It’s Ok Not To Be OK: Feelings As A Portal To Your Multidimensional Self

By Jelelle Awen

It’s OK not to be OK….putting down the masks of OKness or being positive all the time. Being vulnerable to show what is really going in your heart. Sharing your tears, your fears, your concerns, your pain with those who can feel you. Being real with what parts of you are feeling and reacting to in every moment. This self permission space allows the feelings to BE, to be felt, and eventually to heal.

Why do we need to receive this self permission to feel? The 3D world operates on the suppression of vulnerable feeling. Analyzing feelings rather than actually dropping into the emotive ground of them. Numbing and drugging our feelings with ‘anti-feeling’ drugs such as anti-depressants, anti-anxiety, etc….relating to our emotions as if we need to go into battle with them. As if they are diseases and illnesses that need a cure. As if they are evidence of our brokenness.

Your feelings offer a story, an important telling of what parts of you have experienced in 3D reality and what may remain emotionally undigested. They tell a soul story too…often from other lifetimes even, BIG emotional charge there sometimes, that is waiting for bridging and to be felt and held and responded to.

Your feelings provide a portal to deeper understanding of yourself in this life..and in other lifetimes too. They are a portal to your multidimensional experience of reality in so many timelines going on all at ONCE.

There is so much social lack of acceptance around feeling ourselves and being REAL about what our feelings are. Even in spirituality, there can be so much focus on the light and the positive that transparency and integrity (that come from being REAL about what you are feeling) get lost and covered over. Abuses of self and others occur then in ‘spiritual circles’ with emotionally immature teachers perpetuating toxic cycles from using spiritual frequencies to cover over their own woundings.

It’s OK not to be OK…..if you had been told this, offered this in childhood rather than the 3D message of “Get over it. Don’t be so sensitive. Stop crying”…you could have naturally learned how to hold space for your feelings and the parts of you that feel them. Instead, parts of you learn to protect and defend your feelings. To turn the judgement of your feelings inward and develop a punishing energy (an Inner Punisher) that carries the message inside of your unworthiness.

Then, you are called eventually to become the loving and accepting parental energy (fuelled by the Divine) that you probably did not have. Your pain calls you to this. Your pain offers where there still remain places inside that need your love.

The most amazing high frequencies of bliss and joy find MORE room is made for their arising when the deeper pains are being felt. When no feelings are being denied, there is no energy going toward suppression, no energy toward transcendence of feelings. Then, this energy is freed up and your heart space opens for yourself, for these parts of you that need you, and bliss can flood in again eventually finding rich, grounded soil in your open heart.

Trusting the flows AND the ebbs, the natural cycles of closings and openings. Trusting and being curious about the reasons that your tears exist, the reasons that your pains exist, and the mirror they are offering you OF you. The Divine, especially Divine feminine frequencies, WANTS you to feel yourself and all that calls your heart to respond to it. Divine love supports this process of not being OK, being real about it, and the dive in exploration of it too.

The Divine wants the pains of the 3D experiment to be felt and moved as more of Its essence can be let in…..which is actually YOUR essence as Infinite Love returning to you as a felt reality the more and more you are willing to feel what is real.

Here is a guided meditation to transmute traumas by feeling them with love: https://youtu.be/H20_fT-tKYg

Love,
Jelelle Awen
1:1 sessions available with SoulFullHeart Facilitators RaphaelGabriel and Kalayna : soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

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Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Discover Vlog: Integrating Awakenings

By Kalayna Solais

Awakening experiences can bring you to the highest highs and the lowest lows. They offer openings and expansion of your consciousness and awareness of the world and the multi-verse. Yet, even with these beautiful and fascinating experiences, your humanity and grounding in your life needs to catch up and somehow become integrated with what you’re downloading.

In this video with me, you are invited to feel into the ways in which you can integrate your awakening experiences with your life in order to actually bring in more awakenings and a new experience of what’s possible in your daily life on Gaia.

I also share about my personal process with growing, healing, and integrating through my awakening experiences from an early age and what life has taught me about moving through life with your awakening experiences in tow… not put away or compartmentalized.

Much love! ❤️

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Energy Update: 333 And Approaching Equinox Supermoon Offer Shadow Healing

By Jelelle Awen
Energy Update: It is another 333 energy day today (3/12/2019….3/1+2/2+0+1+9=1+2) with its offering of joy, creativity, alignment to soul purpose and leadership expression, and personal shiftings. Three energy feels fundamentally unstable, definitely transitionary….meant to push up what it does while it does.
 
I’ve been receiving repeating number sequences constantly in the last two days, including waking up at 2:22am this morning for awhile and glancing at the clock right at 3:33 and 4:44 yesterday. These sequences always feel like codes to me….that unlock when seen and received. A nod and wink from our Higher Self too that we are on the right track and going in the direction of our soul.
 
We are still in the middle of a trinity of Supermoons with the third and final one occurring on the Equinox as well next week. The Supermoons have been providing this intense, ongoing illumination of shadow….and so often what is in shadow is not evil or dark, yet rather just needs and requires compassion and forgiveness. What is deepest in shadow is what is often the most challenging to love….yet is in the most need of it with the rewards of integrating it quite profound.
 
Respond to compassion and forgiveness toward what emerges out of shadow in yourself, others, and the collective. The most intense and previously vilified actions and people in your life are the ones who need you most to bridge to them with ambassador of love frequencies (even if you continue to not be in relationship). Many passed loved ones have been coming through in sessions lately as the veils are so much thinner right now.
 
I have especially been channeling fathers who have perpetuated abusive cycles with their daughters, including early childhood sexual abuse. These fathers now in spirit form are timidly coming forward, asking for forgiveness from them, so that they can move on and ascend. This can be a very powerful way to work with shadow as what you are able to forgive in others ripples into your own soul too and other timelines for which Metasoul aspects of yours may have been abusive toward others (for which the abusive experience this life is offering a mirror.)
 
The healing possibilities with all this 3 and Supermoon (and recent SOULar winds too) energies are HUGE right now. Traumas are being revealed through unexplainable triggering and reactions. Timelines with karmic pain still lingering are bleeding through to overlap and vibrate under your current circumstances. Parts of you from this life and other lifetimes are coming into consciousness through situations, dreamscapes, meditations.
 
These are some catalytic energies coming together. These energies are the kinds that collapse timelines quickly and introduce the NEW ones at the same time. Navigating all this with love and grace is possible as you separate from the parts of you from this life and other timelines with much love then available to offer. This separation brings in more objectivity and compassion overflow too. It allows for more Divine support to fill your heart space and feel the bigger container of LOVE holding it all.
There are many videos in my recent Deepen 33 Day series that provide a bridge to the energies within and support for your growing, objective self: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvLiLpw1qSOmQE-tsqhGSAD3
Jelelle Awen
Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator of SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions and group sessions (virtual and in person), events, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.
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Knotted Cords Untying: Being An Ambassador Of Love Within

by Gabriel Heartman

All emotion is energy that seeks motion…movement. This movement is created with vulnerability. When an emotion is denied its need to move, it gets balled up and stored in the physical and subtle bodies. Each of these energy pools can become densified and attract themselves to others inside of us over time. This creates a network of dis-ease on several levels. 

Each of these nodes can be related to as a part of you. They have a name, a voice, feeling, and a consciousness. When related to as such, an unknotting of the energy is created by connecting and re-feeling that which caused the suppression. This allows a flood of stored energy to be integrated back into your whole and can affect the nodes that it was connected to, thus creating a new layer of healing. 

This is not an endless process but it is a dedicated one that requires your deepest desire to heal all the trauma and suppression that can lead you back to a more authentic and present You. One that can lead with the vulnerability needed to continue to move your highest vibration into the world. This energy is the overflow of Love that was created by your choice to heal from within. The knotted cords untying. 

On a multidimensional plane, these cords represent timelines both ancient and future, what we call the Metasoul. As we continue to move through Gaia’s ascension, these cords, or chords, are being plucked to key us into what needs re-tuning. This re-tuning is what many of you came here to do and align into your highest timeline and connection to soul and star families. 

The support is here. The love is here. The time is now. 

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Energy Update: Supermoon Energies Support Trauma Releasing

By Jelelle Awen

Energy Update: The power of this moon is visceral. Felt in the cells that align to everything lunar, going back to our tribal ‘roots’ and activating our Metasoul lines (like the Lemurian/Native American/First Nation ones) that hold these codes of complete calibration of daily life to the moon cycles. These soul aspects of yours fit their lives and their passages of life/death/rebirth to the brightness or dimness of Her forward face. They honor Her influential energies that tug and pull on Gaia and our inner tides too.

This is a Supermoon in the skies right now….the second in an offering of three in a row….a powerful triad of Divine Feminine energies to receive and let in. With this strong lunar energy passage, many souls are REALLY feeling now. Feeling the deeper, denser aspects of their emotional bodies and the parts that hold these frequencies. Some of this is expressing in the body vessel too, which just reflects the emotional and energetic states. Pain/discomfort/congestion/colds…..all of this is a reflection of something going on in the emotional body, the psyche, the soul.

From undigested traumas comes the indigestion off gassing experiences of anxiety, terror, depression, rage. These are not ‘bad’ or ‘negative’ feelings…not something that positive affirmations can answer…..yet rather very powerful portals to the underbelly of your experience of experience that need to be felt and looked at full on. They are glaring signposts and markers of what still needs your love.

This moon, She lights these markers up. She amplifies them. She makes them more obvious so that YOU are confronted with YOU. She then invites you to respond not with more fear yet, rather, with a bigger, richer, and deeper self love container that can hold ALL of it. You are invited to become a self love that is as BIG as the Supermoon and fills the skies of all parts of you with reassurance and companionship.

Yes, you are THAT big…it’s time to find and live that out.

Now is the time to become aware of these traumas that still linger….from this life and the other lifetimes/timelines that also are bleeding/leaking/even pouring through as catalyzed by this Supermoon triad passage. What your Metasoul (your individuated soul source/Higher Self source) is experiencing of karmic loops/patterns/cycles is waiting on the other side of the veil to be revealed, felt, and healed. To be changed, ultimately, with love, to a higher timeline outcome.

The inner journey is what means so much right now. The inner journey to connect with the Divine Mother energies that can midwife your birth into the New, can heal the traumas, can hold to arise out of the ashes of 3D and into your Next higher timeline.

The inner journey offers all the comfort, movement, and integration you and parts of you need and are aching for….in order to keep going, keep feeling, and to keep waking UP! ~

Raphael Awen and I will be tapping into and bringing down these Supermoon codes of support for the inner journey today in a livestream at 1:11pm PST through responding to your questions/comments. We will offer a guided meditation to connect to the Supermoon codes for you in a personal way to receive them. This can be an important bridge to feel during these celestial events. If you can’t make it live, you can take in the recording on my FB feed or our SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube Channel.

And, I highly recommend engaging in my free 33 Day Video Series called Deepen. I share much more about the Metasoul, parts process, Divine Mother AND 33 guided meditations to deepen your inner journey in significant ways. https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvLiLpw1qSOmQE-tsqhGSAD3

Jelelle Awen

1:1 healing/transformative sessions available with me and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators. More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

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Love Is The ONLY Energy That Transmutes Trauma

By Jelelle Awen

The trauma can seem bigger than you……esp. when you are shaking with it, quaking with it, and fused to it. The moments and memories of trauma acting like magnets to keep parts of you stuck in looping around the same suffering seconds over and over again even as your body ages and time ‘goes on’.

When it feels like the trauma is bigger than you, then the pain becomes more real than joy. When it feels like the trauma is unhealable, the fear claims more ‘real estate’ and space than love. When it feels like the trauma is unknowable, the confusion overcomes any clarity.

You may doubt your capacity to hold space for the feeling and processing of trauma as you haven’t been templated and shown and supported to do this. 3D consciousness offers the next drug, the next diversion, the next quick fix, the next substitution. These things then will somehow try to take the place of your SOUL big and HEART big presence that is MOST needed here. These things will try to provide a poor replacement for the richness of SELF love that is MOST required here.

During these moments that caused trauma (from this life and other lifetimes), the parts of you that experienced them felt like they were alone and they BECAME the traumatic experience with no way to digest it. As you become a loving, compassionate, non-judgemental presence that can BE with them during these traumatic moments, supported by Divine energies, these parts of you can digest the trauma and move into a new timeline beyond the experience of it.

The ONLY energy that offers true transmutation is love. Anything lesser or denser or coming from a fix it/judgemental place can’t offer the transmutation of trauma that love can. As you become this loving transmutational energy, so are all parts of you and their traumas able to become the LOVE again that they truly are in their essence.

The transmutation of the trauma you experienced from this life and other lifetimes is KEY to your ongoing Ascension and awakening process. As you transmute it into love again, so you are able to raise your vibrational frequency TO love.

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My video today, Day 30 of my series, offers more teaching about this and a guided meditation to bring a part of you experiencing trauma into a transmutational love experience with Mother Mary and Yeshua.

 

Jelelle Awen
1:1 healing sessions available to BEcome the love that is needed to transmute the traumas of self and soul. More information here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Energy Update: Anxiety, Depression, Trauma Transmutation Through Parts/Metasoul Connection

By Jelelle Awen

The current Ascension energies (or Divine Love energies!) are INtensely working on revealing undigested traumas that can anchor you to 3D consciousness. I’m hearing/seeing many souls who are feeling more acute anxiety, depression, heavy sadness/despair, and more in response to these energies. They are also ‘reliving’ memories of abuse from their childhoods in a visceral way.

Your emotional body is often the densest ‘body’ in terms of being anchored to 3D as so much has not been digested yet or paid attention to at the ACTUAL level of where the wounded originates…… yet rather numbed over, bypassed, analyzed, or perhaps just avoided. Your Metasoul (fractal expressions/other lifetime aspects) also has much emotional indigestion from many timelines of karma trauma playouts going on with the veil of amnesia making it very challenging to connect to and be consciously aware of this.

The transmutation of traumas from this life and from other lifetimes in the Metasoul is KEY to the ongoing Ascension process. This cannot be avoided or bypassed as your whole BEing on ALL levels (emotional, chakral, physical, mental) is being invited to ascend. That means ALL parts of you and all expressions of your soul receive and can respond to this invitation. No parts of you get left behind and the gifts of your traumas unwrapped get to ‘come along’ too.

Yet, how DO we transmute these traumas, especially when they can feel so intense and deeply ingrained? Connecting directly to the parts and Metasoul aspects that are experiencing the trauma (in the Now, there is no ‘past’ in the emotional body) is the response that we offer through our SoulFullHeart process, which I feel is one of the most direct, effective, self empowering (ultimately self led), and natural approaches to TRULY transmute traumas on a quantum level.

Trauma has its own specific vibration. It is more dissonant in tone. It is more ‘out of tune and tone’ from the harmonic ebb and flow of your 5D Self. When the trauma is deep enough, these tones form into a looping cycle of energy that we call a ‘part’. Parts have a fixated energy that is stuck in the scenes of when the traumas occurred. Even as your physical body matures and ages, these parts remain at the emotional age of these traumas. If you can feel and sense your essence like an energetic flow, then you can get how traumatizing situations would alter and disrupt that flow. The density of 3D living challenges the porous flow of emotions even more.

When traumas can be emotionally and energetically digested IN the moment that they happen, then they don’t get stuck and fixated. This digestion happens when an open-hearted person/caregiver/parent is able to feel you WHILE the trauma is happening with much love and compassion. Compassionate love moves the trauma energy out of fear and into love.

Most of us, however, didn’t have this kind of in the moment digestion happen with our caregivers as actually it was usually our caregivers who caused the traumas. This is especially true for the deeply rooted trauma caused by early childhood sexual abuse where boundaries of personal identify haven’t been established yet nor sexuality naturally expressed yet.

In our SoulFullHeart process during sessions, we as your Facilitator create a bridge with you to these traumatised parts of you and offer them much compassion, forgiveness, and healing/loving energy from and with the Divine. Parts of you respond to this love by unfreezing, unsticking, and lightening UP. The parts can then transmute from their wounded energy into their higher vibrational energy.

Your Inner Child’s shame can transmute to innocence. Your Inner Mother/Father’s anxiety can transmute to trust. Your Inner Teenager’s depression can transmute to creativity and risk taking. Your Protector’s vigilant guardedness can transmute to healthy self protection. Eventually these parts integrate into the wholeness of your 5D Self. More about parts and Metasoul aspects here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

Your Metasoul Aspects (commonly called ‘past lives’) respond in the same way to be connected with and ‘rescued’ from their intense timelines by your loving presence. They can transmute out of the stuck, collective archetypes of warrior or monk or wounded queen or wounded king and into the healthy expressions of guidance and strength, deep resonance with the Divine, and natural feminine and masculine balanced leadership. The soul gifts they have to offer you are now freed up to be in exchange with you. 

The trauma from the timelines your Metasouls live in is often hugely bleeding into yours and that also can cause intense emotions to come up for you. More about that in this article: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2018/05/19/energy-update-timeline-bleedthroughs-metasoul-karmic-transformation-opportunities/
In this process, you become your own healer. You are offering ALL parts of you the love and care that you most likely offer freely to others. If you serve love as a healer, then you KNOW what you can provide to others in response to their pains and struggles. This, then, is an invitation to offer that beautiful compassionate and objective witness energy to yourself and all parts of you that need you.

Every emotion offers a world of discovery as you connect with which part of you is feeling it and WHY they are feeling it. Every emotion actually elicits a curiosity response from you as you are able to separate from the experience of it in order to BE with the part of you that is feeling it.

Every emotion is your heart’s song and your response with love allows the tones to come back into tune and melodic expression again as the Infinite Love that YOU ARE.

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Raphael and I talked about the how the recent Ascension energies are inviting the digestion and transmutation of emotions through parts work in our recent livestream: https://youtu.be/ZgYLxoiwYoc
We offer 1:1 bridging sessions with a SoulFullHeart Facilitator (me, Raphael Awen, Gabriel Heartman, and Kalayna Colibri). These sessions are often LIFE changing as a whole new perspective on suffering opens up the way for MORE love! More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.