My Healing ‘Me’ Phase: Sharing My Current Personal Process

by Kalayna Colibri

Service of love is a crucible for growth… the growth of those you serve and your own growth too.

How many times I’ve learned this and been humbled by this…

We cannot downplay the importance of going inward and soberly evaluating ourselves, feeling if we SHOULD be serving others right now or if there’s something that needs us deep within first.

As my beloved friend, teacher and Facilitator Raphael said to me yesterday, “It feels right to take the space from facilitating. Without that, it would feel like trying to get at a foundation with a house sitting on top of it, which would be a whole lot more involved process.” Bingo.

Because of this, I’ve made the choice to step down as a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for this emerging phase of my healing and deep need of ME. My heart and soul feel a strong desire to serve love, yet the first step to that is becoming MORE love through being with myself and my parts. Without doing this, my space holding isn’t as deep as I desire it to be and not as helpful to the facilitant – the person making the vulnerable and courageous choice to lean into me for that 90min and maybe beyond – either. not to mention that the space held isn’t as safe as it needs to be for the healing to flow from my own love overflow into them to support their own.

I feel too how this process is not just about me as an individual. I feel how this is something that many space holders neglect to look at in themselves and as a result their parts can feel “burnt out” or resentful of their clients instead of in collaboration and heart-openness, which can lead to outright abuse or perhaps something more subtle. I feel how there is something for all of us to feel, whether you call yourself a “lightworker”, “space holder”, “wayshower”, “energy healer”, etc about how much you genuinely care about the person you’re offering healing to, how much respect and love you authentically feel for them, and if there are unowned judgments, triggers, pieces coming up inside of you that need you to show up to feel them in your own space, maybe even taking a break from offering healing to others for a phase, in the name of your own healing and self love growth. The biggest block to being able to vulnerably feel all of this inside of yourself feels to be the block of an overfocus on self-image, forgetting and maybe even hiding that you are also a humbly healing and ascending human being.

My beloveds in this community and healing path of SoulFullHeart have brought me many reflections over this past week that have given me plenty of pause and entry points into my heart too… to see why exactly I’ve been the way I’ve been when what I want is to be and serve love. This was a major sign of something big being out of alignment… we cannot put on the “healer hat” and be one way in sessions while we let parts of us run the show in other areas of our life and relationships with far less care, without one reality spilling over into the other sooner or later. And since the shadow is always wanting to be seen, felt and held, of course this is where the spillover is most likely to happen…

As my process unfolds, I’ll probably share more of the clarities I feel, because in this way I still feel called to serve love and see how what I’m discovering lands in the hearts and souls of others. I hope that even this writing which is more personal lands somewhere helpful inside of you. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Etheric implants, energy healing, and ALL held with love, put there by love

By Jelelle Awen

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I was reading about etheric implants last night and still digesting what I had read with what my experience has been as an energy facilitator. I am not one to study things deeply as I am more intuitive than intellectual. I pick up concepts very quickly on a contextual level and am not so great at remembering or tracking fine detail or ‘facts’ at all. So, most of what I offer in terms of teaching and serving comes from an intuitive remembrance in the form of inner guidance or knowing and Ethereal guides. I experience or remember or download something and then I might go do a little research into it or be guided to read a book (usually very quickly, skimming for concepts). Then the digestion begins, the resonance is found, the bridge identified to teach it, and quite shortly the offering of it to others….always with a ‘near as I can tell’ energy and not absolute truth as I don’t feel anyone can have the absolute truth about reality and consciousness.

SO, back to implants. I have been feeling my way through energy facilitation over the years, letting my higher self and soul come through, and always been very collaborative with whoever I was holding space for and with. I talk out loud and transparently about what I am doing/feeling/seeing, teaching as I go, and involving the person’s higher self with me and also negotiating with their protective part of them if necessary (if fear is coming up for them or resistance. I’ll stop energy work altogether to be in the feelings if that is what is needed). This is also how I facilitate emotional movements as well. It is SO powerful when someone’s soul is leading in response and in collaboration. So, often, there is no structure to energy facilitation with me, beyond the chakras beings cleared and activated, and beyond that, it is always a magical journey into the unknown.

And, implants…I am struggling to be linear today as it is becoming less and less my orientation to life! Ok, yes, I have experienced ‘implants’ as not so much something ‘put into the etheric field by negative entities polarized to fear and lower dimensional frequencies’ (as is the usual read on it.) I have experienced more and held it more that each SOUL chooses what is in their field and for reasons that further the growth and transformation of that soul. It may even sometimes be IN COLLABORATION with these lower density beings (such as called Archons, Dracos, etc.) for reasons that actually WORK for the soul. Also, it is often our Metasoul aspects that are Draco, Archon, etc. that we can bridge to through feeling the energy of these ‘inplants.’ This is not done out of lack of self love either, it is done for GROWTH, which is the reason that we even chose to come here to Gaia.

When I have discovered objects in the etheric field with people, there is ALWAYS an emotional and spiritual component to them. There are deep tears and processing and we quite quickly can connect the reason for them to their bigger process as a soul this life. Often, the person themselves does this as I create a bridge to their higher self so they can ‘hear and feel’ them. We remove the objects together and that too is an emotional and very touching journey and we only remove them if it feels like the right time. Really, it is more like the objects dissolve with love and often very easily. All of this is negotiated with the person, their higher self, and whatever aspects or parts they are working with at in that moment. All of this is held with much tenderness and feeling tones.

The energy that some energy healers and practitioners have around ‘removing implants’ feels cold to me and, in some ways, fear-based. It is as if they aren’t trusting the REASON that the objects are there and how NOTHING is done to us without our higher selves permission and in union with Divine source. There can be a victim energy to their relationship to it and, also, a sense of vigilance and defensiveness. It feels like these healers are going to ‘battle’ with these implants and the symptoms of recovery they describe afterwards such as being very ill, etc. feel to me in part because it has all been held with battle-like energy rather than love. All of these frequencies of battle, vigilance, defensiveness…..lower OUR vibrational frequency because we then believe that we are victims to these entities, that they have done something to us ‘against our higher will’, etc.

I feel it is more about being an ambassador of love to anything that is going on in our bodies, minds, hearts, souls, and etheric fields. Responding to it with love and trust that it is there for a reason, that we’ve needed it until we didn’t need it anymore, and the Universe is a place offering an exploration ground of love ultimately as we were birthed from love out of a Divine source of LOVE. Removing these objects that can block energy flow and even ‘cap’ your growth and awakening can shift some amazing things in your experience of reality. However, this can only happen – in my experience – when it is time for it to happen and when it is led primarily by you and by your higher self.

Over time, as your heart pains heal and your energy field clears out, you can easily track when and if entities are drawn to you (which is really a part of you or Metasoul aspect wanting your attention) or if there is another object to be lovingly removed. You become your own energy facilitator with the help of your higher self (which becomes more and more YOU) and with Ethereal guides too if you need them. THIS to me is the end game of all of this……the empowerment and remembrance of EVERY soul back into wholeness, a return to love, a return to self care and love at such a high level where things like implants or etheric objects are no longer needed at all!

Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Jelelle offers a 90 minute one on one bridging session with her over zoom for $55 USD min. donation…moreinformation here. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Remote And In Person Energy Facilitation Sessions With Jelelle Awen

By Jelelle Awen

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Surrendering to guidance (both inside and from guides) is such an interesting thing sometimes. I follow my sense of something, deeply lean into it, let go of whatever is needed to inhabit more of who I am, and then…..it shifts again! About a month ago, I was ‘guided’ and felt to not do individual space holding SoulFullHeart sessions anymore. I have held space for people for many years, going back to when I was a business-life coach about 15 years ago. Service can be a beautiful, amazing thing and the moments of breakthrough and facilitating someone into remembrance can be very profound.

Yet, I felt guided to let it go for a phase and focus on the bigger picture of SoulFullHeart (what we called in my coaching days, “Be the entrepreneur, not the technician ‘doing the work.”) This focus has meant responding to my Divine muse through writing articles, developing our events like the group call on the 14th, working on our new book with Raphael, designing and creating the SoulFullHeart facilitation process with Sequoia, et al, doing a lot of work on our website and this blog, and going deeply into my own ongoing and intense ascension and body upgrade process. It has felt FULL for sure in the best way.

Yet, now, I’ve received guidance to offer individual energy sessions – both remotely and here locally in Puerto Vallarta – to those who are interested. I have been offering energy healing in conjunction with SoulFullHeart sessions and during them for many years, yet this specific focus on teaching and empowering others in one session is new. During this session (which may turn into 2 or 3 if the need and desire is there), I will collaborate with your higher self and healing angel to focus on your energy body. I will be transparent about what I am ‘doing’ and also teach you about cleaning/activating/protecting your chakras and your aura, cutting cords and karmic binds, meeting your healing angel and perhaps higher self, locating and perhaps removing implants and objects, and overall raising your vibrational frequency. Minimum donation is very affordable, especially compared to what many energy healing practitioners charge.

An energy session(s) with me are the perfect addition to your SoulFullHeart process when the timing feels right as I still HIGHLY recommend engaging in the SoulFullHeart process with a facilitator (Raphael, Sequoia, or Leena) as the individualized space holding and process itself is so effective, catalytic, revealing, and goes deep in the best ways, in addition to the wonderful community that comes along with it! I am continuing as a SoulFullHeart group facilitator for our group calls and group sessions here in PV. You can read more about SFH sessions here:http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Please read more about my energy session offering here and I look forward to connecting with you in a personalized setting focused on YOU and empowering the remembrance of your soul’s energy healing gifts.

Jelelle Awen is an 5D ascension teacher, writer and co-creator/teacher/group facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, online group calls and circles, community, videos, and more.