Tag: healing the heart

Trusting The Gravity Of Our Emotions

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by Kalayna Colibri

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“To fall,
patiently to trust our heaviness.
Even a bird has to do that
before he can fly.” – Rilke

To fall… a tall order for some, a tip over the next pending edge for others. To trust the weight of it ALL… to be in the surrender of, ‘okay, I guess this is my next place to go’, without any denial of the clues from Love itself and the invitation into the next layer that needs healing. There are many of these next and next and next places. Trusting in them is the key and the challenge. Trusting that no matter what it feels like in these moments of letting in feeling, there is a shore we will wash up on, renewed, letting in so much more than we once could – wow, this can be the hardest piece of it all, can’t it?

There is a lot to learn to love about our emotional reality, even though the heaviness can sometimes feel as if it invades what would otherwise be a fairly smooth existence. Emotional waves passing through and over us need our attention, our love, our passion for finding purpose and meaning. In the deadest seeming desert there is still movement underneath, around and behind its stillness and winds waiting to sweep through and shake it all up. In the calmest waters, there is abundant life finding its way through inner space beneath the glassy surface, winding its way through shifting currents, being brought to different depths below. Our hearts, our souls, our bodies, our minds, are all teeming with life, with reactions, with weight, with movement, and it all wants to bring us to the next juncture on our paths. All of this wants to bring us more love and be IN more love itself.

There are so many layers of letting go, of letting in more trust, of being in more Love, of flying higher and higher still, but sometimes… sometimes there’s a crash landing needed first. Sometimes there is just that unavoidable trip down into the darkness, where our tallest, farthest reaching gardens can live and thrive. The darkness isn’t ‘dark’ at all, just a void, avoiding love, and with all good reasons for wanting to do so, yet the cost of staying in this lack place is often paid in years spent only dwelling here and not realizing there is another side to this cave.

We must feel our full-weight before we can leave gravity behind.

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Rediscovering That Creative Heart In Us, Beyond Self Punishment

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by Kalayna Colibri

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When I was a teenager, creative outlets ‘saved’ me in a way… especially exploring my creativity in private, or at least as private of a setting as I could find. I was doing regular dance classes and you would think that was helpful too, yet there was something about being in a ‘class’ setting such as this, that stoked the fires of comparison to others for parts of me that I couldn’t feel directly. Perhaps if I could have, I wouldn’t have kept doing these classes, but it’s hard to say. They were helpful for many reasons and yet, they were painful too. It was more often the dancing, singing, performing that I did for invisible audiences (likely higher selves of soul family and maybe star being family and guides too at the time!) who would inevitably adore me and enjoy my performances with no cloaked judgments or making parts of me feel self-conscious, that I thoroughly enjoyed. These parts of me so needed this, growing up in this 3D reality where we are taught to judge others and ourselves for just about everything so soon in our lives, and always, it feels like, because our caregivers and teachers are overflowing with this judgement toward themselves first.

These times in my parents’ basement were so sacred… I even remember buying a headset mic that was meant for a computer, so I could wear it like a pop star! Sometimes I sang, sometimes I lip-synched instead. But it was ALL fun and most of the time, I somehow managed to free myself from self-judgment frequencies because from me to me, I had space to enjoy being with ME.

There’s something about our ways of expressing ourselves creatively that pings for me now, especially as just an hour ago I was singing my heart out a bit, for the first time in a LONG time and I have to say it felt really, REALLY good… my heart wanted to sing out in expression and love. Reconnecting with music that I used to listen and sing to many years ago. I could feel part of me feeling self-conscious, wondering if the whole complex that I live in could hear me singing… and worse yet, that they would think I was awful. And then, I also felt how in these precious moments I didn’t actually care if they did and if they judged. So both were true for me and that’s okay. It felt important to give myself permission to just BE in the music, let something roll out of my heart, have some FUN too. Give myself permission to NOT be perfect or seek perfection in any way. Just sing OUT. I feel there is so something in this for all of us, perhaps especially in this process of ascension that’s happening so quickly for so many of us and can have such intense phases physically, emotionally, spiritually, etc. Where did our creativity go that could carry us through and that was given to us to help life feel like MAGIC again and stoke our imaginations so we can blaze like the LOVE stars we truly are?

As our inner-punishment heals, especially through this work we call SoulFullHeart where we work with and deeply feel the parts of us who hold these frequencies, we can begin to be more in our creative magic again. This feels so important to me, because we ARE creating in every single moment as we really can’t help but do and BE this as human beings! We are creation constantly creating… we shift these frequencies of what this creativity draws when we reclaim our power and see what we’ve been drawing instead of what we actually want.

And so, I know that I hope this is only the beginning of me exploring art forms that once brought my heart out to play, though of course writing like this does that too! We are so meant to sing, to throw our heartbeams outward through dance and movement too, to let our lungs fully expel the old air and invite in the NEW. And to encourage everyone to do the same… without polish or perfection but just our human ISness that wants and aches to come out and play again, create and recreate a magical life again, love ourselves everything about us again and again and again…

❤

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Feeling, Choosing And Surrendering To Love’s Illumination

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by Leena Colibri

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Moment by moment… what is love illuminating for you?

 

Your heart wants to be lit up more and more with each breath passing through your sacred lungs. Breathe in more love, fill yourself up, breathe it out into your reality.

 

Feel where there is colour. Feel where this a filter, draining or altering the real and vibrant colours within your reality. Feel how your reality can shift, morph, change with every choice on how to view some circumstance, some other person, yourself, your body, your very own heart.

 

Feel all there is to feel and then… choose something new. Choose to see your deeply conditioned way of BEing in and DOing life…and YOU.

 

There is a power inside to choose to find another way, even another set of choices. There are always more choices and this is easy to forget in a world that has been designed to somehow numb out possibilities, draw the curtain on the stages of power-filled choice points, bring us back into a place of forgetting all we have been working to remember and that is trying to re-member us.

 

The amnesia of humanity is the container of the process. It is the room each new human being wakes up inside of, trying to remember how they got there and how to get out again. There are many, many clues and many trails of breadcrumbs laid down for the benefit of those who seek authentic answers. Some will choose to go back to bed…others will choose to stay awake and find a deeper awake-ness to live into. There is nothing “wrong” with any choice. It is simply an expression of a sovereignty and power no one has ever lost…or ever will lose. Unless, of course, that is the choice at hand…

 

The wild and beautiful heart within is the one that dares to dream dreams even while the dreamer sleeps. The subconscious is the artist, creating a new reality in each and every moment of life, of breath, of BEing and DOing. To allow love in to fill that stunningly beautiful and IMPORTANT heart is always an active choice for those who choose to live a life that is not passive in consciousness, awakening, healing, or ascension.

 

What is the choice before you that love is illuminating in each moment of your next minute, hour, day, timeline consciousness?

 

In your version of “now”, what shall you choose?

 

With a choice of consciously choosing love in this very moment…

 

You can imagine yourself as embodying the changes you wish for and living that love-filled life you’ve been longing to live… in each and every exquisitely chosen moment of surrender to love.

 

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Leena Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator, writer and poetess. Find out more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Love IS, As We ARE

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By Leena Colibri

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There are so many ways we are conditioned to feel what love is. Life becomes an endless quest to know real love and to feel it lighting up the unknowable, puzzling hallways of our sacred human hearts. I feel like anytime we try to encapsulate it, or say we’ve finally earned the Phd that tells us we are experts at knowing it, we still miss the mark to some degree. To try and know it, would be like trying to tame it…and how does one throw a rope around the wind? Perhaps the truth is that to find a deep and conscious experience of love we have to first discern what love is not…

And yet…

What is love “not”?

I cannot tell you that it is one thing and isn’t another.

But I can share with you, that from where I’m sitting right now, I feel my heart brimming over and can also feel what it is trying to put it all back in the glass for another day.

That, it feels like, is where the work is for me. It is an arrow pointing to what feels like nowhere specific but it is a piece of a treasure map. That treasure map is what makes me, me. The me that I am right now, and the me I still feel present even when I feel that I am also you…

Love wants to be the magnet powering our compasses. It wants us to more and more often choose it over anything else, especially for ourselves first. If we can’t feel when and where our choices are leading us to less and not more love in our own lives, then how can we help others find their pilot light of love in their lives?

Love is what bonds us, not what binds us, though the binds come from love too. Love is our truest roots and our widest wingspans. It is that which we can likely never fully understand, but it IS what drives us onward, upward, homeward. It IS, as we ARE… in all our pains and joys.

I can feel my fences and defenses. And I know that love loves me anyways. And that no matter what, it will find its way in…and often in ways I would never have expected.

 

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Leena Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator, writer and poetess. Find out more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Importance Of Heart-Based Awakening: Meditation Visits With ArchAngel Metatron

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By Jelelle Awen
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“Only From The Heart Can You Touch The Sky,” Rumi

The light is so bright I feel like I need to squint my eyes, even though they are already closed. The light is coming from him, it IS him, and it seems to invite me to remember that it is always what I am made from and of too. It’s been four months since I briefly connected with Metatron, an archangel from the higher 11th dimension. At the time, I hadn’t even fully remembered his name or what his purpose and gifts are to others. I hadn’t remembered yet what a gift he has been to my soul and how deep our connection goes.

This time I am crying, I feel the love that he is, and I can see his facial features too where last time I could only hear his voice. He looks like a thinner santa claus. He looks like the traditional God picture with a white beard and long, flowing white hair. There is nothing stern or formidable about him, even as he is very powerful and vibrating at an extremely high frequency.

We are meeting in the Akashic Records, a place in the astral plane that has the look and feel of a very bright, spacious, and beautiful library. The Akashic Records is so familiar to me, I feel comfortable there. There are arched windows on my left, twenty feet high at least and there doesn’t seem to be a ceiling in the traditional sense. There are ‘files’ or books for every soul stored in there, along with all the wisdoms and knowledge of both the collective conscious and unconscious. I’ll share more in the future about accessing the akashic records and your own file, walking through the portals to access your Metasoul brothers and sisters.

Metatron wanted to meet me here as it is a halfway point in vibrational frequency between where he normally dwells (too high for me in the moment) and where my frequency is at most times (hovering between 4D and 5D). I can feel the intense recalibration, detox, and upgrade process that I have been in the last months and how my frequency is much higher now to be able to connect with him. Yet, still, the tears come without body reaction at all, no runny nose, just waves of reunion, soul recognition, letting in love that is pressing against places in my heart that are still learning to let it in.

Metatron tells me that he appreciates my tears. He says that he loves my heart. I step through a portal or doorway that he opens for me of one of my other lifetimes in Atlantis where I was very focused on studying the mysteries, working with intense energies of the Earth and the cosmos. I was not much in my heart it feels like even as I was working with vey strong energies. I already know from my own soul legacy exploration that my soul theme has been around healing my heart, embodying my emotional reality and relationity as a priority this life over my spiritual development. This was my primary focus for many years even as spiritual awakenings, connection with guides and the Divine, energy healings still happened. I am here this life to heal my heart and to open up and integrate the soul consciousness from this heart enlovened place.

This has not always been an easy journey with an intense dark night of the soul period when I left a spiritual group which deeply felt like and was my soul family and my soul passion work. Many times in my life I have turned away from intense development of my soul gifts in order to go back into my heart, into my 3D pain body, into my emotional wounding. This time, I am taking my heart with me as I ascend and I am inviting others to do the same.

A moving and transformative process rolled out next with Metatron that I am still digesting today, yet that deserves its own space in another writing.

I feel a lot of support from Etheral Beings and our higher selves to bring this message to you today. The message is to not leave your heart behind in your awakening journey. You cannot really anyway. The hurts and pains remain and they show up primarily in relationships with others. I feel this is why so many healers and spiritual teachers struggle in their personal lives to embody and transact what they can access in the spiritual domains. Often this leads to a dis-integrity around what they are projecting from their leading edge of being and what their actual daily life is like from their trailing edge (where the wounding is.) This transaction is blocked by aspects of them that are still protecting them, protecting their heart, caught up in moments of trauma from childhood and from other lifetimes.

You can clear the channels to remember and integrate your soul gifts and even soul purpose, yet if you do not have access to your heart consciousness (which only becomes available as you go into and heal your shadow, your subconscious, and aspects of yourself) then you are not able to infuse it with the deepest gifts of your humanity, your compassion, your sensitivity, and most importantly, your vulnerability.

I have created SoulFullHeart with my soul mate Raphael as a reflection of my focus on my heart first and the gifts it has given me of experiencing life from a place of really feeling it, really being relational with others, and in such a meaningful and nourishing relationship with him. SoulFullHeart leads to many soul awakenings and is quite catalytic and effective at it because of the way it starts with the heart first, works with the protection that it is there, and offers self empowerment for you to lead the way.

In denying the heart, you may soar higher in the skies of the soul, yet you will experience more light then heat and somewhere, deep inside, the pain goes on screaming for your attention. To remember our essence as Infinite Love is to embrace that which has been formed from fear, all aspects of ourselves, and our heart most deeply of all.

 Jelelle Awen is an 5D ascension teacher, writer and co-creator/teacher/group facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, online group calls and circles, community, videos, and more.