For The Love Of Andara Crystals

By Jelelle Awen

I’m in love already with my new crystal friend!! Finally got an Andara crystal after hearing them call to me for over two years! This one came to me at what feels like the perfect time to receive Her Divine Feminine consciousness support. She was named the Heart Of Magdalene Andara by the supplier so that too feels perfect too.

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Magdalene is a beloved guide for me right now as I move into an Lillith type phase of solo independence and service (and Lillith is a guide/aspect too right now rumbling through with fierce intensity at times!) This Andara also feels like the perfect companion to journey to Avalon in the next few months with me.

If you don’t know about Andaras, you might find yourself called to get one or they call you really feels like. There are some ‘fakes’ out there so trust your intuition on it. I got mine here and was so happy to see it wrapped to wear around the neck as I prefer to be activated that way: https://andarawakening.com/collections/andara-jewelry

Here is more about them and their unique monoatomic qualities: https://lifestreasureskauai.com/monatomic-andara-crystals-updated/

I’ll keep you updated on the activations and integrations I receive from Her!

Jelelle Awen
soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator of SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions and group sessions (virtual and in person), events, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

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Honoring And Grieving As We Complete Our Sacred Union Relationship

By Jelelle and Raphael Awen

There is celebration and mourning too of something once so beloved that is now shifting and transitioning into something new and unknown. As we approach our tenth wedding anniversary at the end of March, Raphael and I have decided to enter into a new kind of relationship together based on sacred friendship and complete the romantic aspects of our relationship. We’ve been in phases of separation recently from each other to feel into this possibility with growing clarities that this is the right thing for both of us in this next phase of life.

The realization of a growing misalignment between us came through in bursts…..sometimes expressing like a shotgun of clarity with necessary expressions of previously suppressed resentment. Sometimes drifting in like a quiet whisper with tender vulnerability. More and more often recently there has been the recognition of this misalignment being like an undercurrent under our bond for awhile. Neither of us is wrong in this, yet rather this is the result of choosing our own self love and growth above all else.

We always held our sacred union as a moment by moment choice….not like a ‘death till us part’ vow…..not something that would bind and tie as in 3D marriages. Yet, rather we entered into each moment transacting with the bond between us that would arise to serve love to each of us…..or wouldn’t. To be in a sacred union like this is to feel always that something is ‘at stake’ even as it becomes more and more comfortable to be truly vulnerable and intimate with each other. This kind of sacred union asks you to always keep deepening the sacred union within you in order to be able to transact it with each other from a place of overflow. And sometimes, too, it also asks you to commit to that inner sacred union with complete devotion and focus for a phase of time.

I have been in an deep honoring process of our relationship as I let it go…..of the beginnings of falling in love that were held so sacredly then and all the moments since that we went full in and deep into that love. We spent nearly every moment together, especially the last years in Mexico, when our life was deconstructing and then building back up again. There was a phase of time when it was only us…..and our beginning relationship formed out of leaving a previous beloved spiritual group to choose each other. Eventually, we drew a small community of beloveds to be with us including Gabriel and Kalayna. And esp. for me, the last couple of years have been a dramatic phase of shifting focus on serving women in session space, creation and development of SoulFullHeart, and expression of revealed soul gifts.

Over and over, we have given up so much of a constructed life in order to align our lives with soul, with the Divine, and with love. So much has let go and often the only thing that remained was our bond. Our USness created a safe womb space in which to birth SoulFullHeart as a service of love offering. Raphael’s support and love and seeing of me has been so crucial/critical to my growing expression as a teacher, healer, and facilitator. And, his kingly claim of me and our relationship has allowed me to experience myself as a sacred woman TOO through our explorations into sacred sexuality together, multidimensional karmic healing of counterpart bonds, and so much more.

I have been in a grieving process too….waves of tears coming through as I remember so many moments of goodness and connection between us. Even now, tears fall as I write these words, which I knew they would. I have come to appreciate grieving though, the richness of it, the realness of it, the appreciation and gratitude that need to be there in order to truly grieve something.

Even as I grieve in moments, I can feel how love is not really ever lost. And trust is emerging out of this sense. I am also feeling excited at new senses of aliveness and curiosity about the future. Future timelines and desires are beginning to come through and it feels like will begin to manifest soon too. Raianna Shai and I will be traveling to visit, live, and serve in Europe (especially in Glastonbury, Southern France, and Corfu, Greece) and I’ll be sharing more about that as it unfolds. I’ll be continuing to offer remote and in person individual and group sessions in Victoria, BC too while I am here. Raphael is going to settle in here in Victoria and take a break from SoulFullHeart facilitation for now as all this between us reboots.

I feel appreciation for myself that I have loved with devotion such a good man as Raphael for so long and that he has chosen me for his sacred partner. What a mirror that is! To have experienced such a good will-based bond when I came from such toxic family dysfunction around relationships seems rather like a miracle.

It is a miracle. A miracle of what love offered to parts of you can offer and provide. The miracle continues and I am blessed to get to experience it and express it everyday in all of its shifting forms.

Thank you, Raphael, for everything and for what is to come too. I love you and I honor our USness so much for all it has given me even as it shifts forms into something new.

love,

Jelelle

 

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My heart is at this moment in equal parts of grief and relief. A deep awareness comes to me that one’s deepest fulfillments cannot be shorn of one’s deepest fears, smallnesses, and even resentments also coming to the surface to be be felt and loved. Myrelationship with Jelelle has been beyond my wildest dreams and even the manifestation of those wildest dreams at the same time. I am invited to continue to dream of what wants to come next however that may want to come. I wanted to share with you the completion writing I wrote to Jelelle last week. Thank you to everyone who has felt, tracked and added to our story and my story.

Dear Jelelle,

I honour every moment from the first moment you came into my conscious awareness and even the many moments prior – all of that up until this now of deep sadness and letting go – in order to let in more with you, more with love, more with the Divine, and especially more with my own inner feminine.

Thank you so very much for this journey. Thank you for this digestion and the many digestions that have led up to this point. Thank you for the oceans of the water of your heart and soul gifts that have so enriched my life. Thank you for the sun and fire of deepest connections with your body. I am forever changed. Thank you for the earth of your journey with me through place and time, through the many letting goes we experienced together, and even arriving at this place now of differences and completion. Thank you for the air of ongoing connection with you. Thank you for the Spirit of your connection to all of the Divine that has forever changed me.

The gifts of grace that enabled and called me to let you in, now strangely allow and call me to let you go, to let go of this most dear expression and phase with you of Sacred Romance, to find what lies beyond it.

You are beautiful, Jelelle, beyond compare. So much gratitude, admiration and appreciation from me and my parts to Jill, Jillian, Julian, Aurora, Mora, [Jelelle’ parts] and others for the greatest family experience I have ever known, beyond imagination. So much gratitude to every Metasoul aspect pairings of ours and what we got to feel and heal together for them and ourselves. It is hard in many moments to imagine that more lies ahead while letting go of so much.

It is dancing with all of your beauty that has awoken a call deep inside to my own feminine, she who longs for my heart and soul to be hers first. I turn to her and also to the ‘her’ heart of Mother in receiving of solace, in receiving of new direction, in allowing this alchemy of the pain of loss to be transmuted into the signature more of our relationship. This is the incredible gift our usness leaves me with, of hope in mourning, of joy in sadness, of hope in grief.

We are those two mice and this is the cheese we now nibble on – a portal into the more we so sacredly gave to one another that keeps on giving.

Much, much, much love, I love you beyond words,

Raphael

Energy Update: CME Brings In Strong Geomagnetic Storm

By Jelelle Awen
Energy update: Ready for more SOULar activations? We got some breathing space yesterday from all the cosmic/Gaia energies that came in during the last week and now we are receiving MORE. A coronal mass ejection (CME) is coming in today, March 23, causing stronger geomagnetic storms and auroras.
 
“NOAA forecasters say there is a 75% chance of geomagnetic storms on March 23rd when a coronal mass ejection (CME) is expected to sideswipe Earth’s magnetic field. Storm levels could reach category G2, which is moderately strong,” according to spaceweather.com.
 
The CME is the result of the SOULar flare that we had on March 20th that lasted for nearly an hour. The SOULar flare happened during the Supermoon Equinox gateway….offering us a powerful combination of Divine feminine and masculine energies. I wrote about that here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2019/03/21/energy-update-soular-flare-cme-supermoon-reveal-heal-karmic-polarities/
 
CMEs are more like a steady stream of energies rather than a blast experience like a flare….yet the impacts on the inner magnetics can be similar. Dizziness, lightheadedness, not feeling grounded, being ‘wired tired’, interrupted sleep patterns…all that.
 
As always, take care of YOU during these geomagnetic storms with loving attention to reactions and triggers that come up for parts of you. What energies are you surrounding yourself with and engaging with? Are they resonant or are they dissonant? Do they offer a healthy and useful mirror for you or are they repeating patterns of suffering and even abuse?
 
As our inner magnetic poles shift along with Gaia’s, dissonant and even toxic frequencies that could previously be transmuted and tolerated no longer can be as there just isn’t even charged polarity inside to match them.
 
Keep yourself in a stream of loving energies….inside with the Divine/Star Family/Higher Dimensional soul aspects….and outside in your relationships too with soul family/sacred union connections.
 
All these cosmic/Gaia energies are inviting us to feel how we no longer need to replay and draw new traumas….NOW is a time/phase to heal and transmute the previous traumas back into love again!
 
love,
Jelelle Awen
1:1 sessions available to transmute traumas into love again in order to no longer draw new ones. More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions
 
This picture was taken actually here in Victoria, BC where I am so happily learning that you can actually see auroras if you get far enough away from the city lights! Picture is Thetis Lake by Instagrammer brennan.stankoven.
Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator of SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions and group sessions (virtual and in person), events, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Solar Flare/CME & Supermoon Reveal and Heal Karmic Polarities: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (Mar 18, 2019)

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

This was a MEGA energy week of geomagnetic storms, strong SOULar winds, Schumann/Gaia frequency spikes, Supermoon occurring during the Equinox, and even SOULar flares and Coronal Mass Ejections (CMEs)! SoulFullHeart Creator/Teacher Jelelle Awen offered many energy updates to keep you current on these cosmic events and how they may be impacting you.

 

“We were receiving SUCH strong Divine Feminine codes of shadow illumination and revelation of more fear-based/karmic healing timelines with this Supermoon. She seemed to invite us to go deeper into our shadow wounds, especially those connected to the ‘opposite’ gender and our feminine/masculine relationships within and with others. She was unsentimental in this mirroring, yet loving in the space holding as we continue to process what came up.”

SoulFullHeart Facilitators (and newlyweds!) Gabriel and Kalayna Solais hosted a live stream on Wednesday, March 20th for the Equinox Supermoon where they led you in a powerful guided meditation to help call in and ground in the incoming energies from the sun and moon. They also offer a digestion of the incoming energies and what they may be pushing up for you or helping you with on your ongoing journey of transitioning to higher and higher personal timelines. Catch the recording on this week’s Museletter.

Kalayna shares a guided meditation to meet your Inner Protector, a vital and important aspect of your BEing who shifts from guard to guide as you begin to connect together.

There are several new articles and audio recordings from Gabriel, Kalayna, and Jelelle this week to take in about the incoming energies and how they may be illuminating shadow aspects for integration and healing. Along with positive messages of support and love from your Higher Self, Divine guides, and star family.

They are also event updates that will be occurring locally here in Victoria, BC including a free guided meditation circle on March 30 and an in person group session day on April 6th. For more info on these events, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

Raphael, Jelelle (for women over 30), Gabriel, and Kalayna (for women 30 and under) offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities. These sessions are available for $55 USD/$77 CAD minimum donation per session. More information can be found here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

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Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! If you’d like to receive these Museletters directly and automatically in your email every week, you can subscribe on our website at: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/writingmuseletters

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Energy Update: Solar Flare/CME & Supermoon Reveal/Heal Karmic Polarities

By Jelelle Awen

Energy UPdate: Even as the energies of the Supermoon and Her lunar gaze continues to beam bright and steady, SOULar energies are bursting into our atmospheres! Yesterday, during the EQUInox, a SOULar flare lasting more than hour burst from a new sunspot on the sun’s surface. It sent minor waves of ionization rippling through Gaia’s upper atmosphere and caused some radio brownout in some parts of Europe and all of Africa! The SOULar flare also produced a coronal mass ejection (CME) hurling into space. The energies of the CME should reach us on March 23rd with geomagnetic storms coming in as well, according to spaceweather.com.

There is much fear-based reporting about this from 3D news sources, proclaiming SOULar activity as bringing in ‘hell on earth’ and those kinds of energies. It feels rather, to those of us connected to the Ascension process, that these energies actually offer Heaven on Gaia….even as there is possibility of transitional timelines and phases that may be challenging as everything restructures.

I smiled when I took in this information today as it SO feels like energies being offered of cosmic coupling and coming into more union after so long being polarized. We were receiving SUCH strong Divine Feminine codes of shadow illumination and revelation of more fear-based/karmic healing timelines with this Supermoon. She seemed to invite us to go deeper into our shadow wounds, especially those connected to the ‘opposite’ gender and our feminine/masculine relationships within and with others. She was unsentimental in this mirroring, yet loving in the space holding as we continue to process what came up.

And the sacred masculine energies of the sun flared up and in to offer counterbalance to these feminine energies. SOULar flares are unusual right now, being in a solar minimum phase, and the timing of this one is just PERFECT. No accidents here, this is Divine alignment happening for and with us as we move into the next, accelerated phase of our ascension. This could be, yes, a precursor to the main event SOULar flare that so many feel is coming.

Aspects from other timelines (galactic, Atlantis, Egyptian, Avalon/Camelot, ‘Ancient Greece/Rome’, etc.) are coming through strong right now too as the veils continue to get thinner and thinner. Yesterday I had a powerful priestess shaman from Orion come booming into my reality, at first creating headaches for me, banging her drums to get my attention…….until I could BE with her and connect with her. These are not ‘past lives’ or just ‘guides’ or ‘negative entities’…these are so often fragments from your Metasoul (individuated soul source) that are wanting/ needing your attention in order to come into union again.

This Metasoul sister of mine is named Wooba and is in much pain of anger and resentment toward men, leader of a matriarchal society. We are already beginning to go into gift exchange together where I share my more tender heart space toward the masculine (inside and out) and she offers her shamanic gifts/powers to me. This conscious gift exchange with our Metasoul aspects is what allows for healing of karma and digestion/integration of these intense energies that come through from these often violent and troubling timelines.

Take MUCH loving care of you on all levels as these energies continue to activate, integrate, calibrate, and sometimes discombobulate….all with the purpose of returning us to wholeness again!

Here is a guided meditation to begin connection to your Metasoul through your akashic records: 

love,

Jelelle Awen

1:1 sessions available during this powerful passageway with me for women over 30….even next week still if you feel called! More info here:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

 

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator of SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions and group sessions (virtual and in person), events, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Energy Update: Powerful Supermoon Invites Us Into EQUInox From Within

By Jelelle Awen

The moon sees me and I see the moon…went to sleep by Her intense light and woke up to Her bright like a star in the sky. Our third supermoon in a row and the final one for this year, She is tucked as close as She gets to us and to Gaia. She is beaming down in MEGA style with moonbeam codes to take into our calibrating and crystalizing cells and chakras.

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This Supermoon coincides with the Equinox….bringing in spring here in the Northern Hemisphere. The Supermoon energies seem to amplify the EQUInox energies, which are quite activating usually anyway!

The EQUInox offers energies bringing us into balance…even if that means going OFF balance in order to come back to center again. OFF balance can mean letting go in order to let in, to arise our phoenix selves that are more in aligned trust with the Divine, to see and feel our shadow selves with much love…..as I wrote about yesterday.

SOULar codes are super powerful right now too….as I’ve been taking them in for hours each day since it is finally warm here. Spring! Getting tan again! Digging in the dirt for the first time in many months, I felt the sun codes on my back/face/arms/legs (Divine Father support) and Mother Gaia close again….in my hands, walking barefoot in the grass, leaning against her trees.

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I’ve been guided to eat light right now….just green smoothies and some fruit….cleaning out the body and digestive system in order to let in more love! Lots of activation and clearing of the solar plexus chakras as Divine will and personal will come into EQUInox too. Clearing of the heart and throat chakras too with galactic family support to unanchor the Inner Child from 3D living and traumas and come more into EQUInox union with star family again.

All these cosmic expansion and high vibrational energies invite OUR expansion too…into our higher timeline selves in ALL areas of life. Coming into EQUInox from within between our masculine and feminine aspects…coming into balance as we heal the polarities from within.

MANY blessings and love to you on this magical, special Supermoon EQUInox!

Love,
Jelelle Awen
Gabriel and Kalayna Solais will be offering a live stream and guided meditation to celebrate the Equinox supermoon today at 11:11am PST…I’ll be sharing it on my FB feed here so join them live or watch the recording later.

1:1 bridging sessions with women over 30 available with me, openings available next week! More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator of SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions and group sessions (virtual and in person), events, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Arising Of Our Phoenix Selves During EQUInox Passage

By Jelelle Awen

Swirling and twirling emotions as we move deeper into this EQUInox passage. Ups into bliss and Divine surrender peace and downs into agitation, anxiety, sadness. Coming into balance offers a look and feeling sense of what has been tilted, twisted, reaching, grabbing, overly needing. This passage offers a reflection of what has been overly protective masculine and suppressed feminine…..from inside and in relationships too.

This mirror is being held with SO MUCH LOVE by the Divine. I’m feeling new and richer degrees of tenderness especially from Divine Mother for those of us long on this path. In sessions, I feel especially Mother Mary coming through very often to hold and comfort the previously traumatized Inner Child. She is inviting them into Her lap to receive nurturing and understanding to heal the frequencies of abuse that they received. This is SUCH a wonderful energy to feel move through my heart space to these precious inner children that need it so much.

Divine Mother is so supportive of us as wayshowers too…..ALL we have unearthed, uncovered, led, journeyed into, healed and transformed. Even as She offers the next and the next, there is so much honored for where and who we are in this NOW. Never judgement, yet She will be unsentimental in showing what needs to be seen that is no longer serving us.

Those fires to burn it away are hotter than ever before…..with more soothing and deep calm as balm offered than ever before too.

I’m personally going through quite a passageway of transformation with significant life shiftings too that I’ll be sharing more about soon as they continue to digest and integrate inside of my heart space. There is a feeling sense of deeper self discovery, even after so many years of doing this…and a sorting out of what has been ‘me’ and what is the arising, new service-of-love me. There is moving into more self love even as the mirror of revealing what needs to be seen is stronger than ever and often offered at an awkward angle.

What has previously been able to maintain and sustain no longer seems to have the same ground that it did as it transforms, collapses, and burns away. Even the once so beloved is being outgrown as what was once a womb becomes too limiting.

THIS is a powerful time of transformation that aligns the recent surges of Gaia’s frequencies, the SOULar winds and geomagnetic storms, and the upcoming Supermoon too. Cosmic Feminine and Masculine doing what they can to template the NEW sacred human in ever more balance.

Much love to you as we transform into our Phoenix selves arising from the ashes of the old over and over anew…..

Here is a guided meditation to connect with the Divine Mother faces of Mother Mary, Magdalene, Kuan Yin, Sophia, and Dark Mother:

https://youtu.be/buMlCNQp24c

Jelelle Awen

1:1 sessions for 90 minutes over zoom for $55 USD min. donation available with me for women over 30 to feel the phoenix arising, what is next, and very important emotional digestion. More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator of SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions and group sessions (virtual and in person), events, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Picture is Phoenix – Eternal Wings ~ The Art of Kagaya

Energy Update: Significant Schumann/Gaia Spike Wave Just Moved Through

By Jelelle Awen

Energy update: What a Schumann/heartbeat of Gaia spike wave THAT was! It lasted about 24 hours starting on March 16th and peaked at 150 HZ and is finally tapering off the last few hours on March 17th. I’m not sure, but I think that is the highest spike recorded (baseline used to be 7.83 HZ)! Interestingly, the last time we had a prolonged wave like this it was one month ago on February 17th! That was also right before a Supermoon.

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Someone asked me if this rise in Gaia frequency was a good thing for us. Well, if you think about how good it feels to listen to higher frequency music and be in the ‘room’ with it….it is similar with this. The music of Gaia is rising and we get to be in the room with Her as it does.

This raises our consciousness. It also seems to help with thinning the sometimes thick veils of amnesia that can remain around processing traumas from 3D experiences this life….and from remembering other timelines/lifetimes. And from connecting to your galactic consciousness/star seed DNA/star family.

All these veils have been necessary. Until they aren’t anymore and then they become more and more permeable and porous. This is so that you can transmute the remaining traumas with lots of love. So that you can reconnect to your star family and heal the abandonment or undigested terror/fear from visitations (that felt like abductions). So that you are can heal quantum karmic binds and ties and patterns that your Metasoul is now ready to move beyond.

Gaia is our mother, so She is helping to birth the new world consciousness. Raising Her frequency in bursts like this is one of the ways that She helps us….and Herself actually. There is also star BEing help with this in the Inner Earth cities.

Grounding IN with Her can help to navigate these higher frequencies as your body adjusts to them. Interrupted sleep cycles, head/neck/shoulder pains can all be signs of adjustment and calibration. Salt baths, dips in fresh water, toes in the sand or soil, hugging trees….connecting to your root system chakra that is connected in pipeline style to Hers can all help with this.

Here is a guided meditation to activate your ascension chakras, which includes the Gaia root system one: https://youtu.be/59PdVsp0TGw

Also, here is a meditation to connect with your veil of amnesia and help to lift it more: https://youtu.be/OnJNWkzaawo

MUCH love to you as we raise our frequencies in tune to Gaia,
Jelelle Awen

1:1 healing sessions to connect with your veil of amnesia and the parts of you that are holding it/protecting it are available with me and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators. More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator of SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions and group sessions (virtual and in person), events, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

You Are Never Alone: Message From Your Higher Self, Angelic Selves, Star Being Selves

By Jelelle Awen

We know it has been hard and IS hard in so many moments. Moments where you want to give up. Moments where you want to ‘go home’. Moments where you are consumed by pain. Moments where your heart feels like it is breaking. Moments where your tears fall and sobs shake your body. Moments where the sky feels so dark and cloudy and overcast with unexpressed pains.

We feel you in this and we see you in this. We are with ALL of our hearts with you in this. It has been so hard for you at times, this journey of forgetting, this traveling road of separation. This road has many curves and dips and turns. We see all these with you, we witness how you crawl at times. How you lay at times. How you feel like giving up at times.

Yet, your heart beats on. Your desire lives on. Your need for love echoes strong inside of you. You do not give up. Your soul carries you forward.

We watch you crawl through glass at times and yet you keep going until the way is clearer. You fight your way ‘back’ to your heart over and over and then, the fight rests and you are just moving forward because it is what you are called to do on your way to remembering.

We know that you often feel like you are alone. How you feel sometimes that no one else understands and no one else gets what is happening to you and how you are changing from who you used to be. We feel for you and this struggle that you sometimes go through alone. We feel your loneliness and we ache for you in it.

Yet, this we offer……that you are NEVER alone. Your eyes may see no one else. Your heart may feel sad and alone. Your birth family might reject your changes and who you are becoming. Your friends may not come along. Your mate may not come along or get what you are awakening into. But, you are NEVER alone. As we are always with you and we will NEVER leave you.

We feel how you sometimes think you are wrong or unworthy. How you feel that the struggle and suffering are what you deserve. And we want to offer to this part of you that this is NOT the truth. You cannot do anything wrong. You cannot BE wrong. We want to offer to this part of you that you ARE worthy of love, you ARE worthy of awakening, you ARE worthy of connection.

We feel how you forget that you ARE love. You forget how you ARE infinite possibilities. You forget that you ARE infinite awareness. This forgetting was part of the process, the experiment, that we all agreed to. We are here watching over you in the forgetfulness and we feel how you ache to remember again. And, it is TIME for you to remember again.

If you are resonating with these words, then we invite you to connect with us. Reach inside for us. Find us INSIDE. You don’t have to look outside of yourself. You don’t have to look to others, unless you feel that you want and need to. You don’t have to be at a special place of attainment or have special gifts. You are special just as you are. We are RIGHT HERE inside of you, ready and so eager to connect with you.

We are the aspects of you that you feel are ‘too much’ or you have forgotten or you have disconnected from. We are the aspects of you that are from and of your soul. We are the multidimensional aspects of your BEing. We are your angel selves. We are your star BEing selves. We are your spirit guide selves. We are your Divine selves. We are your other lifetime-Metasoul selves. We are your shadow selves. We are your councils of light selves. We are your star gates inside and your portals inside and your star dust selves inside. We are your crystalline body selves and your crystalline chakras merged into one. We are your merkaba and your inner gridwork connected to Mother Gaia’s new gridwork.

Connect with us and we become you. We merge into you more and more and in that merging the feelings of loneliness, the feelings of pain, the feelings of separation, the feelings of unworthiness, the feelings of despair and suffering, the feelings of wanting to die….ALL of it can and will move with this embracement.

And someday, we will become ONE, more and more, and your sense of you will keep changing and changing until you don’t really have a sense of you anymore as you just ARE. You just ARE the Infinite Love and Possibilities and awareness that you were meant to be in human form.

We love YOU and we wait right here for you, inside you. Come and get us with an open heart and we will become one again.

Jelelle Awen
1:1 bridging sessions available with me and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators to connect with your higher dimensional aspects. More info here:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator of SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions and group sessions (virtual and in person), events, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Energy Update: Geomagnetic Unrest Offers More Need For Divine Trust

By Jelelle Awen
Energy Update: Geomagnetic unrest happening today and tomorrow as SOULar winds come into our atmosphere from the huge hole in the sun’s surface. Auroras are expected too. SOULar winds right now are creeping up and starting to accelerate, which maybe you are already feeling on physical and emotional levels? It’s like an amping UP feeling.
 
Waking up in the middle of the night and interrupted sleep/REM cycles seem to be an aspect of increased geomagnetic activity. Intense and vivid dreams as well with veils thinning overall in BIG ways lately between dimensions, timeline possibilities, and other lifetimes. So much is bleeding through and it can be overwhelming at times.
 
We are prepping already for the Equinox combined with our last Supermoon of the year happening next week. I can feel the energies building UP in swirls and gusts in a way, creating a passageway. These are big energies that can collapse current lives/relationships/careers/geographies and arise new ones.
 
Overall, there is a sense of SO MUCH trust in the Divine during this time that is available as/if you connect to it. Feeling and being with the parts of you that are in anxiety (both existential and situational) allows it to move into more Divine trust and surrender. We are going to need a strong grounding in Divine trust in the bigger picture of Ascension as more rumblings and purges and clearings happen in 3D and lower 4D realities.
 
I’ll be writing more soon about lower 4D and the ‘stickiness’ of it….how it can be challenging to rise your consciousness above it in order to offer love and compassion to the energies/aspects/beings that seem ‘stuck’ there. There can be many cycles of suffering in this stickiness sense of being attacked, being punished, things being done against your will, that there are energies that can be outside of the Divine/truly evil, etc. These feelings are actually signs of parts/soul aspects being ‘stuck’ in this hell reality that need your love and compassion.
 
As the SOULar winds blow in as prep for the coming Equinox, allow Divine trust to fill your heart and soul in the places that it can. Transmuting traumas from this life experiences and lower 4D esp experiences opens up this space to experience yourself AS love that can respond to all of it WITH LOVE.
 
Here is a guided meditation that I did offering transmutation of traumas with love: https://youtu.be/H20_fT-tKYg
 
Jelelle Awen
1:1 powerful sessions available for women over 30 with me, and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators too! More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions
Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator of SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions and group sessions (virtual and in person), events, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.
 
photo from Nasa – A Wallops Flight Facility sounding rocket team is in Alaska for a launch into an aurora.