SoulFullHeart Museletter: Feb 18, 2022

The waves of humanity’s death and rebirth process continue to ripple through, sometimes leading us to openings and at other times into even more intensity. Without question, there’s much to digest nearly every day at this time, as shadows reveal themselves globally and personally.

This week we have a featured piece by Gabriel Amara, where he illuminates the context of what’s rumbling through humanity at this time and what the shake-ups are offering us as choice points and portals to enter for deep healing and reconciliation, especially within each of us.

This coming Sunday, February 20th, Raphael and Jelelle Awen will be co-leading a group meditation call based on healing the separation wound and everything that process entails. For each of us, this healing process is ongoing and worth every single layer we feel inside with parts of us/Metasoul aspects and the Divine, and experience on the outside with beloveds. You can find more info on this upcoming, by-donation call here:

There are several new writings and audio blogs this week, outlining and digesting current energy waves moving through and the processes they invite us into, as well as digestions of the separation wound and what it means to embrace it and begin to move through it.

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Much love from all of us!

~ the SoulFullHeart Community

The Sacred, Ever-Unfolding Process Of Healing The Separation Wound

by Kasha Rokshana

If you’ve been in or around a ‘spiritual circle’ or offering of any kind for a while, you’ve probably heard about how ‘separation is an illusion’ quite often, yet perhaps it hasn’t really felt relevant or comforting to parts of you to hear that… and, you may have also felt a subtle (or not so subtle) rumble in your belly in response, a sense of being ‘wrong’ for buying into the ‘illusion’ or somehow not quite getting how separation isn’t real.

Separation IS an illusion, yet for parts of us, it isn’t… and for certain soul aspects of ours in other lifetimes, it also isn’t. There’s the theory that separation isn’t real, but sometimes it FEELS like the realest thing there is, especially with how much MORE separation in the physical is happening now between yourself and others. The Great Awakening has a cost to it and that cost is that you may start to feel closer to the Divine again, yet your relationships are crumbling along with your job prospects, your means of ‘making ends meet’, and perhaps even your whole way of seeing and experiencing life in your home country.

In some ways, with human division ripening and dissonance sometimes feeling much more real than any possible resonance with one another, how could separation NOT feel like the realest thing there is?

In my own experience of healing the separation wound to the depth I have already (with more layers to go, of course), I feel like the greatest reason for any part/soul aspect to feel ‘separate’ from the Divine, always comes down to the deepest feelings of unworthiness… of having been ‘cast out’ of the Divine Garden, of having been pressed back into the density of a human body (again), of not experiencing ‘love’ in the same way our souls know we so easily CAN when in our soul’s home dimension.

To make up for this unworthiness, parts of us reach for anything that can bring them back into the arms of the love they feel they’re missing, even at the detriment of the physical body or the numbing/transcendence of the deeply feeling human heart. There’s a throbbing ache inside the gap between the consciousness you have, the lacklustre relationships you’ve said ‘yes’ to, and perhaps even the spiritual practices you continue to do even if they aren’t quite answering the pain.

I’ve experienced at times triumphant, celebratory (and often VERY tearful) waves of reunion with the Divine in different forms, faces, and energies… within meditation and in my inner world, yet also in intimate reunion experiences with soul family and Sacred Union in the physical that open the once bruised heart back up again. And still, even with all of this, there are moments, processes, deep-dive experiences within, where I find yet another layer of shame and pain that creates feelings of not always being Divine let alone always being WITH the Divine.

I feel the Divine offering that these states of feeling separate are not only understandable, but expected… so deep are the layers of separation that reciting affirmations may help parts of you, yet not quite do all of the ‘work’ for you. It’s the bittersweet remembering that inside of you is a well of complicated soul and this-life experiences to keep wading into and exploring which brings you much closer to the Divine than trying so hard to move into a reality where separation no longer feels real without even glancing at the map before you, let alone traversing the actual terrain of the process of reunion.

This coming Sunday, Raphael and Jelelle Awen will co-host a group meditation call on Zoom at 5pm GMT, focused on healing the separation wound. They have been such profound models for me personally of how to enter into this territory of feeling aspects of you like the Divine Orphan, for example, and letting in the gifts of experiencing even deeper reunion and oneness frequencies with the Divine and even other souls too. You can attend the call live and/or receive the recording by offering any donation that feels good to you. You can find more info on this upcoming call here:

Lots of love from my journey of reunion to yours,


Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Portal Of Our Separation Wound

By  Raphael Awen

Deep, potent, powerful transformation is available to all of us, but this accelerated and conscious version of our growth, only occurs as we are willing to go inward to transparently and vulnerably feel our fears.

Growth and forward momentum is guaranteed whether we choose this accelerated path or not, as we are all immersed in the learning and growth vehicle we call life, and it’s wired for growth and the ultimate and ongoing reconciliation with the divine that we are. But some of us are just impatient!

We have so many levels of growth and learning that await us, but for now, our primary familiar level of conscious awareness on this earth plane is our gateway to the higher ones we crave and yearn for. If that’s true, then what you have probably felt was a hindrance to your awakening is actually instead the opportunity for it.

If we can choose a surrender over a success kind of mindset; reconciliation over attainments; stewarding over possessing, then we get closer to where what before felt like blocks, hindrances and missing capacities, are now readily transmuted into portals to the real and truer thing that’s underneath the attachments to the false thing. Here you are presented with what you really want.

This should be a big sigh of relief as you toss out all the technique based how to manuals that only ultimately helped you run out of gas for the self discipline (torture) picture of spirituality. Your time of slaving in return for breadcrumbs of your essence is over if you are ready for it to be over.

Somewhere next in here, you are faced with the challenge of having what you really want, which you before assumed was instant bliss, goodness and happiness and instead are surprised to see that even here, negotiation and adjustment are needed.

Parts of you are losing a familiar territory where they learned to live in some dimension of lack, and they need to be embraced and honored for the service they’ve given and the posts they’ve held. Their reactions are actually the keys to the portal through these reactions – reactions are movements, not something to be overcome or worse yet, ‘mastered’. The only place the word mastery deserves a place in your lexicon is the mastery of surrender, which is not the attainment of personal power over something, but instead the letting go of that now false, and maybe once treasured power, into the power ‘under’ something, the power that underlies and animates all things, that can’t be attained, only surrendered into. That’s good news because falling is a whole lot easier than climbing, yes?!

It’s crazy making to get so much closer to the bliss you wanted and chose only to find more formidable blocks that make you wonder why you set out on this journey in the first place.

I believe what you and I are carrying deep within us is 2 divine programs, if I could call them that. These are benevolent programs that we actually not only agreed to, but were also the creators of, and also the why of why we were willing to be individuated from the divine from oneness into this twoness/duality where we retained everything we once were, but also agreed to these 2 paths or journeys of forgetting and remembering in it all.

The forgetting and remembering that you and I are playing out, we are playing it out together, with each of us at different stages, but all dependent and connected to one another. No one arrives home until all arrive home.

The forgetting program involves a deep wound, an ache that calls for our attention. This wound is the separation wound, where both consciously, but mostly unconsciously, we carry and express an inner knowing of something lost, something so precious that we almost wish we never knew of such goodness, for the pain that a single ounce of this remembering piques in us.

But this program alone without a countering program would be pure torture. The other program we have and possess is the program to remember. I believe your and my full remembrance of everything we lost is not only baked in the cake, but this remembrance even excels the original state we forfeited and takes it into ongoing creative expansion of more. This is the what and the why our souls embraced this plan with such abandon.

We knew that for the divine to have the opportunity to meet and get to know itself for the first time would be a sacred union like no other. The divine couldn’t do this without forgetting and remembering, and it decided to do it billions of times over and over with individuated consciosness’s called you and me.

The heights of our tension though is at these crazy making points where our surrender into the crazy is asked for. This is the process of death and rebirth. Something that once lived, breathed and had purpose and meaning is dying, concluding, wrapping up, preparing to breathe its last and it needs someone to hold space, a hospice kind of space, an open heart space for it to wrap up. This is pieces and parts of you that are transmuting through death and rebirth even as your physical body and name address on the planet has continuity.

This is where time spent in palliative care and the nursery of your inner hospital often occurs on the same day as you participate in goodbyes and hellos to old you and new arising you.

I invite you to embrace the separation wound as it lives in you and however it is currently expressing in your life circumstances.  Here you will find is where the remembering is also happening in the fullest swing you can self lovingly handle, where every piece has time and space to be savoured, honored and transmuted.

Here is your greatest service of love, which helps you recognize your unique youness, which is integral to reuniting fully with the divine without losing yourself in the divine. The divine wants union which is about 2 coming together, over and over again. This means you never lose your individuality. It only keeps shifting and changing into more. You’ll need more you to be in this kind of union.

We need each other to get on with this more and more as each of our attainments are a co-op kind of shared agreement of ownership. Your gain is mine and vice versa.

I hope this lands in you as an answer to some deep questions you’ve been asking. I felt some distress calls as I was writing this today.

Jelelle Awen and I are hosting a group call this Sunday to connect more around the separation wound which will get into more of this, in a heart and feeling space with others, where something magical always occurs for everyone present. I’d like to invite you if this calls to you. Details here: 💚

And there’s also our free SoulFullHeart Portal to climatize more to these energies and fellow inclined people. You can join here:

Thank you for reading and thank you for connecting.

Much love,


It even got cool enough this week to break out the toques, which has been a rare thing this warm winter here in central Portugal. This is at the Mondego river which runs through Coimbra city, Portugal’s third largest (if I’m not mistaken), a place we go for some adventure at times and new shoes, which we found for Jelelle!

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

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You Are Love In The Process Of Remembering: Message From The Divine

By Jelelle Awen

This was written today in an afterglow state following sacred union/sexuality connection with Raphael. I felt these words come to me as we continue to heal the separation consciousness experience within our pair bond together in many lifetimes. Our souls seem to chose the impossible configuration of ‘good king during hard times’ and ‘powerful yet cautious priestess’ as a way to experience this separation. Our Metasoul aspects have always been attracted to each other, yet not able to claim a sacred union and actually BE together out in the open in a committed, long lasting way or at least not very often within the Matrix lifetimes.

As we celebrate the anniversary of our marriage vow renewal and with Valentine’s day coming up tomorrow, I feel so grateful for our capacity and ability to BE together this life in an ever deepening way…here to heal this separation experience and remember union!

These words offer a recoding for you to take in as well….and you could put ‘I am’ to replace “You are” for some powerful affirmations! ~

“You are an infinite being living within a finite body.

You are a beloved member of a soul family anticipating your return.

You are one half of a pair bond/twin flame partnership inviting you into eventual reunion.

You are unity consciousness temporarily experiencing separation. 

You are unconditional love limited only by illusionary fears.

You are light seeding your beacon into the darkness.

You are a power force…stoppable only by your own choices.

You are FREE with no other being/energy/forces able to truly enslave you.

You are the Divine surrendering into the experiment of being human.

You are LOVE in the process of remembering.” 

Reminder from the Divine and your Higher Self ~

Hope you can join us for a group call on Sunday, February 20th to explore healing the separation wound to move into Unity Consciousness. More info at