Eclipse Energies Supporting Illumination Of Resistance To Love

by Kalayna Colibri

There are still some residual pieces to feel as the Lion’s Gate energies continue to wan and the eclipse today shines its light… a partial eclipse, so it feels like it acknowledges the illuminating work done so far, yet wants to offer this illumination as a way to see and feel what remains in shadow too. One needs the other, needs contrast, in order to be deeply felt and let in…

It’s always amazing to me, how the capacity of our parts to filter out and resist love too is exactly the same capacity they have to hold the tears of collapse INTO love, into you, into their realities and what’s been bubbling underneath the now glassy surface.

Amazing too, how right in line with this, there can be SO much GOODNESS and LOVE to let in while also feeling the baggage to be claimed within, the places where love still needs to go in order to help you move the residue of old conditioning and the remnants of your deepest pain.

I feel this eclipse today offering this and so much more… that there always is and will be so much more, especially more love in the truest, purest sense. Ideas of abundance seem to be falling away or shifting into something new, something not materialistic at all, yet too, there are new invitations now to revisit even ‘material’ abundance and have a new relationship with it.

I feel this all so much on a personal level – the letting in of deeper and deeper love with others yet with myself and my own parts/Metasoul too. So often for me, there can be a heart-wide-open letting in feeling and experience that is like a Kundalini experience x infinity in moments, while in sometimes the very next wave there is also an experience of fear, of resistance, of self-judgment in parts of me that are trying to put the brakes on the goodness. This happens less and less now, yet it does happen. And, I feel how this is true for so many… the more love there is to let in, the more room we need to make for it.

Infinite love to you on this eclipse day… may you shine bright in your own right, in your exploration of your shadow/suppressed parts, in your deeper and deeper embracement of the love that you are. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 35, emoto-spiritual teacher, WayShower, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at

Resisting The Natural Flow Of Change

The new worlds that await us are patiently calling to us even as a part of us is so longing for that new world AND feeling like it will never come at the same time.

Part of us can use the feeling of hopelessness and despair as an anchor to hold back the natural flow of change that life and the universe is bringing.

In the first years of our lives, we marched through one huge change right after the other, with no time or open hearted other there to really feel what we were feeling through all of that. This leaves parts of us very resistant to change now as adults. For parts of us, change just isn’t safe.

Problem is, life is too big to not change, and even if we resist change and slow it down, change is ultimately unstoppable. This can leave parts of us so overworked, stressed and even angry at life, or the universe, or God, while our life looks stranger and stranger as we resist and pretzel ourselves to its natural flow.

The entire universe is feeling you as you feel this challenge. You’re not the only one. In fact, you are feeling exactly what everyone and everything in the entire universe is feeling. That’s why it’s so big to feel. There’s TONS of it to go around.

In a session with a woman yesterday, we got to feel together and begin a real time conversation with the Inner Protector part of her who’s been tasked with holding and managing this HUGE undertaking navigating change. A big heartfelt ‘thank you’ was felt and expressed from her to this part of her that was anything but perfunctory or polite talk. A transactable feeling wave went through me and her and her Inner Protector at her words of gratitude for its role and work.

Until we find and feel the parts of ourselves who are in this push pull relationship to change, there is only the part themselves striving valiantly to manage change. Everything changes when these parts of you feel your relationship with them, your curiosity, your opening heart, your desire for real relationship.

You may not have known of this inner family inside of you, but they know you and long for your attention.

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Embracing Resistances During This Huge UPgrading Process

By Jelelle Awen
HUGE upgrades to ALL of our bodies possible right now during this intense passage of high SOULar winds, geomagnetic shiftings as Gaia ascends/shifts her magnetics, coronal holes to make us WHOLE release more sacred masculine frequencies to heal the collective energies….wow! AND, a meteor shower from Lyra is coming into our skies with the best times to see it before sunset on Sunday, April 22nd.
This cosmic weather activity is getting and keeping my attention personally, as I can feel my DNA and my intuitive capacities tuning into it and being upgraded by it. I was able to serve a beautiful soul in session space yesterday morning and then spent the whole day after that in meditative download and journey space. Much conferencing and partying with my star family too. There is a party vibe in the moment with our Star BEing allies/families, along with a good kind of urgency about the accelerating shiftings going on for us Gaians.
Guidance from star family led me to explore more about the Lyra constellation yesterday, without even KNOWing that there was a meteor shower from there going on in OUR skies right now! I love it when that happens! I am getting more sense of our galactic cosmologies and origins as connected to Lyra. Well, ONE truth anyway that seems to resonant for me and what my Metasoul/Higher Self is connected to. It may resonant for you too and put some pieces together. I’ll be sharing more about that as it digests for me and lands more in my heart.
What IS in my heart today is a piece that I was feeling with my star family about resistance and what I have been offering during session space too. I sense that these cosmic energies are pushing up MORE resistant frequencies that live and vibrate in our emotional bodies, Metasouls, physical bodies, etc. to be felt and responded to. As we go into our ‘next levels’, the previous ‘levels’ start pushing up oil.
Resistance has been a result of our 3D experiment into duality and polarity…it vibrates at both the collective and personal levels. Resistance happens as seemingly ‘opposing’ forces push against each other. It is one polarity of positive and one of negative meeting another. Resistance comes from fear, yes… is a resistance to experiencing love-based frequencies that want to shift it and transform it into love. Yet, what I feel is even a deeper invitation related to resistance is to explore how you RELATE with it.
Resistance can take the form of panic, distrust, anxiety, contention, feelings of being ‘attacked’, wanting control, suspicion, etc. Resistance can also manifest in the physical body as muscle tensions and pains, headaches and migraines, flus and colds and anything that ‘attacks’ the immune system. Resistance can manifest in the experience of ‘negative’ entities or other spirits ‘attacking’ you or implanting things ‘against your will’.
If you resist your resistance, then….more resistance is created. Or, as I have called it before, fear is holding the space for more fear. BUT, if you feel resistance as actually having GOOD reason for being there and if you respond to resistance with curiosity and self love, then you are able to actually get to the concerns that are underneath the resistance. It is usually the Protector part that has resistance and that is because of ‘past’ hurts or pains or traumas that the Protector is concerned you will experience again.
The Protector can put up resistant feelings as a smokescreen to block whatever you are trying to do or BE because it is primarily concerned that you and other parts of you will get hurt again. This is especially the case if you are stepping into your bigness in some new way, wanting to serve love again, aligning with your soul purpose, letting in NEW relationships that are based on love and soul resonance. These are ultimately growthful and good things for you, yet the Protector part of you might not ‘get’ that at first.
Sometimes, though, resistance is a good kind of warning sign from your Protector that something is not right or good or resonant for you. When you can check in and negotiate with your Protector, asking them, “What are you concerned about right now as I can feel your resistance to this?” and they can respond……THEN you can start to feel where the actual source of these feelings are coming from. And you can negotiate with this part of you from there and move through the resistance that way, either by not doing whatever it was or by doing it or by a middle ground. Really, it was the being willing to feel the resistance and where it comes from that moves it. It is not ‘fusing’ to the resistance, yet having a relationship WITH it that allows it to open out into love again. More about the Protector and other parts here:
Here is a simple meditation to connect with your Protector and begin negotiation with them:
Ultimately, polarity wants to move into balance. We find that balance from WITHIN through the feeling and BEing with the push and pulls from inside. These Ascension energies of PURE light and love will reveal the resistances from within for you to be curious about, to respond with compassion……to not resist your resistance, yet rather embrace it and the parts that hold it.
MUCH love to you as we journey through the temporary closing downs, the opening outs, and the BEcoming of what is on the other side…..TOGETHER!
Jelelle Awen 
Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Jelelle offers a 90 minute one on one bridging session with her over zoom for $55 USD min. donation with women and with Raphael for men…more information here. Visit for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter: Embracing Rather Than Resisting Your Galactic Consciousness And Your Star DNA

It’s the release of our weekly museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week!

SoulFullHeart Co-Creator, Teacher and Facilitator, Jelelle Awen, launches this week’s Museletter with an important energy update about embracing rather than resisting our galactic consciousness and DNA. In the article and a video discussing the same themes, she invites you to approach even the “darkest” or “most negative” aspects/parts of you with open-hearted curiosity and love instead of fear and polarization.

We have many stunning offerings this week by our Teachers and Facilitators, Jelelle, Raphael, Gabriel and Kalayna, including many energy updates about the intense and ongoing April energies, new blogs in Raphael’s Journal To The Demiurge series, and digestions of different aspects of life, Ascension and personal process grounds.

Jelelle has a NEW guided meditation offering in which you can enter a deep process of meeting your shadow aspects. This is the perfect opportunity to put into practice what Jelelle wrote about in our featured article this week… approaching your shadow or that which has been hidden/suppressed inside of you, with all of the love that you have and ARE.
There is also a brand new episode of Practical Ascension with Gabriel and Kalayna for you to take in, which is an intro the financial area of life and how it relates to your Ascension process, through the SoulFullHeart lens and healing path/way of life.
Tomorrow, Saturday April 14th,  we will be having our next Unity Meditation call which we offer for FREE! If you’d like to join, you can message one of us on Facebook or register via Eventbrite, after which you’ll receive a ticket in your email with all details for connecting to the meeting. If you’d like to listen to the last Unity Meditation which was held on April 4th, the recording is available on this Museletter and also on the SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube channel.

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