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Significant Soul Turns Out Of Suffering & Into Love

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By Jelelle Awen

So many of us are going through very important ‘soul turns’ right now, as I have come to call them. A soul turn is a significant shifting in one lifetime of your soul’s patterned learning trajectory that has been in place for many, many lifetimes. This lifetime is one for which so many have chosen to be here on the Earth Plane during this time of Ascension for the opportunity to experience soul turn shifts for ourselves and complete cycles of incarnational suffering.

A soul turn is moving beyond previously unconscious karmic binds, ties, and contracts. It is letting in resonant love as the main form of growth rather than from experiencing traumas in order to grow. It is shifting from going through suffering in order to wake up… to feeling and healing all the cycles of shame/punishment/judgement suffering cycles within you and in your soul that then leads to awakening.

It is shifting from drawing repeated traumas in order to see/feel them to TRULY transmuting these traumas into love again so you no longer need them. It is experiencing bonds with others that are based in love and not shared trauma.

Lifetime after lifetime, our soul chooses the situations, set ups, narratives, and companion souls to play the ‘roles’ of both support and shadow that will offer the most growth and learning for us. We take this on for the Divine, for our soul families, for Unity Consciousness, and for the ALL. We represent both the experience of and recovery from sacred wounds such as those held in the collective…the Fall of Lemuria, Atlantis, Avalon…the Matrix imprisonment experiment, the hijacking of our sacred feminine expressions and the Divine Mother experience, the distortion of the sacred masculine into patriarchy and more.

As we become conscious of the trauma patterns from this life and feel the parts of us that hold them, we are able to truly become free beyond them. The traumas no longer act as magnets in our emotional bodies and soul fields drawing MORE traumas to us for us to see and feel. Trauma, suffering, and pain is always a portal to self discovery and remembering…until we no longer need it to be.

It is now possible to become fully conscious of our soul’s experience and lift the veils that have previously been in place around this. We can now turn our soul away from suffering and toward love. Our Divine Self is able to defuse from the punishing/protective/wounded/defended parts of us and say ‘no’ to any situation, circumstances, and pattern that repeats our suffering. Sometimes we are still veiled to a situation and need the learning experience, yet the reason for drawing it becomes conscious much more quickly and then completed.

It is time to let go of suffering patterns and move into the experience of LOVE holding your life in ALL areas of your life. You are ready now to move beyond the previous veiled limitations. You no longer need to replay traumas & draw new ones….you are ready now to transmute them all back into love & experience goodness!!

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In 1:1 sessions, we as SoulFullHeart Facilitators support you to go into these grounds within you to discover what patterns are ready to complete and be let go. We also model for you and provide a ‘dropped in’ space for you to learn how to lift your own veils, how to connect with your parts and soul gatekeeper (who opens up access to your akashic records) and access soul aspects/fragments.

Rather than do this process for you as mediums or psychics, we empower YOU to open this up for yourself. This allows for the growth and realizations to be truly embodied rather than receiving it from any ‘outside’ source. There is no other process that I know of that works at these levels of self sovereignty and self-led growth, both at the personal this-life experience and then at quantum soul level as well WHILE deepening self, sacred union, and divine intimacy possibilities within a community of resonant souls. More info at soulfullheart.org/sessions

I highly recommend my free 33 day video series Deepen as a place to start diving into what we offer: https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

And my recent book Free To Be 5D, available on ebook, PDF, print and audio: soulfullheart.org/books

Love from Avalon,
Jelelle Awen

Photo is of me in the ruins of the Lady Chapel at Glastonbury Abbey, a place of powerful energies supporting me to make repeated soul turn choices from suffering to love!

Trusting The Ascension Process As Humanity Shifts Out Of 3D And Into Lower 4D/Dark Night

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By Jelelle Awen

“Be in the world, not of the world, yet care FOR the world,” ~ Yeshua

So many times I have been offered this as a guiding light through this current c narrative and false medicine storm that humanity is experiencing. Being in the world is honoring that we have chosen on a soul level to BE here on this Earth Plane during this transition from 3D Matrix reality moving into 4D transitional/dark night phase and into 5D New Earth. Not being of the world is acknowledging that we are no longer in the mainstream consciousness flow or in resonance with it. We are no longer of it, even as we were ALL raised in it, by it, and of it. And many awakening souls still have many friends/family who are still of it Caring for the world though….ALL of it and ALL souls in it, is the piece that feels like it offers the next level of compassion and love ambassadorship.

As you tune into the Divine Mother and your Christ essence, your heart breaks open to feel the cries of the world, the cries of the womb/hara, the cries of the children. As you feel these cries, you DO care, even for those who judge you as crazy or push you away. You care even if you move out of saving or rescuing anyone and surrender, again, to the Divine holding of it ALL.

This is a collective dark night phase for humanity. This is the crawl and walk through the valley of the shadow of death. Dark nights are ALWAYS messy. They last as long as they need to and you can’t ‘control’ them. They are absolutely necessary for TRUE awakening to occur. Something false must die in order for the new to be born.

It does feel to me that 3D/third dimensional reality as we have previously known it is gone and we have actually ascended beyond it now as has Gaia. The comfort and security of 3D for parts of us, the eat/work/die familiar pattern of it has now shifted into something completely unknown to us before that is also unpredictable and volatile. It feels like we are now moving into a collective lower 4D reality as the ‘mainstream’ one….where soul awakenings can occur along with dark nights. Life as we previously knew it as ‘normal’ no longer exists, which is actually a good thing and IS Ascension…even if it feels rather like a dystopia to us; even if it isn’t how we wanted it or would prefer it to look or feel; or that it feels like it isn’t our choice or is happening ‘to’ us rather than with us.

While this is uncomfortable, it also feels like progress. To continue along in the ‘too comfortable’ 3D Matrix was to continue being suppressed, asleep, numbed, and drugged by it. This is messy now, yet it has woken up SO many souls by disrupting and interrupting their daily routines…and even lockdowns allowing for an unplugging from the daily living/doing/staying busy mill.

Even those previously awakening souls have had to question now how deeply embodied their spirituality actually IS as they lean more into it in real ways to navigate the unknown; how much they have healed in their emotional body as intense reactions come up; how much they have compartmentalized their spiritual essence away from the rest of their life as their social life becomes more difficult to navigate.

For those of us long on the awakening journey aligned with Divine Mother, we see and trust the value of these lower 4D dimensions. Yes, they contain some “hell realms” and dark energies/beings/timelines…yet the darkness needs our love, acceptance, and ambassadorship more than the 3D numb Matrix reality did. To move into 5D, we were ALWAYS going to need to go through 4D and reconcile what has lived there previously in shadow, in our subconscious, in other lifetimes. Any offerings/teachings/teachers that suggest we could have somehow avoided this are still plugged into a False God/False Light program that diverts us from actually transmuting and transforming (as it is meant to divert and distort.)

Now is the time where we have the support from Ascension energies, from the Divine, from benevolent guardian galactic beings, from guides/Metasoul aspects to TRULY transmute into our sacred human frequencies, to reactivate our DNA, to upgrade our galactic genes, to move into ‘supernatural’ gifts, to FREE up the immense powerful energies of our wombs/haras. We get to experience remembrance of bliss states and authentic joy as well come alive in us….holding the space as we courageously go into the mess over and over again for as many times as it ‘takes’ to heal.

This is what the journey to becoming free looks like….where nothing can be bypassed or wished away, yet needs to be gone through in order to reach the other side. It is this WHOLE journey that we have signed up to experience here as the growth possible from it is so appealing to many of us. It feels like there was a long sign-up line to be part of this phase of humanity’s Ascension on Earth. The best ‘show’ in the Galaxies in that way.

No longer resisting and being afraid of what lurks in the shadows allows us to embrace and understand the deep choice we made for our own growth and for humanity’s more fully.

Much Love from Avalon to you during this Dark Night to Light experience…..Avalon is anchoring in the frequencies of Divine Support to move through all the necessary phases here,

Jelelle Awen

I share much more about the Ascension process, the False God/Light, the 3D and 4D Matrix in my book Free To Be 5D…available in ebook/PDF/print/audio versions with links at soulfullheart.org/books.

Join Kasha and I tomorrow March 7th at 5:00pm GMT/UK time/12:00pm EST for a women’s group call over zoom to feel specifically into the womb hijacking by the Matrix and offer a transmission/meditation for healing and activation beyond it. More information at https://www.soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

Living In Love Over Fear: Navigating The Covid Narrative

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The energies of divergence are quite strong right now. It really can feel as if you are on a different planet and plane of existence from others. How we relate to fear, and specifically the fear of body death right now, are revealing our different consciousness states. The covid narrative is revealing so much about a soul’s relationship to body death and how strongly attached to safety and known they are around that (even as we have been programmed to feel it is natural for us to die at a certain age when immortality is actually our human potential and capacity).

And, also where someone is in the process of claiming their own sovereignty, truth, and relationship of trusting surrender to the Divine. The 3D projection of comforting authority figure onto governments, health authorities, etc. is a phase in a soul’s journey out of parental dependence and toward self empowering Divine self realization.

Yesterday we went to a new grocery store for us that was in the town next to Glastonbury, which has been more mellow about Covid. The fear and control were palpable as soon as we walked in the doors of this new store. Signs all over the store and messages over the loud speakers keep repeating how we must ‘keep each other safe’, keep our masks on, keep away from each other, only shop with one person (this particular store had many signs suggesting that shopping with someone else was quite irresponsible.)

Raphael and I walked around the store without masks, as we are prone to do as a reflection of how we do not live in fear, especially fear of a virus that has such a low mortality rate. And that if we did catch it, we would trust that process and the messenger/mirror/portal that the virus offered us. We also do not fear catching this from others for the same reasons. We were the ONLY ones without masks in the entire store and I could feel the fear from others as we walked down the aisles….as if deadly germs would jump on them from us. I am used to drawing some attention when I walk around but usually it is a draw to the light in my field or the joy I am putting off. I felt sadness about fear toward us and tried to radiate love at them in larger amounts to meet it.

Raphael and I were in joy, we were in love, we were kissing and hugging whenever we could and excitedly looking at the products that drew us. This radiating of love I am hopeful was able to provide a moment, however brief, of relief to those living in so much fear and tension right now. I can feel how the Covid situation has just illuminated this consciousness difference of living in fear or living in love. I don’t feel this as a judgement toward others or a superiority, yet rather symbolic of the polarization and duality that we have all shown up to be part of.

The jabs/shots are another means to separate us as those who choose them really ARE moving into an unknown and untested place of compromised immune system and even what feels like altered DNA, etc. Interestingly, the shots feel MUCH more dangerous to the human body than the virus that so many souls are afraid of. I am personally never going to get one and I would advise against any light workers/healers/awakening souls to do it, even if that means not being able to do certain things which we can then surrender into for a phase of time.

The Matrix is amping up its ultimate control program of the Great Reset, especially here in the UK. I do feel that we in SoulFullHeart we meant to be in this country during this time even as it has been challenging in moments. We are here to offer a beacon of love, of community, of depth of feeling, of trust in the Divine, and a life lived of healing fear to let in more love. I also feel we are here to bring healing energies to the grids of fear and love ambassadorship to those dark energies that have been in control for so long.

I send love to those who are using the Covid situation to mirror fears that are needing to come up. And I offer love to parts of them who need to judge those of us who are not in fear as it is the only way they know how to be. And I also choose to live in love and non-judgement, to trust love, and to be a lighthouse for others to do and be the same!

Love from Avalon,

Jelelle Awen

More info about 1:1 sessions, group call events, writings/books, videos, online community at soulfullheart.org.

What Is The False God?

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“Big clearings going on of all that has been hijacked by the Matrix/False God…our wombs/haras, bodies, minds, hearts are Sacred, Whole & FREE.” This was my status update the other day which got a lively response of resonance when I shared it.


I got this question from someone after posting it, “Can you explain more about what you mean by the False God?” I felt that I would respond to them here as a post rather than just in a private message as it is a good teaching to share.


The False God is a frequency generated by the Matrix at the AI/4D level that has created a distraction, diversion, and distortion of pure Divine love and light energies. With the separation out of the Divine that was chosen BY the Divine, fear was created that has been able to be used by different forces over time to their own advantages. This fear-based reality has been created (with our choice on the higher self level) to keep humanity and Gaia corralled and feeling trapped and enslaved in lower frequencies and denser consciousness realities. Some ‘darker’ Star Beings, with some human conscious collaboration, has operated and broadcast the 4D Matrix since the Fall of Atlantis. Negative Star Beings (also called Archons by the Gnostics) have been highly influencing and programming these human collaborators known as the Elite, the Cabal, the Illuminati, etc. These forces are the ones behind the Global Reset, the darker liberal agenda, Big Pharma/Hollywood/Business, etc. and are orchestrating what we are experiencing now of violation of our liberties and rights through restrictions, lockdowns, quarantines,  inoculations, etc.


The False God programs run on submission, punisher/shame dynamics, unworthiness, and giving over our sovereignty to a power outside of ourselves. Mainstream religions operate from these polarized False God programs, while containing some true light and love energies as well. The False God face and energy is often of a punitive, competitive, and patriarchal “Him” god, shorn of the balancing Divine Mother frequencies.The False God can also feel very dark, satanic, and even ‘evil’ although it is often not that overt or obvious. The Divine Mother can be hijacked by the False God as well with ‘old school’ feminine spirituality that promotes an anti-masculine/pro-feminine agenda through Will of the Goddess worship, dark rituals, moon cycle and moon blood worship (which is a hijack of the Womb Creatix powers by the Matrix-more coming soon about that).


The False God also shows up in some “New Age” offerings in which a false light bubble fed on a steady diet of positive affirmations, shallow spirituality, false gurus/abusive leaders, etc. that doesn’t allow for a deeper drop into the true transmutational ground of Divine Self embodiment and empowerment which includes the integration, love and acceptance of our shadows and ALL parts of us. The False God also operates at the 4D karmic levels from many lifetimes of experiencing it, creating suffering loops of incarnational cycles that play out the same soul themes/patterns over and over again.


The Ascension energies that are flowing into Gaia are watering seeds planted by higher dimensional Star Beings and the Magdalenes soul family lineage is now allowing for the revelation of the False God in all of its forms. This is bringing in a clearing of the fear and pain that has manifested through the worship of it. Through that healing and clearing, the true Divine can emerge from the heart, soul, DNA, wombs/haras of each of us at Its Divine children.


Many souls are now experiencing a wake up from this False God reality and into the new grounds of experiencing the true Divine, the true Christ, the true Divine Mother…..always originating from within us. From this place, we can now experience that we ARE free, we ARE whole, and we ARE sacred. We can then move back into union from within, with each other and with the Divine AS our Beloved.


There is much more about the Matrix and the False God in my book Free To Be 5D with links to purchase ebook, PDF, print and audio book versions at soulfulllheart.org/books.

art by Anna Baibakova

Love from Avalon!

Jelelle Awen


Kasha and I will be teaching more about healing the matrix womb hijacking and activating our love womb in an upcoming women’s group call over zoom on Sunday, March 7th. You can join us by donation with more information at https://www.facebook.com/events/1300057440381102 and soulfullheart.org.

Let Go & Let Peace During This Dark Initiatory Time | Jelelle Awen & The Magdalenes

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By Jelelle Awen

Energy Update: Emerging out of my honeymoon and Bridal Chamber consciousness for which I’ve been happily indulging lately with Raphael, I can feel, of course, the intensity of events and energies that are occurring in the collective, 3D, Matrix with the lockdowns, restrictions, quarantine, v*ccine agenda, etc. Especially this is in my awareness as we have beloveds coming to and looking to travel here to Glastonbury and are going through a travel gauntlet of sorts to arrive safely here in Avalon.


My Divine Feminine anchored consciousness can’t really be separated in any moment from feeling and hearing the ‘cries of the world’…it is just what happens as you let Her into your heart, body, and soul.


I feel for those of us who are so sensitive to the cries of the world, the cries of the children, the cries of the womb/women that are peaking during this Dark Night for the collective….we ARE being supported to rise above this sensitivity at times, to ‘turn down’ the dial of our empathic radar. To not get too far ‘into it’ that we become deeply overwhelmed or frustrated. We will tend to take these energies into our wombs and hearts AS IF they are are own, which they are from the Oneness and Soul Family dimensions.


Yet, also, the reminder comes often, especially from Mary Magdalene who lived through much suppression in her time from the Romans/Cabal, ‘to let go and let peace.’ She reminds us that EACH soul is on their own journey through the dark night passages that they NEED to go through and that they have signed up for. It is not for our feminine hearts to rescue or save anyone, even when the urge is strong to do so.


To respect the bigness and sovereignty of each soul is to connect to the higher realms from which they originate. It can especially help to do this with loved ones who are still anchored and plugged into the 3D Matrix, still conditioned by the mainstream everything, and still believe others more than their own intuitive guidance. Connecting to their Higher/Divine Self to compassionately understand the reasons for their consciousness choices can assist you in this. Often the greatest mercy on both sides is to let them go, to stop tugging or convincing, to stop battling or trying ‘win’ any arguments. Giving yourself the gift of resonance and support rather around you allows you to truly serve and become love.


Covid has pushed up the divisions and polarities in world views and consciousness, in humanity’s matrix reality, so that we can see where we are resonant with others and where there is dissonance. It has illuminated that many souls are still not awakened to their sovereignty yet. Many more souls can awaken though now who are on the tipping point of doing so.
The v*ccines are a form of bifurcation or ‘sorting rod’ in that way as those who choose to get them are moving into an unknown place of altered DNA and RNA (some of them) and last gasp Matrix programming entering into their every cell. This is their choice to do so and, again, we cannot rescue them from it. The true impact/side effects of them is not known and won’t be for many years yet the ‘energy’ of them doesn’t feel good or healthy for the body ultimately, especially the immune system. Those souls who are awakened to a place to see the control agenda in the v*ccine and the very real harm to their light bodies and consciousness are easily and already aware of what it harmful about it.


The current energies are supporting us to ‘rise above’ whatever we need to in order to truly become ambassadors of love, primarily to ourselves and any parts of us that need it. This is a painful time of difficult choices at times, yet it is held in much Divine love for ALL of us. The divisions are being highlighted, yet Unity is the ultimate truth.

These current challenges are a form of initiation for each of us and for humanity. How we respond to them, how we process them, how we navigate them offers us an opportunity to heal on many levels.

The Magdalenes are here to help us water the seeds of Ascension they planted in other timelines/lifetimes. Ask for Mary Magdalene, Yeshua, Mother Mary, Joseph, whomever you feel drawn to, for assistance and guidance during your personal walking out of this tumultuous time and they will BE there for you. Magdalene/Christ consciousness has been seeded in many and, although distorted by the Matrix in the form of mainstream religion, still retains its purity in those souls who respond to it and awaken to it.


Raphael and I offered a guided meditation from the Bridal Chamber yesterday to connect with Yeshua and Mary Magdalene energies as a bridge to experiencing the Divine AS your beloved:

https://youtu.be/97JMsCOJAYc

Much love from the heart chakra of Gaia…which is breaking it feels like in order to more fully OPEN,

Jelelle Awen & the Magdalenes
More Info about 1:1 sessions, group call events, online community portal, writings/books at soulfullheart.org. I offer much more in my Free To Be 5D book about the Ascension process, now available in audio, print, ebook, and PDF editions, with links at soulfullheart.org/books.

Coming Out Of Separation and Into Twin Flame/Counterpart Union

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I am emerging from my Honeymoon bubble with Raphael with a bit of wobbly legs, palpitating heart, fuzzy/altered mind, and hugely renewed sense of life/love/service! We’ve gone in deep together in the way that is unique to our bond in these last days….exploring physical body nuances and pleasures….I could share so much about the shared consciousness altering portal that is Yoni kissing, for example, and will someday!

We’ve also been diving into emotional areas that need to be felt and loved as well. Bringing realizations that arose during our separation and dropping in together into the parts of us that need to be felt in their fears, tensions, and doubts as well so that they can be bonded.

Rather than deny these parts of us or put them in shadow now that we are together again, we bring them forward to heard and felt by each other. We feel remorse as needed, advocate as desired, and LET GO of resentments/grudges and the past as guided. In this letting in and then letting go process, the past resentments literally dissolve between us as they’ve been felt so deeply by us as individuals. The new then arises out of this compassion for ourselves and each other.

Trying to transact EVERYTHING and resolve it just in the bond in a horizontal way doesn’t move it. It isn’t just about more conscious communication together or ‘staying in the room’ with each other or whatever a marriage counselor might advise as ‘saving the relationship’ type strategies. Sometimes a deep inner reboot is necessary where only YOU can hold the safe space that parts of you need to let go into, especially when you are connecting to archetypal energies and deep soul pieces that are many lifetimes in the making.

This was what Raphael and I were invited to go into by our Magdalene/Christ soul family recently. An intense initiation in which we couldn’t feel the hope for a future between us, where we truly needed to let go and lean into ourselves fully. We were gifted so much support during this arduous journey with our soul family here in the physical and in etheric connection with Anna, Yeshua, etc., as our soul family hardly ever went through these initiations alone. Avalon held the space for us with necessary activations and even the quietness of the winter season served us.

I felt during our vow renewal ceremony the Magdalenes celebrating our successful navigation of these grounds and endowing us with the gift of holding the mantle for pair bond reunion and soul family reunion for those drawn to us. Anna shared words with us of support and admiration and we all felt tears as she reassured us that she would ‘never ever leave us.’ And now lately has been the necessary celebration and feasting that comes after the initiation has been ‘passed’. The recovery and reaping the rewards that come from loved freed up from fear by truly GOING INTO that fear and transmuting it.

This is the process I feel Ascension is inviting us into in every moment, whether in a twin pair bond reunion or not….to move into our fears, even the ones at the collective level, and trust that love and the Divine will hold us through them. The bliss and joy I have felt these last days now surpasses the darkest hours of sadness and hurt and pain I felt during our separation. The grief is fading now….replaced by the pure ecstasy of rebooted appreciation and gratitude that flow out of a heart rapturously falling in love with the Beloved.

I can only experience the Divine AS Beloved most deeply and truly when I am with Raphael in deep union as he holds the Divine Masculine expression of it. This is how my soul ‘wired it up’ at the soul family monad level before individuating.

I have surrendered more deeply into this now as my purpose for being here to experience this reunion and am wanting to teach/serve from this awareness more deeply as well, even as I am constantly learning from it.

If you feel drawn to experience the clearing of the pathway to experience the Beloved through deep inner connection and through a pair bond supported by soul family, do feel into a 1:1 session with one of us and/or attending a group call event (like the one we are doing on Valentine’s Day February 14th) and to join our online community Portal. More information at soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions

So many of you on our social media accounts, especially facebook, have expressed your support and resonance withur separation and reunion so you very well may be feeling a call and draw to come closer. There IS a reason you are drawn to our story and that you feel deep resonance with it. Exploring that reason could open up a whole new timeline life of goodness and love!

The home of the love with the Beloved is waiting for you. Claim it and all the love you can possibly let in can be yours….love from Avalon!

Jelelle Awen

More information about 1:1 sessions, group call events, online community portal, and writings/books at soulfullheart.org

Imbolc Codes Offering A Bridge To Inner Realms & Womb Space

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Blessings during this sacred passage of Imbolc!

We are honoring today the beginnings of Spring and also of being in the halfway, which can feel like a void space to many of us….like a pregnant pause before the next is revealed. We are between the Winter Solstice and Spring Equinox….with the Divine Feminine face and form known as Brigid holding the space to feel this with us.

The energies of Brigid to me when I connect to Her are always about bridging…..the higher realms to the inner ones; the shifting seasons to each other; the deaths to the rebirths; the passages of the past to the ones upcoming. She offers this in ever transmuting ways, yet her fire element is honored on this day as a powerful alchemical force of transformation as you surrender to it.

I also feel Brigid offering a bridge to our wombs and second/third chakras on this day as Imbolc means, “In the belly”. Connecting with our womb space for women offers so much…..a transmission of stillness, depth, power, creativity, and aliveness. We can connect here to future birthings and water the seeds of them.

I experienced these transforming and bridging energies last night during our AMAZING monthly women’s group call in which we journeyed into the tender realm of the inner masculine and inner feminine dance within us. Twenty women joined Kasha and I live for this experience, with others signing up to receive the recording later on. Kasha and I shared about our personal journeys into this exploration through the SoulFullHeart process and also offered teachings around how we have seen and experienced the inner masculine and inner feminine show up for this often very polarized relationship within (due in large part to the templating we received on the outside of relationships.)

We also went into a meditative journey to invite your inner masculine and inner feminine to attend a Ball with Yeshua and Mary Magdalene in which they were the honored guests….bridging a unity consciousness frequency to them to whatever degree they could experience that. There were then many beautiful and vulnerable sharings from four women on the call for us all to learn from and take in!

We also have a lively conversation going on as follow up in our private women’s group on our SoulFullHeart Portal if you’d like to join us there: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co

You can purchase the recording of the call for women by offering a donation at paypal.me/jelelleawen or via the shop at soulfullheart.org/shop and we will email it to you.

Our next group call will be on Sunday, February 14th, Valentine’s Day at 5:00pm GMT….a transmission of Sacred Union codes with me and my newly reconciled beloved Taliesin! More info on that coming soon….

Love and blessings on Imbolc from Avalon!
We are getting together as a community to honor this day, whatever wants to be shared of our inner processes, and to move into the New!

More information about 1:1 sessions, future group call events, writings/books at soulfullheart.org.

Reunion and Reconciliation in Our Sacred Union (Personal Update)

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By Jelelle Awen

Oh, the dance of sacred union with a beloved counterpart is not a known, set, or predictable thing! It is full of surprises, challenges, initiations, deaths, and renewals. It can continually reinvent itself yet often the old grounds have to be completely let go of…a painful death process for which what is no longer serving the love is completely burnt up.

I am so grateful in this moment and celebrating to be re-emerging into romantic exploration again with Taliesin/Raphael after almost two months of separation from each other! After connecting more together and as a group in the last week, our new ground began to reveal itself and desire to explore it as well…surprising us both and yet not at the same time!I had some places of fear and resistance to navigate in my own inner sacred union for which the space from the intensity of our bond and connection really served me in that.

I was able to see and feel patterns of defensive reactivity at times from my inner masculine and feminine sourced in a deep fear of rejection/hurt/abandonment wound that I feel originates in the original separation from masculine and feminine twin pair bonds at the soul family monad level…much more about that to come as I am still in so much learning mode in the moment!

The sister connection and space living with Kasha has been so nourishing as well to my feminine expression for which I can feel more able to come out with Taliesin now. I am so grateful for her support and ongoing processing with me, including holding space for me to drop into some places that I needed to go with parts of me and on the Metasoul level as well.

Gabriel has also been a key support to us both, and esp to Taliesin, as their brotherhood bond deepens and their alchemy together and desire to serve men sparks and ignites in a beautiful show of SoulFire. I am grateful to both of them and to Deya as well for the support, witnessing, and trust they have in our souls to find our way through this. It has not been easy at times for them to be involved in this initiation process with us yet I do feel it has offered its own gifts for them as well based on their sharings with us about it.

I am taking it one moment at a time in terms of responding to this new calling into union with Taliesin (who feels like a NEW being in many ways yet so familiar too)….with waves of emotions coming in….a cascade of relief from the grief, some fear or distrust, and deep desire for the next level connection we are feeling is possible as we move out of the karmic room and into the bridal chamber of the Beloved. I do feel this was the invitation offered to us the entire time, an upgrade into more embodiment of our twin flame consciousness connection at the soul family monad level to bring it into more real life and yet we had to go through some solo initiations first to get ready for it.

I truly do feel this kind of resurrection out of so deeply letting a previous ground die and let go is so much more possible through this SoulFullHeart process!

Thank you for your support and love to and with us during our blissy and messy phases both….I hope it has all been template and inspiration to activate your own desires for inner and outer sacred union. There is NOTHING like the experience of it to move your personal growth and embodiment of your Divine Self to the next level!

love from Avalon (whose energies greatly supported us to let go and to come back together again), Jelelle

Pic is of us giving rose offerings at the Chalice Well (a lifeline) and declaring our intentions as we move into our next phase together…which we will also be doing today in connection with Imbolc or the beginnings of Spring.

Shadow Work That Isn’t ‘Work’ Or A Battle

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So much is said in spiritual circles about ‘shadow work’ and ‘shadow integration’…there is even some offer of how to do that, yet most of it feels quite vague, insistent, urgent, and even critical if it isn’t done somehow. My sense is that shadow work is not ‘work’ at all….yet rather is naturally occurring as we surrender to the Ascension process. It just organically happens within us and in the collective as more love comes on the scene. The Ascension process itself and the cosmic/galactic/Divine energies that support it induce and invite whatever is in shadow previously to reveal itself.

There is also a sense sometimes that ‘shadow’ equals bad, evil, dark or monstrous. This can be a fear projection and also protection from parts of us to divert from going into what has ACTUALLY been placed in shadow or simply what has been veiled to us. I have found so many times in deeper explorations with people during sessions that what is in their shadow (or just ‘off their radar’) is often the most precious parts of themselves such as the Inner Child or the Divine Orphan or the Star Seed Child, who has been tucked away into ‘dungeons’ and other such 4D spaces for safe keeping.

Many times what is in shadow is actually your BIGNESS as well and your power, as it was deemed too scary or not supported or just downright dangerous or life threatening to come out for some usually very good reasons, such as causing harm to others in previous lifetimes or due to being persecuted for sharing it. Soul gifts are also placed in shadow, where they wait until the proper timing and initiation for them to be shared and expressed.

There is ALWAYS a good reason that something has been placed in the shadows. To discover what that reason is requires negotiation directly with the part or soul aspect that put it there, WHY they did, and to feel the ‘shadow’ part/aspect directly as well with tons of love and compassion to digest their reality. This is the journey that we go on in SoulFullHeart…to access the Inner Protector or Gatekeeper or other aspect that has parked whatever it is and whoever it is in the shadows, under the veils, and often tightly under guard. We don’t just barrel ‘in there’ to retrieve or rescue or just do a one-time regression. Your Divine Self leads this relationship building exploration with patience and gentleness over time so that any parts of you that are afraid of what has been put in shadow or are protective or ‘fused to it’ are able to be held and supported.

Yes, it is organic for the shadow to be revealed during Ascension, yet how you ARE in that process makes all the difference to being integrated into your Divine Self expression in an empowered and embodied way. There is much support, especially from the Divine Feminine, for us to approach our own heart and souls healing this way instead of doing any kind of battling with it or to become some kind of shadow warrior. Battling always leads to more battling, with a cost on both sides. Courage to go into these previously veiled places now can come from our hearts rather from our swords.

We can become love ambassadors to ANYTHING within us and, as we do, true and last transmutation can happen from something being in the shadows to suddenly thriving in the light of our Divine Self love.

Love from Avalon (with its strong activations of heart chakra LOVE to transmute anything!)

Jelelle Awen

More information about shadow revelation and shadow integration 1:1 sessions and group calls (including a women’s call this Sunday to reveal your inner sacred union ‘in the shadows’!) at soulfullheart.org

And by far my most popular guided meditation to meet your shadow: https://youtu.be/4VnfgzhzzjE

Intense 2020 Completing As Dark Night Matrix Revelation Continues Into 2021

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As 2020 comes to a completion, there is a sense of the intensity that this year has been for all of us. There have been life changing and unprecedented shifts, transitions, and revelations for humanity as a whole. Most of these shifts have been about disclosure and revelation of the Matrix 3D reality and the trap/confines/manipulative programming it has offered.

The bars of the prison cell have been revealed this year to more and more souls…..even as the reality of the door to the cell ALWAYS being open has been offered as well. This year has showed us the false light of the matrix, its artificialness that we have all grown up under….even as our every cell and souls have yearned for and eventually seek out sources of REAL light from the Divine. This year has also been about a constant invitation to feel the Divine purpose holding ALL of it (no matter how crazy and arbitrary and even unfair it has seemed) and to continually surrender into trust in that purpose. And to also move out of polarized ‘us against them’ thinking and see/feel that we are ALL children of the Divine ultimately with each of us playing their ‘part’.

Those of us oriented to spiritual realities, subtle energy realms, and altered states of consciousness beyond 3D have been TRULY challenged this year to trust these states, lean into them and tap into them even MORE than 3D reality. We have had to dig in deep to our soul’s connection with the Divine and access the bigger picture…in order to understand and digest the craziness of 3D narratives. Soaring at the eagle’s eye view has never been more important…even as we open our hearts to feel the cries of the world and our own.

For me personally, this year has offered me both my deepest wishes coming true (such as finally living in Avalon with my community!) and continual invitation to let go of timing and how I thought those dreams would manifest and unfold (such as wanting to have been here months sooner, no longer being able to travel easily in the mission-based way that I had planned). Perpetual surrender to the Divine and coveting self intimacy with parts of myself and my soul has been my lifeline through making many major life changes, with even some significant ones happening right in this moment that I will share about soon.

These are times where our Divine Self MUST show up eventually to hold parts of us in reaction….or we are lost and veiled in fear, darkness, suffering, and self punishment. Some souls still need to choose this fused state as is their sovereign choice. This year has shown all of us where we are on the spectrum of embodiment of our Divine Self as we have had to truly ‘walk our talk’ in the sense of our spirituality needing to answer real life dilemmas and challenging situations.

It feels like 2021 will continue to offer more process of Dark Night for many souls before opening out into True Light realities. The New Earth timeline manifests/sprouts from within our consciousness before it can become our daily lived-in reality as a collective (which may be many years away still). There will be much to ‘ride out’ again in this next year and times where it will feel like it is quite dark, especially related to the mass rollout of their ‘false medicine or cure’ that those of us with expanded senses can see is truly poison for the light body with a hidden agenda around its availability.

It does feel like we choose to come here during this time of Dark Night moving into True Light, even to experience all of its ups and downs…the possibilities of sacred humanity truly rising was just too special and tempting to pass up. We are here to serve love within ourselves and to those souls who will be in so much cognitive and heart dissonance/shock as the veil lifts on all of this.

As I tune in here to the heart chakra energies of the beautiful planetary consciousness known as Gaia from Avalon, I can feel the blueprints for sacred humanity’s arising resurrection reality within Her. She holds this, as does our awakening DNA, our soul’s consciousness, and our Divine Selves. I feel our access to these energies will also be more fluid in 2021, as the veils lift and the Dark Night Deepens in certain ways, so are we all then ‘freed’ to go somewhere new.

Much love to you from Avalon as we complete this bliss mess year of 2020 and move into 2021.

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Here is a video where I offer more about this Dark Night moving to True Light process: https://youtu.be/n_RwhuQx7v4

More information about 1:1 sessions, group call events, writings/books, our online community at soulfullheart.org

I choose this photo at the Glastonbury Abbey to represent 2021 as there are the ‘ruins’ of the Matrix around us even as the light of a New Dawn is coming in.