You are your own purpose. You were not created to go seeking a purpose. You were created to discover the inherent purpose already inside of your being.
The vehicles of your emotional body; your physical body; your spiritual body; your mental body; and your social body are ALL part and parcel of this inherent purpose.
As such, stuff like how you feel about yourself, what gender you are, what shape your physical body is in right now, what’s going on socially in your life are all things that are perfectly aligned to aid you in uncovering the purpose that you are, right NOW.
You don’t need to ‘overcome’ ANYTHING in order to become more of something, but instead realize that simply the desire to become something more and feeling where that desire comes from IS what leads you to more and more of this ongoing uncovering of the true inherent purpose of your being.
This desire for MORE is simply the voice of your essence. You already ARE this more. Manifesting this more in your experience happens as you simply FEEL this true essence of your being wanting to come out more and more to play in your life.
Feeling is the magic portal into the more that you are.
Who’d have ever guessed it could be this easy? What ever prompted us to make it so difficult?
I suspect it was simply our fear of becoming all that we are that made us create the barriers to our essence that we did.
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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to make a donation to support our work athttps://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
The paradise you seek always was nothing other than your own heart. All the heavens you ever imagined were the feeling of feeling how it would feel to be in love with your own heart, and every aspect of yourself.
That you may feel things about yourself that you want to change does not negate this truth about yourself. You are your own paradise. All that is waiting is for you to claim yourself, your heart, as your only real and deep home. One that you cannot lose and one that cannot ever be taken from you.
Now, with your own heart claimed, you can feel what feels like it isn’t in tune with this love-heart-home reality and feel that. Feel where and why and how it came to be impervious to love. Feel it with wonder and awe and reverence, for it too is a part of your paradise, given to you to unlock new dimensions of your infinite paradise.
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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to make a donation to support our work athttps://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
Your inner Solstice, your inner sun ascending, yet standing still in a brief moment. You are beaming out in many more moments of LOVE flow from your shining soul, your luminous heart, your illuminating mind, and your glowing body.
Your inner Solstice offers you a picture and taste of your FULL SHINING where you are drawing more souls, more possibilities, more livelihood, more abundance on all levels, more intimacy, more LOVE. ALL of this then is coming without effort, drawn to the warmth that comes from inner tenderness, inner holding, inner care. ALL of this coming from the outside to reflect your sense of enlovened self INSIDE that connects with ALL aspects that are within you. ALL of this coming without struggle as you feel and heal the inner struggles, inner judgements, inner resistance, and inner push-pull.
Your inner Solstice invites you to feel and see what your FULL SHINING self and life is like as it is not a ‘future’ timeline, yet happening in the NOW. You can BE there and here too. More and more, both are true in the same moment. One is not lacking or higher from the other, as BOTH are equally sacred. All that you are choosing in this moment or not choosing is creating and impacting the other timeline.
Connecting with the Great Cosmic Sun that beams from the heart of Divine Source, you can feel more of this multidimensional possibility, multiple timeline experiences in one Now. Opening and activating and BEing with your upper most chakras draws in and pulls in these higher frequencies that re-spark and re-ignite your galactic consciousness. You can more remember that time is not linear; timelines are not singular; selves are not just one expression at a time either.
Take this moment of marker of inner Solstice, to feel your FULL SHINING even as you feel gratitude for the Now moment and all it is offering of lessons, challenges, crucibles, opportunities, possibilities. The FULL SHINING of your soul here, of your heart here, of your sacred humanity here IS the invitation in every moment to BE the Infinite Love that you ARE.
It is wonderful to be such a mystery! To have so many unknown depths of self, of soul self, of heart self, to discover and uncover as you awaken, as you grow, as you go!
Parts of you may be afraid for you to feel and to know yourself at these deeper levels, concerned that you cannot handle it or will be overwhelmed or will go crazy….there are many of these concerns when and as you go deeper into yourself.
When these guarding and protective energies of you can FEEL that YOU(awakening you, authentic self you) are there….when there is a growing sense of your curiosity and your desire to truly feel and know yourself…so the guardedness can begin to relax, contribute and even HELP you with the process of self discovery rather than block it. Inner resistance and push-pull lessens SO much when this inner negotiation can consciously happen, held and supported by Divine frequencies too.
You are a mystery that ever unfolds, not really solvable, yet discoverable in tender moments of increasing self intimacy and self love!
Expanding out, wider and wider, to let others into the chambers of your heart. To let them in the places that you are clearing of the emotional cobwebs, the dust that has gathered, the shadows that have lingered. You are clearing out these heart places with your curiosity to explore INside. Your loving wonder about what is around the next corner of your deepest inner places.
Beaconing out, brighter and brighter, to lead others with the remembered wisdoms of your soul. Offering a mirror of possibility for what they TOO can remember as they unlock their soul doors. You are walking through the scenes of other lifetimes, feeling the edges and the gifts and the experiences that form the stories and substances of your soul legacy.
Going IN, deeper and deeper, to love yourself and all the pieces, parts, and aspects that you feel along the way. You are feeling your Inner Child in their school yard reality, stuck in a classroom or a childhood family living room, and bringing them into the current NOW with you and into the light of your love. Adventuring to the castles of your essence and meeting your Inner Protector there, offering him an invitation to rest and lean and trust.
Letting IN, more and more, that to serve love with others is your highest purpose for being here. You are feeling support from the Divine to express and to BE this purpose as you heal the fear, resistance and distrust within your emotional body and soul field that may block the expression and claiming of this. Inviting others into this space becoming more organic, natural, and authentic as you feel the Oneness from which we All originate and eventually return.
Flowing in and Flowing out, LOVE comes from this place of freed up frequencies of energy flow. You are experiencing this as you choose your most true path into your own heart and soul, drawing others then who resonate, feel, and BE with you too in mutual choice and reverence. In this abundant flow that comes from within, there is no scarcity here, no lack, and no need unfulfilled, as you experience the Infinite Love that ARE and always will be.
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Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine and union facilitator, soul scribe, waySHOWer, galactic love ambassador, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book to be released on June 1st, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
This is an interesting timeline for us to be on, Raphael and I were just digesting this together yesterday. After several years in obscurity (what I used to call with mostly ‘crickets’ as a response), we are drawing more reSOULance, readers, interest, and souls engaging in sessions and group calls with us. It seems that daily we receive a wonderful, supportive and resonant comment from someone who has been moved and touched by what we’ve shared. This is SO amazing! Collaborations with in5d.com, Lovehaswon.org, and others has provided a way for our words and energy to go OUT to those who might be resonant with us and for this exposure, we are SO grateful.
This response is a ‘sign of the times’ it seems with SO MANY more souls called to awakening and ascending. SO MANY more souls it feels like open to feeling and living and BEing beyond the 3D conditioning that they’ve received…the 3D way of life just running out of ground for them and the emptiness of it, the flatness, the LIMITS it places….just NOT being enough anymore. I feel so much more openness to the alternative, to expanded ways of seeing and BEing, to TRUE self inquiry and authentic growth.
Of course, since the outside is only a reflection of the INside….I can certainly see how we are more READY on the inside then we have been before to BE seen. These last several years have been such a fertile time of inner growth and awakenings, combined with many outward shifts in geography (the big one being our move to Mexico from Canada 2.5 years ago), livelihood (leaving a lucrative business behind to align our money needs with SoulFullHeart drawings), relationships (saying ‘no’ to any that weren’t a reflection of the love that we ARE with an invitation to join us). Letting go of 3D conditioning consciously with these choices and through working with parts of ourselves that hold this conditioning.
A year ago, we were still living on our land at a remote ranch with no internet, electricity (other than one solar panel), more sheep than people. We were starting to be drawn to move into town in order to be with Gabriel and Kalayna, who had jobs working online teaching English. Town was calling us which was a surprise after ALL we had invested into the ranch including three organic gardens and building a hut out of cob (with only a $100 investment in money but HOURS of our labor). I felt the ‘ping’ starting at this time and it really rang out in June and by mid-July we were all living in Puerto Vallarta together (about three hours north of the ranch.)
Since landing in town, it has been a whirlwind of activations, awakenings, outward response, crucible of service along with the boundary setting that comes with THAT. I went from NO time online (I went six weeks once without leaving the ranch or going online) to being online almost all day as I was suddenly LIT UP to share and to serve love. Every thumb and heart I received and every supportive comment seemed to land in the place that been unseen and unread during my inner years. The desire to teach and serve was ALWAYS there…I already HAD done and been that, just within a setting with a former spiritual group that wasn’t ME anymore, that I had outgrown and for a small group of people that we had drawn to SoulFullHeart over the years. I kept SEEING the vision of a conscious community, by the ocean, with organic gardens woven around and in, and the SoulFullHeart process as the way of life and reality for which the community was formed around. I kept FEELING myself as a co-leader of this community with Raphael, spending my days teaching, serving, growing (both inwardly AND in the gardens).
I had surrendered to maybe NEVER serving people again in space holding, to maybe being an organic gardener and homesteading the rest of this life….and THEN I am suddenly here in town and synchs and opportunities and connections keep opening up and shifting, with some opening out and some completing. THIS timeline of service of love, especially with women offering them a way to embody their sacred femininity, feels like one that I no longer desire to back away from. THIS timeline of community living that just wants to expand out and include MORE is always close to me. It has ALREADY HAPPENED is how it feels…..My everyday mantra/affirmation to myself (and ‘into’ my stone friend/manifestor citrine) is “I am a great healer and teacher. I live in a beautiful house by the ocean, travel the world to serve, and are surrounded by students and friends and community.” ALL of this feels like a gift, not an entitlement, yet ALSO my birthright…ALL of this is true in the same moment.
I have written every day since January and shared almost all of that writing on a daily basis on the SoulFullHeart blog. The writing hasn’t come from my mind, it is not ‘planned out’ or plotted out or even outlined. It is spontaneous, in the moment, and inspired. THIS post right now I did not PLAN to write, but then Feedspot awarded us Top 30 Inspirational Blog (You can read more here: http://blog.feedspot.com/inspirational_blogs/) and HERE these words are. This blog is five years in the making and this recognition from the outside has me feeling a bit nostalgic. I decided to look up in our archives (which goes all the way back to OCTOBER, 2011!!) the first post that I ever did on this blog. It was this one: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2011/11/16/a-slow-burning-desire/.
Exploring femininity in relationship: responding versus charging ahead is the title…..yes, EXACTLY the kind of thing I would write today! Guess this shows how LONG this stuff has been baking in me, even back when I was going by “Jillian Vriend” (my birth name and Raphael’s birth last name, which we changed to “Awen” last year And the Wayne I refer to in the article is Raphael’s birth name!).
This is a moment of gratitude and appreciation for me….for the support of YOU who are reading these words and the collaborative energy that forms from the taking in of them and my energy in offering them. As YOU are energy and so am I, your reading of them IS an energy exchange that IS nourishing, even if we never communicate in person or through comments or within session space. Your taking in FUELS the inspiration to share more…you are an important aspect of the process! THANK YOU for the support and however our worlds might interact and connect in the future (there are limitless possibilities of timelines related to THAT), you ARE in my heart.
Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine facilitator, soul scribe, love ambassador, way-shower, and co-creator and teacher of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
What you resist persists, what you embrace, arises…..
When you react with resistance to something that comes up inside of you or outside of you, then it will persist. When you resist to feel and go inside to feel and resist holding space to feel, then it will persist. The oppositional energy, the resistant energy itself creates a polarizing effect on whatever it is that you are resisting. The edges rub against each other creating more tension and more friction.
When you respond with embracement to something that comes up inside of you or outside of you that is difficult or hard, then it is able to arise. When you embrace feeling and going inside to be and feel and understand, the loving energy creates a loving effect on whatever it is that is needing your attention. The edges of separation dissolve, opening up the possibilities. The difficult or painful or hard energy can then arise into something ELSE, something that comes up in response to love.
This applies to your inner world and then, what you experience of your outer world too. If you resist a person or the mirror they are offering you of YOU, then that negative energy persists between you and usually creates a loop of entanglement and suffering in the relationship. If you embrace the person and the mirror they are offering you, then the energy between you can arise into something else, something new, something made and coming from love. Even if you feel to take space from that person, YOU are different and what you experience of the situation is different because you ARE love even if they have not changed.
Feel the energy you are responding with….is it resistant? Is it embracing? Is it pushing away? Is it bringing closer? Is it open? Is it closed? Is it edgy? Is it soft? ALL reactions are sacred and embraced even as they are invited to move and to heal.
And with ascension, if you resist the transformational and alchemy energies that are flooding Gaia, they will still persist yet you will be in opposition to them or even in denial of them rather than in flow and surrender WITH them. Embracing these energies that want you to grow and that will support you to transform allows YOU to arise WITH them into infinite possibilities in every moment.
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Jelelle Awen is a writer and co-creator/teacher/group facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions with her, online group calls and circles, community, videos, and more.
The tensions inside offer a communication to you about what is going on in your heart. The tensions are a broadcast signal pinging and ringing inside to get your attention.The tensions are energy that is stuck and fixated at a certain place. The tensions are a sacred thing as it sometimes in the contrasts that you get the most data about what is going on within you…..until you no longer need the tensions to ‘alert’ you to anything.
The tensions so often are about desires, about frustrations, about things and ways that cannot BE in the moment. The tensions are about fears of change or going into the unknown that parts of you may hold and feel. The tensions are about unexpressed or suppressed feelings that didn’t come out in the moment when they needed to. The tensions are perhaps about the gap between the current you and the current circumstances and the current relationships with what you dream self, dream live, and dream relationships are wanting to arise into.
When you feel the tensions, when you look to them for information, when you respond to them with LOVE, then you can get to the heart of where they are coming from. You can give them a voice, give them a tone, give them a tuning in, give them somewhere to land. You can give them a hug, a helping hand, a soft container.
Part of you can try to cover them over with things and activities and busyness, yet still underneath the tensions simmer and bubble. The substance of them, the root of them, does not heal, does not ‘go away’ until you feel and face, until you cry or scream or sleep or just go within or share with those you need to. The things that numb them for the moment eventually don’t work anymore as you become more conscious and self aware and tracking with your heart in every moment what you are feeling and being.
Your guides, angels, star being selves, all want to help you move these tensions as they can block their higher dimensional frequencies from coming into your field. Angels especially offer trusting frequencies, Infinite Love tones and energies that make all the tensions OK, permission to go to the heart of them, even as they dissolve in the loving energies. Divine Feminine energies from Mother Mary wrap the tensions in a loving pink container of support and compassion that allows you and invites you to release.
As you do this and as you ARE this space holder for the tensions, then more and more does the root cause of them (the heart wounding causes, the soul wounding causes) heal and integrate into your loving and spacious higher self who has NO tensions about existence in response to the moment. More and more the contrast of tension versus trusting is not needed and you live in the trust. You ARE and BECOME more and more the trust in the moment and that whatever happens is perfect just as it is.
In the meantime, embrace the tensions rather than resist them. As you do, the possibility arises then for something NEW to transmute from them, something moves, and then your heart is open again, you are trusting again, you are spacious again. You are love again as you have responded to ANYTHING inside of yourself with love and so it becomes love again.
Jelelle Awen is a writer and co-creator/teacher/group facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions with her, online group calls and circles, community, videos, and more.
That exquisitely sacred space you give to yourself for your feeling and healing process has movement just in the intention of it. There is no specific protocol to follow, though there are many tools that might help you, like journaling and meditating for example. The flow of love that happens from you to you is something that is so necessary, that it cannot actually be stoppered up once it has truly begun, even if you can’t feel it in your most upfront awareness in the moment.This healing can then happen upon you at times you aren’t actually expecting it to. Many times I’ve had movements while doing something other than consciously being “in process”, like watching an episode of a show on Netflix that suddenly helps me feel something specific about myself or what I’m working through, or perhaps when I’m out in nature or just walking my dog through the city.
In my experience, all processes don’t need “time” so much, since there really is no time, but just a simple yes to the next step… Yes, I would like to start feeling the roots of this pain. Yes, I would like this reaction to move and heal and yes, I am open to all the tears I need to shed to get there. Yes, I am open to loving myself more and feeling more of my worth. Yes… I want to experience more LOVE.
To claim your healing is big and the invitation in these times is that your healing will start to come faster and bolder if you allow it, if you say “yes” to it. All it needs is a big enough YOU there to step inside of it, shining your heart beam and casting love light over it. Now is not the time for suppression, but for embracing. That may feel like the scary place to go, yet there is a you there that can hold your innate goodness and still be with all of this. If you are in a phase of desiring and likely needing it, supportive and conscious community is a place to find the deeper reflections of yourself that help you shine a light in these dark places and can help show you where you still need to go inside of yourself. Relationship is where so much of our wounding has happened and thus, relationship is where we often need to go in order to heal and in order to see what’s truly going on inside of us.
This dedicated space you hold for yourself can last a short or long time, depending on what you need. Ideally it is your daily reality, yet with busy schedules it can be challenging to remember that you have a beautiful YOU that needs your energy too. Even despite busyness, any downtime that is dedicated to spending time with yourself is an opportunity for something to move. I have often had movements happen even while watching an episode of a TV show or a movie or reading a book. Sometimes journaling and meditation are what take me there too. Whatever your intuition tells you that you need in a given moment, whatever your impulses are, once you have opened this dam of self love you will not be able to stay away from the healing that is intended for you, from you. You are beloved by all beings around and within you. You are the guidance you’ve been seeking from guides both within and without you. You are indeed always seeking YOU, even if you don’t consciously realize it, and perhaps that’s why you’re drawn to reading this or taking in any other writing about this or that speaks to your pain in some way. Something in you wants to surface and be felt so it can be healed, so YOU can be healed and move forward, letting go of all that has been encumbering you in your personal process of ascension. It’s all happening, moving, flowing and it wants to flow to and through you.
There are so many ways to find out more of who you are, even if it feels as if the core of you has been gnawed away at somehow, through years of sustained wounding that has brought on many different reactions and play-outs in your life. Any and all of them are good and we all have our own path to get to a place of more emotional and spiritual health and of course, more LOVE flow. Of course the way I advocate for, live into and also facilitate is SoulFullHeart, and of course this invitation is for you to feel into that more for yourself. However, I also feel and understand that wherever we are all at is just as sacred and just as necessary until our healing encourages us to choose something different. There is always a wide array of choices and choice points and the possibilities truly are infinite.
I encourage you to remember yourself today…to flow with the love that wants to circulate more throughout your entire being, to remember that you are an embodiment of all of your choices up to now and that you have more choices based in love, in this very moment, to say yes to as they move into your awareness and offer to help you heal and become more of that love-filled essence of you that you crave to be and serve others from… ❤
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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visitsoulfullheartwayoflife.comfor more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
Being with the energies that are moving for us collectively and personally is a tall order.
(I’m sitting down to write as part of my own self loving digestion process.)
Whether you are feeling the energy shifts we are going through (subtle for some, for others, not so) or awakening in more of a mental way to the knowledge that is being revealed now about things both great and horrible, there is a huge need to find a way to digest all of this.
Having a deep energetic movement that ripples through your body or having your eyes opened mentally to ‘what’s really going on’ is not necessarily a digestion. In fact, for many, it’s an increased indigestion.
Many are left with a craziness that they/we would do anything to shake off somehow. There’s a lot of good and important advice that comes into play here, like being extra loving to yourself and both boundary setting as well as tolerant of others around you during these phases…..but, ultimately, there is a something that each of us are left to bear.
The universe is essentially rewiring itself, and you are part of that universe. The universe is in the midst of its own labour pains, and there is no escape for any of us except through.
So far, I’ve written this article from a mental place, seeking to ‘make sense’ and garner interest. Let me shift now to an intuitive place and invite you into feeling that.
Who you are is infinite love. So is every thing that can be called a thing in the universe. The universe is both outside of you and inside of you. You are also a universe unto yourself, as well as a universe unto the universe around you and there isn’t anyone who is more important or powerful than you.
You are being sovereignly called by your sovereign self into an exploration and renovation of what is called you. You have lived part of your existence in familiarity with a way of processing life and feeling life that is now changing. What it feels like to BE YOU is changing. In the heights of that change, there will be confusion and chaos. These deep pains are not the pains of any kind of punishment coming to you for things you have done or failed to do. Nor are they something that mean there is anything wrong with you. In truth, what they mean is that there is something that is so deeply right about you.
Infinite Love must enter the unknown through you. Contrary to what you’ve been led to believe, God, or The Universe, or Source or whatever you might be comfortable to call ‘it’ doesn’t actually know itself. It is in a constant and ever changing quest to know itself, and IT is you.
You don’t know you. You’ve never actually known you. Your higher self, or your Divine Self is breaking through your own reality processing filters with a movement that you can’t and were not meant to figure out. You see, it’s about letting in more love, not about letting in more knowledge, unless it’s the knowledge of love.
Love is growing at such exponential rates that it is in an almost crisis mode seeking to land in more and more hearts. It can only do this with your permission and by your invitation.
Ask love itself to wrap you. Ask love itself to show you the means to accept this change into your life as you currently know it.
The only way to digest these deep changes and shifts is through the sovereign centre of your own heart, at the centre of your own universe.
Anything less is you short-changing you and the universe around you.
Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, facilitator, and writer of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information.
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