Tag: Healing The Healer

Love’s Invitation To Teach What We Embody, Not What We ‘Know’

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by Kalayna Colibri

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So many ideas float around inside of me sometimes, so many directions to take my writing in, many life observations, spiritual and heart-based learnings, sometimes even metaphysical concepts that can be and feel quite complex and slightly (if not VERY) out of reach of my consciousness level. A desire to discuss this or that in a post, see where it lands, and yet then, I feel the mental exercise this can be and the juice for the writing soon peters out for me. In these moments, I feel an invitation to keep feeling… to trust that some things I’m learning now I will unlearn too and that there really is no ‘absolute answer’ for my mind to wrap around, try as it might. Sometimes the only answer is to ‘keep going’… to keep embodying, keep living, keep loving, keep diving in head and heart first and see where the mess leads.

Sometimes when I write something, I feel such a desire for it to ‘go out THERE’, land in hearts, move others, maybe even bring back to me more reflections of the love that I am and that I feel more and more openly. Then sometimes, when I write something, I realize that the main reason for the writing is actually to show something to myself, from myself… to ‘me’, from everything that makes up the mosaic of ‘me’, as I am now, as I may be in a moment yet to come, as I may feel inside of parts of me who need something more from me. To share from anything but a full vessel is to share perhaps only more of the emptiness in some ways, yet it’s all good and does harm to none, as long as it comes from a consciously healing heart that can hold reflections of its own shadow and light, both.

Maybe it’s time to no longer ‘teach what you know’, but ‘teach what you embody’… this is a phase I have been moving more and more into over the years of my process, and as I continue to feel my heart and what it actually wants, I feel less attached to ‘knowing’ at all. There are moments of frustration in this for parts of me as they grapple with this burgeoning reality of being more relaxed in the head and more lit up in the heart and soul. There is a healthy bridge here, and that’s what it feels like I am being now as I share this moment with you and with me too. I feel the challenge of a woman in spirituality who faces the more masculinized approach to metaphysics, trying to ‘figure it all out’ in a way that maybe I’m just not meant to. I’ve never taken to spiritual study in a way that others have, preferring actually to experience instead. This is landing deeper inside of me now, despite protests from parts that worry about self-image and credibility… yet this world of spirituality feels inundated with this data and that data and watch out for this and never do that, think that, be that… this whole realm has become fraught with self-punishment fueled existences that are actually begging for the permission to NOT be this anymore, to NOT feel the pressure to prove or contend. I so feel this in myself and I invite you to feel this too, as well as any reactions you may feel to doing so… I so get and feel these reactions too and I trust deeply that there is another side to them.

And then, in moments like these, I feel an outbreath… as I let in that this is what needed the floor today, trusting that it will land where it needs to and that at the end of the day, all teachings of all kinds go where they’re needed and necessary, reaching the consciousnesses that are on deck to receive them, and that as all of our hearts continue opening, there is only going to be MORE love to teach, live, learn and give from. ❤

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Truly And Purely Serving Love

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By Jelelle Awen

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When you are coming from serving love….truly and purely coming from serving love….the questions of ‘how’ are no longer an issue. The questions of what you can ‘do’ fade away as you come from response, as you are responding to the love that is coming and being drawn to you. You can truly and purely come from serving love as you feel the aspects of you that have resistance, fear, doubts, pain, trauma around service and around sharing your gifts and around BEing your soul purpose here.

These frequencies live in the undigested places in the emotional body and in the soul field too from other lifetimes. They always have GOOD reason for being there that is based on REAL feelings that need to be felt. Bypassing them or trying to go around them or transcending them in order to serve others creates a foundation that is shaky, that feels forced, or just doesn’t lead to the fulfillment and nourishment that you most deeply want at the soul level. It usually collapses eventually, under the weight of what has gone unfelt and unaddressed or what had tried to be disowned. The parts that have been ‘holding up’ this service ‘burn out’ or ‘give up’ or ‘want to shut the whole thing down’ because they need the rest and just can’t do it anymore.

Serving love to self and all your aspects then leads to an overflow to serve love WITH others. There is no strategy to this, ultimately, as it is the opposite of strategic. It is the authentic essence of YOU meeting and dancing with the authentic essence of OTHER, bringing out the authenticity in each other, bringing out the soul, bringing out love. I am discovering this more and more lately as I am serving more love in sessions as my daily reality now. There is a joy in this service, even when the tones and textures are difficult and painful that come up to be felt in the heart and soul for the women I am holding space for. The joy comes ultimately in just BEing me, without seemingly self image around it after many years of working with parts of me that HELD edges and fear and self image. I am just serving love, and watching as it brings light to the dark, love to the fear, and possibilities to what has previously felt impossible!

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Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine and union facilitator, soul scribe, waySHOWer, galactic love ambassador, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book to be released on June 1st, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Energies Inviting Healing Of Healers, Service of Love And Relationship Shiftings

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By Jelelle Awen

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Increasing frequencies of love and light continue right now and have been strong over the last few days especially. They feel almost like a pounding into Gaia and into each of us, to whatever degree we can let them in. A pounding in a good way, like a thundering heart beat to pump more love blood to the souls that need it. The time lapse from desire to thought to manifestation is REALLY speeding up….especially if what you are desiring is based on your soul purpose to serve love here and connected to a genuine desire to heal. And, especially if this desire is coming from your higher self, sacred human self, embodying more and more your healing heart AND your healing soul.

Guidance from your higher self is more acute and obvious too….coming through a sense in the heart, feelings of soul resonance, dreams, visions, downloads, synchronistic events, other people, repeating number patterns, and important connections. You are being invited to internalize guidance more and to connect with it in a personal way, not just as ‘outside of you’ coming from a ‘higher source.’ You are being invited to feel how YOU are the higher source and the guidance is the remembrance of the wisdom you can download from the Divine whenever you want.

Those who seem to need these love frequencies the most right now are those that are meant to serve love, meant to lead, meant to be waySHOWers during the intense transition that we are undergoing right now from third dimensional reality to higher frequency reality experience with Gaia.

You may have already claimed your healing gifts in certain forms for awhile, perhaps as a Reiki healer or a card reader or a therapist. Yet, still, you may have been feeling restless too for awhile and wanting to serve MORE, to go deeper in your service with others and within yourself too. You may have a sense that you have ‘reached a ceiling’ in some ways related to your expression of service. Feelings of being tired as a practitioner, being weary of ‘going it alone’ as a healer/business owner (because that’s what it is even as it is a vocation), and sense of being ‘done’ with not having enough money either in the abundant way that you would like.

It feels like healers are being asked to go to their next level of embodiment of their most authentic self and to really engage in a process of ‘healing the healer’ in a profound way in order to step into their soul leadership in an emotionally mature way. The woundings that lie below in the emotional body cannot seem to be contained or put away by spiritual frequencies in the same way as they could in the past. These feelings come up to be felt, to be held, to be related with. This process can be about identifying when the ‘healer role’ has taken over, it maybe has become more strategic than authentic, and is blocking to some extent PURE love from coming through you to others. To feel when there is actually a guardedness and protectiveness inside of you, from a part of you (the we call a ‘soul guardian’ or daemon) that resists to lead from vulnerability and perhaps even transparency too. This can be an interesting ground to walk out during fourth dimensional explorations, dark night of the souls, complete reboots of your healing practices, or just very sudden shifts in what you are now drawn to offer and serve.

If you have not yet stepped into and claimed and expressed your soul gifts or service of love as your means of livelihood, the feelings of press around this will probably increase. The jobs and careers that you could previously tolerate connected to 3D reality are becoming more frustrating and your desires for soul expression increasing. The teachers you need or workshops or books or resources for expressing your soul gifts will come to you with ease and the money needed to pay for them as well. If it is to serve your highest expression of serving love, it will find support in your life. If not, it will probably be difficult and complicated until it is finally let go and moved on from.

This is possible in relationship as well. Those relationships that support your highest expression of serving love will have an ease to them, an unexplainable resonance, common ground, easy trust, good will, and mutual respect. Those based on ‘old’ grounds of karmic binds, codependent wounds, playouts between aspects of you, duty and obligation, fear….these relationships can become more complicated, more convoluted, and more conflictual until they probably just blow up, fade away, or arise into something much more nourishing. NONE of your relationships with family, friends, and mates will just remain the same….not if you are truly letting in and receiving the love and light energies that are coming in right now. If your SOUL is (even if parts of you may resist on another level), then the life as you currently know it IS going to shift and change as THAT is what LOVE does; that is what LIGHT does too.

That is the reminder and invitation to remember…that the shifts, changes, transitions, and transformations that are happening and will continue to happen (at probably an even faster rate) are being offered from a place of love FOR you and WITH you. If it doesn’t feel that way, that is probably a part of you that is resisting love or in fear about the next steps. You can be with and feel these aspects of you that are afraid, offering MORE love to them. Yet, you can continue to move forward into your expression of love and service of love as you experience more and more yourself AS love!

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Raphael Awen and I are leading a group call on Saturday, May 27th at 11:11am CST to discuss these energies, among other things related to integration of the emotional body during the ascension process. You can join us by going here:  or soulfullheartwayoflife.com/groupcalls.

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine and union facilitator, soul scribe, waySHOWer, galactic love ambassador, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book to be released on June 1st, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

My Journey Healing The Healer Inside; Sharing The Vision

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By Jelelle Awen

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Are you called to serve others? Are you already a space holder, lightworker, healer, teacher? Are you aware of this calling and are still in process of stepping into it?

Raphael shares some vulnerable and transparent words here about what it is like to hold space as a facilitator for our process and way of life called SoulFullHeart. Feeling into this for myself, I can feel to some degree the legacy of healing it has been for me to ‘heal the healer’ inside of myself. I have been serving others in a healing capacity in one form or another for over twenty years, as this was what my soul came here to do. Whether I was a medical assistant working with cancer patients, a small business reporter and editor, a life and business coach, and, eventually, an emoto-spiritual facilitator and teacher….the core desire was to serve other in a way that also served my own growth and learning and healing.

This call to serve others has always pulsed inside of me, like a beacon activated and just waiting to beam out. Through the various forms that this has taken, I have discovered what is ME in this service and most expresses my soul and what is not. I have learned which channels and containers work for me in this expression and which did for a time and then no longer did. I leaned heavily in and became an intense student and teacher of ‘other men’s paradigms’ for several years. I LEARNED so much from this in how to serve, ways to train and mentor others to serve others, what is needed and what is probably not when it comes to serving love WITH and not OVER. This was an intense crucible and, along with about five years of receiving facilitation from others, provided a powerful mirror for me to see and heal and feel my shadow, my 3D self, my Inner protectors, my inner child, and all the other aspects of heart and soul that have come up over the years.

What I really learned and discovered was that I was called to co-create and lead my OWN offering, an assimilation of all this learning I had taken in from those I allowed to be my teachers and leaders for a phase of time. I am, at my core, a visionary, so my vision extends much beyond the present NOW and can feel multiple timeline possibilities at once. All of this experience and vision comes forward now, in this phase for me where I am drawing more and more women to serve sessions through SoulFullHeart. I feel more and more a state of ease and just BEing during service….where I am not doing anything other than opening my heart, soul, and mind to respond to the frequency that is most needed. My vision is clear to ‘replace myself’ as a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women (there are only so many women I can serve this way) so that I can focus all my energies on teaching, leading, training, writing, and creating. So, with every session, there is a double vision around serving someone (not as a patient or client, not to fix) where they are now and in need, PLUS holding the sense of their higher self and soul purpose possibility expression as a facilitator through SoulFullHeart.

I feel that more and more healers and healing practitioners and light workers and those that just want to BE these things will be looking for soul family communities to join to express these gifts through. To lean into (without giving up their sovereignty) into something that has been created for them while contributing to it as well. THIS is my vision for SoulFullHeart and always has been, a network of SoulFullHeart communities all over the world with SoulFullHeart teachers and facilitators running them. And holding this vision also allows for being in the present now too, feeling what is real in the moment.

What an honor it IS to serve in this way, where love and vulnerability leads, and co-empowerment holds the space. Healthy space holding in SoulFullHeart is def. a co-empowerment energy; a sense that the container space of facilitator and facilitant is a temporary one, and that the SOULS are in exchange with each other on both leading edge and trailing edge ways. If you’d like to experience this energy for yourself and also to possibly BEcome a facilitator someday, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

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Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine and union facilitator, soul scribe, waySHOWer, galactic love ambassador, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book to be released on June 1st, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.