Finding Real Love When You Come Undone

Our hearts and souls are entangled. Of course they are. We are One. But I can feel deeply, and receive guidance about the nature of our entanglement. We are seeking how to authentically love ourselves as the Divine loves Itself. We have chosen Entanglement to work so many edges and polarities of the human and celestial experience.

First you come to an awareness of entanglement either with a family member, a lover, a mate, a belief system, a conditioning, an addiction, your ego, and the plethora of psychic energies and entities that exist in this multiverse. It is mind blowing the number of entanglements we have chosen to enter into in order to fully understand the nature and embodied experience of Love.

When seen from this place, the part of you that may punish you for getting into these entanglements can start to be felt for what is truly wanting and needing to be felt. It is the fear of becoming Undone. Unseen, Unloved.

Parts of us have become so accustomed to the energy of the entanglement. It actually feels like home to them. It is known and knowable even if it isn’t healthy or if it is limiting. These parts can go on ad infinitum until one day You decide You can’t. Then the unraveling begins.

The unraveling can be a scary place to be. However, it is the most real place and the most alive. In the unraveling you are held. The degree of that truth is really up to you. It does not have to be some traumatic event that takes you into an intense Dark Night experience. It can actually be held as a birth. A process over time.

The Dark Night experience is a fusion to the part/parts of you that feel separation, void, and abandonment. This is very real to them and yet can also be mid-wifed into a new reality by the You that was never entangled in the first place. Feeling that You arises simultaneously from the disentanglement. It is a sacred paradox. Your Phoenix rising.

As you allow yourself to become Undone, with love, compassion, space, and time, a magical alchemy happens from within. You feel the parts of you that have been in hiding, scared, in trauma, as well as the protected parts that are still in joy, in magic, and in love because they were sequestered and guarded by your Inner Proctector. This process of disentanglement does not start without them. Feeling their fears and concerns first and having a relationship with them is what greases those wheels.

I feel myself disentangling from others this life and other lives as well. It is an ongoing process until it isn’t anymore. No judgement, just understanding, remorse, responsibility, and compassion. Loss, grief, and fear eventually transmute into trust, self-love, and clarity. Next stop is flow, joy, and the blissful mystery. Sometimes you need help, other times you just need You.

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Photo by Heather Evans Smith
http://www.heatherevanssmith.com/

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Healing Karmic Soul Patterns W/Your Metasoul In The Quantum Field

By Jelelle Awen

Processes have been going DEEP lately, much more into the quantum space beyond where traditional therapies and spiritual practices have been able to go before. Deeper, previously more subconscious layers of wounding and traumas, layers beyond the veil, are being accessed for healing….both personally and collectively.

The quantum love field is expanding all the time to support this next level healing in response to our evolving sacred humanity. This is healing that is possible not just in your current lifetime timeline, yet in ALL of the timelines/lifetimes that your soul has been fractured into as well from the original, individuated soul source of your Metasoul/Monad.

This depth, this deep dive, becomes more possible as the trust in your soul/Higher Self grows to hold the space for it. Your soul ‘takes over’ from your analytical mind and the parts of you that may want to control and manage the process. You more and more unanchor from 3D and even lower 4D matrix reality and into the higher dimensional, quantum frequency field of your Metasoul.

Connected to this field, you don’t have to access every lifetime/timeline in order to heal it. You don’t have to ‘relive and feel’ every trauma that your soul has ever experienced in every lifetime. You don’t have to ‘regress’ into ‘past lives’ right into the most traumatic moments, which often leads to MORE trauma to process (this happens often in past life regressions & soul retrieval as well). You don’t actually need anyone else to put you in a hypnotic state either or any kind of drug or plant to access these other lifetimes. 

Quantum connection happens as you negotiate with your Gatekeeper aspect, who is guarding your veil of amnesia and the timelines/lifetimes of your Metasoul that are happening in the Now. Negotiation and connection with your Gatekeeper allows you to become conscious of the lifetimes that MOST need your attention…..the lifetimes that you’ll get the most ‘bang for your buck’ if you access them. The lifetimes that are most vibrating in fear, pain and trauma (usually associated with killing frequencies). The lifetimes that offer the most reward and gifts if you heal them. 

As you ‘drop into’ and travel to those lifetimes with your Gatekeeper, you are meeting/connecting with your Metasoul sister/brother that is living in them. You form an ongoing relationship with the Metas sister/brother, just like having a bond with a sibling. In this ongoing connection, you exchange soul gifts with each other, you help them heal from traumas experienced in their lifetime, you are able to identify and see karmic soul patterns too. You support them to make more self loving and empowered choices that actually CHANGE the outcome of their timeline from tragic to redemptive. This then changes YOUR lifetime too as you gain access to more of your Metasoul’s pure frequencies.

As you engage in this work with your Metasoul brother/sisters in other lifetimes, you are actually able to identify and then complete karmic soul patterns and themes. This means that you NO LONGER need to incarnate as a soul into 3D and lower 4D timelines to play them out in order to heal them. I’ve been offered that many of us choose to come into this current timeline during Ascension in order to have this opportunity to no longer incarnate into denser realties. In this way, it may be our ‘last’ time of choosing this.

I am seeing this capacity to identify, dive into, and heal karmic patterns in sessions with women that I’ve been working with for longer term now and on a regular basis (weekly or bi-weekly). In the consistent space holding for the SoulFullHeart process, the Inner Protector and Gatekeeper is able to start relaxing and resting more. I feel the SoulFullHeart process and approach to karmic healing is completely unique, powerful, and held with a loving and collaborative energy WITH you.

I highly recommend beginning 1:1 sessions on a regular basis with a SoulFullHeart Facilitator if you are drawn to the kind of quantum healing opportunity that I am sharing about here. SoulFullHeart Facilitators Raphael Awen, Gabriel Heartman, and Kalayna Solais all have space in their schedules and a deep desire to work with new clients. They are currently offering a free 30-45 minute intro call over Zoom to answer any of your questions about the process, etc. More info here about that: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Love is holding the space for the completion of karmic, suffering cycles. Now is the time to experience the power of what love can heal!

There is more in this video about Metasoul timeline portal access and healing with teaching and guided meditation with me: https://youtu.be/9jWgpQbXTZo

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

 

Energy Update: 9/9/9 Portal Opens Up Access To Lower 4D Matrix/Karmic Healing/Metasoul Timelines

By Jelelle Awen

Energy UPdate: We are in the midst of the 9/9/9 portal that opened it feels like on 9/8 and  continues now for the next nine days until 9/18. Being in the ‘midst’ can feel like a swirl and a twirl….a sense that you are in the middle of a process that you may only be somewhat aware of on a conscious level. The nine energy often feels like a completion that is happening at the same time as the New energies are coming in.

It feels to me like much more upgrading, activating, and rewiring is going on beyond our minds, beyond our consciousness, beyond our this-life human body structure than we can possible understand right now. This can actually bring a lot of comfort as you lean into your own soul (or Metasoul as I call it, your individuated soul consciousness or also called Monad.) Your Metasoul/Monad has immense intelligence and access….it as close to Divine source as can be and still be individuated.

Your Metasoul holds and contains the experiences of ALL the expressions of its fractals projected out into numerous lifetimes and timelines. All of these projections are happening in a simultaneous moment in the Now and ongoingly. This is not ‘past life’ at all or ‘ancient’ or ‘from another era’.

This 9/9/9 portal is offering a feeling sense of the multidimensional frequencies of our Metasoul beyond the linear structure that the 3D mind has placed it in. These simultaneous and parallel timelines are hugely influential to our current life experiences. They are often the source and root cause of the emotional reactions, triggers and even the situations themselves being drawn to you.

The recapitulation of soul themes and therefore the healing of them is the underlying REASON for WHY your soul has set up what it has for you to experience this life. Every choice seems to pivot on this existential context of the Metasoul’s healing, which ultimately connects to collective unconsciousness healing as well. Healing of the duality/polarity experiment back to Oneness.

Conscious healing of these timelines and lifetimes is a crucial phase in our ongoing Ascension process. We now have the opportunity to heal karmic patterns that our Metasouls have been playing out for infinity. We truly can complete the need to incarnate into 3D and lower 4D timelines at all anymore if we don’t want to or need to. We can truly end the suffering of repeated traumatic and traumatizing situations in all their different forms and expressions.

Understanding how the Lower 4D Matrix holds and contains these karmic patterns, archetypal energies, and the collective unconsciousness can be an important step in the process. Unplugging from the Lower 4D Matrix is to become aware of your soul themes and patterns and HOW they express and play out in your current lifetime.

This happens as you create a loving and understanding relationship with your Metasoul aspects/fractals from other lifetimes. Not just as a ‘past life’ of yours that you drop into the trauma of in a one-time regression, yet as living, breathing, and very often important energies and personalities that you need just as they need you. The gift exchange between these soul aspects of yours can be huge as they are often anchored into and expressing many soul gifts even as they are experiencing patterns of persecution, suppression, etc.

The key to accessing the Lower 4D Matrix and lifting the veil to get access to your own Metasoul happens as you connect with your Gatekeeper. This is an aspect that we have worked with for many years in our SoulFullHeart process, who seems to be the aspect of the Metasoul that is in charge of the veil of amnesia. Getting to know your Gatekeeper opens up access to these other lifetimes in a way that is self loving at a negotiated rate and pace that you and your Metas can both benefit from. The Gatekeeper opens the doors, lifts the veils, and allows free flow remembrance of ALL lifetimes.

These powerful portals like 9/9 offer huge opportunities for this kind of karmic healing. We scheduled a group transmission over zoom to activate 4D Matrix/Karmic Healing for you on Saturday, September 14th. We didn’t consciously realize it was during this portal (obviously our Higher Selves knew!) You can join Raphael and I live for two hours starting at 10:00am PDT (Vancouver, Canada time) or receive the recording afterwards for $15 CAD ($11 USD). There is more info here: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/product-page/6-4d-matrix-karmic-healing-group-transmission-jelelle-and-raphael-awen

Now is the time for transmutational healing that goes beyond just your current life and impacts your entire soul’s trajectory and ‘history’ as well. Now is the time for healing that hasn’t been possible before! Now is the time to bring love to all the aspects of your self and soul that need it in order to more deeply embody your sacred humanity!

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Here is a guided meditation to connect to your Metasoul and your akashic records (a portal to lifting the veil):

https://youtu.be/QOlBc-3-TEg

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Energy Update: Geostorms Heighten Emotional/Spiritual/Physical States

By Jelelle Awen

For the third day in a row (September 2), Gaia has been inside a stream of high speed solar wind coming from a ‘hole to make us whole’ on the sun’s surface. Episodes of G2-class storming have brought in Auroras/Northern Lights in the U.S. as far south as Wisconsin, Michigan, and Montana. The wind speeds have been hovering around 700 km/sec during these last three days as well, with the ‘average’ being in the 300 km/sec range, according to spaceweather.com.

These kinds of speeds are difficult for us to even comprehend and, sometimes, the connection to these ‘far off’ cosmic events can feel distant from our everyday lives. I have been guided to offer a bridge to these celestial occurrences to what you might be experiencing on emotional/physical/mental/spiritual levels. This bridge allows us to feel how our inner cosmos is inherently connected to the outer cosmos….the Universe lives inside of our every cell…..As above, so below.

August was a HIGHLY catalytic month of energies with Lion’s Gate providing a ‘direct line’ to higher frequencies of soul clarity, higher dimensional aspect embodiment/connection, activation of Ascension chakras and our light bodies. There was a sense of revelation and unveiling of your higher timeline life and self. There were tastes of this ‘reality’ coming through in new synchs, connections inner and outer, and opportunities. Along with this, there were realizations of where you are now, what worlds you are navigating between, and what your transition may look and feel like into your higher timeline.

Moving now into September and with these SOULar winds, there is a feeling sense of taking action and making choices based on that higher timeline. Making the outer choices unfolds from the inner realities shifting. Making the CHOICE to change unfolds organically as you feel inside a dethawing from 3D birth family conditioning, unplugging from the 3D/Lower 4D Matrix, healing from karmic bind cycles that keep you looping in suffering and understanding/exploring bleed-throughs from other timelines.

Feeling through these things can be quite challenging at times. Feelings of not wanting to be here anymore, giving up, hopelessnesses, distrust/mistrust, isolation/loneliness, just FEAR can come up as parts of you let go of the previous configurations. Working with and connecting to these parts of you directly and consciously allows space to be held WITH them in this process. If you just ‘become’ their feelings of despair and loneliness, it can quite overwhelming. There is no one ‘home’ then to keep these parts of you company as they let go of the only safety lines they’ve ever known (no matter how toxic these ‘safety lines’ are, especially in the form of relationships.)

Everything is being heightened with these energies coming in now in 2019…preparing us to move into a higher frequency experience of ourselves and all of life in 2020. Feelings that have been more in shadow, subconscious, or deemed not ‘socially acceptable’ such as rage, shame, resentment are coming UP now to be felt, embraced, and to ultimately allow for understanding the reasons WHY they are there. All feelings and emotional states exist for a reason inside of us. They are the result of wounding from traumas experienced this life and other lifetimes.

As feeling and emotional states are being heightened, also are karmic frequencies and traumas from other timelines/lifetimes (especially those in more 4D frequencies.) Timelines such as Atlantis and Lemuria during the Fall; ‘Ancient Egypt’; Avalon/Camelot; the Essences, etc. are all coming through to be felt and healed by us. Connecting directly with the Metasoul aspect/fragment that is experiencing these timelines and their pain helps to move it, heal it. Differentiating what you are experiencing that is actually coming from another timeline can be really helpful.

Our physical bodies are feeling the impact too, as what is denser in our cellular memory, in our ‘diets/ways of life’ are wanting to be detoxed out through self loving practices. This may be causing more physical discomfort for you, flare up/heightening of chronic conditions in your body. Our bodies are wanting to unanchor too from the denser conditionings of 3D, from digesting toxic energies in our foods. Their higher timeline expression is as a vital, healthy, moving into immortality light bodies, serving as our vibrant merkabahs, providing multidimensional travel.

My 33 Day series called Deepen offers teachings and guided meditations to meet parts of your 3D self, work with your Ascension chakras and light body, and also your Gatekeeper, who opens up access to your Metasoul and timelines/lifetimes that need your love and integration. https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvLiLpw1qSOmQE-tsqhGSAD3

These recent SOULar winds invite ongoing digestion, detox, and eventually action. They remind you of the power of your own capacity to gust and to storm….even as your stillness center is watered too by loving energies available from the Divine Mother. You can express full range of your BEing as you love, acknowledge, and integrate ALL aspects of yourself in this Now and ongoingly.

Join Raphael and I next Saturday, September 14th for our monthly group transmission over zoom, starting at 10:00am PDT. We will teach about and guide you in a meditative space in which you can connect to your Gatekeeper aspect, visit the Lower 4D Matrix, begin the process of unplugging from it, and learn how to open up portals to other lifetimes/timelines that need karmic healing. More info to join us for a $15 CAD donation here: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/product-page/6-4d-matrix-karmic-healing-group-transmission-jelelle-and-raphael-awen

Much love,

Jelelle

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Photo taken by Mike White on September 1, 2019 @ Port Hills, Christchurch, New Zealand

Bridging Polarity In Service Of Love

We exist in a polarized dimension. It is not our essence to be fragmented into this and that, yet here we are. It was Divine choice and will to do so. To be so. When we lost the remembrance of that, it was like a babe being lost in the woods coming out of a dream. We saw and felt separateness in our most primal state. So we constructed, suppressed, and experimented with power in order to shore up the fear of that existential and sacred wound.

Timelines and worlds have been created and destroyed in this grand game of hide-and-seek. Seems almost a cruel joke on some level, yet the pain and suffering were the risks inherent in this desire to truly know and experience Love. The Divine has never been complacent to that fact in my heartfelt opinion.

So then what is the purpose of this trauma? This seemingly tragic consequence of the human condition. For those that have faced it heart-on, there is an awareness of this power of Love that goes beyond words and takes you into a dimension of reverence, strength, and awe that was unknown in Its singular state.

We are all a part of that Grand Choice if you truly believe we are a part of this Grand Design. The two cannot be separate, paradoxically enough. So in this way, we have a huge part in this experiment of experience. We feel. We ache. We cry. We scream. We choose. We surrender.

We become aware of this polarity inside as aspects and parts and we build bridges between them. We become aware of their stories, their experiences, their beliefs. From the wounded child/teenager to the fallen kings and queens of our multidimensional timelines. You are this kaleidoscopic tapestry of being that is the seed and vessel of the Cosmos. You are the lightship of leadership that can take us into the New.

This comes with a great price to parts of us that are seeking safety and/or control. There is pain to feel and responsibility to assume, but that is what leads to the greatest and deepest gift that lives within each of us. The power to feel and spread Love as far as the Soul can see.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Photo by Victorien Ameline on Unsplash

11:11 Portal Awakenings To Serve Love

By Jelelle Awen
Moving forward toward the 11:11 portal on Sunday…it’s getting closer now. The number 11 is a master number……inviting us into deeper levels of embracement of our intuition, awakening, and soul gifts. If you see 11:11 and 1:11 appearing in many ways and forms, it can be a code from your Higher Self to activate your next level awakening. It can be a signal from your Star Family that a deeper connection with them is going to be nourishing and available to you. It can be a waveform from the Divine reminding you of your essence as Infinite Love.
 
The energies over the last month feel like they have been preparing us for the movement toward this ‘next level’ portal of ascension personally and collectively. The more consistent waves of spiked frequencies in Gaia’s resonance are moving Her vibration UP as bridge for us to elevate our own as well. Serving as a kind of ramp up before 11:11. SOULar winds and geostorms are coming in at regular intervals now too….sacred masculine and feminine codes bringing us into more balance and less polarity.
 
This is a time of feeling the karmic fears that live in your Metasoul about moving into expression of your soul gifts in order to serve love. There are experiences of persecution for expressing your soul gifts from often many timelines that need digestion and integration. I see this many times in sessions as the feelings of wanting to hide, retract, and remain invisible in this life are pointing to these deeper traumas on the soul level. These soul traumas are capitulated in this-life experiences of rejection, misunderstanding, and criticism…..especially from birth family and previous social circles.
 
11:11 is an invitation to FEEL and HEAL these traumas, especially the ones that ‘ended’ in violent death. Connecting with your Metasoul aspect that is LIVING OUT these scenes in real time (not as the ‘past’) can really help to transmute and release these frequencies. The fear that was previously stuck and vibrating strongly can then shift into love again and self empowerment. The gifts that this previously traumatized Metasoul sister or brother has for you can then flood into your soul space again…lighting up YOUR gifts and providing courage and bravery for the expression of what you are here to offer.
 
This is an momentous time that so many souls who have been awakening and ‘working on themselves’ for a long time are being invited (we could say ‘pressed) to start serving love in whatever ways that means for them. Time to start SHARING from their ever healing and expanding out heart space. Many of those who will be newly awakening very soon will definitely need the bridge provided by you as parts of them struggle with cognitive dissonance, deep despair, and confusion as the 3D culture moves into more collapse. 
 
The veils are thinner than ever before to allow for this clearer seeing and remembering of these other timelines. 11:11 offers next level inner connection, star family connection, Divine connection in order to connect with others in a flow that is not about self sacrifice yet rather serves BOTH in the giving and the receiving!
 
Raphael Awen and I will be holding a livestream Q & A and guided meditation on Sunday, November 11th at 11:11am PST (Vancouver, Canada time) on FB https://www.facebook.com/jelelleawen…join us with your questions and comments, plus the recording will be available on my feed afterwards.
 
Jelelle Awen
1:1 galactic activation, bridging, and ongoing sessions are available with me for $55 USD min. donation for 90 minutes! More information here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions
Jelelle Awen is a Parts Work/Metasoul & Galactic Aspects/Sacred Union Teacher & Facilitator, and Ascension Guide. She is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life awakening/healing process and community. She has written four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about galactic activation, bridging and ongoing individual/group sessions over zoom with her and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators with men and women, videos, books, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Your Caravan Of Love Awaits

I see a vision of an etheric caravan. One in which our integrating selves are crossing a Rubicon into a new timeline. A New Earth. While there are thousands of souls that are seeking something new outside of their current home, the same could be said from within each of us. There is a desire for a brighter future, a brighter Now. They are the hidden, veiled, and wounded parts of us that are seeking asylum in the heart of our Higher Self, our closet connection to the Divine that we are currently aware of.

If we ignore this inner migration of Self-union, then we are still in a polarized state. We are still in separation and dissonance. We are scattered and confused. To open the doors of your heart you invite all the aspects of you that are judged as Unwanted. Untrustworthy. Misunderstood. They live in timelines and emotional geographies that are hard to accept as a part of you. Yet there they are. Inextricably connected to you for they are you.

As the continued external energies bear down and shift UP, the inner disclosure of your shadow will be illuminated and exposed. This can be a difficult time for those that have not chosen to do the inner work that is needed to heal and glean from all that has been shielded from our consciousness. It may begin to show up as emotional and physical symptoms. This is the march of your inner caravan making itself known even as they are not even sure how to digest what is going on.

Checking in with our inner world IS the work. It is the most important thing we can all be doing. This can be such a hard thing to do when we are inundated with images and energy. It is sad and triggering. It stirs the collective pot and yet there it is for us to bear a heart witness to. We all have a part to play in these world events. Coming from our healed hearts and clear minds we can make a difference, and a home, for all the lives that live inside each one of us. This is where Love can flow from purely and do its Divine Work.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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The Subtle Consciousness Of Our Resistance To Love

Shades drawn. That is what it has felt like for a part of me the past week or so. A lot of preparing and doing during this timeline shift. It is an arrival of something longed for yet something difficult to let in. A part of me choking on goodness, love, and joy. The fear of losing this Garden of Eden, this Paradise once again. So the fear projects. It searches for what could happen to be denied and rejected. This creates its own loop and illuminates another place in my soul to explore. To invite into a relationship with myself and Love. But it does struggle to let that in. To trust it all.

As each of us takes on this journey of deep soul healing, challenges come right at the point of actually getting what you have always wanted. This is where, for some of us, the value of our Being comes into full view. It is a subtle consciousness that can take down all that has been strived for and desired. The collapse of a relationship, the rejection of a soul gift, or the judgment of our most vulnerable intentions. Our worth, our power, our deepest treasures are tender things that are fiercely guarded and protected, even to the point of not having them at all.

So it is this time when we go into the recess of our deepest fears and regrets to find that subtle consciousness within and connect. Listen. Hold. Sometimes you go off radar to the outside in order to catch the nuances of this energy. But it is important to not disappear, as easy as that can be at times. I have had to do that with this aspect of me. It is used to being in hiding. In the shadow. And being so close to my inner treasure, it has been very protective and guarded. All for very good reasons that I hold with compassion.

This is part of my healing. My growth. My own self-love realization that I am a gift to myself and the world. That I have edges, shadows, and fears. But the most important thing for these parts of me to feel is that they are not alone, nor forsaken. But rather whole and forgiven.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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The Burning Illumination Of Our Collective Shadow

I have been following the latest drama unfolding in the US around the Supreme Court nomination. When I used to go into these stories I had something inside of me that wanted to get to the truth. Who was ‘right’ and who was ‘wrong’. I felt my own suck into the density of anger, fight, righteousness, and principle. Us vs. Them.

These days I feel a desire to step back and just feel what is at play here in the heart and soul of humanity. While I get there is a charade going on in many ways, there is also something very real. Affecting real people. Yes, there are forces on high that are stoking these fires. But maybe these fires are here to get us to see something about ourselves as a culture. As a group of souls that are acting out a greater drama within each of us.

There is a patriarchal consciousness that is feeling an encroachment on its position of power. A lash out against any claim of inexcusable and threatening behavior, no matter what level of truth there may be to it. The burning fires of our collective ‘past’ still live within us. We hold those in our psychic memory. We are the actors, conscious or not, of our soul’s karmic echoes.

There is a sensitivity to this inside of us of all that we hold in the collective. Women feeling/being persecuted by men/society, men feeling/being unjustly accused by women/society. The privileged against the other 99%. The seats of power using all they can to create division, conflict, and doubt. This whole episode clearly illuminates all that is needing healing within each of us. The body politic can be a brutal mirror of what we need to see and feel.

There is a sadness that comes over me when I feel this in my heart. There are people whose lives are being turned upside down and inside out, but it is also what they have chosen on some deep level. To be the actors upon this stage that serves as a Shakespearean reflection of the misplacement of our goodness, respect, and honesty. The heart of a nation is on fire and this event is a symbol of the rising smoke.

I don’t feel to weigh in on what ‘side’ I am on. I am on the side of Love if there is to be one. Maybe it is love that is illuminating this one for us all to see. Maybe it is Love that is the fire itself. The idea of ‘justice’ is being highlighted and what it truly means to each and every one of us, both man and woman. We all have a relationship to it that goes far deeper than what we may fully understand and it is seeking its resolution sooner rather than later.

For me, it is a time of feeling the conflict within, holding my center in Love and as Love. That I believe is what is being asked of us. The fate of a nation lies not in the outcome of a committee but of the desire and choice of each to heal the pain that it reflects within.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Timelines Bleeding Through

By Jelelle Awen

Timelines merging, veil is SO thin, and what has been called ‘past lives’ is NOT past, yet these energies are in the now. There is so much bleed through right now of other lifetimes that then triggers our emotional body reactivity and ‘hidden’ woundings. It creates a ricochet effect that can be confusing and intense.

These eras and legacies and civilizations (Atlantis, Lemuria, Avalon, ‘Ancient’ Egypt, Greece, and Rome, etc.) are energizing and ALIVE in the now. The mind (and part of you) might want to make them the ‘past’ so that they don’t have as much impact and influence as they actually seem to on your experience of reality and your emotional reactivity and outward manifestation.

Our definition of what is ‘real’ and ‘reality’ is being hugely altered, shifted, and turning upside down from what 3D has said and taught that it is. Our hearts ‘get’ it as they are not linear and they feel every moment as the now….they get stuck sometimes in a moment or scene and need us to help them move beyond it again, to become fluid again…to free up the flow of love, compassion, gratitude, and goodness. Our hearts are what is needed in this now, with so much crazy making (this is a TRUE mind fu*k! reality) realigning of our realities.

Energies of all these timelines are coming in and offering us a storyline to go down that comes alive with our openness to feel and heal it with the aspects of us that are living it out. Sorting through what is what through the terrain of the heart with the higher mind helping too (yes, I believe there is a higher vibrational frequency of thought and that the mind is not bad, just can vibrate at different levels of consciousness). This can be a tricky process with self love and compassion AND need for some separation from the Metasoul aspect living in the timeline needed to hold the space.

This can feel like a ‘soup’ to navigate yet the process of parts work and metasoul aspects helps in such a huge way. It provides a life line and a heart line too….and a soul line too actually. It provides a reminder of the soul’s choice in this life situations to recapitulate traumas that need healing.

Be open right now to what has previously been labeled as ‘impossible.’ Be open to letting in energies of what you may have felt were not ‘relevant’ or ‘in the past’. Open your heart to all the aspects that need you…..even if (and especially if) they exist in another timeline.

As you are open to this and curious, you become more able to ride the waves, experience the gift of them, and integrate it ALL into your wholeness expression as Divine Love!

Read more about parts work process and metasoul aspects here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

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Jelelle Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.com
We offer individual, couples, and group sessions, support and heart/soul/life lines as YOU navigate this sacred process with parts of yourself through bridging and ongoing individual and group sessions, plus retreats : soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions