Experiencing Anxiety And Depression As Portals To Your Parts Of Self And Soul

By Jelelle Awen

The two emotional experiences that are so often brought to be ‘fixed’ or ‘solved’ in sessions (often by the Inner Protector) are that of anxiety and depression. The answer in 3D is to suppress them, to medicate them with ‘anti-feeling’ drugs. The answer in 3D is to fight them, to not let them ‘win’, to be stronger than they are. The answer in 3D is to see these emotional states as enemies that must be conquered and controlled, especially if they are interrupting or disrupting your ability to work hard and ‘keep up appearances’ (which is the number one priority in 3D life.)

The experience of anxiety can be so difficult. The worry that practically chews at your third chakra. The ‘panic attacks’ seeming to come from nowhere that can be embarrassing, inconvenient, and just plain scary. The inability to feel at ease, at rest, and in goodness inside of your own skin and life.

Depression can hang like a thick fog over everything. Life feels meaningless, especially 3D life routines of work, eat, sleep patterns that go on and on. The sense of flatness is punctuated by moments of wanting to die and neither feels comfortable with each other.

In 3D, the emotional states themselves are treated and fixated on….rather than the actual parts of the self (and soul) that are feeling them and WHY they are feeling them. In my over 15 years of working with parts of myself and with others in spaceholding, I have discovered that there is always VERY GOOD reason for these feeling states. Rather than suppressing them, we relate with them as a PORTAL.

Seeing them as a portal allows you to shift from fighting them and into loving curiosity about them. The experience of extreme emotional states is so often the result of backed up, undigested traumas. Anxiety is the downstream, byproduct of parts of you (usually the inner child) not experiencing that life was safe energectically/emotionally/ and very often physically. Your inner child cannot actually trust life to be loving, so they move into an anxious state of distrust near constantly. This is fuelled by the Inner Protector and Inner Punisher’s lack of trust in the world to be a safe one for your Inner Child to be in. The two anxious states fuel each other rather than either able to provide trusting and loving frequencies to the other.

Here is a meditation with me to meet your Inner Child, as a place to start: https://youtu.be/L_bpgyIuYds

This is just ONE possibility for the existence of anxiety, as it can also stem from the Metasoul and be a result of very traumatic soul experiences (especially those that involve killing or being killed) that haven’t been digested. The existential anxiety is very often underneath the this-life triggered anxiety. In 3D, the veil of amnesia is thick and the very influential emotional bleeding-through reality of other lifetimes (especially for those awakening) is not acknowledged.

Depression is very often the struggle of the soul to accept and integrate into 3D life. Awakening souls aren’t meant to actually assimilate into 3D life, yet they aren’t very often supported and initiated into their true soul purpose and galactic essence. If this initiation had happened during our formative teenage years instead of invalidation, we would have bloomed into passionate expression of our soul gifts and service of love. Instead, we were conditioned in 3D deadness cycles….and depression is often a result of that conditioning and programming that goes against the grain of souls and hearts.

Connecting with your Inner Teenager can help to ease the depression as their creativity is released and discovered with you as loving and supportive soul mentor that they never had. Depression is also connected to soul themes and other lifetimes, especially for those souls who are highly creative and connected to and are a channel for Divine inspiration. Here is a guided meditation to meet your Inner Teenager: https://youtu.be/sLDoA7UXVFk

Connecting with emotional states such as anxiety and depression AS portals of self discovery to these parts of you allows for a BIG shift in your experience of them. Instead of battling them, you come to see them as a precious gift that opens up access to these parts of yourself and soul that need you. Over time, the expression of them lessens and eventually fades away altogether (as has been my experience)….with no drugs needed.

Only love can heal the trauma and the downstream emotional expression of it. As you embrace all parts of yourself and their expressions, you are offering the medicine of love to heal whatever inside of you most needs it.

Love,

Jelelle Awen

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Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about free intro calls and 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Feeling Your Relationship To ‘Empowerment’ In Your Life & Healing Path

by Kalayna Solais

“Empowerment” has been a theme arising in a few sessions I’ve had with women lately.

Empowerment around really stepping up for their own healing. Empowerment around finding their independence. Empowerment around collaborating with life while holding the parts that may feel afraid of it, anxious about it, sad that it doesn’t seem to be giving them what they feel they want.

I’ve had so much anxiety myself over the years… coming into this lifetime feeling as if I “never belonged“. On the other side of that coin though, I can feel now how others in my life really genuinely tried to connect with me sometimes yet there was so much within me that was rejecting myself that I rejected others often unconsciously. Also, there’s a way that I knew I was never meant to belong in the same way others did. I had to have something to push against in order to find the true me. It’s almost like I was born more into a 4D reality rather than a 3D one, at least internally.

To find your empowerment and the healing of this anxiety/depression is a journey. It’s deeper than what medication can touch. It’s deeper than what many spiritual/therapy practices can touch too. It’s not there to be transcended because if you do this, it will fire back like a boomerang over and over again until you can really feel it and heal it through empowered steps within.

You are not your birth family. You are not your current social world. You are not your school, your grades, your upbringing.

You are a unique tapestry that needs expression in this world that also needs YOU. You are full of gifts that may actually be dormant or buried right now until you can find those steps into your independence, creating the space they need to emerge and unfold. You are a story that is yet to be discovered. A record skipping on one note until you nudge the needle in another direction. So much of what you want to heal inside of you starts with taking a step (even a cautious one) into what’s next for you, whether it feels like a small step or a big one.

You get to choose the path that feels most empowering for you, that helps you feel as if you get to heal AND have a life of goodness, stability, independence, and endless self-discovery. The one I’ve found most empowering is the one I offer, where you get to connect to and have a deepening relationship with the part(s) of you that are deeply afraid, that identify so closely with anxiety and/or depression. Once you can show up for these parts and give them all of that sweet love in your heart, they shift, they open-up to possibilities, they transmute their fear into courage.

You get to feel this gift of self-empowerment to whatever degree you’re ready to, any time you feel ready to, one step at a time. 

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Energy Update: Anxiety, Depression, Trauma Transmutation Through Parts/Metasoul Connection

By Jelelle Awen

The current Ascension energies (or Divine Love energies!) are INtensely working on revealing undigested traumas that can anchor you to 3D consciousness. I’m hearing/seeing many souls who are feeling more acute anxiety, depression, heavy sadness/despair, and more in response to these energies. They are also ‘reliving’ memories of abuse from their childhoods in a visceral way.

Your emotional body is often the densest ‘body’ in terms of being anchored to 3D as so much has not been digested yet or paid attention to at the ACTUAL level of where the wounded originates…… yet rather numbed over, bypassed, analyzed, or perhaps just avoided. Your Metasoul (fractal expressions/other lifetime aspects) also has much emotional indigestion from many timelines of karma trauma playouts going on with the veil of amnesia making it very challenging to connect to and be consciously aware of this.

The transmutation of traumas from this life and from other lifetimes in the Metasoul is KEY to the ongoing Ascension process. This cannot be avoided or bypassed as your whole BEing on ALL levels (emotional, chakral, physical, mental) is being invited to ascend. That means ALL parts of you and all expressions of your soul receive and can respond to this invitation. No parts of you get left behind and the gifts of your traumas unwrapped get to ‘come along’ too.

Yet, how DO we transmute these traumas, especially when they can feel so intense and deeply ingrained? Connecting directly to the parts and Metasoul aspects that are experiencing the trauma (in the Now, there is no ‘past’ in the emotional body) is the response that we offer through our SoulFullHeart process, which I feel is one of the most direct, effective, self empowering (ultimately self led), and natural approaches to TRULY transmute traumas on a quantum level.

Trauma has its own specific vibration. It is more dissonant in tone. It is more ‘out of tune and tone’ from the harmonic ebb and flow of your 5D Self. When the trauma is deep enough, these tones form into a looping cycle of energy that we call a ‘part’. Parts have a fixated energy that is stuck in the scenes of when the traumas occurred. Even as your physical body matures and ages, these parts remain at the emotional age of these traumas. If you can feel and sense your essence like an energetic flow, then you can get how traumatizing situations would alter and disrupt that flow. The density of 3D living challenges the porous flow of emotions even more.

When traumas can be emotionally and energetically digested IN the moment that they happen, then they don’t get stuck and fixated. This digestion happens when an open-hearted person/caregiver/parent is able to feel you WHILE the trauma is happening with much love and compassion. Compassionate love moves the trauma energy out of fear and into love.

Most of us, however, didn’t have this kind of in the moment digestion happen with our caregivers as actually it was usually our caregivers who caused the traumas. This is especially true for the deeply rooted trauma caused by early childhood sexual abuse where boundaries of personal identify haven’t been established yet nor sexuality naturally expressed yet.

In our SoulFullHeart process during sessions, we as your Facilitator create a bridge with you to these traumatised parts of you and offer them much compassion, forgiveness, and healing/loving energy from and with the Divine. Parts of you respond to this love by unfreezing, unsticking, and lightening UP. The parts can then transmute from their wounded energy into their higher vibrational energy.

Your Inner Child’s shame can transmute to innocence. Your Inner Mother/Father’s anxiety can transmute to trust. Your Inner Teenager’s depression can transmute to creativity and risk taking. Your Protector’s vigilant guardedness can transmute to healthy self protection. Eventually these parts integrate into the wholeness of your 5D Self. More about parts and Metasoul aspects here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

Your Metasoul Aspects (commonly called ‘past lives’) respond in the same way to be connected with and ‘rescued’ from their intense timelines by your loving presence. They can transmute out of the stuck, collective archetypes of warrior or monk or wounded queen or wounded king and into the healthy expressions of guidance and strength, deep resonance with the Divine, and natural feminine and masculine balanced leadership. The soul gifts they have to offer you are now freed up to be in exchange with you. 

The trauma from the timelines your Metasouls live in is often hugely bleeding into yours and that also can cause intense emotions to come up for you. More about that in this article: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2018/05/19/energy-update-timeline-bleedthroughs-metasoul-karmic-transformation-opportunities/
In this process, you become your own healer. You are offering ALL parts of you the love and care that you most likely offer freely to others. If you serve love as a healer, then you KNOW what you can provide to others in response to their pains and struggles. This, then, is an invitation to offer that beautiful compassionate and objective witness energy to yourself and all parts of you that need you.

Every emotion offers a world of discovery as you connect with which part of you is feeling it and WHY they are feeling it. Every emotion actually elicits a curiosity response from you as you are able to separate from the experience of it in order to BE with the part of you that is feeling it.

Every emotion is your heart’s song and your response with love allows the tones to come back into tune and melodic expression again as the Infinite Love that YOU ARE.

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Raphael and I talked about the how the recent Ascension energies are inviting the digestion and transmutation of emotions through parts work in our recent livestream: https://youtu.be/ZgYLxoiwYoc
We offer 1:1 bridging sessions with a SoulFullHeart Facilitator (me, Raphael Awen, Gabriel Heartman, and Kalayna Colibri). These sessions are often LIFE changing as a whole new perspective on suffering opens up the way for MORE love! More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.