Tag: healing fear

The Desire For Love Underneath It All

Published on by Kasha Rosa2 Comments

by Kalayna Colibri

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Beneath the desire to predict, to plan for, to kNOw ‘what’s next’… is the desire for love.

Beneath the shadowy figures of men and women at the helm of leadership, who desire battles, who embody tremendous self-righteousness, who abuse and accuse others… is the desire for love.

Beneath the shut-outs, the push-aways, the cling-to-forevers…. is a desire for love.

Beneath your resistance to love, as expressed outwardly and inwardly, in words, in energy, in self-harm, in harm of others… is a desire for love.

And in that desire, all of the answers to questions of ‘why’ can be illuminated. And so much more can be felt, heard, seen, healed… loved.

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It often feels as if the 3D world really doesn’t want love. Some might even say outright that they don’t want love, claiming that love really isn’t the answer, or that love is only for the fortunate. Deep unworthiness to receive and let in love in the truest, deepest sense, is surfacing more and more now. There is deep unworthiness in our leaders. Deep unworthiness in fear and war-mongering. Deep unworthiness, pain, sadness, woundedness, in our patriarchal expressions as men and women, in relationships, in ourselves, at work, at home, out in the world. In all ‘fights’ we choose to instigate or be a part of in some way, we are expressing resistance to love… and where love wants to move us, what it wants to illuminate for us, what it wants to remind us that we ALL are… LOVE, embodied, ever-present.

Sometimes love is even resisted with love… it is resisted in the sense of what it wants to bring you about your wounding, which can sometimes be most easily found by going into your shadow. It is resisted by the ‘twin flame’ picture, that offers more suffering than goodness, more clinging than letting go. It is resisted in all of the ways parts of you would rather not feel. Love cannot transform or move you to new heights unless a certain facade is allowed to be cracked.

The 3D world wants love, yet is afraid of what love really is. A catalyst, a river, a cliff, a flashlight in the dark, a path less travelled or never travelled before… and an end to the depths of human suffering, starting within.

My beloveds and I offer a process of becoming reacquainted with love in a real sense of it… feeling parts of you that are resistant to truly letting it in and letting it move you in a new direction. If this appeals to you, you can read more about the process here: www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Also, Gabriel Heartman and Raphael Awen will be hosting a live stream on Facebook and Youtube this coming Sunday, where they will talk more about this process and way of life. You can go here for more details: https://www.facebook.com/events/1529926353733589

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Seeing, Feeling And Healing The Resistance To Love Inside (Your 3D Self)

Published on by Jelelle Awen1 Comment

By Jelelle Awen

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The resistance to love…..the fear to let in LOVE that can be SO deep within parts of you. This resistance can be a bone deep, living and breathing THING that has much energy running it. This fear energy lives in your 3D self, it pushes and pulls, comes from plugging into a false matrix that runs on fear and feeds on resistance. It can come in too from Metasoul/other lifetime timelines that play out karmic patterns and loops over and over.

The resistance to love can show up in such subtle ways and means, especially if you have already let go of many 3D anchors in your life. It can be challenging to track how this lives inside of your 3D self and currently expresses now as it is just ‘life’, it is just the choices you are used to making, the life you are used to living, what you have become conformed to AS life.

The ache for MORE love, for the higher timeline life where love is what lives and breathes into your every moment and NOT the fear….this is the shift that you are feeling coming into your BEing as the cosmic higher vibrational ascension energies support this HUGE shift. This desire confronts the fear and resistance WITH love and invites it to share and to let go. This desire is awakened in your 4D self as it is watered with soul frequencies, Divine energies, resonant values, soul family and sacred union, higher self vibes. The 4D self starts challenging the 3D resistance and fear, the stuck patterns and usual modes. The 4D self starts turning over ALL the rocks in your life to see what lives underneath and if it is coming from love or coming from fear.

This, again, can be challenging to track what is your 3D self energies and what is your 4D self and ultimately what is your 5D self or higher self coming into your physical body. It can feel like one big ‘soup’ where pain points and suffering loops are mixing with soul awakenings…..forming a bliss mess ground of your experience without much sense of where you ARE in this process or where you want to GO.

In SoulFullHeart, we are spending much time and energy right now creating a more standardized process through sessions to navigate this 3D, 4D, 5D self exploration, differentiation WITH you of the 3D/4D/5D self and then relate this to ALL seven areas of your life: emotional, spiritual, mental, social, physical, financial, and environmental. Through weekly sessions with your SoulFullHeart facilitator, you would feel together where the 3D self shows up and how, what the next places are to grow your emerging 4D self, and even what specific life changes you want to make related to what you discover to move you more into your highest timeline/5D self expression and life.

This is VERY exciting to me creating this after serving this process to primarily women over the last year and learning A LOT along the way. I do believe what we are offering through SoulFullHeart is a completely unique way of seeing, experiencing, and navigating the ascension and awakening process that will lead to many breakthroughs, growth, nourishment, and fast tracking for those souls who are drawn to it. We currently have a few souls who are undergoing this NEW SoulFullHeart process with us, having started in the last couple of weeks, and we’d so love to serve love in this way to others too…..including YOU!

Here is an article about the 3D, 4D, and 5D self and the seven areas of life with a self assessment/journaling questions which is where we focus the first couple of sessions with you:http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/3d4d5dselvesquestions

We will be offering an intro to the 3D self with teachings, sharings, and a guided meditation this Saturday during our SoulFullHeart group call:https://www.facebook.com/events/110934986279085

We are also offering a free 30 minute intro session with Raphael Awen orGabriel Heartman if you’d like to see and feel how this process might apply to you, your life, and your ongoing journey:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about a FREE intro session with a SoulFullHeart facilitator, group calls, videos, retreats, etc. 

On The Other Side Of Fear Is Love

Published on by Jelelle Awen3 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

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On the other side of fear is LOVE….When you are open, willing, and curious to GO INTO your fear, does it reveal itself and transform itself into LOVE. It is your energy of being open that DOES this. It is your energy of being curious that DOES this. It is you energy of being loving that DOES this. The fearful, lower frequencies are invited to let go and let love and so, they do……

Can it be THIS simple? YES….although it can be challenging for parts of you to trust this process, to allow into fear WITH love doesn’t feel ‘natural’ to what they have been conditioned to believe about reality. BEcoming fear is what has been shown and supported; it is what has been modeled. Avoiding and suppressing; drugging and numbing; shrinking and settling. These are all expressions of the relationship to fear that you have received.

Yet, the fear offers something ALIVE too. It is a STRONG energy. It contains ALOT of power. When remaining at a fear-based, low frequency it has the power to stop choices, to delay actions, to block love, to cause suffering. It can keep the 3D veils in place, the matrix hook ups in, and the filters intact. It can keep lovers away, soul family at bay, and the physical body in ill health and even death.

On the other side of fear is LOVE….always and in ALL WAYS. And so this power can be released and then used once it transmutes to a higher frequency. It can be used then to SERVE love with others; for Divinely inspired curiosity; for VITAL healthy body; for deeply nourishing sacred union relationship; for commUNITY; for soul purpose; for healthy leadership. Life beyond fear is ALIVE with love, self permission, freed up sense of self expression, no self consciousness.

THESE are the frequencies of your sacred humanity; your Divinity shining through your vibrating human heart; your increasingly Cosmic Christ Consciousness Heart. THESE are the frequencies of your capacity and legacy from the Divine in which the choice of fear is LOVED into LOVE in every moment.

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Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine and union facilitator, soul scribe, waySHOWer, galactic love ambassador, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book to be released on June 1st, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

What We Really Most Deeply Fear Is Our Bigness

Published on by Raphael Awen1 Comment

By Raphael Awen

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Video of Raphael Awen reading the following words with music and images

Something will hold our fear.

Fear is a form of reverence. That which we fear, we revere. We fear and revere things that we perceive as bigger than us. We fear god, circumstances, illness, etc. as things or beings that are bigger than us and that we are thus subject to. I might want this, but god might want something different for me that I don’t want.

All of this is a product of making ourselves small.

What we really fear at a deep core level are not the things that we think we fear. What we really fear is our own bigness. Our bigness isn’t just big, it is infinitely big. Anything that we can’t define, refine or confine, we fear, and understandably so.

So we set out to manage ourselves. We manage life instead of letting in life. We see ourselves as subject to life, rather than the subjects of life. We choose a perception of a scarcity-based relationship to life because of the utter fear of falling prey to unlimited abundance.

It is actually way easier for parts of us to shut down our desire for more and just live with the dampened desire and dampened disappointment than it is to open ourselves full throttle to the level of desire and abundance that our being actually is. Here again is the deep core fear we run from.

How might we change this?

Because we live as conditioned beings, and we have conditioned ourselves to a lesser-reality which has become our ultimate-reality, then it follows that letting in new and truer reality will happen for us as we entertain and let in that new reality. We begin to become reconditioned to a new reality. Nothing happens without our consent and choice in our personal kingdoms and queendoms because we are the sovereign of our own domains.

There is still a deep place for surrender to the divine in all of this, it’s just that you can’t take yourself out of the divine equation. By that, I mean, you can’t externalize God and surrender to God. This is a form of keeping intact the small-you reality. You can’t separate yourself from divinity, try as you may.

Many will chafe at this idea of seeing themselves as god. How sacrilegious they exclaim. What we define as blasphemy is in service of the gods of our own creation. The gods we create are created out of our deepest fears that we haven’t yet felt.

Time and time again, life faces us with our infinite bigness, awaiting our surrender, our exploration, our reverence for all that is, and all that is in us, and though us, and to us….You are ‘divinity out divining’…. as you are now; as you are desiring to be; and as you will more and more come to terms with every day.

Feel your fears. They are one of the single truest things about you. So are your desires. Feel them too. Own it all. Let in the tears of having muffled both your real and deepest fears as well as your desires.

Let love collide with the reality you’ve conditioned yourself to.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information.