Free To Be 5D Group Call Excerpt (VIDEO): 3D Consciousness, 3D Self, & Parts

In this video, SoulFullHeart Co-creators and Teachers, Raphael and Jelelle Awen share about 3D Consciousness, the 3D Self, and the process of differentiating from 3D Self parts of us (such as the Inner Protector, Inner Child, etc.) that feel reaction, depression, hurt, pain, fear, etc.

This video features excerpts from a two-hour long group call on July 22, 2020 that was part of the Free To Be 5D series.This series is based on Chapter Three of the Free To Be 5D book by Jelelle Awen, which provides a summary about the 3D Self, how and why it forms, and deeper descriptions of the parts that make it up, such as the Inner Protector, Inner Child, Inner Teenager, etc.

SoulFullHeart Facilitators Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Solais also share in the video about their parts process and experience of the meditation.

You can purchase the FULL recording of this group call recorded on July 22 (which includes 40 MORE minutes of teachings, two guided meditations and full sharing from Gabriel and Kalayna) and receive the recordings of all remaining calls (or zoom link to attend them live) in the series through offering a donation at: https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop or http://paypal.me/jelelleawen

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Inviting Your 3D Self Into Healing

by Kalayna Solais

In order to be in, live in, navigate 3D, parts of you have had to form. They’ve also formed in reaction to traumas you’ve experienced in the density of 3D. These traumas sometimes have slipped under the radar, actually, and not necessarily been experiences of overt abuse. Sometimes even just not being heard or seen is traumatic. Not feeling loved is traumatic. Not feeling like you belong on this planet is traumatic.

The 3D Self is pretty complex yet when you meet your own with love and open-hearted curiosity, the parts that make it up respond to that, come forward, and a bond with them is created. This is not about ‘eliminating the ego’ as some other offerings may teach, yet rather, loving the ‘3D ego’, if you want to call it that, and appreciating WHY it’s had to form. This helps you find your way through the pain and into the harvest of deep inner gifts and soul bigness that have been buried underneath it out of necessity.

Without loving the 3D Self deeply, your life cannot shift on deeper levels. What needs to be let go of in order to let in MORE love in Divine/multi-dimensional ways becomes more challenging to walk out than it necessarily has to be. There’s a necessary burning away of the masks that have kept you in fused states to your 3D Self and its many ways of expressing in your relationship to others and yourself in general, and your relationship to the Divine, to love, to spirituality.

If this resonates and sparks some interest in you to go deeper, Raphael and Jelelle Awen offered a by-donation group call yesterday about this very topic that you can still donate to receive the recording of. It’s part of the 6-week Free To Be 5D Series so your donation will get you access to all recordings from this series so far and the Zoom link for the other 4 calls coming up. You’ll hear teachings from them on and also engage in a powerful guided meditation. Gabriel Heartman and I also share a bit about our own experiences with this process.

More info here: soulfullheart.org/freetobe5dgroupseries

Much love to you and your precious 3D Self! ❤
Kalayna

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about FREE consultation calls, space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Arising Anew From The Collapse Of The 3D Matrix

In the midst before me, I see a dying story. A matrix of beliefs and conditionings that we have all, to one degree or another, found ourselves playing a part of. We have written and acted in the play together, to sheer perfection.

But we have crossed certain markers in our path too many times now to begin to recognize that the house we contracted to build together is burning. It is running on the fumes of a fear of fusing to the building itself. We are not burning. The house is.

This can be a very existential experience to our 3D self as well as a very triggering remembrance to our Metasoul brothers and sisters that have experienced a collapse before. They have not been pretty, nor self-loving. But that doesn’t mean they can’t be.

Deaths are never easy and have their own energies to be with, yet if we can find that essence within us to hold the space of this transmutation then we may find ourselves like the rose among the ashes.

Connecting with your 3D & 4D selves with the aid of your 5D/Higher Self, a managed collapse is possible and also very self-loving. That is not the same as easy, just setting the suffering gauge to as minimal as possible. It is really up to you in the end.

How we leave is who we enter as.

Our fear can come with us as long as we are willing to go into it and feel it. This is the process that is supported in SoulFullHeart. It is holding the Light so that we can transform the Dark. We are both.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Energy Update: We Are Integrating Awakenings/Realizations From Lion’s Gate Portal

by Kalayna Solais

There’s a powerful integration phase happening now as we continue to move out of Lion’s Gate and into a NEW rhythm in our lives. Whatever has been stirred up by the high, catalytic energies is now settling more into our hearts and living there, even the uncomfortable pieces that we are still digesting and moving through. There will likely be uncomfortable things to keep digesting, especially as Disclosure continues to unfold and so much is being illuminated by that alone for everyone… even those who until now haven’t bought into it or resonated much with it.
On a 3D level, this has been a phase of many new awakenings. It’s like a whole new class has entered the undergraduate degree program at ‘Ascension University’. The 3D Self and the parts that make it up are having their own reactions to this ongoing process of awakening. You may be one of these souls or you may be currently supporting others in this as they try to understand what is being activated and how to relate with it. We’re being asked to have patience and compassion for these souls, as there’s no need for elitism around any of this, even though bridging to them can be challenging. There’s much we can offer, even in small doses, to see what helps them open their hearts to their own souls.
On a 4D level, much has been brought out into the open from the Metasoul and the veil has been quite thin. Parts of the 3D Self are upgrading too, realizing how NOT 3D they actually are. This is very necessary right now, as the more we are still personally anchored into 3D, the more suffering there is without context for it and parts of us do truly need this context to help move them into deeper awakening and healing experiences along with us.
My own 3D Self named ‘Katie’, which is the name I went by until my mid-twenties, is starting to see her gifts even though this has been a huge struggle for her with the bombarding messages from 3D consciousness that validate insecurities and encourage smallness. She’s starting to see how she was always meant to be a 3D ‘Bridge’, not an entire ‘Self’ that is supposed to lead life and in this way she can help orient to 3D as needed without being fully anchored there. She really has more of a 4D consciousness and awareness than she even thought until now and this is starting to activate in many other 3D Selves too.
This process with ‘Katie’ has been hugely supported by my Sirian aspect, ‘Ineerah’ throughout Lion’s Gate. She has helped me tremendously with catching this part of me up to my reality and the goodness there truly is within me and in my life too. She has been helping me move into an even deeper healing of the baseline emotional reality of this part of me, who expects the worst most of the time and can easily find reasons to feel sad or be in despair. There is a tender new unification happening within as other parts of me come together to offer her the attention and love she needs.
This is what’s possible as we integrate the illuminations of our 3D consciousness habits and our 4D ones too as we move into letting IN more 5D consciousness and re-anchoring there. We can’t skip this process of really looking at it all and feeling it all through, asking ‘why?’ relentlessly and with so much desire to love ourselves more. We can only LOVE ourselves into 5D reality being our new ‘baseline’… any other approach cannot last for long nor is it meant to.
This so applies to everything we hear in the news, everything we take in from the Disclosure world. We are being asked to feel how this impacts us and reflects us back to us again. We are being invited, constantly, to bring our hearts to it and to feel what we want to experience, starting inside of us, on the other side of the necessary mess.
MUCH love to you in this humbling and REAL integration phase, whatever this looks like for you… ❤

 

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Free Falling Into The Abyss Of Shifting Self Identities During Awakening

By Jelelle Awen

Many worlds you live in and walk in and BE in. Many versions of you show up for each of these worlds. There are the masks to slip on and wear as needed….each ‘world’ requiring something different in energy, tone, response. Parts of you ‘put it on’, you wear it even as it wearies you more and more to be worn like this. You are like a quick change artist, perhaps shifting without consciousness into new OUTfits many times a day.

All these different worlds leave you stretching over the gaps between who you really are and what they expect you to be. The formfitting happens from parts of you that know so well how to do this and have become experts at conforming in this way. Part of you has become a camouflage creature, able to become just like any environment that you are in. You can become the color of the social scenery around you, blend right in. This was the order of the day to survive; this is 3D life that requires a heightened sense of self preservation that is about not being yourself, yet about being like everyone else.

You start to wake up from your sleep walk. You start to SEE through each of these worlds. You visit the sets and stages. You begin to recognize the props and costumes that you are required to wear. You feel where continual suffering is the badge of entry in and the energy needed to remain. You see the others that were once close to you start to fade from your interest as they stay invested in these worlds and you begin to pull out. They may grab at you and you may go back, in a push-pull and mixed feelings conflictual dance with many things learned on both sides.

Sometimes, you feel like a ghost walking once familiar and comforting hallways that can no longer provide you a place to BE in solid form.

Sometimes, you feel like a bull dozer, purposely collapsing these worlds and your place in them….clearing the way for the NEW.

Sometimes you are a phoenix…rising from the ashes of all this fiery wreckage to BE reborn without constraints or limits.

Sometimes you are a little child, just sobbing in the corner as you wait for a parent to take your hand and show you the way home.

There are no straight lines to follow or linear directional paths to navigate this shifting and sorting out of your worlds. Increasing LOVE for yourself and with others and with the Divine provides heartlines that you can use to navigate in the lost moments. The heartlines disappear at times too, as they are meant to as these are the moments where you inner strength truly grows.

You are free falling into the abyss of lost self identity as the roles fall away, along with the attachments and the rules and expectations too. Yet, you begin to trust more and more that you will land on the soft soil of your own soul’s kNOWing and into the arms of the Divine.

You begin to find your home.

You more often return to love as THIS is the world that offers the most nourishment. And, you start to remember how always will you return, eventually, to the love that you actually ARE!

Love,
Jelelle Awen
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Loving UP Your Body-Vessel

by Kalayna Solais

It has become so important to love the body beyond any measurements, beyond any sense of “not good enough”, beyond any shame once held by parts of you about looking this way instead of that way.

For years parts of me have judged and battled with my body and body image. They have especially struggled with accepting my legs, which have always been bigger, and my tendency to yo-yo a bit in my weight.

Parts of me have judged themselves for eating emotionally, for continuing to make food mean ‘love’ somehow. They have struggled so much over the years with relating to food more so as survival and even something not as necessary as we are taught it is.

Even in this world of spirituality and Ascension consciousness, there is a tendency for parts of us to judge the body for not yet being ‘light body’ worthy or for going through the many changes and shifts it needs to go through as we continue to transition into crystalline forms.

The body reflects the emotional reality, always, and this manifests in so many different ways, giving us so much valuable information to be with and digest.

These judgements come often from an Inner Punisher part inside of you that is concerned about sticking out, about you inhabiting your leadership, about Ascension on all levels.

For more about the Inner Punisher, here is a video from Jelelle where she also leads a guided meditation to connect with this part of you:

They criticize and poke because it means love to them somehow. It helps them feel empowered, ironically, because in the judgements of self is a defense against judgements from others. A preemptive strike within that hurts you first before someone else can hurt you. Wow. It might sound convoluted but if you really feel this one, it’s very true, and often unaddressed or felt through with love and self-compassion. The Inner Punisher does not respond well to more punishment… this energy can only transmute with love.

Here is a guided meditation co-created by Gabriel and I, narrated by Gabriel, that you could use as another tool to connect with this part of you:

This part is so ingrained in our 3D Self that it’s become natural to feel the punishment that becomes a white noise in our lives, always sort of there yet so naturalized we hardly notice how much it’s bringing our frequency down. This is so one of the major pieces that needs to shift into love in the 3D Self before this Self, this version of you, can really start to integrate and move into higher frequencies consistently.

I’m sharing this photo today because it hallmarks a new beginning for me and an outing too.

I no longer want to subscribe to the adage of needing to look a certain way and I don’t want parts of me to feel this way about themselves either.

I no longer want to hide how my body looks because it doesn’t comply with typical beauty standards.

I suspect my body will continue to go through more changes through my own personal Ascension process and to truly be IN it without feeling like I have to force it to be one way or another in order to be worthy of anyone’s love let alone my own, is my deepest intention in this moment.

Our bodies are part of our Ascension journey… to honour and love them UP, even as they are now, is so, so important.

Much love to you and YOUR beautiful vessel too! ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Energy Update: Schumann Spike Supporting Ongoing 3D/4D Matrix Unplugging

By Jelelle Awen

Energy update: We are a couple hours into a Schumann/Gaia frequency spike wave….heading up above 50 HZ, as it did yesterday as well for about an hour. I experienced my usual head/neck tension this morning and more difficulty going into deeper sleep states last couple of days, which sent me to check the Schumann graphs to see what was going on.

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I feel this head/neck/shoulder tension still as an activation in the causal chakra (back of the head) that is connected to galactic consciousness activation, galactic DNA waking up, star family lineage reconnections. Gaia’s raising vibration supports this realization and waking up to our Star BEing entwinement and how deep it goes into our ‘history’ here on Gaia.

This galactic activation connects to the significant next level unplugging that is going on from the 3D and lower 4D matrix structures of control that have long been in place, as I’ve been sharing about this week. We’ve been connected/attached to these structures by our own soul’s CHOICES to really drop into the 3D experiment here.

Your 3D self may be MORE than ready to completely unplug from these, as is true for many souls that have been awakening for awhile. This ‘next level’ unplugging is really also identifying what areas of your life are still anchoring to more 3D frequencies of fear (undigested trauma from this life and other lifetimes), anxiety (lack of trust in Divine will), depression (block in expressing your soul purpose creativity/service), etc. I offered this guided meditation to unplug your 3D self to the next level here:

This catalytic time offers a ripeness for personally exploring where parts of you are anchored still to 3D conditioning/patterning in this life in the seven areas of life (emotional, spiritual, mental, physical, financial, social, and environmental) and ALSO other lifetimes/timelines too. This exploration and discovery (as we offer in sessions) leads then to choice points and actions that align more with your higher consciousness experience of beyond lower 4D control and into more trust and love.

Take care of YOU during these catalytic times and specifically with these Gaia fluctuations. These are new frequencies to ground into that are increasingly reflecting your soul bigness BACK to you with deeper opportunities for embodiment of your higher self aspects!

love,
Jelelle Awen
Catalytic and empowering 1:1 sessions available with me and Gabriel Solaisand Kalayna Solais. More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator of SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions and group sessions (virtual and in person), events, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Unplug From The 3D/4D Matrix Guided Meditation/Teachings (video)

By Jelelle Awen

In this live stream, SoulFullHeart Teacher/Facilitator, Jelelle Awen, talks about the 3D/lower 4D matrix unplugging process that is going on for individuals and on a collective level that she has experienced in her own process, within our community, and in session space.

She answers questions and responds to comments about this process from the perspective of the SoulFullHeart paradigm & healing process that she offers during the live stream on FB on April 10. You can see these comments here: https://www.facebook.com/jelelleawen

At 33 minutes in, she leads you into a meditative space to connect to your ‘matrix’ and a process of unplugging your 3D self with help from Mother Mary and Metatron and her Arcturian aspect Binkh, wherever you are in that unfolding.

The writing that Jelelle refers to in this video can be found here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2019/04…

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Loving UP And Integrating Your ‘3D Self’

By Kalayna Solais

It’s a very real process, integrating and loving UP the ‘3D Self’… even if you feel like don’t have one anymore, sometimes the triggers are still there, the anchors back into defensive, charged, or even diffusive 3D frequencies sometimes still become activated, and all that means is that there is understandably still something there, some part(s) of you inside of you that need the love you’ve been downloading to reach them and help them ascend WITH you.

It’s become ‘normal’ for me to feel waves of activations and higher timeline shifts bring up what still needs to be felt and integrated. Sometimes a deeper reaction from a part of me stays hidden for a while beneath the bliss, yet eventually these parts have to surface. I find sometimes that a part of me has buried itself out of shame for still feeling the way it does about certain things, wanting to transmute itself without asking for me directly or asking to land its uncertainties and lingering pain in my heart. Yet my parts can’t actually stay in this place for too long. They leak out or jump out sometimes and if I don’t catch what’s going on, usually someone else who is close to me will and the mirror that I need will be offered.

Specifically for me, I’m talking about my latest process with a part that I’m feeling is the embodiment of my 3D Self right now. She goes by the name I went by for the majority of my life. I realized that she still holds so much pain about my/our physical body, our image, wanting to look a certain way and never feeling happy about it and actually very often feeling disempowered. She has held this energy for so many years. There’s an acute self-consciousness in her that I have to deeply feel and hold right now, especially as I embrace being a leader and a vulnerable one at that, and move forward with serving love. She needs the love I want to serve to land in her. There’s a cost if it doesn’t… if I don’t embrace and feel her, I’m incomplete in a way, and serving from a place of vacant self love in at least the physical regard, though I also suspect she holds pain about spiritual access, whether or not we truly have the skills needed to serve, etc.

I can only keep holding and honouring her deeply as I’ve been practicing with all of my parts for many years now. There’s no room in me to vilify or shame her for still being ‘here’ and not having completely integrated yet, though I get that another part of me has done this in moments or at least tried to help her stay buried instead of healed.

It feels like it’s so often the 3D Self that gets neglected when anyone pursues being a leader of any kind… especially when we’re talking about leading the way through Ascension and deep healing. But nothing has ever deeply transmuted or healed without love. Neglect begets more trauma and often some form of sabotage of the higher timeline too.

I feel this part’s edges and curves… I feel her loves and her strong dislikes…. I feel her reactions and together we are realizing where they’re coming from. Now we get to find our way through the forest together and help her move into something brand new that she has never deeply believed was possible.

The pathway to true Ascension is through the heart. The humility of the inner process that brings you home to yourself over and over again. This is what we’re here to remember and live into, honouring all that we are and have been as we live into who and what we are becoming every day. ❤️

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Transitioning To Your Higher Timeline

By Jelelle Awen

Your higher timeline is where your passions and desires can manifest. Your relationships are a reflection of your soul essence. You live from and with a sense of meaningful service of love with yourself and with others. What YOUR higher timeline looks and feels like is a discovery that is revealed by your soul and Higher Self as you align more and more to those energies coming INTO your body. As you let go of what doesn’t fit and reflect this higher timeline, so it can BEcome your life. As you feel and heal the traumas that anchor parts of you to the lower timeline realities (this can show up in looping memories from this life and bleed throughs from other lifetimes), so it can BEcome YOU.

I am often asked in sessions by facilitants about ‘getting’ to their higher timeline, which is experiencing a higher consciousness life in ALL areas of your life. Protective parts of you may hold a black and white picture about ‘how to do this’ as a means to keep you from risking too much around it or parts of you getting hurt. It is often about supporting you to feel where the possibilities lie in the more gray areas.

Yet, it isn’t so much about ‘getting’ to this higher timeline as it is about BECOMING it. Your 3D Self (and all the parts associated with it, such as Inner Child, Inner Teenager, Inner Mother/Father, Inner Punisher) can connect in dreams to your higher timeline version and it feels often ‘beyond’ them or not possible. Your 4D/awakening self is the transitional self that can start to actually FEEL what it would be like. They begin to receive visions, dreams, support from others to start to believe it is possible. They go through the death and rebirth phases of discovery around what IS it and what ISN’T.

Your 5D Self (as some have called your future self) is ALREADY living out this higher timeline reality. This is interesting to feel it like this. There isn’t an impossibility in it happening then….as it already IS happening. The process is about becoming your 5D self more and more….bringing their reality into your consciousness as your veil lifts, your traumatized parts/aspects heal, and more and more self love worth fills your BEing.

The recent energies of 2019 are supporting the transition of the collective consciousness and each of our individual consciousnesses into our higher timelines. The 1/11 gateway, the recent super blood moon lunar eclipse, the new moon and Chinese New Year….these are beginning/renewal energies even as they are completion energies.

The biggest aspect of transition for you may continue to be letting go of and completing what ISN’T your higher timeline life. The job/career you’ve had for years may suddenly let you go or you may decide to quit. The relationship you’ve been in for years may complete. You move from the geography you’ve lived in for a long time into a newer one. The friendships and birth family relationships that haven’t been resonant for awhile can no longer transaction.

The mourning of these completions is an important aspect of the transition as well. Digesting with 3D Self parts of you about these relationships and jobs and geographies allows for the NEW to come in as more space is made in your heart/soul for it. Holding space for mourning is directly connected to the birth of the New even as 3D culture doesn’t hold it as sacred or useful.

There is a necessary transition phase to BEcome your higher timeline. Transitions recognize that we need to get from one place to another. Transitions offer that it is a JOURNEY to go through, not just the destination, that matters. Experiencing the transition can be as meaningful and even more growthful than living out the higher timeline reality. The Divine supports ALL experiences as sacred…the before, the transition, AND the higher timeline life too.

Here is guided meditation from my Deepen series to bridge to your higher timeline: https://youtu.be/T0K7Ti68gNo

Here is a guided meditation from my Deepen series to meet your 3D/4D/5D selves: https://youtu.be/-C_RiD5k_xs

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