Author: Jelelle Awen

The invasion, the confusion, the PURE obliteration of personal boundaries that is the experience of sexual abuse where another person engages in unwanted sexual activities with you. Whether as a young infant, child, teenager, or adult….whether from a woman or a man …..from a parent, grandparent, mate, or peer…….the digestion of sexual abuse is one of THE most challenging experiences to transmute from trauma-based frequencies into love again.

During the last two years especially, I have been SO honored to meet with many women during sessions who have gone through this experience and seek me out to have space holding around it. It feels like they are particularly drawn to the Divine Mother frequencies that I am blessed to have flow through me. Divine Mother (especially her Mother Mary aspect) offers MUCH needed pure tones of forgiveness, compassion, and understanding to move back into a sense of innocence around your sacred sexual expression again. As they feel this with me, they are reminded that they have this connection with Mother too and can offer a bridge to Her energies for all the precious parts of them who need it, especially their Inner Child and Inner Teenager. They can then separate from these parts of themselves who are in trauma and become their OWN spaceholders to digest the pain.

These women come often from very divergent cultures, economic statuses, and backgrounds. Yet, they are unified by this experience of sexual abuse and the VERY difficult process of accepting it as a soul’s choice. It is ultimately a soul’s choice to go through this….and it connects intimately with that soul’s purpose of serving love for themselves and for the collective too.

Sometimes the sexual abuse experiences are already conscious to them and they have engaged in years of therapeutic process around healing it already. Sometimes there are glimmers of memories that offer portal doorways to go through in order to remember more clearly what happened….after negotiation with their Inner Protector to gain access to the memories again.

Negotiation with the Inner Protector to gain access to feel the parts of you that ACTUALLY experienced the abuse is key to healing it. In sessions, we go into the experience again during a ‘dropped in’ meditative state and are with the part of you that experienced it while it is happening. We are loving witnesses to the experience, so that the part of you that experienced it can finally feel supported, protected, and safe. This sounds intense and there are often many tears that flow….yet it is all held in a safe container of MUCH love with the Divine Mother. To go into these experiences with your heart open and full with compassion for yourself allows the trauma to finally transmute and all the corresponding emotions of rage, shame, and hurt to heal too.

Sexual abuse is up right now as a healing and transformation ground for the collective consciousness as the 3D density veils of suppression and denial are dissolving. A 3D culture that long supported sexual abuse by keeping it in the shadows is now shifting to a 4D one that exposes the dark in order to bring it into the light. Higher frequency transmutation of this wound is about moving beyond women vs. men or anyone being ultimately ‘at fault’. It is about feeling deep compassion for ALL of the souls involved in these situations and understanding that their souls each had ‘roles’ to play that allow them to learn and grow. Compassionate forgiveness is a frequency that offers love ambassadorship to all involved.

Those of us who draw sexual abuse experiences this life have MANY timelines where our Metasoul sisters/brother are experiencing them and/or perpetrating them. It is a repeating karmic pattern until it is healed and transmuted and no longer ‘needed’ to be experienced by our soul. Connecting to these timelines and those experiences also helps with the digestion of this-life sexual abuse. It is very often these other timelines that are actually the root cause of the pain and suffering loops experienced in this-life. We also go into these timelines in sessions to feel and heal these timelines through connection with your Metasoul sisters/brothers who are experiencing them.

The Divine Mother offers SO MUCH love and support for the feeling, remembering, and healing of these experiences. Reach out to Her and you’ll receive infusions of the courage you need to go in and through it!