Love’s Invitation To Teach What We Embody, Not What We ‘Know’

by Kalayna Colibri

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So many ideas float around inside of me sometimes, so many directions to take my writing in, many life observations, spiritual and heart-based learnings, sometimes even metaphysical concepts that can be and feel quite complex and slightly (if not VERY) out of reach of my consciousness level. A desire to discuss this or that in a post, see where it lands, and yet then, I feel the mental exercise this can be and the juice for the writing soon peters out for me. In these moments, I feel an invitation to keep feeling… to trust that some things I’m learning now I will unlearn too and that there really is no ‘absolute answer’ for my mind to wrap around, try as it might. Sometimes the only answer is to ‘keep going’… to keep embodying, keep living, keep loving, keep diving in head and heart first and see where the mess leads.

Sometimes when I write something, I feel such a desire for it to ‘go out THERE’, land in hearts, move others, maybe even bring back to me more reflections of the love that I am and that I feel more and more openly. Then sometimes, when I write something, I realize that the main reason for the writing is actually to show something to myself, from myself… to ‘me’, from everything that makes up the mosaic of ‘me’, as I am now, as I may be in a moment yet to come, as I may feel inside of parts of me who need something more from me. To share from anything but a full vessel is to share perhaps only more of the emptiness in some ways, yet it’s all good and does harm to none, as long as it comes from a consciously healing heart that can hold reflections of its own shadow and light, both.

Maybe it’s time to no longer ‘teach what you know’, but ‘teach what you embody’… this is a phase I have been moving more and more into over the years of my process, and as I continue to feel my heart and what it actually wants, I feel less attached to ‘knowing’ at all. There are moments of frustration in this for parts of me as they grapple with this burgeoning reality of being more relaxed in the head and more lit up in the heart and soul. There is a healthy bridge here, and that’s what it feels like I am being now as I share this moment with you and with me too. I feel the challenge of a woman in spirituality who faces the more masculinized approach to metaphysics, trying to ‘figure it all out’ in a way that maybe I’m just not meant to. I’ve never taken to spiritual study in a way that others have, preferring actually to experience instead. This is landing deeper inside of me now, despite protests from parts that worry about self-image and credibility… yet this world of spirituality feels inundated with this data and that data and watch out for this and never do that, think that, be that… this whole realm has become fraught with self-punishment fueled existences that are actually begging for the permission to NOT be this anymore, to NOT feel the pressure to prove or contend. I so feel this in myself and I invite you to feel this too, as well as any reactions you may feel to doing so… I so get and feel these reactions too and I trust deeply that there is another side to them.

And then, in moments like these, I feel an outbreath… as I let in that this is what needed the floor today, trusting that it will land where it needs to and that at the end of the day, all teachings of all kinds go where they’re needed and necessary, reaching the consciousnesses that are on deck to receive them, and that as all of our hearts continue opening, there is only going to be MORE love to teach, live, learn and give from. ❤

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Feeling Feminine Stillness In Shifting Times

by Kalayna Colibri

 

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In moments like these, with much rumbling and shifting and changing going on, I feel my feminine stillness arising alongside a deepening trust more and more often. I feel my body, heart, soul and mind too, soaking in a pool of still yet steadily flowing water. A paradox, yes, as we all are too it seems, always in motion somehow or other, always moving with some sort of current, finding our new breath on our way out of birth canals. We find our ways to BE with what IS but still find ways to hold the rumbles, trusting that even as parts of us quake in the emergence of NEW, we will find our desires being answered. Without entitlement, I can feel what is coming and that it’s already here too. I can feel the impending life shifts that are coming and the parts of me that are scared. I can feel the humility this offers too, as I allow in these fears just don’t fuse to them as I used to so often, not all that long ago. MY version of arising feminine stillness and deep trust has been an intense journey of forks in the road, sharp turns around jagged corners, and collapses into the processes of NOW.

I feel so much in my heart that can hold just about anything that comes up now… after having processed so much, I feel as if my container has expanded and can hold as much as it needs to. The next step is really letting in the care of this container, feeling what energies are okay right now, what my body and heart need right now, what my parts or Metasoul aspects need right now.

This process… is the one we are invited into as men AND women. It is a going in to find stillness, to bring this gift into our daily life moments, our relationships, any emotional underpinnings that are being unearthed, any spiritual endeavour or discovery. It finds us like the river finds the ocean. It finds a way to breathe outward while going inward. It is paradoxical and yet it is just what IS, without mental framing necessary. It is the ultimate in self-love that will be more felt by women than by men, in themselves at least, yet this stillness holds an offering to men too, to find their portal in it in a mate, in any feminine connection, and inside of them too to the degree that they can let this in and embody it. More paradoxes there, yes. It is endless.

Where the resistance ends, the stillness begins. And the trust your soul has always somehow had, finds its way to your consciously held life structure, whispering to you of new possibilities, and offering to you some NEW pictures of what is to come, if you can do the work necessary to let it all in… ❤


 

Join Jelelle Awen and I at our next SoulFullHeart Virtual Group Call for Women NEXT Saturday, June 15th. We would love to have you! Go here for more details. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

‘What Is Sacred Femininity?’: SoulFullHeart Woman Blog Series

By Jelelle Awen

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What is sacred femininity? As I feel into the answer to this question, I connect to my heart, soul, and body……listening for a response:

My heart says, “Sacred femininity invites the hearts of others out to dance, out to play, and out to be in love. It transacts with openness and vulnerability, eager for every moment to be real and meaningful, whether it is light or it is deep. It is willing to feel what needs to be felt and accepts that which is both in light and in shadow. It aches for union, to be connected, and to see itself through love transacting in resonant relationships.”

My soul says, “Sacred femininity is unknown. It is arising. It is mysterious. It can wait to be noticed and it can draw. It can be so deeply still and it can be beautifully active. It is contrasts and paradoxes. It lets love lead, trusting that the rest will follow. It is open to being watered by the frequencies of the Divine Feminine and the Divine Mother, in whatever forms that She comes. It is healing that from the soul’s history which blocks the current flow of love in relationships with others, self, and the Divine.”

My body says, “Sacred femininity is desire, the rush of orgasm and the joy of afterglow that comes from heart open sexuality with self or with a beloved mate. It is expressed in the physical with a softness that is visible in body, audible in voice, and in touch – gentle at times and passionate at other times. It is natural and real, beyond the images of physical perfection and is not found in the chemicals and products that cover and make over. It is beautiful in all its expressions, in all its ages, and all its packages.”

As I connect to these answers inside of myself related to this question of sacred femininity, it feels like the answers are the same to the question, “What is a SoulFullHeart woman?” The specifics of what it is means to be a SoulFullHeart are offered in depth on our website at soulfullheartwayoflife.com, our blog at soulfullheartblog.com and on facebook. Essentially, it is about being in a place of awakening consciousness in the heart and soul through engaging in the SoulFullHeart healing process. This leads to an increasing sense of individuation or healthy ego maturation with more experience of union with yourself, others, and the Divine as an expression of Infinite Love.

A critical aspect of this exploration that I want to offer during this series into ‘what is sacred femininity’ in the future is to feel what is NOT femininity but is actually an expression of masculinity or comes from our birth mother (or other primary feminine caregiver) templating or is a product of our cultural conditioning.

It can be quite an illuminating journey to feel the way that masculinity expresses inside of us and how it can ‘live inside’ as masculine aspects of us or what we call, ‘subpersonalities’. These masculine aspects form a strong protective energy for which many frequencies of sacred femininity are buried beneath. As we get to know and love them, they can begin to rest and trust us more and allow our femininity to start flooding into our field with often quite transformational results in our physical, emotional, and spiritual experiences of life.

Our relationships with our birth mothers is another key ground of exploration related to our sacred femininity expression. Individuation is a process of feeling through how we are impacted by the template that our mothers offered to us about femininity and feeling into how parts of us relate to that template now. Also, we can be deeply influenced by social and cultural conditioning, especially when it ‘rewards’ the development of a persona aspect of us to ‘fit in’ and seek acceptance around our gender expression.

The frequencies of sacred femininity that we explore as SoulFullHeart women are ones that I am honored to share with women in my life in the form of sister, friend, student, healer, and teacher.

I offer a template to explore this ground for and with women and I also hold space for others into this exploration of this mysterious, magical, challenging, and lovely ground. The forms of this exploration into the SoulFullHeart Woman and sacred femininity will be through writing, videos, virtual telecircles, and through individual sessions with me (in person in the Puerto Vallarta, Mexico area and over skype for those outside the area.)

I offer this humbly and yet with a sense of worth that is based on my own experiences of increasing sense of this inside of myself over the last decade of being dedicated to my own deepening sacred femininity embodiment process. Life has provided many teachers for me in this journey, primarily in the form of relationships such as with my beloved mate Raphael, my adult daughter, sacred friendships with other women and men, women that I am honored to serve and hold space for, and both human and Ethereal guides.

Please join me on this journey into the unknown dimensions of sacred femininity and may we both grow, learn, transform and experience much love during the way!

Jelelle Awen is co-creator and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information.