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Shaped By The Masculine : A Poem

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by Kasha Rokshana

When the feminine is shaped

Not suppressed

By the masculine

Inside and outside of her…

Something magical happens.

Defences are looked at,

Felt,

And the need for them 

Healed.

Truths are brought

Allowed space

And able to be 

Honoured

…on BOTH sides.

When the masculine

Inside and out

Is shaping

You,

You will quake 

As you awaken.

Your mind won’t know 

Where to file it

But your heart will know

What’s moved because of it.

No longer only ripening,

Your fruit

Is ready to be enjoyed,

Your flower blossoms 

Are ready to be seen,

Your fragrance is ready 

To be taken in

Deeply.

This is the power of the attention

Of the healing masculine,

Who even in his own imperfections

Is not shy to hold a mirror for your own,

Even if in the goodness of his heart

He shakes

As he makes his own truth relevant

While the tides of society, culture,

And even spirituality,

Have somehow turned against him…

Telling him what goodness is 

And looks like,

What he should or should not do

‘To’ the feminine,

And what he should or should not

Suppress or control

In himself

And even in his relationships.

Dear feminine,

The masculine is needed.

YOUR masculine is needed.

Even in his journey of returning to

And reclaiming

His King of Heart and Soul

Which never went away

But was locked up in shadow

And hidden away

For fear of his own power

And what it has caused before.

As the feminine,

He is in need of you too

For the same shaping

And not suppressing,

For the same answer

To the same aches

To be seen, loved, and forgiven.

Love,

Kasha (and all her feminine aspects) ♥️

*Artwork by Matteo Arfanotti

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Feeling & Honouring The ‘Inner Masculine/King’ Within The Feminine

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by Kasha Rokshana

Kings on the outside are returning to themselves. Men are awakening to their masculine core essences. They’re playing in the polarities they need to in order to discover themselves anew and reclaim their Kingship. There’s a lot to this process for the masculine that we as feminines can’t totally understand, except we ARE afforded a portal of some understanding through feeling our own inner masculine aspects/parts, who are in a similar process at times. 

Actually, the feminine equivalent of this process for men is a reclaiming of our Queen. She is an energy of benevolence but also has deep pain and often quite the missing of an authentic masculine counterpart – a King – in order to truly experience herself AS a Queen. Yes, I AM saying that as women we do need the masculine in our lives, in our hearts, in our bodies… as beautiful and necessary as our independence also is. 

Enter now the process of feeling your inner masculine, or you could say, your inner King. This process now offers a way for your Queen to show up in relationship to a King energy, even if it’s polarized for a while as the aches and pains of want, desire, and deep hurt now surface more so than they could have before. 

Having recently been in a long term Sacred Union bond, I can say without hesitation that my Queen got to blossom because of relating to the masculine on the outside. Also though, I couldn’t have drawn this opportunity without first having had a lot of process ground with masculine energies inside of me. I’ve experienced and felt the polarized reactions in the inner world… the hesitations and hang-ups, the love and the fighting for more love. Even today I feel there’s some tension in moments between my masculine and feminine energies, yet most of the time it feels like there’s more harmony and understanding there, more feeling of each other, and more overall unity/oneness.

I so deeply welcome you to join me and Jelelle Awen as we co-lead an upcoming women’s call focused on this process of feeling your inner masculine! It’s by donation and if you can’t attend live you’ll receive the recording, though I highly recommend coming live if you can as the womb room we create together as a group is always warm and inviting!

You can donate by visiting our shop here: soulfullheart.org/shop or via PayPal: paypal.me/jelelleawen

I’ll include the call description below so you can take in some more details about where we’re going with this one.

Love,

Kasha ♥️

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Description: 

The Inner Masculine within a woman has many different expressions as a very sacred part/energy of our inner worlds. This range of expression can move from highly protective, fatherly energies that can be punishing to more of an ‘ideal masculine mate’ in pursuit of the feminine. The inner masculine is an aspect/part that helps women navigate the patriarchal frequencies of the Matrix in whatever ways he feels are necessary. This can sometimes bring out something overbearing in him, though he can also feel quite defeated and deflated too, especially if he hasn’t been able to help or offer support in the way he’d most like to, or helped you/parts of you avoid difficult or dark situations.

Having an intimate relationship with your Inner Masculine as a woman, whether you are single or in union with a mate, helps to illuminate your relationship to the Divine Masculine/Father expressions of the Divine. You can get a sense then of why you may feel blocked to letting them in as well as why there may be a pattern of difficult or even non-existent relationships with men on the outside. Connecting deeply with the Inner Masculine offers us (and them) so many layers of healing from the impact of other men, whether mates, fathers or other authority figures, which eventually and ideally leads to a deep forgiveness that makes room for a whole NEW experience of the masculine inside and out.

In a two-hour women’s group call on Sunday, September 18th at 5:00/17:00pm WEST (Lisbon/London)/12:00pm EDT/9:00am PDT, SoulFullHeart Sacred Feminine Teachers and Facilitators Jelelle Awen and Kasha Rokshana will explore connecting with the Inner Masculine through sharing our personal journeys and also experiences in supporting women through our SoulFullHeart quantum healing process. We will share about how through a personal relationship with your Inner Masculine, you will also come to know your feminine parts/aspects in a whole new way and on a new ground of beginning or deepening your Inner Sacred Union, which moves between your masculine and feminine parts, as well.

During this call, we will co-lead a guided meditation to connect with your Inner Masculine with the support of Divine Masculine guides, who will help hold space for this exploration and invite your masculine part(s) into a nourishing and empowering energy where they can be real and even vulnerable. You will meet with your Inner Masculine however he is expressing at this time, and feel into the relationship he currently has with your feminine parts. We will also repeat affirmations as mantras together to recode our relationships between us and our Inner Masculine individually and together as women.

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Lion’s Gate Invitation To Emerge Into Infinite Possibilities & Infinite Love

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by Kasha Rokshana

To move out of tight-feeling places, smallness, feelings of being stuck and stagnant, takes oomph and even a ROAR at times. I feel this Lion’s Gate is inspiring this movement in myself and others, this desire to launch off a springboard and leap into the air of infinite possibilities and infinite love.

Something becomes so normalized in our Matrix connection around feeling small and the layers of this take so long sometimes, so many years, so much processing, so much deep feeling to move through. We’re conditioned to believe that ‘this is as good as it gets’ and then parts of us can become very afraid to imagine anything more is possible. Scarcity is God. Abundance is something you can only wait and work for and it may not even come to you. Unworthiness is the foundation upon which your ‘house of life’ has been built.

I’ve been feeling my Queen aspect quite a lot lately and feeling a new sense of my inner masculine King as well. They’re showing me their stuck and fearful places and where they haven’t connected deeply together, along with what they both desire to become. They are heading toward a reconciliation within themselves, with each other, and with me, plus also with the Divine which is a connection they both want to embody more. They want new levels of collaboration together without pushing or prodding, just mutual evolution and dance with their own wishes and desires. My Queen dreams and my King makes it happen. And well, maybe sometimes it’s meant to go the other way too where my King is the dreamer/visionary and my Queen can help birth it into being. I feel how they want to have a new level of maturity around this together and truly stay in the room now without suppression or fear… and I humbly feel how that’s in process for them both and not yet mastered.

This Lion’s Gate seems to really be supporting us all to move out of the Matrix at a new level, yet with honouring of the sacredness of the smallness-settling/settling for suffering too. Feeling our inner dynamics between parts/aspects is a way to do this that really brings it all inward, takes responsibility for what’s been created in the outer world, and begins to turn the ship around. There’s nothing to leap over or to make wrong in the process of feeling it all and feeling why parts of us have been ok with that being their only possible reality. Yet, maybe now it’s time to feel into the steps that can be taken to move out of it more.

Your own patterns, if you’re anything like me, may have to do with money earning and a huge mountain to climb around stability being accessible yet also using your own creativity to keep that moving along even if you do need to lean into being an ‘employee’ of some kind for a while. They may also have to do with wanting to feel more centred in the infinite possibilities of life and of love, to feel like no matter what, you’re drawing to you what you need to experience to keep you moving beyond even the most subtle suffering loops about anything… relationships, work, soul purpose expression, geography, etc.

I feel humbly like I’m learning about this all over again in a way, and I welcome that because to me it’s always interesting where these layers take me and what I learn about myself through feeling them. Without suppressing my shadow and my own parts’/Metasoul aspects’ resistances to Divine surrender and timing, I get to feel what else I and they want, desire, need. I’m afforded the opportunity to dream anew, even when there’s mourning that’s needed too…

There’s so much for us all to launch into now, to see about our soul patterns and this-lifetime patterns too. The wounded visionary is just as real as the elevated one. The wounded healer is just as real as the centred one. Your parts are just as real as your integrated wholeness. There’s so much we’re invited to just drop-in and feel, to fall in love with even in the tightest moments and the most tearful waves of grief. I feel so much desire to move beyond any settling for suffering… and I truly hope, that on whatever level you need to right now, you feel that for yourself too.

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Inner Sacred Union Guided Meditation: Video 28 – Deepen 2022 (Video) | Raphael & Jelelle Awen

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In this twenty-eighth video of our 31-day video series called Deepen 2022, SoulFullHeart Teachers/Co-Creators Raphael and Jelelle Awen share about your sacred union within and the importance of feeling the dynamics between your inner masculine and inner feminine.

We share about the possible configurations of our inner masculine and feminine, such as Inner Protector and Inner Teenager, and how healing these can open up intimacy in all relationships, complete suffering loops in relationships, and much more. Rather than projecting out to others, you can experience empowerment through this inner exploration and resolution.

During the guided meditation, you connect to your inner masculine and inner feminine, however they show up in these moment. You invite them to attend a dance ball held within your castle, inviting them into an experience of union in that moment.

Here is a link to the sacred union within video from the Deepen 2019 series: https://youtu.be/nPVo1iZTYng

You can watch each video in the Deepen 2022 playlist on our SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube Channel here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FZWeBviA18Y&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvJPnLzbEKl4OsQBXBYw2XwI

For more information about the Deepen 2022 series including a full listing of the content covered over 31 days and information about a Deepen 2022 group call on January 30th, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org/deepen2022

For more information about the SoulFullHeart quantum healing process, Jelelle Awen’s latest book Free To Be 5D, videos, and events, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org.

We also invite you to join us for free membership on our private, online community SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks for sharing, asking questions, and connecting with others engaged in the series: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/feed

For more information about a free intro call to find out more about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

We are offering this series free of charge, yet we would be so grateful if you offered an energy exchange/donation to us for the value you receive in this series. You can donate through paypal: http://paypal.me/jelelleawen or at https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop

Bridge To The Beloved: Guided Meditation From The Bridal Chamber | Raphael & Jelelle Awen (Video)

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Divine Union guides, Counterpart/Twin Flame Mates and SoulFullHeart Teachers Raphael and Jelelle Awen invite you on an initiatory journey into your sacred humanity through a video series called Meditations From The Bridal Chamber. We are recently in a renewed marriage and reunion place after a brief separation and death/rebirth together. We are feeling to share from the high frequency energies of our ‘bridal chamber’, where we are experiencing deeper frequencies of reunion with each other, within, and with the Divine.

Divine Sacred Union guides Yeshua and Mary Magdalene join us in this video series, offering initiations and activations as we channel their energies through our sacred masculine and sacred feminine hearts. Yeshua and Magdalene provide a template from the fifth dimension of a twin counterpart pair bond for your inner masculine and inner feminine to receive as a source of support, activation, and guidance. They have been beloved guides to us personally, in our union, and in service for many years.

In this first video of the series, we share a brief introduction of the Bridal Chamber energies and about the fears/resistances/testing that parts of us can do as we move out of separation and into more union within, with a mate, and with the Divine. As we have done during many group calls over the years, we then move into a collaborative meditative space to guide you in bridging to your ‘Bridal Chamber’ within while offering transmissions from Yeshua and Mary. The bridal chamber is offered to both women and men as a higher dimensional space to experience the embodied frequency of their Divine Self as beloved to the Divine.

Whether you are currently in a relationship or mateship; exploring your inner sacred union in singleness; or want to deepen your connection with the Divine AS beloved; this series will activate for you what it is meant to in order to help you move out of fear, resistance, and lack realities and into abundance, love, joy, and bliss!

We would love to receive your donations and energy exchange in the form of money for this series as it supports us to keep offering them and creates an intentional energy for you in which to receive them. You can offer a donation through a general donation via our shop at https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop​ or via paypal at https://www.paypal.me/jelelleawen​.

For the latest writings, videos, and information about SoulFullHeart community events and group calls, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org​.

Information about 1:1 sessions over Zoom or in-person in Glastonbury, UK with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Jelelle Awen or Kasha Rokshana for women and with Raphael Awen or Aurius Amara for men and women at https://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions​

Become a monthly donor member of our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks and gain access to exclusive content, share your experiences of the meditation with us, read longer writings w/personal digestions, experience a community connection with beautiful resonant souls, and MORE at https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co​

Imbolc Codes Offering A Bridge To Inner Realms & Womb Space

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By Jelelle Awen

Blessings during this sacred passage of Imbolc!

We are honoring today the beginnings of Spring and also of being in the halfway, which can feel like a void space to many of us….like a pregnant pause before the next is revealed. We are between the Winter Solstice and Spring Equinox….with the Divine Feminine face and form known as Brigid holding the space to feel this with us.

The energies of Brigid to me when I connect to Her are always about bridging…..the higher realms to the inner ones; the shifting seasons to each other; the deaths to the rebirths; the passages of the past to the ones upcoming. She offers this in ever transmuting ways, yet her fire element is honored on this day as a powerful alchemical force of transformation as you surrender to it.

I also feel Brigid offering a bridge to our wombs and second/third chakras on this day as Imbolc means, “In the belly”. Connecting with our womb space for women offers so much…..a transmission of stillness, depth, power, creativity, and aliveness. We can connect here to future birthings and water the seeds of them.

I experienced these transforming and bridging energies last night during our AMAZING monthly women’s group call in which we journeyed into the tender realm of the inner masculine and inner feminine dance within us. Twenty women joined Kasha and I live for this experience, with others signing up to receive the recording later on. Kasha and I shared about our personal journeys into this exploration through the SoulFullHeart process and also offered teachings around how we have seen and experienced the inner masculine and inner feminine show up for this often very polarized relationship within (due in large part to the templating we received on the outside of relationships.)

We also went into a meditative journey to invite your inner masculine and inner feminine to attend a Ball with Yeshua and Mary Magdalene in which they were the honored guests….bridging a unity consciousness frequency to them to whatever degree they could experience that. There were then many beautiful and vulnerable sharings from four women on the call for us all to learn from and take in!

We also have a lively conversation going on as follow up in our private women’s group on our SoulFullHeart Portal if you’d like to join us there: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co

You can purchase the recording of the call for women by offering a donation at paypal.me/jelelleawen or via the shop at soulfullheart.org/shop and we will email it to you.

Our next group call will be on Sunday, February 14th, Valentine’s Day at 5:00pm GMT….a transmission of Sacred Union codes with me and my newly reconciled beloved Taliesin! More info on that coming soon….

Love and blessings on Imbolc from Avalon!
We are getting together as a community to honor this day, whatever wants to be shared of our inner processes, and to move into the New!

More information about 1:1 sessions, future group call events, writings/books at soulfullheart.org.

Letting Go Of Illusions To See And Feel What’s REAL Inside And Out

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by Kasha Rokshana

Illusion must dissolve so reality can resolve.

These are the words that come to me as I feel my own ongoing process of healing, Ascension, and service, yet also as I feel the global process happening now for the same.

The illusions dissolving for parts of me are so multi-layered and multi-dimensional too. I feel facades melting down from how my feminine parts have related to the masculine and to romance and even to their own spirituality. For them and for me, this is a whole other level of growth, of fading childhood and moving into true womanhood from the inside out. I feel my masculine parts seeing and feeling how they’ve related to my feminine ones, either with some sort of suppression and punishment-type frequencies, or, even with caretaking/enabling instead of genuinely caring for and feeling them.

These inner dynamics are reflected in my outer reality, in my relationship with men AND women, and what moves between myself and those I’m closest to or even those I’m meeting for the first time. Sometimes the reflections are subtle and sometimes they are so big that it takes a while to really look at all of the machinations involved!

I feel all of my parts having deep and precious realizations of how they’ve related to life itself too, the different levels of emotional and spiritual immaturity that is moving away from being bubbled-off about actual reality now. I don’t feel any self-judgement as I name and own this ‘immaturity’, as it feels like we all have that and are working it, just at different levels and in unique phases of growth too.

Without a doubt, we’re ALL being faced with our own immaturity now. We’re experiencing outcomes and consequences that come directly from what we haven’t been ready or able to SEE let alone FEEL inside of ourselves, let alone in the systems and ways of life that we have allowed to continue and live through us. It’s quite a shift we’re experiencing into an underbelly of humanity’s shadow that has always been there, yet while enamoured and involved with the illusion overlaying this underbelly, we haven’t been able to truly see and bring love to what has been true all along.

There is a whole upgrade needed in human consciousness that is still being worked and isn’t actually a given, at least not en masse, yet it’s the reason why we’re here and why we’re being invited to soberly see what’s real. A big part of this is definitely the need to feel the value of deep inner work and allowing love to support us in that. This is a bit of a thing for the parts of us who have worked so hard to stay above board and somewhat bubbled-off from what the reality around us is constantly offering us all. They, especially the Inner Protector, have often had to do this in order to protect the preciousness, purity of essence, and innocence within that can be so greatly impacted by seeing and feeling the world in the state it’s in currently… and our roles within that.

This is what changes our inner worlds as much as our outer one, through the deepening of our inner intimacy and self-love and overflowing that to our relationships and encounters on the outside. This is what shifts and heals the inner Matrix so that any attachment to the one(s) on the outside can move into something new and our experience of it can change for the better as well. It’s not a process that can really be taken on with much lightness at times yet it IS held with so much love, always, and the support we need is right here with us to move us fully into the NEW.

The good news is that unless we were ready to start seeing reality for what it is and has been, we wouldn’t be in the place we are now. Where we are now, even in the thick of the pain of it all, is a necessary step to our evolution, our true Ascension, and our reunion with the Divine within and without. We’re living through a time of tidal waves that are bringing so much to the surface, as they are meant to do. It’s up to each of us how we choose to relate to the process of being with the Disclosure that has been unfolding and will continue to unfold well into the future, feels like.

We are all in this together, though at times we feel so very separate. For that separation too is a powerful illusion that is up to us to move through, back into the reality of love and unity, from deep within.

Illusion must dissolve so reality can resolve… by letting what’s real open up the heart to feel.

Love,

Kasha ❤

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I am once again offering free 45min intro calls for women who are interested in the SoulFullHeart process/way of life/community and how it may serve you at this sacred time. I also offer paid 90min sessions for women who feel ready to dive deep into their inner worlds: soulfullheart.org/sessions

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Inner Sacred Union Dance That Draws The Outer

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by Kasha Rokshana

Mate ache is real. The desire to be with someone romantically on the outside can’t really be subdued, especially when you have a strong sense that he or she is ‘out there’ – the Sacred Union mate you’ve longed for, worked for, and want so much to serve love alongside.

I have such an ache. I’ve been in a Sacred Union before, not all that long ago. I’ve tasted the sweet nectar of deepening soul and heart resonance. The ease and the sacred triggers too of being with a man who is doing his inner ‘work’ as you do yours. A man who is coming to love and treasure himself deeply, acknowledging and embracing every part of himself and every metasoul aspect too. A man who, because of his gentleness of heart, makes you cry out in tears of bliss and purging of emotional pain on a soul and this-life level too as you make love.

I ache because I’ve experienced what it can be and the healing that’s offered through the experience of it. I also have an ongoing template for what a long-lasting, consistently deepening Sacred Union looks and feels like from being in close community with Raphael and Jelelle Awen. It’s like exquisite torture in moments, witnessing their beautiful bond in all its ups and downs, ebbs and flows, processes inner and outer, and waiting for my own experience of this to come around again in a whole new way.

This depth of sacred romance isn’t an achievement. It’s not a mark of success or failure (as parts of me have felt before), or anything that can be accomplished with some kind of magic spell or silver bullet that suddenly brings in THE mate you’ve felt a longing for. It’s a crucible, actually. It’s something to bear while you bare all in the depths of this intimacy.

And this intimacy starts within.

Your inner masculine and feminine need to start relating with one another… they need to see each other. They need to find a way back into a union, a romance, between them. This inner Sacred Union is the seed for the flower of outer Sacred Union. It’s the honey that attracts the bee. And sometimes it takes a while for the bees buzzing in harmony with your growing frequency to tune into your fragrance.

Whenever I feel my longing for all of my inner work to bear this fruit, I’m reminded to look to my inner masculine and feminine. I’m reminded that any validation that’s wanted on the outside, needs to solidify inside. I’m reminded that my inner Sacred Union needs to ‘buzz’ and hum in its own frequency or romantic satisfaction. I’m reminded that this is what brings some soothing energies to the void of missing and wanting ‘him’ on the outside and keeps any parts of me from grabbing at a man and instead letting us come together and discover each other when it’s truly time for that to happen.

This is an ongoing process. There’s not really a final place of arrival where the Sacred Union inside is perfectly set up now. It’s got its own ebbs and flows, ups and downs, ins and outs. It has its own phases of tension and conflict. It’s just as sacred to behold as anything that manifests on the outside. And, it’s the love that you will always return to, even if romantic love on the outside collapses or completes.

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Raphael and Jelelle are hosting a Zoom group transmission on Oct 10th for Sacred Union Within & With Other. Their transmission of Sacred Union inside and out is palpable and profound! They’ll teach and lead us all in a guided meditation as well. You can donate anything you like to be a part of this call live or receive the recording. More info here: soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions
and here: https://www.facebook.com/events/268214177559942

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Kasha Rokshana is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about FREE consultation calls, space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Inner & Outer Feminine/Masculine Union Balance

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By Jelelle Awen

Oh, how the inner feminine will want to go soft at times. To cry. To grieve. To REALLY feel what is going on that causes her heart to ache. She will BE with the longings and the missing without trying to fix or manage. Then, she can feel judged as oversensitive or too reactive by others and try to suppress her feelings….usually without success and not for very long. She may lash out in frustration, dissatisfaction and sense of injustice that her feelings have not been given enough space when they haven’t within her own heart.


And the inner masculine, then, doesn’t know what to DO with her or how to help. He feels locked in and also locked out, especially if she becomes protective of her feelings and won’t share. He just has an impulse to solve it, as if he could fix himself if he can fix her. He wants to be seen and appreciated by her always for his efforts, yet also fears disappointing her and being inadequate. He resists her tenderness and his own at times, afraid of being hurt again.


This distorted dance of inner feminine and masculine seems to be so common, so conditioned, and modeled for us in so many ways, starting from our own parents. I felt recently new layers of sorting through of the inner masculine and inner feminine dynamics within myself, triggered by being here on these powerful Michael Divine Mascline, and Mary Divine Feminine lines. I have also seen these masculine/feminine sortings out in those in my small community of beloveds, in my relationship with Raphael (although we are in a current blissy merging phase after some initial conflicts when we got here to Avalon) and in women I have met with for sessions recently.


There’s nothing wrong in the push and the pulls, yet it can be challenging when these energies within are not on the same ‘page’, the desires are diverging, and conflict arises. This is the same mixed experience as what so commonly occurs on the outside in relationships as well. I have so learned that experience of relationships with others can’t be shifted into new grounds until it is from within. New and deeper possibilities of intimacy arise initially from within and can then be transacted with others rather than just a focus on the outside dynamics, which is so common.


I always come back to the inner union to see what its status is when there are mixed feelings going on. As I hold space for my inner feminine (however she is needing to show up) and my inner masculine (who is quite soft at this point), they can find their connection with me, the Divine, and each other. They can move into their dance again, in flow, and ultimately….as is always the desire…into balance.


This reunion within then flows into my sacred union relationship with Raphael with new grounds of connection and exploration now possible. One day I am in tears and holding space for my feminine and bridging to my masculine so he can be felt too. And the next, I am in bliss lovemaking and connection energies with Raphael. From within and then out draws the experience of joy, bliss, and balance with a beloved mate that feels like a deep merging even while you remain two separate consciousnesses.

The ache for sacred union is consciously felt in many people…a ‘mate ache’, I have called it. Yet, the desire for inner union of your masculine and feminine may be less known and cultivated. That inner union ache is powerful to follow and does seem to ultimately draw your precious sacred union partner too.

Here is a guided meditation with Raphael and I to connect to your inner masculine and feminine: https://youtu.be/nvi_m4i1KvQ


love,

Jelelle Awen

Join Kasha and I for an Avalon Activation women’s group call on Sunday, September 20 at 5:00pm BST (9:00am PDT) with teachings, meditation, and personal sharings by donation. We will share these Avalon energies that invite the inner masculine/feminine flow. More information at soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls


More information about 1:1 soul initiation/emotional-Karma Trauma healing sessions with me for women over Zoom and here in-person in Glastonbury and with other Facilitators at soulfullheart.org/sessions

Beltane Sacred Union & Soul Alignment Activation

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by Kalayna Solais

Beloved that you are,
When the smoke clears
on life’s regulating ways
and gives way to the undulating meadows
of new love’s first spring,
there I’ll be
standing in the light
of the sun shining above me,
firm in the ground I walk on
yet lightly walking toward your ready stance,
singing a song
we will both remember.
In Beltane’s past, my love
we dined and danced
and brought together our intertwining
everythings
to mingle in the love light
of the divine masculine and feminine dawnings.
In Beltane’s new arrivals, love
we’ll linger long
in embraces for only us to feel
in the eye of the mind’s connection
until the refreshing breath
of a crisp and ripe chapter
brings us closer
in all elements of this life’s wanderings.
In myself I stay here for you, love
finding more treasure long buried
to show you
in vulnerable ownership
echoing the also deep claim
you have inside of you for you.
The winds of change
and graspings of renewing tides
grip at our thrown-about clothing
to move us closer
to the edges
that keep US alive…
Together we will meet, my beloved
and there we will find
what we have been searching for…
a counterpart
not to bind, but to bond
not to cling, but to sing
not stifle with duty
but to bring out with bounding life’s alterations and celebrations…
of each new movement
here…
Bring your mountains out to greet the new day, love
and see the power of our sunshines mingling
on a new insatiable appetite
of a love reunited
in a way that was agreed to
long ago and yet NOW too.
Even NOW I make a vow to you,
to be all the more loyal to myself
and dedicate overflow to you
to what we will create together
in our messy masses of alchemical baths
and swooning passes.
Love, when we do meet again
here
I will dress the moon in your honor
and harness the sun’s rays for your Kingdom to come
and our world that is being reborn…
On this Beltane celebration day,
As I ache for you
I prepare that place in my heart
that is you-shaped
where you already live…
and that place in my body’s life
where your essence will connect
so much
oh, so much…
with mine.

~

Art by Oshuna

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.