Author: Raphael Awen

Ascension/Divine Union Teacher. Parts/Soul Aspects Facilitator. Soul Scribe.

The Tipping Point Of Our Pain

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The simplicity in the complexity is stunning.

When we look at anything troubling us, we can see its roots in the loss of love, or said another way: fear.

We came from love, we still are this love, and yet we are also returning to this love. We attempted to step outside of this love to see and feel its edges. We gave ourselves the experience of what it would feel like to be away from love.

We had to form a resistance to love in order to do this. Like a sail hoisted in the wind, it is the resistance action that creates the movement and motion. Like a baby exiting the familiar womb, the time comes to push against. From the vantage point of our original estate of being so secure in love, of knowing nothing but love, we had no fear of losing love. We knew that growth would require at least the perception of the loss of love.

Actually losing love forever is no doubt the worst fear scenarios that our fears of eternal damnation stem from. But strangely, as great as this fear is, the greater fear we could not abide as consciousness beings was being imprisoned by love, with no way to escape it, with no way of knowing anything different. Without difference, there can be no deference, and thus, no reverence. What good is being a millionaire if you don’t know or appreciate that you are one?

Now, we can really feel the great dilemma that all of our everyday dilemmas stem from. We want love so bad, yet we must resist it in order to create the motions and e-motions necessary to learn of this love. We need fear in order to know love.

If this is true, then the whole point (especially the tipping point) of our pain is the willingness to feel it. The whole point of money is in the spending of it. It can’t do you any good until you spend it. Likewise fear can’t do you any good until you feel it.

We could say that everyone of our souls journeys is all about the willingness to feel our fears. All the dramas and stage sets of our lives are all directed by our souls need to feel, even at the most outlandish of production costs.

Yesterday, I felt a deep collision inside of myself, of feeling one part of my being so wanting to make big things happen, and another part of me so refusing to move a single muscle. I can feel how both of these aspects of my being have always been there, but we’re just wired up effectively to gain certain movements at different times and places. Now however, that wiring configuration isn’t what is working anymore. As I felt into the ache below it all and the triggers surrounding it, I was able to feel with and be with both of these parts of myself and deeply empathically feel their realities – how both wanted, and still do, to help me return to love. Waves of tears were able to move through as I was able to reach out to the universe, my Higher Self and particularly the Divine Father and Mother, for comfort for taking on such a wild ride.

This wild ride was and is the ride of being a being that is all love who needed to go in search of the edges of that love, only to discover there are no edges. We are nothing but love, where even our not-love is contained within the love that we all are.

There’s nothing left but reverence, tears and awe. You can draw upon this love, as this love is in total awe of you for taking on such a wild ride, for your willingness to undergo every feeling scenario that is moving through your circumstances, every bit of your history, from this life and beyond, every gain and every loss, every sorrow and every joy – all of it comes home to this hearth and heart of infinite love.

We needed to resist it in order to discover it, and to be forever changed by the journey.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

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Returning To Money Earning

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This may be of interest to a few sweet souls here.

Late last month, Gabriel and Kalayna put me onto an app-based online English teaching company called Palfish from China that is seeking to expand their teacher base to serve the huge market of Chinese children and their parents seeking to get their children ahead with English.

I downloaded the App, got familiar, applied, and was easily accepted. In the 4 weeks since I’ve been with them, I’ve been teaching English through the provided app to young Chinese children and have earned over $700 USD by working a few hours in the early mornings each day. The pay works out to $18 USD per teaching hour and goes up from there. Teachers also receive a $30 bonus each time a student/parent makes a purchase following a trial lesson. I’ve ‘sold’ 4 of these already, 2 in the last 2 days! Raianna is about to jump onboard with Palfish as well, leaving another company that didn’t feel like a fit for her.

Palfish is quite entrepreneurial as each teacher must create an attractive profile within the app to draw students and build their student base. The company also books the teachers chosen and available ‘slots’ with the trial classes that they offer to their customer base. Students, parents, company personnel and fellow teachers, readily communicate directly with one another through the app, providing a strong atmosphere of everyone winning together.

If you feel drawn to working online, for decent pay, in a supportive atmosphere – you can take this opportunity with you wherever you may go! This is particularly workable for us here at SoulFullHeart as we transition to England this year. For me, I know this will be a fairly short term involvement as serving people in session space is picking up, but the gifts of serving these kids and re-inhabiting money earning after leaving behind career a while back is a HUGE gift.

If you’d like to jump right in, or just check it out further, you can through this link and I’ll receive 30 USD as a referral bonus just because you did (in the event you also become an approved teacher)! Other teachers that you in turn refer/draw to the company once you become an approved teacher will also net you a $30 bonus.

Note: The company is only accepting native speakers from the 5 following countries: US, Canada, United Kingdom, Australia and New Zealand. TESL (Teaching English as a second language) certification or college degrees are an asset, but ARE NOT required for Palfish. I have none of those, personally.

If you’d like to know more, please message me and I’ll help point you in the right direction.

Like I said, If you’d like to jump in, or wade in, you can through this link and I’ll receive $30 USD as a referral bonus just because you did!

Here is the link to download the App for Android or IPhone:

https://www.ipalfish.com/klian/web/dist/teacher/mobile/invite/teacher_invite.html?uid=5202379

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

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Love From Mystery Admirers

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It’s been an interesting experience for Jelelle and I hearing from several people recently who have been following our blog or facebook page for a long time, but who we had never before heard from.

And what was so interesting was that the level of interest was so much higher than casual. Several people have told us that the tone and energy of what we were sharing was something that they readily saw as unique and different. One man told me in session yesterday, after contacting me for the first time the day before, that he immediately related to us because we were not ‘just loving and lighting everything’ in an ungrounded way, yet being REALLY loving to all aspects of the self. I was so amazed as he shared an intimate relationship with us through our blog that went back for three years, but that we had no knowledge of!

We digested together how this was a necessary phase of his process, to go it alone, and how this seems to be changing for him as well. I feel these kinds of changes are happening more and more for many others as well.

How about you? Are you one who has needed a sacred phase of holding your own process close to your chest, so to speak? Are parts of you becoming more comfortable and feeling it is time to issue your trust to an ‘other’ who can be mirror and guide, who can possibly earn your full and grounded trust, to assist you into what is dawning in your life now? Are you by chance one of our ‘mystery admirers’? 🙂

I’d love to be a mirror for you. Your esteem for me or Jelelle or the rest of us here in our SoulFullHeart club is actually a mirror of your esteem for yourself. You were seeing you! You are seeing you!

I offer a 90 minute bridging session for a minimum donation of $55 USD. The flow and results are amazing as you harvest the work that your soul has led. We just get to hold a birthing time together and see where it leads next.

I have time available this week coming up. You can follow the link below to make it happen! 🙂

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

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Returning To Stillness

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Just spent an hour and a half sitting in a creek that flows into the ocean – never felt so relaxed this life! Jelelle, thank god, found the energy to break out the phone for a pic….. haaaaaa…..

All activity and motion is sourced in and returns to stillness.

The ‘trick’ for us is to be able to feel and resonate with this stillness in the midst of any of our activities. What better way to do THAT, than by feeling and holding the part of you who feels anything but still,…who feels stressed or anxious. We all have access to our Higher Self’s frequencies of stillness, infinite love and clarity, but we need to bridge this access to the parts of us who feel anything but.

Both are true.

One doesn’t negate or cancel the other. One cannot be accessed actually without the polarity and presence of the other. So stop waiting to become ‘spiritual’ and ‘attained’ as some condition from knowing the bliss you already are. Ascension is a come-as-you-are party, people! The universe doesn’t want your polished got-it-together self, as the universe would feel quite out of place with you showing up like that, looking all out of place. The universe is finding its way through you, through your struggle, through your desire and through your trial and what you’ve called ‘error’!

There aren’t any errors, not any more!

There’s YOU doing a sacred journey!

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

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Your Dreamer App Is Requesting Permission To Access Your Desires Folder…

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We’ve all heard that for most people who win a big lottery, it ends up being a major negative effect in their life.

I heard there is actually a class action lawsuit in California of big lottery winners suing the state for the damages and havoc that the big money ‘did’ to them.

But why then does the idea of winning the lottery feel so appealing? I can dream quite easily about what I’d do with the first million, and the second, and keep going from there.

I feel it has to do with how we are meant to dream, but lack the permission to dream.

For many, they find the permission to dream in a lottery ticket. ‘I have a chance, even if a very small chance, but a very real chance nonetheless of really changing my circumstances.’

What we are missing in this is feeling how the lives we are living right now have been dreamt up by us previously. Everything that is created, is created twice, first in concept or picture, then in ‘reality’. We ‘real’ize things in the personal ‘fact’ories of our creative essence. Even someone who is reputed to be the most uncreative person has created that reality.

We are the creator, and we can’t escape that.

Life is asking us to dream. But to do that, your dreamer app needs permission to access your desires folder. This is why dreaming is a no go area for many people. Accessing the desire body and all that lives there, feels like opening Pandora’s box.

And it is.

Possibly there is nothing quite as life changing as the willingness to feel what you really want. This is how life itself is wired up, and this is how it lives in every cell of your body, in every dimension that your life exists in.

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our sessions and process to jump start your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

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The Magical Portal Of Your Own Darkness

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By Raphael Awen

Your experiencing of what you don’t want is actually what’s key to experiencing what you do want.

To the degree you feel depressed is actually testament to your native capacity for enthusiasm, creativity and divine play.

To the degree you know what it is to feel bombarded with anxiety, or just a background tension of anxiety, speaks to your natural ability for radiating deep trust, rest and security in the world, and beyond.

The presence of the negative is the evidence of the presence and reality of the positive. One cannot exist without the other.

This tug-of-war polarity and tension between what you desire and what you actually experience is the pathway into navigating between the two in the direction you want to go. You are like this anti-gravitic travel device in this way.

You wouldn’t even be able to feel tension, were it not for rest. You couldn’t feel love were it not for fear. You couldn’t feel trust were it not for anxiety. One is needed to give reality to the other.

That’s all these ‘others’ are. Ultimately, they are not ‘other’, but flowing beautifully and magically from the one being that you are. You are already perfect, just maybe not in the way a part of you has perfection defined.

If this is true, what then?

Then,….you are being invited to embrace the opposite, the thing that is ‘opposing’ the thing you want. It’s a magical doorway into the thing you want. It’s not actually an opposition, it’s an invitation.

You should be jumping up and down and falling off your chair about now, on the inside at least, if not on the outside just yet. If you’re not, give your head and heart a shake.

What do you really want? What are you prepared to spend to have that life? Will you spend and cash in your fears, your anxieties, your shame, in exchange for experiencing the deeper essence that you already are?

Begin to really dream of the life you want. See it, feel it. Feel it deeply in contrast to fully feeling the life you presently have, but long to change. Especially feel and don’t deny the parts of you who just can’t see it, who just can’t jump up and down just yet.

GET CURIOUS, open your heart to all that is inside of you. Enter the darkness. It is your magical portal into the infinite magic of being that you are!

I can tell you that personally, I no longer experience the big unaddressed and avoided layers of anxiety or depression or shame. Where these things once lived in my life is now the presence of deep trust and arising creativity, and very meaningful and deepening self worth. This doesn’t mean I am without challenge. Far from it. I live in duality – the tension between what I have and what I want. That’s called appetite, always moving between satiation and desire. I am invited into that tension every day. What’s cool about this is that the courage it took to face and love my depression and anxiety is the same template for how I live in the moment of every day. What need is arising now? How can I embrace that need! Where is love wanting to flow and be felt?

What largesse of my being is wanting to engage it’s next step into the world of infinite love and infinite possibility?

If you need a mirror, or a reference point, jot my name down. You are looking at one of thee most amazing beings you have ever laid eyes on. You are looking at nothing less than a mirror of yourself. I’ll in turn jot your name down. Holeeee ________ !

We are this crazy hot stuff, only reeling from how magical we are, how infinite we are, how full of love we are. Everything ‘else’ isn’t anything ‘else’, it’s all the same pointing to oneness we are inside, outside and collectively.

We’re such hot stuff, we needed the invitation into the opposition as a way to unlock and discover.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

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Make Friends With The Gap!

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What gap?’ you say….

The gap between where you are and where you’d like to be….

The gap between what you are feeling and what you’d like to be feeling….

The gap between the company you keep and the company you dream of keeping!

Without the gap, there is no reason to be here. Without the gap, there is no growth or learning, or remembering.

Without the gap, life is dead. God forbid, that regardless of what new realities you attain to, that you are left without something to reach for – to BRIDGE to.

Part of the gap that has deep and profound meaning for me is offering myself as a bridge in serving others to discover more of their Higher Self embodiment, more of their authentic self manifesting in their everyday ‘what it feels like to be them’ kind of worlds.

I’d like to extend this offer to you personally (for Men and Women). If you’ve felt drawn to myself as a resource for whatever reason, I’d like to hear about it. I’d like to forge a working relationship with you, based in heart and soul GROWTH. Please PM or email me – soulfullhearts@gmail.com and let’s get GOing!

I offer a 90 minute Bridging Session that is $55 USD minimum donation, where I endeavour to assist you with something immediate that is asking for your attention and movement. This is a great place to start. Then from there, you will have a sense if what I offer ongoingly through SoulFullHeart is for you, and if entering into a weekly or biweekly session space is what feels right.

I have slots available THIS WEEK if you are ready to meet.

Much love,

Raphael Awen
more here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

 

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

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As A Man…

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As a MAN:

Trying to ‘be a man’ outside of a relationship to someone or something is impossible.

Manhood itself is ‘an expression in relationship to’.

There is always an arena of life in this way that the man finds himself in, that is full of challenge that calls for choice, and alignment of one’s actions with those choices.

So then life as you currently know it, is not something that needs to gottten over or around in order for you to be a man, but rather, life as you currently know it is something that needs to be embraced, faced and moved through in order for you to feel your manhood moving and expressing.

Where this gets truly rewarding is when we make this conscious and find new ways of responding and relating to all of life around us. We then see ourselves literally becoming the man of our own dreams.

We do this not by trying harder to be a man, but rather by finding and feeling the parts of ourselves that are not on board just yet for their own valid reasons with our gender and power expression in the world. Trying to be more of a man without these kinds of deeper explorations into our emotional bodies only serves to add another layer of suffering and internal war with ourselves, as a self improvement project that we tried to power our way through, is again laid to the side, on the shame pile.

Even this suffering and internal war though is not an end in itself, for as a man, we are ever finding our way and finding the impetus to our next choices. We actually needed, and many still currently need, their suffering loops to alchemize their next larger soul choices and action trajectories. There has never been a time like this time to live into what your soul came here to feel and learn as a soul who chose the MALE gender.

Manhood is EPIC, MAN! You didn’t sign up for anything small when you checked the MAN box. You signed up for it because you are up for it…you’re only waiting for a MAN picture that you can truly buy into!

Raphael Awen
www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions
I’d love to serve your epic arising into all that you already are!

 

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

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April 2018’s Patreon MONEY UPdate

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The Money is GOING UP!

Thank you a big old TON from all of us at SFH. I did this FB live to share our gratitude and some teaching on money – we all want a new world order when it comes to money. There is one at your and my door – let’s find the courage to step through that door!

I’m in if you are!

Thank you SO MUCH to all of our Patreon Donors! xoxoxo

 

Resisting The Natural Flow Of Change

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The new worlds that await us are patiently calling to us even as a part of us is so longing for that new world AND feeling like it will never come at the same time.

Part of us can use the feeling of hopelessness and despair as an anchor to hold back the natural flow of change that life and the universe is bringing.

In the first years of our lives, we marched through one huge change right after the other, with no time or open hearted other there to really feel what we were feeling through all of that. This leaves parts of us very resistant to change now as adults. For parts of us, change just isn’t safe.

Problem is, life is too big to not change, and even if we resist change and slow it down, change is ultimately unstoppable. This can leave parts of us so overworked, stressed and even angry at life, or the universe, or God, while our life looks stranger and stranger as we resist and pretzel ourselves to its natural flow.

The entire universe is feeling you as you feel this challenge. You’re not the only one. In fact, you are feeling exactly what everyone and everything in the entire universe is feeling. That’s why it’s so big to feel. There’s TONS of it to go around.

In a session with a woman yesterday, we got to feel together and begin a real time conversation with the Inner Protector part of her who’s been tasked with holding and managing this HUGE undertaking navigating change. A big heartfelt ‘thank you’ was felt and expressed from her to this part of her that was anything but perfunctory or polite talk. A transactable feeling wave went through me and her and her Inner Protector at her words of gratitude for its role and work.

Until we find and feel the parts of ourselves who are in this push pull relationship to change, there is only the part themselves striving valiantly to manage change. Everything changes when these parts of you feel your relationship with them, your curiosity, your opening heart, your desire for real relationship.

You may not have known of this inner family inside of you, but they know you and long for your attention.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.