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Useless Love

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By Raphael Awen

Love that cannot be felt or known isn’t of any value.

You and I may be infinite love, surrounded by infinite love, and returning to infinite love, but to whatever degree we cannot feel this, it actually isn’t true in our felt reality of what it feels like to be living life as us.

It is from the heart, or from the emotional body, that our relationship with love is governed and moderated. We came here in order to not just be love, but to have a relationship with love.

That meant dialling up for ourselves having the felt sense of being separated from love and then finding our way back to love. We needed to make love a perceived ‘other’ to ourselves, in order to feel it, observe it, so that we could come to know it in a way that we previously could not by remaining in a oneness place.

BUT, in order to do that, to open ourselves to the full array of love and not-love, and the comparative duality between them, it necessitated that we open ourselves to the full range of both love’s presence and love’s absence. When I feel the staggering atrocity of that, and all the pain we experience because of that, I can only heart-surmise that it made sense to us from the vantage point of our previous domain, as we could clearly see and feel the unfathomable depths of beauty and bounty in being reintroduced to love in this way – forgetting (giving up having) in order to remember (to return to membership).

(Insert here: every love story and every story for that matter, as every story is a story ultimately about love. Insert every piece of music ever written, every photo taken, every piece of poetry, every song, every language, every life lived…that’s the deal we are doing here…that’s the proverbial meaning of life…we know what the intended meaning of life IS now…we just are wanting to get on with knowing and feeling that meaning!)

So all of this comes back to being hinged on the heart. Our heart is the doorkeeper to love, this love that we were, this love that we still are, this love that we at core yearn for more of. The crumbs of love that we once came to know in previous years of our lives understandably became the treasures and addictions we are unwilling to risk losing later in life given our great hunger and need for love. The source of our pain and suffering and the disease in our bodies is sourced in this hunger and do-or-die for love. We even must play the victim claiming love’s unfairness in the courts of life for entire lifetimes as part of our personal dramas of this return to the love that we are.

When we can see and feel that it is our heart that is regulating our experience with life, it kind of puts all the priority on getting to know and feel what’s going on in the heart, right? I mean, what else really matters? Even the point of all ‘matter’ is love!

I’m pumped on feeling and finding ways to explore this gatekeeper called the heart. Without this exploration, every other endeavour, in every arena of life is suspect of being a cover for what isn’t happening in the heart domain.

In SoulFullHeart, we have and continue to experience profound shifts and movements with ourselves and the world around us through what we call ‘parts work’, getting to know and feel the parts of ourselves that make up what we have simply called our personality. In getting to know and feel a single distinct part of ourself is where the actual return to love that I’m describing above occurs.

Remember, I explained above that as a soul we leave perceived and actual oneness (while magically retaining it somehow) to experience a fractured reality, the whole point of which is the return to oneness, albeit at a much greater realization. As in the spiritual body, so it is in the emotional body. We fragment in order to return to wholeness. SoulFullHeart doesn’t fragment the emotional body, but rather deeply acknowledges and gets to know the fragmentation that already exists in us, the fragmentation we chose, the fragmentation that governs and moderates our relationship to love, and then from there, renegotiates a conscious letting-in of this love that we are…that we needed to forget and remember…so that we could actually feel and know the love that we are….one sacred moment at a time!

Okay, that’s a lot to take in isn’t it? It’s a lot to write about in the moment! 🙂

We are also currently offering a free ½ hour personal intro session and the details are here about that: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Thanks for reading! Thanks for wanting! I look forward to hearing from you.

Raphael Awen

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Being Yourself: The Highest Service

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By Raphael Awen

There is no greater service you could offer to the world than the service of profoundly being yourself.

There is no greater heroics, no epic call to achieve greatness that outshines the call to truly be yourself.

Greatness is already in you, but for parts of you, this may be the farthest from their current felt reality.

Part of you may feel insignificant. Part of you may feel like the opposite of any kind of greatness. If that’s true, then truly being yourself would require starting there wouldn’t it? It did for me. I found a way, along with the courage to no longer deny the parts of me who felt not only like the opposite to any positive thinking pep talk, but also who felt stuck in deep wells of unworthiness.

These parts of us, whom I believe we all have, are not the limitation on us from achieving greatness, but rather the doorway into our true greatness. As we feel and heal the first domains of our sovereignty, our own insides, we just become more and more life; alive energy that is our deepest service to the world.

Ignoring this reality and then burdening ourselves with choosing a career, or looking for a way to ‘earn a living,’ or living by a ‘get ahead’ mantra is a sure way to keep this 3D suffering intact. You ARE a powerful calling waiting upon your choice in order to ‘happen’.

If life is anything, it is choice; so much so, that even indecision is a powerful choice. The choice before us is to enter the 4D of our own pain, our own transmutation.

Choosing to feel and heal ALL there is to feel and heal is where the true greatness that already resides in every single one of us (bar none) IS the portal, or choice point to enter our greatness.

So you can either pretend that you long for greatness, while you actually refuse the doorway to the greatness you are, or you can choose to acknowledge and own the greatness already residing spring loaded inside of you, underneath some carefully hidden stuff.

This stuff then between the gold you are (5D) and how parts of you actually feel (3D) is thee stuff of the real transmutation (4D). Until you get intimate with what parts of you actually feel, underneath the parts of you so bent on not feeling, there simply isn’t much greatness to be had, other than the kinds that can maybe be pumped up at a ra-ra rally.

I want more than the real thing. I find the ‘large group awareness training’ rally stuff to be true 3D bullshit created as a work around for those suffering outside of having actual access to their true greatness. Toss in all the multi-level marketing plans along with that. It’s classic 3D. It made sense while it did. We needed it to take us somewhere. It no longer holds any resonance for many of us. We are meant for super abundance, we just are not meant to manipulate ourselves and others to ‘achieve’ it. How about ‘being’ it instead, and letting it manifest more and more and more? I like that plan a whole lot better! It’s 5D and we can smell it on the horizon.

If you are seeking a small and doable choice point, yet of potential epic proportions into your own greatness, I invite you to consider the SoulFullHeart process. It is a doorway in. I am one of the people who serve it as my great service, and am so grateful to be creating and recreating a way that works for those for whom it is meant to.

Raphael Awen
soulfullheartwayoflife.com/aboutservices

And we have a group call coming up this weekend for you to join in with as a way to verify if we might be your going on point. Here’s the details. The subject is ‘Seeing, Feeling and Healing The 3D Self’ https://www.facebook.com/events/110934986279085/

I would love to have your interest and inquiry!

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Make Up Your Own Spirituality!

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By Raphael Awen

So you sit down with a little self-assignment to write the first 10 things that come to mind if you were to make up your own Spirituality, unedited, it doesn’t have to make sense to anyone but you, it doesn’t have to draw the masses, it just needs to be spontaneous and from you….go….

(You might want to write your own before reading mine, and share your results in the comments later below)

1. Get real or go home
2. Victims not welcome
3. Shit or get off the pot
4. I love you
5. I hate you
6. See the biggest picture you can
7. Want like there’s no tomorrow
8. Drop the role
9. If you’re happy with lesser things, good for you, I was too, until I wasn’t and I loved it and needed it while I did.
10. Love yourself first

Then, poof, there appears in front of you, the world’s ‘Registrar Of New Religions’, and he tells you that you can only have 3, so you have to turf 7, and he closes his office in 5 minutes, and he needs the last 2 minutes to lock up. You’ve got 3 minutes. Go. Just 3 of the above 10.

1. Get real or go home.
2. Want like there’s no tomorrow.
3. Love yourself first.

You hand in your 3, and he says ‘I’ll submit this application for you, but you will need to sit down and write 1 paragraph for each of these 3 and submit it through my mail slot before leaving today or your application goes nowhere’.

You sit down to write. No pressure or anything right? You feel the world has needed a new religion for a god-awful long time, and now, it’s all hanging on some further words of explanation!? You write some further explanation, while wondering if this isn’t a really bad idea.

(Again, you may want to write your own before reading mine, and share below)

1. Get Real Or Go Home: If we could just get truly honest with ourselves and with one another, there may not actually be any higher enlightenment than that, or any form of enlightenment that you cannot access through radical self honesty.

2. Want Like There’s No Tomorrow: If you are anything, at your deepest core, you are a ‘wanter’. Denying this is self suicide, and then you are of no use to anyone, including yourself. You can’t sell a dead man a cup of coffee.

3. Love Yourself First: All attempts at putting others first are only pathetic attempts at hiding the fact that all we can do is put ourselves first. If I truly love another, it is because profoundly I have come to love myself and have overflow that is my funnest fun to share.

You fold your paper, with your name on top, and pop it through the mail slot. Now what? My god, you didn’t know the registrar dude was going to pop out of no-where. What if this new religion gets ‘approved’ and ‘installed’ somehow? Couldn’t it have used a bit more time and thought, maybe even some deep meditation, or even a retreat? How many eons might a new religion hold sway over the masses? What big thing did I miss? Oh, God, I didn’t even get the golden rule in there…

You walk out through a park out front looking to digest a bit more of what just happened and the Registrar guy is there looking all casual and approachable now for some reason. He sees your look and tells you that you just launched a new universe of reality into existence and you are at the center of it. He goes on to explain that every single religion, or spiritual practice is simply made up every day by the people living them from their deepest insides, the good, the bad, the beautiful and the ugly. You look back quite somber feeling wondering if you got it right or not, and he tells you ‘don’t worry, it’s as easy to change as it is to make up, actually, the hard part is getting people to see that’s what they are already doing, and always have been’.

You take that in for moments in the now casual easy quiet but alive energy between you and this registrar guy, when you realize you just met a part of yourself that simply wanted your attention…

Raphael Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.Com

In SoulFullHeart, we offer a way to connect with every part of yourself, from the part of you who may want to a write a new world religion, to the part of you who wouldn’t touch any such thing with a 10 foot pole. We are currently offering a free intro session conducted by myself or Gabriel Heartman to help you feel into where SoulFullHeart process may be wanting to take you. More about that here: Soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

My beloved, Jelelle Awen and myself are also hosting, sharing, and leading a guided meditation about the 3D self this September 9th at 11:11am CST. Details here: https://www.facebook.com/events/110934986279085

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Love Has Already Won

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By Raphael Awen

Until you accept that every want and every desire is coming ultimately from love, you are unable to see the forest for the trees.

Even the so called evil desires for self-gratification, power, control, destruction are all part of love’s reality that provide contrast and comparison for love to be seen and known for what it is.

Our deep rooted fears of imprisonment in a matrix that we cannot escape from stem from this staggering oneness in love that we are inescapably embedded in.

Our collective and personal attempts at hate, evil and greed are only escape attempts from this essence we are. Existentially, we have a need to press the boundaries, test the edges, and to see what actually is or isn’t. We simply cannot believe the immensity and power of love that we are informed from and with.

Looking at the big trees standing so strong before us of our separation, our tendency for war, our corporate greed, etc. only obscures the forest of love that these trees have their place and rightful lease in; the forest of love. There is only one forest.

This picture is equally true inside of you. You wouldn’t claim to be all love as far as every motive and act is concerned, would you? There are the parts of us who are in conflict with other aspects of ourselves who must control, suppress, dominate, obscure, hide, be disintegrous, and manipulate with an agenda. There are other parts of us who would of course work hard to keep these aspects hidden even from our own acknowledgment, let alone being called out by others.

But these very aspects of our being are also sourced and rooted in love. There is no other essence in the universe for them to be coming from. They are only doing and being what made perfect sense to them to find their way in the service of love to protect, to manage, to survive in the context of life as they know it and experienced it. Our being chose the experience of the convincing illusion of not-love as a way to come to terms with the love that we are.

The war is over. Love has already won. It wasn’t really a war actually, as there was only one Sovereign behind this war playing both sides to the middle; the center of everything; the center of love. Parts of you just don’t know it yet.

And herein lies the meaning of what we call life.

Life is simply a story of you, me, along with every last bit of super intelligence finding this out for ourselves; for our varied selves; the parts of us marooned on distant islands, loyal to their posts, hunkered down for the long haul who never got the memo that the war is over; that the war was never even a bona fide war in the first place.

Love is knocking on your door today, official signed and sealed memo from on high in hand. You are inescapably and completely love. The post war reality is now to embrace every part of yourself for whom this is not yet true and find ways to accustom them to this new reality as they are ready, willing and wanting.

Raphael Awen
soulfullheartwayoflife.com/services

Join Jelelle Awen and I in two hours at 11:11am CST for our first LIVE stream, Q & A, teaching, sharing…..high vibe, opening hearts and souls frequencies! We’d love to receive your comments and questions and respond to them in the moment….It’ll be on our SoulFullHeart way of life FB page: https://www.facebook.com/soulfullheartwayoflife/?pnref=lhc!

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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‘Master, What Must I Do In Order To Ascend?’

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By Raphael Awen

The Student asked the teacher ‘Master, what must I do in order to ascend?’

The teacher replied ‘The entire universe is ascending all on its own super intelligence. You need only sit on your ass and do absolutely nothing and you will be most sure to ascend’.

The student paused long enough to suggest to the teacher that he had respectfully pondered his reply, and then came back with another question ‘Master, I have done nothing at times and I find myself plagued with boredom. Can you tell me how I might avoid boredom?’

The teacher again responded forthrightly ‘You must act upon all of your desires. Find out what you really want and pursue that to your heart’s desire. This is why you are here. Boredom is simply your heart calling out to you to pursue what you want’.

Now, the student was perplexed at the opposite advice given to him inside of minutes from the same teacher. He truly pondered much longer this time and then in deeper reverence for both himself and the teacher, he asked ‘Master, you have advised me contrarily for my 2 wishes. For my desire to ascend, you have told me there is nothing I can do, and for my desire to avoid boredom, you have told me that I must act on what I desire. Can you help me reconcile this difference so I will truly know peace?’

The teacher replied curtly, ‘Had I known it was peace you sought, I would have sent you on your way and not have advised you at all.’

The student edging towards being offended, said ‘But Master, can you explain this to me? Isn’t peace of mind and heart what we all seek and need?’

The Master turned and made deep eye contact with the student this time, paused to the point of becoming uncomfortable, and then replied ‘If it is peace you seek, you are of no value to me. I have long let go of my expectation for perfect peace, and instead live in the honest tension of what I really want and what I don’t yet have. This is the only kind of enlightenment that I am aware of that is available to be had. I find myself ascending and my deepest needs getting met by being around people who want desperately to have fun; who are not at peace without it; and who have accepted that this is truly the funnest fun.’

The student took this in deeply and in the space opened out by the teacher’s words and heart, he again found his tongue and said ‘You have blown my mind today, but so opened wide my heart. Can you tell me how I might live my way into more of this kind of enlightenment you speak of, Master?’

The teacher replied ‘Yes, you must now become your own Master. You are your own sovereign establishing your own heart kingdom. You have no one to report to or to surrender to, but yourself, as well as no one to blame for the outcomes of your life. If you have fun, it is up to you. If you are bored, it is up to you.’

‘Thank you…’ replied the student, stopping himself just short of adding the word ‘Master’.

The teacher replied ‘And just one more thing before you go…’

‘Yes’ answered the humbled student.

‘Stop asking teachers for their answers as a way to deflect from taking responsibility for your own life, and to deflect from owning your own truth. If you continue this practice, you will most surely not ascend any time soon, and it will be boring as the prisons of hell itself’ added the teacher for good measure.

The student knew to pause here, nod, rather than speak his acknowledgment and to go on his way.

Raphael Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.Com/services
(Regular buses departing Pleasantville for the ride of YOUR life: free intro sessions, group calls, live streams and more.)

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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How To Hire And Fire A Spiritual Teacher

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By Raphael Awen

Those words may sound like a 3D approach to something sacred, but in my emerging sense of it, no dimension is more sacred than the other, or higher or lower as we like to differentiate them from our 3D perspective.

Prior to being an emoto-spiritual teacher, I was a painting contractor, and I see a lot of similarities between hiring and firing a contractor as I do in hiring and firing a spiritual teacher.

First off, no expert gets to serve anyone by the authority of their expertise or attainment. There isn’t actually any authority to be found in expertise or attainment as far as transaction between 2 parties is concerned. As a painting contractor, I got my authorization to serve from the homeowner, having earned their confidence to be able to address their need. I claimed expertise and the desire to address their need, yes, but the authority to serve came from them. I had something they wanted, and they entered an exchange with me.

When for whatever reasons, they came to prefer the services of another, their attention was drawn elsewhere and so was the inherent authorization to serve them also withdrawn.

When you find yourself being drawn to a resource, be it a latest author, a counsellor, a mega-church, or a shaman in Peru, or a dentist for that matter, you are deepening in authorization to be served, while you are exchanging energies, and thereby confirming the next step in deepening process.

This, like any relationship can be, and often is, a big honeymoon experience that ends in hurt feelings and slamming of doors as either party projects images onto the other that aren’t accurate as each other’s shadow gets to come out and play, and wreak some havoc.

While the 3D self is very quick to claim victimhood in these situations after having been ‘swindled’ out of money or time, the higher self chose and even orchestrated and drew the harm experience for its growth and evolution into more of the love essence that it is.

From a higher dimensional perspective, we are now now being invited to feel a deeper consciousness about what it is we are being drawn into and why, as we let ourselves reach out to a resource around us. We are also being asked to feel deeply what it is that we really want, and this makes us more vulnerable, not less.

I’m offering and developing SoulFullHeart work because I believe it is the best thing out there, hands down. If I believed any differently about another kind of work or spiritual paradigm, I would go embrace that work deeply and offer that. This is my claim of my expertise, my heart and my passion. At root, I want to serve people for whom anything less wouldn’t be enough for them. This isn’t ‘all are welcome’ like a sign on a church door. This is all are loved, yes, but in order to go deeper, we need to meet on the ground of what we both really want, and why, and to let that form the projectile of the relationship.

We’re all being asked to quit pissing around and deeply go into our chosen spiritual choices and practices. For many, that will mean blowing themselves right out of a given spiritual attachment. I embraced Christianity so deeply this life that my press through the front door found me facing the back door much sooner than part of me was prepared for, and herein lies the fear of changing this much, at this pace, and finding yourself on the outside, feeling alone and having to look deeply within.

Welcome to Ascension!

This is what you came here for. You don’t have to go it alone any longer than you do need to, if you are willing to want and need and ache for what it is that you really want.

Raphael Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.Com/sessions

I invite you to check into SoulFullHeart deeply if it’s energies call to you deeply. I don’t actually want to serve paltry interest. I want to serve your arising passion, heart and honest vulnerability. We offer a free intro session and in exchange we ask you to confirm your interest and respond to 3 simple questions. Then we go from there, finding and feeling more of what it is that we both most deeply want, together. Let me know if you are interested in the free intro and why. I look forward to hearing from you. 

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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You Can Have What You Want

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By Raphael Awen

You CAN have what you want.

If there is any catch to this, it’s this: You CAN have what you want. Yes, you read that correctly. Actually having what you want is what scares the crap out of us, and subconsciously keeps us at bay from drawing what we most deeply want.

You and I both may say “Oh, I’d drop this dump in a heartbeat if I could afford a nicer place”. But thinking and feeling that we are limited because we can’t afford a nicer place is a perception coming deeply from the 3D conditioned self. From a 5D perspective, there is nothing that doesn’t belong to you. There is nothing that is off limits to your pleasure and enjoyment. If your and my 3D experience is going through some experience of lack, that is because we dialled that up.

Lack is a very rare and precious thing from a 5D perspective. You can’t find it just anywhere. You need to dial it up in a 3D world and reality and enter a weird thing called the time, space and material reality in order to experience and learn from what it feels like to taste and be in lack.

There are things you as a soul just can’t learn, being the infinite abundance that you are, without a forgetting and remembering experience. You are actually seeking to be born into what you already are and always were.

Which is kind of cool when you think of it. Becoming a millionaire or has got be way more fun than just being a millionaire. It’s the process we are seeking, because it is in experience that we have these ‘birthing into’ experiences that make us more than we were, and even more than we infinitely at present ARE, if your mind can grok a piece of that. You already are infinite love, but in a process of forgetting and remembering that you are infinite love, you become more than infinite love. Infinite love that doesn’t know and feel that it IS infinite love, is of no felt value. It is worth everything, but it has no identity, no healthy ego yet to go about and strut its stuff.

You are the hottest stuff the universe is made of, and the fact that you are able to dial up a shitty apartment is utterly astounding to the 5D consciousness that also lives in you. Holy f*ck. It’s all so holy in fact, that no polite or impolite language can take away from it or add to it.

You already are having from a 5D perspective exactly what you want. If a better apartment on a 3D level is what your 3D self is wanting, then you have some negotiating to do with your 5D self, because YOU are the only one pulling the levers here. You’ve got some lessons to finish up.

Where this gets really interesting is to systematically and methodically open the door to getting to know and feel your 3D selves, your 4D selves and your 5D self.

We set out to do just that through SoulFullHeart process and I’d like to give you a taste of a piece of our curriculum that we work through in early session space with facilitants. It’s an awesome blend of heart opening, intuition, the imaginarium ALONG WITH a system, a method, a discipline… The feminine and the masculine blend as a vehicle to take you somewhere. Get ready though, it’s a bit of a long article and video that will only secure your heart and soul attention if you are ready for it, meaning you may well have to negotiate with your 3D aspects just to be able to get into this. It will take time and heart and It will change you, as it has and continues to change us.

The article and video offers a self guided aspect that we wanted to share with people for free to let them feel into if committing the time and money to working more directly with a facilitator and regular committed SoulFullHeart process is something that calls to them.

Here is that article: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/3d4d5dselvesquestions

I am really curious to hear how it lands in you, and to digest it further with you when you are ready in a free ½ hour intro session that we offer as a bridge for people feeling into deepening process together.

Raphael Awen

…and if you’d like to connect with our energy tomorrow on our group call around Sacred Union that Jelelle Awen and I are leading, here are the details for you to do that here. It’s gonna be good…, they always are when deeply interested people like you show up with heart and desire.https://www.facebook.com/events/254241058395276/

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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I Want To Shake Men

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By Raphael Awen

I want to shake men.

I want to yell in their face ‘Why are you here!?’ and ‘What in the hell is it that you want!?’… even if I piss a few men off in the process.

I want to yet again shake and awaken myself.

I don’t want your or my settled niceness. I don’t want your or my spiritual adeptness at the cost of our passion. I don’t want your adaptation. I want to see and feel your rawness….because I so want to see and feel more of my own.

As a man, there is a way that you represent all men, and even ARE all men. When you settle, we all settle. When you choose not to feel, you set a far reaching agenda for all men.

There is a also a way that you are surrounded with every ounce of love and resource that exists…. And to significant degree, you are immune to all of it, because you are afraid.

You are afraid of your own truth. You are afraid of what you really want. You are afraid of your own passion. You are afraid of none other than yourself and the journey called your life.

It’s not necessarily true for all of you, but it is true for a part of you. And until you get in touch with this afraid part of you, you have not even entered your own kingdom, let alone made any claim over it. Until you enter your own sovereign kingdom in this way, you are on the edge of amounting to little more than a bad example, which in the universe’s economy is still considered a lot, but is it enough for you?

Everything in your power, but yet nothing in your realization…that is, to write home about, the home that you came from.

I’m surprised a bit at the edge in my words today. They are directed at myself as much as they are shared with others. I want to advocate for my truth, in my own kingdom, the land of my own sovereignty, and be matched by other kings of heart. This is finding a new agenda for manhood. This is finding out why and what our gender polarity is all about and our relationship to the opposite gender.

It begins with owning all that’s going on inside for you, as best you can feel it and describe it, and then to find the boy inside and relieve this boy who yet only knows hiding all he feels. There is very serious work to do. There is getting real with why you are here and what you really want. To not see the cost side of this ledger only means you are not here yet. If life as you currently know it is structured around disconnect and hiding, then any forward movement inward will have a one to one correlation with a necessary deconstructive movement outward, that you are going to have to begin self-lovingly negotiating, as soon as you are ready.

This is the heart passion that lives in painted moving swirls on the walls inside of my truth, and the fire colours that colour the underside of the clouds that float through my skies. This is my own parallel dimension where I must be while we as men sort out our next going on place together. BUT, if you don’t want your shit, I don’t want you. I can’t really want you until you want you. Not anymore.

I used to need men to validate my own subconscious need to hide. Then I got really curious to the point of being possessed about my own need to hide. I entered the domain of my own hiding and to this day, I still am. I’m reporting from my own cave, now transmuting into an infinite portal to so much more than I can’t even describe. Truth be told, if I hadn’t felt into my own fears heretofore, I simply wouldn’t have the balls to go any further in what is on the docket now.

But I really don’t want to do this and be this alone, because I don’t have to. I am called to lead and I feel more and more resolved around leading. The payoff for me in serving other men to awaken to their own true power is getting to be around other infinitely powerful men. Truth is, as I said, I’m going to need it and I’m going to need them if what I’m seeing in front of me concerning my own yet still to be inhabited power is real.

So my love of you is unconditional, but my want of you is very conditional. I’m asking for more of you because I’m looking for more of me. I can love you from a distance, and even weep a broken heart for you from a distance, but to enter sacred domain together, I need you and I to come together on mutually awakening terms, awakening and attuning to what it is that you really want.

Now, if you are ready for it, there is a bus leaving for the destination of more of what you really want. You may not like this bus, but you need to find one you do like, or drive your own, because all men, and even all species are waiting for you to choose the destination of your more.

No pressure, and all that! 🙂

I love you and I need you and I want you!

Raphael Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.Com

We are currently offering a free intro session (to men and women) for those considering entering regular session space with us. If you are interested, let us know and we’ll send you some things we’ll ask you to read and a few questions to respond to, to further help you see if this is or isn’t what is calling you. More details on that are here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

We also have another group call around Sacred Union that Jelelle Awen and I will be leading this coming Saturday and these always are amazing to be a part of. We ask for a minimum donation of 11 USD over paypal, and then we send you the link to join in over Zoom Web Meetings. The details are here:https://www.facebook.com/events/254241058395276/ and we would so love to have you join us.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Uniting Without Diminishing – The Masculine And The Feminine

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By Raphael Awen

I’m finding myself wanting to blend the masculine energies of choice, intention and action with the feminine energies of intuition, resonance and inspiration as Jelelle Awen and I feel through (feminine) and sort out (masculine) some new directional pieces for SoulFullHeart.

We are finding people being drawn to us who feel a huge resonance factor with us, our writings etc, along with all kinds of intuitions about a deeper connection with us, yet often not taking a next grounded step towards what we offer.

It felt really important to not make this about ‘them’ as that just puts us in a victim/defensive/reaction place, but to instead feel into what is the universe asking us to feel and choose in the midst of this….as an opportunity.

This week, we felt guided to offer a free ½ hour intro as a way to bridge interest, and already this is proving to be a really informative exercise, that several people are choosing. On the one hand, I don’t really want to be ‘inundated’ with doing free intros where we simply just hang out in some good vibes together that don’t really amount to anything. But on the other hand, really helping people bridge their interest and intuition to some further choice points would be really rewarding, and I can feel myself loving it.

This highlighted the need to ask deeper questions about what we want and why, and how only from such an inquiry could we come to structure some guidelines about what we want with people, how to lead with that and how to be in that.

We know, through our own personal years of work, that we have opened our hearts deeply, and offered session space to others along with naturally arising community around that, but we are also feeling the opportunity and desire to take that to new places of structure and increased numbers where the masculine and feminine both get to come out and play in a way they couldn’t before; where the pure service of love is served by the ingenuity and balance of system and clear objective; feeling what’s working and what isn’t, and asking why.

We’re in some brand new places and it feels important to be transparent about it (as we trans-’parent’ a new way of life into being for people) as well as invite those who are feeling their choice points to contact us and enter this space of alchemy together, being really clear about what we want.

If this movement rhymes with a heart and soul movement you are having, you might want to check this out deeply and you can do just that at the link below.

Much love,

 

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Being Re-Membered To The All You Already Are

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By Raphael Awen

Everything you desire in this dimension you already have on another dimension.

Any longing or ache or desire that lives in you aches because it is a remembrance in some way, shape or form of the essence of your being.

If you are journeying through poverty or lack and you are willing to feel your desire for nicer things, what you are actually feeling is your connection to the essence of all there is that you actually are.

If you are longing for a heart and soul mate, and the inhabitation of your sacred sensuality and sexuality, it is because you are wanting on a deeper soul level to experience fully what you already are. Sex is simply and so unsimply the edge of deep reverence.

You were only willing to take this epic journey into this land of comparative difference and contrast to this essence that you are because you were assured and felt this essence that you are could never be lost from your possession. You possess it now and you always have. Feel this present possession inside of your being.

But wait, where’s the gain possibility in that you ask…if I didn’t give up anything, didn’t invest anything into the equation? If I already have it all, to what purpose is the human experience?

The human experience is the land of seemingly not having it all.

What you gave up and had to give up, as the price of admission was the conscious knowledge of what you were and are, in order to reawaken to this essence. You see, you always were this essence, and even as this essence, you were not actually awakened to it. You just were it, but without reverence for it, and without experience of it. You couldn’t get outside of it to see it or feel it or value it.

So you agreed to enter a contractual binding agreement that made perfect sense that you would forget in order to be re-membered to and with what you actually are. You are like an adult that agreed to a de-maturation process. You surrendered to early onset alzheimers dis-ease as a portal into an awakening that you never had. You agreed to re-enter the birth canal and womb in reverse direction in order to be born again into a much deeper dimension of that all that you never actually lost, but also never actually experienced yet. You agreed as the god you are to take on human flesh.

You ‘had’ this essence, you still ‘are’ this essence, but you just now for the first time are awakening to this essence. You entered the time zone to have a timeless experience, where the magic of your being could play out in front of you to be seen and felt, into a very real story, and a very true story.

Can you see and feel in all of this that the only attainment here is a reverence awakening to what already is and NOT the material attainment of any thing, be it a spiritual thing, an emotional thing, or a thing of physical matter. The ‘matter’ of it is already manifested material that exists now. The only thing wanting to yet be attained or enlightened or awakened to is the reverence for what already is!

What is materializing now is not the material itself, but the actual awe and reverence that undergirds and creates all matter. It is in being the observer and in being the observed that life is profoundly changed, where we are reparented into a new reality.

So get out your curiosity….get out your sacred QUESTions….get out your hunger for the more that you are. Give yourself the gift of your sacred desires.

You came here to experience every ounce of what is already under your feet.

Raphael Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.Com

We’re ( Jelelle, Kalayna, Gabriel, Raianna, Angela, Toni Woods) getting on the phone for some deep reverence this coming weekend again with another of our group calls if you’re ready to take a step closer to our energy, which is actually the energy of your own higher self calling you out to play. It’s a great place to meet and feel together. Details here: https://www.facebook.com/events/254241058395276

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.