The Love “Misfits”: Ascension And Healing For Indigo And Crystal Souls

By Kalayna Colibri

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I come from a thing called “Gen Y”. I feel this name is apt, because myself and those in my age group ask the question “why” an awful lot! I’m not sure when exactly I started asking this question, but I’m sure I was pretty young at the time, maybe even just learning to talk… 

My sense is that we’re supposed to be the generation who does this asking questions thing, or at least get the ball rolling on it. Millennials have the chance to deepen this questioning even further, and so many of them are doing just that. When I see what’s going on with them and how they’re often marginalized by older/other generations, I get why they would be. They, and those of my generation too, are meant to be game-changers. Many of them feel drawn to activism, veganism, community, and/or just generally making different choices than anyone who came before them, with a deep knowing inside them that the systems in place now NEED to shift and change.

Early in my “seeking”years, which really began around age 14, I was labelled as an “Indigo” because of my age, my determination, my desire to share my soul gifts, and the things I was passionate about. I did really identify with this label for a long time, as it explained a lot about me and actually helped me understand myself a bit better. These days though, as I go inside and heal more and more, I feel a more crystalline essence coming through that is transmuting my passion into compassion, my anger into understanding, and my entitlement around sharing my soul gifts or having what I want, into patient gratitude and trust. Through working with inner-punishers and learning to love them, I’m finding that my judgments toward self and others is shifting into healthy discernment with love, helping to keep me from going back into the same frustration loops, that were only ever about making myself suffer anyways. There is much shadow to be worked in the archetype of the Indigo, it feels like to me, at least in the way that most of us have related to it up to now, and ascension is the perfect way to bring that all to light for each of us.

 I stand aligned with Mother Gaia in heart, soul and body and have felt that I am more deeply impassioned and aware of issues regarding her stewardship than some others, which is another trait we as Indigos and Crystals seem to commonly share. In meditation the other day, I connected with Mother Gaia and felt deep tears as she held me with her love, reminding aspects of my soul that worry about her, that she is okay and can take care of herself, ultimately. I feel her inviting us all into a space of feeling love with her in mutual care and reverence, and that all of the anger we have put out towards those who exploit her resources has actually been a negative output of energy that has been more warrior-like than necessary, even while standing in peaceful protest. She does not need an army, but she does need and desire for us to remember the love that we are and are here to offer as we ascend with her and help others do the same. Many of us have forgotten our true power and where it comes from, and have needed to do this for a reason. However, we all have much power to reclaim now and we have SO much support being offered to us to do so, even from Gaia herself!

 Coming into this life as Indigos, Crystals, Rainbows, Starseeds (or a little bit of everything, as it feels like we could be many of these at once), means we have come in to remember who we are and find our way back to the power and powerS we have always had access to in our home frequencies. So much in 3D reality has densified life with our permission, but we do have the choice to start lovingly recognizing this and pushing against it like a springboard. It’s my sense of it, that if this tweaks you, there is some seed inside of you that needs some love-watering and some wounding that needs to be felt and healed so that you can remember more of who you ARE. I don’t think that any of us were ever meant to remain in a long healing process, as we have the innate capacity to heal deeply in short periods of time whenever necessary. There is definitely pain to move through together though, and we aren’t meant to do it alone.

 If this lands in you, it may be that I am meant to serve you. If I am, there is so much heart ground I look forward to navigating with you as we work together to help you remember what you are here to remember! Regardless of the path you choose for your healing and growth, know that your soul and heart capacities are being seen and felt, and that your soul purpose will not go on without you, even and especially while you take time for YOU, to go inside, heal your heart, and express fully from that beautiful place you’re now re-discovering and uncovering!

In love,

Kalayna

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge and healer, writer, and poetess. Find out more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Trust: The Merkaba to Infinite Love

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There is one word that I feel has more influence on us in our healing and emergence as sacred humans than almost any other and that is TRUST.  It is the bridge that connects us to the Motherland of Love.  In our pure essence, the word just doesn’t exist (not that any word does but you know what I mean).  We just ARE.  We flow, move, and accept all that IS because we are in harmony with Love.  But if we were pure essence, I wouldn’t be here writing and you wouldn’t be here reading.  We would be ONE.  And we ARE.. essentially.  But we chose to live and experience in this differentiated/ fractured dimension to experience ourselves as Love outside Itself to experience Itself. Learning to trust Itself back to Oneness.  

This separation was/is a scary thing for us.  And for Love.  If we experience this existential terror then so does Love.  It too is diving off a cliff to see what happens.  But the one thing Love has is Trust that it will reclaim Itself no matter how hairy things may get.  I feel for us in our human expression, this is a very epic lesson.  If Love has trust, and we ARE Love then what makes it so damned hard to trust sometimes?  We clearly have a part of us that still hasn’t drank the heart-shaped KoolAid cup yet.  Welcome to the relationship with our 3D self.  

We so badly want to let go of all that holds us back from experiencing Joy and Purpose.  And we have on so many levels.  I don’t believe there is a single soul on this planet that doesn’t have an issue with trust.  It may be less of an issue for some, but there is going to be something that kicks up this very human relationship to fear.  It is why we are here.  To continue this healing toward Pure Trust or Ultimate Surrender.  The chasm between where we are NOW and this desired place is different for all of us.  It is through experience that we learn to trust.  We have to act upon something. Make a choice and see what happens.  The results that occur are not always going to be the ones we are hoping for.  Just because they don’t happen doesn’t mean that we didn’t receive something we were meant or dialed up to learn.  If the result is traumatic then our level of trust will determine our ability to let in the deeper meaning, while we allow for all our reactions to be had in response to said event.  

There are also other life experiences and soul woundings that have great impact on our relationship to trust.  By asking our guides for assistance we can be shown many different soulscapes that provide much heart data to what is THIS life wounding and what is part of our larger MetaSoul picture.  What is in our fractal that contributes to this trust wounding?  There are stories to be unveiled and felt.

Can we hold the Meta-space of Trust while we navigate our journey into our new sacred humanity?  It becomes our life-preserver.  Our invisible stepping stone or set of forgotten wings.  It provides a container, a Merkaba, for our entrance into and through unknown portals of experience.  Without it, we stay stuck and stagnant on some level, even if we have access on others.  Ultimately we want ALL of us to come with us into this new frequency of existence.  If there are soul aspects that still have issues of trust, we can have a relationship with it to bring more of our essence of Love into the heartscape.  
The Separation is a uniquely 3D traumatic experience, I feel.  In 4D consciousness we have the tools to hold space for that within us but we need support along the way.  So many times have I taken leaps of faith and taken the fear with me.  I was also gifted with not just my own guidance from angels and other aetheric beings,  but also that of soul family.  Our 3D self needs it.  There are those that have been across many trust chasms and have found their way on the other side.  Leaning into that experience is essential.  I feel this is an ongoing journey for us.  Continuing to embody our own bigness and gifts,  while continuing to lean further into the forgotten territories of Galactic Love Consciousness to bring more and more Joy and Bliss to our collective creation.  Trust is the way across and into this new territory.  Finding the distrust and feeling its very real reasons for not trusting provides us the ground upon which we may take one step at a time.

Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  You can learn more about him at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Group Calls, Conscious Community Video

Raphael and I, Jelelle Awen, were at a beautiful beach today and were inspired to film this short video talking about our SoulFullHeart group calls, community connection, etc. We mention the call that we have coming up this Saturday, where I will lead a guided meditation with some aspect of calling in the sun’s energy and warmth and light codes in with current teachings from Raphael and I too plus contributions from SoulFullHeart facilitators Gabriel Heartman and Leena Colibri. PLUS, community connection with resonant souls and individual check-ins if you desire to! I recommend listening to this video on headphones as the waves are loud!

Here is the link to the event on Saturday if you’d like to join us over zoom :https://www.facebook.com/events/376229456083017/ or http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/groupcalls

The Temple of Light Inside YOU

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YOU are a Temple of Light.  A shining beacon of endless possibilities and radiant Joy.  A creative force borne from, and made of, the same powerhouse Love groove that emanates and permeates all of Creation.

YOU are the Mountain of Rising UP.  UP toward the heavens when so much has kept you down.  This down time has been the breeding ground for your readiness to Rise.  To move beyond what you thought all there was to join in the communion of All That Is.  

YOU are the Way of the Cosmic Heart.  The true destiny of your human experiment and exploration.  Feeling yourself as one among the One.  Feeling the cries and the ecstasy of each other’s triumphs and tragedies. Holding your own self needs while sending out waves of compassion and gratitude.  

YOU are the Galactic Epicenter of Desire.  A channel of Pure Love that seeks more and more and more.  In each moment, for each moment.  That stretches from the base of your feet to the far reaches of ever expanding ocean of consciousness.  You are that fire.  

YOU are a Child of Gaia.  Bestowed upon you to steward Her BEing into the new realm of collective consideration and consecration.  You are the keeper of this promise to be in harmony with Her as You.  

YOU are the Offspring of the Star BEings.  They are your ancestors.  Your Divine guides and partners.  Your ticket the the University of YOU.  They are aching to meet you.  

YOU are all that you are NOT.  Not the hate.  Not the smallness.  Not the pain.  Not the fear.  But it is all part of the sacred AM.  For you would not truly know the essence of YOU without it.  
Enter your Temple in every moment.  Let the light come into your BEing.  Let it blow the soot off your crystalline lovelight body. Let it permeate and radiate within then without.  Let it rise up into the starry depths of the cosmos, out into the hearts of those around you.  You then will feel the essence and beauty and power of the greatest force of all….your Sacred Humanity.

Gabriel Heartman is a facilitator, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  You can learn more about him at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Roads Less Traveled: Metasoul Healing and Conscious Community

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On the path of healing to our most authentic essence of BEing, there is often a road less traveled and a support less considered.  As I continue to go in and raise my frequencies, I have needed not just the support of my inner guides, angels, elementals, and star beings but also that of the close personal and intimate community in which I reside.  Mirrors and gifts abound and while there is certainly great movement that can experienced within, we can’t quite get to feel certain aspects of us when we are outside of intimacy, be it sacred friendship or romance.  When this relationship is in close proximity the healing and love flow is exponential.  

I bring up community because currently I am in a big part of my healing process.  One that has me exploring soul aspects that are in their own hell.  “That doesn’t sound like fun!”.  This is where community comes in.  Lots of guidance and support is here.  Perspectives when things may get a little hard and confusing.  This has been an energy that has been with me during my life and I know it isn’t mine.  I need to go into this as offered by Metatron.  To bring my Lovelight into the space as there is no greater healing balm than Love.  I believe in my own experience that the triggers we have in life and the energies that come up are not just part of this life’s wounding.  We have echoes from other Metasoul aspects that are rippling into our consciousness.  I so feel how this may be what is happening in many “mental” health cases.  This is not about going in unprotected.  It is about raising our vibration up, feeling our yummy, juicy Love center and creating an energy around us.  It is like deep ocean diving with a big ol’ heart light.

It is feeling your intuition and claiming a soul aspect and pulling them out of the pain in which they reside.  No need to solve anything other that give this aspect all the Love you can muster.  There can be time for more briefing later.  There may be aspects that resist your Love and you can honor that but keep inviting them into your Heart.  I feel that while positive affirmations are a great way to maintain the higher frequency, just those alone will not be enough for the pain these aspects hold.  They need to feel authentic, compassionate love.  This if often the road less traveled.  

Going back to community, I can be supported in this and receive energy healing and space holding when needed.  I will get reflections when I am felt as bit low in my vibration and can’t quite consciously feel it.  They are heart-centered course corrections that I could not have outside conscious community.  I feel I am writing to specific souls out there that can feel where I am coming from.  The souls that feel this deep pain that can’t seem to move.  It can be a sludge at times without support and guidance from those that have been there.  Through my own personal experience I offer my Heart to those that have that Hell inside them.  That ache to move through it with Love to receive the gifts it was meant to offer.  I don’t claim it is the only way, just the way that is providing me and others with the means to live a more joyful and exquisite experience of the essence we were all meant to embody.  
Our souls have been through much, and I feel we are being honored and revered for all we have taken on.  They offer their Love but also know we need each other as well.  This is what being human is ultimately about.  Raising each other UP in the Bond of Heart and Unity of Soul.  

Gabriel Heartman is a space-holder, writer, poet, and Heartist.  You can find more about him and the SoulFullHeart community at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

The Epic Journey Is Inward Toward Self Love

By Raphael Awen

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If life is anything, it’s a journey. An exciting and epic journey.

But why doesn’t it feel that way so much of the time for so many of us?

It’s because parts of us have worked so hard to isolate us from the journey that life is, working to tame it and make it manageable, predictable and safe. These parts of us can’t remove us from the movements of birth, childhood, young adult and middle age and old age, but if they can just keep it the safest possible within these uncontrollables, they will gladly settle for that.

But, these aren’t the only parts of us. There are others longing for change and adventure, who feel like they are dying on the vine in the small carefully arranged life we’ve set up, that feels so set in stone.

Fused to these very different parts of us, we are managing a civil war inside of us, all the while seeking to remain functional on the outside and holding a self image intact to our world around us. A longing dream comes up to take a couple years and travel, and we end up settling for a 2 week all inclusive vacation paid for on a credit card. ‘How was it?’ our friends ask when we return, expecting nothing more than a polite answer to their polite question.

Why can’t we seem to access anything different? Well, if you are genuinely asking that question, you need to get ready, because you are beginning to access something different. If you are willing to hold that question as a quest, you will make conscious the journey that your life is.

Getting to know these very different parts inside of us and why they are disposed the way they are is an incredible journey in itself. It is in fact, the real journey. It is a journey that will require a journal for sure to digest and record the experience. This journey inward to deep self-love and self-reconciliation is the way of life that SoulFullHeart offers.

I’d like to take you to feeling one more piece today. You as a soul ARE a journey. You aren’t actually seeking a journey like you may think you are. You are on an epic journey right now. Even if part of you manages to keep you isolated and involved in as little change as possible for your entire life, you are still in and on this epic journey. If you are willing to feel this, that feeling space that you create and the intensity of feeling it will create in you the guidance you seek and need to feel, as to what path to take to undo the set-in-stone life you’ve set up for yourself so far.

The bigger context of life for all of us collectively is changing at lightning speeds in these recent years. People feeling this tend to either attempt hunkering down deeper into their set-in-stone approach, or they see that this tsunami of change must be flowed with. They make it a conscious feeling to feel all there is to feel around life change, desire and the internal unresolved conflicts coming from each of the beloved parts of themselves.

You don’t need to be in control. You don’t need a bullet proof plan. You don’t need another self-help program. You only need to be willing to feel.

I’d like to help you with that if that is something that calls deeply to you, if you know that feeling is the journey you are on. Hang around, get to know and reach out to us here in the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, facilitator, and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information.