Inner & Outer Feminine/Masculine Union Balance

By Jelelle Awen

Oh, how the inner feminine will want to go soft at times. To cry. To grieve. To REALLY feel what is going on that causes her heart to ache. She will BE with the longings and the missing without trying to fix or manage. Then, she can feel judged as oversensitive or too reactive by others and try to suppress her feelings….usually without success and not for very long. She may lash out in frustration, dissatisfaction and sense of injustice that her feelings have not been given enough space when they haven’t within her own heart.


And the inner masculine, then, doesn’t know what to DO with her or how to help. He feels locked in and also locked out, especially if she becomes protective of her feelings and won’t share. He just has an impulse to solve it, as if he could fix himself if he can fix her. He wants to be seen and appreciated by her always for his efforts, yet also fears disappointing her and being inadequate. He resists her tenderness and his own at times, afraid of being hurt again.


This distorted dance of inner feminine and masculine seems to be so common, so conditioned, and modeled for us in so many ways, starting from our own parents. I felt recently new layers of sorting through of the inner masculine and inner feminine dynamics within myself, triggered by being here on these powerful Michael Divine Mascline, and Mary Divine Feminine lines. I have also seen these masculine/feminine sortings out in those in my small community of beloveds, in my relationship with Raphael (although we are in a current blissy merging phase after some initial conflicts when we got here to Avalon) and in women I have met with for sessions recently.


There’s nothing wrong in the push and the pulls, yet it can be challenging when these energies within are not on the same ‘page’, the desires are diverging, and conflict arises. This is the same mixed experience as what so commonly occurs on the outside in relationships as well. I have so learned that experience of relationships with others can’t be shifted into new grounds until it is from within. New and deeper possibilities of intimacy arise initially from within and can then be transacted with others rather than just a focus on the outside dynamics, which is so common.


I always come back to the inner union to see what its status is when there are mixed feelings going on. As I hold space for my inner feminine (however she is needing to show up) and my inner masculine (who is quite soft at this point), they can find their connection with me, the Divine, and each other. They can move into their dance again, in flow, and ultimately….as is always the desire…into balance.


This reunion within then flows into my sacred union relationship with Raphael with new grounds of connection and exploration now possible. One day I am in tears and holding space for my feminine and bridging to my masculine so he can be felt too. And the next, I am in bliss lovemaking and connection energies with Raphael. From within and then out draws the experience of joy, bliss, and balance with a beloved mate that feels like a deep merging even while you remain two separate consciousnesses.

The ache for sacred union is consciously felt in many people…a ‘mate ache’, I have called it. Yet, the desire for inner union of your masculine and feminine may be less known and cultivated. That inner union ache is powerful to follow and does seem to ultimately draw your precious sacred union partner too.

Here is a guided meditation with Raphael and I to connect to your inner masculine and feminine: https://youtu.be/nvi_m4i1KvQ


love,

Jelelle Awen

Join Kasha and I for an Avalon Activation women’s group call on Sunday, September 20 at 5:00pm BST (9:00am PDT) with teachings, meditation, and personal sharings by donation. We will share these Avalon energies that invite the inner masculine/feminine flow. More information at soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls


More information about 1:1 soul initiation/emotional-Karma Trauma healing sessions with me for women over Zoom and here in-person in Glastonbury and with other Facilitators at soulfullheart.org/sessions

Bridging The Masculine & Feminine In Avalon

In the Heart of Avalon the energy of the sacred feminine runs deep. As a man it can bring up many different feelings and reactions. For me it has been a toggle between feeling at home and feeling amiss, like I don’t quite fit in.

The dance of the masculine and feminine within comes to the surface to be felt and called into union. I feel these aspects inside of me vying for attention and healing. A priestess energy that has been with me for some time yet is ripe for more relationship in this geography.

Then there is the architecture of the wounded masculine exemplified by the church tower on top of the Tor. It activates a priest and Roman aspect that feel the uneasy feeling of walking these lands remembering the ways in which the dominating culture created a veil to the magic of the time.

The beauty of it all is that I get to bridge those two together into my heart rather than be caught in the space between. I can bring them together in sacred ceremony as I sit here wide awake in the middle of the night. I am on a different clock now and that is the timepiece of the soul

I am here to feel. Here to heal myself as well as the collective masculine so that I may serve those knights of heart that feel the same calling within despite all the din and distraction. The sacred masculine is rising and has a journey toward and with the feminine. It is here and cannot be stopped, only resisted.

I am blessed to be here. I want to share my journey and serve the wisdom and love that arises from it. I have a purpose and the Divine has a plan of which I am only partially privy to. My masculine is acclimating to that while my feminine is revelling.

In the middle is the flow of Life.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Exploring Inner Masculine & Feminine Relationship – Women’s Group Call Today Or Receive Recording W/Jelelle Awen

By Jelelle Awen
Still time to join us for our Sacred Feminine Arising exploration women’s group call over Zoom at 10:00am PDT (Vancouver time today)! As always, the content and exploration is becoming clearer to me as I am getting ready for it. I am going to focus on the relationship between our inner masculine (as women) and how that relates to the arising (or not) of our inner feminine essence. Much of even what can seem ‘feminine’ is actually a masculinized feminine or warrior, matriarchal or non-vulnerable Priestess energy.
I’m going to share about my years-long journey in healing parts of my Inner Masculine and especially working with my Gatekeeper aspect for many years until he ‘ascended’ to a higher frequency some years ago now. I will talk about the different types of inner masculine/feminine relationship dynamics that I have seen over the years in myself and those women I have held space for as well. I will then lead you into a guided meditation to meet/connect with your Inner Masculine in relationship to your Inner Feminine to deepen the connection and association there.
If you can’t join us live, you are welcome to receive the recording afterwards as well. More info here: https://www.facebook.com/events/939184226480490/
You can join us by offering a $15 CAD ($11 USD) donation by purchasing here: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/product-page/sacred-feminine-exploration-women-s-group-calls-jelelle-kalayna
Or via paypal here and I will send you the zoom link: paypal.me/jelelleawen
Love,
Jelelle Awen

Inner Feminine Guided Meditation/Intro To Women’s Group Call W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

By Jelelle Awen

This is a brief video that I recorded this morning to offer a guided meditation to connect with your inner feminine. This is a taste of what will be a deeper exploration into the sacred feminine during my Sacred Arising Feminine Exploration (SAFE) women’s group call over zoom on Sunday, September 29 at 10:00am PDT. Women over 18 can attend this call live or receive the recording.

The exploration of the sacred feminine is very often feeling the layers of the false, the wounded, and the inherited that have covered over the authentic essence of her. This meditation offers a locating of what energy your inner feminine is most presenting as right now….whether wounded inner child, angry inner teenager, etc. or if she is quite protected by your Inner Protector too. This serves as a good prep to the deeper waters that we will explore during the call.

More information about joining us for a $15 CAD energy exchange via our website shop or paypal here: https://www.facebook.com/events/93396…

or here: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.co…

I also offer many guided meditations to connect with parts of yourself in this 33 Day video series called Deepen: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list…

The time for the arising of the Sacred Feminine is NOW…leading to a deeper embodiment of the Divine Mother within us all to offer profound healing and balancing to the Sacred Masculine.

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Inner Masculine/Feminine Balance Teaching & Guided Meditation

by Gabriel & Kalayna Solais

Join SoulFullHeart Teachers/Facilitators, Gabriel and Kalayna Solais, as they offer this teaching and guided meditation on connecting with your Inner Masculine/Feminine parts of you.

Your Inner Masculine and Feminine aspects may have many different ways that they express through you in your life, relationships, and even your spirituality. Connecting with these aspects is very illuminating and can help you understand why you have related to men and women the way you have, how you’ve related to your own “woman/manhood”, and why you seem to approach different aspects of life in one way versus another (i.e. you may have a more mental approach to spirituality and healing rather than an emotional/feeling-based one; you tend towards a more achievement-based approach to life rather than just being in flow with what is, etc).

Bringing these energies into more balance takes time, attention, and self-compassion and is an ongoing, ever-unfolding process.

This video was filmed at the SoulFullHeart Community House in Victoria, BC while Gabriel and Kalayna led an in-person guided meditation and sharing circle for local hearts and souls. If you are local to Victoria or will be visiting, check out the SoulFullHeart Events page: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events for more information on when the next circles will be held and what their themes will be.

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Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s Facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, emoto-spiritual teacher, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess. 

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Exploring And Honoring The Inner Feminine As An Integral Part Of The Ascending Masculine Journey

For some time now I have been feeling and acknowledging my inner feminine as a part of me. A very important and beloved part of me. There is a movement collectively for men to become more aware of their ‘feminine side’. This can be related to in a very general way that can just refer to our sense of sensitivity, caring, compassion, and intuition.

However, to take it a step further and give ‘her’ a name and thus a conscious identity within our physical masculine expression, can bring some interesting reactions inside. To claim our inner feminine is to relate to her in a very conscious way. It is to feel her feelings, her needs, her wounding, her story.

What has life been like for her in this male body in the context of a more patriarchal society?

If I explore this will I begin to question my own sexuality?

What will other people say if I claim her as an integral part of my being?

So to another part of me it feels like ‘coming out of the closet’. To my inner feminine part, who goes by Genevieve, this can be a bit unnerving as well considering the experiential history of feeling like she has not been welcome among other men in my life. Any hint of sensitivity that could be turned against her and me, Gabriel, was immediately thwarted by my protector.

There was a moment a while back when I could feel how growing up Genevieve would try to be a man the best she could to fit in. Doing and saying things that just weren’t her. When I actually felt this in my heart, we both had tears around it. I felt tears not just for myself but for all the other men who have these feminine parts doing the same exact thing. Men that I knew, that I friendships with.

In feeling her, I got to see and feel myself in a whole new way that actually has allowed my true masculine to emerge to the surface. Not the masculine prescribed by conditioning and trauma, but a more balanced and healthy masculine that can love and respond to his counterpart feminine.

I feel I am part of a band of brothers who live with this everyday but may be unaware or resistant to it for very good reasons. It goes beyond sexual identity and into what lives and breathes in our hearts and souls. I believe She is the next frontier of our collective male healing journey. She connects us to our Higher Heart, our sensuality, our creativity, our compassion, our intuition. She is a bridge to what lies in the shadow of the wounded masculine and his emergence into healthy strength and power.

There is more to this connection and what it means for us as spiritual male human beings. It is a beginning point for further feeling, exploration, and digestion. This comes on the heals of some pretty heavy Orion timeline bleed-throughs that need the feminine to hold and heal. I will be writing more about this as it seems fitting and necessary.

Thank you for taking in this very vulnerable and important part of my process and hope that it lands in the hearts of those it is meant to.

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Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Energy Update: Invitation To Connect With Divine Mother/Father Through Personal Sun Chakra

By Kalayna Colibri

Today I feel a mix of energies coming in via our Personal Sun chakras, an Ascension chakra located about a foot above our heads. When I feel and see this chakra, I feel warmth as if I am laying in the sun’s rays at the beach or in a park. I see it swirl with bright white-golden hues and other colours too. Today, it feels very bright and present, offering us downloads and activations but a way to BE with them too.

The masculine energies from Divine Father are grounding and warming today… they are offering illumination through this chakra and also a feeling of being held and protected, while also offering the wisdom of non-action unless necessary, of taking the time to be with each arising moment. This isn’t something I’ve been very good at personally, yet the desire even in my own masculine aspect named Kaius, is to be in each arising moment fully immersed and fully present in heart.

The feminine energies from Divine Mother are spacious and compassionate today… they are offering space to feel the courage and the fear that comes up too when truly seeing all possibilities for ourselves and our relationships, when truly committing to our next steps as they appear before us. She offers, as always, space to be, to feel, to let in love and let go of what isn’t love, and to begin to know the difference as experienced and expressed by our own hearts. I feel my feminine aspect, Kathleen, letting this in today. Her heart is still raw from experiencing a renewed connection with Kaius and the new possibilities for them both in relationship to each other. She is usually very oriented to my outer relationships, especially romantic ones, and she is learning to pull back inward and look to Kaius for what she would normally want from an outer romantic partner.

On that note of sharing about my inner masculine and feminine aspects, I feel how these frequencies from Divine Mother and Father today are also illuminating next steps for the inner sacred union, the one that is most important in our lives, the one that needs the most attention, compassion, and love as well as undying curiosity to keep feeling what’s happening within it. This is what shifts all outer relationships, which can feel scary but exciting, both. The possibilities for new alchemy too is strong once you feel how these two aspects are relating (or not relating) to one another.

Connecting with your own Personal Sun chakra today feels like the invitation… to feel what wants to download to you, what next steps you may need illuminated for your own inner healing process, and to just plain feel how loved you ARE, right here, right now. ❤️

Much love!

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Exploring And Feeling The Wounded Feminine Within A Man’s Heart

I feel a sacred journey arising for myself in a renewed journey into my emotional body, more specifically around my inner masculine and feminine polarities. There is a depth of wonder and wound that is at the heart of it. To not go there in my opinion and personal experience, is to miss something profound in our evolution as humans. The emotional body houses our human experience, the ‘data collector’ of our soul’s exploration.

Currently, I am feeling my inner feminine in relation to my inner masculine energy. To fully engage in this relationship as a Man with this Woman can be a bit of a roller coaster. It turns things on its head in regards to how She has related to parts of my life. Was She part of the early rage I experienced as a child? What did She feel about my family, my friends, my jobs, my mates? What does want and need from me as my inner feminine? Who She is and what She wants is a huge part of who I am as a man. Really? Yeah, man, I feel it deeply.

There is a huge elephant in the collective room between the masculine and feminine as expressed in the physical between men and women. There are fascinating mirrors all around us when we engage in this aspect of shadow work that is meant to illuminate, heal, and integrate. This IS spiritual work. This is a deep, powerful awakening into our sacred humanity. The polarity can only be made truly whole by feeling the poles in their wounds and needs.

The feminine in men and women alike is like a genie in a bottle. It has been repressed, suppressed, sequestered, and protected. It holds the imprint of so many those that have been the most intimate to us in our lives such as mothers, sisters, relatives, friends, mates, etc. I am connecting to my feminine through the template of my sister that I have not explored deeply before. It is a fascinating exploration that is illuminating so much about my relationship to life, love, and relationship to others.

For men and women, this offers a profound brave new world that has effects in all areas of our lives. Most intimately it is the relationship we hold within ourselves where this is illuminated the most. As men (as well as the masculine in women), we have tended to negate our inner sensitivity and beauty which is really our inner feminine feeling that of herself. She holds that gift and has not been fully able to feel that from our masculine heart to hers. As her story unfolds, and her needs met, we are given a new look into what makes us truly masculine (and feminine too!). I will continue to write more about what I experience as well as what I get from the beautiful souls that I am serving that are on their own inner gender healing quest. Stay tuned…She is ready to be heard and seen.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Healing The Inner Masculine ‘Warrior’: Sharing My Current Journey

by Kalayna Colibri

I’m sitting next to ‘Malcolm’, my Inner Masculine part, by a tree in an etheric realm that has many stars all around and is a mellow shade of dark purple. This tree has become his higher-vibe place to go and be, especially when he feels reactive or is projecting old timelines from this lifetime onto the present and old relationships onto those I love.

The space between us is tender, as he’s feeling with me his desire to change deeper inside of him, his attachment to the ‘tangible’ and how challenging it can still be for him to trust the etheric, the Divine, the feminine in me, and the love that wants to go into him, though he so wants to at the same time. He then reaches next to him and picks up an old, dusty book.

“What book is THAT, Malcolm?” I ask him, “It looks old-timey.”

“It’s Homer’s ‘The Iliad'” he answers.

I’ve never read The Iliad in this lifetime, so I quickly look up the SparkNotes summary to feel into it and why it’s a symbol he’s picked up on for himself. It turns out that this poem glorifies war in many ways, especially in terms of fighting the righteous fight and not running away from battles that need to be gallantly fought and gloriously won. Apparently, Homer includes details of the gory side to war as well, probably to balance it out a bit. I immediately feel the strong archetype that this book shows Malcolm and me, the strong legacy of the ‘righteous battle’ and the conditioning of being ready to bravely fight for your beliefs, your lifestyle, your relationships, etc.

I feel this with him and feel how this is what’s true for the wounded masculine in everyone… men and women. I also feel my heart wrap this energy and conditioning in love, finally understanding some deeper layer of why it’s been inside of me, even though, especially in this phase of my life, there are NO battles to fight, nobody to really fight WITH unless conflict of some kind needs to arise as a mirror for everyone involved. It illuminates too, the battle WITHIN, which is so strong and really is what leads to battle outside of you.

Malcolm is in no-space, no-time right now in the loving arms of the Divine Mother, who on precious waves of tears, he was finally able to let in. This movement feels momentous for many reasons… and it truly has taken the time it takes to get him here!

I’m transparently sharing this story to illustrate a few points that I feel Malcolm actually wants me to make! I’m also sharing because hiding away the light and love that flows from our personal process denies love the chance to go to others and support them in their own movements and openings.

Much love to you and your own journey with your Inner Masculine, in whatever part or form they are taking now, whether you are a man or a woman! ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 35, emoto-spiritual teacher, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter: The Magical Portal Of Your Own Darkness

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week!

This week’s Museletter features an article by SoulFullHeart co-creator, teacher, and Facilitator, Raphael Awen. He invites you to get curious about your more ‘negative’ emotional spaces and the tension between what you want and what you have right now. He offers that feeling and embracing all of this is the journey to the more whole and healthy-feeling you that you long to become:

“This tug-of-war polarity and tension between what you desire and what you actually experience is the pathway into navigating between the two in the direction you want to go. You are like this anti-gravitic travel device in this way.

You wouldn’t even be able to feel tension, were it not for rest. You couldn’t feel love were it not for fear. You couldn’t feel trust were it not for anxiety. One is needed to give reality to the other.”

Our latest and last (for now at least!) Unity Meditation virtual gathering took place this past week and you can find the recording of the teachings and meditation in this Museletter. The guided meditation offers you a sense of your inner masculine and feminine frequencies and the relationship they have to each other. This helps to illuminate for you the patterns you’ve been experiencing in your relationships.

Last weekend, Jelelle Awen held a live stream on Facebook where she offered another Energy Update experience. You’ll find the recording of this live stream, including the guided meditation she led is also featured this week, in addition to another video where Jelelle shares her experience of drawing and being IN a Sacred Union relationship with a soul mate. She talks about the inner work involved, especially with feeling and growing the Sacred Union within that then gets to be reflected in relationship to another person.

Kalayna Colibri and Raianna Shai have offered another episode of Millennial Digest, this time digesting the relationship between Millennials and 3D reality. They share about their personal experiences with 3D growing up as well as their heart and soul-felt observations of the patterns that appear in the lives of these “young” Sacred Humans arising.

Many beautiful writings and recordings from Jelelle and Raphael Awen, Kalayna Colibri, and Gabriel Heartman are available for you to take in, including several new energy updates and digestions from different areas of life and different aspects of the ongoing Ascension process.

Kalayna, Gabriel, Raphael, and Jelelle all offer 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities. They are available for $55 min. donation per session and more information can be found here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

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