Peak Fear: The Uphill Climb Before The Surrender Into Love

by Kalayna Solais

We are living into a big crescendo right now, especially pushed up by the coming Equinox and this trinity of Supermoons. I keep being offered to call this crescendo ‘Peak Fear’ and that’s certainly what it feels like is happening. We are living into a dark time where the rumble of awakening out of 3D slumber and into lower 4D awarenesses is understandably pushing up fear.

The fear though is not so much coming from a need to fear what’s on the outside and how what’s rumbling in the collective will affect you personally. The fear is actually a reaction to what’s been in your personal shadow and is now coming up to be witnessed, felt, and ultimately loved UP. The fear of seeing timelines/lifetimes where your personal Metasoul has been involved in some of the terrible crimes that are actually quite triggering for you in this moment… yet, it’s surfacing because it’s time to not blame others for the state of the world and to begin taking responsibility, finding forgiveness and love inside so that you can feel compassion for what’s happening outside.

This is not an easy process, to really feel through these darker timelines of which your soul has been a part. Yet, we’re all invited to inhabit this sometimes daunting and heavy task with a pace we’re ready for. It feels like opting to go on journeys via Ayahuasca or Peyote or any other methods of inducing these sort of processes could add to the trauma of suddenly being thrust into these timelines of darkness, yet, if this is something you feel drawn to it may be important to go into it this way. The only piece here is to remember to hold self-love around it and to have a self-loving plan for integration and space for processing what you’ve now unearthed.

This whole process of unearthing and remembering could be much more step-by-step and self-lovingly held and paced if you choose to access your Gatekeeper first, who holds the keys to these alternate and other lifetime realities alive and well in your soul. It’s through getting to know them and negotiating with them that you can begin the descent into your inner cave, unveiling the dark and the light in your personal Metasoul. Here is a guided meditation from Jelelle to help you meet this aspect of you and to start the process of getting to know them too:

I personally have not been drawn to the intensity of plant-induced journeys and have preferred the pace of self-negotiated steps facilitated by an open-hearted other who has also been there. Yet, this is what my soul has gravitated towards with having experienced many lifetimes of these induced journeys for the sake of being an oracle, psychic, etc. and may not be what you actually need at this time.

What we’re intending to heal as a collective cannot be healed by pointing fingers. This method of shaming and blaming hasn’t worked yet in our ‘history’ to genuinely change the world we live in and how it operates. We cannot fire guns (figuratively or literally) and expect to find prolonged, sustainable peace, unless the parts of you that are attached to gunfire being the answer are deeply felt and given the love they so desperately want and need.

We cannot continue to ask world leaders to hold and give us the answers when they themselves haven’t gone inward to find what’s really going on inside of themselves or their own souls. More and more leadership is being invited out from inside of you, starting with leading your own explorations into the shadow that continues to be illuminated by what you’re hearing about, reading about, and reacting to on the outside.

The beautiful thing about all of this, is that we aren’t being asked to do it alone. We aren’t actually being asked to go deep into the desert and suffer for our ‘sins’ or find penitence and to strive for forgiveness from outside of us. We are already forgiven. We are already loved, despite it all, because we have needed to walk all of these timelines out for the sake of discovery, learning, growth, and the path back to the love we’ve come from and simply ARE. Now though… now we have the choice about what we want to do with this information and we can choose to be curious instead of fused to the same reality of Peak Fear we’ve been witnessing and perpetuating in different ways.

Much love to you as you feel into whatever your shadow is illuminating for you… I, myself, am curious too about where this exploration will take me next, for there are ALWAYS gifts to integrate from even the darkest of places we must go within and I trust deeply that I will not be the same person (in a really good way) on the other side of each journey inward.

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 30 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

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Energy Update: Heightened Full Moon Energies Amplify Everything

By Jelelle Awen
Everything is heightened right now. Under the rays of the longest full moon illumination of the entire year, everything gets ramped UP. Especially the shadow….that which is ready to be seen and felt and embraced….finally….can reveal itself. The veils lift on this-life configurations and relationships. We can then see/feel/know whatever we need to accept and face in order to move on.
 
More sense of other lifetimes/timelines bleeds through during these powerful lunar stages too, which is also being amplified by the SOULstice and 12/12 gateway. Aspects/fragments from your same soul source (what I call the Metasoul) are not just now haunting you in dreams, visions, and through being drawn to certain movies and books. They are really being available to be felt and known. Their feeling realities may be flooding into yours, bringing despair, tension, trauma, anxiety, etc. You can drop into their timelines and form a relationship with them too, starting the inner connection journey, through working with your Inner Protector/Gatekeeper to open up the portals.
 
More information about parts/Metasoul aspects here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts
 
Those aspects in the deepest soul shadows are often connected to being the persecutor of others, the blind follower, the tyrannical and narcissistic leader. These are the themes that we all seem to ‘try on’ to see what happens. There are not just those prone to being narcissistic and those who are their victims as empaths. We choose these energies specifically to grow and learn from them….and choose also to experience BOTH sides of this dynamic. The charged energy against narcissists is often sourced from an inability to accept and integrate your OWN shadow that has these same frequencies. You drew these energies to you from others in order to SEE the mirror of them in yourself. The polarization between narcissists and empaths is another frequency that is ripe for healing in the heart of your own self acceptance and self forgiveness.
 
How we enabled, how we have shrunk, how we conformed to relationships is ALL being illuminated by these Divine Mother Lunar energies. She is there in ALL Her forms to provide support. There is courage available in these energies with Her. Courage for your masculine to take the right action that supports the heart and soul. There is also vulnerability available in these energies. Being vulnerable with your feminine clears the fear out of the courage and moves it from fighting/battling to healthy advocating.
 
Everything is heightened right now so be extra self loving and aware about what energies you take in and what you engage with. That can be challenging during a holiday season that (on the 3D level) conditions you to just ‘accept’ whatever dynamics are around you and even plunge into family ones that you don’t normal engage with. Make space for going INward, feeling and BEing with parts of yourself, and holding them through the stages/phases/waves of mourning, advocating, clarity/confusion and whatever else needs to come up.
 
This feels like a ‘final’ purge and clearing out to set up the higher timeline realities of 2019…truly a year that can be the manifestation of New Earth now in ever deepening ways!
 
Jelelle Awen
1:1 sessions available to digest all that is coming to light for you on all levels. Info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Full Moon Energies Bring Comfort In The Darkness

By Jelelle Awen

The full moon….She offers illuminating grace to hold the shifts and transitions in the world and in your inner worlds too. She allows us a comfort in the darkness, a coming to ease in our own shadows. The light will be there even in the thickest of darkness…..She seems to say/offer to us.

This is the balance energies of the EQUInox….needing this feminine, this softness that can be fierce if called to be. This feminine that can SEE the necessary pain and labor pains as temporary…in order to birth what is coming forward of the New. This feminine can hold space for the transition, the passing and death, of what is NO LONGER vital.

The moon offers the BEcoming comfortable in your own shadowlands, learning how to navigate through them with love in your heart rather than fear. Shining your light of love on ALL the previously shrouded landscapes of your heart/soul/psyche.

Now is a phase of confronting with much compassion the prejudices that live inside toward the dark/shadow and the forms it has taken in your inner world and life. The resistances and aversions too are ready to be reconciled into the heart of increasing self love and self acceptance.

This moon is one of harvest….feeling the bounties that you are ready to collect and receive. Experiencing the final blooming of all those seeds you planted through the inner work, shadow work, and light work too.

You are ready now to let Her in…as She is you and what She has to show you offers a reflection that bridges something within that has been just waiting for your love once again.

Jelelle Awen
soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions
photo of full moon taken last night here in Puerto Vallarta, Mexico

Here is a guided meditation to connect to your shadow selves w/me, Mother Mary, and Archangel Metatron: https://youtu.be/4VnfgzhzzjE

Jelelle Awen is a Parts Work/Metasoul & Galactic Aspects/Sacred Union Teacher & Facilitator, and Ascension Guide. She is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life awakening/healing process and community. She has written four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about bridging and ongoing individual/group sessions over zoom with her for women and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators with men and women, events/retreats, videos, books, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Energy Update: Revelation, Healing, And Integration Of Shadow Frequencies

By Jelelle Awen

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The energies ARE personal. As personal as it gets as you ARE energy. You are a multidimensional, galactic BEing inside of a human form. You are connected to higher dimensional expressions, star BEing aspects of your Metasoul (soul source). You are BEcoming and merging with the consciousness of these star BEings from other timelines, other dimensions, other planets, other galaxies more and more in a process that is MEANT to impact you personally as this happens.

Does it feel sometimes like the ascension energies are outside of you?  The gateways and vortexes opening? The stargates activating? The sun flares and geomagnetic storms churning? Does it feel like these things are happening outside of you in a distant, vast, and irrelevant outer space with little impact on your daily reality? If so, this can lead to a sense of distancing from the ascension process and that it is less meaningful on a personal level.

All of these energies swirling around in the cosmos, all this galactic activity, is also represented inside of you. Making it personal, taking it personally, is where I feel the REAL gift of awareness about cosmic energies comes in and goes in. Connecting what is happening ‘out there’ with how it is impacting your emotional body, your process, your experience of experience leads to more self awareness and capacity to digest what is happening. Providing some context and overall picture to hold what you are living out can help with the digestion of the experience.

There is A LOT happening in the now, in the cosmos, that impacts us as a collective and on a personal basis. It is a major phase of transition for us as the shadows, the darkness, the underground and underbelly, are disclosed and exposed. There is no ‘going around’ this process as what has been so polarized during the 3D experiment needs to come back into balance. The only way is by going through it with manifestations of chaos, upheaval, and death and rebirth happening through intense weather patterns and political/social/cultural crises.

Finding our balance again requires the revealing and eventual release of the dark energies that have had so much underground influence on our culture and the formation of our 3D self AND on our Metasoul too. Making this process personal is feeling and BEing with the traumas created from all this polarization to fear-based frequencies. These traumas can remain undigested in your emotional body in your 3D self AND also in your Metasoul through repeating loops of suffering patterns and cycles and karmic binds.

All the photonic light generation activities in the cosmos creates a SAFE container for the revelation and healing of this shadow on a collective and personal level. The HIGH frequencies provide a padded room for the bombs to explode when needed; the fuses to ignite; the storms to roar….until they run out of fear to fuel them. This padded room of pure love and light is also provided to YOU as a shield from these necessary outgasses. You can connect with your safe padded place through meditation, through connection with your Ethereal guides/aspects, through commUNION with the Divine (and the Divine Mother esp.), through service of love, through BEing in relationships that are nourishing, soul resonant, through drawing the support that you need. Through our SoulFullHeart process, we provide a heartline through aprocess for you to explore the aspects of your 3D and 4D selves, your shadow, your Metasoul/other lifetime expressions: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess

This doesn’t mean that you transcend out of whatever necessary shadow revealing and integrating process that you need to go through. Yet, rather, you have a sense of being held WHILE you are in this exploration. You are not just becoming the shadow or the darkness OR suppressing it either (that is the old way), yet you are holding space FOR the aspects and parts of you that are overly polarized to it. You get to know and connect with these aspects and invite them into the safe, padded room of your HEART and soul, where they can finally feel safe to share, to be felt, and to BEcome something real….and, eventually, then to heal.

As you digest the shadow revelation that is happening ‘out there’ feel how it is impacting you on a personal level. Feel your reactions inside to what comes out. Feel if your ‘safe padded room of love and light’ is available and if you are using it. Feel what support you need to navigate your own process of shadow revelation. Feel the taking of it all personally and what that means for you in a way that also allows you to FEEL held by love during the process. Feel the integration that wants to happen inside of you as the shadow meets the sun of love and finally finds it way home in your heart.

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond.

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