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12:12 Portal Offering Dynamic Access To Parts/Soul Aspects & Body Upgrades

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By Jelele Awen

It is SUCH a dynamic time in relationships with others and within as we enter the 12:12 portal energies of unification and healing separation! Lots of access to feel these separations, fear stuck places and karmic binds. I’m experiencing a vast range of places to go of discovery in the emotional body, soul field and physical body/light body upgrades.

I’ve been honored to hold space with women in a fuller way in sessions lately, and also to be in ongoing connection with Raphael to our Pairbond Source Field, collaboration on our (what is now feeling like) a three book series sharing our sacred union journey together (pic below is us in our daily conversation/check in together with our cats Ravyn and Leo), and we’ve been hosting/facilitating our daughter Raianna the last few days as well.

These are some themes/places/parts dynamics that have come up recently in sessions that I’d like to share here as it can helpful for resonance and inspiration:

– Focused bonding and ongoing connection/differentiation with parts of the self/soul aspects really offers such a powerful way to digest traumas/triggers/reactions and negotiate life choices, creating a centered Divine Self that can hold and respond to self and others. Relationships, esp those with heartbreak/betrayal/non-resonance tones and false twin flame, are providing a rich ground of exploration into these parts of self such as the Inner teenager, Inner protector/Punisher, Inner Mother or Fierce Feminine/Inner Kali, Inner son/daughter and the dynamics between them that are being mirrored there.

– The Gatekeeper, as the keeper of the veils/guardian of the all the soul’s timelines, is going through a time of increased sense of loneliness and isolation, tiredness of being alone in it all and wanting to experience being a bridge to the Divine again rather than lost in the False God frequencies. I’m seeing them coming forward to be felt and seen, wanting to upgrade out of the old programs of the karmic field and into the Metasoul Field (higher level unity consciousness.) and soul family.

– Shame pockets that are kept in place by ongoing Punisher/shame looping (often about the two most triggering areas of money and sexuality) are coming up to be felt, offered love, compassion and forgiveness. Feeling the part that is doing the punishing/judging and the part that is receiving the shame allows this to resolve and come out of hiding.

– Orion aspects are coming through right now, to heal the will-based/warrior energies that these Earth seeders have been trapped in with the Matrix hijack. These aspects feel very ancient, shamanic, and have deep, primordial wisdoms to share. I’ve been connecting to mine the last few weeks and in a session too.

– 3D body detoxes/purges/clearings are needed now as light body upgrades come in. Detox includes from toxic foods, C and the V shots, hormonal imbalances, somatic/body storing of trauma, and more. Fasting, urotherapy, juicing, super food plant supplements, yoga/body movement, grounding with Gaia, and sound healing help detox the 3D body and support the light body.

There’s much more I could elaborate on with all of these so let me know if you have questions about any of them and I can share additional resources from our SoulFullHeart library and other places as well. I am finding there is such a wide range of things coming up as this Ascension process goes on and awakening occurs on deepening levels for so many souls!

The overall coding is to BE a love presence, without judgement, as a bridge to any parts of you and soul aspects who are needing you….so many gifts open out from this connection!

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Inner Masculine & Inner Feminine Dynamics

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He can be critical….but really, he doesn’t mean to be. He can be frustrated…but that is from so long not being heard and recognized. He can feel like a ‘task master’, but he doesn’t want to punish, yet rather to keep life on track. He can feel overly protective and distrustful, but what he really wants is to ensure that the tender parts of you are not hurt and harmed again.

What he wants, this inner masculine within, is to be honored for ALL that he has done to block negative energies, to buffer the chaos of birth family/the Matrix/dark forces. He wants to be forgiven for the times that he could not protect you from hurts, from lessons, and from traumas that you were meant to experience on a soul level. He wants collaboration with your maturing feminine essence, to feel like her beloved partner and truest soul mate. To feel like you truly need him.

She can be critical too….but really, she doesn’t intend to be. She can be immature and reactive, but what she needs is to be felt in all that she has been through with an open and curious heart space. She can be lost in her dreams and in her romantic ideals and in her fantasies, but she REALLY wants is to be met and matched by him, their deepest ethereal love grounded in daily reality.

What she really wants, this inner feminine, is to respond to his masculine leadership with openness. She wants to feel desired, cherished, appreciated, seen, respected…for the FULL range of her expression from her truth telling passionate Queen, the death/rebirth alchemical capacities of her Creatrix, the tender compassionate nurturing of her Inner Mother, and the deep primordial wisdom of her Inner Crone.

As a Divinely loved space is held for both of them by your Divine Self, your inner masculine starts showing up in his most attractive and attentive form. And your inner feminine in her most responsive and collaborative. They can go from being in charged polarity to each other (often in completely different ‘compartmentalized realities’ within you) to being in flow, in collaboration, in connection, and in negotiation.

This inner masculine and inner feminine dynamic is the one that I have felt and seen so many times over the years in myself and in others in sessions too. As this dynamic becomes conscious and the inner feminine and inner masculine are connected to and felt by you and in sessions, the sense of inner peace, inner goodness, resolution of suffering loops, healing of trauma/karmic cycles, draw to more nourishing relationships, etc. truly is profound.

The Divine holds the space for this exploration of sacred union within, which allows an overflow of a transactable and nourishing sacred union in a relationship with your counterpart mate too. So much of this inner dynamic plays out in relationships as well, and remaining unresolved, leads to codependence, suffering, emotional/physical abuse, blocked intimacy, and more.

I experience now with Raphael, my beloved mate of many years, that he is ‘my masculine’ and I am ‘his feminine’ after many years of working with these energies and parts within us. This allows for a healthy and deep transaction together that also opens up much compassion and harmony between us. It allows for a true reunion of masculine and feminine after what had been split apart at the higher levels.

Your inner masculine holds the ‘codes’ for the experience of sacred union with a mate as does your inner feminine. Now is the time to activate those codes, water those codes, and love those codes from within you to experience in a deepening way yourself as Infinite Love in a human body.

You are invited to join Kasha and I for a women’s group call tomorrow, Sunday, November 19th at 5:00pm WET/12pm EDT exploring inner sacred union through teachings, a guided meditation, and sharings. During the meditation, we will bridge to your inner feminine and inner masculine dynamic as it is in this Now…and to the ‘ideal’ higher timeline connection so you can feel that too.

There is more info to join us by donation at soulfullheart.org/events and https://www.facebook.com/events/1546682826077335

More info about 1:1 sessions with me (Raphael or Kasha) and couples sessions with Raphael and I at soulfullheart.org/sessions

Love,

Jelelle Awen

This is one of my favorite pics of Raphael and I, taken spontaneously during a glorious portal sunset by a professional photographer on the beach in Puerto Vallarta, Mexico. I also ‘see’ this image representing the union of my inner feminine and masculine as well.

“Does working with parts of the self and soul aspects cause even more fragmentation?”

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A common question that comes up in intros with me for those interested in 1:1 sessions is, “Does working with parts of the self and soul aspects cause even more fragmentation?”

It’s a reasonable question that I find is usually coming from the Inner Protector part, who can be resistant to opening up access to the parts and eventually the soul field. The resistance comes from them usually feeling overwhelmed from the reality of fragmentation ALREADY within us. They are often tired from the vigilance of protecting from perceived and ongoing threats, from trying to prevent any more harms and hurts to the younger parts of you, and also from feeling like there may not be enough YOU there (as a Divine Self) to hold what would come up and out of these parts and soul aspects if allowed space to express.

We are already living in a fragmented reality, first out of the Divine and then out of our soul family monads and eventually fragmenting out of our own individuated soul source (which we call the Metasoul) into so many different soul aspects/timelines/lifetimes. And in 3D, we are born into a fragmented reality, and the fragmentation in parts of our self and personality is a result and reflection of this.

We don’t create the fragmentation in our SoulFullHeart work, we acknowledge it and relate with it. We name it, get to know it and work it in. We cry together, we laugh together, we are challenged together and we heal together.

Eventually, through the process of engaging in group calls and sessions, the fragmented reality of the 3D self comes into more integration and wholeness as each part just naturally moves into more of their leading edge expression and out of wounding, hurt, lower dense frequencies of trauma anchoring (usually kept there by the Inner Protector’s overprotection and projection of wounding/immaturity onto them!)

As the 3D self truly unanchors from this traumatized reality then the Gatekeeper (the soul’s protector) can open up access to the lower 4D karmic field (where the traumatized soul patterns live out over and over) and eventually your consciousness becomes anchored into the 5D Metasoul field, where these patterns are resolved and healed.

All of this leads to more and more feelings of WHOLENESS, even as you are being with these parts of yours and soul aspects in dialogue, in heart space holding, in shared tears together. I have experienced this myself so many times over the years…that truly being with and feeling a part of myself or soul aspect allows for more return to my centered self.

In SoulFullHeart sessions, we create a safe, compassionate and curious space to allow the reality, feelings, truth, and voice of these parts to come out….and we start FIRST with the Inner Protector who gets to share about what their resistance to accessing the parts/soul aspects, although also they are VERY ready to rest as well. I as the facilitator asks them questions and draw their energies out from you….and you feel your Divine Self able to respond to them and other parts of you too, for perhaps the first time being separate from them. Your Divine Self becomes much more clear and present to you as well in your energy, as the bridge to them eventually becomes the essence that you embody.

There are def. some people who are not stable enough inside to go on this deeper dive into the parts/soul aspect reality so, for them, the process could be destabilizing. They usually aren’t guided to reach out to us in that case, finding other ways and means of healing. And this is also why we check in with the Inner Protector to make sure that there is a readiness of stability within for this.

Yet, if you are drawn to what I am describing here, then you have probably created enough base of center, enough Divine Self essence access, that your Inner Protector/Gatekeeper feel you ARE ready for this next step and upgrade for yourself and soul.

As I am doing more intros and sessions with souls new to the process lately, this is really reawakened my heart to the goodness of this SoulFullHeart way of being with the self and soul. It is MY way too of responding and living and being in relationship with Raphael all these years too. I am happy to share this with my soul family who are drawn as well.

I am seeing that some souls who have been long awakening this life (and have often done so much work, wow!) are really ready for a tipping over into deeper expression of their soul purpose expression, soul family/mate reunion experiences, moving beyond scarcity/stuckness/lack/body pains…and into goodness, abundance of love, nourishing relationships and more.

It is really is time to move out of trauma being the growth ground and goodness being the way of experiencing life (while still growing in response to it!)

It is my honor to support this process within you and grow/learn from it myself every time as well.

Info about free intros and 1:1 sessions (which are 55 euros for 90 minutes) over zoom with me, Raphael or Kasha at soulfullheart.org/sessions. Send me a PM, email soulfullhearts@gmail.com or via our contact form on the website. I have openings next week.

Many guided meditation videos in this Deepen 2022 series if you want to start the journey of discovery within: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FZWeBviA18Y…

There is much more about this in my book Free To Be 5D in print/ebook/audio/PDF versions with links at soulfullheart.org/books

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Pic is from a recent group process together, digesting some completions and offering comfort and love to parts of us as soul family.

Soul Turn Trajectories and Shifts Going On

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So many of us are going through very important β€˜soul turns’ right now, as I have come to call them. A soul turn is a significant shifting in one lifetime of your soul’s patterned learning trajectory that has been in place for many, many lifetimes. This lifetime is one for which so many have chosen to be here on the Earth Plane during this time of Ascension for the opportunity to experience soul turn shifts for ourselves and complete cycles of incarnational suffering.

A soul turn is moving beyond previously unconscious karmic binds, ties, and contracts. It is letting in resonant love as the main form of growth rather than from experiencing traumas in order to grow. It is shifting from going through suffering in order to wake up… to feeling and healing all the cycles of shame/punishment/judgement suffering cycles within you and in your soul that then leads to awakening.

It is shifting from drawing repeated traumas in order to see/feel them to TRULY transmuting these traumas into love again so you no longer need them. It is experiencing bonds with others that are based in love and not shared trauma.

Lifetime after lifetime, our soul chooses the situations, set ups, narratives, and companion souls to play the β€˜roles’ of both support and shadow that will offer the most growth and learning for us. We take this on for the Divine, for our soul families, for Unity Consciousness, and for the ALL. We represent both the experience of and recovery from sacred wounds such as those held in the collective…the Fall of Lemuria, Atlantis, Avalon…the Matrix imprisonment experiment, the hijacking of our sacred feminine expressions and the Divine Mother experience, the distortion of the sacred masculine into patriarchy and more.

As we become conscious of the trauma patterns from this life and feel the parts of us that hold them, we are able to truly become free beyond them. The traumas no longer act as magnets in our emotional bodies and soul fields drawing MORE traumas to us for us to see and feel. Trauma, suffering, and pain is always a portal to self discovery and remembering…until we no longer need it to be.

It is now possible to become fully conscious of our soul’s experience and lift the veils that have previously been in place around this. We can now turn our soul away from suffering and toward love. Our Divine Self is able to defuse from the punishing/protective/wounded/defended parts of us and say β€˜no’ to any situation, circumstances, and pattern that repeats our suffering. Sometimes we are still veiled to a situation and need the learning experience, yet the reason for drawing it becomes conscious much more quickly and then completed.

It is time to let go of suffering patterns and move into the experience of LOVE holding your life in ALL areas of your life. You are ready now to move beyond the previous veiled limitations. You no longer need to replay traumas & draw new ones….you are ready now to transmute them all back into love & experience goodness!!

Join Raphael and I in ONE week for a two hour group meditation call over zoom on Sunday, November 5th at 5:00pm WET/12:00pm EDT to explore navigating life change transitions and soul turns. More info to join us and receive the recording by offering a donation of ANY amount at https://www.facebook.com/events/332235472749592 or soulfullheart.org/events

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Pics are from our two day monthly group on Friday and Saturday, where soul turns are happening individually (I’ll share more soon) and as a community. We supported each other on emotional levels and energy clearing levels too. Blessed to have this outer support and love!

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Tipping & Turning Point In Awakening

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This is a tipping and turning point for so many awakening souls it seems, especially as we emerge out of the 10:10 portal (β€œ1” of new beginnings and the β€˜O’ of the void space) and into the eclipse passage and then through 11:11. This is a potent time of year for death and rebirth and for tensions held at the cellular level to be revealed and resolved.

This year feels even more heightened with peaking Matrix/war/Great Reset agendas, personal sufferings/traumas, housing/survival based struggles, money tightness and scarcity, relationship issues/completions/break ups, false light/teacher community abuses and collapses, body illness/symptoms….ALL of it coming up against a place of intolerance to fear and our Divine self/sacred humanity embodiment. Anything fear based and in shadow is wanting to be transmuted by and with love.

I’ve felt an upgrading process going on for myself recently too, illuminated by a visceral and cellular trauma clearing at the physical and emotional levels triggered by a real life situation here. I really had to BE with these energies and emotions, allowing them and feeling directly the part of me who was experiencing them, using them as a portal, and offer a loving and compassionate heart space for this part to sink into.

After some necessary guttural tears (those that come from deep in the gut, deep from the womb), digestion with Raphael, and an ambassadorship to the source of the pain (in β€˜other’ form yet still just a reflection of me), I feel another degree in my seat of centered self, in goodness in my life and in a current flow of increased service. A fear knot that was drawn this life yet comes from a soul source (as always) is dissolving as I respond to the tension that needs my attention.

I wanted to share some wisdoms/soul guidances that came through me and in collaboration with other bright souls in intros, sessions with me and during our community gathering in the last couple weeks…you can feel what resonates for you too:

– Sometimes you need an β€˜outer home’ that represents heaven, beauty, and is a truly safe sanctuary for you. You need this for a phase of time to remind you of what is possible. And, then, sometimes this home is β€˜taken away’ from you, sometimes suddenly and in a way that can leave some trauma (in this case it was during a sudden flood). This is actually a reminder and a recoding that β€˜sanctuary is within you’, β€˜safety is within you’, β€˜beauty is within you’. Feeling the parts of you who have focused outward and feel trauma when this β€˜home’ is taken away, you can invite them into the sanctuary of your heart.

– Inner masculine and Inner feminine dynamics are being illuminated in relationships that have been limiting in some way. Not necessarily abusive or outright toxic, yet rather the more subtle kinds of misalignments, outgrowing previous soul contracts, and lack of resonance in awakening that can take years to fully be β€˜done’ with. The masculine feels so much pressure, tension, control, inadequacy, and protection over the growing sense of dissatisfaction, unhappiness, and hurt in the inner feminine who just wants MORE and isn’t able to get it in the bond esp as he retracts away.

His need to be needed hits her want to be wanted and a polarization occurs, collapse of vulnerability and intimacy. Inside and outside, this is a tense place to live long term and eventually it runs out of ground as mercy and compassion leads to completion on the outside and resolution on the inside.

– The cycle of suffering itself becomes the addiction, not the outward behavior of abusing food, alcohol, work or in relationships. The loop of the inner punisher (working out of a hijacked need of self protection) judging and controlling the inner child, which crushes them into a shame place, an unworthiness place, and a hurt place. Which just leads the Punisher to up the ante on the suffering loop, drawing life circumstances and relationships that amplify and reflect this. Feeling and connecting with both parts of the looping, coming in between them with compassionate self love, allows this cycle to complete on the inside and outside.

– There is increased desire coming up to offer service to others and follow soul purpose. This is meant to activate in an overflow of love as you awaken or parts of you can become too isolated, too self absorbed, too oriented to β€˜self’. Service to others in a clean way (not false light/ego gratification or for money-motivation or to control/have power over others) can only arise as the inner and outer personal relationships are healing from traumas, protections, and projections. Moving from trauma bonds to resonant bonds.

True service is a reflection of the depth of intimacies in your life, not a compartment for which you β€˜show up as a professional’. In the overflow of nourishing relationships (inside and out), you are able to then overflow that love to others in service WITH them as a mirror of the goodness possibilities.-

– At some point, the ‘parts work process’ has to drop away so that the Divine Self embodiment can occur and deepen. It is a temporary bridge, very helpful for a time, yet can be crutch to the degree there isn’t deeper Divine surrender and leaning in. Even beloved mentors and teachers (including me of course) can only hold a mirror, not be substitutes for deeper going into your own embodiment initiations in which your soul ‘takes over’ from there.

And I received this wonderful testimonial this week too,

“Thank you for everything Jelelle! I am feeling MUCH better and can eat again and have already put 4 pounds back on and not feeling nausea. I am so thankful for you!!! You helped me a lot and I hope my testimony will encourage others to go to you for help. – Beth

If you are drawn to a free intro call over zoom, 1:1 session over zoom or here in Portugal and ongoing mentoring support, with me, Raphael (for men), or Kasha (for women) PM me/us and there is more info at soulfullheart.org/sessions

You are also invited to join us for a healing cycles of suffering group call on Sunday, October 15th in which we will dive into some of these areas, plus offer a meditation/sound transmission journey. Info about offering a donation to attend/get the recording at soulfullheart.org/events.

Pic of me was taken on the lovely cliffs at Nazare, at the central Portugal coast, a place of beloved soul activations and remembrances for me

Darkest Before The Dawn Collectively and Individually

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We are moving through the darkest before the dawn phase, peak fear and peak sense of separation before love can finally be let IN by more souls. As the Matrix agenda/programs of control and restriction start up again in more obvious ways, the chaos of the great bifurcation of choosing love or fear for humanity continues.

Soul choices also continue to peak now and over the last three years…choosing to awaken and ascend into the unknown of a liberated and love-based future on Gaia…….or to leave the body/Earth Plane now……..or to consciously conform to the Great Reset agenda (esp as it becomes more and more obvious).

Those anchored to the 3D consciousness Matrix can still be motivated by fear, to make choices that at their core are about a abandonment of self wisdom and Divine guidance…..connected to a deep fear of physical body death or of being rejected by others or of ‘getting in trouble.’ Fear is ultimately an unstable energy to serve as ongoing motivation and has to be constantly energized in a punitive way. And the cost is stress, ongoing anxiety, distrust, depression, body illness/injury, relationship issues/abuse, scarcity/lack, etc. that doesn’t get resolved or answered by conforming to the fear.

The parts of the 3D self that are still hookable to this peak fear/separation programming on the outside have also internalized these energies. The Inner Punisher voice and energy is represented by the outer authority’s overreach and control. The younger aspects are caught in a shame reaction that separates them from their innate innocence and goodness.

You may feel this dynamic as an awakening soul in a much deeper and more subtle way. It is such a celebration truly if you are no longer swayed by the outer authorities and their control/fear manipulation agendas. Yet, even if you say ‘no’ to this 3D fear motivation, parts of you may still be energizing these inner judgement/shame loops of ongoing suffering.

The karmic knots and Matrix plugs/binds from many lifetimes vibrate, wanting to be loved and to be resolved. The soul aspects bleed through with their persecution wounds, their unresolved guilt, their survival modes & fight or flight realities. Roles as both persecutor and victim come up to be completed.

All this bleeding through of the soul may drop you into what feels like quite a dark night or ‘rock bottom.’ Suicidal feelings come up as there is no more 3D to ‘go back to’ or egoic things to construct and the new hasn’t quite taken deeper root within you yet to be drawn. Despair is a heavy and constant companion, even when the light of goodness comes in.

For you, then, there is nowhere to go BUT UP.

You are starting to feel that it is time to let your soul take over with its momentum to feel and heal. To connect consciously to higher dimensional soul aspects and guides who can provide support. To seek mentoring/guidance from those unplugged from the false light teachers/way showers who have walked through this shadow of the valley of death and emerged out into the light of a new day within themselves. To be with soul family who can reflect the resonant values that your soul is reminding you that can form into the deepest of intimacies and bonds.

Love becomes your primary motivation as you unhook, dissolve, and unplug from these fear agendas on the outside and the inside.

Love motivates you to respond to all parts of you and soul aspects (even those anchored to 3D consciousness still) who need to feel hope, trust, and bridging to new realities beyond fear.

Love motivates you to serve, to be a beacon of light/hope/love for others who are in their dark nights and shadow valleys.

Love motivates you to be in union with the Divine, with yourself AND with others….leading the way to a new dawn within yourself and for others too.

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Free Intros and negotiable rates for 1:1 quantum soul/heart healing transmission/sessions with me, Kasha or Raphael and ongoing mentoring and soul family reunion are available with more info at soulfullheart.org/sessions

I share much more about ascension, matrix, the 3D/4D/5D self in my book Free To Be 5D available as PDF, print, ebook and audio with links at soulfullheart.org/books.

Renewed Push of C and V Matrix Narratives W/Need for Soul Guidance & Social Resonance

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Matrix intensities are increasing, along with a heightened pressure again of the more outward implementations of the Great Reset agendas. There is a renewed push through the mainstream media of the C and V narratives with potential lockdowns, travel restrictions, mask wearing coming…and V campaigns promising to address the ‘new and latest’ deadly variants, etc.

So much ongoing personal discernment and intuition is needed during this phase of our Ascension. Every choice point needing to be grounded in your soul’s higher guidance and trying not to succumb and comply with 3D social pressures and fear programs/conditionings, especially as it relates to anything being recommended by 3D authorities.

The latest round of ‘wildfires’ is also a more blatant and tragic pushing forward of the agenda. These fires, esp in Maui, really seem to be anything but natural yet rather very calculated energy weapons being used on specific desirable geographic locations (that often have energy roots/grids to Lemuria) that are planned to eventually become 15 minute smart cities. Eventual restrictions on what we eat, how we live, how we travel, what we wear, where we go, how we ‘act’ on social media, what we share, even our private thoughts….all of this is part of the bigger agenda. This is not hidden or any kind of theory, yet rather shared at every one of their meetings, in various books they have written, and on official websites as well. I can share resources with you too if you PM me.

All of it is presented as for the good of humanity and the planet. On one level of presentation, it can seem even acceptable or rational in a strange way. Yet, seen and felt from a higher perspective and from the discernment of the higher heart….. the control, tyranny, and depopulation elements become clearer.

I have been guided that ultimately ALL of it is part of a sacred phase for us, even this current and ongoing darkness, however it manifests. There are many soul lessons being learned through these crucibles and many souls are waking up that haven’t in many lifetimes of being in the Matrix reality since the fall of Atlantis/Lemuria. The bifurcation that is occurring inside of the soul and in social relationships is a necessary one to ultimately move into a higher timeline.

I continue to feel that THIS is the lifetime ultimately in which this Matrix and hijacked reality will collapse and that is why so many of us as way showers/star seeds/Magdalenes are here now. Yet, also, that that collapse will have a messy phase for all of us, including potentially much loss of human life. There can only be a rebirth if there has been a death and loss, it is the natural cycle of life that we can surrender into.

On a soul level, each soul chooses their ways and means to experience being in the body here and this phase of Ascension. Each soul plays their part and role, even what we could see as a dark role. Even choosing to comply or follow the narratives is a sacred choice for that soul. Trying to save or rescue anyone, convince anyone of the darker agenda, argue and defend against it…. doesn’t offer a means of true love exchange, surrendered centeredness within, and is usually futile anyway. You can become a beacon instead to those who are ready themselves to move through this.

I hold a love ambassador’s perspective and in my daily life continue to make self loving choices related to my social, physical, emotional, and spiritual well being. I respond to those who ask me specific questions, are curious to learn more about these matrix agendas, and also want to unplug from them within their own soul field.

My ways of navigating this phase are about remaining very connected to Divine/higher D soul aspect guidance; continuing to connect to soul aspects/parts in my emotional body/soul field in a conscious way; being social only in VERY resonant soul family bonds (including in my sacred union with Raphael); living in a place that offers an abundance of natural resources including clean spring water; staying outside of the 3D control grids as much as possible; saying ‘no’ to the V and continually detoxing my physical vessel through fasting/urotherapy, etc.

This is such a delicate and tender phase to be navigating together. The Divine’s heart of compassion for us is so strong and present.

There is light even in the darkness.

There is love that is stronger than the fear.

There are souls who are resonant with your choices and you will find each other.

Each of us can arise like a phoenix from the ashes.

Accessing the Divine spark within you allows for the ongoing navigation of this challenging time.

Much, much love to you….

Jelelle Awen

If you’d like mentoring/guidance/space holding to navigate this phase, I and my beloveds are available for 1:1 sessions on zoom and here in Portugal with more info at soulfullheart.org/sessions.

We also have a five day soul family immersion gathering coming up with us here in Portugal during the Autumn Equinox offering emotional/social/physical/energy deep healing through personal processing, group meditation/journeys/ceremony, sound bowls and toning/channeling, group outings to sacred places here. It is from September 21-25th. There is more info at soulfullheart.org/gatherings

Lion’s Gate & Supermoon Portal Energies: Dissolving of 3D/4D Matrix Codes

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It feels like there is a BIG dissolving of 3D/4D matrix codes/karmic binds from within going on during this Supermoon and Lion’s Gate portal! Supermoons always illuminate and amplify the matrix frequencies, even as we can also connect to the authentic lunar energies too. You may be feeling a more acute need for rest & self care as alignment with Gaia, the Sun, and Sirius brings in next level 5D codes & supports us to illuminate and clear at deeper levels the 4D matrix, esp from within.

Last night, I felt as if I got ‘dropped’ into the lower 4D grid, a place of quite heaviness, tension, bleakness, despair which I am getting more access to as I go into a few days now of fruit/smoothie fast and toxicities purge out of my body. Not a pleasant place to be, and yet very necessary to journey to for the soul aspects who need the bridging and feeling there….for humanity sometimes as well as a love ambassador.

I had been feeling and holding space for a grief process too brought up by more clarity for myself and us as community around what we are offering with SoulFullHeart, leading to necessary completions and ‘clearing the room’ in some ways. You may be feeling a process of thinking about/feeling others that you’ve had deep relationships with, esp counterparts, coming into your field again. Holding space for any remaining fear, bitterness, charge, attachment…with the parts who may need that bridging to move into deeper stages of letting go.

As I was up with buzzing head (like a sugar/caffeine high) last night, I could feel the density of the collective being pushed up, illuminated, seen, and exposed. This exposure process has been going on for the last 3.5 years and the V narrative seems to be building up as well with more V injuries/deaths happening, bringing more awareness to the darkness humanity is living in. There is also ongoing exposure of the false light in spirituality and how that shows up/is revealed in scandals, abuse revelations, dissolutions, and more.

I was able to digest this lower 4D drop in experience more in my daily bath (with urotherapy) and I could feel my Inner Earth Lemurian Ruma there with me and my Sirian aspect Sela as well.

We were in an ‘in between’ place/dimension where I could be with their higher frequency energies in an easier way for my body and heart.

I felt them offering love, support, hope, and goodness for me and for humanity as well. All my chakras opened UP in response to their energies and I felt my soul consciousness expand again. I felt their reminder that there is ALWAYS light and love there, even in the darkest feeling states. Having both journeyed through collapses of their worlds and resurrections/ascensions of them into higher consciousness states, Inner Earth Lemurians and Sirians are able to transmit the possibility codes of how to navigate through the darkness to emerge into the light of humanity’s ascension.

It’s a powerful time to go inward, to rest, to fast, to ground, to connect to these soul aspects…to upgrade your body vessel so that it can hold and respond to the codes that want to come through. The veils are thin, the access is fluid, and Divine support is there too from these higher dimensional soul aspects too!

Love,

Jelelle Awen

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Lions gate soul portrait is by Kasha, email her at soulfullhearts@gmail.com if you’d for her to create you one!

Energy Update: Completing Karmic Binds/Codependency In Relationships

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In pre-8/8 Lion’s Gateway window, supportive energies are coming in to illuminate dynamics within and with others that may be sticky, suffering, karmic, dark and off the radar in some ways. Your sense of being ‘done’ with certain energies and patterns in your relationships may be peaking and coming in with clarity for you now.

Karmic binds are particularly being highlighted and strained right now….what no longer serves your awakening soul is just not having an appeal anymore. What has been looping for many lifetimes is running out of ‘gas’. Parts of you may still be tied in through habit, routine, money/financial binds, codependence, vows (from other lifetimes) etc. That is where connecting with the part of you directly that is tied in and WHY they are can be a deep negotiation ground allowing for setting boundaries and/or taking space/completion that serves BOTH of you.

An interesting piece seems to be a misplaced loyalty to some of these 3D anchored souls that were ‘there for you’ when the dark nights came in, when the soul aspects/timelines were bleeding through, and they ‘helped’ in their own way. Often this help comes in the from of judging you, being ‘worried about you, wanting you to go get help that doesn’t align with your soul, etc.

There can be gratitude for what they provided that was probably a soul agreement anyway between you. Yet, to stay in relationship now and ongoingly, CAN be a shrink for you if you are needed to hide yourself, your spirituality, your light, your truth, your bigness….ANY aspects of yourself in order to keep them feeling comfortable with you.

Feeling gratitude and yet not being bound by the past fragilities and arising now into your strength, your truth, AND your side of the agreement to actually let them go. This is an interesting piece of it too….3D anchored souls NEED to choose on their own soul awakening during this bifurcation and Ascension process. Not under your influence, yet only by your inspired leadership that also can let them go and unattach so they can make their own choices now….as you make yours. This is actually a mercy to them as it is to you.

The emotional maturity it takes to navigate this way comes from feeling parts of you like your Inner Teenager who can grab and cling; or push away/ghost; be passive aggressive and withhold from the person your truth. Withholding ALWAYS leads to more hurt feelings, rather than sparing anyone anything…it is a backed up energy that just gets more charged within and over time.

The soul maturity it takes to navigate in this conscious way in relationship comes from the ongoing unplugging from the control Matrix/reincarnation grids and veils of amnesia that have kept us in these cycles with soul family members for so many lifetimes. Ancestral line healing, connecting with soul aspects directly, and working with your Gatekeeper allows for the soul field to open up and clear/dissolve/process these binds and unhook from them.

So much energy can be freed up from no longer going into this hiding with yourself and others…it takes a lot more energy to hide and withhold as you are ‘going against’ the current of Ascension that wants to bring humanity into pure and true transparency in ALL areas.

Now is a time to complete cycles that no longer serve your arising bigness. Now is a time to be honest, transparent, open and current inside yourself and with others. Now is a time to risk being judged and rejected by others in order to experience a deeper resonance and connection with soul family, soul mates and with the Divine.

ALL the courage you need to navigate this way is within your soul field, within even these parts of you that have been stuck in immaturity out of undigested wounding. You become it as you transact within you and with others.

Love to you as we ride this relational upgrades together,

Jelelle

If you’d like support for navigating your relationships within yourself and with others in a conscious way, more info about 1:1 sessions with me and Kasha with women and for men with Raphael at soulfullheart.org/sessions

Also, we have two group calls coming up this weekend, an inner teenager/boy group call for men on Saturday and an inner teenager/girl group for women that you can join by donation with more info at soulfullheart.org/events

Pics are of unique rainbow auroras in Finland….AS unique as you are in all your Divine Self arising….

Celebrating Two Years In Portugal W/Golden Light Codes & Crystal Clear Waters | Checking in With Jelelle Awen Video Series

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In this Checking in with Jelelle Awen video, I share about celebrating and honoring our two years here in Portugal and what it has meant for me and us as a community to be here with the supportive golden light codes and crystal clear waters. I immediately felt welcomed here to port-of-grail in body, heart and soul and the strong Marian/Divine Feminine energies, which continues to deepen to this day, esp now that we are gardening here and connecting to the fertile soil. I feel how our NuMu community vision can happen here in these grids that are already being energized by awakening ‘eco-immigrants’ from all over the world drawn to this region.

I also share about a soul aspect connection that has started opening out connected to a Lusitania timeline, which was the ancient Celtic tribal communities that made their home here in Central Portugal and other regions that we have been drawn to. My gatekeeper has been calling herself Lucia for the last year so a bridge was already being formed to this soul aspect which I am now getting more clarity about. Excited and curious to see where this connection with her takes me!

More information about our Divine Self Embodiment group call series that runs from July 9th through December 17th with six monthly calls for men/women, six monthly calls for women and six monthly calls for men at https://www.soulfullheart.org/divineselfseries

Information about free intros and 1:1 sessions over zoom or here in central, Portugal with me for women or with Kasha and for men with Raphael at http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

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Thank you for taking this sharing into your heart,
love, Jelelle