Forgive Me, Father, As I Forgive You

By Jelelle Awen

“Forgive me, Father, as I forgive you…” This prayer came to me today as I was tuning into Divine Father frequencies in preparation for our women’s group call with Kasha this Sunday where we will share about healing the false father wound to let in Divine Father.

The religious version, “Forgive me, Father, for I have sinned,” is what originally came through today, feeling like a relic from many lifetimes of confessional, shame-based worship and self inquiry rooted in unworthiness.

Feeling sinful and asking a punitive Father God for forgiveness/to be deemed worthy enough for ‘Heaven’ is a program that can be challenging to deprogram from, as wired up as we are from the Matrix to believe that we are bad, wrong, and sinful. This programming actually blocks us from receiving TRUE and pure forgiveness frequencies from the Divine Father that empower us to experience Heaven within us.

As we unplug from this False Father programming, we are able to have and embody growing autonomy, self love, self worth, and our own goodness…and experience of our OWN Divinity. Yet, this programming runs deep. Beyond the religious programming, it has also been showing itself in the rampant abuses on all levels between mostly male gurus/spiritual teachers and their followers. This abuse is being exposed more, yet still so many vulnerable wounded daughters especially are drawn into the seduction of a holy father in the flesh that finally accepts, sees, and wants them (even if in very inappropriate ways at times.)

I am still digesting, even years later, my own experience of this kind of false father/teacher relationship with a former teacher of mine. I will share more about this in the women’s call… how I recovered, what I learned from it, and my process of forgiving him and myself.

While connecting with Divine Mother is very natural and fluid for me, it has been more challenging for me to commune with Divine Father. The blocks have also come from the woundings/traumas from an absentee birth father and series of mixed step-father experiences. I’ve also had some lifetimes as a nun in devotion to the Holy Father and as a devotee to male gurus/teachers that I have needed to heal and reconcile.

Letting in Divine Father has deepened for me over the years as I clear and feel these blocks/fears/resistances within parts of me and soul aspects. Divine Mother has been a bridge to this as She shows me how to love Him again and receive His love. As my Divine Daughter arises to accept love and embrace from the Divine Father, I often find there is more forgiveness to be exchanged from my heart to His and to then receive from Him.

So, today it was, “Forgive me Father as I forgive you,” and my Inner Daughter is still in process of this, for which He readily forgives….and offers His ever ongoing love to allow the healing process to deepen and continue.

Join us on Sunday, March 30th at 5:00pm BST/12:00pm EDT/9:00am PDT for the two hour women’s group call to explore the false father wound through teachings, a guided meditation journey, and sharings. You can offer whatever donation amount you would like to (usual is around $10 CAD) at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen and we will email you the zoom link and the recording afterwards. More info at soulfullheart.org/events.

Love from Avalon,

Jelelle Awen

Healing The Father False Wound To Let In Divine Father Women’s Group Call May 30 | Jelelle Awen & Kasha Rokshana

By Jelelle Awen

Hope you can join Kasha Rokshana and I for our last women’s group call here in Avalon before we leave for Portugal! The focus of this group in one week on Sunday, May 30, 2021 at 5:00pm/17:00pm BST (London, UK time zone/12:00pm EDT/9:00am PDT) will be healing the False Father wound to open up connection more to the Divine Father.

Healing the father wound to let in Divine Father is a new ground for us to cover in a group call and was requested by recent participants. This call will complement the powerfully tender women’s call we did recently on healing the mother wound to let in Divine Mother. This feels like a timely place to go as the sacred masculine becomes more available within and with the Divine as the False Masculine/wounded patriarchal Matrix continues to be exposed and collapse.

For most women, our fatherly experience has been either one of domineering, judgement, outright abuse, possessiveness, etc.…..or disconnected, absent, and vacant. Our daughter inside (especially our Inner Teenager) is often left uninitiated and invalidated by an outer masculine father figure, which impacts our sense of our own worthiness, sexuality, desirability as women and our romantic relationships as parts of us may be seeking a replacement father figure or pushing away from the masculine due to our father wounding. This can leave traumas and wounds within parts of us that block our receiving and letting in of the Divine Father energies that keep us plugged into the Matrix as well.

We will also talk about how the punitive False Father God of mainstream religions and the False Teacher/Guru (with hidden abusive patterns) of many spiritualities has also been traumatizing on a soul level and left a deep void and unknown around the experience of pure frequencies of a Divine Father. We will share our personal journeys around healing the false father experiences from this life and other lifetimes in order to let in Divine Father and also be in deepening sacred union grounds with our beloved masculine partners.

During this call, we will guide you in a meditative space into a healing sisterhood circle with all the souls on the call.You will connect with the part of you that has most experienced the fatherhood wound (your inner daughter or whatever soul aspect that wants to come through) and invite them to move into the higher-dimensional God chamber to experience unconditional love with Divine Father. We will be joined by various Divine Father faces/forms such as Yeshua, Joseph of Arimathea, Father Sky, etc. We will also repeat “I Am” mantras that recode the Father experience.

You can receive the link/recording for an energy exchange of whatever donation you feel to give. You can purchase the Zoom link to join us live for the group and receive the recording through your email at soulfullheart.org/shop.

Or you can purchase it here through paypal and we will send you the zoom link via email. paypal.me/jelelleawen

Please make a note that you are purchasing the May 30th women’s group and check that your email is current.​

Love,

Jelelle and Kasha

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SoulFullHeart Museletter: May 1, 2021

The energies of the past two weeks have been bringing up more to feel for all of us individually and the opportunities to awaken and to continue unplugging from the Matrix have been plenty. In today’s issue, we have a featured article that sends an invitation from Divine Mother to all who are ready to deepen in relationship with Her at this time. She offers both a balm and a reality check around what you most need in this and any moment.

Jelelle and Kasha are co-hosting a women’s call focused on healing the ‘mother wound’ to let in Divine Mother on Sunday May 2nd at 5pm BST. You can find more information in this Museletter and also via soulfullheart.org/events.

There are many energy updates and current events digestions as well for you to take in as a support for you at this time.

You can check out the Museletter here.

Much love from all of us!

~ The SoulFullHeart Community

Post Supermoon: Invitation From Divine Mother Into Deeper Connection With Her

By Kasha Rokshana

Feeling Divine Mother strongly this morning, especially as we exit the full/super moon (and its mixed energies). Feeling Her vast and deep heart that is always active and present, Her embrace, Her stillness even when She must stir up storms within and without.

Feeling how She invites all of us into deeper trust in Her… in Her shadows and light, in all purposes She holds beyond what we can comprehend in every moment. She is always gently yet also firmly encouraging us to go inward and move forward, with a profound love that many of us have no reference point for from this lifetime or many others.

It’s Her realness I’m leaning into this morning, as I feel my own vulnerable fears and tears that live in parts of me and Metasoul aspects at times… the feelings of going forward with a momentum fueled by so much Divine trust, while also letting in the heartbreak of letting go of a world we all once knew, that I have had my own attachments to, that is all now burning up and crumbling into Divine ashes. It’s not enough to trust the Divine without also feeling the pain that comes up in our hearts… the pain of our inner world letting go to let in, but also the pain of the much larger world that is also crying out for Her love and, as we are all Divine ourselves, for our love too.

I’ve felt over and over again the leaps of faith that the Divine invites me into and the arms them outstretched to catch me as I also catch myself. I feel how this is the invitation to the whole world… to let burn what needs to burn, to let play out what needs to play out, even as we also need to speak out when we feel to… to cry the tears that need to be shed… to let go, even of what or who was once considered beloved if the resonance is not deepening.

I feel Her encouragement, now more than ever, to let go of any ‘false gods’ which include ‘false mothers’ and ‘mother-figures’… authorities that once felt trustworthy, birth parents that you have now outgrown in consciousness, friendships that serve your smallness and not your bigness.

All of this, as She is well aware, needs time and space to process and yet, there is a cost that can accumulate as you waver in your resolve while parts of you who are afraid to let go of what is known, continue to lead your life’s decisions and indecisions.

Mother has so much patience for it all, yet will also offer us a prickly nest as needed… to help us fly, at last. To help us truly see and take ownership of our own journeys, no matter what the hills and valleys are that we may face on the way.

Join Jelelle Awen and I this Sunday, May 2nd @5pm BST for a women’s group call focused on healing the false mother wound to let in Divine Mother. We have both had such deep journeys in our own processes around this and look forward to helping you activate, deepen, or reboot your own connection to Divine Mother in whatever face, form, or energy you need Her to show up with the most right now.

You can donate via our shop: soulfullheart.org/shop

or PayPal: paypal.me/jelelleawen

Love,

Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Moving Through The Lunar False Mother Matrix Energies

By Jelelle Awen

The Supermoon energies are FINALLY easing up a bit feels like. These energies have been intense…bringing many of us into catalytic initiations, timeline collapses, relationship challenges/completions, and more. Everything has been heightened and amplified by these frequencies, every reaction and trigger and response….as if you can’t take a breath or slow the ride…yet need to surrender to wherever it wants to take you.

These energies (and those of Ascension ongoingly) have seemed to want us to get REAL with ourselves and with others. Popping whatever inauthenticity is there, moving us into being genuine, not back pressuring our truth to caretake others (I am still working that one for sure), bringing up sudden and sometimes painful confrontations…all necessary for each to find their own way as efficiently as possible while this great bifurcation happens as we move from 3D to 4D to 5D.

There are the genuine lunar energies of Divine Feminine illumination that are accessible, yet, also, these energies have been hijacked in many ways by the Matrix AI system for a long time since the fall of Atlantis/Lemuria. The moon worshipping/Goddess spirituality practices from other lifetimes/timelines didn’t get this bigger picture that we have now, not realizing they were living inside of a Matrix system. This is part of the False Mother Matrix that is quite insidious and entangled in often deeply personal ways within us and in our collective too.

The immediate choice points of requiring high frequencies of resonance in our lives on ALL levels are happening now. Infiltration by the Matrix energies is becoming much more obvious now as the veil lifts around it, it goes into its death throes and last grasps. You can more clearly see someone’s or something’s previously hidden motives or agendas or Matrix influenced realities/perception filters. These are being revealed so that they can see them too for possible healing and reconciliation.

Divine surrender and landing in forgiveness within the heart of Divine Mother has been my safe shelter during this current storm over and over again. She waits for you too, with open arms and heart…as you extract and unplug from the False Mother matrix (which includes the hijacked moon energies) to let her in more and more.

The reminder of returning to love is always there within the true Divine Mother’s heart…..to receive ready forgiveness, and to embody our sacred humanity again. She will also challenge us when we are being false or not real with ourselves, even if it causes us temporary pain or discomfort. She does not coddle or caretake us so that we avoid the necessary initiations that we need to go through, even as she provides GREAT compassion for us all along the way.

We are invited to RISE even as we need to move through some necessary ups and downs as we go, stumbles and falls, before we DO.

We are in the process of reclaiming our sacred humanity. Reclaiming our wombs and haras. Reclaiming our moon. Reclaiming love…which has been holding all of us all along.

Love from Avalon,

Jelelle Awen

In our next women’s group meditation call, Kasha and I will explore and offer a guided meditation to heal the false mother wound to let in Divine Mother on this Sunday at 5:00pm BST/12:00pm EST. Feels like it will offer a significant unplugging process from the False Mother Matrix. You can join us by donation with more info at soulfullheart.org/events or https://www.facebook.com/events/452075722533275

Art by Freydon Rassouli

Divine Love & Context For These Times w/ The Stanton Drew Standing Stones

by Kasha Rokshana

Really getting how much the Divine honours us all for our souls’ willingness to BE here… especially today for some reason that my mind cannot grab at but my heart can feel. Perhaps it’s the incoming energies and/or perhaps it’s my own process and how it’s unfolding in connection with the process of others in this collective that is currently very overwhelmed.

When I reunited with the standing stones at Stanton Drew the other day, I felt so many things… reunion with the galactic and Inner Earth which the stones felt like an ancient liaison for; a renewed sense of purpose for myself and my community here on this planet at this time; and waves of support to keep going, even though times here on Gaia are intensifying and challenging in necessary ways for the sake of our Ascension.

There’s a lot we are all still unplugging from at this time. Many false gods and false divine parent energies that we’ve been plugged into through our wombs and haras and to which parts of us have willingly given up their discernment and intuition about what’s actually true beyond any offered (and especially mainstream) narrative. This unplugging and awakening was never promised to be clean or easy. The messiness is just as needed as the love that holds space for it. There’s now way for parts of us to self-medicate and avoid feeling the reality that’s unfolding for too long and this can feel like a mixed blessing, as feeling what’s real brings necessary heartbreak yet also brings the truth of Divine love forward to be felt and let in as the heart readies itself to receive it.

I feel as if the struggle to land in the context – the great WHY which the Divine holds – of what we’re all feeling and facing has to do with relying far too much on the information given to us and not enough on our own inner worlds and what feels true there, no matter how much that truth shifts and is meant to shift, actually. I feel something new in me personally too, where I’m sacredly learning how to lean into what’s being offered but also feel it for myself and at my own rate and pace, aligning more with what my own soul needs in the NOW and feeling the parts of me that may feel a bit bombarded or overwhelmed not just by information but by the energy with which it’s being offered.

Through your own heart and soul lies a context, a sacred reason for being here that only you can really know, though with the right resonance and beloved souls in your life, you can see it through their mirrors as well. I feel so blessed to have this and be this for my own beloveds as we navigate life together in this intimate community… ❤️

The Divine feels us all in the overwhelm as we ascend and the fears that come up of what this truth or that truth could mean in the long run. I feel the Divine voice of the standing stones at Stanton Drew and the standing stones anywhere else in the world, offering that we are invited to stand tall and firm within ourselves while being open to the changing tides and times we’re in, being and serving love from our centers with open hearts. We’re invited to feel and see our value, our reason for being here, and to trust that we are equipped to weather any storm we’re faced with as we awaken and unplug from the false and back into the Divine.

The support is always around and within us… we have only to keep seeking it out and letting it in. 

Love,

Kasha

Raphael and Jelelle will be offering a group meditation call on Sunday the 18th over Zoom by donation. It will be focused on digesting the ongoing C-VID narrative(s) and offering some ways to feel the context of what the planet is moving through and how you can dive deeper into your own process around it. More info here: soulfullheart.org/events

Also, my beloveds and I are available for 1:1 space holding sessions and Gabriel and I offer free 45min intro calls as well: soulfullheart.org/sessions —- these sessions are very much about your sovereign voice and energy in this world, though we have a paradigm from which we come as well. If it resonates for you, I do recommend feeling deeper into sessions, as the support could be exactly what your soul has been needing and your parts have been longing for. ♥️🕊

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Womb Healing & Activation Women’s Meditation Group Call March 7th | Jelelle Awen & Kasha Rokshana

Our wombs, which includes both our second and third chakras, is a powerful space of creativity, alchemy, stillness, and bridge to our Sacred Feminine capacities as Creatrix of life. Our wombs become filled with pain/trauma layers from this life and other lifetimes, other people’s energies, and even the collective…in this way they are ‘pain wombs’ rather than ‘love wombs’. In addition, our wombs have been hijacked by the 3D/4D Matrix since the fall of Atlantis and the rise of the wounded masculine dominance, so our access to the purity essence of our womb is often very covered over and not fully activated.

This hijacking includes how we experience our monthly menstrual cycles as ‘natural’ when they are actually a suppressive program that effectively and significantly reduces our energy levels and for many of us causes quite a lot of pain and discomfort. We can hold our period cycles with a sense of honoring to our bodies and certainly not with shame or judgement about them, yet to revere them and our menstrual blood can connect to and even draw in the lower 4D Matrix frequencies. This is often bleed through from other timelines/lifetimes where pro-feminine/anti-masculine ritual and ceremony was practiced without awareness of the darker influences that were going on at other dimensional levels.

As we activate the powerful sovereignty contained in our wombs through a personal connection with her (including a ‘naming’ of her), we can then start to clear, heal and remember our infinite capacities of choice as sacred feminine humans. Our capacity to create WHOLE universes includes choices at the personal level toward our procreation, our aging process, our hormonal levels, and ALL biological functions of our bodies. We reclaim ultimate conscious choice over our bodies on all levels, which effectively unplugs us from any Matrix programs.

Kasha and I will be sharing more about this in our next women’s meditation group call on Sunday, March 7th, 2021 at 5:00pm/17:00pm GMT (London, UK timezone/12:00pm EST/9:00am PST). We will talk about this womb hijacking and how that impacts what we experience within our wombs during menstrual cycles, false mother frequencies, other people’s energies, aborted/still gestating/blocked creative projects and expressions, and suppression of our truth. Through a personal relationship with our wombs and supported by the Divine Mother we can heal these layers to move into activation of this powerful force within us and connect to the Cosmic Womb. We will share our personal journeys with this process and our wombs during the call.

During this call, we will also guide you in a meditative space into a safe healing dimension to allow deep connection to your womb and activation. Mother Mary and Mary Magdalene will join us as a template of Mother and Lover/Priestess energies for our wombs to template from and be supported by. We will also repeat affirmations as mantras together and share light language together.

We did a womb healing and activation call on Sunday with women who are deeply in the SoulFullHeart process and it was very powerful for all of us. Even just 15 minutes connecting into the womb space together in this personal, relational and feeling-based way that bypasses the matrix and old school spirituality programs was very effective!

You can receive these Divine Feminine frequencies live with us (highly recommended) or take in the recording afterwards. If you attend the live group, you’ll have the opportunity to share with us about what you experienced during the meditation and receive feedback/next steps of integration from us.This women’s group is open to the public and to all women over 18. You can attend the group and/or receive the recording for an energy exchange of whatever donation you feel to give.

You can purchase the Zoom link to join us live for the group and receive the recording through your email at soulfullheart.org/shop

Or you can purchase it here through paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawenand we will send you the zoom link via email. Please make a note that you are purchasing the March 7th women’s group and check that your email is current.

More information here https://www.facebook.com/events/1300057440381102 and here: https://www.soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

I share about the False God/Matrix here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/what-is-the-false-god…/

Love from Avalon….the heart of sacred feminine healing on Gaia at this time,

Jelelle Awen

What Is The False God?

“Big clearings going on of all that has been hijacked by the Matrix/False God…our wombs/haras, bodies, minds, hearts are Sacred, Whole & FREE.” This was my status update the other day which got a lively response of resonance when I shared it.


I got this question from someone after posting it, “Can you explain more about what you mean by the False God?” I felt that I would respond to them here as a post rather than just in a private message as it is a good teaching to share.


The False God is a frequency generated by the Matrix at the AI/4D level that has created a distraction, diversion, and distortion of pure Divine love and light energies. With the separation out of the Divine that was chosen BY the Divine, fear was created that has been able to be used by different forces over time to their own advantages. This fear-based reality has been created (with our choice on the higher self level) to keep humanity and Gaia corralled and feeling trapped and enslaved in lower frequencies and denser consciousness realities. Some ‘darker’ Star Beings, with some human conscious collaboration, has operated and broadcast the 4D Matrix since the Fall of Atlantis. Negative Star Beings (also called Archons by the Gnostics) have been highly influencing and programming these human collaborators known as the Elite, the Cabal, the Illuminati, etc. These forces are the ones behind the Global Reset, the darker liberal agenda, Big Pharma/Hollywood/Business, etc. and are orchestrating what we are experiencing now of violation of our liberties and rights through restrictions, lockdowns, quarantines,  inoculations, etc.


The False God programs run on submission, punisher/shame dynamics, unworthiness, and giving over our sovereignty to a power outside of ourselves. Mainstream religions operate from these polarized False God programs, while containing some true light and love energies as well. The False God face and energy is often of a punitive, competitive, and patriarchal “Him” god, shorn of the balancing Divine Mother frequencies.The False God can also feel very dark, satanic, and even ‘evil’ although it is often not that overt or obvious. The Divine Mother can be hijacked by the False God as well with ‘old school’ feminine spirituality that promotes an anti-masculine/pro-feminine agenda through Will of the Goddess worship, dark rituals, moon cycle and moon blood worship (which is a hijack of the Womb Creatix powers by the Matrix-more coming soon about that).


The False God also shows up in some “New Age” offerings in which a false light bubble fed on a steady diet of positive affirmations, shallow spirituality, false gurus/abusive leaders, etc. that doesn’t allow for a deeper drop into the true transmutational ground of Divine Self embodiment and empowerment which includes the integration, love and acceptance of our shadows and ALL parts of us. The False God also operates at the 4D karmic levels from many lifetimes of experiencing it, creating suffering loops of incarnational cycles that play out the same soul themes/patterns over and over again.


The Ascension energies that are flowing into Gaia are watering seeds planted by higher dimensional Star Beings and the Magdalenes soul family lineage is now allowing for the revelation of the False God in all of its forms. This is bringing in a clearing of the fear and pain that has manifested through the worship of it. Through that healing and clearing, the true Divine can emerge from the heart, soul, DNA, wombs/haras of each of us at Its Divine children.


Many souls are now experiencing a wake up from this False God reality and into the new grounds of experiencing the true Divine, the true Christ, the true Divine Mother…..always originating from within us. From this place, we can now experience that we ARE free, we ARE whole, and we ARE sacred. We can then move back into union from within, with each other and with the Divine AS our Beloved.


There is much more about the Matrix and the False God in my book Free To Be 5D with links to purchase ebook, PDF, print and audio book versions at soulfulllheart.org/books.

art by Anna Baibakova

Love from Avalon!

Jelelle Awen


Kasha and I will be teaching more about healing the matrix womb hijacking and activating our love womb in an upcoming women’s group call over zoom on Sunday, March 7th. You can join us by donation with more information at https://www.facebook.com/events/1300057440381102 and soulfullheart.org.