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Author: Jelelle Awen
I am a long-time healer, teacher, student, and facilitator of souls and hearts. My awakening journey really began in my early 30's in 2004 when I started a process to connect with and integrate parts of myself from this life and other lifetimes/timelines as well. I have been engaged with and offering 'parts process' work ever since then! I also awakened over the years to my multidimensional spiritual gifts, capacity to be a bridge to the Divine Feminine especially, galactic ambassador abilities, and intuitive empathic capacities to 'feel' the emotional body, energy chakras, and soul field.
I offer 1:1 sessions with women, group facilitation and teaching experience with me through a monthly group transmission over Zoom with Raphael. More information about virtual and in person sessions and groups with me at divineselfembodiment.com
I am also a writer, Soul Scribe and author of five books: Free To Be 5D: Navigating Ascension From The Inside Out; Bliss Mess: The Wonders And Challenges Of Ascension; Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality; And Keep Waking Up!: Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond. All are available now as PDF, ebook, and print editions at divineselfembodiment.com/books. My writings can be found on divineselfembodiment.com and my facebook and IG feeds.
Freeing UP & Sharing Your Truth Through Self Validation, Permission & Play – Holy Week Divine Union Transmissions W/Yeshua & Magdalene
By Raphael and Jelelle Awen
This writing continues on from the first post in this Holy Week transmissions about Cleansing Your Temple: Body, Mind & Heart
Yeshua offers:
“Thank you, Raphael for asking my truth about speaking your truth. You are all clearly able to receive my frequency because we are all attuned to, and sourced in, at source level, the same highest frequency.
As you attune more and more to that frequency, by your choices and your soul’s evolution, expressing in your life, you will feel this, you will know this, and you will confirm this more and more.
This is where it gets fun. This is where so much tension gets answered.
You get to be you. You donβt need to conform to any other pattern unless you want to, unless itβs fun.
Iβm toying with this word ‘fun’ today, because it gets at the seriousness, tediousness and boredom overlay that I know you, Raphael, have journeyed through and continue to find your way out the other side.
Letβs have some fun, okay? You did religion long enough. So did I. You did spirituality boredom long enough, so did I. Letβs return to play.
β¦Yes, my take on the waveform of speaking your truth as I did in that life spoken of in the texts of oldβ¦
Letβs go there in heart and mind, soul and body now as One. Letβs feel this truth together with all of our capacities in alignment, tuning into the higher heart and mindβto Love itselfβ¦
Your truth, my truth and even the Divineβs truth is in change, growth and evolution. If God or Source knew all truth, thereβd be no reason for it to exist. IT exists to know more while knowing it can never come to know ALL.
If you subscribe to a God who has the final word on all truth, itβs a clear sign you are still afraid of your own truth.
This is because admitting your truth to yourself and in turn to your world around you changes everything. You will walk through fires of separation. The sword of your truth will cut and pierce.
You will suffer loss. It will hurt. That wound however is the portal opening to so much more.
It begins by making your truth known. But becoming an angry advocate and parking there is no longer where Iβm at. It was a necessary phase, one that I entered for a time and needed to go through in order to go on to my next discoveries and courageous choices about my truth.
Remaining in contention with opposers is another evidence of the fear of your truth.
I offer you this personally, Raphael and to all those souls taking this in now who resonate.
You have left so much behind by the simple act of making your truth known and allowing the landscape to reconfigure. Naturally you carry these losses as a trauma fear of more loss. Even in the refined life you live now, you are not excused from feeling and negotiating this fear. Gain and loss are part of this frequency reality. Becoming higher frequency doesnβt exempt you, me, or anyone from that.
Living out this negotiation however, is like the most grounded and empowering and alive proposition.
If you will truly do you, without apology, yet with tenderness of heart and soul, with care for yourself and the other…at times with a ferocity, never with intent to destroy, and at other times with the gentleness of a kitten…all only to rearrange, realign, then you will continue to unfold in this magic.
Every breath, every thought, every movement and exchange of energy gets to BE you.
Admitting that you see through a personal lens and an ever changing lens at that, puts you in your God class. The God class of never-ending learning, feeling, experiencing, exponentially growing.
One who wonβt admit that they have a personal lens has a longer way to go at remembering who and what they are and are still serving the forgetting. But even this forgetting is all sacred and part of the Divine’s own evolution.
I had to, over and over again, come to forgive myself and receive not only the Divineβs forgiveness but its appreciation for my entire awakening journey. All the time and even lifetimes spent in lesser things and places are equally treasured by the Divine.
No place was this more attuned and precious to me than in my relationship with Mary Magdalene. We each danced, both in step and out of step, with our own truth. Yet, we kept and keep finding our way. Without her, I still canβt begin to see where I could be where I am now.
I honour you and all souls for your willingness to be in all of this. I feel for you all in the sorting of all the reactions, the forwards and backwards, the triumphs and the recoils.
Your truth will take you from one place to another. New territories will continue to emerge. Donβt seek a final resting place. Instead, let your resting place be in the flow and in the change.
You are in my class, and I am in your class. We are in the God class together.”
Love,
Yeshua with Raphael
~
Mary Magdalene offers:
“I feel dressed today, beloveds, and more ready to share with you from my fuller self. Through the cleansing of the healing waters and allowing the fears of the vulnerable and scared part of me in our first meeting to come through, I show up now not in armour yet in a healthy sense of self affirmation earned from a deep reconciliation within.
I have settled in quickly to my connection with you, Jelelle, as we have cultivated it for many years now…when I first showed my face through yours in the early days of your soul’s remembrance awakening to the Feminine Christ within you. At the time, you were in a False God group led by a mostly shadow-based teacher, who also saw and validated your deep connection and love of the Divine. In doing so, he timestamped your ability to be under his controlling and often abusive authority system for very long. My face came through yours and also my energies catalyzed your need to tell your truth, even as it eventually cost you your relationship with him, your livelihood as a facilitator of his work, and your soul family community at the time who all rejected you.
I fuelled your ‘No!” and your choice to leave this teacher as you responded to the first blooms of new love with your beloved Raphael in a true Divine Union frequency of equality instead.
Sharing our truth that comes from deep within, especially as women, has often come with a cost. In my primary lifetime for which you know of me, it would have cost me my life to be at my beloved Yeshua’s side in my full expression of truth with him. And I wasn’t meant to die in that way, yet to continue to hold the seeds of our soul family lineage and ascension codes on, even as threat of persecution followed us always in that life.
From the shadows of our bridal chamber and with the few beloveds in our Magdalene family that we could truly trust, I was able to unfold all of my feminine gifts, bridging heaven to earth and infusing Yeshua with the Creatrix codes of death and rebirth. This helped give him the courage to face his body’s ‘death’ and trust his spirit’s resurrection on the other side.
And, to the ‘public’, I became the whore seeking redemption from him for so long. The truth of my equal status with Yeshua began to emerge, to be unearthed, when the collective finally became more ready for it. The truth of how he held me as much a teacher of his as he did student as he did beloved. The apostle of the apostles, as I truly considered myself even though very few could honor me as such.
And the truth emerging still of my deep Divine union with Yeshua, the sacred sexuality grounds that we explored, the children we had together eventually, the live we shared after the resurrection with him in a lighter form of body.
Thank you for letting me come through all those years ago, Jelelle, and many since then, allowing me to be a bridge to your Magdalene sister aspect from that life and feel her grief and pain so deeply. Thank you for sharing my message and my truth now out to this public forum that is so far reaching, forming a truly world wide web. I am still getting used to having such a vast pulpit and receptive audience now for those who feel called to share my energies and messages…..when I have, as all Divine Feminine energies, been waiting for so long and just now starting to wake up and be welcomed.
And I offer to you all who hear me now…..the truth that rises from within you is not rebellionβit is resurrection. Each time you speak what is real, you roll away the stone.
Honor your wisdoms that come from your precious life and soul’s experience and direct communion with the Divine as sacred and valid. Seek not permission from others, yet feel freed up within your own sense of self worth and self love to play, to create, to share, to envision, and to advocate.
When you speak from that place of deep bubbling well of Divine Essence within, you might be questioned, doubted, and misunderstood. Yet, I am here to assist you in remembering your soul’s truth as held in the heart of Divine Mother. I am here to create safety for the parts of you who feel protective; to forgive the parts who judge as they have been judged, and to inspire your Divine inspiration to flow.
You are already worthy. You are already chosen. Your truth IS the authority.
Let me walk beside you today, let me come through you as you speak whatβs real for you, not for validation, but for remembrance.
I leave you now with this blessing:
Beloved soul,
May your voice remember its origin in Love.
May the tremble in your truth be held as holy.
May every word you speak from your depths
be met by angels in flesh who echo,
βYes, this is the way.β
Until tomorrow, with all of our love,
Mary Magdalene w/Jelelle
Read all of our written transmissions here on this blog and our Divine Self embodiment website blog and the spoken versions of this transmissions on videos here on our Divine Self Embodiment You Tube Channel. More info here to join us for a live Easter Divine Union Codes Transmission w/Yeshua and Mary Magdalene on April Sunday 20th over zoom with Raphael and Jelelle Awen and to receive the replay.
Preparing & Cleansing Your Temple: Body, Heart, & Soul – Holy Week Divine Union Transmissions W/Yeshua & Magdalene
By Raphael and Jelelle Awen
This holy week of Easter, which began yesterday on Palm Sunday, offers profound opportunities for sacred soul remembrance. From whichever ancient culture, calendar, or belief system you recognize the Easter passage, the codes are very much hereβpotent and ready to be stepped into with your intention and power, even if that power feels diminished in this moment, quite possibly a preparation for this entrance.Β
I feel Yeshua as a beloved guide, template, and mentor. Beyond the debates about who he truly was or how his essence has been distorted, lies the authentic encodingβalready within youβawakening now.
When Yeshua offered his disciples a cup and said, βDo this in remembrance of me,β he gave a ceremonial and ritual act to substantiate, in the more familiar physical, what is happening in the subtle realms of the Metabody, your soul field, your energy body, your entire expanded and connected reality of being.
From his grand entrance into purpose and calling to the daily preparations, to the death and resurrection codes at the end of this week on Easter Sunday, your own entrance and choices await you: into embodiment, empowerment, and attunement.
I hear and feel Yeshua offering this Mondayβs observance as one of βCleansing Your Temple: Energetic & Emotional Purificationβ
Weβll feel together, if youβd like to take up my invitation, into a different alignment and message each day of this holy week leading into Easter Sunday, where you can also join us for a virtual Sunday Service offering event. Iβm joined in this with my beloved, Jelelle, as she connects to Yeshuaβs counterpart in this Sacred Union transmissionβ¦embodying Mary Magdaleneβs potent, alchemical, and central voice, role, and encoding.
Yeshua offers:
βYou are not who you once were. Youβve changed so much, even recently. Youβve chosen and walked through the fires. Yet many of the old furnishings of your previous lifeβthings youβve largely lost interest inβstill hold a place in your temple. It is time now to honor those former attachments deeply, thank them for the grounding and gifts they gave, and then release and cleanse.
Your temple is a finely tuned instrumentβwell beyond even the wonders of the pyramids.
Your sovereignty of being, with deep self-permission and self-authorization, wants to awaken further into felt and experienced validation from within.
No longer to suppress, but to support and allow. No longer to make things happen, but to serve the greater happening that you always were and always are.
Your temple gates extend outward in service to othersβby sacred invitation, through natural alignment and attunement. This is both quantum and personal. This cleanse, choice, and self-permission flow potently into the reality of your life as you currently perceive itβand beyond, into realms you cannot yet articulate or fully feel.
Youβve prayed and sought long enough for your redemption and deliverance. It is time now to respond to the life ring your soul offers in answer to those prayers.
The alignment is here, in this now. It awaits you. Meet itβand it will meet you.β
Love,
Yeshua w/Raphael
~
Mary Madgalene offers:
She waits for me in the healing pools of the sacred temple of Divine Mother that is connected to her human timeline and also to the Unified field outside of time. These healing pools offer such deep cleansing, purification, and release and are available to all who need them.
She is somber and somehow exposed emotionally, vulnerable and naked, both in body and in heart. I can feel how she wants to be experienced not just as a historical figure or an ascended master or even as Yeshuaβs counterpart, yet also as a divinely human woman with her own sovereign emotions and vulnerabilities.
She is preparing for the intense initiation that awaits her beloved Yeshua this week. Our entire Magdalene soul family has been preparing for and tuning into the βeventsβ of this week for generations. It is not a surprise nor is it a betrayal or an ambush or a sacrifice. It is a chosen, planned and orchestrated light working held by highly advanced souls who come from an ancient lineage, offering a remembrance code of resurrection for those who are ready to receive it.
Yeshua will experience the painful process of death and rebirth mostly in the flesh, yet she and the other female Magdalenes such as Mother Mary and Yeshuaβs beloved cousin Miriam, will hold space for it ALL in the higher grids and inside of their wombs, hearts, and souls.
As Mary Magdalene relaxes into the waters, she has this to offer us now: βAs I cleanse the temple of my body and my heart in these holy waters, I am feeling today some resistance inside of me, some place in my βegoβ as you would call it now in your time.
This part of me does not want to let my beloved Yeshua go. She is feeling attached to his physical form, even while knowing that our divine union continues in the higher realms in which we will remain connected forever.
There is this deep, wise aspect of a Divine Mother priestess in me that is in anticipation of becoming the phoenix that will arise from these painful ashes. All that is false will be burned away. She trusts the love that is holding us and the collective service and template that this resurrection process offers for the All.
Yet, I want to honor this part of me that is attached, as I feel like this may resonate for many of you taking in this message now going through your own letting go processes. And I want you to feel my vulnerability as well, not just my strength and my spiritual attainments. Not just my access to divinity.
This part of me that is human, that wants to keep Yeshua all to herself, feels like it is ‘waste’ to lose him in this way as also she feels anger at the distortion and corruption of this precious resurrection code by the False God programs. How deeply its light has been buried in the darkness of enslaving dogma and its purpose twisted by power hungry, patriarchal agendas!
Surrendering to the Divine cycles of all of creation – light and shadow – brings me the most peace and I find it now as I hold this struggling part of me, this feminine mate within, in my heart. I feel Divine Mother comfort and reassure her, and it immediately moves through me like a soothing balm.
And I offer you the same reassurance as you prepare to undertake the next death and rebirth initiation that awaits you on your soulβs remembrance journey. I invite you to feel the human parts of you that are afraid, that are resistant, that are angry, and who need comfort along with the bigger soul context as they ‘face their deepest fears’. Not just to label them βegoβ and judge them and push them away. Yet to love them with all of your heart infused by Divine Motherβs.
This is the only way to move from fear and into love. From separation and into union. By honoring your inner reality and emotions and thoughts and human body as the most sacred temple that deserves your compassionate attention. Your most holy of holies truly is found from within.
As you cleanse your body and heart and your physical space in preparation to move into a deeper surrender to wherever the Divine is guiding you now, allow whatever feelings from any parts of you to be a sacred aspect of this process. Open up the portal of the feelings to wherever they want to take you and receive love as the ultimate answering of all fears.
Just sharing this message with you has helped this part of me and my heart. Thank you!”
Until tomorrow, with all of our love,
Mary Magdalene w/Jelelle
Read all of our written transmissions here on this blog and our Divine Self embodiment website blog and the spoken versions of this transmissions on videos here on our Divine Self Embodiment You Tube Channel. More info here to join us for a live Easter Divine Union Codes Transmission w/Yeshua and Mary Magdalene on April Sunday 20th over zoom with Raphael and Jelelle Awen and to receive the replay.
New Timelines Coming In As The Old Ones Collapse
By Jelelle Awen
These catalytic, high energies leading up to Lion’s Gate 8/8 are moving us through so many places inside and out at such a quicker pace than we have ever known or felt before. Timelines and realities are collapsing AS the new is coming into manifestation. This overlapping is happening more and more with what is collapsing not even consciously known sometimes before it starts to shift and change.
Perhaps just as you are feeling there is something to let go of here, you are beginning to feel the rumbles, you are preparing to mourn……then, the new timeline is already coming in and starting to manifest in your life.
There used to be more gap in this process of death and rebirth, it seems…more ‘time’ for the process of it all.
Now, this gap is seeming to be greatly narrowed where in some cases just as you realize that you need to change something, the new is coming in to take its place. Just as you are feeling a need to shift and change something, the opportunities and possibilities are coming in through synchs and connections leading to quicker implementation of choice points. I am seeing and feeling this happen in my own life and in the lives of others in our Divine Self Embodiment community.
The inner negotiation around all this becomes so important. To bridge all this change (even as it is into the good, for your good, and for your growth) with the parts of you that (of course!) are feeling resistant, afraid, tense, and anxious about the transition. The Inner Protector especially is ‘charged’ with making sure you don’t experience harm and to warn you of any ‘threats’ coming. The new can feel like a threat to the protective part of you, even if YOU deeply want it.
You as a Divine Self showing up to negotiate with your Inner Protector can allow for more fluid of a transition and processing of the previously harmful experiences that occurred in the past. The Protector can then rest more and allow the new to come in at a rate and pace that YOU want and then you able to let in the goodness that is coming to you in a deeper way too. The Protector is so often guarding younger parts such as the Inner Teenager from future harm, hurt or disappointment so they need to feel that you are connecting with and holding that part of you. More about the Inner Protector and a guided meditation to connect with this aspect of yourself here: https://tinyurl.com/mr3bjv6c
The new timeline can bring up previous trauma experiences stored at the cellular level and in parts of you, to BE with as the water of love that washes out the ‘oil’ of what has been stored in your emotional body. As the cells upgrade to crystalline they release the toxicities and lower frequencies absorbed through 3D experience and in the Metasoul field too. This can be a lot of stored toxicity and it doesn’t seem to make much difference how physically healthy your body is related to how much has to come up…..although being physically vital can help.
As you move into the new from the old at a more rapid pace (as what seems to be happening right now), your cells can vibrate faster and it’s like a wet towel that you whip around in a circle…….the faster you go in your circular motion, the more water flings off. The more love in the form of new coming into your world and at a faster rate, the more is released that needs to be.
The Divine is offering SO MUCH trust and support in our capacity to handle this accelerated rate of death and rebirth and this increased cycle of cellular release of toxicity. As so many of us are being fast-tracked right now in this ascension process to lead the way, we can lean into the Divine to surrender the outcomes and preconceived ideas parts of us might have of what the new might look like, even as we hold our desires and wants with tenderness and care!
Leaning into the Divine in whatever forms work for you can bring so much ease and grace and trust in the overall process and the increasingly rate and pace of it. Trusting the feeling how, indeed, ‘we are never given more than we can handle (even of the good!)’ and that it is all held with much love!
love,
Join Raphael and I for an emotional body trauma clearing & upgrade lovestream with sharings, sound healing and meditation live on FB and YouTube as part of our Lion’s Gate series today 7/17 at 6pm WET/UK – 1pm EDT. More info at https://www.facebook.com/events/489899233650093
1:1 Divine Self Embodiment sessions available with me or another Facilitator to digest, connect, to collapse and emerging timelines in your life! More info here: divineselfembodiment.com/sessions
Pleiadian Portal Portal Open For Connection & Remembrance
By Jelelle Awen
The Pleiadian Portal is open for the next week until May 24th, peaking on May 20th-21st when the sun is aligned with Alcyone, the brightest of the seven sister stars in the constellation. The Pleiadian energy frequencies are a high vibration of pure love, unity consciousness, and crystalline-coded light.
Having gone through their own descension to ascension process, Pleiadians are both supportive of humanity’s journey and compassionate about the challenges we are going through during this transition. Connecting with them brings forward the energy of the Founders (Lyra) and reminder of the DNA seeding within us (in our every cell) that is ‘the best’ of what humanity can be when our hearts are open, our souls are awake and our bodies are light filled.
I began to connect yesterday with a Pleiadian guide named Alona that came forward during meditation. Tuning into dolphins and whales opens up a bridge to them easily as they are descendants of the Pleiadian DNA in its more pure and higher frequency form. What a blessing to connect with Alona, backlit in bright blue with light blond hair and blue eyes, all regal and queenly, pure heart and flooding me with soul rememberance and love.
She supported me to feel remaining places of separation consciousness (which manifests as fear or pain), especially related to my physical body transition to living on more light/prana/into menopause, ongoing service inhabitations (including trust in alchemy/money flow), and deeper co-creation with Raphael.
Filled up with her love, it was not surprising to me that the session I had later in the day with a beautiful soul opened up a bridge to her Pleiadian aspect as well…who felt similar and perhaps the same as Alona. Her Pleiadian opened up a field of unity consciousness remembrance by inviting her to swim with dolphins in the most crystal charged waters.
During this journey, I played my heart sound bowl and offered tones/light language, as she received the messages, codes, downloads that her Pleiadian aspect moved through her. The struggles and challenges of 3D life came through represented in her 3D self in a swimming pool, treading water with all her clothes on.
The contrast between the easy, flowing energies of Oneness with the dolphins and the heavy, effort of the swimming pool felt like the perfect representation of what it is like to BE human within a human body.
Treading water with all of your clothes on. All that effort and not really going anywhere. Stuck in a confined space with no ‘escape’ seeming possible.
This also felt like what it is like to be anchored to the karmic field of 4D as her Gatekeeper (soul guardian/keeper of the veil of amnesia) showed himself as a ‘giant’ and yet he has been reduced to despairing witness, unable to assist, save, or intervene for many human 3D lifetimes.
I felt her Pleidian aspect honoring both the human experience and the Gatekeeper’s reality though…even as there is now an ongoing invitation (as there is to ALL of us) to transition out of the confining pools of 3D consciousness and 4D karmic field to remember and embody more of her soul essence in everyday life.
Connecting to your Pleiadian aspect during this portal can bring you into places of homecoming, remembering your soul’s essence, creating a bigger space within you to hold the emotional, spiritual and physical healing/upgrades that occur during awakening. This can be a deeply personal experience, not just taking in someone else’s channeled messages, yet feeling flow through you these energies AS you. Bridging to your Gatekeeper can open up this access in a deeper, more visceral way.
Raphael and I will be offering a sound healing/guided meditation transmission Pleiadian journey video soon (probably on Sunday) and here is some whale/dolphin music to assist in the journey: https://youtu.be/GOsfvjwwe2E?si=OeuQsrcWh1up4WmG
Here’s a guided meditation to connect with your Gatekeeper: https://youtu.be/bGqTeeaYpwc?si=WZccIp8jPyZLnjop
More info about 1:1 sessions with me (and other Facilitators) to open up the bridge to empower, support, and amplify YOUR acc to Divine, self or embodiment healing at divineselfembodiment.com/sessions
Love during this magical portal,
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Severe Solar Storms Spark Auroras & Bring IN Upgrades/Activations
INTENSE Solar Energies update:
May 10 – Have you had difficulty sleeping the last couple of nights? Crazy, wild dreams when you do fall asleep? Feeling energy moving through your body and causing pain in joints, muscles and headaches? Feeling more agitated, irritated, difficulty focusing, and ‘buzzed’ than usual?
Some or all of this could be because of the VERY high solar activity the last few days and esp. if you are particularly sensitive to solar energies. There have been several solar flares (that are very high speed, instant energy blasts) coming from a massive sun spot AR3664 and it has also caused five CMEs (more slow moving coronal mass ejections that cause auroras and geostorms) over the past few days.
There have been comparisons in the lead up to this geostorm expected on May 11th to the Carrington event in Sept. 1, 1859 (which caused black outs and fires) although not as severe as that one. Although this geostorm is being rated as a possible category 4, which is the highest rating I have seen since tracking them for the last several years. It is expected to spark auroras at high to mid-to low-latitudes across Europe and the USA.
My guides were offering the sense that flares/SOULar activations coming from this sunspot are connected to and activated by the 5/5 gateway. They are giving me the sense of next level activations of 5D consciousness (Divine Self embodiment) being infused by these energies.
These activations are being offered from the Cosmic sun to the masculine planterary sun to flow into our personal sun chakras (two feet above our heads) to light up our 5D sacred human violetprint (the energies are ultraviolet) and all the ascension codes that we have ‘stored’ there. The solar energies are being then anchored into Gaia into Inner Earth, overlooked by the Inner Earth Lemurians.
This is a transmission of Ascension codes coming through to activate our light bodies, our galactic consciousness, and to help us unanchor out of 3D/Lower 4D control matrix systems.
You may be experiencing an increase of pushback even persecution energies from others to your choices, your way of life, your spirituality connecting to these upgrades. In this pushback, there can be tender feelings of hurt, betrayal and being misunderstood to be with and respond to the parts who feel them (spanning many lifetimes usually). The persecution wound is often illuminated by these kinds of activations as the masculine comes to terms with karmic patterns of persecuting and can now receive forgiveness from the divine feminine heart.
It is a time to be gentle, compassionate, and patient if you can with those who you experience persecution from, to move into forgiveness and compassion (even if a transactional relationship is not possible or healthy with them.) And, above all, to forgive your inner masculine for any guilt, shame, remorse that they may feel for what they couldn’t or weren’t able to protect you from in terms of persecution experiences from the present or in the past.
Grounding into and with Gaia is very important right now, bare feet on the ground, and soaking in cleansing, pure water if you can (hot baths can help too). Meditating if you can, even if just to focus lightly on your breath. Listening to high frequency music. Doing things that bring you joy and a feeling of passionate engagement. Eating very lightly or fasting can be helpful as well for integration of these energies.
May 11 – Holy light show! The bright colors of the Auroras spread across the night skies on May 10th and into today….A magical and potent way to connect to cosmic awe, Divine wonder, and a bigger context to our everyday lives.
The geostorm that I shared about yesterday (caused by several solar flares/CMEs from a very large sunspot) ended up being a category 5…the highest reported in over 20 years. Auroras were seen in places as low in altitude as Florida, all over the UK, and even here in Portugal at the highest mountain peak of the Estrelas (star mountains). This same sunspot produced another VERY large solar flare today 5/11…a X5.8 class which may also produce aurora-causing CMEs if it is earth facing.
I connected during meditation this morning with a sky full of the colorful solar wind transmissions as they interfaced with Gaia’s atmosphere. It can be a powerful transmission to receive them while in theta/delta space, esp for your inner masculine and star seed child (mine is actually named Aurora!) as it is a way to let in cosmic/Divine love. The auroras are available anytime to download/journey to in the higher dimensional spaces, even if not experienced in the physical (and perhaps received even more into the light body/cells/chakras in this consciousness state.)
You may have interrupted sleep too right now…. if you connect to cosmic/solar/earth energies. I do, plus strange yet vivid dreams when I did sleep more deeply!
Continuing to be sensitive to your physical/energy/emotional body today and the next couple of days feels quite important. Light eating, taking in gentle energies if possible, grounding on the Earth, walking in/soaking in water, listening to high frequency music. Moving the energies through your crown and out your root chakra. Tuning in to feel any galactic/Divine messages, etc.
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Aurora & Solar Storms Sound Healing & Meditation – This is a sound healing transmission with crystal bowls, chimes and guided meditation/toning/light language to connect with the powerful Aurora frequencies coming through right now with the intense solar flares/CMEs and storms.
I play the chimes and my 432HZ heart (green), root (red), and crown (purple) chakra bowls & colors of the auroras to open up your heart field to receive the love energies from the auroras; your crown to let in the cosmic codes; and your root to ground in the energies into your body. This can help with interrupted sleep patterns, body pains/aches, emotional difficulty/resistance and irritation/agitation.
5/5 Message From Inner Earth Lemuria: Remember Who You Are
By Jelelle Awen
Blessings during this 5/5 gateway opening to let in 5D/Divine self embodiment! High frequency energies today even as denser energies in our 3D aspects continue to need bridging, love and support in order to deconstruct, lean in and let go 
I wanted to reshare this message that came through on 5/5 from the Inner Earth Lemurians (and my Lemurian soul aspect Ruma) as a bridge to 5D as the veils are always so THIN on this day:
Oh, humanity…..
Your journey has been so long,
Your fall so complete,
Your pain and suffering so real.
You landed in your forgetfulness,
your soul went to sleep,
you closed down your heart,
you disconnected from your intuition.
So, your mind did its work
and it got busy making a life
fed by a matrix mother
that could provide only limits,
programs, conditions, and rules.
Some of us Lemurians survived the Great Fall
and were forced away from the surface
choking on the ashes in the air,
heavy with the burden of grieving
the loss of so many of our brothers, sisters,
and our mightily cherished Motherland.
We have lived beneath you
for all these thousands of years.
We’ve been birthing and raising UP
our golden world of 5D consciousness
within this protected womb of
Gaia’s deepest depths.
We are waiting here for you
to unplug from the false matrix
and cord into your Divine Mother….
to reclaim your higher heart,
to reactivate your DNA,
to expand your consciousness,
to remember WHO YOU REALLY ARE…
We are waiting for you to truly CARE again,
for all creatures,
for all of Gaia,
and, most of all,
for yourself and for each other.
Some of you are growing, sprouting, expanding…
You are the precious offspring of Lemuria
that we sent to the surface
in a human form, born into and of their Matrix
in order be a beaconing seed of
New Lemuria there.
We are here to remind you,
to help you remember,
and to water you with support from afar
and from within you
whenever you are in need.
We’ve provided you with
saints and sages over the years…
seeds of us in humanly form
to offer templates for what
New Sacred Humanity could be again
and always truly WAS.
When enough of you are ready,
we will return to the surface.
We will collaborate together,
we will re-create the Motherland again
we will get to live Heaven on Gaia…
And we will become a loving humanity
reunited, as a living human reflection
of our Divine parents
once again.
Love to you always from your Lemurian
soul aspects/guides w/Jelelle Awen
Here is this message in my voice: https://youtu.be/iaYhHu8LNkI
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Healing Inner Punisher/Shame Loops To Come Out Of Smallness and Into Your Vastness
By Jelelle Awen
The pain comes from being small. From learning to act small and conform to the smallness around you.
The suffering comes from their projection of smallness onto you and the acceptance of this that then becomes your realityβ¦.and theirs too. It is a co-created agreement to be and remain in smallness. The smallness is the 3D agreement of filtering. It makes up the veil of amnesia and the belief in it keeps the veil in place.
The pain comes from the long term fusion to/belief in this sense of smallness AS the truth of who you are. It comes from the forgetting of the truth of your VASTNESS.
Parts of you form to support this smallness picture. These parts of you repeat the message of it over and over in self punishing tones and voices within you. The unworthiness message battles your body, your emotions, your spirituality, your choices, your thought patternsβ¦.whatever can be picked on or is vulnerable to attack.
This punishing frequency forms layers of protection and guardedness over your innocence. Over time, your innocence becomes covered over with shame and feelings of wrongness and unworthiness to receive love.
Your trust in life, yourself and the Divine gets layered over with distrust, esp as you draw more circumstances and relationships that reinforce this smallness picture.
Your sense of goodness about yourself becomes buried over with unworthiness and self hate.
These parts of you feel then that they ARE unworthy, are shameful, are wrong by their very nature. So much suffering in this usually unconscious looping of the punisher part and the corresponding reactions of shame in the younger parts of you.
This is a well oiled and fuelled system inside designed to keep you small, created to cap your growth, and reinforced to maintain itself. It is designed to keep you protected, even if it is limiting.
There is not some evil force of aliens or demons or negative entities that keep this personal hell in manifest form from within you. This is not being done to you BY others, even as it can very much feel that way.
The others in your life (the ‘outside’) that invalidate you and reinforces this smallness picture are there only to offer you a reflection of this inner polarized state for it continue to come into your awareness….over and over again if necessary until you wake to it as being sourced from INSIDE of you.
This is a self-created smallness that your soul chose for good reasonβ¦.until it is the time and phase to complete it. ONLY you can realize when that time is and ONLY you can end it.
You end it by bringing love to ALL the parts of you that have felt so unworthy, including the parts of you that punish, judge, attack, and shame you. You separate from these parts in order to have a relationship WITH them and not just become them in their routinized reactions.
THIS creates an increasing sense of your goodness, of your worthiness andβ¦.of your VASTNESS. This inner love ambassadorship to ALL frequencies inside of your BEing connects you to the truth of your bigness again. To your innate goodness again. To your innocence again.
Who ARE you?
You ARE Infinite Love in human form….Divine Self essence in a human body……arising into your bigness expression for the service of and because of LOVE. ANY picture less than that is ripe to be loved into this infinite love realized manifestation state again.
Welcome back to the VASTNESS of you….love can show the way!! ~
Message from your Divine Self,
Love,
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Here is a guided meditation to connect with your Inner Punisher-Shame dynamic:
Posted a video of me reading this writing as well on my feed and here on you tube:
Solar Eclipses Digestions & Activations
By Raphael and Jelelle Awen
Jelelle:
The reverential AWEsomeness of the cosmos rushed over me and the Divine wonder of the configuration of our Universe as we took in the eclipse ‘show’ for a couple of hours via live feed.
During the eclipse it felt right for Raphael and I to be in our airbnb rental together, a cozy studio that we cleared the energy beforehand with a salt lamp, incense, set up a simple altar….as it was super windy on the beach here in Nazare, on the silver coast of Central Portugal. We were guided to be here on the coast to celebrate our recent wedding anniversary, the release of our book together, the birth of Divine Self Embodiment AND take in the eclipse.
The energies themselves kept building and building before the eclipse as well and I had a sense of that, plus overall uneasiness, intensity, calibration, and needing to ground, to be in sacred space, especially after driving here for a couple of hours yesterday. It reminds me of the anticipatory feelings when you take a plant medicine or psychedelic….excitement mixed with unknown mixed with some tension.
Every chakra and clair ability amplified prior to it within me and during it as well, which is why I advocated yesterday for being in an environment and with energies that resonate with you and what you want MORE of in your life, in your internal world and with others. Energies that are supportive of your larger and authentic being coming forward into expression.
As I digested the eclipse energies more with Divine Mother this morning, I felt how what was most interesting was the RELATIONSHIP that each soul/parts/aspects of people had with the eclipse. What their filters were going into it and then their digestion during/after as well.
Many souls had strong fear and darkness projection filters going on, avoided it altogether, didn’t want to take it in visually in any way and even warned others about it…felt it was inviting in darkness and entity attachments. In the reality they are coming from (which is sacred to them in this phase), the timelines where this was the sense of eclipses (esp in more primitive timelines) may be coming forward now for feeling and healing. Fear draws the reality of more fear on the ‘outside’ until it is met and answered by love and trust from within and with the Divine.
There were those souls who projected that the eclipse would result in a ‘grand saving’, a rapture, a dissolution of the false world and a sudden and abrupt sweeping into the New (in whatever their soul’s desire and picture is for that.) There was deep meaning projected onto the eclipse changing everything, often because of a hollow and empty feeling inside themselves in their own life experiences. Unfelt despair can so often be placed onto events outside of self for some relief rather than felt/used as a portal for more self love and Divine connection.
There were those souls who made it into an occasion to party, to be in a large crowd, to feel Unity in that way even while being less sensitive to the impact on themselves and their energies. And, the 3D mainstream view of ‘science’ explaining it all logically and yet admitting that it was a rare occurrence worthy of study.
It’s fascinating really, all the different filtering experiences and perceptions of the same event! It feels like the eclipse itself serves as a mirror for us all individually and collectively. It really shows how divergent humanity is right now with so many different timeline realities playing out on the Earth Plane as it ascends to Gaia consciousness and we do too. That divergence does create quite a schism, where groups of souls are really experiencing quite an altered and often polarized reality from each other.
The ultimate invitation that I felt from the eclipse was one of Unification….an occurrence of seemingly miraculous alignment designed and offered by the Divine to SHOW us and INVITE us to unite, to come together, and to be in surrender to something bigger than ourselves and our current life content, struggles, and issues. To move out of fusions to parts of us being right or being wrong, being evil or being righteous…to feel how sacred we ALL are as Divine children and human embodiments of the Divine.
These eclipse energies, which feel like they will be integrating for months/years to come, offer both an invitation to go deeply inward to know/feel/deepen with self….and a transmission of Unity/Oneness/connection with ALL That IS outside of self.
A deep compassion for humanity and where we are in this moment…in the sacred growth experience of divergence and somewhere deep inside parts of us aching for reunion…moves through when we open our hearts to feel it ALL with Divine Mother.
Love to you as you integrate, feel, and ground in these eclipse energies within your BEing,
This was our favorite image from that we took…a screen shot from Nasa’s feed as offered through Fox News feed in which after totality a burst of the sun’s rays came through…light emerging out of the darkness.
Raphael:
Thereβs a feeling to this eclipse after the fact of being on the other side of all the anticipation and projections of what might occur, shifting now to the wonder, inquiry and digestion of what did happen.
This event, when felt through the heart, offers a big entry point and exit point into new realms of our being.
Itβs kind of like 9/11 – everyone remembers where they were on that fateful day that was like a lightning strike to the tree of collective consciousness that we could only wonder what that would mean to life going forward.
I feel this surrender now into receiving something long awaited and yearned for. My mind is a bit tired even at the attempt to encapsulate it mentally, but my heart knows it received a big transmission and transmutation. A download if you will.
We each get to go beyond the projected fears and hype that was thrust onto this celestial event and feel what each part of us needs and wants in the new territory.
It was probably an eclipse like celestial event that heralded the birth of Yeshua. Culture works for millenniums after that to try and integrate it.
You are the Christ consciousness arising, even as parts of you feel nothing like that at all. Thatβs what and where you as your divine self comes in. Youβre the digester, the integrator, the reconciler. Yeshua too was quite surprised and profoundly challenged to learn of what his soul had intended for him.
No part of you wants to be left behind. All of you wants to come along. You are the event, the totality, the dawning and the integration.
Iβm feeling a personal piece of being reconnected with Divine Father after a many years long incubational rebirth period with Divine Mother. Sheβs passing me off it feels like, yet offering she goes nowhere.
Iβm feeling an Old Testament scripture come back from memory offered to me and each of you. (Admittedly with a couple updated tweaks)
βArise, shine, for your light has come and the glory of the divine has arisen within you. Great darkness will cover many people, but my light now dawns inside of you.β
What does your full shining look and feel like? Whatβs been hidden in shadow that wants revealing? How can this come out without harm even though it may hurt?
Love to you as you hold it all. If my words offer a support to you, let me know and letβs see what a deepening connection might look and feel like together. 
Iβve been told that sweet new souls are washing up on my shores as I wash up on theirs.
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4:4:4:4 Portal Energy Update: Recognition of Home Frequencies & Patterns/Cycles In Your Life
By Jelelle Awen
4/4/4/4 Energy Update: It is the 4:4:4:4 (4/4/2+2/4) portal today (THAT is a lot of four energy!) and there is really something so affirming of the bigger picture and yet also grounding into the NOW about 4 energies…as represented by the four seasons and four elements (well, and the fifth of spirit).
Four codes can be about following Divine guidance, your intuition/soul wisdom, and then making progress/choices toward that, resolving practical and relationship matters with loving negotiation inside and out.
I also feel there was an invitation with these 4:4 energies to be direct with care, transparent with yourself and others to deepen the sense of trust in your higher heart intuition and Divine guidance as well. Being direct with care is possible as you heal from trauma responses/reactions/projections/triggers that lead to hiding your truth, being indirect, manipulation, passive aggression, keeping secrets, lying, etc. Feeling parts of yourself and soul aspects to heal these grounds allows for transparency inside and out.
4:4 is also about recognizing the patterns and cycles in your life and in your awakening journey…the beginnings, the harvest, the fall/death, and the spring arising again. These energies of transformation are being strongly activated right now…and an invitation to surrender to the cycles of change that lead to profound transmutation at all levels of being. To be in the flow more and more.
4:4 is a recognition of your current home on all levels…in the physical, within your body, in your heart space, connected to your soul, with the Divine, in your relationships. And feeling how you and parts of you feel about the current state of these homes…safe? Restless? Frustrated? Unhealthy? Time for change? Goodness and rest? Groundedness? Uneasiness?
This is also coming out of the Easter passage, offering codes of crucifixion/necessary death/letting go that allows for resurrection with Divine forgiveness and trust….as the Magdalenes seeded into the collective consciousness during that lifetime. There is the template there in the soul family monad around how to BE with inevitable change in a way that allows for the deepest personal growth in alignment with the Divine.
And, all of this is amplified by the eclipse energies and the approaching total solar eclipse in four days. I felt a significant lightening up yesterday in the energies yet there is still something slightly unsettling feeling about them right now…especially with the ‘hype’ and speculation around the total solar eclipse. They can often illuminate shadows in geographies, ley lines, collective energies and within the individual too.
This is a passage to honor whichever phase you may be in right in this moment……WHILE seeing/feeling the bigger picture of your life/purpose/service grounded in the home of your heart and soul.
There is an illumination being offered of inner sacred unions too, the dynamic between your inner masculine and inner feminine energies in hieros gamos deepening….and if they are polarized, in union, in conscious negotiation or playing out unconscious dynamics from parental templating, Matrix conditioning, soul karma and more. This is a key element of deepening the sense of home within.
Raphael and I will be exploring inner sacred union with sharings and a guided meditation in our group call on Sunday, April 7th, more info to join by donation at: https://www.facebook.com/events/792561519447717
Much love to you on this 4:4:4:4, eclipse, and post-Easter Passage,
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