SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter: Energy Update – Seven Signs of 5D Activation During May Energies

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week!

This week’s edition is launched by Jelelle Awen’s profound piece about the seven signs that reflect to you your awakening and activating 5D Self. Jelelle invites you to feel the shiftings and rumblings you’re currently experiencing as a part of the journey into your 5D/Service-Of-Love Self:

“ALL of what you experience in this NOW serves the arising of your 5D Self, your sacred human self, your Infinite Love essence, into human form. ALL of what you experience is for the ACTivation of your Service Of Love Self.

To arise….sacred human… arise!!!”

New this week are the recordings of three live stream events, two from Gabriel Heartman and one from Jelelle Awen.

Gabriel offers his perspective and some layers of his story around the journey of healing the wounded masculine as a man. His transmission of sacred masculine energy is deep and offers much compassion for the masculine parts of women too. Look for his video called, “What Ascension And Service Of Love Mean To Me: New Earth Masculine Rising”.

Gabriel’s second live stream recording is called “Masculinity and Ascension: New Earth Masculine Rising” and in this talk, he shares about his experience with moving through his Ascension path as a man and how he feels other men could relate to it for themselves. This also applies to the masculine parts of many women and women may feel resonance with what he is offering because of this and also because of what they themselves have observed happening with the men they are in relationship with.

Jelelle’s live stream event was an energy update Q & A experience with much lively conversation and many great questions asked. She goes into detail about the May energies and what they have been offering us all for activating our 5D Selves and bringing us more into alignment with 5D consciousness. She also leads a powerful guided meditation. Her video is called, “May 26 Ascension Energy Update & Guided Meditation”.

There are many new writings to take in this week from Kalayna Colibri, Jelelle Awen, and Raphael Awen, as well as several new audio recordings for your heart-ears! Awakening and moving through pain into love while embracing the incoming energies and what they are offering you… these are some of the themes written about this week.

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Loving Your Rage To Reveal Your Truth, Heal Hurts, And End Abusive Patterns In Relationships

By Jelelle Awen

There could be emotions running the range of irritation, frustration, to outright rage expressing for you or toward you…pushed up by the FULL moon, Scorpio, death/rebirth energies. The Divine Feminine is holding compassionate space for these feelings to come UP and OUT. These emotions aren’t ‘negative’ or ‘dark’, yet, rather more ‘polarized to fear’ and, very often, ‘suppressed.’ Suppressed emotions usually have actually VERY good reason for being there once you are willing to actually feel them. They have just been so put down and capped by often the Protector part of you (due to 3D conditioning that offers they are not OK or acceptable), that they come out stronger when they finally are allowed to express.

Rage is a denser expression, a more 3D fear-based energy, that actually transmutes and transforms to passionate truth telling as your frequency of self love rises. There is nothing ‘bad’ about anger or rage in its essence. When your truth has been put away or smothered or covered or conformed into “social correctness’, then parts of you don’t know how to express your emotional truth (esp.) without the anger. Anger seems to often be a more ‘surface’ or off gassing emotion that is covering over a past hurt or trauma.

If this trauma didn’t get emotionally digested by you on the Higher Heart/5D Self level or by your caregivers if it happened during your childhood, then it remains in your emotional body. The anger is often the Protector in a stance of, ‘I will not allow anymore hurt’ covering over the emotional reality of a part of you that says, ‘I still feel deeply hurt by this or that’. If healthy boundaries were not set and advocated for in the MOMENT of the hurt with others or from one part of you to another, then the suppressed rage protection over hurt dynamic is a ripe on to develop. Many parts can be stuck in these ‘scenes’ of hurt and shame and suppressed truth telling/advocacy and play them over and over like a loop that may be conscious to you or may not be. This looping leads to the outward, in the moment manifestation of rage that you may not even be able to track or understand as the deeper roots and causes are hidden.

Connecting with the parts that hold rage and WHY they feel it can move these frequencies into conscious, higher vibrational ones of healthy advocacy and passionate truth telling. Connecting directly to these parts of yourself serves to unfreeze these trauma moments and bring them into the present Now…..and also stops the looping patterns as well. Doing this BEFORE the triggers and constellated reactions allows you to establish a ‘non-charged ground’ of deeper connection within yourself. This is about identifying which part of you is feeling the rage and WHY, such as your Protector, your Punisher, your Inner Teenager or Inner Mother/Father. Or, an aspect from another timeline/lifetime. More about parts here:

You can journal directly with your rage too! Just let it rip out on the page and respond to the ‘truth’ that comes pouring out with compassion and curiosity. You might feel immediately a direct connection of the rage to a particular situation or it may just be an overall reaction to living in 3D and the difficulties of incarnating here.

These rage reactions seem to be especially coming up in romantic relationships and marriages lately and over the last year. This could be a clash and thrash energy between two souls who have drifted out of true partnership with each other, where one is awakening and the other is not. You could have parts of you that are ‘overstaying’ in this relationship ground that YOU know has been outgrown and no longer serves you. Sometimes, these conflicts can be a necessary catalytic movement to bring you closer to each other (only if held with MUCH love and respect and good will remains strong between you and them.)

When these clashes move into abusive and even violent frequencies toward yourself or between you and your partner, it is TIME to complete the relationship….esp. if this is an ongoing pattern. This outward violence (whether physical, emotional, mental) is a mirror to you of an inward violence going on between parts of you to other parts of you. This outward reflection is offering a going within to heal phase for you, to deeply connect with the parts of you that are in trauma, in pain, in hurt, and NEED your love and comforting and compassion. These parts of you need you to ‘clear the decks’ of outward conflict brought in by the relationship so they can actually lean into you with trust that leads to growth.

You cannot extend anything to anyone that you have not offered to yourself primarily and firstly. It is like trying to get water from an empty well. Responding to anger frequencies that come up in you with immediate curiosity and a self loving boundary allows you to experience a filling UP of love more and more. THEN, when you are in relationship from this place, you are able to offer transaction of love from an overflowing ease, grace, compassion, and support for yourself AND your partner. Why would you settle for anything less than this?

5D relationships live in these grounds of mutual respect and growth. They are more SACRED than SCARED. Anything lesser than this in experience is ripe for completing, letting go, and moving on. Negotiation with parts of yourself that are understandably attached to the relationship can help in this letting go. It is MUCH better to be alone (and ultimately very much more nourishing) then to be in relationships where fear-polarized frequencies dominate the dynamic. This offers a huge release for your partner as well, even if parts of them struggle to accept it or move on or initially support the completion.

I have served several women in the completion phases of their relationships when they needed/wanted to end them and it is a sacred phase (often an understandably intense one!) to walk through with them. I support their growing truth, self worth, advocacy, and a compassionate/merciful navigation for both themselves and their partners. You can find out more about 1:1 bridging session with me or ongoing sessions here: soulfullheartwayoflife/sessions

Raphael Awen provides support to men in this place through a bridging session or free intro.

Moving into 5D New Earth YOU means that ALL relationships in your life reflect and transact LOVE, most especially the one with yourself and all parts of you! Divine Mother is HERE to hold space for you to discover the LOVE that you are again and to require that, to hold out for that, to BE in that in your relationships too!


Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Jelelle offers a 90 minute one on one bridging session with her over zoom for $55 USD min. donation with women and with Raphael for men…more information here. Visit for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Experiencing More Resonant Relationships As Your Inner Reality Transforms

By Jelelle Awen
I am still digesting on this day after Christmas…a good kind of hangover, not caused from too much alcohol or eating unhealthy food or being in denser energies…yet from being a bit backed up from the GOODNESS and gifts that arose yesterday during our SoulFullHeart christmas together.
We spent lots of time, taking hours to open gifts and read cards from each other……….we went into every moment to FEEL what there was to feel; we digested every gift and the intention and place it came from, which was always given and received with much love and goodness. Every gift was as if we could have picked it out ourselves. And because we share money as a community, it kind of WAS as if we were gifting to ourselves.
We savored every bite of the vegan food that we lovingly prepared, requiring no digestion of any killing frequencies (which can greatly lower vibration). Parts of us popped in (our Inner Child, our Star Seeds) who so enjoy the moments of Unity on Christmas, the goodness, the feeling of soul family where resonance forms the common ground.
We dreamed a lot too…talking about our increasing desires and clarities to relocate to Europe in 2018, landing first in the U.K. where some of our SoulFullHeart facilitants live and also where our souls are drawn…especially to Glastonbury/Avalon. We teleported together to Europe, energizing this new timeline with our growing excitement for the service of love WITH others and to ourselves.
This may feel and sound like a ‘dream life’, to be surrounded by so much love and goodness with others on a day that can be very challenging and difficult to navigate within non-resonant relationships. I spent many, many holidays in these dissonant energies in the past. I spent many holidays feeling like an outcast, stranger, and seeking anything that would give parts of me comfort (usually alcohol, cigarettes, and food) within the dissonance.
Shifting to this goodness experience on the outside and with others has come from shifting on the INSIDE, feeling and healing and BEing with each part of me conditioned to less, to lack, to suffering, and to shrinking. This also comes from letting go of so much of 3D conditioning around materialism, disconnected gift giving as a compensation, 3D birth family duty and obligation.
This transition on the inside to self love and goodness leads to boundary setting with others. It leads to WANTING more, craving more with others based in them also being in self love and goodness as their souls awaken. It leads to being willing to let go of anything that doesn’t serve love, create a sense of growth. To let go of anything that distracts from the inner transformation and relationships forming inside with each precious part of you.
This is not ‘luck’ or ‘being blessed’ that draws this kind of resonant family experience I experienced yesterday and ALL my days, yet it comes from REAL heart and soul healing parts/Metasoul process work that has asked for many years of devotion and dedication to. Process that is sometimes heart breaking to parts of us, sometimes with timelines collapsing HUGE around us, sometimes with many fights, contentions, and conflicts to sort through until arriving at more and more resonance and peace. And yet, this transformation leads to feeling love from within that is reflected back to you in EVERY relationship that you are then choosing to engage with….or not. Every relationship shifts to reflect the goodness that you ARE and the love that you ARE too. And, eventually, you cannot imagine settling for less than this as it doesn’t serve you OR the other person to do so.
I feel this is such a key aspect of 5D and New Earth living and loving…to BE in Unity Consciousness community together in this respectful and nourishing way. Starting from within….and so it overflows to the outer experience too!

Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more! 

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