Author: Raphael Awen

Ascension/Divine Union Teacher. Parts/Soul Aspects Facilitator. Soul Scribe.

Day 19 ~ Journal To The Demiurge

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By Raphael Awen

I set out to connect with the Demiurge (as an Archetype of the Christian God, or Jehovah as he is known, in the Old Testament sense) some days back. Today’s journal entry penetrates the false world of the false God we created out of our need for separation and then, rememberance with the love that we are.

Some very tender tears and feeling points emerged today.

You can read this entire series from the beginning on the blog here: https://goo.gl/CgrWXZ

Here is Day 19:

Raphael: Good Morning, everyone. Everyone…, as in here in this immediate circle, yes, but also in ‘the many’ in the emanating circles flowing out from this one – Good Morning to you. ‘God Morning’ to you. A new day is dawning and it is as full of God as God can be.

When I feel what has moved for us in this journey, it so feels like a very wide and open space has opened out for us, creating a palette that awaits our imprint. I feel like I don’t know where to begin. The landscape is of fresh fallen snow so pristine. Can anyone help me out here?

Demiurge: In the silence just now, I thought for sure it would be Metatron who would speak for us all, but after waiting, I feel it is supposed to be me. I’m not sure I can speak, but I feel compelled to at least try. All of your intention and action to undertake connecting with me has opened out a place in me that I didn’t even know was there. I feel a gratitude that feels as large as what I can only describe as an ocean of falseness inside of me. Being the projection of everyone’s disowned power makes one look powerful, even feel powerful in moments, but underneath it all, I have felt like people’s disowned smallness and impotence, and fear. I have had official duties to carry out to keep the charade in place, but all of it is so far from real.

Raphael: Thank you, Demi. I like calling you by your new name. You don’t feel like the Demiurge to me any more. Maybe, Demi won’t even feel like a fit before too long at the rate of change you are living into now. This feels so tender what you are admitting and feeling today.

Demi: Thank you, Raphael.

Raphael: I want to ask you what it was that prevented you up until now from admitting the falseness you admit to today.

Demi: That question feels so large inside of me right now. The relief that I feel flooding into my being to make this admission so begs the question why I couldn’t or wouldn’t have done this sooner. I know it has to do with being literally fused to my reality, to not being able to see that there even was any options available to me. I don’t mean to say by that, that I don’t bear any responsibility, because I do. I know I accepted the projections the people put on to me, and I didn’t have to. I accepted that role as something at the time that seemed just too good to pass up. I wanted to be God, the creator and the destroyer of worlds. I was captivated by the role for a long time. But then, that captivation began to change, slowly, but with an unmistakable back pressure.

Raphael: To witness you, Demi, in a true alchemical midlife crisis is just so amazing to me in this moment, even beyond a midlife crisis really, stepping out into something new.

Demi: I can so feel the part of me that wants to curl up and die, to go away, to not face anyone. I need to feel that part of myself, and I also feel I need to accept responsibility for what I created, to feel what I avoided feeling, to feel people’s honest reactions.

Raphael: Well, in my book, if you are feeling all of that, at the same time, you are a true king of hearts.

Demi: I’d really like to ask your advice, Raphael. I know you asked my advice on so many occasions, under the false pretenses that are falling as we speak. I humbly ask you for your help and guidance. I want to live. I want to love. I want to fully accept my responsibility for what I’ve done, but I don’t want to live forever in punishment if at all possible.

Raphael: (tears) I am humbled by your humility. Looking in your eyes and feeling you, seeing you, come to terms with your remorse moves the entire universe, Demi. This is an act of your true Godhood. My advice is simply to feel us all feeling in this moment. Feeling what there is to feel while it is being felt is what transmutes everything that is awaiting transmutation. I’m so honored to share this moment with you.

Demi: I literally don’t know, what planet I’ve entered now.

Raphael: Metatron, maybe you could help us a bit here. What planet are we on? I’m not so sure myself.

Metatron: This is all the planets, Demi and Raphael. This is what holds together all matter and all spirit. This is what answers the heart cry of creation itself. This is the homecoming of love to itself.

Love birthed out of its oneness, a twoness, and in that was a great potential for relationship on one hand, but also, and fearfully so, was also a potential that this twoness would remain outside of the oneness in its experience, separate from love. Love seemed given to reckless abandon to do it anyway, prizing the gift of relationship over the fear of loss. What we are feeling today is loves vindication. Love has won. Love is winning. And, love still has much winning that has yet to occur. All of these are true. Love is out to marry its essence with all of experience.

Raphael: My goodness, Metatron! That is so wild. I thought you were going to help us locate ourselves a bit here. I feel more lost than I did before, but in a good way. Wow.

Metatron: Get used to it, my man! There’s a few more steps on this staircase awaiting the tread of your feet. You’re the one speaking about things awaiting to be felt. This is what creation itself is waiting and wanting to be felt.

Raphael: I recall that familiar verse in the Bible that says ‘the whole earth, or cosmos, groans in travail, as in birth pangs for the manifest sons of God’, and this moment reminds me of that.

Metatron: And what, Raphael, are the manifest sons of God? What do they do, what ‘be they be’ that makes them the manifest sons of God?

Raphael: I’d defer that question to you if I thought you’d let me, but I can tell you want my answer. Hmmm, what makes a manifest son of God? No pressure or anything, just the question at the heart of the universe wanting to be untangled. I’d say that has to do with feeling. Everything that is both right and wrong in the world has to do with what is felt or unfelt in the world. Sonship and daughtership is a relationship, an opportunity that begs feeling, a fireplace for the fire. When feeling what there is to feel is repressed, we create monsters of destruction that ultimately serve to take us back to our common need for love. Sons and daughters feel. Feeling takes us back to love. Even the monsters of our own creation are gifts that remind us of the love we are and always were, even as we individuated out from God, as a son or a daughter. I am a son and I am God. Both are true. How’d I do, Metatron?

Metatron: You’re rockin’ it man. You’re more metaphysical than I am sometimes!

Raphael: I think I need some ‘mega’physical about now. What say we take in some sun and surf to let in this piece? I know Andy wants to play, and I want to play too. Let’s rest up, digest and continue soon. We have a few more pieces left to feel together it feels like. Thank you, everyone.
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Forgetting To Remember

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The forgetting was every bit as sacred, and every bit as much of a miracle as is the remembering.

I use the words ‘was’ and ‘is’ to lend itself to the illusion of time we entered as part of the forgetting. It’s all actually happening in the Now, beyond time’s past, present and future compartmentalization (mentalized partitions).

There were things you just could not have experienced and felt without the forgetting. To for-get means to give up having. We gave up the awareness of what we were (are) so that we could have a dawning experience of re-entry into our essence. I like to say that we forgot (in order) to remember.

Both the forgetting and the remembering are illusory, meaning they are generated as a lesser reality, coming from a higher reality.

The cool thing about all this is that the forgetting as it plays out in the time illusion seems to be done its magic, and we are now in the awakening phase of our personal and collective consciousness, where even phases themselves are being felt as part of the illusion.

I am being guided in the moment with a deep felt sense of aching to remember, to be re-membered with my larger soul awareness, source awareness, Star seed, Star BEing self, Metasoul Aspects and who knows how much and what else more! I can viscerally feel how life in the 3rd dimension is a narrow sliver of consciousness bandwidth, that was so needed, and so perfect to be limited by for the time that I was, but now, that which was perfect has become toxic to my arising BEing, as I’m being invited into new places.

As I let my mind ponder, along with the subpersonal parts of me attached to the mind, that even its orientation to past, present and future is an illusory part of the forgetting that it had to adapt to in order to serve where I needed to go, then the mind and those parts of me can let in again a latest and new operating system where something new is true, that wasn’t before.

So here’s the deal. The forgetting is happening in the Now. So is the remembering. The life I ‘lived’ in what now feels claustrophobically limited to 3D, is not past, but is also in the Now. If this is true, then it also follows that the life I wish to enter in the ‘future’ of deep and full remembrance is also happening in the Now. I don’t need to wait for it to arise or deepen. I can re-member with a past life or a future one…take your pick!

It’s a bit hard to make this assertion right now, given the protests of my minds orientation, and given that even this writing is intentioned towards remembering more and more with others, as in future tense. Yes, I do experience myself as remembering more and more with the passing of time, and wanting that. It’s like a part of me is looking for the fast forward button.

So which one is true then? Here Now, or one day? They can’t both be true, right? They’re like opposites.

What if they are each true in their own dimensions? This feels very true to me. The rules of the game differ from basketball to baseball. 3D is a very specific game and convincing illusion, with a hard set of rules and truths all of its own.

This I’m finding intriguing then. What’s dawning on me is that the future I want to one day become familiar with in my waking consciousness, I already have it in the Now, outside of 3D’s world, and it’s as complete as complete can be.

This gets really relieving in the sense that I don’t have to employ the whole drudgery picture of enlightenment, or overcoming the darkness in order to one day, hopefully attain or earn some higher existence. The games are merging. It’s a bit confusing playing baseball on a basketball court, but we’re finding our way.

I’m already the Highest Self version of me. Here in the 3D plain of existence, which is only one of many for me and you, it seems to be about ‘realizing’ this reality into this dimension. I’m given a dimension where a reality admittedly doesn’t feel real to a part of me, and being tasked with making it real. I’m being invited to get to know this part of me and bridge to it through my Higher Self.

Talk about oceans of new growth wanting to expand out onto our awareness. Talk about every suffering you ever endured being critically necessary to the mission. Talk about everything being ultimately sourced in the one and only source of Love…. wow!

Key for me in this awakening is finding and feeling the parts of me polarized to the different dimensions. The part of me who did a 30 year career so effectively isn’t the same part of me who knew and hid deep core unworth and disconnect from source, nor the part of me who feels fluid with Unicorns and Archangels. We are so much more than a single personality. The Single Personality Disorder, as I call it, seems to be the kingpin of holding 3D life intact. As we begin to see ourselves as a makeup of parts, we are brought to the start line of a profound journey of awakening.

Instead of saying and thinking ‘I this…’ and ‘I that…’, try saying, thinking and feeling instead, ‘A part of me…’

…and call me in the morning with how that’s working for you… 

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about Weekly Sessions, Live Streams, Videos, and Community.

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By Raphael Awen

Is that enough for you?

I mean, about, what life is giving you? Is it enough? Does it make you happy? Are you left wanting?

We’ve been conditioned to believe that gratitude is better than strong desire, even making the word lust, as in strong, passionate, gotta-have-it kind of desire a bad thing.

Let’s try on something very different for a moment to feel where it can take us.

Let’s start out with a working hypotheses of a conviction that there are no bad things. There is only your relationship to the thing, or lack of a relationship, (in this case, to your desires) that make the thing helpful or harmful.

Take the working hypotheses a step further to feel that even the harmful thing can only ultimately be in service of love, as all is sourced in love, even the duality of that which appears to be not-love, could only be sourced in the one source of love. All is hopelessly contained by love, even the greatest of evils, or darkness.

So we’re left with love seeking a relationship with you, through the experience of your life as you current-ly know it. Your life is a current, a flow, a holographic like projected drama of a cast of characters being projected onto the screen of your life, in front of an audience, in an auditorium.

You are the projector. You are the screen. You are the cast of characters. And you are the audience, auditing in the auditorium – this magical waveform frequency known as you.

It’s all you, awaiting the deeper dawning awareness of the whole point of the story, which is love, and more love, and more love…

The story may at first glance, seem dull or even boring, but look a little closer, and you see that the dull and boring is a carefully engineered cover, a normalized layer over a forgotten greatness, that is in process of awakening. This changes the story big time.

Why the cover? Why all the effort to conceal? What would be the risk of exposed greatness? Holeee Cow! What is actually going on here… Who’s playing what roles and Why?

The lusts of strong desire that feel like they’ve been a thing in your life to overcome, or to tame, the great desires that you may even have to go back down a few layers to reconnect with, having succeeded to a degree in suppressing them; these desires haven’t ‘gone’ anywhere.

They are one of the truest things about you. What you want and ache for is actually a deeply held reality coming from you, and more specifically, from a distinct part of you. If you follow this portal of desire, it will take you to the front door of the place where this part of you lives, in you, in your life.

If you are willing to just feel this unmet ache, this desire, without judgment about the thing being bad or good, or even too quick to judge it as helpful or harmful, realizing that even an addictive pattern of attachment is a placeholder of a deeper heart cry; you will be given the sweetest introduction and induction into the world of this subconscious part of you.

Now, you have a dawning reconnection with an entire acreage inside of your being to explore, get to know and feel, that’s worth all the time it takes and is actually the point of time itself….that moves your story towards what you most sacredly desire, yearn for and even lust after.

Our addictions are simply born out of our unwillingness, borne also by a part of us; to simply and honestly feel. Our addictions are like a Geiger Counter or a Metal Detector pointing directly at our most alive desires, preserved and living in parts of ourselves, holding our way back home to our selves…

So, I ask one more time… ‘what is it that’s enough for you?’ 

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about Weekly Sessions, Live Streams, Videos, and Community.

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Enduring Bliss

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The bliss we seek, though it manifests in the external, actually comes from the internal.

This changes the question from ‘will the bliss endure?’ to ‘will I be able to endure the bliss?’

We are oriented to feeling and seeing joy or bliss or goodness as an external that we have no control over or influence upon.

When we come to see that our larger self is creating our lives and then how our perception of that life we are creating then quantumly yet affects that creation further, producing perfectly the level of joy or bliss we are ready and capable to endure, then we are coming to the edge of a totally new experience of life.

Hell isn’t fun or easy to endure, but it actually takes way more guts to endure bliss. This feels so true to me.

Why else would people choose hell over bliss?

There’s some really good news though in realizing how it is parts of us who are afraid of and running from bliss. You get to show up for these parts. Finding and feeling these parts is now job # 1, if we actually want to take response-ability for the life we are experiencing!

 

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about Weekly Sessions, Live Streams, Videos, and Community.

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e-motion-ALL Ful-fill-ment

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By Raphael Awen

Every impulse that moves through us is a feeling.

Every desire, every despair, every satisfaction, every ful-fill-ment – all of it is e-motion, an energy in motion.

I’m sitting on the patio in a resort town in Mexico where I’ve lived for 2 years, warm in December, with a view of the ocean, where I saw a whale frolicking yesterday, drinking my organic cacao with coconut milk and honey, my beloved nearby, with not a single appointment to show up for for the next several days – sounds like a dream life doesn’t it?

I can tell you it is a dream life, and yet it isn’t one where I don’t have longings and desires, even un-fulfillments that arise into my field.

I’m learning another round of how if I don’t feel the parts of me and what they are feeling, a generalized emotion of wanting or needing something arises, a foggy unhappiness if you will.

Then I am again invited to feel what part of me is feeling what and why.

This week, I felt deeply the part of me I know and love as Wayne, my middle birth name that I went by for 7 years, up until 2 years ago, who was again feeling some angst over not knowing how to move my life forward in the ways that he felt we needed to go forward in. As we felt this intimately together, it didn’t take long to get to the raw emotion underneath where Wayne, in his legacy of moving me through 4D birth canals and navigating practical challenges and epic changes over a decade or so, was now feeling at an impasse of not knowing how to manage or set sail into what’s before us in the present. 2 years ago, Wayne was given an astounding access into Golden Earth while living on a remote ranch through an etheric journey that really set something so beautifully new as well as challenging into my overall emotional body and life trajectory. As we felt this together, it became evident that Wayne felt done with wanting to manage any more 3D to 4D transitions and really wanted to just live in Golden Earth. It really felt like time for Wayne to retire and refire in Golden Earth. I assured him that his really going into Golden Earth’s tones and frequencies would be his greatest contribution to our ongoing shifts and movements. It’s been a couple of weeks now and I feel a pipeline connection to his expanded reality in Golden Earth infusing into mine. This feels so fitting for Wayne to be contributing in this way from the delicious beaches and forests and cityscapes of Golden Earth, having lived more than what most would consider a lifetime here for me in the past 10 years.

At the same time as Wayne and I were having this movement, another part of me named Rhodes who was historically an Inner Protector, who shifted to a Gatekeeper (opening out to new soul domains), and is now shifting again to being a beloved guide is transforming in amazing ways. It seems related to Wayne’s resonance from Golden Earth energizing new things in my field. Rhodes this morning humbly and tenderly asked my main higher self guides, Archangel Metatron and Merlin, my Unicorn if he could be more a part of their world. He admitted fear of not belonging as well as a deep longing for their higher frequencies, and also admitted to being a dampening energy from the higher frequencies in my life in certain ways. Sweet tears of admission and surrender as he humbly spoke his fears and desires, tears of raw emotion as he asked to be a channel for new higher frequencies for me, for us to experience together.

Now, this previously undefined foggy edgy unhappiness is transformed into a most personal connection of me to me, expanding out into my e-motion-ALL space into celebration and deep appreciation – specific full-filled-mints for me to savor and feel, to let in, to acclimate to…

Everyone of us feeling this call to Ascension are being invited into deeper and deeper forms of our own inner resort living. I’m ongoingly adjusting to the reality that living at a higher frequency does NOT mean that I won’t have unfullfillment in my life. Living in new fulfillment actually heightens deeper desires for higher fulfillments. True fulfillment in this way breeds unfulfillments for us to again surrender into and allow to take us somewhere. What I am being offered is that no unfulfillment is meant to remain as a static unmovable reality in my life. Unfullfillment is a vehicle to take me somewhere again and again, if I am willing to find and feel the part of me holding those e-motions.

This is specifically the work we offer and live in as a community in SoulFullHeart, and that I personally (along with Jelelle, Gabriel, and Kalayna) offer through paid weekly spaceholding sessions and process with individuals drawn to this as a soul path and healing path. If you are drawn, we offer a deeper free intro session to help you feel if this is a going place for you. I’d love to hear from you and why you feel drawn if this calls to you.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about Weekly Sessions, Live Streams, Videos, and Community.

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By Raphael Awen

I’m awoken this morning recalling the famous saying by Holocaust Survivor, and Psychotherapist, Victor Frankl, from his book: ‘Man’s Search For Meaning’, that goes something like this: ‘between stimulus and response, there is a gap in which we get to choose our response’, his words being made so poignant by the great suffering he endured under the third Reich’s oppression.

He went on to teach that happiness isn’t something that we can effectively pursue as a thing of its own, as a thing we are entitled to, but happiness can only be a thing that ‘ensues’, that arises without being the focus of a search. He felt that if we lived from our deepest sense of meaning and purpose, this is the ground from which happiness naturally arises.

I feel a Metasoul connection with him and his passion to really live, to really experience life, that isn’t based in circumstance – the external stance of that which encircles you, but rather the meaning you bring to that which happens to you.

When I feel it more, I feel this Metasoul whose ache is for meaning, deeper meaning, and with that meaning, to serve from it more and more. There’s an inherent angst though here too.

The stock in trade of someone who serves others therapeutically, or emotionally, or spiritually is helping those others find meaning in their lives, ‘aha moments’ that shift the course of life from a place of autopilot navigation to a place of deeper awareness that now pervades all choices and actions. I’m also aware how selfish this desire is as one can only serve this to others to the degree one first knows it themselves. I must be the first one to dine, the first beneficiary of the goods in order to serve others.

This search for meaning can be a ruthless one for so many and even a bit of a torture for those now awoken to how meaningless their life feels. Prior to being awoken to these feelings, there was a bliss of its own in knowing fulfillment with lesser things.

As I feel my own version of this, I feel how a space holder or therapist can be close to the edge of their own sanity while claiming to be able to help others. Victor Frankl himself was a psychotherapist who felt many of his colleagues were themselves lunatics, or at the edge of crazy, running away from their own madness by trying to help others.

Which brings me to a slight revision of focus to Victor’s great discovery, that I feel is timely for myself and the collective. His great gift to humanity was the realization and personal demonstration that regardless of what comes your way in life, you have a power to choose your own response that no one or no thing can take from you. This realization alone can take all of us to new stratas of feeling and living life. However, it still leaves a part of us focused on the quality of its own attitude. It requires the will and nobility of a part of us to enact, or achieve. For the part of us, needing a great game, with the noblest of intentions, I can think of no higher or greater game. But, again, it leaves a part of us independently, yet valiantly striving in an arena, without an us there to relate to this part.

The part of you in search for meaning is coming from a part of you. You actually are not in want of any meaning, but a part of you is.

Can you feel this difference?

This feels relieving to my insides to feel this awareness.

Without this distinction between me and the parts of me who make up my this life and other lifetime realities, I am left fused to their realities. There’s no one home ultimately to help anyone out of the ditch, even the ditch of an endless noble search for meaning and impulse to serve others. Only now can we feel the edges of our own sanity, immersed in infinity, wrestling with such great opportunity, bouncing around in the desires and needs of parts of ourselves and in our Metasoul connections.

A new reality emerges from the merge, a reality of relationship, where something transacts that couldn’t shift or bridge up till now.

‘Between stimulus and response, there is a choice to feel the part of ourselves who’s feeling the reaction, even the disciplined reaction to focus on his or her attitude, and relate to that part of us, open heartedly.’

This approach hasn’t yet hit the newsstands of Psychology Today in a big way, but it is hitting the ground running as people like you and I, on a quantum level, serve this into the collective, by being the first beneficiaries, the first guinea pigs and the first Guinness World Record holders of what it means to come home to ourselves, to see ourselves as more than a ‘functional’ and single personality, to see ourselves as on a journey to more and more integration of the parts of ourselves along with their realities.

We get to be crazy, we get to be needy, we get to strive for what we really want, and in it all, we get to come home to all our selves.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about Weekly Sessions, Live Streams, Videos, and Community.

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Love Is A Feeling

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By Raphael Awen

How cool would it be to know what to get yourself for Christmas this year. Something you’d cherish. Something you can afford. Something that brought real joy!

But what?

There’s material things that would be desirable for sure, but they’re not in the budget at the moment (if the size of your desires are anything like mine). There’s social connections you’d like to have, but often, even in physical presence with someone, the desired heart and soul connection that you long for has never been reachable.

The deeper QUESTion is what is it about these wants that point to a deeper want? Then when you ask that question, you find very quickly that parts of you want different things, often opposite things.

Talk about a hard person to shop for!

There is though one thing underneath it all that is the perfect thing. What every different part of you is feeling underneath their desire for something, or some experience is an unfelt feeling. Even these parts of you who feels this way hasn’t yet had space inside of themselves to feel what they feel.

Here’s where you come in. When you can feel what a part of you is feeling, as they are feeling it, you just cracked the code on Christmas shopping. You cracked the code on gift giving. You cracked the code on love. This is what is felt when you receive the perfect gift.

You feel felt. A part of you feels felt.

Love is a feeling. And there’s no one more fitting to receive this gift from, but from you. From you, to you.

 

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about Weekly Sessions, Live Streams, Videos, and Community.

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Elbow Deep In Finger Paint!

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By Raphael Awen

You may be feeling quite advanced in consciousness, from where you once were, or in comparison to others, but in another way, even the most enlightened among us are all a bunch of kindergarteners, playing with crayons and elbow deep in finger paint!

Which is pretty cool as kindergarten was always the funnest part of school.

We are about to take another big collective consciousness trip, through a piece of space and time known by the numerical name as two, zero, one, eight, or two thousand, one hundred and eighteen.

Be sure to get that right because it’s an address, and we want to remain on the same page, and not get lost, …or…, do we?

Maybe we want to go in the other direction and minus a year, call it 2016, but wait, we can’t do that. We’re in a very crowded corridor of people moving in one direction. Looks like we’re going where everyone else is going.

But if we could open our consciousness out of this main stream, we could go anywhere our consciousness wants to take us! I hear my guides gently telling me this and it feels not so gentle at times as well.

‘It is consciousness itself that is moving time and space ITSELF and it is the shared buy-in of all of us that makes it seem all too real’ they tell me.

But real is completely made up. Real is the right of Royals to decree as they choose.

Even consciousness itself is made up, and it in turn makes everything else up, and so we, as consciousness itself are left not being able to see the forest for the trees, or like the fish who doesn’t have much reference for water. Left in our fog and insecurity, it just feels good for now to settle for the safety of making up the same stuff everyone else is making up.

Will 2018 be a year of great change you ask, and if so how?

Your question, which is a bit low on quest, is about where the main stream is going and seeing yourself as limited to that. Okay, in one way, that’s valid as where the main stream goes, does open out some breathing space for our shared collective consciousness that affects each of us, but you are a sovereign ‘individual’ – a duality that can’t be divided. You get to go where you want to, when you want to. A reality and royalty both.

Your duality is like an anti gravity device that makes your own space travel and time travel possible. You are not as tethered to the collective 3D gravitational reality as you think you are. Your wounds are your portals to your essence, that you never lost, but that just got a bit hung up in the door upon entering this domain.

2018 can literally take you wherever you want to go.

The conditioned mind brings up protests like ‘if that were true, I’d long be somewhere else right now,’ while the heart is asking you to feel an invitation into a new possible reality, one that you will create, one that you can walk into, one step at a time, feeling all there is to feel at every step.

Your Higher Self chose this journey through space and time, a very weird and altered reality, to your essence, and the weirdest thing about it all is how graduated and gradual it is. It all arises in a reality of steps. You step through space and you step through time – weird freakin’ stuff man! The whole intention, however, wasn’t a reduction of your essence, but an expansion on it! You didn’t fall from grace, as our religions once taught us, as well intentioned as they were at the time, you fell into grace! This is the phase step of the new religion knocking on our door Now.

Asking about what will change in the external is a question void of the awareness of how even this question itself is shaping a reality for you, seeing yourself as a victim of life, shaped by life, rather than seeing how you are shaping life, right now.

Life is asking what you will change this next year. Life is waiting on you. You’re the deal here.

All the gravitational pull of the entire too familiar 3D reality isn’t enough to hold you back from your creation, It’s actually a necessary part of your creation, part of your navigation and maneuverability through time and space.

Stepped out in your consciousness are veritable time capsules of your being; stored so beautifully in your psyche; the emotional aspects of you that formed in reaction to human life. These reactions, these wounds, if you will, wounds from the trauma of entering this reality, as a culture shocked foreigner having come from another reality are virtual portals back to this essence. If part of you freeze framed in reaction to entering here, that means that part of you holds what it held at the moment of trauma, and that goodness needs your help to get through the door. It’s still there, as intact as it ever was.

Go back and take THAT through the door and see what life looks and feels like on the other side of that door. When your done with one door, go on to the next.

I’m gonna pause now, as I’m all out of finger paint for the moment…, I think it’s nap time. 🙂

Raphael Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.Com/sfhprocess

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Patreon Doubled Last Month – New Money Timelines Arising!

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By Raphael Awen

Wow.

We just received our monthly payment from Patreon. We currently only have 2 monthly supporters totaling around $50 usd, but they feel so HUGE to us! Last month our support (and supporters) DOUBLED.

We so can feel our money timelines shifting into a new place after a few years of deconstruction and a huge shift in our relationship to money that I wouldn’t trade for all the money in the world.

We feel ready to invite your support if you are looking for a place to plant love on a monthly basis in any amount that works for you. We will treasure those dollars and use them up big time in the service of love and planting a new paradigm deeper, wider, further into human hearts who will then exponentialize them further still.

Thank you and Thank you-niverse!

 

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about Weekly Sessions, Live Streams, Videos, and Community.

 

In The Beginning Was A Story

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By Raphael Awen

If a big part of your life feels boring, disengaged, blah, and nothing to write home about, then that’s what’s true to a part of you, but it’s so far from what’s true about you and your life.

Fused to this part of you, there isn’t any other truth. End of story.

However, in relationship with this part of you, where there is an emerging you differentiating from this beloved part of you, there is magical quest and journey to get to know and feel why a part of you would be closed down. Beginning of story.

This part of you has been off your conscious radar and has, in your absence, effectively taken your consciousness hostage. The words of your mouth are a dead give away. ‘I’m so bored…’ ‘I can’t figure out what’s going on.’ ‘I need some excitement’. Here, there’s no movement. There’s no space for movement. ‘It is what it is’, as parts of us like to say in resignation, furthering the spell they hold over our waking consciousness.

These parts of us know and have seen a whole lot more than our conscious mind can access. They have their own very valid reasons for setting up a non eventful and tamed existence inside of us. They’ve seen and experienced things that they prefer ‘you’ remain asleep to. The boredom or shutdown has self loving reasons for being.

Awakening to this spell you’ve been held under having been lured so deeply into the cult of Single Personality Disorder, you now begin a subtle, but very profound shift and rumble through your consciousness, and consciousness itself, by changing the waveform frequency broadcast coming from your mouth.

Instead of ‘I feel…’, it’s ‘a part of me feels…’. Now, with curiosity as our personal redemption, we’re getting to the plot of unfolding and eventful story.

Right here and now, you’ve altered the course of your history and herstory into an alternative dimension.

Word is palabra in Spanish, and parabol in Latin from which we get parable, or story. In the beginning was the word, the logos, the story, and the story was god.

Your life is a creator story, that you create, and to change your story, it will involve something so simple as a choice of words, a choice of parable, new script and scriptures, a new parable that is the spark that ignites fires that consume entire domains.

Even if you’re wanting to light your fire in the dead of a sleepy long cold wet winter, this alteration to the articulation of the frequency broadcast system of your BEing will lead to the opening out of the space for you make a great leap in your waking consciousness to begin to bridge to this wider and larger self version of you. You may not be ready to burn down an entire world when what’s needed first is a fire sufficient to warm hands and heart, leading to one self loving and felt step at a time.

This new world already exists, just maybe not in your present waking consciousness yet. This is good news. Your words don’t actually need to make up something that doesn’t already exist. They only need to dial in a different frequency, that creates a very different spell, a different story, a different reality. It’s still ‘a’ reality. None of us get to exit the realm of story itself, we only get to choose our story and change our story when and if we are ready to.

Part of me, once bored, now is really excited to get on with the journey before ‘us’, as in the story before all the parts of me, as well as the story before all the parts of us in the collective. These parts of me have been
bridged to and related to and negotiated with. These parts of me once bored and shutdown are now eager and ready to return to full adventure and let in the events that want to eventualize and actualize our deeper and onward journey into the more that awaits me, and us, and You.

There’s a story twist script option available for you if you’re ready for it coming up in our Group Call this Saturday, December 9th. You are wholeheartedly invited to join in. Details here: https://www.facebook.com/events/813881412132524/

Raphael Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.Com/sfhprocess

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about Weekly Sessions, Live Streams, Videos, and Community.

Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.