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Coming ‘Home’: My Journey Away From And Back Again To Soul Family

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by Kalayna Solais

I feel like I’ve arrived back ‘home’…

And in many ways, I have!

I have been on a journey inward for the last three months. I collapsed my relationship to my beloveds here in SoulFullHeart, my ‘title’ as a Facilitator/teacher of this way of life and process, and even my ‘role’ as a wife on a deeper level. I have been returning to myself. Returning ‘home’ to me so that I could feel what I truly wanted in my soul and what I was working, healing, and birthing on that level and beyond.

For me, this separation phase was never about completely severing everything that has made me ‘me’… this SoulFullHeart process has been the one thing that has ever worked for me, reaching deep into the heart and soul of my wounds and my gifts too. In fact, it was this process that held the steps into separation and the bigger context of it and held all of us through everything that came out of it and is still unfolding too.

Letting go of these souls that I have so much ‘history’ with on a heart and soul level has been one of the hardest things for me to do. What was so interesting to me though, were the many moments of dawning realizations, not just of what had to collapse between us and why in both this life and other lifetimes, but also of these newly arising senses of how to serve myself in my own unfolding process and how this was the only way to find connection with my beloveds again if that was to arise someday. This allowed me to feel so much surrender to every moment of sadness, anger, despair, joy, and connection both inner and outer and allowed me to allow in the Divine, Star Family, parts of me, and aspects of my Metasoul in other lifetimes too.

I found ways to feel my heart again, even though it was breaking. I found openings within me on the other side of many tears and sometimes rather feverish journaling and deep meditation experiences that allowed me to feel deeply loved and held by an energy both bigger than me and as big as me too. I could feel my beloveds actually living inside of me, where they would always live, no matter what happened next.

And, I trusted. Oh, how I trusted… I trusted every time I felt like trying to be social was a stretch for my parts that day and stayed home instead. I trusted every journal entry, every time I felt like I wasn’t getting anywhere, every time I was reminded to be gentle with myself because parts of me were getting too caught up in accomplishing or ‘getting over this’ already and couldn’t be gentle with themselves or each other. I trusted every feeling of being in a heavy downward shame spiral, knowing that if I could just hold it and be with it, I would find the other side of it. And sure enough, there were my guides in the form of beloved Metasoul and Divine connections, calling out to me, reminding me to lift UP and hold it all with my bigness and heart capacity, not go down with it. I realized over and over again how humbling this is to do and how no one can teach you how to do this, it has to come from your own experience.

I’m still digesting the goodness that I’ve earned now…that is really about earning the expanded capacity to transact goodness and love with others, not the goodness itself so much. I had goodness even in the separation. I just have it again in these precious relationships with those that know me better than anyone ever has and who I am getting to know and fall in LOVE with all over again.

My heart is full, happy and humbled to be ‘back’… to be in sessions again as a Facilitant and perhaps eventually a Facilitator when it’s another phase of that for me. I highly recommend meeting with Raphael or Jelelle for a session, at least one, to get a taste for yourself of what I’m sharing here. This process has a deep impact that can’t be forgotten, even if you only dive into it for a while. More information here about sessions: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Much love to you, from the heart of my journey to the heart of yours!

~ Kalayna

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Feeling Your Relationship To ‘Empowerment’ In Your Life & Healing Path

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by Kalayna Solais

“Empowerment” has been a theme arising in a few sessions I’ve had with women lately.

Empowerment around really stepping up for their own healing. Empowerment around finding their independence. Empowerment around collaborating with life while holding the parts that may feel afraid of it, anxious about it, sad that it doesn’t seem to be giving them what they feel they want.

I’ve had so much anxiety myself over the years… coming into this lifetime feeling as if I “never belonged“. On the other side of that coin though, I can feel now how others in my life really genuinely tried to connect with me sometimes yet there was so much within me that was rejecting myself that I rejected others often unconsciously. Also, there’s a way that I knew I was never meant to belong in the same way others did. I had to have something to push against in order to find the true me. It’s almost like I was born more into a 4D reality rather than a 3D one, at least internally.

To find your empowerment and the healing of this anxiety/depression is a journey. It’s deeper than what medication can touch. It’s deeper than what many spiritual/therapy practices can touch too. It’s not there to be transcended because if you do this, it will fire back like a boomerang over and over again until you can really feel it and heal it through empowered steps within.

You are not your birth family. You are not your current social world. You are not your school, your grades, your upbringing.

You are a unique tapestry that needs expression in this world that also needs YOU. You are full of gifts that may actually be dormant or buried right now until you can find those steps into your independence, creating the space they need to emerge and unfold. You are a story that is yet to be discovered. A record skipping on one note until you nudge the needle in another direction. So much of what you want to heal inside of you starts with taking a step (even a cautious one) into what’s next for you, whether it feels like a small step or a big one.

You get to choose the path that feels most empowering for you, that helps you feel as if you get to heal AND have a life of goodness, stability, independence, and endless self-discovery. The one I’ve found most empowering is the one I offer, where you get to connect to and have a deepening relationship with the part(s) of you that are deeply afraid, that identify so closely with anxiety and/or depression. Once you can show up for these parts and give them all of that sweet love in your heart, they shift, they open-up to possibilities, they transmute their fear into courage.

You get to feel this gift of self-empowerment to whatever degree you’re ready to, any time you feel ready to, one step at a time. 

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Individuating From Birth Family Guided Meditation: ‘Discover’ Vlog Series With Gabriel & Kalayna Solais

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by Kalayna Solais

Healing, awakening, becoming who you are meant to be is a process with many layers, reactions, feelings, openings, and completions.

Often this process leads us to a necessary individuation from birth family as well as other significant relationships we have in our lives.

This process of finding your identity apart from the one which your birth family primarily knows you to have is sacred, tender, and often very challenging.

As Gabriel and I explore in this video, there are many parts with many different needs and reactions around this process. Ultimately, it is a process of finding yourself, discovering what the most self-loving choices are for you and your path, and letting go of relationships that no longer resonate, all at a rate and pace that is manageable for your parts and for you as a growing, healing, and ascending heart and soul.

About halfway through the video we lead a guided meditation to help you connect with your Inner Protector, who will likely have strong feelings about this topic and process, and the part(s) of you that are most anchored into birth family in some way, shape, or form.

The biggest benefit to taking on and letting in this process of individuating from birth family is what you’ll discover about yourself and what you really want in ALL of your relationships. The vacancy created by letting go of relationships that don’t match your frequency and path can eventually be filled by relationships that DO resonate with where and who you ARE as an ever-shifting and awakening being.

Follow-up questions you can ask your Inner Protector and the part(s) of you that you met during the meditation:

What is hard about the relationship with birth family?

What is good about the relationship with birth family?

What is the fear of taking space from birth family?

What would be good about it?

For more about support through SoulFullHeart sessions, visit http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions ❤

Much love!

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess. Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist. 

Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart .

Introducing ‘Discover’: A New Vlog Series With Kalayna Solais

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by Kalayna Solais

I’d been baking on this idea for a while… feeling inspired to try something new, which is to take on offering an ongoing vlog series for as long as I feel to, posting as often as I feel to and as long as it arises in a genuine way. I’m not quite ready to take on the same ’33 Day’ series that Jelelle has now done two years in a row! But maybe someday? 🙂

https://youtu.be/LF_nZ9QKj_4

This first video is a very brief (about 4min) introduction and intention-setting from me as I set the stage for this. I have some topics in my heart that I’d like to talk about, including digesting some things that are often talked about and giving them a ‘SoulFullHeart-spin’. They include anxiety and depression and some new layers to discover as you feel your own; my personal process with parts/Metasoul work and how it could help you; various spirituality and Ascension-related topics, such as the different ways in which you may experience your own Ascension, awakening, and healing paths. Really the list of possibilities is endless and I’m open to requests as well, as nothing is set in stone and I very much want this to benefit and be in response to you, your parts, and your own heart and soul.

As I say in the video, I embrace fully the learning experience ahead of me with dipping my toe into the waters of holding these videos and this expression of service of love! I have clarity and wisdoms to share from my own process and experience and some that are still on the way too that maybe we will discover together.

Much love to you and I am excited to welcome you into this space with me!

Love,

Kalayna ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 30 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Divine Love Transmission: Dearest Human, You Are MORE…

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Painting by Mara Friedman: http://www.newmoonvisions.com

by Kalayna Colibri

You are more…
More than the labels assigned to you
and assigned to yourself.
More than the construction of self-image,
the self-perceived reasons to only ever be
“beautiful”, “handsome”, “fit”, “successful”…

Worthy.

By a certain standard only…
held as important by parts of you
that are so much more
than they think they are too.

You are more,
ever more,
not less…
never less.

The Universe
of you
wants you to remember
this…
feel this deeply,
bring this into your everyday,
your walking-around space
and sacred human BEing-ness
that you are always meant to BEcome more of…
the most you could ever imagine
with the least outward effort needed
yet the most profound inward inhabitation.

You already are
STUNNING…
the multi-verse
is struck by you
as you rise up to shine
as the truly human,
deeply beloved
mirror of LOVE
that you ARE.
As part of a powerful collective
WHOLE-li-ness
that joins with you in celebration
of the wonder of the human race
the places where we are growing up
to move into
and the evermore loving dimensions
that open
up more in the consciousness
of all that is ready to perceive
and receive
MORE love…

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 35, emoto-spiritual teacher, WayShower, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

You Are A BEacon Of LOVE: Sharing Your Self-Love Overflow In Service Of Love

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Image by Jason Dietrick

by Kalayna Colibri

It can be challenging for parts of you to remember that they need to share love with others in a mutually nourishing bond of openness and vulnerability and sometimes even contention, as much as they need love with YOU as the authentic you, ever-arising into more and more presence within yourself.

We are here to relate to ourselves deeply, to cultivate self-love. We are also here to share the overflow of that love with others – NOT to remain in stuckness or under-nourishing agreements with others, however… While there is likely some layer of love being exchanged there, there is so much more that could potentially open out… this is the ground that can make relationships of any kind scary to be in, yet also is the ground of mutual growth and ultimately a deepening of LOVE within and on the outside TOO.

To not share what you are cultivating inside in self-care, love, worth, advocacy, is to not share your light, the beacon you’re meant to be for the world, with the world. Parts of you may be relating to this with understandable fear and reactions from past social drama-trauma. Yet, to remain in a place of not sharing is to cap your own soul bigness, your capacity to love others as much as yourself, and your potential to truly live into your healing gifts and your deepest soul calling to be in the service of LOVE.

The choice remains in each moment, to breathe with and feel parts of you and their reasons for not allowing your arising and ascending you to emerge from the cocoon. There is a constant invitation into more love, more healing, more self-held grace and space, and more overflow into the destiny you’re meant to lead and live too, with each decision made to BEacon outward what you have so grown and nourished inward! 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Lift The Inner Veil Through Self Permission To Feel, Be And See Beyond 3D

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by Kalayna Colibri

imagination

When you close your eyes in this moment, what images come to you?

Each closing of the thin veil of our eyelids calls to something in our subconscious, gives it permission to come forward and be with us.

What is the first thing that you see? What is the first feeling that you feel?

There’s a keen self-permission required in wondering this way. In curiosity of the self. In being still for even a moment, to see what your subconscious wants to tell you. Maybe it wants to show you in symbols, feeling tones, colours, scenes, the parts of you that most need you now. Maybe it wants to give you hints of your soul, what its gifts and wounds are, both. Maybe it wants to give you glimpse, a hint, of the map of your life that only your soul can know about in any real detail.

Going within can be this quick, this simple, this easy. Of course, it doesn’t always feel this way. Parts of us that aren’t sure about it all, that are confused because 3D conditioning has told them that only what they can literally see and feel and hear without any need for interpretation or reading between the lines is worth taking in on any level. This can be existential too, as there could be lifetimes in your Metasoul of experiencing ridicule, persecution, excommunication, death, because of being willing to really see, really feel, really communicate even what might go against the norm.

So much has dulled our natural senses of a need to go inward, to be with ourselves, to get to know our hearts and our souls, to heal from the inside, out. So much has dulled our chance of experiencing something that takes us far beyond our typical daily experience. So much abuse, so much pain, so much necessary numbing-out and downplaying of our emotions, that really are an important aspect of our imagination, and our imagination is the most crucial aspect of our access to intuition, to soul gifts, to something well beyond the scope of 3D life.

Maybe today might be your first day of closing your eyes with the genuine intent of feeling what is beyond or could be beyond the veil of your 3D life… this precious and sacred veil that has been needed until now, or until any Now of your choosing. At any moment you can give yourself permission to close your eyes and BE, breathe, feel, see, experience, let in… let yourself and your parts in. Let in that you ARE here, NOW… that you ARE needed, wanted, loved… that you ARE who you ARE and that this ‘mess’ of how life has been has been necessary so you could get to this point of reading and taking in these words, of beginning or continuing your journey inward that somehow you trust will transform everything you experience outward.

Much love to you…

Kalayna ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

 

Healing Relationship Cycles And Stories

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by Kalayna Colibri

wooden-hearts

Our relationships can feel like an endless circle, and run in infinite circles too… cycles of pain, of this and that being faced, brought up, fought over, over and over again, while inside of you, you feel as if you ARE the relationship and have a hard time sensing where it ends and you begin.

The same stories are told in countless ways. Stories about the friendship, the romance, the family holiday when you were 5. Some of these stories are told outright, while some are told unconsciously through the ways you’re used to being and interacting with each other. So much of this is accepted by part of you, as being just ‘the way it is’ and perhaps the way it has always been. The relationships you see around you don’t challenge this mind and heart-set of yours either, as they are stuck in the same or very similar loops and cycles. There are certain questions that are never asked about the health of it all and the degree to which it’s self-loving or not, to remain in these stories. Sometimes the Pleasantville experience of it all isn’t so pleasant, yet you remain and aren’t encouraged to ask why… and often the answer to the ‘why’ is that there are fears and more unanswered questions about how life would look without these relationships in place, or at least in the same place they’ve always been up ’til now.

To remain fully involved in all relationships around you without a chance to go inward and discover YOU leads to a world of intense defenses and protection instead of healthy boundaries. It asks parts of you to blend-in, merge, become the relationships instead of feeling what they feel. It asks you to put a stopper in your own growth and the growth of others too. There is so much more to be discovered within you, if you can find a way to take the space you need… and to listen to that voice within, that wants to help clarify for you what you need and want most and what you are most worthy of experiencing in relationship with yourself and others.

To go into YOU… this is risky for these relationships. It does ask them to change as you change, and often it seems that others aren’t willing to come with you. They have a choice to go inside too, to join you on your path or find their own. There is nothing wrong here, there is only what is real… which is perhaps the hardest thing to trust. What is real is what heals and is also what grounds you into the new soil your roots of heart and soul are aching to grow in – the garden bed of a budding ‘self’ that wants to flourish in its self-ness and explore relationships with others from a new place of worth and love that flows deeply on the inside of a YOU that you are now coming to know and become.

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Tomorrow at 11:11 CST, there will be a live stream taking place on Facebook, with Raphael and Jelelle Awen. They will be talking about SoulFullHeart, the 3D self, and anything else they feel to share. Please stop by and feel free to ask questions, comment, or just give them some love! https://www.facebook.com/events/1273156469462294
 
In SoulFullHeart, we offer an ongoing process where you feel parts of you as well as your 3D/4D/5D selves.It is an in-depth healing process that forever deepens and expands. If you are curious to know more and/or may wish to sign-up for a free 30-min intro session, please visit: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.