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Leaving Home

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By Raphael Awen

Home is a frequency.

Part of the ache for home is a residual homing instinct drawing you back to your true home.

You left a home, that like any other home, you, we, all had normalized and taken for granted.

We knew we were more wanting and waiting to happen. We knew our parents were silently counting on us to reach out for that more, just as they had reached for their more, the baton being passed to us.

We entered less while remaining in possession of all. The less we entered was only in regard to the awareness of our grandeur, rather than any lessening of our true essence. We needed a place that felt not-grand from which to be re-membered with our grandeur, and in that process to be transmuted yet further into new beyonds.

There wasn’t sufficient duality to provide this necessary sense of loss that we needed to experience movement in our previous domain of home.

The depression or anxiety or rage that you feel, or any other so called ‘negative’ emotion are all emissions of this home frequency drawing you back home. We’ve resisted these emotions and drugged them down in so many ways because at core, we are afraid of losing these anchors to the 3rd dimension.

We long for our ultimate home, but one of the deepest expressions of that missing and longing is to attach to a present home. We fear letting something so catastrophic as the feeling of losing home happen to us again. We are still digesting the choice we made to strike out on our own journey to leave home, venturing into more godhood. We were not willing to skip over any feeling as feeling we knew was mission critical.

If you live in the forest, you build your home out of wood. We found ourselves in the land of loss, and so we have, quite magically actually, built our home out of the abundant commodities of anxiety and depression, and fear. It’s admittedly not the greatest, but it is home, and it is familiar, and from here, we are invited to feel.

Who would have guessed though that our enduring essence would call to us from any home we crafted in any place in this domain of lesser?

We knew our essence was immutable. We knew our sovereignty was indisputable. We knew our infallibility was a given, so we chose to fall into forgetting all that. Our fall from grace was and is a fall into the grace we were, but needed to escape to have the experience of leaving and returning.

We left in order to enter.

Without this journey, we couldn’t know the deeper depths of what we were and are.

This is the true construct of the time zone; a place to have expanded out feelings of awareness, this journey, measured out in days.

Our consciousness is programmed securely to come back to full rememberance. Not only that (magical as that is), we are also programmed to return home to becoming even so much more, that we of course can’t see or know until we can.

In our previous bliss, we normalized that experience. It became old. The looks on our faces became predictable and all too familiar. This normalizing tendency is what we might call a downside of individuated consciousness. As individuated consciousness, our assignment is to experience experience itself and report back to essence on what that feels like. We’re creating a central bank (of the non corrupt variety) of these feeling deposits as a cosmic fuel tank to take us deeper into exploring the essence of what we actually are.

So now you see how your everyday familiar feelings of your life as you currently know it, having normalized the magical into the mundane, is a clarion call to awaken to deeper feelings of who and what you really are. This is tuning in your home frequency.

You feeling more expansive feelings of remembering who you really are is the mission. That mission is the great quantum gift to all. Feel that today, as deeply as you can, and then put your feet up! You’ve just changed the whole world. You’ll be ready for more tomorrow.

We are taking our time, literally using up all the time in the world, to decide if and when we are ready… ready to tune in more of this homing frequency of home, returning to not only the home we once knew, but one so much more.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about Weekly Sessions, Live Streams, Videos, and Community.

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Turbocharged Awakening

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If you pause for any moment you wish to and feel how you both will have and actually do have everything you could ever desire, this changes the you in the moment who feels the absence and longing of these things.

This is a big one!

I was offering someone in session who came to me for help with a battle with a longstanding and intense sexual addiction. I was intuitively given a fore-feeling of his total and complete liberation from this challenge, where I felt the funny feeling of him in his life without this orientation to life and I shared that with him. There was a feeling of him now very free, but faced with definite new challenges of growth in the absence of this defining life long addiction. I offered him the magic of an ongoing path to more self discovery process to live his way into that relief and the growth….he had deep tears, and then, I never heard from him again!

My sense is that, for many, actually having the conscious thing that you long for is something that other unconscious parts of us can actually resist having intensely. There’s more work to do to be able, or to be ready, to let in a next phase of experience that our Higher Self has on our agenda.

The longing and desire is very important though as it is a signpost pointing to and energizing our future, and to the work before us.

I’m currently longing for more 5D experience. I’m feeling very ready on one level for more telepathy, teleportation, telekinesis, those are all very cool for sure. I think what I’d like even more though at the moment is a deepening experience of anything that I set out to do as work being deeper and deeper play, with more reverence and wonder. Being in child’s mind state asking who?, what?, when?, why? where? and how? all looks really good to me too, as I explore new dimensions of my galactic selves, my star-being reality, new pleasures in service to others, as I get to know and connect with beings in the Now who are from my metasoul family.

Whatever you and I might be longing for, especially if it’s to be free of something, like a chronic soul pain or way of relating to life that is limiting daily life and experience, if you can dial in this vision of yourself completely free of that reality, as a bi-location exercise, you will greatly aid the movement in that direction you desire.

This takes into account that you already have it and that you don’t. Both realities are true, and thank god, because this is where all adventure and movement comes from. You didn’t come here to be stuck in the stasis of addiction, or despair, but neither did you come here to be stuck in a love and light bliss bubble either!

You came here for experience that you couldn’t have were it not for the magic of polarity. Your suffering is actually a gas tank, and the propulsion engine that draws from this gas tank is your choice and intention. Without choice and intention, we could say, you are dead in the water, but that wouldn’t be accurate as there really isn’t any death, there is only times of incubating and composting new intention and choice points. It’s always movement, even if it seems infinitesimally slow. Even the man I mentioned above not hearing back from is receiving what he needs perfectly according to his own Higher Self’s path.

The movements we seek then and the work we have to embrace is about finding and feeling the inner resistances we also have inside of us towards the consciously desired thing. These resistances are always held by parts of ourselves, in my truth, leaving the responsibility and empowerment always with us. Yes, we may have been deeply victimized in life experience, even as a dependent child, with that victimized child still being alive and well within us, but at the same time, an arising adult self is being called to show up to take full responsibility. Talk about an anti-gravity device! You are a victim and you are NOT!

The parts of ourselves that need to be felt and reached and given a digestion of the traumas they hold are very reachable, with intention, with a guide, in your life as you currently know it, with a process like the one we offer through SoulFullHeart….

SoulFullHeart is a turbocharged simulation of the process of life itself, where intention and process can unfold on a much quicker timeline for people of their Higher Selves agenda for those souls for whom it feels like a fit for.

If my offer just now feels like a choice point for you to explore, I’m ready for a next step if you are. We offer a free intro session into an ongoing weekly process that requires an intention of time and money, that templates a new way of relating to life as well as a practice ground to live that out relationally. Please read more about this at http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions and when you’re ready, I look forward to hearing from you.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about Weekly Sessions, Live Streams, Videos, and Community.

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11/11 Activations & Integrations Guided Meditation And Teachings (Video) – W/Metatron & Mother Mary

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Feeling full and satisfied, like after eating a hearty and nourishing meal!! Thank you to ALL the souls who joined us live for the 11/11 group call today and those who donated to receive the full recording…this was our biggest group call yet! We so appreciated those of you who showed up with your intentions to learn, to share, to grow, to heal….and to BE in the space with us on this high energy day.

This is the audio recording portion of the group call below, the teachings and the guided meditation with the personal sharings edited out for privacy. Our teachings were about the 11/11 energies and how they may be impacting you on different levels – emotional, physical, spiritual/chakral, and social…from our unique SoulFullHeart perspective connecting back to parts work. The energies during the guided meditation with Raphael Awen and I (with help from Archangel Metatron and Mother Mary) were strong, yet very grounding…heart based and meaningful, at least as they moved through! Listening to it should help with activation and letting in/receiving of the codes available today and ongoingly too. We also guide you in a scrying or clairvoyantly seeing process to receive visions of your highest timeline or whatever you need to see as offered by the 11/11 portal. The guided meditation starts at 40 minutes if you want to go directly to that.

Our next group call is on Saturday, December 9th with more info. about it coming soon on Facebook and on our website.

Enjoy the rest of this ‘day’, this moment in the now, and the ongoing journey into our arising into sacred humanity!  

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond.

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Letting Go In Order To Have

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Try as I would, quite a number of years ago now, I would often fall asleep watching movies with my ex-wife and 2 daughters. I wanted to be there for sure, but other parts of me were deep into other life content. ‘I’ had the cover of just being sleepy on a tummy full of pizza after a long day’s work, and would do the all too familiar drift off on the couch, until I heard the ‘Just go to bed, Dad’.

We are collectively at a similar place in the narrative right now, except the movie is being played out in real life, kinda like live streaming. Many are asleep and just can’t wake up, and I would say, that even though that is disappointing and even tragic to those of us who are awake, it feels like them remaining asleep is what is meant to be, by their higher selves.

Not all of consciousness needs to be awake at the same time for the awakening to occur. It feels more like some of us need to be asleep for the awakening to occur as those that are asleep anchor another polarity aspect of the collective movement. We are all in this together at a higher level achieving the same thing, for the one being that we are.

It’s distressing to us when we feel a distance creep in though between us and our loved ones when we can’t enjoy or be moved by the same movie, now finding ourselves even taking roles within a larger real life story that are ‘against’ one another.

In my awakening and the underlying anxiety of awakening first and losing connection with family and friends, I found myself trying to embody being the best example for them, which worked for a time, giving part of me a sense of mission and purpose playing the ‘being the largest soul in the room’ game. Eventually though, I reached the edges of the no-go boundaries as I pressed against the Christian fundamentals we were all apart of. Here, my friends and family were clearly faced with a loyalty to Jesus and God, vs a loyalty to me. It’s quite a pretzel for a family to go through and it was a slow moving unexpected cataclysm for all of us in many ways. They advocated for a ‘let’s just agree on what we do agree on’ kind of stance, while also being unwilling to talk openly about how they felt I was deceived. I eventually dropped my end of the rope though in this conflict realizing a couple things. One was that I could no longer be in relationships with people who held both love for me along with hidden disdain for me, as I was finding and feeling the parts of myself that had disdain for each other, and coming to deep personal self love reconciliation. The other realization was about how my tugging on friends and family when they were resistant to me was another unhealthy recapitulation of ‘making do with crumbs’ when life was offering me a full meal.

Choosing yourself at these junctures of life changes the timelines and trajectories of your life big time. It also undermines some of our deepest existential securities, or insecurities rather, about family ‘always being there for you’. I personally have sons in laws and grandchildren I haven’t met because of the playouts of these choices. The pain of that has been processed and felt at the time of the choice and it now actually lives in me as my highest love gift to myself, them and the universe to be living a separated timeline and having no contact while we are living planets apart in values and belief systems. To be shrinking in a patched together pretense of harmony, with underlying and unprocessed disdain would only be something that could work for me if it was an outer reflection of an inner reality. If you change the inside, you will naturally come to mirror that change outside in life as all of this has a one to one correlation, inviting you to choice points to be able to go on to your next growth points.

This is the real life movie, where the price of admission is your life as you currently know it, negotiated out one self loving step at a time, but costly nonetheless. It’s costly because you are, as Jesus spoke to in a parable, selling all that you have to purchase the pearl of great price, that you surprisingly stumbled upon. You are leaving one cult in favour of another. You’re switching theatres mid movie. You are choosing your higher timeline. The price of admission is now seen as small having seen what the new story is about that life and you are admitting yourself into.

If you can’t see it this way, it may well be that you aren’t meant to. None of us are until we are, and god forbid that we would arrive at any such choice point before being readied for it to ample degree to be able to walk it out. Togetherness or integrity requires for you to live in deepest conscious alignment with your deepest values and beliefs, and anyone trying to tug on you to see otherwise is either wasting their time or just being abusive from the ground of their own insecurities. ‘They’, the ones you are letting go, need this as much as you do. Peace comes when a self permission and respect extends from your own insides, the kind you have ‘you to you’ that then extends to others along with your boundary of what you cannot be a part of any longer. A new alignment of sovereignty occurs where family members go on accepting this as a co-created reality.

There isn’t any way you living into your bigness won’t present you with painful choice points, but my truth is opting for the new and larger pair of shoes, will alleviate a lot more pain in the end. Resisting your own growth is the deeper ‘suffering over suffering’. We all have unavoidable pain in growth, the key though is to find where we are in a stuck suffering loop. We are not meant to live in managed ongoing suffering. We are meant to go through a compressing birth canal into a brave new and exciting world.

I have found that alive new world socially and personally for myself, while also feeling an open heart towards those co-actors from the previous stages of my life, that we all wrote together. I can love the people in my present as gifts to my growth and learning with an open hand similarly, having found an ever deepening home in my own heart, that no loss can ever take from me.

Ultimately, we let go of every relationship we form, and every thing we obtain, except the one relationship we form with ourselves, which is a relationship with the all, wherein we are eventually remembered with all the parts of the whole.

Audio of this blog can be found here: https://youtu.be/O_yK5Plf518

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about Weekly Sessions, Live Streams, Videos, and Community.

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Spring Loaded Essence

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Essence is spring loaded within us.

It doesn’t actually need to be fought for, protected or defended.

Parts of us see it quite convincingly otherwise as something to fight for, and understandably so; for those parts of us and their reality, their experience, their truth, it’s a world of fighting along with winners and losers.

From our Higher Self’s reality however, ‘fighting for’ anything is a form of resistance and resistance presupposes an opposing other, which isn’t real to the Higher Self.

Try this feeling on for a moment from your deepest seat of being and see if it feels like your truth:

‘You are the source and essence of all that is. This essence is spring loaded within you, ever arising, ever unfolding, ever powerful, ever humble, ever seeking to experience itself through all the expressions of your being’

Does that get your resonator started?

I should note that not too many years ago, for me, the above statement would have been written off as total and complete blasphemy as I was then journeying through (unbeknownst to me at the time) the paradigm of separation between me and ‘God’. Now, I find this view not only resistive to myself, but also resistive to the ‘God’ I subscribed to, (as well as the deeper sense of God underneath my sense of ‘God’). If I was the creation of God, the reflection of God, why would God want to create ‘lessers’, who didn’t possess essence, but had to subscribe to ‘Him’ for it? I had to assume the role of the lesser, the subservient, or the worshiper to keep this ‘God’s’ ego intact. Then I would go on to chastise myself to be ‘godly’, but without any ego. It all degenerates down into a total and complete mind and heartfuck charade when it does and it is meant to. Can you feel the resistive energy in my words just now? A part of me wants to shit all over Christianity, and especially more so because this part of me has been seen and labeled as a demon. This part of me has a reality inside of resistance and wants to fuck Christianity royally, and needs to use vulgar language to get the energy across and out, as a fuck you to those who excluded and included around bullshit and the absence of love.

Bridging to this part of me from my new and arising reality which isn’t based in resistance, is to accept the part of me who has a resistance, however deep it goes. Nagging on this part of me to be other than it is only serves to suppress an energy that is sure to wreak havoc in my health and wellbeing. Getting to know and love this part of me, eventually inviting it into my reality of the joy of spring loaded essence is where a whole new adventure begins. This is my reason for being.

This is a whole new genesis story!

So when I say that ‘all is love’ and ‘there is nothing to fight’, I must be quick to acknowledge where in my being this is not true, or it’s just a shallow tinny sounding heap of spiritual horse poop! Actual horse poop is worth far more as it doesn’t pretend to be anything it isn’t. It’s the charades inside that we await coming to an end, that can then end the charades outside.

But even these charades don’t need to be fought against. Their death is also spring loaded. They don’t serve love, other than to provide contrast to love, serving as a bad example you might say. So in that, their purpose has a timestamp, like time itself does, as we return to essence being ever enlarged from the original essence we set out from.

Holeeee shit people! It’s all so holy, no amount of vulgarity or evil can take away from it, and no amount of veneration or awe can add to it. It just is and you are it!

When and as that sinks in, it leaves you in a true mission to get to know and feel every part of you for whom this isn’t true. This will keep us busy for a while yet as this true kingdom of heaven comes to reign inside where even the idea of a king and of reigning must eventually give way to love that just is!

Audio of this blog can be found here: https://youtu.be/gUtous_vHX0

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about Weekly Sessions, Live Streams, Videos, and Community.

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Drop Your End Of The Rope

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Good and evil aren’t actually enemies.

Light and dark never actually got divorced.

We were just necessarily conditioned to see it that way for a phase of our consciousness evolution.

We needed to experience duality, the dual of one side polarized against the other as a prelude to coming back to feeling how consciousness itself is the upstream source of both, and All, and duality itself.

It’s sort of like a football team owner owning both teams that are against each other on the field level, but at the owner’s level, it is being played for purposes beyond winning, even beyond more money, having more money than he or she knows what to do with.

In time though, this upstream essence absence of duality is registering on the players, and they lose steam for the purpose at hand, become disillusioned and eventually, seek a new relationship with the energy of life that wants to flow through them. If what they were conditioned to see and feel as the game, the purpose, isn’t any longer the game, then what is the game?

Many now just want to take their toys home and quit playing. We are at such a turning point of disillusionment.

And we are at this place personally as well as collectively. It’s true intra-psychically as well as extra-psychically.

What once magically got us out of the bed every morning is no longer doing it for us in the same way. There is a growing nervous scramble to swap out the fuel system on our engines before we lose all forward momentum.

The very idea of the hero and the villain aren’t felt and seen and defined as they once were. We are watching virtually all of our greatest public heroes of the past come to be seen in a greater light, revealing their hidden darkness. We projected our own heroism onto these figures for safe keeping, kind of like a central banking scheme, now gone corrupt, except the corruption is actually a remarriage of what we tried so desperately hard to separate ourselves from. Our darkness has chosen now to ‘corrupt’ our light and thank god for it!

The darkness, whether inside of you, or external to you is not separate from you. So much of our magic as human-god-star Beings is contained in our darkness. Many pieces of our essence needed to be stored for safe keeping in our darkness and related to as part of our potential for a time when it could be watered back into known and felt and experienced reality again. We for-got in order to re-member.

It’s time now to heed a call to ambassadorship. We are still for so many practical purposes quite isolated. We’ve just got the memo, but it also doesn’t feel very true, or look very true when we look out the window. Understandably so. We’ve been conditioned deeply to live and survive in another story and the story is changing.

The genesis of this ambassadorship is within yourself.

The loving personas you’ve adapted and adopted are just that, living beings doing life as you, on your behalf, fitted to the reality ‘you’ found yourself in, that your Higher Self signed off on, that your lower self may even be pissed about. It’s all you. But none of it can be related with or embraced as long as you don’t recognize the sovereign boundaries of differentiated selves within you. ‘You’ are not sane until you come to terms with your insanity. The height of our insanity is the charade of trying to keep together the appearance and false functionality of our single personality disorder. We are not one until we have reached out to all the aspects of ourselves and lived into new ways of relating and curiously, reverentially getting-to-know.

This reality mirrors beautifully now onto the global scene where the evildoers and hidden agendas are coming to the light. This isn’t some battle of good finally winning over the dark, but rather good being faced with its own darkness and vice-versa. If we await the evil being purged thinking it will be to the relief of our tension, we miss the deeper purpose of reuniting the separated. The tension we most deeply feel isn’t about the battle between good and evil, but rather the tension of any perceived ultimate difference between good and evil.

If I am of the good, and ‘they’ are of the evil, then I must keep up the effort to maintain this war. How well I do or don’t do in this effort is overshadowed by the fact of my entrapment on this one polarizing measuring stick, good and evil being the opposite ends of the same stick. The demons inside are me and await my vulnerable and honest admission of that.

Everything is sourced in love and comes from love. There isn’t 2 any things at odds with each other. The story of good and evil, just like the story of you and I, including any perceived polarity within us, or without us, needed to be dialled up like a great stage play to get this message massaged into our consciousness.

We are left with the perception and the deep feelings of separation that are not actually the case anymore. We don’t have to achieve peace, but rather recognize the peace that already exists. Drop your end of the rope and the tug of war dissolves. If the enemy wins, you do too, for they are you and you are them.

Only now can the harm stop, when the light no longer sees itself as superior to the dark, or separate from the dark. Only now can what each side wants and needs be negotiated in true ambassadorship that recognizes difference without superiorizing or withholding love.

This is the grander story. It’s the larger container, the theatre that holds the story, for the grand awakening.

I like to feel how none of us get to be fully home until all of us get to be fully home. You coming home to yourself is in service of this as we are all one.

Who’d have guessed that the whole enemy story was all written from a place of trying to come to terms with the infinite love that we are?

Audio of this blog can be found here: https://youtu.be/BjX036nmUP8

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about Weekly Sessions, Live Streams, Videos, and Community.

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Our Greatest Fear

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Our greatest fear isn’t about our death, but rather our infinitude.

Death is simply another birth into the great unknown of our never ending being and the universe it expresses in. To accept that is to be in reverence, awe and wonder, which is to really live. To accept that is to accept your struggle with that. You don’t really ‘get’ that and neither do I.

Death and life are a great mystery that the universe itself and the divine itself is still busy exploring and it is exploring it through you and me.

Death and life are inseparable from each other, as every moment, every relationship, every being that expresses, expresses as a surrender to this mystery of death and rebirth.

Living our lives in avoidance of death or repulsion to death is to reject life itself, for life isn’t possible without death. Coming to terms with our physical death can help us come to terms with the many deaths of our lives, which in turn is the only thing that can offer us a healthy entry into our next stage and place in life.

You must leave in order to enter. We get to have life because we are willing to let it go. What makes any moment truly alive is to feel that moment’s life and its death in the same space. I enter it with a reverence that I must in turn leave it and its imprint on me as well as what I imprinted it with. Every thing and every relationship I enter, I must ultimately leave. Every Joy contains a sorrow.

If life is anything, it is reverence. To revere something is to fear it. To truly fear something is to be in awe of it, to respect it on a deep heart and soul level, is to fear losing it.

What we really fear losing is not our lives, but losing the real connection with life within our life.

Regaining that is about accepting all of our reality, even if we fall so short of understanding it. It’s about feeling it, not ‘knowing’ it in any mental or philosophical sense.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about Weekly Sessions, Live Streams, Videos, and Community.

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Learning To Fly

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When the mama eagle decides it’s time for her eaglets to learn to fly, she rearranges the comfy nest into a thorn bush, and then a few days later proceeds to nudge them overboard. They freak out as they fall and voila, they are flying!

Life in this way seems to mirror nature and it definitely appears we are collectively and personally going through the thorny nest phase.

The chaos is being a bit pushy in asking for our surrender, running the risk of losing the point of the whole orchestration: prodding us for our surrender, while reminding us of our power.

Life isn’t demanding you surrender. You are.

You gave yourself the charades and dramas contained in life to help you see and feel your power in a way that you couldn’t otherwise. You knew and know that you lack not power, but rather a relationship with your power. You dialled up a scene of powerlessness, along with all the prickly nest feelings that go with that, as a perch from which to launch into your true power.

Life isn’t a competition of a bunch of wannabe’s trying to self realize, but rather a collaboration of the parts of one being, who chose fragmentation, and a journey returning to what it actually never lost, while becoming even more that it was at the outset. Feeling this, we can feel that life isn’t a sadomasochist hooked on causing pain and suffering, but rather life is in such possession of abundance, it isn’t afraid to spend it lavishly on lack, and dumpy living quarters if that’s what’s needed for you and I to come to a relationship with our essence.

The mama knows the eaglets can fly, but they don’t!

The universe knows stuff about you. Your higher self knows stuff about you. People around you can smell stuff about you.

You’re looking done with that thorny nest! It’s time for you to learn to fly!

 

Audio of this blog can be found here: https://youtu.be/dBUblrWwW74

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about Weekly Sessions, Live Streams, Videos, and Community.

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Conspiracy Of Love

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By Raphael Awen

Wanna smoke some Wow with me?

Just you and me…okay….., and maybe a few others.

I’ve been drawn to the news story of the release of the classified JFK documents, the files sealed off from the public about the killing of President John F. Kennedy on November 22nd, 1963. The documents we were told needed to be sealed off for reasons of ‘National Security’.

Now, I was a 2 year old when this occurred, and then later in my teens, I learned about it all being controversial, as to the official story and it really never held my interest any further, as it didn’t directly impact my awareness or state of mind. Later in life, it felt quite true to me that ‘they’ killed him, rather than any ‘lone gunman’, another theory also cooked up by ‘them’.

Now, for many of us, and I’d suspect, most of you drawn to my words, that’s old news. You’ve seen a conspiracy in JFK, 911, and more recently the Vegas shootings and it’s kind of all old hat already in some ways. It’s kind of funny, in one way, that we become like the proverbial policeman waving people along ‘nothing to see here folks, just another everyday conspiracy’.

But, (and this is my first but in a list of buts) there’s the whole lot of people for whom this isn’t yet the case, who have yet to awaken from the official denser story line, and their awakening is yet to occur, and the bigger question now is, ‘what will the roll out of their awakening affect on consciousness be, and thus in life as you and I (the self proclaimed awakened) know it?’ Let’s honor that question by not answering it too fully and come back to it later (not to answer it, but to keep asking it).

If we’re out looking for a ‘See, I told you so’ kind of satisfaction, it feels like we may be disappointed as well as blinded to a much larger unfolding.

The JFK story today takes about a few hours on YouTube and it’s quite evident about who did it and why, (and that’s without any recent digestions from the unsealed documents that aren’t available yet) and the official story becomes so astounding, if only for its total absence of credibility and yet we’re left amazed with how the story could have satisfied consciousness for as long as it has. 54 years and counting, though admittedly limping along quite badly.

But # 2. If all ‘they’ wanted to do was to remove an obstacle to their agenda, they could have, just like Kennedy himself said, found Kennedy in church any Sunday morning and killed him there where the lone gunman story would have been far more believable, BUT instead a most elaborate stage was set, involving the height of the American dream, a presidential motorcade in Dallas, Texas, etc., etc. Why? Let’s leave that Question to breathe for a bit too.

This is a piece of the larger wow, dawning on consciousness now, how such a far reaching conspiracy could have been concocted. The story will soon be moving from denying a conspiracy to flaunting the conspiracy into our consciousness for effect, and I feel this is also part of the larger ‘conspiracy’.

Let me introduce a curve ball about now and ask you to see if it can hold water for you. If it can’t, that’s okay, but if it does, then you and I are onto something BIG! and that’s fun and I like fun… 🙂

Love itself has already won, and is the host of all duality. By that, I mean that the polarity of good and evil, or of light and darkness is all part of love. The dark conspiratorial evil that killed JFK, or much worse, that at present today is underneath the now being exposed pedogate and pizzagate realities is a reality already contained inside of love’s boundaries.

How in the hell though could love be playing host to something so horrid, to such unspeakable trauma enacted upon such innocence?

Okay, I know I’m out on a huge limb here, but I’m only asking you to see if this theory can hold water for you, not claiming any absolute truth for us to argue over.

If love has already won, then when our consciousness is drawn to the most abhorrent evil imaginable, we are invited to feel how this is only a part of the duality and polarity that was created within Love itself to attempt to showcase the length and breadth of love. Nothing can or has ever escaped love. Not even the nastiest Nazis no matter how dark and patient their agenda.

Now in our story-creating next trip to the movies, it seems we are writing a story to attempt to make this impression on consciousness; this deeper attempt at coming to terms with love…. That any judgment and punishment we attempt to exact on perpetrators stems from the judgment and punishment we exact upon ourselves. We can’t separate ourselves from judgment any more than we can from love.

There is only one of us inside of a ‘both are true reality’ of individuation inside of that oneness reality. If John Podesta rots in hell for the un-rest of his consciousness, then there is a way that you and I will also be a part of that torment. Only when we are ALL reconciled to the love that we are, are any of us ultimately and experientially reconciled to the love that we are!

So then, the dark side of our duality set us a big stage, back in 1963, 2001, and this year again… All of it inviting us into a wonder world of love that is so grand that any attempt to contain it in words here only produces a headache, the same way any pathetic attempt by darkness or evil could eradicate love.

Darkness or evil are not out to kill love, but rather to get you and I (that is consciousness) to see love. !!!

Okay, so how’s this holding water for you so far? I’m not going to attempt too much further to get you to ‘believe’ this because it’s meant to be felt, not believed. It’s meant to color the heart, not fill the mind, and THAT can only happen when you find the part of you who doesn’t believe any of this shit and wants the devils to pay and rot in hell until kingdom come.

Now the conspiracy has come home to roost and the grand stage of this planet (at least) is seen as a fractal in your own heart….what’s true in the macro is true in the micro.

Love wants to reconcile with you. Love is sending its ambassador to you in the form of the grand stories of our time and the grand story of your life. The victims and villains are all of our creation awaiting a you who can orchestrate their reconciliation based in an already complete and victorious reality called LOVE !

If this is true, then we’re onto a whole new conspiracy of much grander and epic proportions than JFK.

John himself was pretty set on fighting what he felt was evil and hidden, while cutting himself some slack around transparency in regards to his cast of mistresses, all a part of his contribution, offered on the altar of his life story, like yours and mine, where the discrepancies of our integrities and disintegrities alike are all apart of experimenting with coming into love’s light of day where nothing needs to remain hidden!

This includes the Bush’s, the Clintons, and all the trillionaire bloodline families, and any and all off-planet species and their agendas. They are all here dumbstruck by you and the love that you are and are becoming!

We are all awaiting THIS to dawn on consciousness!

Only now does the pain actually stop, and only now does love get to have its way with us!

It stops and starts with you.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about Weekly Sessions, Live Streams, Videos, and Community.

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A Part Of Me

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By Raphael Awen

Are you about ready for a serious leap in your emotional and spiritual maturity?…

…Begin to see yourself as a makeup of more than one persona, and then seek to find ways to show up to get to know and feel these aspects of what you call yourself.

This is my truth about the makeup of our being, but I don’t want to pound the pulpit claiming and arguing, but rather invite you to feel into if this feels true for you. If it does, then you’ve just given me the pleasure of being the tour guide showing you your truth, which also happens to be mine!

I don’t know of any other growth or discovery piece that comes close to this huge contextual piece of what we call Partswork. Not only that, but without this piece of CONTEXT, the CONTENT of how you relate to other spiritual and emotional growth steps or practices are called into question.

‘You’ learning to meditate, or to ‘live in the now’, or ‘to live for God’, or getting all jacked up about ‘being a lightworker’ isn’t contextually grounded until you find the differentiated part of you drawn to that practice or way of life and WHY they are drawn to that way of life. A whole new world of magic opens up as a mature growing authentic self comes to intimately know these polarized and very different energies that make up what up till now, you’ve related to as ‘you’.

Until you enter this awareness and unfolding deeper reality of your multifaceted makeup, you are fused with the picture of being a single personality, I call it SPD – single personality disorder, your best explanation for diverging desires is mood swings, or some energies external to you, or astrology, or Ascension, or an illness in the body, etc.; all of it true on one level, but none of it that you can get really get intimate with and take responsibility for, left trapped in SPD land.

SPD is the perfect cover for staying stuck, and easily clung to in the collective until one’s tipping point and choice points come to value their own healing over fitting in; their own true fulfillment as a sacred calling over the false and futile pretense of serving others with a fulfillment you don’t actually possess.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about Weekly Sessions, Live Streams, Videos, and Community.

Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.