Let Your Inner Tension BE Your Path Through 4D Ascension

Painting by Cristina Bernazzani


by Kalayna Colibri

There is no “wrong way”… there is only the way in front of you and inside of you. There is no way or path that is more correct, more aligned with you than what you are currently walking out. The flow you’re already in wants to bring you to your next places of growth and healing, as is inevitable on this Ascension journey where SO much is going on at all times.

It can be especially hard, as you walk out 4D-ascension specifically, to really let this in. To hold that you and parts of you are OK. 4D holds the container for so much churning, so many storms, so much turmoil inside as buried pain surfaces on heart AND soul levels. It isn’t comfortable and it often expresses as messes, conflicts, contention, feelings of being twisted around inside of you into a really uncomfortable pretzel as your Higher Self continues to try and find its way closer to your being. The Higher Self coming into the body causes reactions that aren’t just physical… the emotional reactions, oh, those intense emotional reactions, are all part and parcel of the bigger picture of what needs to be purged, felt, healed. The parts that surface can really inhabit the intensity of this. Parts represent so much of our old ways of being in the world and with ourselves, which is a result of our wounding and conditioning too from culture, birth family, friends, the education system, the medical system, the “Matrix” in general if you want to call it that. The ‘Matrix’ is a charged word and concept for all of the pushing away from it that is happening… it can be held by parts of you as another representation of their pain and anguish, what they want to push away from and forget about. Yet there is still a Matrix within, a very intricately-wired set of responses to life and above all, to love. This is what is being pressed upon the most when we feel this intense birth canal that IS 4D awakening and movement. And of course this is HARD… this is what has been so normalized, so accepted, yet so painful inside of all of us.

In the 4D scramble for answers, it can be understandably hard to find stillness and calm and a place within that is an undying oasis of infinite love… a place that truly believes in and trusts love. This oasis of self-love and worth is worth working for, is worth burning-up from the inside for… and is the passageway to our more consistent 5D moments and eventually whole lifestyle of 5D consciousness and breathing and being. And, though it can be so hard to feel this when the burning and purging is happening, there is SO much love holding it ALL, always and in ALL ways.

For more support and to gather at an oasis of self-love process and experience of infinite unified love with the world, you are welcome to join us at our Unity Meditation gathering happening virtually over Zoom tomorrow and for many other days and times to follow! Please join us and lean into the web of love that has been created and continues to be re-created by each amazing soul that joins in and leans in too. ❤ Go here for more info: www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.


Breaking Free From Political Enslavement And The Reality Of Archons

By Jelelle Awen


I felt strong energetic digestions yesterday during the after reactions to the election. I experienced this mostly as in the collective consciousness and here on FB, as so many parts of people went through stages of grief and outrage in response to the outcome. I advocate for self compassion during such events and also to allow feelings to come up and to make space for them. Yet, also, I had a deeper sense of how government itself and so many aspects of our ‘society’ have been created to perpetuate the suffering and imprisonment of humanity into a false world where empowerment and sovereignty do not actually exist. And that all of these reactions to government are actually sourced in a wound-based place of projection that just serve the outside forces that I will talk about in the next paragraph.

I have been receiving more and more guidance that most people are being greatly influenced and even enslaved by numerous outside elements, including what is commonly referred to as the Archons or an alien race that uses political leaders, entertainers, even spiritual teachers as puppets for control purposes. Because of the lack of emotional maturity and centered, embodied self, and over focus on the material and mental world, plus the wounded masculine dominance, people become easy targets for such entities. The vampirism that happens just increases the suffering, the emotional triggering, and the feelings of powerlessness and hopelessness. I can literally feel these entities feeding on the protesting energy that is happening around the United States right now as disembodied sovereignty is projected outside to ‘change the system’ in some way.

Even as I feel the shadow and darkness that is at play in this relationship between us and the entities, I also have been invited to serve as a love ambassador in this situation. To trust that it is, in the bigger picture, a playout with Divine purpose and that even the ‘others’ come from an essence of Infinite Love. The purpose of the Archons and others seems to be to show us what happens when we do not live into our bigness, claim our sacred humanity and all of its power, when we live small and conform to social and cultural conditioning and when we disconnect from Divine source that enlivens and supports us.

I serve love through SoulFullHeart to bring about awakenings to differienate that which is love, pure, and real, and that which is fear-based, strategic, and congested. This is often a deeply personal exploration yet, also, the context and world we live in impacts people very much. Just like the fish is effected by the PH balance of the water in its fish bowl. My awakening and lifting of the veil to see what is actually going on in the world has gone side by side with my emotional and spiritual healing movements. And I feel this contextual awakening is as important as the gradual process of peeling back layers of the persona and strategic self. It feels like, to some degree, parts of us develop in response to this environment of suppression and imprisonment and would probably not form if we living in an autonomous and more porous dimension, such as what we call ‘Golden Earth.’

This can be a difficult concept to digest at first and parts of us will often react with denial and disbelief. Yet, if we are meant to be shown this reality, we can negotiate with the parts of us that initially reject it and the sense of truth about it may then begin to grow in our authentic hearts and souls.

Very informative teachers and writers on this topic who have studied it intensely, if you want to read more, are Bernhard Guenther (veilofreality.com), David Icke, Eve Lorgen, howtoexitthematrix.com, and many others.

Jelelle Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information.