The Need For Belonging, Forgiveness, And Acceptance At The Root Of Our Collective Pain

“We are not just the Light but the shadow that it casts as well. We are all looking to find love and be felt in all the pains that we have experienced. We all seek forgiveness and to be forgiven. We need to feel a part of something and to be told we are beautiful just the way we are.”

I watched a documentary last night called Jihad where the documentarian Deeyah Khan interviews different muslim men in the UK that were led to extremist Islamic groups by a particular man who fought in the war in Afghanistan against the Soviets. This former leader, known as the founding father of the Western jihad movement was interviewed as well.

Deeyah Khan’s focus was to get to the heart of the man of whom she was interviewing to understand what it truly was that led them to this extremism underneath the politics. It was a riveting and touching account of our humanity and our deep desire and NEED to feel like we belong and are accepted.

Now this is a VERY rough and tumble lower 4D energy that is hard to feel, YET for me it got to the core of something intensely profound in our collective. It has roots in our veiled perception of separation and how we have experiences that have left parts of us all feeling very alone and deemed unlovable. What Inner Protectors do to assuage that pain range from benign to extremely destructive, either toward self or others.

It is easy for this parts to get sucked into the vat of polarized politics. Even in the New Age movement there is “spiritual warfare”. This is polarized spirituality with deep roots in our own personal traumas and pains. If we were to be like this interviewer and sit down with our parts that are feeling rage, trauma, fear, angst, or frustration we can get to the deeper and more vulnerable pain that undergirds this polarization.

When this was brought with compassionate curiosity, the leader of this jihad group found himself in a flood of tears that cut to the core of his pain. His innocence and humanity were left on the table and Love was finding its way. I felt similar frequencies in my Orion self when going into the myriad timelines of galactic destruction.

The most provocative part of it was when she asked this leader, after stating that he had forgiven the people that had killed his family as a child, if had forgiven himself. This was the most powerful moment as he still had not gotten to that point and the tears and pain flooded in once more.

This act of self-forgiveness is where the road to true self-love and change begin. It is where the dreams of what is desired and possible are permitted to flourish and gain traction. When these men were asked what they wanted for themselves, each one of them could not answer. They had not thought about it their entire lives. Coming from my experience that left me sad and yet hopeful that they would find their own personal heaven within.

Watching this film brought an expanded awareness of where my humanity and spirituality meet. We are not just the Light but the shadow that it casts as well. We are all looking to find love and be felt in all the pains that we have experienced. We all seek forgiveness and to be forgiven. We need to feel a part of something and to be told we are beautiful just the way we are.

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Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.

 

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Moving Out Of Resentment & Into Forgiveness, Starting From Within

By Jelelle Awen

We are being invited to move into frequencies of open hearted remorse AND forgiveness at increasing rates now. Moving out of bitterness and resentment, not as a bypass of these feelings, yet with an acknowledgement of the parts of you that feel these denser, edgier things and WHY. Discovering the why source of the resentment (hurt covered over by self protective rage usually) inside of you allows for an accelerated movement into vulnerability.

Our Inner Protectors can get ‘parked’ in resentments with a looping pattern of shame and blame (both inside of us and toward our ‘perpetuators”.) The Inner Punisher joins in to the ‘fight’ and can build quite a strong case to keep the resentments boiling and toiling….often for years after the actual circumstances and conflicts.

But there is a cost to holding onto resentments, bitterness, grudges, etc. remaining inside of you. The cost is to the depth of which you can experience returning to love essence frequencies again. The cost is to the sensitive and precious Inner Child who literally feels heart break at ANY of these harsh and fear-based frequencies transacting toward them (this is what was so often experienced in childhood.) The cost is to experiencing your BIGNESS that can forgive in an instant both yourself and others.

These bitternesses/resentments are 3D and lower 4D frequencies that are aching for healing and transmutation now…especially as they live inside of the wounded masculine within us all and the collective. Holding onto these perceived resentments may feel like a ‘win’ in the moment to the part of you defending itself….yet it is ultimately a ‘loss’ for love transaction.

This process of forgiveness has to start from within. Going within to feel where the resentments exist and shimmer between parts of you allows for less projection of this outward toward others….and less drawing of situations that bring this up and create this energy with others. Resentments can run deep between an inner mother and an inner father for example, as often templated by birth parent relationships. Also between an overly protective Protector/Punisher part and an Inner Child/Teenager there can be big resentments.

This playout can also be HUGELY karmic, with many patterns of this expressing out in many timelines/lifetimes in different scenarios of betrayal, persecution, murder/killing, etc. Connecting with your Metasouls (soul fragments) in these lifetimes and really feeling/healing their experiences of these cycles can lighten up the experience in this life too and the drawing of more situations like this.

Being an ambassador of love to these inner relationships and other timelines/lifetimes experiences, offering much diplomatic and compassion space holding for each of these parts of you allows them to let go and truly move on.

We are ALL being invited to let go of the old hurts and the old patterns of shaming and blaming, both inside and with others. The Divine Mother offers a beautiful template of this forgiveness that also embodies remorse and compassion.  Lean into Her energy as She offers forgiveness and compassion to ALL parts of you and you can then extend it toward yourself and others too.

This is my 33 Day Deepen series offering many guided meditations to begin this compassionate space holding and healing for this life and other lifetimes too: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvLiLpw1qSOmQE-tsqhGSAD3

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Gabriel Solais and I will be co-hosting a live stream tomorrow on April 3rd here on FB at 10:00am PST to digest the March energies we’ve experienced and feel into April energies too!

1:1 sessions available to feel, heal, and reveal! More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

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5/11 Energies: Portal To Forgiveness, Completion Of Old Timelines With Others

by Kalayna Colibri

5/11 energies feel significant today… portals opening into self-forgiveness. Higher Self connections are possible between you and those you’ve known in the past. Old relationship debris gets to clear away as you feel the tears of remorse for what’s happened in these relationships and what didn’t happen too. It’s an opportunity to own the role you’ve played while feeling the Higher Selves of others own their own roles too… ripples of deep self-forgiveness are possible in this today as well as forgiveness of others.

This is a powerful way to complete old timelines and embrace the imminent, highest timeline that is possible for you. So much movement happens when forgiveness is genuine and not simply said but felt. True gratitude can bloom from this too, as you feel these portals open and close, and feel the lessons and growth you and parts of you gathered from each and every experience.

This is beautiful to feel in words but even better to experience when parts of you are ready to let go into this space. It is a true and deep gift to be able to feel how all relationships have been connected for a reason and how you are a part of the trajectory of so many others. This is true oneness and connectedness. This is what unites us in higher, more porous dimensions for the healing of the collective inside and outside of us. This is powerful and poignant healing and ascension, a true moving on and moving up.

Being in this space with your parts if you can feel them while leaning into the space holding of higher-dimensional aspects of you is the invitation today. Experiencing this for myself and the movements inside are touching, expansive, and above all, loving to the nth degree… ❤️

Lots of love to you and WITH you!

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 35, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, speaker, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Choosing Your Own Timeline During This Phase Of Disclosure And Change

By Jelelle Awen
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It’s a ‘choose your own timeline’ kind of reality in this now of so much transition and change. Choosing the timeline of 3D reality where life goes on as usual, with routine, without self or outer inquiry, with acceptance of what has been presented as truth without question….this is a choice that many souls are making for their own reasons, connected to their journeys here. Choosing the timeline of waking up into soul awareness, questioning what you have been taught and sold and conditioned into by 3D reality, reconciling what you have been programmed to be (by your soul’s choice) and who you REALLY are….this is the awakening choice that MANY more souls are making as the collective ascension process moves forward.

If you are choosing to relearn or really newly learn the conditions of the world and the power structures that are operating in the shadows….this can be a heartbreaking process to your 3D self to learn that the previously trusted leaders and government are playing out so much shadow, mostly coming from deeply fear-based and oppressive frequencies. REAL shock sets in as your eyes, heart, and mind open to the realities that mainstream everything has hidden from you. This is a phase of awakening, this truly WAKING up phase, and conscious disconnect from the collective fear-based matrix. It is messy with purges of OUTrage coming up and out, needing to be expressed, finding a voice for the parts of you that feel suppressed. This is a 4D phase as well and souls are also choosing to serve as leaders/healers/teachers during this ‘wake up and shake up’ to help others to integrate what they are learning.

As more global disclosure happens to reveal the shadow side of the 3D ‘power’ structures and also the Star BEing alliances that exist on many levels, more souls will be invited to move from 3D into 4D. They will be invited into the clashes of awakening, smashing against the ‘rocks’ of conditioned reality, and potentially guided out into the open ocean of their own sovereignty again. The Divine will be THERE to guide them, love them, feel all the parts of them that are in turmoil, disbelief, shock, shut down. Souls like me, my beloveds, and others will be there to hold space for the transition that we too have been through and are going through still…serving as guides, beacons, and support to navigate the reactions in the emotional, physical, mental, and spiritual bodies.

It IS a messy time ‘out there’. I experienced a touching piece of global ambassadorship work yesterday as I etherically connected to the ‘frontlines’ of what we could call the Cabal (fear-based power structure) versus the Alliance (previously fear-based power structure that wants to change, wants redemption.) I don’t feel there are any really ‘versus’ or ‘against’, yet this is the shadowy aspects of duality that we have been playing out for so long that to exit it is to go through it. There was the sense of much activity on the ‘frontlines’…no direct violent action, yet much tension between the two ‘sides’ as they sort through how to proceed with a disclosure process to a public that ranges from completely asleep to newly outraged to long disclosed.

I offered love, forgiveness, and bridge of peace to the leaders of these energies (their higher selves mostly) and felt some of it go in. I can’t kNOw that these etheric efforts ‘do’ much of anything but my heart felt lighter to have offered love even to the darkest of energies. When I have engaged in ambassadorship like this, always do the BEings/souls ask for forgiveness for their fear-based, violent actions.

The Divine response I feel inside to them is that they are ALREADY forgiven. I remind them that they are just carrying out their very difficult role amongst the grand playout and they’ve forgotten that they made this agreement. ALL of it has been negotiated on the soul level and they have chosen, for their own growth, to ‘play the role’ of the ‘bad guy’. It is profound to feel this message go into them, usually bringing up rare tears, and also out and through me as it always helps to ease any fear that might come up inside of me.

Whatever our choices during this time of intense transition, ultimately we ARE forgiven for them. We are always invited to choose the higher timeline, the love-based choice, and, yet, we all have our own soul journeys to go on. If you are called to serve love as your highest purpose during this time, know that you are DEEPLY needed right now. This service of love can come through most strongly when there is an overflow of self love from your healing heart/soul/body/mind. Choosing your own healing AS a service of love is also much needed and does seem to impact positively the collective too.

We are being offered the choosing of our own timelines…..I choose serving love. How about YOU?

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about a FREE intro session with a SoulFullHeart facilitator, group calls, videos, retreats, etc.

Forgiving Yourself And Others: SoulFullHeart Museletter Week Of February 13, 2017

By Jelelle Awen

A LOT of writing is coming for me lately and through me lately, I’ve been sharing these writings here…..along with the wonderful writings of Raphael,Gabriel, Leena. These posts can float on by on the facebook or blog stream. So, we’ve collected together, pooled together, this week’s SoulFullHeart writings, videos, and upcoming events in one place, which we call a ‘museletter.’ A pool to dip into providing Divine inspiration in the form of words and energy. The latest article by me featured on this week’s one is below and please visit our website and enter your email or email us at soulfullhearts@gmail.com if you would like to receive these in your email.

Forgive them their busyness,
They know not how to be.
Forgive them their violence,
They know not how to act.
Forgive them their blindness,
They know not how to see.
Forgive them their lack of conscience
They know not how to feel remorse.
Forgive them their judgment,
They know not how to discern.
Forgive them their numbness,
They know not how to feel.
Forgive them their hatred
They know not how to love.
Forgive them their greed,
They know not how to receive.
Forgive them their destruction,
They know not how to create.
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This message came to me through ascended teacher Mother Mary in 2010 after I was attuned to remember Reiki energy or Christ consciousness energy. I was struggling at the time, in recovery in many ways from leaving a spiritual group, soul family, that I was deeply connected with and felt was my soul work. I chose to leave, yet the very sudden loss of connection with the group pushed up deep feelings of rejection, hurt, frustration, and rage. Such an important process, such an important crucible for me to have experienced.

During this time, I was struggling with forgiving my soul family in the group who would no longer be in relationship with me. I was especially conflicted about forgiving the leader of the group, my former spiritual teacher, and surrogate father who had ‘kicked’ me out with very harsh energies. These edges in my emotional body and in the aspects that held them needed soothing, comfort, and love.

Mother Mary visited me and offered waves of soft blue and pink light. She embraced me, reflecting to me my purity and innocence. She offered me these words of forgiveness to extend toward those who I perceived had hurt me, an extension of the words spoken by Yeshua as he died. And, more than anything, she encouraged me to embrace them toward myself and the parts of me that had been so drawn to the group, had done harm to others, parts of me that were like the formerly beloved spiritual teacher. I was also awakening to the difficult realities of the 3D world and the abuses on so many levels going on related to the planet, animals, toward other human beings. She was offering forgiveness energy toward all the ‘perpetrators’ of these abusive frequencies too.

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Forgive Them As You Forgive Yourself

By Jelelle Awen

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Forgive them their busyness,
They know not how to be.
Forgive them their violence,
They know not how to act.
Forgive them their blindness,
They know not how to see.
Forgive them their lack of conscience
They know not how to feel remorse.
Forgive them their judgment,
They know not how to discern.
Forgive them their numbness,
They know not how to feel.
Forgive them their hatred
They know not how to love.
Forgive them their greed,
They know not how to receive.
Forgive them their destruction,
They know not how to create.

They know not yet how, but they CAN remember if responded to with love, held with love, reminded of love. And, the deepest forgiveness extend to YOURSELF first as this is the only way that it will overflow to others….

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By Jelelle Awen with Mother Mary, originally received in 2010, feels even more timely today…a message for how to feel forgiveness and compassion for others and yet, also, and even more importantly, for OURSELVES

Jelelle Awen is a writer and co-creator/teacher/group facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions with her, online group calls and circles, community, videos, and more.

 

Feeling The Cries Of The World Without Suffering Over Them To Open Your Cosmic or 5D Heart Chakra

By Jelelle Awen

 

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Painting by Willow Arleana

 

Opening up your cosmic heart, your Christ Consciousness heart, is to open your heart to feel the cries of the world. The cries of the world are easy to pick up as the pitch is so high and so pressing right now…… yet they can be difficult to digest. Feeling the cries of the world can lead you through necessary phases of activism and advocacy. In this phase, you are compelled to fight for justice and to shift the exterior realities of the world.

And, you may move through this phase into a place of acceptance and seeing that every soul chooses their own journey. Every one. You may feel how the injustice actually begins from within and that the real protest originates from within. Every person and situation that you have advocated against lives inside of you (most likely in shadow) somewhere. As you shine the light of self love on the shadow within that comes from your undigested pain body, unhealed karmic binds, and within the collective unconsciousness, the frequency of protest shifts to forgiveness. The frequency of outrage shifts to compassion. The frequency of separation shifts to connection.

As you shift your sense of authority over your life to within AND to a surrendered sense of the Divine and your higher self, you no longer feel that any outside authority is doing anything to you that can cause you suffering. You cause your own suffering by drawing these frequencies to yourself…..until you no longer need them. Until the frequency of love has replaced the suffering.

All of these phases are sacred and necessary and every soul is different. We are receiving so much support from Archangels, angels, spirit guides, and star beings to move into a higher vibrational frequency of heart, to open the cosmic heart chakra of Gaia (centrally located in Glastonbury, England), and this energy cosmic heart frequency is available to all sentient beings on Gaia to choose or to reject.

Your compassion, gratitude, and forgiveness are higher frequency vibrations templated by the cosmic christ heart. Feeling them firstly and most deeply for yourself opens out their access for you to feel them toward others. This allows you to feel the cries of the world, to serve love, yet not become the cries of the world, tied into suffering over suffering.

 

Jelelle Awen is an 5D ascension teacher, writer and co-creator/teacher/group facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions with her, online group calls and circles, community, videos, and more.