Two Worlds Lie Before You

By  Raphael Awen

Two worlds lie before you.

The one you know, all too well quite possibly…., AND the world you don’t know.

What you do know about this unfamiliar world leaves many questions unanswered, at least for now.

If you refuse to embrace the new world, you’re pretty much guaranteed of being locked out of the new world, at least for the long haul time being. But if you choose to explore the new world, with a curious and open heart, you are promised to be met with guidance, grace and support.

But make no mistake, both worlds are equally real, in the deepest sense of the word. Your present world may feel more ‘realized’ to you, and that’s accurate, because it is the world that has been made up, made real, realized. The new world is also awaiting realization through your participation with it.

This was required in the realization of your present world. It couldn’t have arisen without your participation, consent and resources.

Are you beginning to feel the power of your creatorship, even in the disempowered world you presently know?

It’s actually very empowering to begin to take responsibility for the creation of your present world. No need for any heavy handed self flagellation, here. You had many subconscious reasons and soul lifetime reasons for the present creation. There’s the conditioning too of the shared reality of those you’ve known and loved. All of it and more played a part in the present creation.

But that’s it, it’s only the present creation, a point in the story. You begin to realize now that all of us are creating as we speak. We can’t escape it. Maybe this is where our deepest despair lingers, in the moment by moment re-creation of the present reality? How will any good kind of change come forward if I’m my worst enemy?

Just how it changes, and what changes is difficult to put words around, but when you are ready to embrace the new world that lies before you, something unexplainable pops inside of you. You scare people around you that preferred the stuck version of you to comfort the stuck version of them. It’s completely unknown how many, if any, will take your lead and embrace their own new world, at least for now. It appears this is pretty much an initiation you are being asked to take alone, as far as friends and family are concerned.

But remaining the same is strangely, just no longer an option inside of you, even though technically, it still is an option.

You are choosing the new. What you are choosing and where it will take you remains mostly unknown, except for the light, the grace and the comfort of every next step before you.

You begin to get accustomed to this way of ‘not knowing your way to knowing’; pretty insane for the not so distant past version of you, and surely, anxiety producing also for the ones closest to you witnessing your choices and changes.

But the magnetism of this new world calls and calls and calls. The need for external assurances gives way to the unfolding present, a new present being presented to you, a presence of being you lost sight of.

The call now of this reunion and remembrance now with this new world, emanating from within, in sacred cocreation with all divinity, within and without grows louder and louder and louder, in a clear and beautiful harmony that you can dial in whenever you need to.

Strange thing, you find that you actually feel more needy in many ways as you surrender to being an alive and vulnerable being, with real needs, real desires, real wants.

You don’t feel invincible or powerful in the ways that you once thought you would, when you ‘made it’ somehow. No, here, you feel surrounded by an ocean of love, that feels matched in size to the sometimes frightening hunger within you to know and experience that love.

You are learning the ways of the new world. The new world is learning the ways of you.

Wow, you’ve made a choice! How DID that happen? Wasn’t there supposed to be more ceremony or a marker of some kind to denote the beginning? Lots of questions remain in this unmistakeable quest, all of which can only be surrendered as more fuel for the path ahead, where each step is a both a journey and a destination.

The love and magic you will one day come to experience is strangely all here now, somehow. There’s more to come, and it’s all here now. You feel this, you surrender to this. Your first step took you to your new world. AND before you lies a path of infinite growth. Both are true.

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#raphaelsphotonics

The photo above was taken last night, just a point and shoot at the sunset off the balcony. Doing one thing in one moment and then, ‘oh, shit, where’s the camera?’ in the next moment.

This really shows us the lurking magic all around us, offering portals to the new world, the new earth, amidst life as we currently know it, in the present self created version of it we find ourselves in. There’s always a portal calling for our awareness and choice. Life wants to dance with you.

Here’s the music I found to accompany this writing today: https://youtu.be/Abvgu_q_xFE. I’m curious where this all takes you.

Much love,

Raphael

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

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Individuating From Birth Family Guided Meditation: ‘Discover’ Vlog Series With Gabriel & Kalayna Solais

by Kalayna Solais

Healing, awakening, becoming who you are meant to be is a process with many layers, reactions, feelings, openings, and completions.

Often this process leads us to a necessary individuation from birth family as well as other significant relationships we have in our lives.

This process of finding your identity apart from the one which your birth family primarily knows you to have is sacred, tender, and often very challenging.

As Gabriel and I explore in this video, there are many parts with many different needs and reactions around this process. Ultimately, it is a process of finding yourself, discovering what the most self-loving choices are for you and your path, and letting go of relationships that no longer resonate, all at a rate and pace that is manageable for your parts and for you as a growing, healing, and ascending heart and soul.

About halfway through the video we lead a guided meditation to help you connect with your Inner Protector, who will likely have strong feelings about this topic and process, and the part(s) of you that are most anchored into birth family in some way, shape, or form.

The biggest benefit to taking on and letting in this process of individuating from birth family is what you’ll discover about yourself and what you really want in ALL of your relationships. The vacancy created by letting go of relationships that don’t match your frequency and path can eventually be filled by relationships that DO resonate with where and who you ARE as an ever-shifting and awakening being.

Follow-up questions you can ask your Inner Protector and the part(s) of you that you met during the meditation:

What is hard about the relationship with birth family?

What is good about the relationship with birth family?

What is the fear of taking space from birth family?

What would be good about it?

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Much love!

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess. Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist. 

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Higher Timeline Illuminations Happening For ALL Relationships

by Kalayna Solais

‘Old’ timelines are destabilizing now. What isn’t a part of your higher timeline is being shaken up for you to look at and come to terms with somehow. This could be your relationship to different birth family members, friends, romantic partners, or everyone you’ve related with in some way, including yourself.

Parts of you may be becoming agitated at this time, wanting to feel better again and like life can go back to the way it was before, yet the feeling I get right now is that some sort of energetic earthquake has been moving through and continues to move through, encouraging the unraveling of what has been to reveal what could or will be. As always, there are choices to make about which direction to go in, if you feel ready enough to take your next steps into your higher timeline which affects the health of all of your ‘bodies’: emotional, physical, spiritual, etc.

This shaking up of old timelines is not meant to bring suffering, though parts of you may be experiencing it this way. This is actually love waking you up to what has NOT been love, or at least what has not been ENOUGH love. It’s as good a time as any right now to realize that the ‘love’ that parts of you have held dear between yourself and others may not actually be enough when it comes to the deeper longing for love transaction you have inside. You may have cultivated much more self-love lately than ever before and this is catapulting you into a new timeline where this self-love overflow gets to transact more fully and nourishingly with others.

Long-established relationships of all kinds are especially being backlit right now in this way… what has been long-established may still bring enough nourishment if you and they can move together into a shared higher timeline, yet this isn’t always the case and right now this could be the deepest pain to feel as the letting go process is let in. Ultimately, every single person and being (animals included) in your life has sovereignty and a timeline for themselves that they get to choose somehow, consciously or unconsciously. There is nothing you can really do to shift this for them, as this is up to them. My sense is that even animals get to have their choice about whether or not they will ascend alongside their human companions.

The ‘3’ symbol being presented today and all month I can see now is a fork in the road… you have an array of choices, as does every being in your life as you’ve known it. Your parts have choices too, that they get to make along with you as you bring them along on your next trajectory.

I feel how this is a lot to digest and has a deep rumble to it… I feel how my own choices are arriving at my doorstep personally, how it’s always ultimately a choice of becoming our biggest, brightest soul selves or continuing to avoid making that choice and taking those steps. No matter what, the love we are all offered from the Divine is ever-present and supportive… understanding in a way that goes beyond ideas of unconditional love. The Divine wants to offer this love to you and parts of you as you feel all of this through and lean in to the trust that is being invited of you in each moment of ache, of desire, of deep deep learning and process.

This guided meditation from Jelelle Awen may help you tap into and feel your higher timeline possibilities and offer support for you at this time:

Much love to you through all of the rumbles… and if you feel drawn to ask for support, my beloveds and I can help you bridge to your higher timeline and process everything you need to process to step into it more and more: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 30 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Energy Waves Inviting NEW Alchemy From Inner Work

by Kalayna Colibri

So many energy waves coming in recently that are wanting to give us more energy for dreaming, intending, and taking action steps too towards what it is we most want. There’s an invitation into a deeper trust within too. A trust in the goodness that waits on the other side of even some painful processes of having to say “no” to what we don’t want and/or completing with different jobs or relationships that just aren’t aligning with who we are becoming anymore. It’s been about a week or so, it feels like, of harvesting from seeds sown long ago, yet also planting new ones in new soil.

As Gaia’s frequency continues to rise up as reflected in all of these recent spikes in the Schumann resonance and so on, this seems to be laying new ground for us to stand on in many ways! We have NEW opportunities to plant ourselves in that are more in alignment with our soul purpose work and NEW motivation to keep moving on and moving through whatever difficulties are arising. This may even show up as NEW ways to lean into others for support too or to begin offering support to others in a more active and engaged way, whatever that may look like for you. You get to choose the nourishment of co-creation and collaboration with resonant others if it feels like time for you… and you get to wonder why it may not feel like the phase for this for you personally and check in with your parts to see what resistances may be there around it.

This sense of new ground arising is a result of ‘composting’ the ‘old’… dedicating your healing within and shedding layers that no longer feel like you as parts of you let you feel them and move more into health than injury, more into dharma than drama and a healthy integration into your unique expression of wholeness and ‘I’-ness. This has been an intense and churning process often times, just as new compost must be churned and in some cases, burned, in order to integrate into the new soil and add nutrients and life to it. There’s nothing in the multi-verse that can ever disappear, just change state. And so, your pain has the chance to be recycled and added back in as an expression of the renewed you – more alive, more present, more trusting, more genuinely loving, more human, and more spiritual too.

Perhaps it’s time for your new soul soil to be laid and planted in. Energy waves moving through are inviting you to feel what you REALLY want and to be with the process of its manifestation, in all of its ups and downs, challenges and easy flow too. ❤

Much love! ❤

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My beloveds and I would so love to hold space for you if you’re looking for support during these times. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions for more information.

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Photo by Yeshi Kangrang via unsplash.com

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Waves Of Love And Support Through Timeline Collapses

By Kalayna Colibri

Collapsing old timelines takes a lot of focus. It’s tiring. It’s energizing. The experience of being ‘twired’ – tired and wired – is a very real thing!

We’re in the middle of collapsing our timeline here in Mexico while inhabiting and energizing our new timeline in Victoria, Canada. We are feeling the press of the birth canal and contractions as we follow love, service, and desire to our next destination.

We’ve collapsed many, many timelines in our lives and processes, including relationships with toxic or just non-resonant others and other geographies too. It’s never entirely easy, though there are flushes and waves of ease as the universe within and without carries you through the next and next steps.

It always amazes me how even though parts and Metasoul aspects have their reactions to change and fears around it, love shows up to support and guide, reminding you and them that you ARE loved and supported by a universe that wants you to feel its love, even and perhaps especially through the loss and letting go… the willingness to let go in order to let in, work for, wait for what and who you really want. It’s actually this process of being willing to say no and let go that prepares you to really let in and claim. So often what we really want can appear in front of us and without this preparation, we sometimes bypass the opportunity or the budding relationship out of fear or because parts of us aren’t quite ready to let in the possibility of the new.

I feel how we are all connected in our very personal ways of feeling and making choices, especially in this now moment of supportive energy and love waves. There are so many to feel through and be with. There is so much love to serve and flow with. There are ample chances to land ourselves in more love within, making choices that suit our deepest sense of well-being and necessary growth, trusting in the fact that the impact of these choices on ourselves and others does ultimately serve love… even though hurt reactions may come up and pain surfaces to be felt.

Much love to you in your own growth crucibles and the intricate web of connection we all are part of as we find our way… ❤️

Photo by Tim Marshall via unsplash.com

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Feeling Your Desires, Letting Go Of ‘Settling’

By Kalayna Colibri

I’ve never felt very personally drawn to the sense that eliminating all of your desires is the path to true happiness. It’s in genuinely feeling our unhappiness because we don’t quite have what we desire that we set ourselves up for our next process of embodying the change we want to experience. Feeling desires does not have to feel like torture, though parts of you may relate to it that way. It’s not about over-stretching yourself into a pretzel to try and “make” something happen, either… though a phase of feeling yourself do this may be necessary for you.

This process doesn’t eliminate the need to feel gratitude. It’s actually a marriage of gratitude for what you’ve had and experienced and even letting in a mourning process of what you’re feeling to let go of, and a sense that you’re ready to move on now, that becomes the process of drawing in your next timeline.

As Raphael Awen has said many times, “the way you leave is the way you enter”. This lands quite deeply for me as I choose my next desires to pursue and let them land deeply in my heart too. There are things that I want, but more importantly, there are experiences of myself and also of others that I want, that are driving me onward into letting in more of what I truly want at this time.

I know so well the rumble that feeling the gap between what you want and want you have now creates in your being and your life. I have experienced over and over again the process of letting go while also holding on to that picture and feeling-experience that lives inside of you that tells you want is truly possible and invites you to feel all there is to feel about that.

This can become a scary process, especially if it is your first time navigating big changes or shifts, or if you’ve been through big changes before but want to move through it all differently now. It takes great courage to move through your timelines and into the unknown. This may feel natural to some parts of you, but completely unnatural and maybe undesirable to other parts of you.

If Ascension is anything though, it’s a letting go of the need to know and feeling all reactions there are to the not-knowing. We cannot ‘know’ our way through this Ascension process, only be with the unknowns of it and feel ourselves walking all of that out. This is the invitation of change and inner-rumble… this is the path to that which you’ve been most deeply aching for.

What are the desires you have for your experience of yourself, love, life, Ascension? What are you willing to move through in order to have and embody what you desire? Can you feel the parts of you that have a push-pull around letting that in?

It IS possible to hold what you want with a growing maturity and willingness to stumble through some darkness… and it IS imminent, that your desires are leading you to the happiness you crave beyond any previous ‘settling’ you may have been ok with for a while, and the fulfillment of everything your soul has signed up for. ❤️

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My beloveds, Jelelle, Raphael and Gabriel all offer exquisite space holding sessions if you’re curious to ride this unknown horse of your desires more deeply into the next sunrise of your life: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session ❤️

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

When You’ve Had Enough Of ‘Never Enough’: A Poem

by Kalayna Colibri

This long-held mirror, cracks under the hard gaze

of a conditioning that says,

“you’ll never be enough”.

 

The distorted propensity

of not seeing, yet wanting to be seen

and running away still

clings to the self-made ceiling of wanton leadership like ivy.

A stinging, ringing voice that says,

“you’ll never do enough”.

 

The panic of the beating heartbeat inside the soul-beat of consciousness,

the fears of parts, aspects, voices,

sing the words of what they really want

yet with verses of “that, I’ll never have”.

A thousand empty self-promises

somehow grip motivation’s doorway saying,

“you’ll never have enough”.

 

Yet,

sweet fruit of the womb of the Divine,

you’re not here to only be this

or be what you’ve been told you are…

what parts of you are convinced you can only ever be or not be.

You’re here,

Divine son and daughter,

to remember the ceiling was claimed on purpose

and the closed doorways are held shut

by the choice of avoidance

and the lens of lack.

 

Love bursts through and in, in any moment that it can,

reaching a hand to you that says,

“sweet beloved, you ARE enough”…

and the reactions that come from this awakening,

felt in tremors of the physical, the emotional, the spiritual,

 

are the shudders of a heart learning to let in

REAL love,

once and ever… again.

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 35, emoto-spiritual teacher, WayShower, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Current Energies Empower Us To Feel Our Choices Within

by Kalayna Colibri

At any time, you get to push the ‘reset’ button. You get to start again. You get to wake up in the morning and realize that life can become new, can arise for you anew. That the people in your life can too. And that there are many choice points along the way that make this come alive and help YOU come alive again, too.

The only thing that seems to keep us from doing this, letting this in, is what we have still to feel inside of ourselves that really doesn’t trust these choices or see the possibilities in our daily reality. Parts of us that want a quick-fix, get frustrated when everything they’ve tried hasn’t worked or seemed to work (or at least not with any staying power), and then the bottom falls out of our motivation to be IN life… to be a vital part of each relationship we have, especially to ourselves. Or, parts of us get frustrated with simply not finding the solution, not feeling genuinely guided or templated for, not feeling comfortable to be in this skin we’ve chosen as a vessel for our 3D come 4D experience here on Gaia. And THEN the bottom falls out and we are left with quite a bit of inner flatness and apathy.

We get to choose. We get to choose to do and be something different, to have a new approach, to try a new way, a new lens too. We get to do all of this and perhaps that is the very essence of free will. We also get to choose NOT to choose, which is still very much a choice. We can opt-in to our inner power and do the work we need to within, or we can let parts of us continue to opt-out of this invitation to heal and continue on in the same patterns we and they have been used to.

We get to decide our approach to life and to healing. What we don’t really get to choose is how and why our pain surfaces, as this is a collaboration with life and the Divine that we cannot shake off, no matter how hard parts of us may work to keep activity and positivity in place. We get to choose our healing paths and whether or not we fully show up for whatever place we’re at in our lives. We get to lead or follow as much as we want to, as much as parts of us want to… for in the beginning of feeling your parts, you begin to realize how much of your life has actually been a result of the choices parts of you have made, and not necessarily choices the most authentic and raw YOU would make.

Whatever the array of choices are that you make in one day let alone one lifetime, the deepest choices are often the ones that help us look, feel, notice, and heal. These are the choices that don’t ever flatten us out but bring us closer to ourselves and the lives we have truly, most deeply been wanting to live and LOVE. To feel where and how these choices show up for you and within you today feels like the most important revelation you could take in and the biggest, most magical experience you could ever have. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Infinite Tug Of More

Painting by Patrick Ennis

We exist in a contemplative creative space seeking to uncover a mystery that has no finality or destination other than the one we have chosen to make of it. Even the choice of meaninglessness has its its own sacred purpose. That infinite void space of ISness and Presence is the canvas from which we give our soul creative expression. Pressing against the edges of our own chosen limitations and fears.

What is it that you really want from this realistic dream state you have found yourself in?

Understanding?

Love? Union? Interaction?

Fulfillment? Safety? Freedom?

Adventure? Wholeness? A reset?

All of the above?

The answer may not be as easy as it appears for with each choice lies more questions. More specifics. It brings you to a place where the answers may bring you to contradictions and collisions. What does the depth of this exploration ask of your current cosmology and morality? These internal conflictions seek a mediator and a claimer. A trust in something that is just not knowable but intuitively desirable.

Your heart is your homing device in this vast multidimensional arena. Inside lies your clarity, confusion, and delusions all told. They work themselves into BEing as you connect more to your ultimate desires and your hidden truths.  You may be in a tug-of-war with your inner selves as you are feeling the tug of “more” within your soul.

This is the process of choice, feeling, trust, and action. It is the universe birthing Itself through you. Are you creating It or is It creating you? Or are you dancing with It in Holy matrimony? Do you do this alone or in relationship? These are the questions that may be inviting you IN. Calling you forth into seeking the heights of your most unknowable and infinite self.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Conscious Evolution: The Consequence Of Our Energetic Choices

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We are all evolving. No matter the soul. Each one is participating in this natural maturation process that holds its own unique and particular part of the story. Each highlights something that can take us to greater depths of our compassion and relationship to Love. How deep does our compassion go? This is what Love is curious about. This is what I am curious about. How can I evolve into more love if there are parts of me that block that compassion, especially to myself? It is the outward expression of our lack of compassion that is ultimately about ourselves in the long run.

So much is being uncovered, discovered, and disseminated. From the cosmic activations of our Higher Self and higher timelines to a geopolitical unraveling that is occurring right before our eyes in black and white. Conspiracy theories be damned. This is really happening. The Light is making Itself more aware. Shining on the darkened pockets of our Being.

How we respond in this time sets in motion what it is we really truly want from this existence. What would be truly new in this situation? What choice can I make that lets in more love even as it brings up fear or resistance? Each choice creates a new timeline. A pathway to a new world. One that is not covered in the blanket of fear we have created for ourselves. We are truly infinite creators choosing. Evolution is the energetic consequences of our choices.

As the rising tide of these energies and unfoldings continue, you may begin to feel presses inside and out. Reactions and tugs. Questions and clarities. The frequency they take you can have a big impact on your evolution into the New. These anchored frequencies can be held by unfelt parts of you that are seeking your open-hearted compassion.

I have felt these energies inside myself that are leading to new connections and integrations with myself as I have held them in sacred space over these past few days. It is like a dam is ready to break inside of me and the part of me that has protected me from this event had an existential WTF moment. It is feeling the largess of the time we are in right now and how important it is to show up for all that is coming.

If you feel your dam breaking, or has broken, and are needing some navigation of it all, SoulFullHeart is here to serve that WITH you. To assist you in feeling all the parts that may be feeling a bit lost, confused, or in pain. To help integrate what is moving through you to make the changes necessary to find yourself on your highest emotive and spiritual timeline. These are days of self-love and compassion for all that you are moving through and feeling.

 

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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