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Scarcity Is Just One Part Of The Play

Published on October 1, 2022October 8, 2022 by Raphael AwenLeave a comment

Scarcity was needed to see and feel the underlying fullness and abundance that underlies everything.

Fear was needed to elucidate deep abiding trust.

As the fullness and the trust comes into your being more and more, as you awaken to the fullness that IS and that you ARE, you have less and less need for the scarcity and fear to lead your discovery.

As I tuned into Golden Earth this morning, I was greeted by the words, ‘There’s nothing to make happen here. Everything that needs to happen is already happening.’

Then I felt into the impulse to deepen this understanding inside of me, to open it out, which in itself, is another impulse to make something happen, isn’t it?! Then I felt this impulse to write about it, which I’m doing now! Dang it!

I know I’m not out of the woods on this one. I’ve lived a long time in the land of doing, achieving, of effort and reward.

But the invitation I feel, if I’m not quite ready to fully shake this impulse to do something, or to achieve something, is to let in this awareness, that there’s nothing that actually needs doing, or achieving.

If that’s true, then I’m left in the land of play. Play by definition is doing things for the fun of it, which is about as close as I can imagine as to why the divine does anything.

It’s all a play. And the parts of us who made it anything more than that, in terms of labour and scarcity, are all ultimately also at play. They’re just playing out necessary illusions that contribute back to the homecoming and reconciliation that you and I ARE.

Until,…. the characters in our play, (and what characters they are!), tire of the play.

May they each find waiting for them a deeply curious and open heart to land in, when their world has become so much less than the fun it once was. May they find an abundance of love and rest inside of your heart home.

Love, ~ R ~

#raphaelsphotonics

The photo above was taken playing with shooting pics of the roadside weeds at sunset here in Folques, Portugal.

The term ‘weed’ denotes something so abundant that it has no value, so it’s not noticed or wanted. In Golden Earth, the streets are rumored to be paved with Gold, and strangely, the pavement doesn’t go missing. It’s everywhere. You can take it or leave it. But people would wonder about you having piles of pavement stored in your basement, wouldn’t they?

Weeds become Gold, and Gold becomes weed. Wasn’t their some weed we all smoked back in the day called ‘Acapulco Gold’ as I recall?

Much love,

Raphael

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

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Two Worlds Lie Before You

Published on October 1, 2022 by Raphael AwenLeave a comment

By Raphael Awen

Two worlds lie before you.

The one you know, all too well quite possibly…., AND the world you don’t know.

What you do know about this unfamiliar world leaves many questions unanswered, at least for now.

If you refuse to embrace the new world, you’re pretty much guaranteed of being locked out of the new world, at least for the long haul time being. But if you choose to explore the new world, with a curious and open heart, you are promised to be met with guidance, grace and support.

But make no mistake, both worlds are equally real, in the deepest sense of the word. Your present world may feel more ‘realized’ to you, and that’s accurate, because it is the world that has been made up, made real, realized. The new world is also awaiting realization through your participation with it.

This was required in the realization of your present world. It couldn’t have arisen without your participation, consent and resources.

Are you beginning to feel the power of your creatorship, even in the disempowered world you presently know?

It’s actually very empowering to begin to take responsibility for the creation of your present world. No need for any heavy handed self flagellation, here. You had many subconscious reasons and soul lifetime reasons for the present creation. There’s the conditioning too of the shared reality of those you’ve known and loved. All of it and more played a part in the present creation.

But that’s it, it’s only the present creation, a point in the story. You begin to realize now that all of us are creating as we speak. We can’t escape it. Maybe this is where our deepest despair lingers, in the moment by moment re-creation of the present reality? How will any good kind of change come forward if I’m my worst enemy?

Just how it changes, and what changes is difficult to put words around, but when you are ready to embrace the new world that lies before you, something unexplainable pops inside of you. You scare people around you that preferred the stuck version of you to comfort the stuck version of them. It’s completely unknown how many, if any, will take your lead and embrace their own new world, at least for now. It appears this is pretty much an initiation you are being asked to take alone, as far as friends and family are concerned.

But remaining the same is strangely, just no longer an option inside of you, even though technically, it still is an option.

You are choosing the new. What you are choosing and where it will take you remains mostly unknown, except for the light, the grace and the comfort of every next step before you.

You begin to get accustomed to this way of ‘not knowing your way to knowing’; pretty insane for the not so distant past version of you, and surely, anxiety producing also for the ones closest to you witnessing your choices and changes.

But the magnetism of this new world calls and calls and calls. The need for external assurances gives way to the unfolding present, a new present being presented to you, a presence of being you lost sight of.

The call now of this reunion and remembrance now with this new world, emanating from within, in sacred cocreation with all divinity, within and without grows louder and louder and louder, in a clear and beautiful harmony that you can dial in whenever you need to.

Strange thing, you find that you actually feel more needy in many ways as you surrender to being an alive and vulnerable being, with real needs, real desires, real wants.

You don’t feel invincible or powerful in the ways that you once thought you would, when you ‘made it’ somehow. No, here, you feel surrounded by an ocean of love, that feels matched in size to the sometimes frightening hunger within you to know and experience that love.

You are learning the ways of the new world. The new world is learning the ways of you.

Wow, you’ve made a choice! How DID that happen? Wasn’t there supposed to be more ceremony or a marker of some kind to denote the beginning? Lots of questions remain in this unmistakeable quest, all of which can only be surrendered as more fuel for the path ahead, where each step is a both a journey and a destination.

The love and magic you will one day come to experience is strangely all here now, somehow. There’s more to come, and it’s all here now. You feel this, you surrender to this. Your first step took you to your new world. AND before you lies a path of infinite growth. Both are true.

~ R ~

#raphaelsphotonics

The photo above was taken last night, just a point and shoot at the sunset off the balcony. Doing one thing in one moment and then, ‘oh, shit, where’s the camera?’ in the next moment.

This really shows us the lurking magic all around us, offering portals to the new world, the new earth, amidst life as we currently know it, in the present self created version of it we find ourselves in. There’s always a portal calling for our awareness and choice. Life wants to dance with you.

Here’s the music I found to accompany this writing today: https://youtu.be/Abvgu_q_xFE. I’m curious where this all takes you.

Much love,

Raphael

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

The Liability Of Reliability

Published on September 17, 2022 by Raphael AwenLeave a comment

By Raphael Awen

We’re at a place now where honorable traits can fast become liabilities.

I had a dream last night where an old friend from my past, who, if he was known for anything, was known for his reliability, his willingness to sacrifice for others in need, his expression of care. Underneath it all, though, was a big resistance to change, and I suspect, the garden variety fears of embracing his next growth into his bigness, that we all face.

I can feel where he an I, in other lifetimes, were side by side in these kinds of changeless codes of honor, especially in service of a King. It became a deeply embedded safety and way of being in the world.

In this life, I managed to embrace deep change sooner than he, and that made for the end of our friendship, but not our larger soul connection. Who knows what lifetimes he may have done the same for me?

Isn’t this true of all of our relationships? The part about our larger soul connection?

We are all players in each others learning and growth grounds, and so much of that happens by comparison. In comparison, we get to see ourselves, feel ourselves, embrace and try on new ways of being in life, in love and in this world, and even in others beyond this one.

Staying stuck though, isn’t where our souls want us to be right now.

It’s time to embrace the changes before us. What might feel like reckless abandon to a part of us, wants to be lovingly, and step by step, negotiated inside of us; feeling each part of us and their needs and reactions to the changes before us.

The improvised beatitude for this time is ‘Blessed are the flexible, for they shall not be broken’. I’d add to that, ‘Blessed too are the broken, for they are open to healing’.

So, it’s all good in the larger picture. The larger picture is a picture of love being all there is, where everything in being reconciled to itself and every part is found to be aspectual to that love. The love of all, with all, and through all.

The love you are. The love I am. The love we are.

~ R ~

#raphaelsphotonics

This photo below was taken from last week during a visit to the Coimbra University here in Portugal. The expression of the architecture, both in its achievements and its message feel to be about values from times long ago, as buildings all around in contrast are just succumbing to the relentless graffiti strewn on them by a generation in deep change, and a necessary rebellion.

Feeling these architectures though, can really be a time travel experience into our Metasoul of lives lived in these energies, lives that are actually still being played out in the now, that await our feeling reconciliation of them, into our healing and expanding hearts.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

The Assignment Of Letting In Goodness

Published on September 17, 2022 by Raphael AwenLeave a comment

By Raphael Awen

I love you, too!

Total day of magic and goodness, today! Almost to the point of being tired and cranky because of it.

Letting in goodness is a big assignment for us all.

Nothing is ever all perfect in a world of duality, but my life together, now 14 years with this being feels as close as it could get oftentimes.

Part of that realization was because of feeling through and being with a contraction between us the day before, that again opens out new ground together.

Thank you, Jelelle, for needing me, wanting me, and for all that you are.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

SoulFullHeart Museletter: Aug 28, 2022

Published on August 28, 2022September 10, 2022 by Kasha RosaLeave a comment

It’s always perfect timing to work with your chakras, feel them deeper, continue to clear them, and tap into what they have to offer you about your personal process and the integration of Ascension codes.

Featured this week is a chakra meditation and sound healing video from Jelelle Awen, featuring her beloved sound bowls. This video is a compilation of ALL the individual chakra meditation and sound healing videos she released during this past week. It’s a powerful transmission and attunement to let in!

Raphael and Jelelle will be leading a group call over Zoom on September 11th, focused on healing the persecution wound inside and out. If you’d like more information on this and other upcoming group calls, visit soulfullheart.org/events.

There are many new writings and audio blogs to take in this week, featuring personal sharings, digestions of current energies, poetry, and more.

There are also some brand new videos from Jelelle, featuring sound healing meditations to open up your chakras individually. These are some of the videos that were put together for the longer video featured this week. There’s also a new video from Gabriel where he digests some pieces about connecting to your Root Chakra and the importance of doing so in nature.

You can find our current Museletter here.

If you’d like to subscribe to receive our Museletters and other announcements in your own inbox, you can do so on our website: soulfullheart.org, or you can scroll to the bottom of this issue and click “subscribe”.

Much love from all of us!

~ the SoulFullHeart Community

‘Can You Come Out To Play?’ An invitation from Marvin, Raphael’s Inner Child

Published on July 30, 2022 by Raphael AwenLeave a comment

By Raphael Awen

What would it take for you to come out and play again?

I know deep down, you really want to. But something has you to itself right now.

Is it a sadness that the joys you once had so much fun with are gone now?… And you don’t know how you could ever have that much fun again?

Or is it that you can’t see who would want to be with you and have your kind of fun?

I’m not trying to figure you out. You’re way too big of a being to be figured out. I just want you to come out to play again when you are ready to.

I do feel something for you, if you’d let me share it with you?

I can feel that life as you once knew it changed somehow, and you knew some really cool joys in that old life, but that life dried up and went away. You found something really, really cool, and now it’s gone. Now, you’re sad, and that’s okay.

I think I know something else too that I’d like to share with you if you’d let me. And that is that when people lose things like you lost, they don’t actually let themselves feel what they lost and how sad they actually are. They keep their tears inside. I did that for a long time. It’s like we don’t arrange and attend the funeral. I think I know something too about why we tend to do that, that it is about how we are afraid the tears will swallow us somehow, and we will be no more.

If that’s true, then it means people do actually want to come out and play again, I mean, if they are afraid of being no more, right? Because being no more, would mean never to ever play again.

What if life is trying to bring you your next kind of play that really is your kind of funnest fun, but you aren’t sure you are ready to risk losing again?,…because you haven’t seen how losing isn’t as sad as it seems, if you let yourself be sad, then the sadness moves, and you get to come out and play again…

You didn’t have to find the play that you once loved so much. It found you, and fun is trying to find you again.

I think that’s just the way it is. People are afraid to be sad because they aren’t sure they are ready just yet for their next fun, their next play.

It’s okay if you don’t think so. That’s just the way I do. I can be sad with you, if you’d like me to…., to feel what you lost and then maybe we can share tears together, which is one kind of play I like to have whenever I need to.

I’ve lost lots of things, but I always find that new things are wanting and ready to come in.

(From the beloved younger part of me called Marvin)

Raphael Awen

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Pics below are from Jelelle and I’s recent trip to Nazaré on Portugal’s silver coast.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.
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The Desire For What Really Matters In The Ascending Masculine

Published on July 30, 2022 by Raphael AwenLeave a comment

By Raphael Awen

I know some things about the ascending masculine, if I could call it that.

Men who feel a conscious desire to excel and grow and matter in life, in love, in their relationships.

I know these things about you, because I’ve come to know them in myself.

There’s always much more to come to know, and one of the growth points for this ascending masculine is the challenge and willingness to feel like a beginner over and over again, to admit that there’s so much that can’t be delineated, measured or accurately described with the mental body.

It can only be felt with the heart.

My heart wants to grow beyond what feels like present limitations. I want to grow in being transparent with my world, to hide my real self less and less and less. I want to radiate that presence in the physical world around me and into all the soul connections and timelines I’m a part of.

Nothing else ‘matters’, for all that matters comes from the divine ‘Ma-ter’, from where we derive our word ‘Mother’. She Ma-ter-ializes all things that matter to me. In union with divine father, we have a template for reparenting all the parts of us who long for reunion.

What is it that is calling for your heart attention and choice? Do you have a sense of what wants to be next for you? Are you willing to be transparent with yourself and your world about what’s not working, what hurts like hell and what you do know about your calling and being?

I’d love to serve you in that. I offer a free intro call as a way for you and I to connect to feel if the work I offer, along with my heart, feel like a fit for you. More info about that here: soulfullheart.org/sessions

It is so interesting to feel how the feminine has been willing to lead in this domain of really feeling and really healing. I personally know of several women who’s eyes are on the horizon for a man who’s ready to choose himself, his calling and purpose. Mateship offers a huge growth ground, especially when it’s mutually chosen for one’s deepest growth and learning. Maybe that’s a big one for you as it has been for me.

I very much welcome hearing from you and would love to host my free intro with you to help you feel if working together ongoingly feels like a fit for you. If not, no questions asked or anything further expected.

~ Raphael

I just got back today from a few days at the ocean with my beloved, Jelelle Awen.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

From Warrior To Ambassador: The Illusion Of Good vs. Evil

Published on July 7, 2022 by Raphael AwenLeave a comment

By Raphael Awen

As more and more of us become aware and convinced that the world is not as we thought it was, we’re collectively left in a vacuum of cognitive dissonance, confusion and chaos.

Personally, I’ve been convinced for many years of the horror realities of human trafficking and the depopulation agenda, and all the surrounding phenomena, but I’m finding a new layer of emotive dissonance arising inside of me in coming to terms with what’s at hand now, energized by the tsunami of collective awakening happening underway, along with the collective’s sorrow and the v. injuries and sudden deaths coming to light.

What might the scope of all this end up looking like? How long will the darkness seem to prevail?

If you also find yourself in this restlessness, whether in moments or in largely complete endless overwhelm, know that your being has a range of expressions and parts that span 3D, 4D and 5D realities. Parts of us have totally familiarized and adapted ourselves to everyday consensus reality of linearity, lack, etc that we find in 3D. But we also have parts of us that see beyond what once felt like 3D was all that there was into the realms of the chaos and transformations of 4D. Then we also have parts of us that remember the joy and harmony of union with the All, where both sorrow and joy weave in a deep aliveness expressing as the divine beings that we are in our true heart home of 5D. No need to get hung up on the definitions and labels of these dimensions or the numbering of them, but just a way to offer a sketch of a map that your heart and soul knows.

You already are and always were a multidimensional being, even as you are becoming more conscious of and in flow with this truth that always was.

There’s one piece I’d really like to share with you today in all this that I feel lays the groundwork for some real digestion of the craziness at hand. I invite you to come with me into an exploration for a few moments.

I’ll just spit it out and then take a longer look at it:

Love is the one and only source of all that is, including the darkest horrors we can imagine or witness.

We are not in a battle of good vs. evil where we must cheer on and support the good to overcome and destroy the evil.

The battle of good vs. evil is an all too real illusory reality of 3D, but one we must come to a higher vantage point to relate with if we want to navigate the horrors we are witnessing now unfolding.

Allow me to toss in a few more points here to land in your intuition where they will…

What we are at war with externally evidences an internal war happening inside of us. If the evildoers must be punished forever, then that dynamic is alive inside of us, between our Inner Punisher and other parts of us, albeit just off our radar.

What if the whole all too real reality of good vs. evil was part of the divine’s experiment and expression into duality from an original state of oneness? Very beautiful, yes, but without duality, it couldn’t be known, felt and appreciated…

What if the ratcheting up of the tension in this good vs. evil dimension is part of the divine plan for a full circle reconciliation of this experiment where the heightening of the duality creates and is necessary for our divine awakening into the love that all of us are and always were, including the ‘evildoers’?

Consciousness itself is sponsoring the entire show we are seeing unfold right now. Love is holding it all. Many souls chose on a soul level to be a part of the suffering in the 3D and 4D expression of their being as part of the contribution to this experiment that love undertook. Love knew that duality would entail suffering, but it knew that suffering would take us somewhere beyond where it was in oneness bliss. Love wanted to journey. Your and my suffering is part of the fuel of this journey.

Deep in our psyche is the awareness that sacrifice is necessary for movement into fullness. In the Christian faith, we have the teaching that ‘without the shedding of blood, there is no remission of sin’. Something has to die so that same something might come alive. In our limited 3D vision, we made that about a sin filled and separated-from-God humanity needing a personal savior from the results of a ‘fall’ into sin and God’s wrath. But what if all we actually ‘fell’ into was this chosen experiment of duality along with the attendant and necessary forgetfulness?

If that’s accurate, then those participating in the darkness are the divine’s agents as much as are the lightworkers; then the darkest deeds in your own this-life and soul history are also all part of this divine expression from oneness into duality.

And if that’s accurate, then the trajectory we are on is into remembrance, reconciliation, restoration of the All that was ‘lost’, and MORE.

This more is mysteriously unfolding in you and I, in this collective darkest night we’ve seen to date. Love is inviting us to hang around for the more, as an infinite unfolding of all that we can handle.

What can ease the intense discomfort of the moment is making for personal reconciliations within, with the parts of us who feel the deepest despair or shame, for harm caused, feeling how a divine amnesty and forgiveness extends over all of it.

Then from there, a natural and effortless expression of ‘as inside, so outside’ begins to extend from us to others. The darkest darkness is also wanting reconciliation and is spring loaded by the heightened tension and the tug of war of good vs. evil drama and trauma to return fully and suddenly to the love that it is sourced in.

Both the warrior within and without are now being invited, if and when they are ready, to lay down their weapons, reconcile the harm they’ve participated in, all the while believing they were fighting for the good, and then to accept the mantle of Ambassador, with a heart broken open and vulnerable to the great sadness, sorrow and loss that is still unfolding. All self righteousness extinguished under the infinite love and forgiveness and reconciliation with the divine experiment and journey we are all a part of. Sorrows felt, rather than medicated down or avoided. Tears wept.

Now your life, exactly as it is right now, takes on the most exquisite poignancy and meaning as a place from which to transact and make real this reconciliation within and then without. Every anxiety and depression in ‘circumstance’ a standing stone circle portal entry into this All That Is, that awaits your sovereign choice of ongoing continued awakening, at a rate and pace that allows for feeling and healing all that wants and needs to be felt and healed. Savoured, not savioured.

Jelelle’s book and audio book ‘Free To Be 5D’ are a great exploration and attunement to this more that wants to arise in you. You can find it here: https://www.soulfullheart.org/freetobe5dexcerpt

And there’s two upcoming group calls to be a part of if you’d like, Sunday, the 17th and Sunday, the 24th:

https://www.soulfullheart.org/events

If we can be of assistance here at SoulFullHeart, please dig into our free resources, connect with us in whatever ways you are guided to, and if it feels like a fit, ask for a free intro into what personal one on one sessions can look like for you. More info on that here: https://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

May you arise daily into more and more of all that you are meant to be, even amidst the moments that feel like falling.

~ R ~

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

The No Man’s Land Of Our Collective Grief

Published on May 5, 2022 by Raphael AwenLeave a comment

By Raphael Awen

If we take a step outside of this most challenging polarity moving through us right now as a species, we see where there’s something none of us really comfortable feeling.

If the anti injection people are correct, then there’s a wave of destruction and fear that is already here and scaling up at a pace we can only guess at.

If the pro experimental injection people are correct, then our sovereignty and autonomy is best left in the hands of a governing body who are better equipped to lead our lives.

Either way, we are giving up something of such huge proportions. I don’t think there’s a single one of us yet who’s felt the deepening scale of this.

Raging at it, or turning over and accepting it feel like two polarized ways of starting to work through it, but there’s still a huge no man’s land that I haven’t seen anyone step into.

In that no man’s land is something to feel.

Trying to describe it almost does it a disservice, for it can only really be felt, not described. But it has something to do with mourning and grief on a scale we haven’t known in this life.

Life as you and I knew it is changing rapidly, daily and minute by minute. Something big is dying and not returning, regardless of which side of the issue(s) you find yourself on.

People on both sides of the polarity believe they have spared themselves from some personal suffering. ‘According to their beliefs’, as Yeshua would say, ‘so be it unto them’. Beliefs are such strong personal reality creators, but they only go so far.

There’s a shared reality that whether it’s recognized or not, is happening. That reality is the shared boat we are sailing in. The hole in your end of the boat IS actually an issue to me. There’s only one boat, even as we are afforded individual bubbles within that boat, but OUR boat is sinking.

We all chose to be a part of this transition, and to give up a quality of an old life to be a part of anchoring in a new life. Whether you are injection injured, (and my heart breaks for you if you are) or out promoting getting the next booster, we are going somewhere.

There’s somewhere we won’t be returning to.

That change calls into question every plan, every intention, every purpose, every sense of meaning. All of it is up for continual revision as we sort through what can and does feel crazy making and disorienting.

Nothing makes sense in the old way. In the interim, we’re all grasping for the new way that isn’t quite here yet.

I don’t know any other way to be with it, other than to feel this surrender to what is, open my heart to being further activated into this care for myself and our beautiful collective that would choose such transition through such confusion as a planetary group soul’s higher choice and service to the divine’s unfolding of itself through us.

WE chose this. WE created it. The polarity is of OUR creation. When you accept that, you get baptized into being a YOU in service of the WE.

You get to care. You get to feel. You get to mourn. You get to weep the tears others aren’t ready yet to weep. You even get to thrive in love as you take part in honoring the death all around.

You get to be in the real moment that is here now.

And in that moment we see that the deeper our polarities, the deeper our shared reality.

Raphael

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

Spiritual Mastery As An Avoidance Of Vulnerability

Published on May 5, 2022 by Raphael AwenLeave a comment

By Raphael Awen

The path of spiritual mastery or attainments has been basically useless to me for several years, other than to often trip me up in comparison or self judgment games.

The thing was, I used to be able to muster some impressive consistent self discipline and regimen, set goals and stick to them, and that way of being in life doesn’t let go easily, even as it collapses at the same time.

I don’t think I’m alone in this by a long shot. I think what I’m feeling personally is more of a reflection of what the masculine is coming to terms with now as consciousness itself shifts and changes.

Mastery served us well for a time to come to know our power. It moved us from an inferiority complex, but now threatens us with a superiority complex. Both however are non-relational and both are non-vulnerable, and both don’t actually have mastery over anything in the bigger picture of what we really want and need.

At nineteen, I went out jogging every single day for over a year, without missing a day, rain, snow or shine. How I felt didn’t matter, other than holding onto this feeling of I can do whatever I set my mind to. I thought at the time that I’d do this for the rest of my life, because with each passing day, my record of achievement was getting bigger, better as well as harder to lose.

That’s the thing with attainment and spiritual masteries. They are like rolling a stone up a hill that will one day succumb to gravity, and the higher up you roll the stone, the greater its velocity and path of destruction to your self perception and who knows what else when it gives way to nature, as it is sure to do one day.

Men particularly have been so addicted to doing the right thing and the good thing, the thing that once did have meaning, purpose and even connection, with love, life and nature, that they naturally fear letting go of. It matters less how noble the thing, just heaven forbid that you should be without some animating thing.

How could something so good lose its value over time?

If all this mastery and attainment grasping is becoming an old way, is there a new way that wants to come in its place? I have my ideas and answer to this, but do you have a sense of your arising truth around this?

Maybe mastery was just a placeholder holding us as men in a place of being mastered over, until we were ready to enter a whole new dimension of mystery, coming to know our power through the doorway of vulnerability and transparency?

Paul talked about the ‘schoolmaster of the law’ being over us until being introduced to Christ consciousness, which is more about being changed in core nature. Was he already hinting at this two thousand years ago?

It seems the old way of gaining mastery was really about gaining mastery over our vulnerability and never having to be transparent. We were holding a suppressive lordship over ourselves.

You may still be feeling like a millionaire holding some masteries, but I’ll bet life isn’t supporting you any longer to naturally sustain that. All the millionaires and billionaires of today are finding it harder and harder and super costly to effort sustaining those holdings.

These feelings are coming up for me today as I have an opportunity to have a session later today with a dynamic man and big soul who has a heartcry unfolding. I could feel some tension inside and went inwards to feel what it was about.

I connected with all of my inner masculine aspects of me from this life and other timelines that I feel living in me differentiated and unique, and asked their reactions to meeting with a man.

Here’s the pieces that came back to me in dialogue with them. (It feels good to get to the underlying push and pull and where and how it lives in parts of us and their needs. Now, we don’t try and fix the fade on one mastery with another mastery campaign somewhere else.)

“I don’t like men who speak their truth as thee truth without acknowledging their belief system that gave birth to those truths. They don’t feel safe or kind.” Marvin

“I don’t feel comfortable being around men who energize their spiritual mastery or attainments. It doesn’t feel real to me. If they are onto something, I feel stuck in a comparison game or left out. Mastery just hasn’t worked for me in decades. The mastery path as we’ve known it feels non relational and non vulnerable.” Wayne

“I’d like to serve men again. I feel trust that we know we won’t hurt or harm without care and kindness, but I also know that we and you and us are going to need to be awake, ready, in our stance, on our game, with our truth, not letting reactions get internalized. Men are looking for a mirror of truth.” Arthur

“You have a magic in you, Raphael, and that gets to come out and serve and be given when you simply be you, transparenting whatever you are feeling. I like serving men because then we get to dance in the magic and be around other mens magic too.” Charles

“What an opportunity to feel the heartbeat and heartcry of men, instead of dominating or controlling them. They aren’t / we aren’t that complex in some ways. We just want connection, meaning, and purpose” Lionel

Thanks for reading, especially as a man, and maybe as a woman, you can feel this as the masculine polarity inside of you and one that is or is wanting to transmute into these new directions?

I’m curious!

~ R ~

Our online portal is one gathering place for the new. You can find it here: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

Big heartfelt acknowledgement and thank YOU to Gabriel Amara for leading this charge with me while we surrender to divine timing for more men in the room.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

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