourced in love. Love doesn’t lie. It invites us into new realities.

We all want to say a big thank you to our supporters and the individuals who send us money! Thank you. Thank you. Thank you!

It feels important to acknowledge with gratitude the people and circumstances that have opened us out to this point, as we reach for our next places of wish list to inhabit:

  • We will be hosting regular monthly group circles here in Puerto Vallarta, Mexico for people who are working with us to attend.
  • We are beginning to hold regular retreats here in Vallarta beginning this November as well as other locations in 2019 – Glastonbury, England; Vancouver, Canada and more.
  • Raphael and Jelelle hope to leave behind their current apartment here in Vallarta in favor of a nicer place soon.
  • Dentist work totaling 4,200 USD

Any and all love received in the form of money is treasured and so welcome!

Thank you deeply and dearly,

Raphael

 

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

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Sacred Union Looks So Good On You!

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A ‘Sacred Union’ can be simply defined as a sacrificing or giving up of your reality to make way for a new and arising reality.

Jelelle and I like to say that we are in a Sacred Union bond, and we feel that this is powerfully true, but there isn’t any spiritual ‘Sacred Union board of governors’ who can certify that this is or isn’t true. What makes it true for us is the sacredness and reverence that we bring to the bond as individuals, that then transacts mutually and opens out a bliss that we only dreamt of previously in our imaginative reach for what we most deeply desired. It is simply, our deepest dreams coming true, and then as that happens, continuing to dream deeper still.

This is the sacred sacrifice…the willingness to feel into your deepest desires and imagination of what your deepest bliss of a Sacred Union could look and feel like…in as many ways as you can imagine. The sacrifice comes into play as you are willing to let go of what you presently have (or don’t have) in favour of this deep inner all-consuming yearning.

Men are more wired (so we’re told) to do this sexually, and for men, that’s as good a place as any to open the imagination. What would heart and mind blowing sex look and feel like to you, and then because there are another 23 hours left in the day, what would being in life and love and that drippy sex glow look like and feel like to you? How willing are you to admit that you really want THAT? How willing are you to be ‘pierced through with your own desire’ and to pursue that… in real life, in real time, with a real woman? Only in that willingness are you willing to sacrifice your present reality to own and enter and alchemize a new one.

As a woman, what would it feel like to be with a man who is so into you, as the woman of his deepest dreams, who fully claims you and your arising life together that nothing comes a close second to the bliss of your Sacred Union bond?

Can you feel how you are the creator here? Sacred Union is not some spiritually attained place that you somehow pop into and suddenly you are hereafter declared enlightened. You ‘enlighten’ your path here one grounded and ever so fulfilling sacred step at a time.

When others look at Jelelle and I with admiration, they may feel a contrast between where they are at and where we are at and see us as having what they want, but this is them projecting their own heart and soul bigness onto us temporarily for safe keeping while they ‘go-in’ to their own heart and soul work to make the choices and feel all there is to feel to take this journey. The exciting thing in all of this is that once you begin that, you are on the Sacred Union path that IS the bliss, even if you are single, regardless of what your ‘attainment’ is or isn’t just yet. The humility and reverence you bring to the opportunity to be in this mutual reverence is what brings the ongoing deepenings.

You’ll have plenty of your own ‘out of this world, and don’t quite know where to file them’ kind of experiences soon enough, along with deepening healing challenges as well to invite you deeper into Sacred Union. You’ll need the conditioning too of these first initial courageous claims of what it is you most deeply want, to be in shape, so to speak, for the next steps. You are entering and choosing the domain of taking the sacred responsibility of manifesting your deepest dreams, knowing this is your sacred calling in the universe.

Can you think of anything more fun than that? Even whatever hell you need to go through to get here pales in comparison. You, in Sacred Union bliss are worth it all!

Sacred Union looks so good in you and on you!
Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

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Why Ask Bliss For Anything More?

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By Raphael Awen

We embraced experience.

We embraced the experience of limitation to contrast our infinity; of time and space to contrast with our timelessness; of preference to contrast with our complete and total ambivalence; of awakening to contrast with our very deep and restful sleep.

Why would anyone or thing wish to awaken from the best sleep imaginable? Why ask bliss for something more?

Bliss realized that it was in motion, that it wasn’t static, that it was on a mission, with a purpose of expansion. It wanted to know and experience what it couldn’t know and experience unless it tried through you.

You are this bliss out having a field experiment, with some control limitations and observations going on; all the things that go on in a scientist’s laboratory. What can we come to know that we don’t already know?

We know there is something more, we just don’t know what it is!

You are this more. You are this riddle. You embraced this world of conditioning and ‘limitationing’ to exercise and exorcise your Godhood out into a fuller light of brighter day.

Now that you’ve done all of this; gone to all this trouble, will you follow through to take notes of what you are experiencing? That was the whole point of the experiment; to give yourself to the ‘solving’ of the riddle. If in the process of solving the riddle, you expand the riddle, then you have solved the riddle.

The riddle is that love and life wanted to be seen and noticed, rather than solved. It wanted to be pursued without ever being fully caught.

You get to be in never ending awe and wonder. You get to be in love, ever falling, ever in longing, ever wet with desire and appetite.

 

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

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Feeling – The Portal Back To Essence

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By Raphael Awen

We only struggle with attachment to lesser things, because of our loss of familiarity with the greater things that we once knew, but struggle to remember.

Most of us have no conscious recall of those greater things, and those of us who do, must be patient with what feels like a very slow pace to a part of us who just wants to ‘fully remember already!’ Yet, the evidence is plain; only someone who’s suffered loss could attach to and treasure so intensely things that don’t really nourish.

Whether it’s a relationship with friend, mate, or family, or an attachment to a geography, or a house, or a career, we increasingly feel it as a stuck place that wants to relate without the intense attachment if we could only find a way to loosen up.

This kind of tight gripping that doesn’t allow much room for breathing, is further proof that we suffered some loss that polarized us to this over grasping in relationship.

Why can’t we relate with an open heart, willing to let come and willing to let go? Why can’t we long for things and be okay with them coming or not coming, with them coming sooner or later? Why do we need to have it now and why do we need to preserve it from loss or change at all costs?

As I was going about my day, one day this week, I was aware of a sadness in my field. As I lay down to rest and feel into it, I felt a distinct young part of me longing for return to something lost. Tears came from several parts of me inside wanting to open out past some internal barrier of forgetfulness, wanting to see and feel clearly just what is this loss. As I shared with Jelelle later, she offered to hold some space for this part of me, and I was quite surprised by what came next, as some of the deepest tears that I’ve ever known rolled out. I was taken back to my boyhood town and a knowledge that something magical occurred there with starbeing contact, that was then later closed down as I needed to enter a phase of going all into 3D life, Christianity, marriage and family life.

I was able to see again how my later life stages and roles of exemplary and motivated Christian, husband, father, and self employed contractor were all motivated by a subconscious seeking to return to a bliss that was lost. I was able to feel some subconscious motivation even affects all of my relationships to this very day.

This kind of remembering and the digestions that occur in these moments have been happening more and more for me as I awaken. This requires a willingness to feel and go into pain and sadness. The expectation that awakening should be ‘beyond suffering’ or just be bliss all the time is a deterrent to our actual awakening.

I believe all of us have this longing to return to bliss in one form or another, and even in several forms inside of us. As we garner the courage to get in touch with it and the strength to consciously hold such great longing and desire, it is in this ‘relationship with’ that we weren’t able to have before, where some magical strides occur for us in our growth.

We get to be here and we get to feel every feeling there is to feel. We get to feel every part of us holding trauma, whether something so stark as sexual abuse or something so off the radar as this loss of our source bliss from which we came.

Feeling is the tipping point. Feeling is the graduation point that harvests the purpose and intention of why we surrendered to our human experience, as well as why we surrendered to our perceived separation from the divine experience.

It is in feeling the sorrows where we find the direct portals back to our joy, and to our indescribable essence as infinite love.

 
Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

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