Authentic Masculinity & The Return To King

Authenticity and masculinity.

These are two roads that are intersecting for me recently. They are actually running parallel seeking to become one. As my inner work continues with my own personal sessions, I am finding this nexus of authentic, masculine leadership to be my next going on place. It reverberates with a lot of questions and curiosities.

Who is this authentic masculine within?
When has it showed up and when has it not?

These are self-loving questions and not a judgement as to when it hasn’t.

As a man that has realized his own inner feminine leanings, this is sacred ground. I have been feeling my inner feminine, Geneveive, becoming more comfortable in my heart as an integral part of who I am as a man. With this relaxing, the suppressed masculine within is coming to the surface to find His authentic place on the throne next to her.

As with any suppressed masculine, it comes with an edgy, maybe even defensive, energy, as it has not really had much practice being out in the world. As that energy comes into me I feel this a part of me. His name is Sarge (for Sergeant). As repressed masculine, he came to me as an inner punisher. Yelling and judging to be heard. That was a deep process of feeling him and his vulnerabilities and needs.

What I felt recently in my session with Jelelle, was how this authentic masculine energy had been neutralized in protection against my father’s rage and the perception of my mother’s fragility. A dynamic that stunted this initiation into the world. In some ways, at the age of 48, I feel like this is the beginning of this initiation. I had to be with some reaction to that only to feel how this is the way it has just played itself out.

In this initiation, I am dropping this old relationship to Woman (via Mom) and Man (via Dad) to feel what my authentic masculine leadership needs/wants as well as its effect on my feminine and younger parts. It is a process of moving from Knight to King on the chessboard of growth. I feel the kings of my Metasoul eager to guide me and activate me on this journey.

In the past this felt like a scared place, but now it feels sacred. It feels natural and ripe. With is comes uncertainty and unpredictability, but that feels alive to this arising masculine. It is the wounded masculine that seeks order and the known. The true King has the Order within and brings that energy to all that is around Him. I feel Divine Father in this moment than I ever have.

It is this Return to King that I want to make transparent to all the men that feel this in their hearts and souls. It is from this place that I seek to serve and lead. Amen.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Exploring Inner Masculine & Feminine Relationship – Women’s Group Call Today Or Receive Recording W/Jelelle Awen

By Jelelle Awen
Still time to join us for our Sacred Feminine Arising exploration women’s group call over Zoom at 10:00am PDT (Vancouver time today)! As always, the content and exploration is becoming clearer to me as I am getting ready for it. I am going to focus on the relationship between our inner masculine (as women) and how that relates to the arising (or not) of our inner feminine essence. Much of even what can seem ‘feminine’ is actually a masculinized feminine or warrior, matriarchal or non-vulnerable Priestess energy.
I’m going to share about my years-long journey in healing parts of my Inner Masculine and especially working with my Gatekeeper aspect for many years until he ‘ascended’ to a higher frequency some years ago now. I will talk about the different types of inner masculine/feminine relationship dynamics that I have seen over the years in myself and those women I have held space for as well. I will then lead you into a guided meditation to meet/connect with your Inner Masculine in relationship to your Inner Feminine to deepen the connection and association there.
If you can’t join us live, you are welcome to receive the recording afterwards as well. More info here: https://www.facebook.com/events/939184226480490/
You can join us by offering a $15 CAD ($11 USD) donation by purchasing here: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/product-page/sacred-feminine-exploration-women-s-group-calls-jelelle-kalayna
Or via paypal here and I will send you the zoom link: paypal.me/jelelleawen
Love,
Jelelle Awen

Inner Masculine/Feminine Balance Teaching & Guided Meditation

by Gabriel & Kalayna Solais

Join SoulFullHeart Teachers/Facilitators, Gabriel and Kalayna Solais, as they offer this teaching and guided meditation on connecting with your Inner Masculine/Feminine parts of you.

Your Inner Masculine and Feminine aspects may have many different ways that they express through you in your life, relationships, and even your spirituality. Connecting with these aspects is very illuminating and can help you understand why you have related to men and women the way you have, how you’ve related to your own “woman/manhood”, and why you seem to approach different aspects of life in one way versus another (i.e. you may have a more mental approach to spirituality and healing rather than an emotional/feeling-based one; you tend towards a more achievement-based approach to life rather than just being in flow with what is, etc).

Bringing these energies into more balance takes time, attention, and self-compassion and is an ongoing, ever-unfolding process.

This video was filmed at the SoulFullHeart Community House in Victoria, BC while Gabriel and Kalayna led an in-person guided meditation and sharing circle for local hearts and souls. If you are local to Victoria or will be visiting, check out the SoulFullHeart Events page: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events for more information on when the next circles will be held and what their themes will be.

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Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s Facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, emoto-spiritual teacher, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess. 

Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Exploring And Honoring The Inner Feminine As An Integral Part Of The Ascending Masculine Journey

For some time now I have been feeling and acknowledging my inner feminine as a part of me. A very important and beloved part of me. There is a movement collectively for men to become more aware of their ‘feminine side’. This can be related to in a very general way that can just refer to our sense of sensitivity, caring, compassion, and intuition.

However, to take it a step further and give ‘her’ a name and thus a conscious identity within our physical masculine expression, can bring some interesting reactions inside. To claim our inner feminine is to relate to her in a very conscious way. It is to feel her feelings, her needs, her wounding, her story.

What has life been like for her in this male body in the context of a more patriarchal society?

If I explore this will I begin to question my own sexuality?

What will other people say if I claim her as an integral part of my being?

So to another part of me it feels like ‘coming out of the closet’. To my inner feminine part, who goes by Genevieve, this can be a bit unnerving as well considering the experiential history of feeling like she has not been welcome among other men in my life. Any hint of sensitivity that could be turned against her and me, Gabriel, was immediately thwarted by my protector.

There was a moment a while back when I could feel how growing up Genevieve would try to be a man the best she could to fit in. Doing and saying things that just weren’t her. When I actually felt this in my heart, we both had tears around it. I felt tears not just for myself but for all the other men who have these feminine parts doing the same exact thing. Men that I knew, that I friendships with.

In feeling her, I got to see and feel myself in a whole new way that actually has allowed my true masculine to emerge to the surface. Not the masculine prescribed by conditioning and trauma, but a more balanced and healthy masculine that can love and respond to his counterpart feminine.

I feel I am part of a band of brothers who live with this everyday but may be unaware or resistant to it for very good reasons. It goes beyond sexual identity and into what lives and breathes in our hearts and souls. I believe She is the next frontier of our collective male healing journey. She connects us to our Higher Heart, our sensuality, our creativity, our compassion, our intuition. She is a bridge to what lies in the shadow of the wounded masculine and his emergence into healthy strength and power.

There is more to this connection and what it means for us as spiritual male human beings. It is a beginning point for further feeling, exploration, and digestion. This comes on the heals of some pretty heavy Orion timeline bleed-throughs that need the feminine to hold and heal. I will be writing more about this as it seems fitting and necessary.

Thank you for taking in this very vulnerable and important part of my process and hope that it lands in the hearts of those it is meant to.

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Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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333: ‘Divine Align’ Higher Timeline Opportunities, Next Steps INvitation

By Kalayna Colibri

It’s 333 Day today! A powerful time to feel where you truly are right now, to acknowledge yourself for where you’ve been, and to see the illumination of where you’ve yet to go… it’s a day for conscious creativity, to see how your creativity has expressed, and to feel your intentions for your creative flow from now on.

‘Divine Align’ comes to mind and heart right now, but of course this can be much easier said than done… the journey into this alignment is truly one of exploring and refining your integrity, feeling parts of you that are afraid of being vulnerable and truly admitting when they are out of integrity, and being courageous enough to take those steps into the deeper truth of this.

We are creative beings. We can’t stop creating. There are new opportunities to create and recreate starting from inside of us in every single moment. We have infinite choices in this world of infinite possibilities. We are choosing, always, whether or not we are ready to take the next step into our higher timeline and if we are truly ready to align with the Divinity within. I feel reassurance today that there are no setbacks and there’s no way to really go ‘backwards’ even when parts of you feel like they have.

Your Inner Protector may especially feel like they’ve ‘failed’ you, failed their ‘mission’ to protect you from hurt, harm, and even love when love is catalytic and feels like a tidal wave coming in to shake up your entire world. Yet, even this very powerful part of you does not have the ultimate say as to what unfolds for your soul and the bigger picture of your life…

If you’re up for meeting your Protector today and feeling their story with them, here’s a powerful video and guided meditation from Jelelle Awen that you can take in:

I have felt many times with an Inner Masculine part of me, which once expressed as an Inner Protector for me too, this fear of ‘failure’ and have felt very tenderly, with many tears, all the ways in which they feel they’ve ‘failed’ or ultimately let you, or (sometimes especially) ‘God’ down. It’s a relief to them when you can let some air into the room and remind them that they haven’t…

Today, with this ‘333’ Divine alignment of numbers, it’s another invitation to let in Divine love in this way and let this love rumble even your most defended parts of you, to help you shift from fear to love on a deeper level, aligning you with clarities about your personal service-of-love expression if it’s truly time for that, and bringing you a sense of empowerment in your life that may show you an array of choices you’re invited to feel into.

The Divine truly celebrates YOU today and always… and is inviting you, without a doubt, into your next co-creative steps with It as you become ready to deeply embrace them. ❤️

Much love!

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Energy Update: Invitation To Connect With Divine Mother/Father Through Personal Sun Chakra

By Kalayna Colibri

Today I feel a mix of energies coming in via our Personal Sun chakras, an Ascension chakra located about a foot above our heads. When I feel and see this chakra, I feel warmth as if I am laying in the sun’s rays at the beach or in a park. I see it swirl with bright white-golden hues and other colours too. Today, it feels very bright and present, offering us downloads and activations but a way to BE with them too.

The masculine energies from Divine Father are grounding and warming today… they are offering illumination through this chakra and also a feeling of being held and protected, while also offering the wisdom of non-action unless necessary, of taking the time to be with each arising moment. This isn’t something I’ve been very good at personally, yet the desire even in my own masculine aspect named Kaius, is to be in each arising moment fully immersed and fully present in heart.

The feminine energies from Divine Mother are spacious and compassionate today… they are offering space to feel the courage and the fear that comes up too when truly seeing all possibilities for ourselves and our relationships, when truly committing to our next steps as they appear before us. She offers, as always, space to be, to feel, to let in love and let go of what isn’t love, and to begin to know the difference as experienced and expressed by our own hearts. I feel my feminine aspect, Kathleen, letting this in today. Her heart is still raw from experiencing a renewed connection with Kaius and the new possibilities for them both in relationship to each other. She is usually very oriented to my outer relationships, especially romantic ones, and she is learning to pull back inward and look to Kaius for what she would normally want from an outer romantic partner.

On that note of sharing about my inner masculine and feminine aspects, I feel how these frequencies from Divine Mother and Father today are also illuminating next steps for the inner sacred union, the one that is most important in our lives, the one that needs the most attention, compassion, and love as well as undying curiosity to keep feeling what’s happening within it. This is what shifts all outer relationships, which can feel scary but exciting, both. The possibilities for new alchemy too is strong once you feel how these two aspects are relating (or not relating) to one another.

Connecting with your own Personal Sun chakra today feels like the invitation… to feel what wants to download to you, what next steps you may need illuminated for your own inner healing process, and to just plain feel how loved you ARE, right here, right now. ❤️

Much love!

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter: Dissolving Of The 3D-4D Trauma Emotional Body Grid

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week!

This week’s Museletter starts off with a piece from Jelelle Awen about the 3D-4D trauma emotional body grid that is laid over Gaia, reflecting the wounding and also healing of the collective emotional body. She invites you to feel your contribution to it through the parts of you that are stuck in traumas, especially abuse playouts and feelings of being stuck in victimhood energy:

“Ultimately, you CHOOSE ALL traumatic experiences for soul growth reasons on a Higher Self/Metasoul level and this actually brings much empowerment as you accept this, understand more about the reasons WHY, and own/feel/heal your Metasoul’s role in it.

Freedom and release from these emotionally dense feelings of despair, suicide, victimization, extreme negativity, battling, being attacked……freedom comes as you FEEL how this lives in parts of yourself and in your Metasoul. As you are willing to compassionately feel it and LOVE it and embrace these parts and aspects, so then do you offer them a way out of this grid. You compassionately validate their emotional reality even as you are separating your consciousness from it.”

Next, we have a brand NEW guided meditation offered by Kalayna Colibri, for meeting your Inner Teenager. In this meditation, you will connect with a Divine Feminine and a Divine Masculine guide before approaching your Inner Teenager in a place that is familiar to them.

Kalayna also held a live stream event this week on connecting with and feeling your Inner Masculine, especially as a woman (though men can connect with this too). In this live stream, she shares about her ongoing personal process with her own Inner Masculine and why she feels this process is important on a collective level. She also answers many questions and offers a quick guided meditation for connecting with your own Inner Masculine, in whatever form or energy they choose to show you. You can catch the recording of this live stream in this week’s Museletter.

There are many new writings and audio recordings from Jelelle and Raphael Awen, Kalayna Colibri, and Gabriel Heartman to take in this week, addressing some profound topics such as healing in order to fuel your dreams and desires and realizing them too, giving yourself permission to feel, and finding freedom from the loops of wounding parts of you are in. There are also some energy updates offered to give you a picture of the current waves of energies incoming.

Kalayna, Gabriel, Raphael, and Jelelle all offer 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities. They are available for $55 min. donation per session and more information can be found here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

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Feeling The Inner Masculine Q&A & Guided Meditation (Live Stream Video Recording)

SoulFullHeart Co-Founder, Facilitator, Teacher, and WayShower, Kalayna Colibri, held a live stream on June 5th, 2018 to share about her personal process with feeling her Inner Masculine parts and invite you to begin feeling your own, as a man or a woman. She also leads a short guided meditation to meet your Inner Masculine in whatever form or energy he is ready to be seen by you in, and answers some questions about the process of feeling your Inner Masculine.

This process is one of feeling the different ways in which your conditioning from the predominantly patriarchal culture you’ve grown up in has expressed in your life, often in strong suppression of your Inner Feminine, whether you are a man or a woman. This means suppression of your emotionality, of emotions being OK, of flowing with life without needing to try and control outcomes or only a very linear sense of how life should be or should go. The Inner Masculine expresses in the form of many different parts of you, including typically the Inner Protector, especially as a first pathway into this aspect of your being. The Inner Masculine is meant to be negotiated with though, not overridden or ‘fought’ with. There is plenty of need inside of you for the Masculine, especially in an inner Sacred Union experience with your Feminine.

For more on the Inner Masculine, parts, and Metasoul Aspects too, we have much writing on this blog! You can also visit this page on the SoulFullHeart website: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 35, emoto-spiritual teacher, WayShower, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Join Our ‘Feeling Your Inner Masculine’ Live Stream On Facebook

by Kalayna Colibri

Ah, I’m so excited to be doing my first solo live stream on my Facebook feed tomorrow at 3pm CDT!

I hope you will join your heart and soul with mine as I share about my current process working with my Inner Masculine and offer some ways to be in this process yourself, especially if you are a woman, based on what I’m learning and experiencing. Of course, men are welcome to come too and I’m sure the women would actually LOVE to feel you there with us! So much of this could absolutely apply to you and your own explorations of your masculinity as well.

The wounded masculine wants to be transmuted… it wants to ascend with us and be loved. It is an energy that has been in the forefront for SO long, yet in any moment we have the opportunity to go within and feel our own contribution to this collective energy. It’s another opportunity to love ourselves, ultimately, and LOVE our conditioning, which IS the way to transmute it for good! Also, even as women, we do need our Inner Masculine energies to really collaborate with us as we lead what we’re meant to lead and find our Queen-ness in response to life and to a Sacred Union mate too.

It’s in my heart to hold this as an opportunity for a Q & A experience for everyone and to share transparently about what I’m feeling within myself, so bring along your questions, comments and personal experiences and let’s talk for a bit.

The live stream will be on held on my Facebook feed only: facebook.com/kalaynacolibri

If you cannot make it tomorrow, you can catch the recording which I will be publishing Youtube and then here on the blog as well.

Much love!
Kalayna

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 35, emoto-spiritual teacher, WayShower, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Healing The Inner Masculine ‘Warrior’: Sharing My Current Journey

by Kalayna Colibri

I’m sitting next to ‘Malcolm’, my Inner Masculine part, by a tree in an etheric realm that has many stars all around and is a mellow shade of dark purple. This tree has become his higher-vibe place to go and be, especially when he feels reactive or is projecting old timelines from this lifetime onto the present and old relationships onto those I love.

The space between us is tender, as he’s feeling with me his desire to change deeper inside of him, his attachment to the ‘tangible’ and how challenging it can still be for him to trust the etheric, the Divine, the feminine in me, and the love that wants to go into him, though he so wants to at the same time. He then reaches next to him and picks up an old, dusty book.

“What book is THAT, Malcolm?” I ask him, “It looks old-timey.”

“It’s Homer’s ‘The Iliad'” he answers.

I’ve never read The Iliad in this lifetime, so I quickly look up the SparkNotes summary to feel into it and why it’s a symbol he’s picked up on for himself. It turns out that this poem glorifies war in many ways, especially in terms of fighting the righteous fight and not running away from battles that need to be gallantly fought and gloriously won. Apparently, Homer includes details of the gory side to war as well, probably to balance it out a bit. I immediately feel the strong archetype that this book shows Malcolm and me, the strong legacy of the ‘righteous battle’ and the conditioning of being ready to bravely fight for your beliefs, your lifestyle, your relationships, etc.

I feel this with him and feel how this is what’s true for the wounded masculine in everyone… men and women. I also feel my heart wrap this energy and conditioning in love, finally understanding some deeper layer of why it’s been inside of me, even though, especially in this phase of my life, there are NO battles to fight, nobody to really fight WITH unless conflict of some kind needs to arise as a mirror for everyone involved. It illuminates too, the battle WITHIN, which is so strong and really is what leads to battle outside of you.

Malcolm is in no-space, no-time right now in the loving arms of the Divine Mother, who on precious waves of tears, he was finally able to let in. This movement feels momentous for many reasons… and it truly has taken the time it takes to get him here!

I’m transparently sharing this story to illustrate a few points that I feel Malcolm actually wants me to make! I’m also sharing because hiding away the light and love that flows from our personal process denies love the chance to go to others and support them in their own movements and openings.

Much love to you and your own journey with your Inner Masculine, in whatever part or form they are taking now, whether you are a man or a woman! ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 35, emoto-spiritual teacher, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.