Author: Jelelle Awen

I am a long-time healer, teacher, student, and facilitator of souls and hearts. My awakening journey really began in my early 30's in 2004 when I started a process to connect with and integrate parts of myself from this life and other lifetimes/timelines as well. I have been engaged with and offering 'parts process' work ever since then! I also awakened over the years to my multidimensional spiritual gifts, capacity to be a bridge to the Divine Feminine especially, galactic ambassador abilities, and intuitive empathic capacities to 'feel' the emotional body, energy chakras, and soul field. I offer 1:1 sessions with women, group facilitation and teaching experience with me through a monthly group transmission over Zoom with Raphael. More information about virtual and in person sessions and groups with me at divineselfembodiment.com I am also a writer, Soul Scribe and author of five books: Free To Be 5D: Navigating Ascension From The Inside Out; Bliss Mess: The Wonders And Challenges Of Ascension; Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality; And Keep Waking Up!: Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond. All are available now as PDF, ebook, and print editions at divineselfembodiment.com/books. My writings can be found on divineselfembodiment.com and my facebook and IG feeds.

Trusting The Ascension Process As Humanity Shifts Out Of 3D And Into Lower 4D/Dark Night

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By Jelelle Awen

“Be in the world, not of the world, yet care FOR the world,” ~ Yeshua

So many times I have been offered this as a guiding light through this current c narrative and false medicine storm that humanity is experiencing. Being in the world is honoring that we have chosen on a soul level to BE here on this Earth Plane during this transition from 3D Matrix reality moving into 4D transitional/dark night phase and into 5D New Earth. Not being of the world is acknowledging that we are no longer in the mainstream consciousness flow or in resonance with it. We are no longer of it, even as we were ALL raised in it, by it, and of it. And many awakening souls still have many friends/family who are still of it Caring for the world though….ALL of it and ALL souls in it, is the piece that feels like it offers the next level of compassion and love ambassadorship.

As you tune into the Divine Mother and your Christ essence, your heart breaks open to feel the cries of the world, the cries of the womb/hara, the cries of the children. As you feel these cries, you DO care, even for those who judge you as crazy or push you away. You care even if you move out of saving or rescuing anyone and surrender, again, to the Divine holding of it ALL.

This is a collective dark night phase for humanity. This is the crawl and walk through the valley of the shadow of death. Dark nights are ALWAYS messy. They last as long as they need to and you can’t ‘control’ them. They are absolutely necessary for TRUE awakening to occur. Something false must die in order for the new to be born.

It does feel to me that 3D/third dimensional reality as we have previously known it is gone and we have actually ascended beyond it now as has Gaia. The comfort and security of 3D for parts of us, the eat/work/die familiar pattern of it has now shifted into something completely unknown to us before that is also unpredictable and volatile. It feels like we are now moving into a collective lower 4D reality as the ‘mainstream’ one….where soul awakenings can occur along with dark nights. Life as we previously knew it as ‘normal’ no longer exists, which is actually a good thing and IS Ascension…even if it feels rather like a dystopia to us; even if it isn’t how we wanted it or would prefer it to look or feel; or that it feels like it isn’t our choice or is happening ‘to’ us rather than with us.

While this is uncomfortable, it also feels like progress. To continue along in the ‘too comfortable’ 3D Matrix was to continue being suppressed, asleep, numbed, and drugged by it. This is messy now, yet it has woken up SO many souls by disrupting and interrupting their daily routines…and even lockdowns allowing for an unplugging from the daily living/doing/staying busy mill.

Even those previously awakening souls have had to question now how deeply embodied their spirituality actually IS as they lean more into it in real ways to navigate the unknown; how much they have healed in their emotional body as intense reactions come up; how much they have compartmentalized their spiritual essence away from the rest of their life as their social life becomes more difficult to navigate.

For those of us long on the awakening journey aligned with Divine Mother, we see and trust the value of these lower 4D dimensions. Yes, they contain some “hell realms” and dark energies/beings/timelines…yet the darkness needs our love, acceptance, and ambassadorship more than the 3D numb Matrix reality did. To move into 5D, we were ALWAYS going to need to go through 4D and reconcile what has lived there previously in shadow, in our subconscious, in other lifetimes. Any offerings/teachings/teachers that suggest we could have somehow avoided this are still plugged into a False God/False Light program that diverts us from actually transmuting and transforming (as it is meant to divert and distort.)

Now is the time where we have the support from Ascension energies, from the Divine, from benevolent guardian galactic beings, from guides/Metasoul aspects to TRULY transmute into our sacred human frequencies, to reactivate our DNA, to upgrade our galactic genes, to move into ‘supernatural’ gifts, to FREE up the immense powerful energies of our wombs/haras. We get to experience remembrance of bliss states and authentic joy as well come alive in us….holding the space as we courageously go into the mess over and over again for as many times as it ‘takes’ to heal.

This is what the journey to becoming free looks like….where nothing can be bypassed or wished away, yet needs to be gone through in order to reach the other side. It is this WHOLE journey that we have signed up to experience here as the growth possible from it is so appealing to many of us. It feels like there was a long sign-up line to be part of this phase of humanity’s Ascension on Earth. The best ‘show’ in the Galaxies in that way.

No longer resisting and being afraid of what lurks in the shadows allows us to embrace and understand the deep choice we made for our own growth and for humanity’s more fully.

Much Love from Avalon to you during this Dark Night to Light experience…..Avalon is anchoring in the frequencies of Divine Support to move through all the necessary phases here,

Jelelle Awen

I share much more about the Ascension process, the False God/Light, the 3D and 4D Matrix in my book Free To Be 5D…available in ebook/PDF/print/audio versions with links at soulfullheart.org/books.

Join Kasha and I tomorrow March 7th at 5:00pm GMT/UK time/12:00pm EST for a women’s group call over zoom to feel specifically into the womb hijacking by the Matrix and offer a transmission/meditation for healing and activation beyond it. More information at https://www.soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

Living In Love Over Fear: Navigating The Covid Narrative

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The energies of divergence are quite strong right now. It really can feel as if you are on a different planet and plane of existence from others. How we relate to fear, and specifically the fear of body death right now, are revealing our different consciousness states. The covid narrative is revealing so much about a soul’s relationship to body death and how strongly attached to safety and known they are around that (even as we have been programmed to feel it is natural for us to die at a certain age when immortality is actually our human potential and capacity).

And, also where someone is in the process of claiming their own sovereignty, truth, and relationship of trusting surrender to the Divine. The 3D projection of comforting authority figure onto governments, health authorities, etc. is a phase in a soul’s journey out of parental dependence and toward self empowering Divine self realization.

Yesterday we went to a new grocery store for us that was in the town next to Glastonbury, which has been more mellow about Covid. The fear and control were palpable as soon as we walked in the doors of this new store. Signs all over the store and messages over the loud speakers keep repeating how we must ‘keep each other safe’, keep our masks on, keep away from each other, only shop with one person (this particular store had many signs suggesting that shopping with someone else was quite irresponsible.)

Raphael and I walked around the store without masks, as we are prone to do as a reflection of how we do not live in fear, especially fear of a virus that has such a low mortality rate. And that if we did catch it, we would trust that process and the messenger/mirror/portal that the virus offered us. We also do not fear catching this from others for the same reasons. We were the ONLY ones without masks in the entire store and I could feel the fear from others as we walked down the aisles….as if deadly germs would jump on them from us. I am used to drawing some attention when I walk around but usually it is a draw to the light in my field or the joy I am putting off. I felt sadness about fear toward us and tried to radiate love at them in larger amounts to meet it.

Raphael and I were in joy, we were in love, we were kissing and hugging whenever we could and excitedly looking at the products that drew us. This radiating of love I am hopeful was able to provide a moment, however brief, of relief to those living in so much fear and tension right now. I can feel how the Covid situation has just illuminated this consciousness difference of living in fear or living in love. I don’t feel this as a judgement toward others or a superiority, yet rather symbolic of the polarization and duality that we have all shown up to be part of.

The jabs/shots are another means to separate us as those who choose them really ARE moving into an unknown and untested place of compromised immune system and even what feels like altered DNA, etc. Interestingly, the shots feel MUCH more dangerous to the human body than the virus that so many souls are afraid of. I am personally never going to get one and I would advise against any light workers/healers/awakening souls to do it, even if that means not being able to do certain things which we can then surrender into for a phase of time.

The Matrix is amping up its ultimate control program of the Great Reset, especially here in the UK. I do feel that we in SoulFullHeart we meant to be in this country during this time even as it has been challenging in moments. We are here to offer a beacon of love, of community, of depth of feeling, of trust in the Divine, and a life lived of healing fear to let in more love. I also feel we are here to bring healing energies to the grids of fear and love ambassadorship to those dark energies that have been in control for so long.

I send love to those who are using the Covid situation to mirror fears that are needing to come up. And I offer love to parts of them who need to judge those of us who are not in fear as it is the only way they know how to be. And I also choose to live in love and non-judgement, to trust love, and to be a lighthouse for others to do and be the same!

Love from Avalon,

Jelelle Awen

More info about 1:1 sessions, group call events, writings/books, videos, online community at soulfullheart.org.

Healing, Activating and Freeing Our Wombs

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My womb Sophia can be so still, so deep and so vast. She takes me to the beds of oceans and lakes, tucking me into the depths of my inner waters. She shows me wide open landscapes of infinite possibilities and connects me to the stars in my DNA.

She has gestated and birthed a million babies…in the forms of near constant alchemy ideas, many visions, thousands of writings and four published books, hundreds of videos and healing sessions, many transmissions through my voice, a growing community in Queenship/Kingship with Raphael, a beautiful being/daughter, and so much more. She is birthing with the Divine Mother my most precious service of love called SoulFullHeart….seeded by my beloved Christ-Magdalene lineage within her depths. She reminds me of sacred sisterhood and the power generated by wombs coming into synch with each other on ALL levels. She helps to heal any polarizations against the masculine and links me to the Great Cosmic Womb that unites ALL of us, men and women, as sacred human children of the Divine Mother and Father.

Even when in discomfort and pain from my monthly menstrual cycle, She is generative, hopeful, and inspired. She is fearless….clearing out years of Matrix programming and lifetimes of False Mother templating.

And she can hold….and hold….and hold….and hold. So much can she hold that she needs regular clearing and cleansing of energies to return what isn’t ours back to others; to allow the collective Ascension process to follow its natural course; to not get overwhelmed or frustrated.

YOUR womb holds all this wonder and gifts for you too. Parts of us can have an aversion and resistance to our wombs from receiving little to NO initiation in this life around how to BE with Her power and femininity. Our inner masculine wants to worship and revere her yet needs a bridge to remember how. Our inner Queen/inner Mother may have a matriarchal need to control our wombs rather than surrender to Her unknown and wild creative flows.

It is time for our wombs to rise, to be FREE, to be WHOLE, and to be held as SACRED once again!

Join SoulFullHeart Facilitator/Teacher Kasha Rokshana and I for a women’s meditation group call for powerful Womb healing and activation over zoom in one week, Sunday, March 7th at 5:00pm GMT/12:00pm EST by whatever donation for feel called to give (average is $10-$15 CAD). We will be sharing more about the womb healings/activations that are available in this phase of Ascension, a guided meditation and space for personal sharings. You can offer donation at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen with more information at soulfullheart.org and we will send you the zoom link and the recording of the call as well.

Photo is of me sitting on the Mother Egg stone here in Avalon, who immediately connects with your womb for clearing, healing and activation. She also offers a dissolving/healing of the False Mother/Dark Priestess timelines to let Divine Mother into your Womb. We will be including the Mother Egg Stone in our meditation during the group call.

Love from Avalon – anchoring Sacred Feminine healing on Gaia at this time of Ascension,

Jelelle Awen

Womb Healing & Activation Women’s Meditation Group Call March 7th | Jelelle Awen & Kasha Rokshana

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Our wombs, which includes both our second and third chakras, is a powerful space of creativity, alchemy, stillness, and bridge to our Sacred Feminine capacities as Creatrix of life. Our wombs become filled with pain/trauma layers from this life and other lifetimes, other people’s energies, and even the collective…in this way they are ‘pain wombs’ rather than ‘love wombs’. In addition, our wombs have been hijacked by the 3D/4D Matrix since the fall of Atlantis and the rise of the wounded masculine dominance, so our access to the purity essence of our womb is often very covered over and not fully activated.

This hijacking includes how we experience our monthly menstrual cycles as ‘natural’ when they are actually a suppressive program that effectively and significantly reduces our energy levels and for many of us causes quite a lot of pain and discomfort. We can hold our period cycles with a sense of honoring to our bodies and certainly not with shame or judgement about them, yet to revere them and our menstrual blood can connect to and even draw in the lower 4D Matrix frequencies. This is often bleed through from other timelines/lifetimes where pro-feminine/anti-masculine ritual and ceremony was practiced without awareness of the darker influences that were going on at other dimensional levels.

As we activate the powerful sovereignty contained in our wombs through a personal connection with her (including a ‘naming’ of her), we can then start to clear, heal and remember our infinite capacities of choice as sacred feminine humans. Our capacity to create WHOLE universes includes choices at the personal level toward our procreation, our aging process, our hormonal levels, and ALL biological functions of our bodies. We reclaim ultimate conscious choice over our bodies on all levels, which effectively unplugs us from any Matrix programs.

Kasha and I will be sharing more about this in our next women’s meditation group call on Sunday, March 7th, 2021 at 5:00pm/17:00pm GMT (London, UK timezone/12:00pm EST/9:00am PST). We will talk about this womb hijacking and how that impacts what we experience within our wombs during menstrual cycles, false mother frequencies, other people’s energies, aborted/still gestating/blocked creative projects and expressions, and suppression of our truth. Through a personal relationship with our wombs and supported by the Divine Mother we can heal these layers to move into activation of this powerful force within us and connect to the Cosmic Womb. We will share our personal journeys with this process and our wombs during the call.

During this call, we will also guide you in a meditative space into a safe healing dimension to allow deep connection to your womb and activation. Mother Mary and Mary Magdalene will join us as a template of Mother and Lover/Priestess energies for our wombs to template from and be supported by. We will also repeat affirmations as mantras together and share light language together.

We did a womb healing and activation call on Sunday with women who are deeply in the SoulFullHeart process and it was very powerful for all of us. Even just 15 minutes connecting into the womb space together in this personal, relational and feeling-based way that bypasses the matrix and old school spirituality programs was very effective!

You can receive these Divine Feminine frequencies live with us (highly recommended) or take in the recording afterwards. If you attend the live group, you’ll have the opportunity to share with us about what you experienced during the meditation and receive feedback/next steps of integration from us.This women’s group is open to the public and to all women over 18. You can attend the group and/or receive the recording for an energy exchange of whatever donation you feel to give.

You can purchase the Zoom link to join us live for the group and receive the recording through your email at soulfullheart.org/shop

Or you can purchase it here through paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawenand we will send you the zoom link via email. Please make a note that you are purchasing the March 7th women’s group and check that your email is current.

More information here https://www.facebook.com/events/1300057440381102 and here: https://www.soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

I share about the False God/Matrix here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/what-is-the-false-god…/

Love from Avalon….the heart of sacred feminine healing on Gaia at this time,

Jelelle Awen

What Is The False God?

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“Big clearings going on of all that has been hijacked by the Matrix/False God…our wombs/haras, bodies, minds, hearts are Sacred, Whole & FREE.” This was my status update the other day which got a lively response of resonance when I shared it.


I got this question from someone after posting it, “Can you explain more about what you mean by the False God?” I felt that I would respond to them here as a post rather than just in a private message as it is a good teaching to share.


The False God is a frequency generated by the Matrix at the AI/4D level that has created a distraction, diversion, and distortion of pure Divine love and light energies. With the separation out of the Divine that was chosen BY the Divine, fear was created that has been able to be used by different forces over time to their own advantages. This fear-based reality has been created (with our choice on the higher self level) to keep humanity and Gaia corralled and feeling trapped and enslaved in lower frequencies and denser consciousness realities. Some ‘darker’ Star Beings, with some human conscious collaboration, has operated and broadcast the 4D Matrix since the Fall of Atlantis. Negative Star Beings (also called Archons by the Gnostics) have been highly influencing and programming these human collaborators known as the Elite, the Cabal, the Illuminati, etc. These forces are the ones behind the Global Reset, the darker liberal agenda, Big Pharma/Hollywood/Business, etc. and are orchestrating what we are experiencing now of violation of our liberties and rights through restrictions, lockdowns, quarantines,  inoculations, etc.


The False God programs run on submission, punisher/shame dynamics, unworthiness, and giving over our sovereignty to a power outside of ourselves. Mainstream religions operate from these polarized False God programs, while containing some true light and love energies as well. The False God face and energy is often of a punitive, competitive, and patriarchal “Him” god, shorn of the balancing Divine Mother frequencies.The False God can also feel very dark, satanic, and even ‘evil’ although it is often not that overt or obvious. The Divine Mother can be hijacked by the False God as well with ‘old school’ feminine spirituality that promotes an anti-masculine/pro-feminine agenda through Will of the Goddess worship, dark rituals, moon cycle and moon blood worship (which is a hijack of the Womb Creatix powers by the Matrix-more coming soon about that).


The False God also shows up in some “New Age” offerings in which a false light bubble fed on a steady diet of positive affirmations, shallow spirituality, false gurus/abusive leaders, etc. that doesn’t allow for a deeper drop into the true transmutational ground of Divine Self embodiment and empowerment which includes the integration, love and acceptance of our shadows and ALL parts of us. The False God also operates at the 4D karmic levels from many lifetimes of experiencing it, creating suffering loops of incarnational cycles that play out the same soul themes/patterns over and over again.


The Ascension energies that are flowing into Gaia are watering seeds planted by higher dimensional Star Beings and the Magdalenes soul family lineage is now allowing for the revelation of the False God in all of its forms. This is bringing in a clearing of the fear and pain that has manifested through the worship of it. Through that healing and clearing, the true Divine can emerge from the heart, soul, DNA, wombs/haras of each of us at Its Divine children.


Many souls are now experiencing a wake up from this False God reality and into the new grounds of experiencing the true Divine, the true Christ, the true Divine Mother…..always originating from within us. From this place, we can now experience that we ARE free, we ARE whole, and we ARE sacred. We can then move back into union from within, with each other and with the Divine AS our Beloved.


There is much more about the Matrix and the False God in my book Free To Be 5D with links to purchase ebook, PDF, print and audio book versions at soulfulllheart.org/books.

art by Anna Baibakova

Love from Avalon!

Jelelle Awen


Kasha and I will be teaching more about healing the matrix womb hijacking and activating our love womb in an upcoming women’s group call over zoom on Sunday, March 7th. You can join us by donation with more information at https://www.facebook.com/events/1300057440381102 and soulfullheart.org.

Let Go & Let Peace During This Dark Initiatory Time | Jelelle Awen & The Magdalenes

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Energy Update: Emerging out of my honeymoon and Bridal Chamber consciousness for which I’ve been happily indulging lately with Raphael, I can feel, of course, the intensity of events and energies that are occurring in the collective, 3D, Matrix with the lockdowns, restrictions, quarantine, v*ccine agenda, etc. Especially this is in my awareness as we have beloveds coming to and looking to travel here to Glastonbury and are going through a travel gauntlet of sorts to arrive safely here in Avalon.


My Divine Feminine anchored consciousness can’t really be separated in any moment from feeling and hearing the ‘cries of the world’…it is just what happens as you let Her into your heart, body, and soul.


I feel for those of us who are so sensitive to the cries of the world, the cries of the children, the cries of the womb/women that are peaking during this Dark Night for the collective….we ARE being supported to rise above this sensitivity at times, to ‘turn down’ the dial of our empathic radar. To not get too far ‘into it’ that we become deeply overwhelmed or frustrated. We will tend to take these energies into our wombs and hearts AS IF they are are own, which they are from the Oneness and Soul Family dimensions.


Yet, also, the reminder comes often, especially from Mary Magdalene who lived through much suppression in her time from the Romans/Cabal, ‘to let go and let peace.’ She reminds us that EACH soul is on their own journey through the dark night passages that they NEED to go through and that they have signed up for. It is not for our feminine hearts to rescue or save anyone, even when the urge is strong to do so.


To respect the bigness and sovereignty of each soul is to connect to the higher realms from which they originate. It can especially help to do this with loved ones who are still anchored and plugged into the 3D Matrix, still conditioned by the mainstream everything, and still believe others more than their own intuitive guidance. Connecting to their Higher/Divine Self to compassionately understand the reasons for their consciousness choices can assist you in this. Often the greatest mercy on both sides is to let them go, to stop tugging or convincing, to stop battling or trying ‘win’ any arguments. Giving yourself the gift of resonance and support rather around you allows you to truly serve and become love.


Covid has pushed up the divisions and polarities in world views and consciousness, in humanity’s matrix reality, so that we can see where we are resonant with others and where there is dissonance. It has illuminated that many souls are still not awakened to their sovereignty yet. Many more souls can awaken though now who are on the tipping point of doing so.
The v*ccines are a form of bifurcation or ‘sorting rod’ in that way as those who choose to get them are moving into an unknown place of altered DNA and RNA (some of them) and last gasp Matrix programming entering into their every cell. This is their choice to do so and, again, we cannot rescue them from it. The true impact/side effects of them is not known and won’t be for many years yet the ‘energy’ of them doesn’t feel good or healthy for the body ultimately, especially the immune system. Those souls who are awakened to a place to see the control agenda in the v*ccine and the very real harm to their light bodies and consciousness are easily and already aware of what it harmful about it.


The current energies are supporting us to ‘rise above’ whatever we need to in order to truly become ambassadors of love, primarily to ourselves and any parts of us that need it. This is a painful time of difficult choices at times, yet it is held in much Divine love for ALL of us. The divisions are being highlighted, yet Unity is the ultimate truth.

These current challenges are a form of initiation for each of us and for humanity. How we respond to them, how we process them, how we navigate them offers us an opportunity to heal on many levels.

The Magdalenes are here to help us water the seeds of Ascension they planted in other timelines/lifetimes. Ask for Mary Magdalene, Yeshua, Mother Mary, Joseph, whomever you feel drawn to, for assistance and guidance during your personal walking out of this tumultuous time and they will BE there for you. Magdalene/Christ consciousness has been seeded in many and, although distorted by the Matrix in the form of mainstream religion, still retains its purity in those souls who respond to it and awaken to it.


Raphael and I offered a guided meditation from the Bridal Chamber yesterday to connect with Yeshua and Mary Magdalene energies as a bridge to experiencing the Divine AS your beloved:

Much love from the heart chakra of Gaia…which is breaking it feels like in order to more fully OPEN,

Jelelle Awen & the Magdalenes
More Info about 1:1 sessions, group call events, online community portal, writings/books at soulfullheart.org. I offer much more in my Free To Be 5D book about the Ascension process, now available in audio, print, ebook, and PDF editions, with links at soulfullheart.org/books.

Bridge To The Beloved: Guided Meditation From The Bridal Chamber | Raphael & Jelelle Awen (Video)

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Divine Union guides, Counterpart/Twin Flame Mates and SoulFullHeart Teachers Raphael and Jelelle Awen invite you on an initiatory journey into your sacred humanity through a video series called Meditations From The Bridal Chamber. We are recently in a renewed marriage and reunion place after a brief separation and death/rebirth together. We are feeling to share from the high frequency energies of our ‘bridal chamber’, where we are experiencing deeper frequencies of reunion with each other, within, and with the Divine.

Divine Sacred Union guides Yeshua and Mary Magdalene join us in this video series, offering initiations and activations as we channel their energies through our sacred masculine and sacred feminine hearts. Yeshua and Magdalene provide a template from the fifth dimension of a twin counterpart pair bond for your inner masculine and inner feminine to receive as a source of support, activation, and guidance. They have been beloved guides to us personally, in our union, and in service for many years.

In this first video of the series, we share a brief introduction of the Bridal Chamber energies and about the fears/resistances/testing that parts of us can do as we move out of separation and into more union within, with a mate, and with the Divine. As we have done during many group calls over the years, we then move into a collaborative meditative space to guide you in bridging to your ‘Bridal Chamber’ within while offering transmissions from Yeshua and Mary. The bridal chamber is offered to both women and men as a higher dimensional space to experience the embodied frequency of their Divine Self as beloved to the Divine.

Whether you are currently in a relationship or mateship; exploring your inner sacred union in singleness; or want to deepen your connection with the Divine AS beloved; this series will activate for you what it is meant to in order to help you move out of fear, resistance, and lack realities and into abundance, love, joy, and bliss!

We would love to receive your donations and energy exchange in the form of money for this series as it supports us to keep offering them and creates an intentional energy for you in which to receive them. You can offer a donation through a general donation via our shop at https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop​ or via paypal at https://www.paypal.me/jelelleawen​.

For the latest writings, videos, and information about SoulFullHeart community events and group calls, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org​.

Information about 1:1 sessions over Zoom or in-person in Glastonbury, UK with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Jelelle Awen or Kasha Rokshana for women and with Raphael Awen or Aurius Amara for men and women at https://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions​

Become a monthly donor member of our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks and gain access to exclusive content, share your experiences of the meditation with us, read longer writings w/personal digestions, experience a community connection with beautiful resonant souls, and MORE at https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co​

1:1 Sacred Feminine Embodiment Activation & Trauma Releasing Sessions | Jelelle Awen

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I honestly forget most of the time to share on social media about the 1:1 sessions that I do on most days. They are so meaningful and important to me as a way to serve love with the Divine, yet, I also don’t relate with my spaceholding or SoulFullHeart as a business to be promoted regularly in the usual sense. Rather, it is a vocation, a Divine calling, for which I ask for fair monetary exchange (while that is still needed in daily living reality) in return. Sessions are really a dedicated space to transmit the love flow that I am gifted to access within and share with others.

I have been blessed to draw a regular flow of women to have sessions with me over the last four years since I first started sharing more regularly on social media. Some of them have only wanted/needed one session with me….while others are now going into their second and third year of sessions with me, into deeper community living with us, and are on their way to becoming Facilitators themselves some day.

I have had a couple of breaks from offering sessions in order to reboot, rest, and focus on my own process, my relationship with Raphael, the bigger picture offerings, writing, and the community. Yet, since I arrived here in Avalon in September, I have felt a renewed sense of purpose and passion that comes through being in the sessions now. I’m not sure how long I will be offering sessions to those new to the SoulFullHeart process as more of my schedule is filling up with those who have been involved for a longer period of time. So, if you feel drawn, now would be the time to claim one.

It is truly my joy and my honor to spend 90 minutes (often feels much shorter and yet also longer too) with the deep, porous, sensitive, and just plain GIFTED women who are drawn to meet with me. The sessions are a collaborative union between us, between my Divine Self and theirs, and I so enjoy drawing out their insights, their gifts, their realizations, helping them to lift the veils that have covered their access. I hear all the time how amazed they are at what is uncovered and put together and that ‘it makes so much sense’ what we discover.

Bridging to and feeling parts of them such as the Inner Child, Inner Teenager, Inner Protector, Inner Punisher, Gatekeeper and then also soul aspects in other lifetimes is such a fascinating process that always surprises me. I do feel this work that I offer with women is a deeper initiatory process into the embodied grounds of the sacred feminine in a truly unique way that offers true and lasting transmutation or I really couldn’t in integrity continue to offer it.

This process is not for the faint of heart nor does it support bypassing or just being in ‘love and light’ energies. This process and my energy invite you into the hidden places, the rejected places, the places and parts that MOST need your love to truly complete suffering loops and patterns of resistance/fear….it is gentle yet confrontative as is the energy of the Divine Mother when we are ready to truly receive and embrace Her.

If you feel drawn and ready to meet with me, I have a few availabilities in my schedule from Wednesday to Saturdays. You can PM me on FB at https://www.facebook.com/jelelleawen or email/contact via soulfullheart.org. Above is a precious testimonial and there are others at soulfullheart.org/testimonials with more information about sessions with me and with my other beloveds and facilitators Raphael Awen and Aurius Amara (for men and women) and with Kasha Rokshana with women at soulfullheart.org/sessions. Aurius and Kasha are also offering free 45 minute intro calls over zoom to those who would like more information about the process and sessions.

Here is a video where I share more about sessions and what happens during them:

Love from Avalon which provides its own heart chakra activations to support the process too!

Jelelle Awen

Moving Your Tensions Into Love & Trust Again

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By Jelelle Awen

Anxiety, worry, and the tensions inside offer a communication to you about what is going on in your heart. The tensions are a broadcast signal pinging and ringing inside to get your attention. The tensions are energy that is stuck and fixated at a certain place of distrust.


The tensions are a sacred thing as it sometimes in the contrasts that you get the most data about what is going on within you…..until you no longer need the tensions to ‘alert’ you to anything. The tensions so often are about desires, about frustrations, about things and ways that cannot BE in the moment. The tensions are about fears of change or going into the unknown that parts of you may hold and feel. The tensions are about unexpressed or suppressed feelings that didn’t come out in the moment when they needed to. The tensions are perhaps about the gap between the current you and the current circumstances and the current relationships with what your dream self, dream live, and dream relationships are wanting to arise into.

When you feel the tensions and anxieties, when you look to them for information, when you respond to them with LOVE, then you can get to the heart of where they are coming from. You can give them a voice, give them a tone, give them a tuning in, give them somewhere to land. You can give them a hug, a helping hand, a soft container for which to express.

Part of you can try to cover them over with things and activities and busyness, yet still underneath the tensions simmer and bubble. The substance of them, the root of them, does not heal, does not ‘go away’ until you feel and face, until you cry or scream or sleep or just go within or share with those you need to. The things that numb them for the moment eventually don’t work anymore as you become more conscious and self aware and tracking with your heart in every moment what you are feeling and being.

Your guides, angels, star being selves, all want to help you move these tensions as they can block their higher dimensional frequencies from coming into your field. The Divine Mother especially offers trusting frequencies, Infinite Love tones and energies that make all the tensions OK, permission to go to the heart of them, even as they dissolve in the loving energies. Divine Feminine energies from Mother Mary wrap the tensions in a loving pink container of support and compassion that allows you and invites you to release.

As you do this and as you ARE this space holder for the tensions, then more and more does the root cause of them (the heart wounding causes, the soul wounding causes) heal and integrate into your loving and spacious Divine Self who has NO tensions about existence in response to the moment. More and more the contrast of tension versus trusting is not needed and you live in the trust. You ARE and BECOME more and more the trust in the moment and that whatever happens is perfect just as it is.

In the meantime, embrace the tensions rather than resist them. As you do, the possibility arises then for something NEW to transmute from them, something moves, and then your heart is open again, you are trusting again, you are spacious again. You are love again as you have responded to ANYTHING inside of yourself with love and so it becomes.

Here is a soothing guided meditation with me to music and the Divine to move tensions into more relaxation and trust with your Divine Self:

Love from Avalon!

Jelelle Awen

More information about 1:1 sessions to feel the tensions and the parts/soul aspects that feel them and WHY at soulfullheart.org/sessions….and information about group call events, our online community portal, and books/writings at soulfullheart.org

Coming Out Of Separation and Into Twin Flame/Counterpart Union

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I am emerging from my Honeymoon bubble with Raphael with a bit of wobbly legs, palpitating heart, fuzzy/altered mind, and hugely renewed sense of life/love/service! We’ve gone in deep together in the way that is unique to our bond in these last days….exploring physical body nuances and pleasures….I could share so much about the shared consciousness altering portal that is Yoni kissing, for example, and will someday!

We’ve also been diving into emotional areas that need to be felt and loved as well. Bringing realizations that arose during our separation and dropping in together into the parts of us that need to be felt in their fears, tensions, and doubts as well so that they can be bonded.

Rather than deny these parts of us or put them in shadow now that we are together again, we bring them forward to heard and felt by each other. We feel remorse as needed, advocate as desired, and LET GO of resentments/grudges and the past as guided. In this letting in and then letting go process, the past resentments literally dissolve between us as they’ve been felt so deeply by us as individuals. The new then arises out of this compassion for ourselves and each other.

Trying to transact EVERYTHING and resolve it just in the bond in a horizontal way doesn’t move it. It isn’t just about more conscious communication together or ‘staying in the room’ with each other or whatever a marriage counselor might advise as ‘saving the relationship’ type strategies. Sometimes a deep inner reboot is necessary where only YOU can hold the safe space that parts of you need to let go into, especially when you are connecting to archetypal energies and deep soul pieces that are many lifetimes in the making.

This was what Raphael and I were invited to go into by our Magdalene/Christ soul family recently. An intense initiation in which we couldn’t feel the hope for a future between us, where we truly needed to let go and lean into ourselves fully. We were gifted so much support during this arduous journey with our soul family here in the physical and in etheric connection with Anna, Yeshua, etc., as our soul family hardly ever went through these initiations alone. Avalon held the space for us with necessary activations and even the quietness of the winter season served us.

I felt during our vow renewal ceremony the Magdalenes celebrating our successful navigation of these grounds and endowing us with the gift of holding the mantle for pair bond reunion and soul family reunion for those drawn to us. Anna shared words with us of support and admiration and we all felt tears as she reassured us that she would ‘never ever leave us.’ And now lately has been the necessary celebration and feasting that comes after the initiation has been ‘passed’. The recovery and reaping the rewards that come from loved freed up from fear by truly GOING INTO that fear and transmuting it.

This is the process I feel Ascension is inviting us into in every moment, whether in a twin pair bond reunion or not….to move into our fears, even the ones at the collective level, and trust that love and the Divine will hold us through them. The bliss and joy I have felt these last days now surpasses the darkest hours of sadness and hurt and pain I felt during our separation. The grief is fading now….replaced by the pure ecstasy of rebooted appreciation and gratitude that flow out of a heart rapturously falling in love with the Beloved.

I can only experience the Divine AS Beloved most deeply and truly when I am with Raphael in deep union as he holds the Divine Masculine expression of it. This is how my soul ‘wired it up’ at the soul family monad level before individuating.

I have surrendered more deeply into this now as my purpose for being here to experience this reunion and am wanting to teach/serve from this awareness more deeply as well, even as I am constantly learning from it.

If you feel drawn to experience the clearing of the pathway to experience the Beloved through deep inner connection and through a pair bond supported by soul family, do feel into a 1:1 session with one of us and/or attending a group call event (like the one we are doing on Valentine’s Day February 14th) and to join our online community Portal. More information at soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions

So many of you on our social media accounts, especially facebook, have expressed your support and resonance withur separation and reunion so you very well may be feeling a call and draw to come closer. There IS a reason you are drawn to our story and that you feel deep resonance with it. Exploring that reason could open up a whole new timeline life of goodness and love!

The home of the love with the Beloved is waiting for you. Claim it and all the love you can possibly let in can be yours….love from Avalon!

Jelelle Awen

More information about 1:1 sessions, group call events, online community portal, and writings/books at soulfullheart.org