Author: Jelelle Awen

I am a long-time healer, teacher, student, and facilitator of souls and hearts. My awakening journey really began in my early 30's in 2004 when I started a process to connect with and integrate parts of myself from this life and other lifetimes/timelines as well. I have been engaged with and offering 'parts process' work ever since then! I also awakened over the years to my multidimensional spiritual gifts, capacity to be a bridge to the Divine Feminine especially, galactic ambassador abilities, and intuitive empathic capacities to 'feel' the emotional body, energy chakras, and soul field. I offer 1:1 sessions with women, group facilitation and teaching experience with me through a monthly group transmission over Zoom with Raphael. More information about virtual and in person sessions and groups with me at divineselfembodiment.com I am also a writer, Soul Scribe and author of five books: Free To Be 5D: Navigating Ascension From The Inside Out; Bliss Mess: The Wonders And Challenges Of Ascension; Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality; And Keep Waking Up!: Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond. All are available now as PDF, ebook, and print editions at divineselfembodiment.com/books. My writings can be found on divineselfembodiment.com and my facebook and IG feeds.

When Suffering Becomes The Comfort Zone For Parts Of You (Video)

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By Jelelle Awen

Sometimes the comfort zone is actually the ‘pain zone’.

Parts of you/soul aspects get used to suffering on some level, in the physical body (illness/disease/inflammation), or the emotional body (post traumatic, depression, anxiety, fear reactions) or the mental body (negative mind set, false belief systems, suffering/shame thought spirals) or the soul and energy field (karmic looping, ‘entity attacks’, ceilings in awakening, disconnection from soul purpose.) Or, in relationships (codependence, being/allowing abuse, flatness/deadness, etc.) Or in ALL of these in different phases and stages.

Pain/suffering is meant to be a temporary ‘warning sign’ and an invitation to use it as a portal of self discovery and healing WITH the Divine. It is not meant to be a ‘finally resting place’ or dimension or frequency for which we can live and thrive, although certainly the 3D Matrix makes it feel like that (which takes many distractions and drugs of all kinds and continuous toxicity to keep barely alive.)

And this suffering actually becomes safe and comfortable to these parts of you. It becomes ‘home’. The only thing they have ever known.

I imagine to the version of ‘you’ reading this right now that may seem strange or counter intuitive, yet I have seen/felt/witnessed this so many times in others and in my own parts, esp when we drop into the consciousness frequency ‘below’ the persona ego “I” voice as we do in sessions.

Parts of you may feel very, very deep down…at a core level…that they do not deserve love. That they are not worth love. That they are not EVER going to truly be free of pain and suffering. That they do not trust that love will ever NOT turn into pain and loss.

I would offer, in fact, that we ALL have parts that feel that way…until we connect with them consciously to feel what has been comfortable for them, the dark places they reside, the void places they retreat to, the medications they use to numb out their feelings (including spirituality).

And there they stay…..in suffering, in hell realms, in karmic suffering loops of unworthiness, shame and disconnect…… until, as our Divine Self (compassionate, non-judgemental, supported, hopeful), we invite them to come into our heart, come into the light, come into safety, come into starting to feel the SEEDS of goodness and love from within. Until we start to consciously negotiate with these stuck parts…there is just no way they can actually shift and move in a lasting and transmutative way.

They will resist. They will come up with excuses. They will go into victim mode/blame, looking on the outside for ’causes’ and for ‘cures’. The inertia to remain in stuckness, in suffering, in pain is SO deep and vast, as it is fuelled by collective consciousness and the Matrix programming/conditioning.

It can be tricky to feel and reframe the excuses into invitations to move into something new and hopeful, something beyond the fear. It can be challenging to track all the diversive strategies that can come up in the resistance to feeling, to healing, to ascending, to embodying your Divine self. To experiencing and receiving LOVE.

I am still surprised sometimes by the resistance that comes up in parts of people to receiving love, to seeing themselves as Love and to becoming love for parts of themselves. Yet, I also understand it and am compassionate about it, as I so felt the same resistance in parts of me for many years and soul aspects too (some of which I share about in my new book memoir with Raphael, Under The Bloated Banyan).

Yet, ultimately, to resist love is not natural and is what I’ve been offered by the Divine is the root cause of all suffering. When parts of you resist love, they are resisting THEIR very essence AS love.

That feels worth repeating:

Resistance to love is the root cause of ALL suffering.

In this brief video that I filmed coming out of Divine meditation space this morning, I offer more about this dynamic within and also a meditation bridge to Divine Mother’s heart lifeline to any parts of you in suffering and supports your Divine Self to be there for them. Inviting these parts of you to join you in Divine Mother’s higher dimensional Sacred Garden space with healing pools. It is posted above.

1:1 and couples sacred session space to feel and bridge to these parts in suffering and make a soul turn toward love are available with me and/or Raphael…more info at soulfullheart.org/sessions

Love,

Inner Sacred Union/Hieros Gamos Group Transmission Call W/Raphael & Jelelle Awen 4/7

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Inner sacred union (hieros gamos) is the awakening of the lovers contained in your soul (drawn from the Divine Union Pairbond source field) and arising into expression in your life, embraced by your heart and contained in your body. Inner sacred union bridges you to the Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine within, the sun and the moon, yin and yang….to find integration inside you.

Hieros Gamos opens up an ongoing healing and clearing of polarized and toxic relationships within you between masculine aspects and feminine aspects. You move into a soul-guided process of unifying polarities that have been more separated within you, in our collective consciousness, and in 3D/karmic relationships.

As you connect to your ‘inner lovers’ this allows for deepenings and openings in the experience of inner balance and harmony, and unplugging from/moving on from parental relationship templates/previous relationship partner dynamics and Matrix relational programming that may have been internalized. Previous hurts, harms, and rejections wounds from previous relationships also come to resolution, completing the suffering pattern drawn on the outside.

This inner sacred union healing ground of initiation then prepares you for and draws (and allows for transaction within) a nourishing Divine counterpart sacred union with a beloved mate on the outside.

In this two-hour group call for men and women on Sunday, April 7th at 5:00pm -7:00pm WEST (Lisbon, Portugal/UK); 12:00pm EDT (New York)….Divine Self Embodiment Teachers/Facilitators/Sacred Union Mates Raphael and Jelelle Awen offer an exploration into inner sacred union.

During this call, we will share about:

– our own personal journeys and process of healing and opening out our inner sacred union expressions both together as a couple and individually.

– We also offer how the Divine Self Embodiment healing process of conscious access to parts of yourself and other lifetime aspects/soul dynamics allows for a deeper embodiment of your inner sacred union as it allows a bridge to your inner masculines parts such as Inner Protector, Gatekeeper and Inner Punisher…and your inner feminine parts (younger such as Inner Child/Teenager to Inner Mother/Crone) as well.
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In the guided meditation/transmission portion of the call, we will play our 432HZ quartz crystal bowls and create a bridge to your inner masculine as he wants to show up in the moment and your inner feminine as well. We invite them to attend a ‘dance ball’ and to dance together in the moment if they are ready. During this dance, we open up connection between them and also reveal places that feel stuck or conflictual between them.

Divine guides and sacred union mates Yeshua and Mary Magdalene join us to hold a safe, higher-vibe space for this exploration and offer inspiring transmissions of sacred union love.
Raphael will channel from his sacred masculine mate heart and Jelelle from her sacred feminine mate heart any messages/guidance/codes of support that flow through them for you. We also repeat affirmations/recodings as a group that provide a new coding of inner sacred union experience within you and with your mate.

Here is an inner sacred union guided meditation video from Raphael and Jelelle’s Deepen 2022 video series which we recommend watching prior to the call: https://youtu.be/YVgEANrF6J4

This group call is part of our ongoing Sacred Union w/self, others and the Divine virtual transmission group call series with transmission calls being offered every two weeks on Sundays until the end of June. We will then expand and deepen this in an inner sacred union group call for women on April 21st with Kasha and Jelelle…focusing on the specific processes and experiences for women. It feels like this will allow some polarities to heal between the genders as well and new codings to come in. More info about the series at soulfullheart.org/sacredunionseries2024

We recommend reading/listening to Jelelle’s Free To Be 5D book as a support for this group call. If you donate to attend/receive the recording of this circle, we will send you a free PDF, plus the audio book files in Jelelle’s voice, to take in as a support for it.
You can receive these frequencies live with us (highly recommended) or take in the recording afterwards.

If you attend the live group, you’ll have the opportunity to share with us about what you experienced during the meditation and receive feedback/next steps of integration from us (this is totally optional). Plus, you’ll be able to take in and receive sharings from other women and men on the call, which is a powerful activation of its own!

This group is open to the public and to any woman and man over 18. You can attend the group and/or receive the recording for an energy/money exchange of whatever donation you feel to give (11 Euros/USD is the amount people usually offer us).

You can offer your donation for the call in one of four ways:

1. Our preferred payment platform is Wise if you have that or would like to sign up. It’s instant, zero fee to transfer money between members. There’s a doc here with some guidance and more info if you’d like to sign up. Include your email if using wise: http://tiny.cc/ron3vz

2. If you are Canadian, you can use Interac e-transfer. Our email for transfers is soulfullhearts@gmail.com and account is under Marvin Vriend. It’s also instant and without service fees to sender or receiver.

3. via our shop at soulfullheart.org/shop using stripe (Credit/debit)

4. Paypal at Paypal.me/soulfullheart (include your email)

Here’s a timezone converter: https://www.timeanddate.com/worldclock/converter.html…

New Book Release: Under The Bloated Banyan: Our Sacred Union Journey From False Light To True Love by Raphael & Jelelle Awen

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Today is the day our book baby is born! As we waited for final approval from amazon, we thought it might be on our 15th wedding anniversary on Thursday, and then on Good Friday, yet, it turned out to be Holy Saturday, the day in between Yeshua’s ‘crucifixion’ and resurrection….which feels perfect somehow!

And today is also perfect to release it as Raphael and I are having a sacred marriage vow renewal ceremony together with our beloveds…to name our intentions in deepening commitment to each other and to our commission (co-mission) of continuing to bring our Divine Self Embodiment consciousness offering to the Earth Plane/Gaia ascending for those soul family members who are resonant with it.

Our book called, Under The Bloated Banyan: Our Sacred Union Journey From False Light to True Love, is now my fifth self-published book and my first co-written with my beloved Raphael. This book has had quite a journey to being born in its current form! I first published it with just my writing/my side of the story in 2013, still feeling in some deeper trauma processing around what I share in it about the former cult-like spiritual group and teacher I/we were involved with (for me nearly five years and I was a facilitator of the work as well). It felt just too vulnerable at the time for parts of me while the group was still active and there was still so much controversy and energectic push back going on about speaking out against it from former friends/followers and my former teacher…so I ended up unpublishing it.

Then, I published my story again in 2018, feeling more settled inside with parts of me around the release of it, as the group had been collapsed for three years at that point after members FINALLY woke up to the abuses going on and fired the teacher/leader of it and collapsed the non-profit altogether. I had been able to process the completion with a couple of my former friends at that time, which seemed to help as well.

Yet, again, it didn’t feel quite right timing and easy inside to have my story (which is mostly from actual journals that I kept at the time) ‘out there’ so I retracted it again from public purchase. Both times I felt a sadness inside too as I had received feedback from people that sharing my story in such a vulnerable way touched them deeply and helped them in their own recovery from similar toxic, yet enlightening experiences with narcissistic groups/relationships.

So, then, about five months ago, Raphael and I were guided by Yeshua and Mary Magdalene to write the story of our sacred union journey over the last 18 years, including the time before we ‘officially’ came together while we were in the group. They offered that it would be a deep service to do this for others, the Christ-Magdalene lineage, and for ourselves/parts of us as well, to share it as a template for what is possible for those who have signed up for the Divine union marriage alchemical journey.

Raphael tuned into the parts of him (Marvin and Wayne) who had been through the several year journey shared about in this book, and wrote about leaving a long-term marriage and Christianity for which he received some pushback and his bravery in choosing his emotional healing and his soul awakening over duty and obligation. He also shares about holding the conscious memory of attraction to me and our Divine Union (as sometimes the masculine partner does) and he brought a few attractions to me before I was finally ready to respond to them (lots of emotional maturing to do on my side to be ready of it and him!).

Now, it feels time finally to share this story, which really hasn’t ever been just MY story I realize, which is why parts of me were uncomfortable to share it alone. Now, it includes Raphael’s parallel experiences in tandem with mine. It is so interesting to see how the choices and challenges we faced as individuals seem to constantly mirror each other, overlap and coincide, often entering and dissolving relationships with others at the same time…….until finally we are ready to choose a shared relationship and timeline together.

And, it is still stunning to feel, once we did, how our true and deep and Divinely guided/supported love dissolved ANYTHING false in our world right away. Within three weeks of our first date. We were accused by our former teachers of ‘faking a sacred union’ and of ‘going too fast’, ‘being codependent’…all of which we probably were in the beginning. Still, it was easy in another way to say ‘yes’ to being together and ‘no more’ to the ultimatum thrust on us of breaking up or staying in the group, which we were increasingly feeling had unnamed abuses and toxicity going on.

It is still shocking to parts of me, literally takes my breath away, to feel how quickly and completely our previous worlds (including my home geography eventually!) fell apart and away once we came together. This is often a signature of a Divine Union counterpart bond and also is the good will and genuine care/love/support for each other (absence of abuse, inability to lie to each other) that has been there between us from the very beginnings of our friendship turned romance. This kind of union calls you to be completely devoted to it, inside and out, as you feel how it is your means of expressing service and your soul purpose in the world.

I so hope you enjoy this first chapter/book of our sacred union journey, which we are now feeling to continue into what feels like two more books offered over the next three years. A sacred union trilogy capturing the phases, the ups and downs, the letting ins and letting gos, of what has truly been a bliss mess ride, yet always feeling held in a bubble of Divine love protection and marked absence of traumatic experiences (after the initial ones!)

Under The Bloated Banyan is a title that came through many years ago and represents the ‘bloat’ of these false light/false God groups and offerings that are offered under the banyan tree (the sacred tree where Buddha found his enlightenment.) So many of which offer deep teachings/gifts in their own ways and esp. in the beginning honeymoon stages, and yet are inevitability hijacked by the leader’s unfelt shadow motivations/aspects and the Matrix agenda/karmic field. These false light offerings/teachers are being exposed, disclosed and collapsing more and more as we outgrow the need for them…esp when we dedicate ourselves to healing our birth family/generational/incarnational trauma and engage in integrative shadow work with parts/aspects of ourselves.

Although, truly, this is not a story about ‘surviving a cult experience’…yet, really, it is and has always been, a love story. A love story about two counterparts reuniting again. A love story about discovering our deep devotional love for and with the Divine beloved. A love story about truly coming to love all parts of ourselves and soul aspects too.

You can purchase this book as a PDF on our shop (including instructions on how to read it on your kindle app/devices), or as in e-book and print editions through amazon. We would love to invite you to write a review if you feel moved and guided to after reading and also to share your thoughts, feelings, reactions, resonances with us here, via PM on Facebook, or email at soulfullhearts@gmail.com.

Links to purchase and excerpt to read from the first chapter are here at soulfullheart.org/https://www.soulfullheart.org/underthebloatedbanyan

Amazon link (it is available in all major Amazon markets/countries so go to your amazon country link to purchase): https://tinyurl.com/3xdyaerw

And special thanks to Kasha Rokshana, who helped edit this book and designed the beautiful cover image for it. She has been a true champion and advocate for sharing this story (including the two previous versions!) and it feels like it wouldn’t be happening now without her love and passion for it to be out in the world!

Thank you for taking it into your heart and soul,

Love,

Jelelle Awen

And Raphael’s writing on this release:

“I am one proud papa to have this heart and soul baby born in the world!

Our story begins in a group that we were eventually β€˜kicked out of’, but in truth, it was life, love and the divine itself that β€˜kicked’ us out.

What we left with, largely unbeknownst to us at the time, was a Christ child, in embryonic form gestating in our bond. We took it from the light side of the egregore/usness of the beloved group we were a part of. It was like a baton that was passed on to us. We also took a great wound with us that would challenge us and lay our hearts bare, and eventually reveal a much deeper calling.

This story is a great revealing for me of a much deeper heart and soul calling to own and inhabit my own calling. I was allowed to feel and experience so much during these four years covered in this book, that I believe will be part of a key awakening for the men and women who resonate, who share this same calling, who share this same soul family lineage.

I truly hope my story and our story stirs deep within you, a recognition of the specialness and uniqueness of your own sacred calling that begins right from where you are right now. It couldn’t be more divinely appointed. That’s how I feel your and my life story.

It would touch me deeply not only to have you read it, but to hear how it landed and what it stirred for you, even better if you could share it publicly, (even anonymously if it’s understandably too much of a coming out for parts of you).

What a gift it is that this baby was born on this day as Jelelle and I had also planned this day many weeks ago as a day to gather with our current closest beloveds for a wedding vow renewal ceremony!

Thank you, Jelelle for your intense focus these past weeks to handle all the rigours of self publishing! Thank you most of all for being with me into where we go now!

May this story touch you like no other!

Love,

Raphael

Healing Sacred Sexuality Experiences In Union And Within Us To Access More Divine Self Embodiment

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Going into our sacred sexuality healing container group transmission call on Sunday 3/3 has brought up a recent process within my soul and with Raphael in our Pairbond union as I/we prepare for it. Our sexuality together has become, now over 15 years together, not just about the act of making love/intercourse etc. or even the ‘goal’ of orgasm. It has deepened into an energectic exchange that expresses physically, emotionally, spiritually, held by the heart that acts as a potent portal to our soul fields.

We call it ‘going into our bridal chamber’ when we transact these energies and it is a safe place where we can be not just naked physically, yet on ALL levels to share what parts/soul aspects are feeling as well. We have held our sexuality together with honoring and tender heart space from our very first sexual experience together, where I shared a letter from my yoni with him so he understood the previous pains/toxicities she had experienced before going deeper to receive him.

Sacred sexuality is not just about physical pleasure, yet also about emotional/spiritual healing as well. It serves the individuals even as it serves the collective too.

In this catalytic year of 2024, we can both feel an upgrade going on in our reunion consciousness together, moving even more out of separation consciousness from so many lifetimes in the 3D/lower 4D matrix of not getting to be together….and into reunion experience on all levels. This upgrade has pushed up some ‘trailing edge/shadow’ expressions of our bond to come up and out to receive love, trust, and response with love.

Our collaboration in creation of and offering of our SoulFullHeart way of life healing process/community has been a ground to sort out separation consciousness and come into more shared alchemy around it. This has revealed trailing edge places of fear of the masculine patriarchy dominance within my soul field experience and compensation for that within his (as the awakening masculines are prone to do this life, trying to ‘make up for’ so much shadow expression that they too were ultimately hijacked by as well.)

The other ground of healing from separation to reunion has been in the bridal chamber exploration of our sexuality. I had been experiencing recently, for the first time in our relationship, pain and tightness in my yoni during our sexuality which was related to moving into deeper stages of menopause. This is very common in women my age as the yoni tissues dry up due to lower estrogen levels. Often this leads to shut down sexuality and no longer desiring orgasms/sexual intercourse/sexual expression, etc.

I started adding to the supplements I’ve been guided to support me right now through this menopause phase specifically to ease this (Vitamin D, Irish Moss and Sea buckthorn oil). I’ll share about the others that are assisting me soon.

They are helping and it is now resolving, yet when it was painful sexuality in the experience with Raphael it pushed up lifetimes of ‘less consensual’ sexuality, which all women have experienced in some form. Not necessarily rape or sexual abuse (which of course so many have) yet what I feel is ‘spiritualized sexuality’ where in lifetimes as a priestess my soul aspects would provide sexuality as a bridge to experience the Goddess. The men who received this initiation through sexuality would then agree to protect the priestesses.

I processed with my soul aspects that this is essentially prostitution in yet another form and a manifestation of the persecution wounding that is so deep in our experience of sexuality (for men and women, both sides.) The temple priestess (esp the Oracle timelines) are rich with this experience, along with the harem lifetimes of ‘serving the man sexually along with many other wives’ as well. And of course the false light male gurus who sexually abuse their usually young female followers are recapitulating this cycle in this life.

I have felt and processed and held space for the healing of this wounded sexuality experience many times in sessions with women over the years and within myself even in this more recent process. These are such tender, sensitive, and vulnerable grounds to go into and it takes time for the Inner Protector/Gatekeeper to trust to open up the parts/soul aspects who experience these things. So very often the Inner Protector shuts down instead the sexual expression and experience (esp as we get older) within us and in the bond rather than open to feel and heal these grounds.

Going into these places in negotiation with our Inner Protector serves to free up our sexuality expression from the persecution wounds, from the shame, from the blame, from the suppression. As our sexuality energies move within our bodies, a vitality expresses and we can reclaim another previously lost and abused fragment of our Divine Feminine power expression.

The Divine honors our sexuality as sacred. The Divine Mother holds space for us to heal our woundings, shame, and fear related to it together and within our own being during phases of sacred singlehood so that we can become a pure channel of its expression and experience again.

We will be offering sacred sexuality sharings and a sound healing/guided mediation transmission from our bridal chamber experiences during this group call on Sunday, March 3rd at 5pm Portugal time/12pm EST which you can attend live and receive the recording. This is not just for those in relationship, yet also those who are single and sacredly healing their sexual experiences.

And Kasha and I will be offering a sacred sexuality group transmission call for women on 3/17 as well. There is more info to offer a donation at soulfullheart.org/events and https://www.facebook.com/events/688766643180972

Love,

Jelelle Awen

False Twin Flames Vs. Divine Union Counterparts: Digesting The Twin Flames Universe Docs

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I was drawn to watching the second doc series aboutΒ Twin Flames UniverseΒ on Netflix (first one was on Amazon Prime that I also took in), a highly controversial group that is mostly online offering Twin Flame reunion ascension courses, groups, coaching, etc. They came across my radar a couple of years ago when someone I was facilitating in sessions mentioned them and mixed experiences with them.

One of the biggest things I felt as I digested the three part series and the many interviews with former members was a sadness at how the Divine Union Counterpart pairbond reality at the higher dimensions has so often been hijacked by the false light to be used in ways to facilitate control agendas.

Divine Union counterparts are very real and valid, as I have experienced myself with my beloved Raphael for the last 15 years in deep and committed reunion together. Yet, I do differentiate this from the false twin flame paradigm that is so popular in spirituality. In false twin flame (particularly as advocated in this group) there is justification of suffering/codependency/abuse/stalking/not respecting personal boundaries, and overall a fear-based grab at the β€˜twin flame’ person as your ultimate lover so you need to just β€˜live with’ whatever matter of way they treat you. Any means to be with them is justified for the ends of β€˜completing each other.’

This is problematic enough in terms of healthy transaction grounds and embodied emotional maturity (which is the real gift of mirroring offered in a Divine Union counterpart bond, plus resolution of karmic patterns together) yet it gets very messy when you have false light leaders who use control, manipulation, group think, false abundance hooks and leaders who seem to be motivated NOT by love yet by making money and fuelling their own self image.

I do trust in the higher realms of the soul that these experiences are chosen by all followers and teachers for lessons and learning. I esp came to this sense having gone through and reconciled my own mostly false light experience and intense shunning experience w/a spiritual group/teacher many years ago when Raphael and I first started dating, which also taught me so much about the type of teacher/healer/space holder/community leader I want to be and don’t want to be. There is quite the collapse and revelation during this phase of Ascension going on of such false light structures and teachers as we β€˜outgrow’ needing to go through this particular crucible anymore.

It is saddening to feel the power that is given away to these leaders who do not deserve it, the suffering caused to all….and the exploitation of the very deep draw they have to be in sacred union experience. The longing to be in union with the Divine is what I kept feeling as well was at the root of it…the Divine orphan aching to be β€˜claimed’ again.

True divine counterparts have a ground of goodness and good will between them, cannot abuse each other or lie/deceive each other (certainly not taking out restraining orders on each other like in the doc!), and even if they can’t transact to be together due to personal choices, there is a sense of love and acceptance between them around this.

The ultimate purpose of the Divine Union Counterparts coming into reunion is to serve love with the Divine (not falsely claiming to BE god) and offer the template of moving out of separation and into union for others. It is not for personal gratification (other than what is healthy experienced as love with other), β€˜hot sex’, making lots of money, having influence over others, etc.

All relationships are sacred, however, and teach us so much about love, worth, and mirrors of separation/union.

We share more about this way of transacting in Divine Union counterpart bonds in our Sacred Union virtual transmission circles offered monthly for men/women, just men and just women (with one coming up on 2/18) with more info at soulfullheart.org/sacredunionseries2024

I shared more about the Divine Union Counterpart pairbond source field and journeys to it with Raphael here: https://www.soulfullheart.org/…/journeying-to-the…

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Hello, I’m Jelelle. I’m in a long-term Divine Counterpart bond; a Divine Union & Ascension Teacher/Parts Work Facilitator and a spiritual writer. To find out more about me, have a look at my website or book a session with me.

I am the author of four books about emotional/spiritual awakening during Ascension, including Free To Be 5D: Navigating Ascension From The Inside Out, available on Amazon.

You can follow me on Facebook here.

Third Eye Chakra: Divine Self Embodiment Video Series W/Raphael & Jelelle Awen

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Third Eye Chakra Opening: Divine Self Embodiment Chakra Sound Healing Series

Your third eye opens up your seeing, your visions, your clairvoyance, and your inspired dreams. As you heal blocks and fears (usually due to persecution from this life and other lifetimes for sharing third eye gifts), you can see beyond the veil of your soul’s amnesia and 3D Matrix conditioning. You become truly free and limitless in where you can ‘go’ and what you can imagine/envision that often leads to manifestation in the physical.

In this video, SoulFullHeart Teachers Raphael and I, Jelelle, Awen are playing our 432 HZ tuned crystal and especially the third chakra bowl (A Note). The meditation that comes through us invites you to open your third eye chakra to envision and connect to a safe, pure, high dimensional space where you can be with parts of yourself and soul aspects. You create an anchoring bridge to safety, purity, and deep healing for yourself with your Divine Self as you open to this creativity, this power of your imagination, this access to your soul’s domains.

And we recode together, we affirm together: I am seeing beyond the veil. I am Divine Intuition. My imagination is open and active.

We tune into our Divine Self embodiment for both women and men, plus Divine Union codes for opening up clear seeing and transmit these codes also through light language and toning/singing together in healing harmonies.

This is the sixth video in the Divine Self Embodiment Chakra video series, where we offer a recoding/upgrade transmission for each 3D Body/Energy Field chakra to 5D frequencies of light body. This provides a templating for each chakra to upgrade, yet also activates on a cellular level the imprinting of the light body. And, supports the detox and clearing necessary for the 3D body/energy field as well in its experiences of inflammation, indigestion, injuries, and illness. The Divine self vessel of vital health is what is needed to hold the higher frequencies of light and love that are possible now and going forward in this Ascension process.

Donations are always welcome as energy exchange and to support our offerings with payment links at https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop

We’d love to hear and feel your movements, reactions, and processes that come up in response to this series. You can watch the entire series in a playlist here, including the previous videos: Β Β Β β€’Β HeartΒ Chakra:Β DivineΒ SelfΒ EmbodimentΒ …Β Β 

We also offer livestream/virtual sound healings and local sound healing circles in Portugal with more info about future events and 1:1 sessions at https://www.soulfullheart.org/


Throat Chakra: Divine Self Embodiment Video Series W/Raphael & Jelelle Awen

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By Jelelle Awen

An open throat chakra allows for your truth to be heard and your voice to be freed. For so long our truth has been suppressed, blocked, and vilified by fear. NOW is the time for your voice to be freed by love. For your gifts to be shared. For your soul’s song to be sung.

In this video, Raphael and I, Jelelle, are playing our 432 HZ tuned crystal sound bowls and especially the sound bowl that activates/clears/opens your throat chakra (G Note). The meditation that comes through us invites you to open your throat chakra and connect to whatever sounds, tones, words, and light language want to come through. To allow what needs to be spoken to be freed and to release the fear in that movement.

And we recode together, we affirm together: I and my truth are One. I am transparent and authentic. I am Divine Truth.

We tune into our Divine Self embodiment for both women and men, plus Divine Union codes for opening up vulnerable truth telling and transmit these codes also through light language and toning/singing together in healing harmonies.

This is the fifth video in the Divine Self Embodiment Chakra video series, where we offer a recoding/upgrade transmission for each 3D Body/Energy Field chakra to 5D frequencies of light body. This provides a templating for each chakra to upgrade, yet also activates on a cellular level the imprinting of the light body. And, supports the detox and clearing necessary for the 3D body/energy field as well in its experiences of inflammation, indigestion, injuries, and illness. The Divine self vessel of vital health is what is needed to hold the higher frequencies of light and love that are possible now and going forward in this Ascension process.

Hope you can join us to take in each of these transmissions in your own pace and timing as a support of calibration to this 8 Divine Union year of 2024!

Donations are always welcome as energy exchange and to support our offerings with payment links at https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop

We’d love to hear and feel your movements, reactions, and processes that come up in response to this series. You can watch the entire series in a playlist here, including the previous videos: Β Β Β β€’Β HeartΒ Chakra:Β DivineΒ SelfΒ EmbodimentΒ …Β Β 

We also offer livestream/virtual sound healings and local sound healing circles in Portugal with more info about future events and 1:1 sessions at https://www.soulfullheart.org/


Hope you can join us to take in each of these transmissions in your own pace and timing as a support of calibration to this 8 Divine Union year of 2024!

Donations are always welcome as energy exchange and to support our offerings with payment links at https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop

We’d love to hear and feel your movements, reactions, and processes that come up in response to this series. You can watch the entire series in a playlist here, including the previous videos: Β Β Β Β β€’Β SoundΒ HealingΒ Β &Β LightΒ LanguageΒ Trans…Β Β 

We also offer livestream/virtual sound healings and local sound healing circles in Portugal with more info about future events and 1:1 sessions at https://www.soulfullheart.org/

Solar Plexus Chakra: Divine Self Embodiment Video Series W/Raphael & Jelelle Awen

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By Jelelle Awen

Solar Plexus (Power Center) Chakra Divine Self Embodiment Video: Our Solar Plexus Chakra located at our navel is the seat of our sense of personal power where healthy self confidence, empowerment, and action combined with soul guidance/Divine surrender can be accessed. Unhealed and undigested unworthiness, shame and fear from this life and other lifetimes, plus abuse/persecution wounds from False Light/False Gods in the soul field can block and suppress, clog up your Solar Plexus Chakra. This can lead to feeling sluggish, lacking energy, inability to set healthy boundaries (advocating for needs/desires) and inability to focus/be intentional.

In this video, Raphael and I are playing our 432 HZ tuned crystal sound bowls and especially the solar plexus chakra (E Note). The meditation that comes through us invites you to open your solar plexus chakra to feel the fire in your belly, to feel humble self worth, to feel confident in expressing yourself, to set boundaries if needed. To connect and bring healing love to the inner Punisher/Shame cycle and looping that is going on within. We tune into our Divine Self embodiment for both women and men, plus Divine Union codes for empowerment, surrender to Divine Will, personal sovereignty and transmit through light language and toning/singing together in healing harmonies.

And we recode together, we affirm together: I am graceful fire. I am sovereign. I am powerful. I am Divine Will. I am guided and in flow.

This is the third video in the Divine Self Embodiment Chakra video series, where we offer a recoding/upgrade transmission for each 3D Body/Energy Field chakra to 5D frequencies of light body. This provides a templating for each chakra to upgrade, yet also activates on a cellular level the imprinting of the light body. And, supports the detox and clearing necessary for the 3D body/energy field as well in its experiences of inflammation, indigestion, injuries, and illness. The Divine self vessel of vital health is what is needed to hold the higher frequencies of light and love that are possible now and going forward in this Ascension process.

Hope you can join us to take in each of these transmissions in your own pace and timing as a support of calibration to this 8 Divine Union year of 2024!

Donations are always welcome as energy exchange and to support our offerings with payment links at https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop

We’d love to hear and feel your movements, reactions, and processes that come up in response to this series. You can watch the entire series in a playlist here, including the previous videos: Β Β Β Β β€’Β SoundΒ HealingΒ Β &Β LightΒ LanguageΒ Trans…Β Β 

We also offer livestream/virtual sound healings and local sound healing circles in Portugal with more info about future events and 1:1 sessions at https://www.soulfullheart.org/

Healing The Persecution Wound: No Longer Allowing Toxic Inner & Outer Relationship Dynamics

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By Jelelle Awen

Deep clearings recently of the persecution wound that lives in us all as we’ve had so many lifetimes of holding frequencies of healing, light, and love for the collective. Seeding light in the darkness. Holding the higher codes of union remembrance from higher timelines on the Earth Plane…millions of years in Lemurian golden age, the golden age of Atlantis before the fall….and golden ages on other planets and in other galaxies.

The persecution wound seems to come up in personal (esp. birth family) and in service relationships most strongly. The feelings/reactions/triggers that can come up in parts of us around being misunderstood, not seen, hurt or abused, rejection, β€˜kicked’ energectically, feeling shame and unworthiness pushed up. That strong instinctual urge and trauma response in β€˜being attacked’ to defend ourselves, to fight, or to flight.

And sometimes we need to go many β€˜rounds’ into this dynamic with a soul who has signed up to hold this persecution mirror for us (often reinforced by the β€˜narcissist program’ as I call it). We need to go into repeated attempts to clear the karma there, to transcend beyond the β€˜roles’ of persecutor and victim into the open field of love where no wrong can truly be done from one to another.

I’m feeling personally a soul turn completion of a sacrificial pattern with souls who have played the persecutor role for me (sometimes very literally in certain lifetimes). My soul tendency is not toward fighting or defending myself yet rather toward large hearted forgiveness and desire to arise into the new grounds.

This can be a good thing for an ambassador/healer/teacher….yet, my soul aspects and parts this life and others have given too much in the sense of over holding, care taking, extending myself…a sense of making up for the light and love of the Divine that I can connect to if others are struggling to feel that themselves.

It has almost been a β€˜survivor’s guilt/unworthiness’ piece where my Divine access is given away without enough personal needs criteria, esp in lifetimes where personal needs weren’t even considered or connected to (such as being a nun or priestess). Being a bridge to the Divine is an aspect of this, of course, and yet being that without a personal cost to me and being in humble worthiness/advocating for self is a piece I am healing this life.

I am now tuned into that I can forgive in the higher levels as I feel Divine Mother’s heart of compassion flow through…and yet can’t transactionally allow into my life those who cannot take accountability for the harm they have caused (sometimes going into amnesia about it even happening), who continue to project dark agendas without looking at their side/go into curiosity around where these are sourced from, who don’t feel genuine remorse over harms caused, who gaslight or invalidate feeling impacts of my parts or their own, and who aren’t continually surrendering into Divine guidance and trust as best they can and have access to.

I am bringing my truth in directness with care and offering mirrors/challenges as needed in response, yet I am also complete with holding space for this often toxic dynamic in myself or soul field, in service work, in personal relationships/community, or for the collective. It has been a blessed gift to me to have these experiences and I’ve learned a lot, even when difficult and painful.

I also felt a deep love ambassador process recently by bridging in meditation to a Grand Inquisitor energy in the karmic field….a Gatekeeper/Punisher who is reinforced and supported by the Matrix energies. This Inquisitor immediately expressed remorse and asked for forgiveness and as he received it, he started to transmute from all bloody, dark and heavy….. to wearing golden robes of light with all blood washed away. Waves of forgiveness from Divine Mother flowed over us both and he started transforming into masculine discernment and truth telling without need to persecute or expose anyone. And I felt a release of wounded feminine feelings of being hurt or harmed by this energy.

With this movement, I could feel how this Inquisitor had been β€˜showing up’ over the years in different ways to get my attention (originally in the form of my parents), so that I could reconcile my relationship to this shadow, which is also within my own soul field too. None of us has truly only been a victim or only a persecutor nor parts of us either.

It feels like there is a big turn happening for the awakening and ascending masculine in this way…both in men and in the inner masculine in women. The old patriarchal grounds of being the exposer, the inquisitor, the edgy truth telling, the tyrant, the abuser..they are falling away as Divine Father offers a template of truth telling to men and women that is direct yet with care. Provokes what is needed and yet doesn’t do damage. Leads with transparency and authenticity while being sensitive to impact on all.

The truth of our being AS love reveals itself as the polarities heal. As the fear moves into love. And sometimes as we no longer allow the repeated cycles that don’t serve us or others to continue (if they aren’t meant to).

ALL of the experiences in relationships are sacred, both the bliss and the mess. Felt as portals of self discovery, they open out into growth and deeper feeling experience of BEING love in humbly worthy sacred human form.

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Meditation to connect to the punisher-shame dynamic within you (inner persecution) here: https://youtu.be/kBG0OFQAdYc?si=uuIIJRwL_8rpZpXC

~

Sacred Union Virtual Transmission Circle Event On 2/4

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By Jelelle Awen

Sacred Union with a partner offers a frequency of Divine Self experience in the physical unlike any other and is a huge growth as well as service ground. Your partner mirrors both your leading edge of gifts/Divine essence and your trailing edge of wounds/pains/suffering/shadow. This unique combination offers a ground of healing and transformation that allows for multiple lifetime clearings in one lifetime. Both the goodness bliss of union and the karmic mess of separation are pushed up, illuminated, and offered.

Activating and embodying these Sacred Union codes within you allows you to see and feel beyond a fear of loneliness, or your heartaches in romance, to seeing your higher hearts calling to inhabit this sacred ground. Sacred Union frequencies begin from where you are right now, whether single or in a relationship, and take you into new places inside and out in perfect timing and flow.

​Many more Sacred Union counterparts/twins/pair bonds are coming together now in this Ascension timeline than ever before, as many of us signed up to be together in this life in the physical for service of the Divine and the Ascension process. The reunion of counterparts is a template for all souls of what is possible from within them and with the Divine as separation wounds are healed in unity.

​​In this two-hour transmission circle for men and women on Sunday, February 4th at 5:00pm-7:00pm WET/GMT; 12:00pm EST; 9:00am PST over Zoom, SoulFullHeart Teachers/Facilitators/Sacred Union Mates Raphael and Jelelle Awen offer a Sacred Union activation for those currently in relationship, those in separation from their mate, and those who are single.

We will share about:
– our own personal journeys and process of being in Sacred Union, both the bliss and mess of that experience and how we have navigated through it.
– how to identify, heal, and feel parts of you and their relationship to relationships
– how connecting with your Gatekeeper and soul aspects in other lifetimes allows for healing of karmic patterns/configurations that opens up sacred union within and with a mate

In the guided meditation/transmission portion of the call, we create a bridge to your Sacred Union relationship to feel it as it is currently transacting, either in current transaction with your mate, in separation, or from within you. You’ll be able to sense energies of resistance, fear, and pain that may be in the space and any parts of you that hold them.

We also open up a bridge for you to connect your Divine Union Pairbond at the original higher dimensional source field with your mate (known or not), which offers an inspiring flood of love and reminder of union. Divine guides and sacred union mates Yeshua and Mary Magdalene join us to hold a safe, higher-vibe space for this exploration and offer inspiring transmissions of Infinite love and light. Raphael and Jelelle will channel from his sacred masculine mate heart and her sacred feminine mate heart any messages/guidance/codes of support that flow through them for you.

We will play our 432HZ crystal sound bowls, offering healing Divine Union codes and frequencies in our toning/light language, and also repeat affirmations/I AM recodings as a group that provide a new coding within you and all of us together.

If you are currently in a sacred union relationship, this transmission will support you to deepen the intimacy within you and with your partner. It will also bridge you to a new way to process your experience and get more space from any reactive patterns that are occurring.

If you are currently single or experiencing a pairbond in conscious separation (meaning you have met your mate yet aren’t in a relationship right now), this group call will give you a bigger context for which to digest sacred union. You will also bring in new codes to help any suffering grounds that have been occurring around it.

We recommend reading/listening to Jelelle’s Free To Be 5D book as a support for this circle. If you purchase this circle, we will send you a free PDF, plus the audio book files in Jelelle’s voice, to take in as a support for it.

This circle is part of our ongoing Sacred Union w/Self, Others & the Divine virtual transmission circles series (with men and women’s circles as well) running through the end of June. You don’t need to attend every circle and can offer an individual donation for each…and also the transmission experience is deeper with each circle that you take in. More info about the series here: soulfullheart.org/sacredunionseries2024

You can receive these frequencies live with us (highly recommended) or take in the recording afterwards. If you attend the live group, you’ll have the opportunity to share with us about what you experienced during the meditation and receive feedback/next steps of integration from us (this is totally optional). Plus, you’ll be able to take in and receive sharings from other men and women in the call, which is a powerful activation of its own!

This group is open to the public and to anyone over 18. You can attend the group and/or receive the recording for an energy/money exchange of whatever donation you feel to give (11 Euros/USD is the amount people usually offer us).

You can offer your donation for the call in one of four ways:

1. Our preferred payment platform is Wise if you have that or would like to sign up. It’s instant, zero fee to transfer money between members. There’s a doc here with some guidance and more info if you’d like to sign up. Include your email if using wise: http://tiny.cc/ron3vz

2. If you are Canadian, you can use Interac e-transfer. Our email for transfers is soulfullhearts@gmail.com and account is under Marvin Vriend. It’s also instant and without service fees to sender or receiver.

3. via our shop at soulfullheart.org/shop using stripe (Credit/debit)

4. Paypal at Paypal.me/soulfullheart (include your email)